#which is yea mostly dumb brain talking but let me at least get it in order hbvfhs

[keeps-ache]

and it is a sunday once again.. my collection grows

[misterbitches]

what i like abt muren and li chen

i’m sorta burned out and my vagina is bleeding so lemme see if i can type this. probably can lmao. my brain is going ten miles a minute.

1. the fact that they were friends first.

 someone on here said this and idk who but i don’t want to seem like it was my idea. 

the fact that they are friends and didn’t have like a connection previously and it developed. most times friends-to-lovers has a basis of some sort of romantic interest from another person so they were not truly ever friends, you know? and many relationships people aren’t friends first but that’s the best kind. and they are the truest form in that (i wouldnt say truest means good but just i think a representation of) they were truly friends, no attraction at least consciously, and were lead into it. 

2. bc they know each other well and are friends they know each other and LAUGH and if you can’t laugh with your love then there is no point. 0. lmao. i love it

idk they fell easily in2 the luvy duvy part and u can actually believe they are into each other like outside of kissing. gee. also hello! when lichen like threw the heart in the office and muren caught it? bitch! i woulda been like ew!!!!! and blushed but muren was like that’s right that’s my bitch

3. bouncing off 2 um uhhhhh the way they interact so i guess this is 2 but whatver i like lists now

muren is >:O but super sweet and receptive to others. so he responds to people and it isn’t just stoic for stoic sake or with not much substance. idk how to say this but oftentimes sometimes i feel like characters will be too oppositional to offset their partner and it can be extremely annoying to watch because it’s part of the dynamic but sometimes there’s a lack of reciprocation. i like that even if muren is quiet he smiles a lot and lets people know through his actions and shit. esp his mans. and when he needs to talk, he will. 

lichen is perfect for this because of reasons. what do you even say about this dude holy shit. first of all he really is a fucking himbo. he’s not even dumb he’s just a fucking himbo. it’s great to say the way they express their excitement and the best thing to hear, “i can be myself around you”

4. u cannnot tell me that this top/bottom discourse is actually not ridiculous esp for them bc there is no way that my eyes are seeing what i see yet there’s some struggle when they’re trying to constantly grapple with the masculine/feminine aspects (this is a good thing)

with the way that they hang off each other. esp bc lichen is shorter than him and stockier and he can attach himself like a barnacle. the way he expresses glee and love is very “feminine” at times IE reliance, support, putting your head on his etc but then there are times when he is the one to hold muren too. so it’s like they are clearly on the same  level in how they exchange love and stuff and exploring the dynamics but it clearly isnt as structured as the usual ones and it shouldnt be so they should just stop talking about this shit cos ur both getting fucked god shut up

lichen squeals like a girl and is obsessed with him. he is clingy and also says “what do you want to do to me.” if this show is gonna sit us through the agony of this stupid discourse and they tell me they arent gonna sw*tch or whatever (not that they cant have other forms of sex bc that is not that difficultand as adults w eknow this but anywaaay) then they simply are wrong

5. the ~gay 4 u~ thing is dumb and i cannot believe it tbqh cos it’s like sir....but i am glad that lichen like expresses attraction to his physique and personhood as a man and acknowledging that that is something and a part of the attraction.

 it was probably a happy accident but it’s still a good one. there’s sometimes an idea of like sexual attraction being sorta nebulous when someone is like getting into a rship with the same gender but not being sure about their sexuality or whatever or still liking another gender explicitly where they cant admit they find things attractive or enticing even when they are in a same sex relationship and it is so fucking confusing and doesn’t make sense. i wish instead of trying to make it cut and dry they just went honestly mabye they dont know but theyre both men and thats a factor. ok lets move on now. :) 

6. they make u feel nice

especially in comparison to the show being messy and also there’s some crazy stalker man running around you know they temper that 

they’re just really fun to watch. it’s an interesting dynamic and particularly with xing si in their lives it’s nice and i’m so glad there’s no one else to ruin it like say a brother who is a waste of space. but it’s mostly good feelings for them and you can see why they like each other, that they can stay together, and how helpful a relationship can be as you grow as an individual

7. while i am sure there will be further misunderstandings...comm...unic...ation?

literally boys are dumb as hell but idk if my reading is correct on this one but SO FAR TO MOI im like wow u guys like actually talk. woah. and i think that’s nice. yest i had a breakdown in front of my fam bc i am sometimes emotionally stunted when faced with distress so it’s nice to see people talking that out in particularly with like jealousy and stuff

AND their interactions in public and the understanding. knowing it takes time and stuff for them to adjust and allowing them the time. they are extremely different to other people and they want to be distinct and they can be and arre to each other they dont need to follow anyone else’s rules (except the costume department sometimes needs to get better pants for muren like that’s my rule tbh but that’s neither here nor there)

did some1 call them emotional support himbos? i think so cos word. 

oh one more thing idk the name of the actor playing li chen and im too tired to look it up but i like him a lot i think he does a good job of going seamlessly between like a jubilant person and an actual human being. he plays well at being oblivious but not outright stupid and emotionally stunted or not picking up certain signals. i think at times it seems like he doesn’t always have a sense of self  like trying to be something else for other people but then he realizes like he can’t do that so all he can do is be himself which leads him 2 his mans but yea. the actor does a decent job! it’s a fun character to wathc

[selfcareparker]

okay fghsgdj yes you can say girl ! my pronouns are she/her :) okay but fr pause, i read this like 3 minutes after you posted it (or at least my notif said 3mins lmao) bUT IM IN BED AND I USUALLY HAVE MY COMPUTER OPEN WITH YOUR RESPONSE SO I MAKE SURE I ADDRESS EVERYTHING AND THEN SEND IN THE ASK ON MY PHONE HDGSJSH anyway, time to get my ass up 😔 but wait i find you so funny like honestly, reading that cracked me all the way up. and i feel the “lol” thing so hard!!!! idk why i do it all the time (i’m tryna stop) but i’ll say something with lol at the beginning and lol at the end... it might be a defense mechanism at this point lol (😔) AND (i need to stop with the uppercase too it’s not funny anymore) I DONT KNOW WHY I LAUGHED SO HARD JDHSK WHEN YOU SAID ALSO AGAIN HAHAHAH LIKE UR HAHHAH also my sleep schedule is not pretty either lmao but i’m homeschooled so i never have to get up for anything? hhdhsis idk but i’m glad you slept!! you need sleep!!

also (pls no i cannot) why did i not know what ykwim meant until i reread this?? like it makes so much sense- anyway! i think it’s so cool that you’re excited for university! idk why but i do lol like you’re getting ready for the future (masters degree and all that) & you’re (maybe) going to england anyway so that’s cool haha (hopefully when you go you can see your relatives 🤞🏾)

the fact that you get happy seeing my asks i- 💓💓

you make me wanna go to London & England so bad urghhhh like i’ve only been out of the country once (to Canada for a family reunion) but it sounds so prettyyyyy & i’m so sorry that cov*d is messing everything up and i hope you can see your relatives soon :(

now to address the whole english speaking/writing: I FIND THAT SO WEIRD DUHSKSJ i don’t know how an english speaking person could say that if you don’t write it 100% grammatically correct.... that it’s wrong? when literally, over here at least, WE’RE SO GRAMMATICALLY INCORRECT HAHHAAH in both the way we talk and write!! and lol you’re welcome,, AND THE PARAGRAPH DID MAKE SENSE HDHSJSH & your rant is fine because... that is actually a bit ??? bc no one writes with 100% grammar lol

OH MY GOSH (see this uppercase thing is addictive) YOU STUDIED LATIN FOR 6 YEARS??? that’s really cool 🥺 the way that you know/speak 3+ languages i- NOT EVEN 3+ LIKE 6+ (german, english, latin, french, serbian, italian, and everything that comes with latin lmao) even if it’s just a tiny bit like wowee. it is really fascinating!!! i had the opportunity to take latin and i... didnt. i took art instead BUT ONLY CUZ MY FRIENDS WERE IN THAT CLASS AND ART LOOKED FUN IM SORRY

PLEASE WHY DO YOU KNOW EVERYONE?? that sounds so fricking cool tell your mom (mum or mama it’s really fine lol) that she sounds awesome. i think Jamaica would be fun either way!! i mean it looks pretty from pictures? i was a baby so i honestly have no recollection hahaha

LMAOO NOT U SAYING THIS IS LONGER THAN SOME OF MY FICS- PLEASE GIRL IM TELLING YOU I VERBALLY LAUGHED HAHAHAHAHAH but yea you really don’t need to apologize i like reading everything you say 🥺 HDKSHS AND UR FINE WE WERE JUST TALKING ABOUT ME BEFORE uhhh hmm uhh lemme think i, well, i saw chaos walking yesterday (big tom holland fan over here) and it was alright.. my mom acted a fool at all the jump scares LMAO but it was funny... since i’m talking about movies (this is hella random i know) but i like shark movies HDKJSSJ my favorite is the meg (it’s so good ohmigosh) and the 47 meters down movies aren’t bad either... i have two younger brothers... iiiii AM IN LOVE WITH MUSIC PHEW anddd i’m homeschooled (i think i mentioned that lol) i think that’s a good amount ahahaha AND IM HUNGRY RN JDHSJ

now. please. let me address the edit. i just want you to know that.. when i talk about your fics and i finish them and everything i’m not looking for more? like obviously if you’re writing i’m gonna read it but you don’t need to feel pressured or anything (idk if you do) to put more fics out lol like they’re great and i’m just sending the praise bc i love the ones that are there :’) but i’m so happy you’re working through your writers block!!! yay so so happy for you!!! and PUHLEASE anything you write is fantastic, i feel the exact same way when i write but girl. you’re fine. it’s gonna be great. (idk if this made any sense but... okay)

(and my cousin calls her mom mama so it’s really okay hahah i even call my mom mama sometimes) (and where you got the number “16 sentences” beats me but i still cracked up) (is this me pretending i had tags? maybe) HAHAHAHA OK BYE ❤️❤️ why did this take me so long to send i have no clue, AND WHY AM I OVERTHINKING EVERYTHING I SAID SHAJSHSJ ANYWAY BYE btw i love us too... like iconic // lovely anon 💓

me reading this:

also the dedication you put into sending me stuff— like with the laptop and phone and ahsksk 🥺🥺🥺

i’ll update you when i’ve started uni btw, i’m getting more and more excited every single day haha but i still have 3 weeks until it starts and even then I’ll obviously have to get used to it and everything, but you’re making me even more excited about it sksjshsg

yeah i wanna go to england too dkshsh let’s be sad together over the fact the we can’t travel eksjsh😔😭 but hopefully the wait will make it even better in the end <33 also i talk to loads of relatives over the phone at least once a week so it’s not too bad for me! but i miss their house 😭lmao

and i knowww snshsh so many native english speakers just make so many mistakes— and obviously i get that some things are slang but some things are simply wrong ajsh, the thing is no one has ever told me that my english is bad (i know it’s not bad anyway, but i’m still insecure) or no one has ever pointed out any mistakes, but yeah it’s mostly just insecurity dkshsg but yes thanks for saying what you said (previously as well as in this ask)😌🥰

Okay now for latin— girlll i don’t blame u for choosing art over latin esp. when all of your friends are doing art as well!! I’d choose art over latin as well lol skshsg but in year 6 we had to choose between latin and french, and at the time i didn’t like french? which was dumb of me and now i wanna learn french ekdhs but i don’t regret choosing latin at all bc if i properly learn french one day then i’ll already know understand loads of stuff (or at least some stuff lol) just thanks to latin 😌😌 but still, art>>>latin skskshshgs

I wanna watch chaos walking too!!! But i don’t get when/where/how it’s out lmao, cinemas are still closed here so i’ll either have to wait or find it somewhere online... il*egally 🥰 i don’t have high expectations at all btw but i like daisy and tom and the dog🥺 so i think i’ll enjoy it

GIRL SHARK FILMS SHARK FOLMS SKSJSHSHS okay so there are a few classics i haven’t watched yet, and also a few new ones that i haven’t seen yet BUT I LOVE SHARK FILMS SO MUCH SKSHSGSGSKK the first like proper shark film i ever watched was the shallows (which i like but my brain is still too small to comprehend what happened at the end (i mean i get it but i just can’t imagine it— idek if you’ve seen the film but skshhs)) and after watching it three times it does get a bit boring (but now whenever i see pictures or videos of big waves i’m just waiting for a shark to show up like come ON SKSJSG

^^^that pic/scene really traumatised me sksjsh but i still like the film

I only watched jaws like a few months ago, and i get that it’s a classic and also that it’s old and they just didn’t have the best.. equipment or special effects or whatever but i mean... look at meg and then look at jaws.... no disrespect to jaws at ALL but the meg is so much cooler. (That one scene on the boat where the shark just JUMPS OUT OF THE WATER AND SKSJSHHSUSJHA i get such a shock every time it’s so good (and the dog aww aksjshssli 🥺🥺🥰 and the boy with the ice cream lmao he’s iconic)

47 metres down, wow, i liked that film too. (i’ve only watched the original/first one i think) i mean that is such a fucking nightmare scenario like ALSJDHSNEMSKDJSHSJSKWBALSODUEWBSLDKHDJSNSKSKSHSGEBWKAISGSHEKEKSKLDJDJDHDHSHAGGA (that’s the best way i can express my feelings about that scenario lmao)

oh and i’ve recently been watching more horror films but i don’t know if they’re for me... I like the thrill and whatever but i just end up being scared for my life when i have to go to the bathroom at night or when i’m trying to sleep bc suddenly my mind is flooded with all the scary shit from the films 💀💀💀

and music i mean... you know those people who just don’t listen to music? WHAT IS WRONG WITH THEM???? i honestly like all genres especially in the last year, i am IN LOVE with Nicki Minaj + Megan andddd Stormzy and i like Harry Styles but i prefer his first solo album (and obviously one direction has bangers i have a throwback 1D session at least once a month), I also love MGK especially his new stuff and otherwise i mostly listen to german artists lmao. So who do you like?💖 (WHY DO I FEEL LIKE YOURE GONNA SAY SOMETHING COMPLETELY DIFFERENT SKAHAGUS IF YOU LISTEN TO COMPLETELY DIFFERENT MUSIC DONT JUDGE ME AJSHDJS) (i know you’re not gonna judge me but)

++ @ the thing you said about writing, don’t worry, i don’t feel pressured at all!!! (not by you and not by anybody else.. except myself sometimes lol) and i’m just very happy that you liked my fics 🥰🥰🥰 and if i start telling people that i’m writing a fic then sometimes it puts a bit of (healthy) pressure on me. like yes sometimes it really is writer’s block, but sometimes i really am just lazy ddkshhd so now that i’ve told you i’m writing a fic i might get my ass up quicker than i would if i hadn’t told anyone 😌😌😌

[nicknellie]

Hi I’m the anon, ironically my Tumblr crashed as well mostly because I’ve been switching between screens so some of this I will have to re-write as well (sorry if some of this isn’t as articulate)

I completely forgot to mention the acoustic guitar in my last comment but I will do that briefly.

I need to hear long weekend immediately honestly that and crooked tooth are probably some of the top songs I have for my season two wishlist.

Also yes, I feel like the boys are just completely prepared to do unsaid Emily whenever Luke is feeling upset so when he pulled out the acoustic guitar, Alex was ready to start playing that song however he was totally unprepared for what Luke was going to do. All the boys burst out into tears however Bobby and Reggie started crying first because Alex was starstruck just because I think a tiny bit he was expecting them to kick him out because I don’t think that he was expecting his parents to react that badly so he just didn’t know what was going to happen. (Offended boys and a promise that will never happen, maybe around the time that the crossword and hat were made)

Their songs definitely were very personal and talked about very personal experiences to them so I think another reason why the boys were so hurt was because by not only taking the songs and not giving credit that they had written them it felt like another way that he was erasing them from his life.

Yes, they definitely bounce ideas off of each other just before a band practice (also randomly at 4 AM because Luke had inspiration and wanted to write with someone). Honestly when Julie said that I thought that she just meant that he was running out of songs to use however I like your theory much more. Definitely agree, and he just wasn’t able to write that way, either for the fact that immediately he would burst into tears or he would just fail. (I was also thinking that could be the beginning of the realization that what he did was wrong)

Wow, I completely did not think about that but yes Mitch definitely set up some sort of charity in honour of Luke (honestly I was thinking something like charities for homeless teens due to the fact that the boys had ran away and or some thing like the Trevor Project in support of Alex). Trevor/Bobby would definitely either donate to them a lot or randomly promote the charity.

I saw a comment a bit ago that was talking about how there should be Alex‘s version of Unsaid Emily and now that’s all I want in my life (also it be really cool to see Reggie‘s version because another reason for me to burst into tears).

I kind of mentioned that earlier as well!! But I definitely think that Alex thought that his parents wouldn’t react as badly as they did (maybe not how Ray would but not as badly as they did). I completely agree and it would be so amazing to just see that process because like unsaid Emily not only did it make Emily feel better but it helped Luke put down all of the things he never got to say. This is so sad but yes I agree to all of that, also for some reason I keep thinking that Alex could play acoustic guitar or at least some version of the strings because all of his friends do (he picked up on that maybe after so long of helping write those parts ect) and I can just see this song being another acoustic one.

Honestly I think you took the words out of my mouth, it would’ve been so hard for a teenager to deal with that also as he got older he had Carrie and he probably didn’t want her to have to be exposed to that as well as his sprouse. I do agree, also I just feel like it’s one of those things that for them it will be hard to show any kind of sympathy just because it feels like such a short time to them so it’s hard to think about that. Also it would just be easier to hold onto those feelings of hurt then ‘oh yea 25 years has passed in like a day for us’

Brain cell- You articulated that so well and I agree, while Alex was more so the mom friend and wouldn’t let the rest of them do something that dumb, Bobby was always the one who would be able to think rationally and give good advice (also Bobby would go to Alex for advice)

Honestly he is so spiritual, I could just tell basically the same way as you, I feel like just like with Alex and not being able to completely processed that he is a ghost, Bobby wouldn’t be able to process the fact that they are ghosts.

Yes, Reggie has so many scrapbooks (also just randomly a notebook filled with not only commentary about Star Wars but anything he can find related to Star Wars) (another notebook is made after death and two pages are rage about them killing his favorite character and a page about what is a Jar-Jar)

Yes, you would get photos developed (don’t really know much about it sadly) and honestly I could see both Alex and Reggie being really into photography but Reggie likes the developing and everything else while Alex only likes taking pictures. (Also could explain why Reggie likes Ray so much because I believe Ray is in some sort of photography kind of business but in general Reggie just loves what he does for work)

Okay, so I just thought of Reggie having photo shoots with the boys and just randomly in the day a photo shoot would happen (also he takes pictures of everything that he likes and have too many of his crosswords and stuff)

Reggie did keep everything, however it was Alex who kept the playbills and posters from gigs and would give them to him (they are saved in a photo book somewhere), also you’re completely correct he had a scrapbook for every single event honestly if they ever go through the loft, half of it’s just going to be taken over by scrapbooks (although Luke teasing him about that, he would be the first one to give Reggie more scrapbooks)

I don’t think that they’re materialistic (just on the topic of clothes and stuff) however I feel like these few pieces remind them of each other and in some ways or how they show their support. I do think that the fanny pack was a gift from them (for some reason I keep thinking about them having a secret Santa and Reggie (or boy of choice) giving it to him because although he doesn’t need it anymore his old one needed to be replaced and as we know Alex hates change) Yes!! That’s definitely Luke’s item (also Luke at some point took the original pink hat because Alex was using the one with a flag more often then not)

So I was thinking about Bobby and during their performance of now or never you can see that he has some sort of wrap bracelet on his arm (not entirely sure of what it is but I think that it’s a bracelet) and I think that possibly the boys made it/bought it for him

Trevor wears a necklace and I’m just now picturing this being in memory of Luke, Alex, and Reggie. (Because he wears like three just for reference, it’s the one that has a stone and is the shortest one if that makes sense)

That was definitely their roles, and I remember reading a story where Bobby was the one who booked the Orpheum and I can’t just not picture it now. Also after Bobby and Alex figured it out everything they settle down for a big group cuddle and watched Luke’s favorite movie (hear me out, it’s Grease because Luke is in love with Summer nights) and because Luke couldn’t say no to Reggie‘s puppy dog eyes they watched Star Wars.

Also Bobby tended to handle those meetings because Luke is not a negotiator and can be very indecisive (he is the type who would change the set list about an hour before they had to perform), Alex would be too nervous also would bluntly call them out for something if needed which sometimes wasn’t helpful and Reggie would talk about how much he wanted pizza randomly (also Reggie does the numbers because if you bribe him with pizza then he’s the greatest for that job).

I am so glad you made that meme because that is exactly what I was thinking of and I wasn’t sure if I had articulated it well!!

And yes for sure!! I’m totally fine with that, honestly some of these were just theories that I had before and this conversation has developed them so much so I don’t blame you at all.

Ahh hello!! It sucks that Tumblr decided to crash on us both but I’m glad I got to find out who I’ve been brainstorming with! I literally love all of this we’ve done, seriously, it’s amazing.

I’m going to add the rest under a keep reading thing otherwise this will get unbearably long 😂

Ok so as I’m writing this it’s like quarter past eleven at night and this could take a while, so I should go to sleep but I’m literally desperate to answer this so sleep can wait.

And YES like Alex sees Luke whip out his acoustic and gets his drumsticks ready, but Reggie just yanks them out of his hands. Luke says, “This one’s for you, Alex,” and proceeds to sing the sweetest song ever with just as much love, passion, and devotion that he pours into Unsaid Emily. They’re all sobbing by the end, and I totally agree, Alex is crying less than the others because he’s mainly just shocked that they care so much about him. He knew the band loved him but he always had his doubts about the extent of that love (they all shared these same doubts sometimes but for different things). Seeing Luke put his heart and soul into the song and Reggie and Bobby crying over it made Alex sad, yeah, but also just shocked by the entire situation. When he tells the guys he wasn’t sure what they would do when he told them you’re so right, they’re completely offended, but the comment just makes Reggie cry even more because how could Alex not know how much they love him?? Group hugs ensued, plus reassurances, and YES that was definitely when the other Mission: Support Alex ideas came about.

Exactly! To Bobby it probably seemed like he was telling their stories and making them known, but he never counted the fact that they weren’t ever mentioned by name within the song and he didn’t mention them, so he wasn’t doing much for them. I think you’re right, that would’ve hurt them even more - to put all that work and effort even into simply getting the words onto the page just to have it almost entirely erased? Yeah that would’ve sucked.

That 4 a.m. thing - it’ll usually be Bobby who Luke goes to. Luke will have thought up a song or a rhythm or whatever and Bobby is a bit of an insomniac. He hardly sleeps and spends most of the night making more jewellery for his friends (or another thought I just had: writing poetry?? I feel like Bobby would be so good at poetry, but again he’d lose it as he got older because he lost his source of inspiration: the boys). Alex is always telling them both that they need to get more sleep because they look half dead but neither of them take any notice because midnight song writing sessions are fun. SO when he’s older and his songs aren’t as good he also tries staying up all night to think of songs like he would’ve done with Luke, but YES like you said he just couldn’t do it. He would cry or just not be able to make himself finish because even after twenty-five years it’s too painful. It could easily be when he realised what he’d done wrong, that he shouldn’t have been trying to make music without his band in the way he had been, by using their stuff instead of his more original things or without crediting them.

I totally can get on board with Trevor making his own charity too! Like he creates a safe space with trained professionals to help any teens going through a rough time; there’s specialists from everything and Trevor makes sure there’s always someone to help with children with difficult home lives (for all three of them) and LGBTQ+ kids (for Alex). He donates to any charities that would have helped his brothers in their time of need, and promotes Mitch’s charity all the goddamn time.

I’m about to go off on a major tangent but if I word it well then it could be something good so we’ll see how this goes. We know nothing about Bobby’s parents, but I’m going to assume that out of all the parents Mitch and Emily were the most approachable even though they didn’t support the band. The boys were all quite close because they were simply lovable people. So Bobby stayed close with them after they died. We know it’s canon that he also stayed close with Rose (because Julie and Carrie were friends). What if one time he was talking to Rose about Luke’s parents and she mentioned that she wanted to meet them. Bobby checked with Mitch and Emily that it was okay and a few days later he brought Rose to see them. Rose gushed about how Luke and the band were some of the most talented musicians she had ever seen, how they would have been great, how Mitch and Emily were able to be proud of their son. It provided a lot of comfort and closure for Mitch and Emily that day and they never forgot Rose’s kind words. They asked what her name was because they wanted to look out for her in the future - she said Rose Molina because I 100% headcanon that Ray took her surname when they got married or the whole family took it after she passed away. Anyway, fast forward twenty-five years and a girl shows up on the Pattersons’ doorstep. Mitch answers the door and can’t help but thinking she looks incredibly familiar. She introduces herself as Julie, and when Mitch asks to double check her name she says she’s Julie Molina and Mitch can’t figure out where he’s heard that surname before. He and Emily only figure it out once she’s left and lots of tears follow when they realise that Rose Molina and Julie Molina, related in a way they don’t know, have been their godsends, the ones to bring them as close to their son as they’ll ever get again.

I need Alex and Reggie’s versions too! There is so much to be explored with their backstories and songs would just be absolutely beautiful. You mention Alex playing acoustic guitar or some string instrument and I love that so much!! I think he only knows a few chords that Luke painstakingly taught him but it’s enough to strum out a song. Also, in the background of Unsaid Emily I’m like 95% sure there’s violins, so although Alex was very clearly playing drums in that scene I’ve now decided to believe he can also play violin, he just doesn’t like it as much. Maybe his parents encouraged him into it but it was never really his thing.

Yeah, it’s so important to remember Bobby/Trevor’s family as well. He wouldn’t have wanted Carrie to grow up with a father who was surrounded by all manner of rumours and he wouldn’t have wanted accusations pointed as his partner either. And you’re totally right, it would be hard for the boys to get into the mindset of considering how long it’s been for each of them - it bugs me how they hardly even really react to being ghosts (except Alex) so I think if they’re hardly bothered by that then they wouldn’t be able to comprehend how time has passed. I don’t think that made any sense but it’s quarter to midnight so that doesn’t matter lmao

Yes, Bobby would go to Alex for advice because he was the next most sensible. That kind of just turned into them talking the problem over though - speaking about it with Alex helped Bobby reach his own conclusion so it was sort of like offering advice to himself through Alex.

Reggie having entire scrapbooks and notebooks dedicated to Star Wars is sending me. He writes down anything he can think of, anything he finds out, all of his thought processes while watching them. He doodles the characters in the margins along with his favourite quotes. After the rage about the killing of Han Solo there’s a whole shrine-like page dedicated to him, saying how much he loved him. Reggie low-key had a crush on the character, potentially his bi-awakening. The page about finding out what a Jar-Jar is ends with a very angry statement about not liking Jar-Jar.

You’re so right, I think Reggie and Alex could bond over photography so much. Alex takes the photos, Reggie gets them developed, they both look at them for the first time together and everyone’s happy. I reckon Reggie got a Polaroid camera (idk if those were in the nineties lmaooo) and he loved watching the picture show up before his very eyes.

I could totally see Reggie wanting to be a photographer if the band didn’t work out. He would have really enjoyed getting to go to new places and take more photos to keep as memories in yet another scrapbook. I love that he could connect to Ray through that, and it shows how he knows Ray’s photos have “good composition”. He loved doing photoshoots and was Sunset Curve’s unofficial photographer. He took the photos for their CD covers (except any of him which were done by Alex) and he would just snap pictures of them whenever they were together. Some of his best were casual candid photos of the ever-photogenic Luke.

Alex kept all the stuff purely because Reggie would be so excitable on the night of a performance that he’d forget to take any of it with him himself. Alex would hand it to him the next day and Reggie would practically jump up and down with happiness.

I’d love to see Julie going through his old scrapbooks! There’d be Reggie looking over her shoulder, pointing everything out and telling her what was going on. There’d be funny stories to go with every photo. They find a few photos that never got stuck in - they’re of Alex, Luke, and Bobby which meant Reggie was the one to take them. They quickly realise they were taken on the night of their Orpheum performance, which means Bobby went and got them developed himself to keep the boys with him but maybe it was too painful to keep the photos so he left them in the loft. And Julie notices Rose in the background and realises that her mum did know the boys and I’m gonna have to stop this before I make myself cry.

I think you’re right, they’re not materialistic, it’s just certain clothing has a sentimentality to it. I love the idea of them doing a Secret Santa even though there was only four of them. Bobby knitted the gift each year, no matter who he was making it for which made it obvious who the gift came from; Reggie was really good at gifts because he’s observant so knows what his friends want or need; Luke and Alex are both pretty terrible and would go to the two boys they weren’t getting Secret Santa gifts for to ask for advice. Luke taking that hat was the beginning of them all basically having a collective wardrobe. Nobody knew whose clothes were whose really.

I think the boys so could have made that bracelet for Bobby! If I’m thinking of the right one it’s not as complex so it’s like they could have tried their best but not been quite as good at making jewellery as Bobby himself. I can also definitely see him wearing the necklace in honour of them - after he lost the motivation to make his own he bought one that was a similar style to what he’d have done and decided it would have to do.

Yes omg definitely! Successful gig bookings were followed by movie nights. Luke is obsessed with Grease - actually any musical. The way he is lost for words after watching the Other Side of Hollywood screams that he is obsessed with shows/show-tunes and something upbeat like Grease would be right up his street. He loves Summer Nights, Reggie loves Hopelessly Devoted to You, Alex likes Grease Lightning, and Bobby likes You’re the One That I Want. None of the band can say no to Reggie so each time they end up having a Star Wars marathon. None of them except Reggie are really that invested but they’ll do it to see him smile.

I’m totally here for Manager Bobby and Accountant Reggie to accompany Writer Luke and (hear me out) Originally Choreographer Alex. I think it would be so cool if originally they were meant to have big dance numbers that Alex was going to plan but they quickly realised that was really hard with their instruments.

Ok I think that’s everything. I have been writing this for an hour and it’s quarter past midnight but you know what? No regrets.

[muthaz-rapapa]

A few thoughts about KiraPuri Ep. 8...

Another long post. I’m sorry. -.-;

It was good episode. Very good episode.

But I hope I wasn’t the only one who was a little disappointed that last week’s preview tricked us into thinking this would be about Ichika bossing the others around and through that, mess up the camaraderie they’re supposed to be forming. Which would then be followed by everyone deliberating what to do to solve this problem and what Ichika has to do to correct her wrongs. Or something along those lines.

Again, how things played out was in fact, a lot better than putting Ichika in the main spotlight like how it was for the past seven weeks. Now everyone has a part in putting this team together, finding ways to work with each other and so on. Honestly, I couldn’t have asked for a better end to the ‘introductory arc’, where we often see the lead Cure taking charge more than the others. 

Because I’m aware that it’s kinda necessary to have the them establish themselves into their leader roles that way (by being energetic and encompassing) so I’m willing to let that slide as far as the first 10 episodes go.

However, I still think it would’ve been interesting to see a flaw (any flaw) of a Pink Cure be portrayed in a negative light.

Mostly because I feel that a lot of times any aspect of the protagonist, even the very less than ideal ones, would rarely be displayed so badly that it would alienate the other characters or viewers from her.

For example, even if she was incredibly selfish and jumped into something without consulting her team members first, the plot would conveniently bend over to accommodate what she wants and then find some cheesy way to justify how ‘right’ she is or beautify her to such an extent that it leaves no room for argument against her. Then nobody would have a chance to call her out on her faults so that she can learn to fix it herself. Whether by virtue of her ‘purity’ or whatever glorified trait she possesses, it’s almost always guaranteed to turn out her way.

That’s one of the major reasons why I had so much difficulty tolerating Cure Flora in Go!Pri. As well as many other hero/heroines in other series and genres but those in Precure, especially, because this franchise seldom operates outside its usual formulas.

Maybe I’m not talking much sense but… it’s just this bothersome feeling I can’t help having on how the writers do their characterizations. Like, don’t just gloss stuff over all the time. Give me their ugly sides, give me unsettling confrontations between friends, give me something that won’t allow me to let her live it down but can also allow me to totally accept it as part of the composition of her character. Because that’s what going to flesh her out. She’ll be more of a person and less of an stereotypical image on paper. Flaws make a person a person.

Yea, yea, I do realize I might be thinking too deep into a children’s show but hey, since I invested myself in watching it, then it’d be dumb not to wonder about these things.

*sigh* Well, anyways, it’s a good thought exercise to have, nonetheless. And it’s still very early in the game for Kira Puri so maybe we will see some clashing development like that later on. Only the next 40 something episodes will tell.

Moving along!

I’m glad Yukari brought up the question on whether it’s true that “everyone” wants to open up this patisserie shop.

It implies that the lot of them might just be pulled in by Ichika’s enthusiasm and the fact that they are all Precure rather than being genuinely interested in participating because they want to.

Akira, in particular, is indirectly called a bit of a pushover which isn’t hard to see why since she often pampers her sick sister so that habit might have extended to their group where the majority of them are still in middle school. In other words, Akira has no will or opinion of her own. She just goes along with the flow to appease everyone and she’s being called out for it.

Yukari isn’t trying to be mean but it’s a question that really needs to be asked because lemme tell ya, starting and managing a business is no fucking stroll in the park. It takes a lot of time and effort and in this case, manpower, to get it off the ground and running.

If nobody but Ichika is 100% sure of really devoting themselves and a good portion of their schedules to this project out of their own volition or desire, then the patisserie is not going to succeed.

Thankfully, they all realize they do in the end but again, I have to say this because Toei is giving too many unrealistic expectations on what it’s like to run a shop. As a working person, I can’t just sit by and not say anything about it.

Another thing that got me concerned was how time management or store hours never entered their conversation and likely never will after this point even though it’s a super important discussion that you must have with your employees.

Because Precure universes have a weird sense of time in general but Kira Puri takes the cake in that I see these girls lounging around town and baking at the patisserie more than doing anything else that they should be doing. Like going to school, doing extracurricular actives, etc. I get that this season doesn’t prioritize those things but then…HOW do they make it work? It’s not like they have a fully-fledged, nontransparent and non-creepy adult to oversee the place when they’re not there.

Also, considering that 3 out of the 5 of them already had other commitments to attend to before the patisserie idea came up, it’s a surprise that nobody mentioned them until the very end of the ep. And even more of surprise when Ichika seems so shocked by it so you kind of wonder how self-absorbed she really is to forget stuff like that about her friends so quickly.

I’m sorry for dragging out these gripes of mine but honestly, things can’t possibly go so smoothly like what I’m seeing here. Not to mention, I hate the fact that they brought this up for comic effect when in hindsight, it’s really not something you should be laughing about.

So I hope at some point later in the season, there will be scheduling and commitment conflicts. Everybody might be on board now since they just finished setting the place up and all but when business is booming (I’m guessing it will anyway) and Ichika needs all the help she can get, how will they deal with it when the others can’t spare the time for the shop?

Anyways, while I do make too much of a big deal out of kid’s show, I also know that that’s not the objective of this episode.

The point of this episode was to see if the girls could learn to cooperate with each other. Cuz that absolutely had to happen first otherwise KiraPati would never have been set up.

And since it was set up, obviously they did find ways to work together.

Which introduces new pair dynamics as well.

We already got a good feel of Ichika + Himari + Aoi and Yukari + Akira based on grouping them by age. Plus Ichika + each Cure in their respective scenarios.

But it’d be boring if it was always limited to those so it’s high time that interactions not involving Ichika was finally delved into.

For Himari + Akira, you can see the relationship as that of an older sibling and younger sibling (cuz duh, this is Akira we’re talking about).

Tol and smol. Cute. <3

But you can also see them as marketing partners, too.

Akira, who’s already been assigned as KiraPati’s main garçon, attracts customers and investors with that welcoming, charming demeanor of hers, making it easier to lower their guard so she can pitch their ideas to them.

Meanwhile the more knowledgeable Himari backs up their proposals with the extensive details, showing how serious they are about their business and assuring people that they will be putting the resources they receive to good use.

It’s very encouraging to watch as they naturally come to bounce off each other in that respect.

Then we have the creative pair. The cool feline pair.

Stylish Mama Cat and Rockstar Lion Cub pair.

Their job is interior design cuz you want your customers to enjoy themselves in a nice setting under a pleasant atmosphere after all, right?

Yukari certainly got the aesthetics for the store down and Aoi, being an artist in her own right, most likely agrees with the concept she came up with. So it’s just a matter of organizing everything up to scale.

And of course, they do.

Yukari makes efficient use of Aoi’s muscle to help her set up the decorations and furniture. Not a space wasted but not too cramped (yes, I wouldn’t put it pass Yukari to be an expert on feng shui, lol).

And Aoi, well, it’s just scary how she manages to throw everything into the right spots with such precision (moral of the story: don’t mess with Aoi cuz she will kick your ass).

To think they were in such a messy state the day before but they can all come together like this and make that much progress in such a short amount of time.

It’s great. Their strengths complement each other well and they’re being productive about it.

It’s just great. ^^

Last but not least, the moment of crowning.

While it’s still debatable if the current Ichika is qualified enough to be a steady manager who puts a 14-year old in charge of a store? AND the cook (oh boy…), there’s no doubt that she definitely did earn her title as the leader of the group.

Ichika was the one who brought them together. She was the one who made the decision to use this space provided to them for a cause. She was the one who wanted to bring something good to others and get them to smile from the sweets they’ll serve.

She may not have Himari’s brains or Aoi’s strong arm or Yukari’s calmness or Akira’s maturity. And it’s true that she’s reckless and clumsy all over the place.

But it’s indisputable that she’s got the heart needed to make all this possible.

And that, I think, is the most critical element in sustaining their patisserie. You gotta have the intention to make people happy. There’s no other way you can open a business without that.

So it’s only fitting that Yukari would be the one to christen Ichika with the important position of manager. Because throughout this whole fiasco of building a shop together, Yukari was the only one who didn’t lose herself to stress over the situation (duh, this is Yukari we’re talking about).

Why? Cuz she predicted this would happen.

She knew that with the variety of people here, it definitely is possible to open a magnificent patisserie. Them getting off to a rocky start is just a minor bump in the road because no one’s going to do everything perfectly on their first try like how she was with the macarons *gets shot*.

And she knew that Ichika had the potential to live up to the expectations of being manager because Ichika has the determination to see it through.

If she didn’t know those things, she wouldn’t have stuck around to help because then it would be a failure and Yukari doesn’t accept failure. She doesn’t function on something flimsy like a whimsical belief. She has to really know there is a winning result at the end to see this as worthwhile.

(True moral of the story: Kira Puri wouldn’t survive with Yukari. Yukari knows all. They’d be lost without her. This season would be nothing without her. Yep.)

So think about what it means for her to entrust this huge responsibility to Ichika. 

“I trust that you won’t bore me so do your best, little manager.”

Yukari, who’s the most capable of them all. Yukari, so capable that she can probably/easily be a better manager than Ichika but chose not to because that would be no fun for her. Yukari wants Ichika to rise up the challenge in overseeing this patisserie.

It doesn’t just imply how much faith Yukari has in Ichika. It also suggests that being manager will mold Ichika into an even better character. All the stuff she’ll have to face as the leader of her team, that is what going to serve as her character development.

And I so hope that is the case here. I really, really do. You’ve got 40 more episodes ahead of you to take this season’s Cures as far as you can, Toei. Don’t disappoint me.

And that’s that, I suppose. 

lol, what the hell is bunnycake looking so tired out for? She didn’t do anything while the rest of them were slaving away to construct her restaurant. :P

Now bring on the fillers~

I can’t do this kind of review every week, it’ll kill me. =A=;

[caepaecaesurae]

> Caefora: Separate

caepaecaesurae > A sudden, weird, wrenching sense of loss -- and a weird hollow sensation, that at least slightly evens out.  Where once there was Mostly Cae, now there is a back-to-normal Lurky instead. > ..and Caesurae's mind is quiet. > He blinks several imes, woken up from a sound sleep, looking up at the canopies of a strange bed. sugary-empress >Condy startles. What's going on? Where's that person she was? She's supposed to be more... >When she wakes up more fully, she figures it out. It's Tuesday, and all good things must end. "Good ewvening, sweetness~" >Fuck! "Gods dammit, yoar not efin in t)(ere and I'm still doing it!~" caepaecaesurae > He burst out laughing, flopping backwards, a hand dropping to cover his forehead. "You're wvelcome!"

sugary-empress >She sighs and shakes her head. "I can't believe you're t)(e worst, and also contagious~" caepaecaesurae "It's my one flawv." sugary-empress "As far as singular flaws go, being t)(e worst is a pretty bad one~" >Condy has the correct number of boobs and her hair is right again, but still. She'll miss Cae. Having a reasonable person in one's pan is helpful. "You need to be getting back... Some)(ow~ Water we gonna do aboat t)(at?~" >She doubts she's allowed to know how to get there. caepaecaesurae > He blew out a breath, hand unconsciously dropping to lay across hic chest, which was Flat.  ...  He sat there a moment, then looked puzzled, then headrattled and adjusted his bracers.  Then he suddenly had a nice modest set himself.  It was boob time.  Fuck the uniboob.  The fake gold boob was probably laying somewhere around. "...I imagine I'll go to a neutral spot, maybe those backup coordinates wve wvere givwen, and then ask a quadrant mate to pick me up." "Givwen your leavwe, of course." sugary-empress >Condy will have that gold boob framed and hung somewhere as a memory of their time together. >Hm. "Given my leave, dear?~ W)(at do you mean?~" >It's unclear from her tone if the question is sincere or not. caepaecaesurae > That kind of thinking is exactly why Cae still has a ratty old shower curtain Nadaya gave him. caepaecaesurae > He seemed relaxed still.  "WVell, I'm your guest here, it seems polite to ask." caepaecaesurae > He tried to remember what her favorite food was and the memory just wasn't...There.  Hm.  They'd definitely split apart again.  ...He produced a small tray of chocolate-coated berries from nothing, set it down between them, and snacked on one. sugary-empress >She waves a hand dismissively. "Na)(, bro~ I mean, I~ didn't kidnap you, but you were still basically kidnapped, you didn't detide to come over or anyfin~" >She grins a little sharply. "Plus, if people only left w)(en t)(ey )(ad perfis)(ion, I'd still be evil~" >She snags a strawberry. Mmm, food. Things taste different as a full trickster, no concepts of things being too sweet or differing tastes to get in the way. "Yoar free to go w)(enebber~ caepaecaesurae > He decides to actively gloss over any potentially-threatening parts of that and focus on the parts he likes.  "Sounds like a plan.  ....Hn, wve made a lot of parting gifts, I'll havwe to be creativwe wvhen gifting you things nowv." caepaecaesurae "..I think I'll head out either before breakfast or after -- Any preference?  I'm here anywvays." sugary-empress ")(ave breakfast )(ere, sugarplum~ I'll call in a sl-- servant, w)(at do you want?~" >They aren't slaves anymore, they really aren't, but hey, old habits. "Y'know I kinda figured t)(is was gonna end badly, like ebberyone else's did, and I'm glad it didn't!~" caepaecaesurae "Thanks for not kicking me out immediately,"  He glanced over with a wry grin, scratching his chin.  "..A sandwvich maybe?  BLT?"  He hazarded. "I guess it's just our luck that wve aren't that incompatible -- My sympathies on havwing to deal wvith an Ampora for a wveek." sugary-empress "We can manage t)(at, cupcake~ Oh, I would never!~" >Well... She can think of a couple situations where she would do that. "I would usually not~ Yea)(, it's good luck t)(at we're moderately bros, and also uncomfortably similar~ And of course, I'm sorry you needed to deal wit)( my w)(ole nonsense, I'm normally better at not feeling negative emotions!~" caepaecaesurae > He rolled his eyes and rubbed at his cheek.  "I don't think you're the one that wvas bringing us dowvn, there.  You knowv my stance on that sort of thing." sugary-empress "It was dolp)(initely a little of bot)(, t)(e Sal fin really t)(rew me off~" >A servant appears at Condy's summons, seemingly unfazed by the sight of the two of them in bed together. Condy orders french toast and hot chocolate, lets Cae order, then dismisses the servant. "You're an interesting guy to be, you know~" caepaecaesurae "WVell, at least you havwe some time to think about the Sal thing before dealing wvith it nowv.  ...Best of luck," he sounded honestly sympathetic.  He was also good at casually ignoring servants as if they weren't there.  It was polite, eye contact from highbloods was scary. "I imagine it must havwe been quite the change." sugary-empress "O)(, I'm not gonna deal wit)( it in any way, I'm )(oping it's done now~" >The eye contact thing was definitely true. Condy may be less... playful... now, but being singled out for personal attention from her or one of her friends is historically not good. "It was!~ You're very reasonable, and full of anxiety, and gods awful at s)(aring t)(at kinda fin~" caepaecaesurae "That is one wvay of dealing wvith it," he mused.  "...I'm glad I wvas reasonable at least.  The anxiety is ah --  I'm wvorking on it still." "... I havwe no excuse not to talk to Dee left."  Nosewrinkle. sugary-empress "No, you've got no excuse, and if you don't I'm going to need to bully you into it! T)(at's a sweet troll wit)( no reason to use it against you, so any paranoia is unfounded, and it'll make your conversoceans more pleasant!" >Condy is Frowning Sternly, which she never does, but it doesn't last. "Talking is important, you mysterious secretive nerd~" "No, you've got no excuse, and if you don't I'm going to need to bully you into it! T)(at's a sweet troll wit)( no reason to use it against you, so any paranoia is unfounded, and it'll make your conversoceans more pleasant!" >Condy is Frowning Sternly, which she never does, but it doesn't last. "Talking is important, you mysterious secretive nerd~" caepaecaesurae > His eyebrows lifted as she went on, and he leaned slightly away -- not in fear, but as if blown literally away by the force of her opinion. "--It's not paranoia, I just.. don't WVant to, I don't like talking about things." "I don't like being wveak, and if I don't Admit it .." sugary-empress "-Ebberyfin you do is at least a LITTL-E bit aboat paranoia~" >She shared that brain for a week, so she's definitely more qualified than him to say that, clearly. She sighs. "I know, dear, I really really know, but it's dumb!~ Your pan is working against you improving your life, and I know it's not some massive fin, but also, it kind of is!~" caepaecaesurae "WVell, I mean,"  He couldn't Entirely contest that, so he swapped to another subject.  Any subject that no one managed to get him to lose counted as a win after they'd forgotten about it, right? ...Finding another subject was taking a moment. caepaecaesurae "It's so stupid that they'd havwe to tiptoe," he floundered. sugary-empress "No, it's not, but even if it was, life is full of stuff bulls)(it t)(at you do becod you love someone, and or want to be considered a decent person~" caepaecaesurae "I don't wvant to need them to do that," sugary-empress "And asking t)(at someone not randomly mention t)(eir ass)(ole in conversation isn't asking t)(em to tiptoe~" caepaecaesurae Dramatic Eyeroll. "That depends on the person, unfortunately." sugary-empress >Condy dramatically eyerolls right back! "Yoar only unreasonable aboat your own fins, w)(ic)( makes sense, ebberyone is, but still, it's like, dude~" caepaecaesurae > He sighed deeply and flopped backwards, resting the back of his arm on his forehead again. "I'll--Look, /today/ I havwe other things to wvorry about, wvith getting back into my univwerse and dealing wvith wvhatevwer safety measures they wvant and all that." "But i'll get around to it," caepaecaesurae "And they'll be nagging me too," sugary-empress "W)(at will you )(ave tomorrow, )(m?~" >Well, they will nag, at least that's true. Siiigh. "It's a good fin I adore you, becod you're annoying~" >It isn't said with any malice, just affection. caepaecaesurae > He blushed despite himself, which set off a bit of the bioluminescense. "WVell, at least I havwe that then." sugary-empress >Oh no, that's cute... >The food arrives just in time, and Condy digs into some huge pieces of French toast dusted with powdered sugar. It prevents her from needing to say anything about that, but she does speak after a couple bites. "I'm gonna bug you if you don't do t)(e fin, you know~" caepaecaesurae > He accepted the food with an absent thankful nod for the servant -- positive aknowledgement, without any personal identification.  ..and pressed a hand to his cheek for a moment, shaking his head. "..I appreciate that, thank you.  I'll be doing it." sugary-empress "I know you will, eventually!~ I believe in you~" >No more gross friendship emotions, only food now. caepaecaesurae "Should I bother changing my vwent blog passwvord?  I imagine our social circles wvould be distressed if I didn't."  It was currently pumpernickel.  He'd been vaguely hungry when he made it. sugary-empress "Mm, feel free if you'd like, I wouldn't c)(ange mine except t)(at Nadaya )(as it now~ I know )(e was one of t)(e people w)(o read my vent and passed it around t)(at one time~" >Her password was redbloodvelvet, for similar reasons. "O)(, and tell basically ebberyone you know to c)(ange t)(eirs, I'm sure t)(ey know, but still~" caepaecaesurae He grimaced his sympathy, nodding, and starting in on his sandwich.  "I wvill.  It's almost tempting to make a second vwent blog for those that don't get along wvith my current friends, but that's probably a bit much." sugary-empress "T)(at is definitely a bit muc)(, it's also t)(e most you t)(ing I've ebber )(eard~" caepaecaesurae He sighed.  "They can't all be wvinners.  It's atrocious that I can't talk openly anywvhere though." sugary-empress "Always feel free to glub at me, babe, I know it's not t)(e same as doing it to an audience, but still~ I'm sorry, t)(oug)(, s)(it sucks~" caepaecaesurae > Sigh, nom.  "I wvill, thank you." "I'll pull through just fine, I knowv it's not like it's a hemoflip and I'm not fearing for my life outside of edge case scenarios like this wveek, it's just frustrating sometimes." sugary-empress ")(ow often are your edge case scenarios, my dear?~" >She isn't THAT concerned, really, she isn't, it's just that she likes him and he deserves only great things! caepaecaesurae > He shrugged, chuffing softly, and focusing on a bite of sandwich for a bit.  "...swveeply, biswveeply, in that range.  It might cool dowvn as wve all get used to one another."  Or heat up as tensions rose, or stay exactly as it was, who knew.  But probably that first one. caepaecaesurae "...And it's nevwer something that wvould... compromise my contingency plans to stick around, thusfar.  Mostly."  He shook his head.  "Price of doing business I think." sugary-empress "Good, good. People I like can't die, I don't like it. Besides, those are pretty solid stats, dear. You're incredibly c)(arming, clearly, but we knew t)(at." caepaecaesurae Another of those little grins.  "I don't like it wvhen people I like die either.  Take care of yourself best you can, alright?" caepaecaesurae > He let out a breath, and ran his hand through his hair.  "..I do my best.  I'll...see howv wvell I can do." sugary-empress ")(m... Well, I'm awful at making good decisions, but I'm )(istorically amazing at being alive, so I guess it's a tossup~" >She pats him on the shoulder. "You'll do just fine~" caepaecaesurae "Improvwisation counts for a fair bit, as wvell evwidenced by Nadaya," he mused.  The pat earned her a smaller smile. sugary-empress "I sink Nadaya is proof t)(at even an unrealized )(ope aspect is fucking amazing, actually, but I get your point~" >You finally finish your french toast, and busy yourself with wiping the powdered sugar up with your finger and licking it off. "T)(anks for being so cool aboat ebberyfin~" caepaecaesurae His mouth opened and he paused that way, before hesitantly nodding.  "...True, there is that." "..Thanks back at you.  Sorry for all the second-hand ah.  /Fuss/.  From my clade.  I'll see wvhat I can do to put them at ease tonight." sugary-empress "No need to apologize, I understand~ I even understand it from t)(eir points of view, I'm just a delicate w)(iney flower~ T)(ey'll be )(appy to )(ave you back!~" caepaecaesurae "WVell, I think wve're all a bit delicate wvhen it comes to being personally threatened.  And they wvill." He shook his head.  "..I'm glad this doesn't havwe to be some big production." Today at 7:44 PM sugary-empress "I'm glad as well, sugar~" >She beams at him. What a good dude. "Are you ready to go?~ Is it time?~" caepaecaesurae He grinned back at her and rubbed his head.  "Guess so.  Can someone showv me to the pad?  I think wve alwvays teleported..." sugary-empress "I will, sweetfins~" >She got out of bed and led the way to the nearest transportalizer, not far from her room. It should probably be farther, for security reasons, but it's so convenient... "Let me know if you need anyfin atoll!~" caepaecaesurae > Especially considering she could teleport.. "I wvill.  Thank you."  Best not to spoil the moment.  He followed. When they finally reached the pad, he started typing in numbers and gave her one last smile and a wink. sugary-empress >Wink and fingerguns! caepaecaesurae > Wry grin, fingergun, and port out. (( that's /so fucking corny/ XD )) sugary-empress >They're both fucking nerds. caepaecaesurae > Yeup.

[ohitsallpersonal]

I woke up shivering and sobbing? I quickly analyze my surroundings and realize.. “WHERE THE FUCK AM I??” Everything around the place was modernized and open. It was mostly clean, apart from a couple of misplaced stuff in what seemed to be a living room. But the thing that caught me off was the window. It had a view of the street, which had snow?? And I knew something was up.

I tried to get up but my body wouldn’t let me. The next thing I know, *you* entered the room and said “so you’re awake.” And you sounded so pleased?? Maybe amused that I was already awake and aware? I didn’t look at you yet but I think I did sneak a peak.

I stared at the huge ass luggage near where i was lying down on (the blanket was comfy af. So soft)

“How long have I been asleep?? What happened? How did I get here?” While I asked you, bits and pieces of hazy memories tried to claw their way back into my head but it didn’t make any sense.

Everything stopped when you talked though.. “Two days maybe? So you mean you don’t remember anything?” And dumbass me goes “yeah I don’t?”

“You messaged me saying *I need you RIGHT NOW*” you say this with a slight smirk on your face. That smirk that kills me and melts my heart half and half. But it was also a shy smirk of some sort that I haven’t seen.. maybe.

You picked me up from where I was lying down and we went somewhere near the kitchen which was directly in sight of the window..

And as I thought to myself “what happened to my guy?” “How the hell am I gonna explain this?” You said “you had a fight of some sorts and you two broke up.”

(I HONESTLY DONT KNOW HOW TO FEEL ABOUT THAT. I JUST. WHAT. WHATTTT.)

and then I stood up and went to my cats?? Which was in a hallway (maybe near the front door) and I mumbled to my cats “your dad is so stupid.” And I legit swear I felt a little tear roll down my face and my actual fucking heart *throbbing*.

AND THEN YOU WALK OVER POINTED AT ELLY saying “this one. The blue eyes make her so cute?” And dumb ass me just goes “that’s elly. The only girl” and you cooed at her as you picked her up?? And I just suddenly felt calm and thought okay maybe this is how it’s supposed to be. Maybe I did the right thing (whatever it was)

So you pick me up and place me on the kitchen counter. And I go, “so what about my dad? What happened w that?” And you tell me something about you and him fighting?? And I don’t really understand but the point is you brought me to your place?? *BUT U STRESS OUT THAT HE KNOWS WHERE I AM AT LEAST*

BUT YOUR PLACE IS LIKE COUNTRIES AWAY??? AND IT SUNK IN AND I SAID SOMETHING STUPID LIKE “I DONT EVEN KNOW WHERE TO BUY KITTY FOOD HERE??” And you go “it’s okay mar. Plenty of cat shops around.” And then I start to babble off about how my cats are used to a certain type of food and it’s gonna be hard to make them transition to different food??? And then you hugged me and we started kissing.. and it wasn’t the i-need-to-fuck kiss?? It was more of a calm-down-im-here kiss.

Somewhere in the background tho. I think about that luggage?? And I think my brain was telling me that you were gonna leave for something for a bit??

And then I was suddenly on the couch/bed again?? Saying “what did I get myself into? Going to a country with a weird alphabet thing.” And u just looked at me seriously so I go “I’m judging waaaay too fast, aren’t I?” And you say “yea just a little.” And your face went from serious to a lil bit of shy smirk again.

Then idk if something happened in between but we were suddenly hugging and dancing along to my what seems to be an old school record player? And you said something like “this was our song” then the record broke in slow motion or something and I woke up from my dream..

I don’t understand how my brain got you, your personality, and even how you’d pronounce words (the accent was so on point) so freaking realistically.. Like I don’t think I’ve ever seen you like that or heard you say things like that in real life. Maybe it’s my head piecing what it knows together. Maybe.

BUT *I DO KNOW THAT I HAVE BEEN ACTIVELY IGNORING YOU FROM MY HEAD SO I CAN MAYBE MOVE ON SINCE IT SEEMS LIKE YOU ALREADY DID*

Fuck, I miss you. And I don’t even know what to do about this anymore.