#which is unfortunate bc i think it would actually be cool to go lighter since my lashes and brows are lighter than my hair but.

[autumnrory]

sometimes i wanna do something different with my hair bc it's basically always been the same just different lengths but idk what would even work like i did bangs back in middle school and i hated trying to maintain them and keep them placed where i wanted them AND the horrible awkward look when they were first cut like i see people with the wispy bangs or whatever and it looks cute but i imagine that's even more work and idk short of like shaving any part of my head which i'm sure as shit not gonna do there really aren't many ways to change it up

[i-miss-breathing]

📷 the picture I took of the recent solar eclipse

🍫 nooooo you can’t do this to me 😭😭😭

✨ nicknames I’d like to have are mango and munch because they were runner ups for my name, but unfortunately I am not out to people so I’ve only told 2 people my name and 0 people my desired nicknames irl 😔

🎵 under a technicolor sky by Will Wood :)

✏️ yes and I will write more once I have the time energy and ambition at the same time. Unless prompts count as half points, in which case I’ve been writing a little bit of fan fiction here and there

😏 not anymore, I ran out of space on my phone and I’m trying to find a good used laptop for sale within my small budget

💛 yes, just earlobe piercings right now but I’m hoping to get a Medusa piercing, snake bites, a bridge, an industrial piercing, a daith piercing + a Tragus piercing because i hear they can help with migraines and they look cool, I’m sure there are more that I want but those are the big ones

🐰 ooooo this is such a tough question. Umm probably how they view other people? Not necessarily how they act towards them because assholes can and do disguise themselves and nice people can seem like assholes for many different reasons. Not just intention either though because you know, path to hell is paved with good intentions and all. I don’t really know how to put it into words. It’s really a huge mix of things coming together to say anything about a person. Just picking one feels like simplifying something super complex, but how they view others is a good start in my opinion

🍪 ooo. Uhhhh gonna go withhhhh ummmm. Hmm. Thumbprint cookies with Hershey kisses

🐶 don’t make me choose between my children

🎧 headphones are more comfy on the ears but earbuds feel less restricting and I only want restriction sometimes

🌼 “yeah, that”

🙃 uhhhhh there’s a lot of diseases that likely stemmed from europes “it’s not cannibalism if we don’t see them as people” phase

🦉 night owl but not bc I want to be bc insomnia is bigger and stronger than me and being nice to it doesn’t work

🧸 couch, bed feels too sleepy, floor is nice occasionally but reminds me of the times I didn’t have a bed which also makes it too sleepy, but couch has other uses making it just enough sleepy and not sleepy to nap

🏳️‍🌈 yes, I am genderfluid, aroace (specifically quoi for both) and I think I’m bi but I might just be a lesbian, I’m in the fence about weather I actually would like a man or not

🦋 uhhhhfff oxymoronic, (regular) moronic, uhhhh anxious

👖 idkkkk I like both kinds of comfort

🥤 I am boycotting Starbucks.

🧡 I literally have never seen a color I didn’t like

💎 this is such a tough choice 😭 I’m so attached to my worldly possessions. Ummm my teddy bear patches because I’ve had her since birth and if I lose her I will never recover from the grief

☕️ tough tough, I’m going to have to go with tea but know it was a hard decision

🦖 carolina parakeet or cephalaspis

🌙 idk, I’m so timeblind literally it could be anywhere from 2-5 years

🌴 lighter with lots of fluid. I can not make a fire by hand, but with the fire I could boil water & cook food. And assuming there are trees I can make some semblance of a blade

🐸 changes alll the time, punk goth grunge emo scene basic preppy cutesy whimsical cottagecore like I cannot just pick one you don’t understand

🔮um. So my dream job is no job, I want to see and experience and learn everything I can. And unfortunately no job fits that

💙single and scared of intimacy. I’m going to try to get therapy before a relationship, so by choice but the choice isn’t because I want to be single necessarily it’s because I want to work on myself before I’m not single. I mean I also wouldn’t really mind being single forever though, so I guess it’s a little bit of both? Well I mean I don’t want to be single but I also don’t want to not be single. I guess I’m neutral about being single but definitely don’t want to get into a relationship right now as I am. That’s a good way to put it

🌿I have this messy black knitted sweater with stars and these grey ripped straight cut jeans that look soooo good together and a black choker with a gold barbell looking thing as the clip on the front and it looks soooo good.

🎤 yes many, but none that I can think of right now

🤎 brown

💌 yes constantly, full on conversations and philosophical debates and arguments going on up there all the time

💄 occasionally, nothing too fancy yet I’m still getting into it, but I’ve come up with a lot of makeup ideas I want to try when I have the supplies and time and energy

🌸 I was wearing a very pretty purple sparkly dress with rhinestones and some gloves and a necklace and makeup and my cousin told me I looked like a 1920s flapper on an evening out

I’ll @ people later maybe probably

Anyways, that’s a lot of info about myself to put on the internet

~ 💖 ASK GAME 💖 ~

📷 What’s set as your phone’s lockscreen?

🍫 Cheese or chocolate?

✨ Do you have any nicknames?

🎵 Last song you listened to?

✏️ Have you ever written fanfiction?

😏 Are you on discord?

 💛 Do you have any piercings?

🐰 What do you think says the most about a person?

🍪 If you were a cookie, what kind would you be?

🐶 Are you more of a dog person or a cat person?

🎧 Headphones or earbuds?

🌼 What’s the last thing you said out loud?

🙃 What’s a weird fact that you know?

🦉 Are you a morning person or a night owl?

🧸 Favorite place to nap?

🏳️‍🌈 Are you a member of the LGBTQIA+ community?

🦋 Describe yourself in three words.

👖 Jeans or sweatpants?

🥤 What’s your go-to Starbucks order?

🧡 A color you can’t stand?

💎 What’s your most prized possession?

☕ Coffee or tea?

🦖 Favorite extinct animal?

🌙 How long have you been on tumblr?

🌴 Desert island item?

🐸 Describe your aesthetic.

🔮 What’s your dream job?

💙 Relationship status?

🌿 Describe your favorite outfit.

�� Is there a song you know all the lyrics to?

🤎 What color is your hair?

💌 Do you talk to yourself?

💄 Do you wear makeup?

🌸 Best compliment you ever received?

💞 @ your favorite blog.

Reblogs are appreciated!

[cruddyborderlandstheories]

do u think if i ask nicely gearbox will give me an ordered list of which crystals are the least -> most brittle out of the 5 we have so far. i need it for reasons. im guessing it goes from least to most:

eridium -> core -> moonstone/seraph crystals -> eridian crystals (those red ones)

but i’d like an actual canon list for reasons

also!!! i gave each crystal its own domain so there’s actually a reason for all of them to exist instead of just being recolored eridium

eridium (purple) - elemental, also obviously linked to Sirens and Vaults, probably directly linked to that other dimension Vaults and Sirens are connected to that we hear about a lot (i could regurgitate one of my old essays about this, but im Tired). i think it could also be a mix of all the below domains, just being the alpha crystal lmao (messes with peoples minds, bodies, makes things bigger and tankier, related to guardians, linked to another dimension, etc.) which would make sense since its the one that is Directly tied to the biggest things in the series (sirens, vaults)

core (green) - physical/body mutations, notably mutations that change the original form of the person. also probably linked to the death dimension u see in glat. im going out on a limb here and saying core is pretty much the same stuff as gythian blood (maybe different forms?), as both are green and cause heavy physical mutations. i think rose knew how to turn it into something beneficial given her inexplicable power showcase at the beginning of bounty of blood, probably thru her grandma, but i doubt we’ll ever actually hear about it :( but its fine bc in h2o au zer0 and fl4k are both connected to core thru Death so screw u canon we got our own explanations

seraph crystals (pink) - i see these kinda like core in that they cause physical mutations, but more in the enhancement sense and not the change sense. just buffs u up and gives u unique powers. I guess Vitality is the best way to describe this one. potentially tied to eridium as im still not 100% convinced it *isn’t* a differently processed version of eridium (seraph vendor and seraph gear likely being a different type of e-tech gear, seriously, it’s just a lighter pink color of the e-tech color, plus making hyperius h u g e just like bloodwing, but without the known elemental affinity) but still. potentially also related to guardians and the guardian experiments in h2o au due to their names, but we don’t get a lot when it comes to the changes they give other than those raid bosses being buffed up versions of existing enemies. so, yeah. i tied them to vitality.

eridian crystals (red) - mostly related to ‘mind’ for me, cuz when u kill the guardians, the wisps that are supposed to represent them finding another shell to pilot are red also troy has red crystals around his neck and i like the idea that he’s psychic for h2o au unfortunately this one has the least amount of canon representation we just gotta use what scraps we get. it’s mainly just used to power stuff :(

moonstone (blue) - moonstone premiered in tps which is the most focused on guardians, also blue crystals are showcased heavily in the Guardian Takedown (which im guessing are moonstone) to identify guardians, so i’m saying its tied to guardians and the guardian experiments also, moonstone can technically be two colors bc its been shown to change to orange in the guardian takedown which i think is cool even though its base is blue. goku crystal. its also related to luneshine but idk how that one specifically ties in to guardians. i guess thru making their jobs easier lol

[spirit-shroud]

i replayed kz again tonight and managed to beat it in 4 hrs instead of 11 !!! which is rly cool imo, i think i got a max of like 50 deaths or less for the full run ??? i was just playing regularly but usin the prism blade for the cool blood effects, not in speedrun mode for the counter, and i managed 2 drag my friend into hyperfixation hell with me :} but also i have some thoughts and opinions im not rly sure how to compile in a meaningful way, so here’s the like. pure brain-down-on-blog post version under the cut. if this gets auto-tagged into the real actual tag for this game im very sorry for my hubris im just. thinking emoji

so id like to start this with the final boss makes me SO sad :( like yeah she doesnt have much dialogue but idk she just makes me so sad. she’s so desperate and she Knows shes going to lose and im just like. no!!!!!!!!!!!!!! you’re so cool!!!!!!! Please Be My Friend We Can Work Together. I Know A Guy :c like usually final bosses are like weirdly emotional for me but she was just SO COOL and realizing like WAIT THIS BOSS OPERATES UNDER THE SAME RULES I DO was just like WOW even if as i kept dying (and i think i spent like... 3 hrs on the final boss alone lmao the first time, i killed her on my third attempt this run which was very cool of me) i finally realized that she IS pretty repetitive and got all her patterns n variables down super easy, but like, fighting another null who Should for all intents and purposes be just as absurd and powerful as i am, and eventually being able to down her effortlessly, and then the withdrawal affects of the chronos kicking in as well, and its just like. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

dont even get me STARTED on that ‘to be continued’ like yeah there’s a dlc comin but the game mentions repeatedly that its just the first act which has me like OKAY. SPECULATION TIME (what am i speculating on? literally no idea im not even rly at the speculation phase im still in the WOW COOL VIDEO GAME phase) 

and i rly like the dragon/fifteen but the first time i saw him i was just like. who’s this f*llmetal alchemist looking bitch ??? what’s he doin here?? go HOME and controlling him is AWFUL i hate the dragon tape so MUCH >:C but also he’s like. cool. i want to know more about him n his plot 2 take down Juncture n the government n whatever. 

but also i was listen 2 Full Confession bc it’s just. what the heart wants rn. i need to be sad and caffeinated in order to get into the Writing Zone rn and then i was THINKIN like my friend mentioned while we were playing the dragon tape that the song that plays is very similar to Full Confession (which i had sent him earlier while i was losing my mind over the final boss) and then i was like. Hm. these are very similar but have such wildly different moods -- Breath of the Serpent is much more like. ‘you’re going to be afraid of me’ while Full Confession is like ‘i’m afraid of you’ and i think that the different Vibes from these two soundtrack bits about important Null characters is just like. WOW and i wonder how a version of it that was purely Zero’s might be. would it be more triumphant? more flat? what desperation or emptiness is in there that could be drawn out by this melody??? i dont KNOW and i can’t write music unfortunately but im just like AAAAAAAAAA

i also rly wanna know what snow has going on ??? like. shes clearly important. she is a vital npc. but Why. she didnt even rly do anything except Show Up???

fuck V. all my homies hate V. the motorcycle fight was a lot of fun tho i rly liked that section even if my therapist was mad at me afterwards

also i think elizabeth/the little girl is rly cute and the fact zero was just like. ‘hm. well guess i have a daughter now’ so fast w/ her (at least, with the dialogue trees me n my pal kept going down) and im just. So Hoping we can rescue her in the dlc :( i miss her so much and im so like. worried abt that like pls give me back my daughter you dumbasses i cant even read ur dialogue without my brain being like ‘yeah these r just squiggly lines, boss. gl’ 

i also want to believe that the masked men arent real (bc idk, it’s just easier for me to process that they’re the result of chronos withdrawal) but the problem w/ that is like. they definitely kidnapped elizabeth, and i want so desperately to believe that elizabeth IS real n that zero genuinely wants to protect her (and by extension, the part of himself that is still human) 

ALSO THE PSYCHIATRIST i was just like. Okay. I Must Get A Good Grade In Therapy. n kept being nice n cooperative and helpful to this clown ass and then THAT ENDING ??? like i didnt even get the Bad Therapist Ending i was just like. fucka you! attacka you with a rock! (i do however want to try the therapist boss it sounds like a lot of fun) but i just. i hate him! he sucks! find a better therapist zero u rly need one im sorry for ur problems disorder :( like hes clearly a guy who just works for the government n wants 2 keep a leash on our man 

n the contradictions, hes like. yeah ur killing everyone related to chronos so it can no longer be produced ♥ but dw ur special we totally wont just withhold chronos from you as soon as u finish ur tasks dw about it ♥ and its like. Hm. I Dont Think Thats Right !!!! 

also i wanna learn more about what Juncture has going on??? what are they like. Doing besides poisoning water n making lighters ?????? it’s clearly a lot 

also the art for this game is just so GOOD,,, like. i didnt rly notice a lot of the backgrounds my first playthrough bc i was just losing my mind the whole time trying to solve each puzzle but the second playthrough im just like. AAAAA. and the soundtrack? effervescent. groundbreaking. perfect. So Good 

and the GAMEPLAY !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! oh my GOD i was SO vibing with it, the difficulty curve was kinda extreme imo but as soon as i started like. Getting It? and started looking at each room less like combat/fighting and more like a puzzle that needed to be solved it made it so much easier 2 get into the headphase of ‘okay how do i clear this’ and it was just like. YOOOOOOOO

and zero is just a lot of fun 2 play as. legitimately everything about him is just so ridiculous. his dialogue options? ridiculous. his design? absurd. the implications that hes like. 22 and just having the worst 10 days of his life? mood, buddy. this guy likes samurai movies and card games and mushroom pizza and has worn the same outfit every single day for who knows how long and hes also a war veteran, an emotionless serial killer and a drug addict. and hes 22 and 5′10. literally NOTHING about those traits make sense together but here he is, just Vibing. 

i love him so much. im going to make a self insert oc that’s just giving him a friend who knows how to cook n is just like ‘oh wow, that’s rough buddy’ when hes like ‘i only feel alive when i kill people’ and conveniently knows how 2 get bloodstains out of things bc i think he needs that kind of person in his life since his like. therapist is conspiring against him n he keeps having 2 kill his friends 

also, unfortunately, i want to get every achievement, which i feel like is going to become hld....2!! where i get all but 1 of them and am stuck at 96% for 2+ years >:T

[lannister-slings-and-arrows]

I was tagged by @rzrcrst to share five things about me so we all can get to know each other better. Thanks sweets! :D

I was raised in a tiny house with six other people and a bigger side of medium sized dog, I thrive on noise and chaos lol. I am loud, opinionated, have a lax standard when it comes to boundaries, and don’t take personal offense easily. (Do I get Angry? Yes. I have a Temper that I really should see someone about lol, but I don’t take personal offense if someone gets mad and calls me an idiot or steals the last of the pop tarts.) That being said, I am well and truly satisfied being by myself, making my own noise however and whenever I see fit- I think it’s the novelty personally, it probably won’t ever wear off lol. That’s not to say I don’t miss those chaos days. Getting back together with all of my siblings is my favorite thing to do. No one can quite match me screaming opinion for screaming opinion as they can lol. In the line of my friends my siblings will always come first, they’re built in bffs that you never have to worry about pretending with.

I’m sure that at some point very early on in my life I must have made a conscious decision that my big brother was The Authority on Everything That Is Cool and Awesome, but it must have been VERY early because I don’t remember it. All I know is that the standard by which I have always measured if something is Cool and if I should Like it/Do it has been if Kevin has either done it before or also thinks it’s cool lol. Kevin did karate, so Meghan did karate. Kevin wore flannel shirts over tee shirts? Meghan STILL does that lol. He got sick of the more age appropriate boy bands I was listening to in jr. high so he burned me CDs with bands like Blue October and The Tea Party and Rammstein and Korn et al on them and said they were cool. And So It Was lol. And that hasn’t changed- to this day I’m still not really sure if I actually like all the things I like or if I just accept that I do bc he does lol. Honestly it hasn’t been all bad, in fact it has some pretty great advantages. I’ve never been in a Terrible relationship in my life; the second Kevin doesn’t like someone they’re gone- it’s been pretty damn useful having a guy look out for all the shitty things that guys do and point them out so I can head that mess off at the pass lol.

I think I was probably 12 when I wrote my first fanfiction? It was this LONG ASS multi chapter behemoth that was written in I think four of those black and white notebooks? The marble ones? You know what I’m talking about? It was about the characters from the movie Gladiator lololol. It didn’t go on the internet (fandom online was in its INFANCY back then and I wasn’t a part of it until years later) and no one besides me read it. Like NO ONE. I’m honestly not sure if anyone besides me actually knew that I wrote this lol. I kept it hidden in different places all over my house, my back yard (zipped in those gallon freezer bags lol), and a few times my grandparents basement lol. Every week like clockwork I would move it’s hiding spot- I don’t know why I felt the need to do this but whatever lol. Unfortunately (maybe fortunately) the first time I smoked pot in high school I came home so fucking paranoid that I took it out of its spot in the shed in the back yard and burned it. Just set it on fire lol. I was convinced someone knew where it was and was going to read it so clearly the only thing to do was destroy it before my secret could get out. That was also the time I realized that pot makes me too paranoid to function and I should not be allowed near lighters when I was high lol. Thankfully for all you I have become much more lax about letting people read my writing since those early days.

When I first saw Pirates of the Caribbean I, of course like any decent human being, fell in love with Jack Sparrow. Who wouldn’t. But for some reason I could not put my finger on every time I thought of or looked at or had to talk about Elizabeth Swann and Kiera Knightly I got so MAD. Like unexplainably FURIOUS. I HATED her and I really didn’t have any good reason to. About a year later my brother introduced me to the original Lara Croft movie (the Angelina Jolie one) and I watched it constantly- I LOVED it. And then came the Kate Beckinsale Underworld movies which I couldn’t get enough of. It was okay to say that those two women were hot cause Kevin said so too right? And I just kind of branched out from there? I didn’t deliberately identify as bi, I just kind of started taking it for granted that I looked at women and thought they were gorgeous the same way that I did men. My mental block about Kiera Knightly finally lifted sometime in college and I can now finally admit that the first girl I ever had a crush on was Lizzie Swan in POTC lol. (Not that I will EVER tell my mother or the adult members of my very Catholic, very conservative Republican extended family that I have, in fact, kissed girls and liked it lol. There are some things that even I am not stupid enough to do lol.)

I fucking LOVE science fiction. The camp-iest, the cheese-iest the better. I love space travel/adventure sci-fi the best, I’m sorry I don’t care what ANYONE says, Flash Gordon is a cinematic masterpiece and I will fight anyone who says differently. I love Firefly and Star Trek and oh my god the Riddick movies are so fucking great. And when you can combine my love of sci fi with my pure and unadulterated THING for cowboys (I don’t know where that came from by the way I just. I have a cowboy kink that cannot be stopped. I need professional help lol) you have right there a double threat of Meghan is gonna love this. (I unironically STAN Cowboys and Aliens ok. And Pacific Rim.) I’ll read sci-fi, I’ll watch it, I’ll listen to it, you put it in front of me and I will consume it.

I’m tagging @spacegayofficial @youmeanmybrain @pajamasecrets @pascalispretty @stevieharrrr @keeper0fthestars @zeldasayer @hystericalmedicine and frankly anybody who sees this and wants to share. Tell me about your interesting selves!! :p

[smudged-glasses-writing]

OC interview tag!

I was tagged by @atbwrites (so long ago, I'm so sorry) and I’m going to do Sine, Nyx, and Spec, bc I love them

1. Are you named after anyone?

Sine: My grandpa. He looked after me a lot when I was young, and he actually passed away before grew up, but from what I remember, he was a cool guy.

Nyx: This is going to sound embarrassing but... when I was about 12, there was this show me and my sister loved, and there was this particular character, whose last name escapes me, that was named Nyx. I think he was something like a superhero? Anyway, I really looked up to him, and when I couldn’t use my actual name anymore, I thought, what the hell, this is my chance to be cool. In my defense, it was supposed to be temporary

Spec: I think my original name was given to me after a great aunt or something. But "Spec" just sounds cool

2. When was the last time you cried?

[I've been thinking about it for some days, and there is n o way I can answer that w/o spoilers]

3. Do you have/want kids?

Sine: Never had, never wanted, probably never will. I would be a shitty parent anyway.

Nyx: I actually do, but given our... lifestyle, it isn’t really possible

Spec: No, but you know what I always wanted? To be the cool aunt. Well, if any of my siblings ever has kids...

4. Do you use sarcasm a lot?

Sine: Less than people think I do.

Nyx: A bit.

Spec: Yes

5. What’s the first thing you notice about people?

Sine: I don't know? I just look at people, who analyses that kind of stuff?

Nyx: Their hair. They usually notice my hair too, so it's only fair.

Spec: Their posture, their height, the way they carry themselves, etc. Though the heights tend to short of blend together, since I'm taller than most people.

6. What’s your eye color?

Sine: Grey

Nyx: Dark brown

Spec: Brown, but lighter than Nyx's

7. Scary story or happy ending?

Sine: Both. I mean, why can’t the protagonist fight vampires or lose her eye or something and still get the girl in the end?

Nyx: Hm... happy ending

Spec: Probably happy ending

8/10. Any special talents? Hobbies?

Sine: I can make up shit with great ease, I guess. Lie, think up facts that sound real, make stories. Scum-ish talent, but i once managed to convince Delta that hazelnuts are a type of bird, so it's very much worth it. And i read a lot I guess? But it's not like I indulge in the great literary cannon. I just read what makes me happy.

Nyx: Is navigation considered a talent, even if it is my job? And i really like chess? I am good, too. Unfortunately, I've spent the last few years trying to get anyone here to appreciate it properly, but I've yet to find a worthy opponent.

Spec: I am very good with my hands (Sine coughing in the background), which is not an outstanding talent, but it's really useful, considering that if it wasn't for me, this place would have crushed and burned. As for hobbies, I play the guitar, although i am more than a bit out of practice

9. Where were you born?

Sine: Tetralona, which, for the uninformed of the audience, is at the north of Luna.

Nyx: Moscow. I don't think this need any more explanation.

Spec: Europa. As in the moon of Jupiter, not the Terran condinent

11. Do you have any pets?

Sine: Some years ago, Spec brought a kitten in. She was fluffy and white and the cutest little thing!

Nyx: Unfortunately, the Captain found out and made us abandon it.

Spec: It was for the better, really. Poor thing would probably go mad up here.

12. What sports do you/have you played?

Sine: Me? Sports? With all the practice and stress and sweat and no thank you.

Nyx: I used to play basketball when I was younger, but not anymore

Spec: Never in an organised manner

13. How tall are you?

Sine: 5'6

Nyx: 5'8

Spec: 6'2

14. What was your favorite subject in school?

Sine: History

Nyx: Biology

Spec: Maths and Physics

15. Dream Job?

Sine: I have never thought about it, but I guess it doesn't matter now, does it? The Angler Fish provides an...excellent job insurance

Nyx: Back home, I wanted to be a schoolteacher. But now I don't know. If we're being honest, I would gladly be a house husband or something

Spec: I really like my job, but it would be nice to work in a city. I would be very interested in working at one of the Talus labs.

[taehyvnggs]

Kim Taehyung // Royalty

A/N: I’m not gonna lie...the character’s brother was supposed to be Prince Seokjin...and then I got 4k words in and realized that it’d be weird for a Kim to like a Kim...,,,,,so I changed it to Yoongi...but he’s a dank prince too. I also wanted the first prince to be Mingyu instead of Baehyun because uhhh I’m a hardcore Mingyu s*an:-( and then u kno what?? I was like “a Kim w a Kim??? NO!” which is dumb bc I didn’t realize the reader x Tae thing until later hahaha

Summary: For being the Princess of Seoul, you sure do take quite a lot of vacations with Head Guard Kim Taehyung. You really should be careful--he might fall in love with you.

Genre: Fluff, angst

Dear Head Guard Kim,

   Thank you for accompanying me on my trip to Jeju this past week. I appreciate it very much. It was kind of you to volunteer to go, considering Prince Yoongi was the one to go overseas for a month.

   To repay you for your gratitude, I have gifted you with a new guard uniform to wear (the fabric is more comfortable and this is one-of-a-kind) as well as a few vacation days. Since I learned quite a bit about you during our excursion, I sent your favorite chocolates as well.

   There is no need to stress about getting me anything in return. I would just like to thank you.

   Until next time,

       Princess Y/N

P.S. I got your flowers. They are beautiful and sitting at my mirror.

~

Dearest Princess Y/N,

   Thank you for the gifts, I am very grateful to know someone with a kind and gracious heart like you.

   Also, I am glad you like the flowers. I was not sure if you would like roses or had a particular taste, but I distinctly remember seeing you admiring the tulips and daisies in Jeju. That’s why I sent the flowers.

   When I told your brother, Prince Yoongi, that I would accompany you on your trip to Jeju, he insisted that I go with you rather than sulk in Brazil. He claimed that it would be more enjoyable than spending hours upon hours in meetings. He also pointed out that he is capable of defending himself.

   Truthfully, I had quite a bit of fun in Jeju. I’m glad that I had gone.

   Your loyal guard,

       Kim Taehyung

~

“Welcome back home,” you greet Yoongi. He smiles widely at you. Brazil must have treated him well because his skin is flourishing with color and his hair looks like a lighter shade of brown. Perhaps he dyed it. Your mother does not look too happy to see it.

Yoongi pulls you into a big hug. “Little sister, it has only been a month, but you look so much older,” he says to you happily.

“Jeju makes you a new person,” you joke as you pull away from him. He pats your head and you can tell he’s missed you a lot.

“Princess Y/N can tell you all about her adventure later. We have meetings we must get to,” your mother cuts in, handing Yoongi his polished crown and pulling him down the corridor. Your father sends you a small frown as he follows them, knowing that you really wanted to catch up with Yoongi.

As soon as they disappear down a hallway, you turn to your guards. “Jung and Jeon, you are dismissed,” you say to them with a forced smile on your face.

The boy to you before heading off to some random place in the castle. You never think much of it when they disappear. They aren’t your problems once you dismiss them. As long as they aren’t meddling, then you really have no problem with them.

You head out of the castle and into the garden. The weather is very nice today, but that’s primarily because summer is in full swing. Though, it was raining heavily yesterday.

In no time, you find yourself sitting at a chess table in the middle of a hedge maze. When you were younger, you and Yoongi would sit here and play chess. Usually, you beat him, but if he was having a good day, Yoongi would beat you in three minutes. It has been a few months since you both sat here.

Yes, someday he is going to be the king and you’re going to be married off to another prince, but that doesn’t mean that you two can’t be close. When you leave, you still want to keep close ties with Seoul. Plus, Yoongi is practically your best friend -- it’d kill you to not be close with him anymore.

When Yoongi becomes king, he gets the honor of choosing your suitor. You trust that he’ll choose the right person by putting a lot of time and effort into it -- and it better not be that uptight Prince Yugyeom, who always has a stick up his rear whenever you see him.

“Good afternoon, Princess Y/N. Funny seeing you here,” Taehyung says to you, startling you. He gives you a deep bow and smiles happily. He isn’t wearing his guard uniform. Instead, he wears a white button-down and black slacks. You assume that he is off the clock today. That must mean Namjoon and Seokjin are in command.

You nod your head in response to his bow. “Hello, Taehyung. I haven’t seen you in a while. Have you been guarding mother?” you ask, urging him to take a seat by motioning to the chair across from you.

He walks over to the chair and slides onto it. “Yes, I watch her during the day and then spend five hours in the corridor at night. Prince Yoongi is going to take me off corridor duty so that I can sleep,” he replies like he’s hit the jackpot.

“I didn’t realize you’d been losing sleep.” You frown at him. You could’ve done something about this sooner. “I apologize. I understand that Mother can be a pain.”

Taehyung shakes his head. “No, no. I’m more than happy to serve as a guard for your family, Princess. I understand that my job may involve sleep deprivation.” To assure you that he’s actually okay with this, he gives you a great big smile.

You’ve known Kim Taehyung for a few years now. He came to the castle at age eighteen because the former head guard saw Taehyung’s athletic record and grades. You only got to see him from afar when you’d pass by the castle’s training wing, but when he got promoted to Head Guard, you saw him around your mother or Yoongi.

Before he was acquainted with other guards, he was really quiet. Because of that, you assumed that he was really shy. Whenever he saw you, he’d blush furiously and turn away. He couldn’t even bring up any words to say to you. Since he’s used to seeing you now, he doesn’t blush anymore. You kind of miss the days where you could make Kim Taehyung blush -- it makes him seem more human. The guards are too good at hiding their feelings, so they seem like robots.

“Are you not on duty today?” you ask, initiating chess by moving a pawn forward two spaces.

The brown-haired boy shakes his head and moves a pawn of his as well. “No, I’m not. Prince Yoongi told me to take off for today because he wanted to catch up. It appears that I won’t be seeing him anytime soon,” he answers before you take the pawn that he moved. “I should’ve thought that move through…”

You laugh at him and give him a sympathetic smile. “That’s a shame. At least you get to spend time with someone in the royal family. Unfortunately, I’m not as cool as Yoongi, but I’m not in any meetings for the next two weeks,” you chime as he moves another pawn, leaving a bishop of his wide open.

Taehyung shrugs. “You may not be the prince, but I like you both equally.” When you move your knight, he starts talking again. “Since you have the next week free, why not go to Busan for a while? I think you’d enjoy it.”

“I suppose I should,” you answer him quietly. “Would you like to accompany me?”

He thinks about it for a moment, pondering over whether it’s a good idea. “I would be happy to. I will have to run it by your father and the prince first. Then I’d have to pack a few uniforms.”

“It’s a hassle to go as a princess, Taehyung. I want to go as just Y/N, an ordinary person,” you point out. “I wouldn’t want to make a scene, so please refrain from bringing a guard uniform. Wear what you’re wearing now; it’s nice.”

Taehyung bites his lip. “I’m not so sure that’s a good idea, Princess. Think of all the potential danger you could face.”

You look Taehyung in the eyes. Underneath the summer sun, they look like cinnamon irises, glistening brightly. “I suppose I can ask Guard Park Jimin because he is from Busan,” you say, almost like it’s a threat, but your delivery was just wrong. “I’m not sure he’d be as attentive as you.”

He sighs, running a hand through his brown hair before tugging on the hem of his white button-down. You can sense how nervous he is, thinking that he might make the wrong choice and threaten his position as Head Guard. The only reason you asked him is because if he gets caught, Yoongi would let him off the hook.

After all, Yoongi would do anything for Taehyung. They’ve been best friends for so long.

“I will go,” Taehyung says, covering his face like he’s done something terribly wrong. Though, you do understand what he feels because he works his hardest to make sure no one is in danger. By doing this, you’re putting yourself in danger and unintentionally forcing Taehyung to be even more alert.

You smile at Taehyung and stand up. “Checkmate,” you hum before striding off.

~

Dear Head Guard Kim,

   I have not seen you in two days, but do remember that we depart for Busan in the morning. Please remember that I do not want to make it a scene when we arrive. No limousines, no carriages, no paparazzi, nothing.

   For the next couple of days, we are Taehyung and Y/N. We are normal tourists. We will enjoy our stay in Busan and make the most of our trip.

   You have my permission to engage in Head Guard Mode when you deem an area unsafe or suspect something strange. I trust that you are capable of sensing danger, considering your position in our Royal Guard. That being said, make decisions wisely, and I will follow suit.

   If by chance the King and Queen ask about Busan, let them know that I was in meetings with a few CEOs, but it typically went awry. If they ask for details, say that I didn’t mention much because its failures made it a sensitive topic for me.

   You may not want to lie to my parents because you are very loyal, so if you feel uncomfortable telling false truths, then you may tell them that they can ask me instead. I will be more than happy to cover.

   If they find out that I did not do any business in Busan, I will take the blame. After all, I dragged you into this and you do not deserve to be punished for my decisions. I will not be punished as harshly as you, so please do not step up if we are caught.

   Yoongi is aware of this, and he gives us the “okay.”

   After reading this, burn it in order to retain secrecy.

   Until next time,

       Princess Y/N

~

Dearest Princess Y/N,

   Message received and eliminated.

   For the next few days, I will be on alert. Thank you for your concern. My only wish for you is that you have the time of your life.

       Your loyal guard,

       Kim Taehyung

~

You arrive in Busan so early that the sun is still rising. There is a slight bit of bustling around the city, and you enjoy how quiet it is. Both you and Taehyung are wearing casual clothes. Taehyung brought an extra white shirt for you to wear to look normal in the meantime. It’s a nice change from the dresses, but you’re practically wearing the same outfit as Taehyung right now.

“It feels nice to know people aren’t following me with cameras right now,” you say to Taehyung, adjusting your ponytail and sliding a hat over it. The sun isn’t blinding your eyes because of your sunglasses, but you’re also not wearing makeup. Without all the glamorous clothes and jewelry, you look normal.

Taehyung smiles as he walks next to you. You can tell that he’s on high alert, but he’s playing it off like he’s curious and taking in the scenery. “I agree. So, where to first, Princess?” he asks you, shoving his hands into his pocket.

“Please call me Y/N,” you insist, not wanting to give away your identity.

“I apologize. I’m just so used to calling you Princess. So, Y/N, where to?” There’s a sense of discomfort in his tone. All his life, he’s known you as Princess or Your Highness. Calling you anything else is just

“Igidae Park!” you cheer like a child. If your parents were to see you right now, they’d scold you for your childishness. This is one of the only times you may ever be allowed alone, so you’re definitely going to make the most of it.

He sighs and looks at you. “You do know that we have to call a cab, right? Igidae is more than just a walk from here.”

Although it’s merely the morning, you nod and follow Taehyung so that he can get a cab. He manages to get one easily, which is surprising to you. He opens the car door for you so that you can climb in, but first, he examines it to make sure that there’s no threat inside. Then, he smiles at you so that you know that it’s safe to go in. After, he gets inside and closes the door.

“Where’d you like to go?” the driver asks.

“Igidae Park please,” you answer calmly, barely managing to contain your excitement. This is the most independence you’ve gotten, ever.

The taxi driver nods and you’re on your way.

When you arrive, Taehyung opens the door for you and extends his hand to help you out of the car. Instinctively, you take it and make your way out. He thanks the driver before closing the door.

“Let’s walk, shall we?” you say to Taehyung after a minute of silence.

He nods, looking at the ground. “Yes, Y/N.”

You nudge him with your elbow, causing him to look at you with a confused look. You furrow your brows and shake your head at him. “Is it so hard for you to treat me like a friend? We’ve known each other for years now, Taehyung.”

“I have yet to adjust to being your friend, Y/N,” he answers as you both begin your walk. There’s a small breeze that sends shivers throughout your body, and you hug yourself in order to warm up. “You’re on a different level of the social hierarchy than I am.”

You stare at the trees at whistle at you, rustling loudly. “Ah, I see. It’s nothing I would fret about, truthfully. I think very highly of you.”

Immediately, he blushes, but he looks away from you so that you can see his face when he’s all red. He runs a hand through his chocolate brown hair and wipes his face with his sleeve as if his nose is runny. After doing all that, Taehyung looks back at you, and his face is no longer flushed.

“Thank you,” he says rather awkwardly.

“Anyway Taehyung, tell me about yourself. Do you have any pets? I understand that you reside in the castle, but when you go home to your parents, do you have any pets?”

His face lights up immediately at the mention of animals. “I actually got a dog recently! His name is Yeontan and he has cute little angry brows. He stays with my parents since the King prohibits animals in the castle.”

“Aw, Yeontan!” you exclaim. “Yoongi was showing me pictures of Yeontan! I didn’t realize he belonged to you.”

“Yes! Tan is so cute, isn’t he?”

The way he is so passionate about his pet is cute. Because he’s a guard, you forget that he has feelings. After all, you’re slightly convinced they’re all manufactured in buildings, considering their lack of emotions.

And somehow, seeing Taehyung smile warms your heart a little.

“Ah yes, Tan is very cute,” you say, kicking a stray pebble far away from you. “When do you get to see him?”

“Early in the morning, before I’m required to get ready for guard duty, I take a trip to my parents’ house to see them...and Yeontan,” he explains, smiling as he stares at the cotton candy skies. “They’re always so proud of me--my parents are. Though, I’m never home because of my job...and I feel a little guilty for that.”

You nod, thinking about what to say. You can’t exactly relate to him, but it’d be rude of you to talk him down after he’s begun to open up to you.

“Not that I don’t like working for your family!” Taehyung shouts, startling you and causing your heart to pound out of your chest. “I’m absolutely blessed to work for people like you.”

“Taehyung, you don’t always have to express your love for my family and me,” you explain to him with a calm voice despite the fact that he’s just scared the wits out of you. “We’re depriving you of well-deserved family time--I know. You deserve it just as much as we do. Remember, we’re friends. You don’t have to worship the ground I walk on.”

He slouches in response, staring at his feet as you both arrive at a cliff that overlooks the ocean. The breeze blows through his hair and he doesn’t fix it, causing it to look rather disheveled. “I feel as if I’m not doing my job as a son. I love my family and this job is important to us. Sometimes, it takes a toll on me. As much as I appreciate Yoongi coming to me on my birthday with a small piece of cake with a candle, it’ll never compare to birthdays with my family.”

“Have you tried taking days off on your birthday?” you ask curiously, staring at the waves that crash against the cliff.

“I have, but usually your mother has errands for the New Year that she wants me to run,” he answers.

“Ah, so were you born on December 31st?” you ask.

He shakes his head. “December 30th.”

“I see,” you hum. Your voice is so quiet that it almost blends in with the waves. “This year, because I have nothing better to do, I am going on a day trip on December 30th. You are obligated to accompany me.”

Taehyung nearly chokes on his spit. “Y/N, you really don’t have to take the day off because of my birthday! Where would you go, after all? Everywhere is quite busy at the end of the year, so there’d be nowhere to go.”

You shrug. “I’ll go to wherever your parents live. I’ll require your assistance because unfortunately, I’m not sure I’d know the way.”

He looks at you in all seriousness. His eyes are watering, but you’re not sure if it’s because of you or the wind’s getting in his eyes. “Thank you so much. Your heart’s truly made of gold, Y/N.”

You smile and pat his back. A stray tear slides down his face. “Don’t thank me for something you deserve.”

He turns his head away from you and covers his hands over his face. His body shakes as he silently weeps, holding back the noises. You rub his back and pat his shoulders. Since Taehyung remains turned away, you figure that he doesn’t want you to see him like this.

“The ocean’s really pretty today, Kim Taehyung. It’d be a real shame if you missed it,” you say with a soothing voice, hoping that it’ll get him to relax.

After you speak, he moves his hands from his face and wipes away the tears with the sleeve of his jacket. “You’re right. Though, I’m no longer interested in the ocean.”

You nod and remove your hand from his back. “Is that so? Then we should really get going. I’d hate to bore you,” you reply, turning around to head back. “Have you had breakfast?”

Taehyung shakes his head, sniffling still. “No.”

“Let’s go eat. It’s on me.” You grin at him, winking before running off. Your sudden actions take Taehyung by surprise and he darts after you.

~

The next week went by quickly. You did a lot of sightseeing and you both got really close. You learned a lot more about each other and even had a few drinks with some locals.

It was the best time you had in a while. The last time you had this much fun was...at least five years ago. Plus, Taehyung showed you a cat cafe, which introduced you to a world of cats. They were all so nice and relaxing.

While you were admiring the cats and showering them with kisses, Taehyung stared at you. To him, it felt like the whole world became nothing and it was just you two. His heart was pounding out of his chest and the sight of you took his breath away. The way your hair looked like a waterfall underneath your sunshine yellow cap while your eyes practically sparkled almost convinced him that you were some sort of ethereal being. He almost wanted to say something. Then again, you both are too different.

Plus, you were too distracted by the cats to notice Taehyung noticing you.

Though, while Taehyung was playing with the cats, your heart was buzzing too. You didn’t think much of it, but it felt as if mist has been cleared from your heart. Taehyung was someone you felt comfortable with--and not the way you felt comfortable with Yoongi or the other guards. In a way, Taehyung made you feel vulnerable, but you’re too naive to realize that this actually means something.

And now here you are, entering the castle. Your parents greet you with large smiles and Yoongi envelopes you in a hug.

“Princess Y/N, we missed you!” Yoongi cheers as he spins you around. “How was the trip?”

“Lots of boring meetings,” you lie, though Yoongi already knows about your fun-filled journey. “Taehyung did keep me company though.”

“I’m glad you got along well with my best friend,” Yoongi says to you. “Still, he’s my friend.”

You laugh as he lets go of you. “I think you may have to get used to sharing.”

Taehyung stands politely before you and your family and bows. He’s wearing his guard uniform, meaning he is now on the job and cannot be informal. If he does break character, he might lose his job—no questions asked. Not even Yoongi could save him.

“The Head Guard is not your friend, Prince Yoongi. He is your guard and your guard only,” your mother points out, stern as she could ever be.

Upon hearing this, you look back at Taehyung and smile to assure him that you are friends regardless of your mother’s words. He doesn’t respond, knowing that if he reacts, he may get in trouble. You know he saw the smile though.

“Princess, as you know, Prince Yoongi’s coronation is two months away,” your father pipes in.

They’ve decided to make Yoongi’s coronation happen before your father dies because well frankly, your father’s getting old now. His health is declining, but very slowly. He claims that he wants to see his son get his crown before he dies, so there is that excuse as well. By doing this, he’s breaking tradition, but your father has never really been one for tradition. Honestly, he wants to take a three-month long vacation in Cancun.

“Correct,” you answer.

“His first task as king is to find the perfect suitor for you. Now, we have a list in the making. The first candidate is arriving tonight. I expect you to give him a grand tour of our exquisite castle,” your father says.

You want to argue, but you don’t. You don’t want to leave the castle to marry some prince. You don’t want to be someone else’s accessory. You’re much better than this, but if your father says so, then you must.

“I understand,” you say before bowing to your father. “When is he arriving?”

“In about...twenty-five minutes,” your father answers, looking at his watch.

“Father, did you really invite him now knowing that I’d arrive around this time? I’m not presentable enough for a suitor!”

“The more time we bicker the less time we have to get ready,” Yoongi says as he steers you away from the scene. “Don’t worry—I have a royal blue dress laid out for you and it’s long so your shoes don’t matter.”

“You’re a lifesaver, Yoongi.” You let out a long breath. “But what about hair?”

“Well, I think it looks fine as is. I can braid it if you want.”

“I’m going to look like an idiot.”

“Actually, I’ve gotten pretty good at braiding. I think I can braid while one of the stylists fix your makeup,” Yoongi points out as he pushes you into your bedroom where your stylist is. “Let’s make you pretty...uh, prettier than you are right now.”

You scowl at your brother as you take a seat. He manages to do a really nice job of braiding, and your makeup artist makes you look like you hadn’t woken up thirty minutes prior. Your earrings are small studs, but you still look marvelous nonetheless.

You slide into your dress and throw on some white heels that you find underneath your bed. Yoongi rushes you out and forces you back into the corridor with five minutes to spare. However, your suitor is already there, waiting for you.

You bow to him and he reciprocates the bow, smiling broadly at you. You’ve met him before at a few galas, but never formally. He’s a prince, but you’re not sure where he’s from. He’s good looking—that’s for sure.

“Good afternoon, Prince,” you say, flashing a cunning smile as you were taught. “You’re early.”

He nods and kisses your hand. “Greetings, Princess Y/N. I am Prince Baekhyun. How are you on this beautiful day?”

“Quite fine, thank you for asking. How are you?” you ask, looking around for a guard that might be suitable enough to accompany you on this castle tour. You spot Head Guard Kim Taehyung in the corner of the room, biting back a smile. You mouth a ‘help me’ and he walks over to you, keeping his distance. If he’s the one monitoring you two, you’ll be comfortable.

“I’m doing wonderfully now that I’ve seen you,” he says. Part of you wants to know if he sees you as only an item and another part of you wants to just accept the compliment—so you do.

“Prince Baekhyun,” you say, “your name rolls off the tongue quite well.”

“Thank you, Princess.”

“Now, shall we begin the tour? This right here is the corridor.”

And for the next hour and a half, you spent your time showing Prince Byun Baekhyun around. When Yoongi saw him, he mouthed to you ‘not bad’ before greeting the prince himself.

After Prince Baekhyun left, you were heading to your bedroom, where the chef had left your lunch (the dining hall is occupied by a lunch your mother is having with a few important people).

As you make your way back, Head Guard Kim catches up with you. You look at him and frown while undoing your braid. “I think this is— pardon my French—stupide,” you say to Taehyung, rolling your eyes.

“Why is that? You seemed to be getting along with Prince Baekhyun rather well,” Taehyung replies. “He was also kind enough to compliment something about you every five minutes.”

“It seems like a routine,” you respond. “I don’t care how long their list of suitors is, but I need someone interesting. Yes, Prince Baekhyun was amusing, but to what extent? If he stopped complimenting me, what would be left?”

“Valid point, Princess,” Head Guard Kim says to you. “Prince Yoongi will make the right decision though.”

“I agree, Taehyung,” you mumble. “I wish things here were more like Busan...”

“Full of meetings?” Taehyung asks, trying to cover up the fact that you weren’t doing anything relevant that week.

“Yes,” you mutter as you arrive at your bedroom. “Head Guard Kim, I have a gift for you. I’ll go in and retrieve it.”

Taehyung shakes his head. “I’m currently working, Princess Y/N. Is it okay if I grab it just before midnight? That is when I am off-duty.”

You nod and bid adieu to Taehyung. He smiles at you until you close the door.

That’s when his heart began to calm down.

You spend the next few hours talking to Yoongi about his coronation so that you know what to plan for. He briefly mentions a ball, saying that afterward, people of higher social status are allowed to attend this ball and the theme is black and white. It’s later at night, and there is a festival right after the coronation. Yoongi is required to be at both events, meaning you are as well.

That means you had to consult with designers to get a dress made for every event that day.

After talking to Yoongi, you spent a couple more hours discussing with designers what ideal outfits would be for each event. At first, you were thinking a dress, but the designers convinced you that a pantsuit would be suitable so that you could participate in the fun. They also managed to get the general outline for the dress and intend on making a prototype before carrying on.

Once you were done speaking to them, you spoke to your parents about Prince Baekhyun. They were not very happy to hear that you do not see a future with him, however, they were not discouraged because your list has “plenty of ideal men,” as your mother put it. Then, you mentioned taking a trip on December 30th, and they just nodded and didn’t think much of it. They were too distracted by the fact that their next few weeks will be quite busy.

You finish your meetings right a little after midnight and rush back to your room, hoping that you didn’t miss Taehyung stopping by. When you arrive, you see Taehyung standing at your door, still wearing his guard uniform. He’s raising his hand as if to knock but stops before his knuckles rap against the white wood. Why is he hesitating?

“I’m sorry for being late,” you apologize, quickly bowing to him.

He jumps when you speak, but bows right when you bow. “Oh, Princess Y/N! Don’t worry, I just got here as well,” he says, face flushing a deep red color.

You open the door to your bedroom. Your window stretches from the floor to the ceiling and the moonlight that enters through it is enough to light up the room. Taehyung’s gift is in a neatly wrapped box in the corner of your room, so you scurry over to grab it.

“Hey, get in here!” you call to Taehyung, who is awestruck by how large and elegant your room is. Not everyone can have a room with a large window which leads to a balcony that overlooks Seoul. “Oh, and close the door! Someone might hear us!”

When Taehyung hears your voice, he snaps out of his trance and rushes over to you after quietly closing the grandeur door to your room. He catches up with you and you bring the gift box up to his line of sight.

“This is for you! Yoongi put it together since I had limited time but I supplied what’s inside!” you say to him excitedly. “Open it!”

“This is rather large, don’t you think?” he asks you. “I feel guilty when you buy things for me, Princess.”

You frown and shake your head. “Be quiet, Kim Taehyung, and open the box!”

When he opens the box, two envelopes are revealed. He takes both envelopes and gives you a strange look. “You put these two small things in that huge box?” he asks, amused by your antics.

“I simply like irony,” you say. “Now, open the square envelope!” you demand, pointing to the envelope in his right hand.

“I will, I will,” he laughs and sets the other one down. Inside, several pictures of your trip to Busan. There are lots of pictures of Taehyung, but also quite of few of you with Taehyung in the background, looking grumpy because you had run away from him. There was some scenery as well, and some of the pictures had Taehyung’s head in the corner. “Oh goodness, so this is what you did with the pictures.”

“Yes! They’re gorgeous pictures, and you look really happy!” You point at a picture of Taehyung at a restaurant staring at his food. “Look! Your smile is so big!”

“This is so thoughtful of you, Princess. Did you not want to keep the pictures for yourself?” he asks, tucking the pictures back into the envelope.

You shake your head and point at your head. “All of the pictures are in my mind. Keeping the pictures physically is more likely to be found by someone and I’d hate to put your job in peril like that.”

“I’m assuming the pictures of our trip is just another secret that’s between us?” he asks, raising an eyebrow.

You nod and pick up the other envelope. “Now, this one.” Taehyung opens it and pulls out a few sheets of paper. He holds it up in the light to read it, but you stop him. You pull him over to the window and push it open so that you both can get onto the balcony. “You can probably read it better out here,” you say, leaning against the concrete.

Taehyung reads the letter silently and tears slip down his cheek, falling onto the paper.

You don’t have to ask him what the letter contains because you know what it is. It’s a letter from his parents and siblings. In it, they tell how much they love him and how proud of him they are. They are happy to have seen him come so far and he makes them so proud.

By the time he finishes the letter, you’re both sitting against the castle wall. Taehyung’s face is wet from crying and your arm is around him, pulling him close to you so that you can comfort him. The fabric of your dress is getting damp from his tears, but you don’t mind. Perhaps your stylist might, but you can always play it off.

“How in the world did you manage to get that?” he asks as he wipes away tears with the sleeve of his uniform.

“Yoongi did some snooping and took a quick trip with Head Guard Kim Seokjin,” you answer, rubbing his back. “It was my idea, but Yoongi did everything. Think of it as a ‘thank you’ from us.”

You both were on the balcony for two hours, talking about everything. Most of the conversation was in hushed whispers, but it didn’t affect the quality. Taehyung eventually took his head off of you, but you both were still within a close proximity.

At two o’clock in the morning, it was time for Taehyung to go. He stands up and you smile at him as you follow him to the door to your room.

He turns to you and takes a deep breath. “Princess,” he says with a shaky breath.

“Yes?” you ask with your hand on the doorknob.

“Y/N,” he says your name slowly. He acts as if it’s his last time ever saying your name. “Princess Y/N, I think...that I love you.”

“Taehyung,” you whisper to him, “are you sure you should be saying this right now? It’s past midnight, you may be out of your mind.”

“This is one thing that I’m positive about,” he answers you. “Ever since I met you, you made my heart race. You always look ethereal, and I don’t know how I could have held in feelings like this for five years now. You always treat people as if they are your superiors and you have a heart of pure gold. Princess, I didn’t want to admit this to myself because you’re going to marry a prince of some majestic country and I’ll still be here. No matter how much I love you, I’ll never be able to end up with you. It’s a little bittersweet, don’t you think?”

You stare at him, absolutely dumbfounded by his words. You don’t know if you have feelings for anyone because you’ve always known that you’re going to marry a prince, so you’ve always tucked your feelings away and ignored them. You don’t even know if you have feelings for Taehyung, but even if you did, you’d have to disregard them.

“I think you really should get some rest, Kim Taehyung,” you say quietly, opening the door to your bedroom. “Goodnight. You are dismissed.”

Taehyung doesn’t argue. Instead, he bows to you and makes his way out. You close the door behind him and close your eyes as your heart races out of your chest.

~

Dear Head Guard Kim Taehyung,

   We haven’t spoken to each other in a month. It’s a shame that you are avoiding me because I miss you quite a bit.

   And also, I’ve thought about what you said. Perhaps I love you too.

   Princess Y/N

~

Dearest Princess Y/N,

   Message received and eliminated.

   Sincerely,

       Head Guard Kim Taehyung

~

A month later, you’re at Yoongi’s coronation ball, hiding from all of the suitors that continually swarm you. You’ve danced with every single one two times already, and they keep fighting for your attention. Frankly, you’re tired of it.

It’s Yoongi’s day--he’s king now. Why can’t everyone bother him instead?

You sit in the castle’s library, leaning against a bookshelf. Your beautiful black and white dress is getting messier by the minute. Well, perhaps not, considering how often the library is cleaned. At least it’s quiet in here, whereas all the noise in the ballroom was getting to your head.

“Aish,” you mutter to yourself, beginning to pace back and forth, “Yoongi, you better make a good decision when it comes to whom I marry.”

“I believe his current choice is Prince Mingyu,” a voice says from behind the large bookshelf. “I think he’s rather suitable, don’t you think?”

You peek your head around the corner and see a brown-haired boy dressed in a gray tuxedo. It’s much different from his guard uniform, and just the sight of him makes your heart race. He smiles at you and putting one hand in his pockets.

“Kim Taehyung,” you say, almost like the sight of him takes your breath away, “it’s been quite some time, has it not?”

He walks towards you, holding a book in his free hand. “Truly. You look beautiful tonight, Princess.”

“As do you,” you say. “You know, Taehyung, we did not leave off on good terms. If I recall correctly, you didn’t care much for my last message.”

Taehyung nods, remembering what your message said in vivid detail. “That’s true. I believe that’s because you’re a princess and I am below you. This would never work out.”

You cross your arms and raise your head. “And still, somehow, I would choose you out of all of those princes presented before me,” you say. Your voice is loud and confidence is laced in every last syllable.

“Princess, with all due respect, you sure are an idiot,” Taehyung says as he finally reaches you. He looks so beautiful up close. “And so am I, for loving you.”

“I know.”

“It’s a shame that fate played us as our pawns, huh?” he asks, taking hold of your hand. “I never really was good at chess.”

“It’s okay,” you murmur, “I lose sometimes too.”

~

Oh, but that isn’t the end of your story. In fact, that was the beginning because it wasn’t just you two in the library that night. King Yoongi was in there too, listening in. He never told you this, though.

When the day came to choose your husband, you sat in a meeting with King Yoongi, your parents, and a lawyer, funnily enough. Head Guards Taehyung, Namjoon, and Seokjin were present as well, making sure no one was to break in. Yoongi stared at the long list with a black pen in hand and crossed off every name from the list.

“Princess Y/N is not marrying anyone from this list,” Yoongi announced.

“No, she must,” your mother said, frustrated with your brother. “Our last wish as King and Queen was that Y/N would marry a man from the list.”

Yoongi nodded and held up his pen. “I’m aware, Mother.” He took his pen and wrote on the bottom of his list. “And because of that, I am adding to the list.”

“Who’s your choice?” your father questions, more curious than upset.

Yoongi lifts the list up to show you all. He has a great big gummy smile and he looks so proud. “Kim Taehyung!” he exclaims, pointing at Taehyung, across the room with his pen.

“Well, I can’t say this goes against tradition because you all know how I felt about tradition,” your father says.

“Then it’s settled!” Yoongi says, smiling at your mother, who looks like she’s just about to erupt. “Head Guard Taehyung shall be His Royal Highness Taehyung. I suppose we must find a new Head Guard to replace him.”

Taehyung is covering his face, hoping that your mother won’t scold him. This wasn’t something he was in on, and this took him completely by surprise. Your mother looks back at you as if you had something to say about this. Well, to be fair, you did have something to say about it, but you weren’t going to.

You put so much trust in Yoongi, and now you know it wasn’t for nothing. Just when you thought you’d lost the game, Yoongi managed to help you win.

Checkmate, fate.

[lysitheaioandeuropa]

1-100 cute questions

:~)

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk?- more cereal than milk! it has to be crunchy and milk is fucking gross, even though i use almond milk instead

2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day?- FUCK yeah, especially if it's also sunny outside

3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books?- grocery receipts are the usual culprit. maybe i should make my own bookmarks!

4: how do you take your coffee/tea?- rn i'm having sugar free white chocolate w half & half and 3 splenda

5: are you self-conscious of your smile?- i'm self conscious of my entire existence my friend

6: do you keep plants?- yes! she gave me and orchid and a bamboo plant a while back, and i have ian my aloe/succulent

7: do you name your plants?- lmfao yes, ian! she named the bamboo melman, and i never named the orchid. zack and sabrina are no longer w us unfortunately

8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings?- i used to write and draw a lot. i don't get a chance to do it as often now but i rly am trying more. i'll even try my hand at inktober this year but yikes scared bc i can't actually draw

9: do you like singing/humming to yourself?- hell yeah bitch if i am in the mood for it

10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach?- all of the above? lmao. my back is most cozy but sleep paralysis, so a mix of side stomach like its a specific diagonal ass position on my bed lol

11: what's an inner joke you have with your friends?- "coming this soon"

12: what's your favorite planet?- FUCKING JUPITER BRO OMFG MY URL ARE TWO OF MY FAVE MOONS OF JUPITER TEST ME BITCH

13: what's something that made you smile today?- i don't think i've smiled today? maybe something michelle said earlier when we went to lowe's

14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like?- *takes pics of my current place*might have a little more aesthetic to it just bc location though. and if i live in a bigger city than orlando that means i have more money to REALLY fulfill my aesthetic wishes

15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is!- Recent work by planetary scientists has indicated that the deep atmospheres of Jupiter and Saturn may contain chunks of diamond floating in a liquid hydrogen-helium fluid. MEANING, it rains diamonds on jupiter

16: what's your favorite pasta dish?- permission crusted chicken, w angel hair in a lemon butter sauce

17: what color do you really want to dye your hair?- i was going for a magenta over the summer and was p successful but my mom paid for me to not keep lightening and shit, that wasn't my money so idc lol rn its auburn-ish. i rly do still want a light blond/almost gray though

18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up.- the time i got incredibly drunk, like, throwing up and dying can't even walk drunk like wow i'm not like that lmao so when that happens it's wild

19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it?- i have multiple journals and a sketch book. the sketch book is whatever i feel inspired to draw atm and bc thats so rare i just be picking it up and going lmao. i hardly write anymore, these questions kinda keep me going

20: what's your favorite eye color?- light brown is vastly underrated tbh, like yeah green is cool but i have always been a sucker for hazel or just noticeably lighter brown eyes. i remember this one boy in the 8th grade had me swooning w that alone lmao and ofc my gf now its soo nice

21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that's been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces.- i no longer have it, but i had the same jansport since the seventh grade. i used to customize it and sew on letters or iron on, change it up ever so often, and got rid of it senior year of high school

22: are you a morning person?- i really am not, but everyone thinks i am since i'm up at 6am even the days i ain't got shit to do

23: what's your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations?- PLAY VIDEO GAMES. draw, do these questions, sometimes even brainstorm ideas about books i'll never write

24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets?- shit every single one of them? well nvm, yeah there is. jordan. that's my ride or die forreal and honestly i think she does know ABSOLUTELY everything there is to know about me. timmy too actually!

25: what's the weirdest place you've ever broken into?- hmm idk if it counts but this one "abandoned house" in the gables to smoke, and the rooftop of merrick park late at night

26: what are the shoes you've had for forever and wear with every single outfit?- bro i had these low top black and white converse that i got for christmas one year from this boy that rly liked me lmao i kept them for a hotttt minute, through college i think but had to throw them away when the sole finally gave out

27: what's your favorite bubblegum flavor?- just mint is fine

28: sunrise or sunset?- sunset

29: what's something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing?- just how she remembers and notices absolutely everything. i moved a pin in my room once and after not having been over for a week she asked me where it was as soon as she walked in

30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared?- yeah last night when i was home alone and i swear i thought i heard knocks on my bedroom door which would be impossible. fuck no i didn't open it

31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks.- i think socks are cool, they make my feet soft if i put them on immediately after showering & moisturizing. they protect your heels from getting too cracked as well. i don't care for white socks, but am a slut for black no show ones. i sometimes have to buy kids socks bc my feet are so fucking small that no show, still show. i like aesthetic socks! like the ones w cartoons and stuff like that. and knee high socks can be sexy, just maybe not on me?

32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends.- i don't be w friends like that? OH but this one night we went to see Laidback Luke at Space and then we went to Nikki beach to drink some more and watch the sun rise and we all rly bonded and i learned some shit about my friends i def ain't know before it was rly nice. there was a dog we met there named molly LMFAO

33: what's your fave pastry?- i like lemon and red velvet stuff. guava and cheese pastries are good too i miss them

34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it?- okay i didn't rly have any stuffed animals as a kid, but that boy i was obsessed with, omar, he gave me a plush lil puppy one year for christmas and omg i cherished it lmao. but then my dog got it and i was so sad :(

35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often?- FUCK YEAH I DO. i use them often, though not as often as before like i need to get back on track w being organized

36: which band's sound would fit your mood right now?- arctic monkeys, always

37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean?- clean!!!! i finished cleaning it completely today and wow i feel like a brand new person

38: tell us about your pet peeves!- messes stress me outtttttt, like gross unhygienic messes omfg

39: what color do you wear the most?- black bitch, next

40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what's it's story? does it have any meaning to you?- i have these 1/4 carat diamond earrings that i received as a christmas gift last year from one of my kids and it was just so sweet and i rly love them, they're the only earrings i wear now

41: what's the last book you remember really, really loving?- the zodiac series! and lord of shadows!

42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it!- no i don't, not yet at least. i would like to find a rly rly nice one, maybe we'll go hunting for one next weekend. there are two rly good boba places i like though!

43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with?- michelle maybe? and no gaze, we just noticed the starts were nice during that hurricane lmao

44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything?- july 8, 2017 it was short lived limited to just that day lmao but it was nice

45: do you trust your instincts a lot?- some times? my instincts don't be telling me a lot tbh

46: tell us the worst pun you can think of.- "what did the cell say to his sister when she stepped on his foot? Mitosis"

47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe?- sea food? fucking pickles!! mustard too

48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today?- roaches, and possibly hell yeah

49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought?- i do! but i have apple music now so i do not buy music or anything any more

50: what's an odd thing you collect?- tickets. plane tickets, parking tickets, concert tickets, admission tickets, sometimes even receipts, if it has a nice enough memory attached to it i collect it

51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them?- nothing i can think of at the moment

52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far?- salt bae, all the "it" memes, the neo yokio memes, "i had to do it to em," x-files memes

53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them?- i'm familiar w rocky horror & the heathers, love beattle juice, haven't watched pulp fiction

54: who's the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face?- myself whenever i look in the mirror

55: what's the most dramatic thing you've ever done to prove a point?- i don't rly be doing shit "just to prove a point" thats rly petty

56: what are some things you find endearing in people?- love when their faces light up talking about some shit that gets them hype

57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics?- i rly don't fucking care for bohemian rhapsody like why is that a thing

58: who's the wine mom and who's the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why?- i am vodka aunt

59: what's your favorite myth?- I LOVE ALL GREEK MYTHOLOGY EQUALLY. norse mythology is cool too, as is celtic but i think greek is my fave

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves?- poetry is hard to get into bc so much of it doesn't resonate w me or comes off as fake deep tumblr posts (i'm looking @ you milk and honey). howl by allen ginsberg is still my fave

61: what's the stupidest gift you've ever given? the stupidest one you've ever received?- i'm always surprised to be getting any gifts at all, i don't think i have ever received anything "stupid." my gf used to love giving me food and candy though but like i'm fat so no. and i don't give gifts without putting any thought into it so i have never given a "stupid" gift either.

62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind?- no, i drink ice cold water and coffee. sometimes crystal light which isn't rly juice to me i think its just flavored water

63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be?- nigga YES! i just reorganized my entire bookshelf and my itunes is not as neat bc i'm behind but i also keep that rly meticulously done

64: what color is the sky where you are right now?- blue-ish gray

65: is there anyone you haven't seen in a long time who you'd love to hang out with?- my gf, lmao. thuy!!!! nick and andres too omg!!

66: what would your ideal flower crown look like?- not roses, it'd be an assortment of a ton of flowers, lots of pink and green and white

67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel?- i fucking THRIVE it's nice, scary movie and reading weather

68: what's winter like where you live?- it's FAKE AS HELL. i wish it just a tad cooler, like ten or fifteen degrees

69: what are your favorite board games?- i like scategories and the game of life. candyland!

70: have you ever used a ouija board?- those are caucasian activities no thank you

71: what's your favorite kind of tea?- great tea or tazo passion tea

72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you'll forget it?- HELL YEAH and i'll note it down multiple times like written, typed, phone agenda, etc it's hard and i hate my shit memory

73: what are some of your worst habits?- procrastination is the worst i think

75: tell us about your pets!- i don't have any :( i would count zeus but i'm also deathly allergic to him

76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren't?- yeah!!!!! smh

77: pink or yellow lemonade?- "why not both?" probably pink more

78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub?- hate that shit they're so ugly and annoying and gross and hate how they talk like bro

79: what's one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you?- i never thought my mom cared about me tbh but she threw me a huge graduation/birthday party i cried.

80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why?- they're a nude/beige, i didn't pick it but i'm also not painting over. its nice though

81: describe one of your friend's eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of.- this sounds nice in theory but i dont rly have the energy for it rn lol

82: are/were you good in school?- i was but i coasted, had i tried a lot harder and dedicated more time to it i could have been better

83: what's some of your favorite album art?-i can't think of any rly  

84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones?- i have to add to what i have on my back, and have a few more i would like but am not sure about

85: do you read comics? what are your faves?- i do! i'm actually reading one now on tumblr, its called countdown to countdown and its rather interesting. i like twd comics, and am also reading the OoT manga. i rly love manga too actually, inuyasha was the first one i read that got me into it

86: do you like concept albums? which ones?- BECAUSE THE INTERNET, CHILDISH GAMBINO

87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives?- i've seen a ton of movies dude. i think spirited away or kiki's delivery service, or princess mononoke. ghibli movies w strong female leads. howl's moving castle too but it does focus more on romance. i should reread the book

88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy?- i'm not familiar enough w art to tell you! i think art is rly interesting though, and don't particularly care for modern art

89: are you close to your parents?- not rly, but am more so as an adult. i don't tell them my business or anything like that though

90: talk about your one of you favorite cities.- seattle just really resonates w me and the more i talk about it the stupider it sounds. but i have been to quite a few cities, DC, atlanta, Tallahassee, miami, san diego, vegas, the list goes on. none of them made me feel the way seattle does. maybe bc i went alone? maybe the time period that i went? some of the memories attached to the city kind of suck now, lol, but still rly important to me

91: where do you plan on traveling this year?- nowhere in particular this year, but i'm def going back to seattle next year guaranteed, maybe doing paradiso

92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch?- if its my own sauce then no cheese at all, otherwise olive garden def hates me

93: what's the hairstyle you wear the most?- i just wash it and wear it down

94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday?- today is felisha's bday apparently

95: what are your plans for this weekend?- uh idk, ig see my gf. i'm avoiding a baby shower but idk what we'll do instead

96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot?- i procrastinate on them a ton lmfao "remind me later" yeah bitch in like a century

97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house?- INTP, gemini, ravenclaw

98: when's the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it?- i don't think i ever have gone hiking

99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them.- i'm sure there are a few but nothing i can think of off the top of my head. reflection by 5h actually lol

100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why?- FIVE YEARS INTO THE PAST and five years ago is a rly good time to go back to!!! i was 20 and going through suchhhhh a bad break up but i wish i could have gotten up and been a bad bitch sooner lol i love the stuff i experienced that year, went to my first edc and whatnot. 2013 was rough on me but i pushed through it! 2014 i made some bad choices that i would change, 2015 wan alright but i can do it better and i'm not even sure what 2016 was. i would have started teaching sooner had i known it was something i could do i think. i would have worked harder and been more responsible especially financially, though tbh i did pretty well. i'd just do adulthood a lot better and start off a lot stronger. I WOULD REDO THAT LOCKHEED INTERVIEW AND ROCK THE SHIT OUT OF IT.