#which is so funny bc different brands measure differently anyway

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Rico Royal 3s >>>>>> Vandoren 3s

I said what I said ! !

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Thoughts I had reading Jujutsu Kaisen for the 1st time

So, I started watching Jujutsu Kaisen yesterday. Bc I was bored. So I thought "why not watch that anime @tozhan talks about on their blog?" So, I watched it.

Two episodes. The thing has only two episodes so far.

And here I am, having already looked through Megumi's tag on tumblr. I already searched for JJK on reddit, and did my best to avoid more revealing spoilers.

Seems like a new obsession is building up. Obsession bc I either go all in or don't care at all.

While I wait for the third episode to be available for me on crunchyroll, I started on the manga.

And I have some thoughts. Said thoughts aren't anything deep. I leave that to smarter, more observant blogs.

I’m gonna do this chapters 1 through 5. I lied, I’m only going to do the first chapter. This got too long. I had more thoughts than I realized.

Chapter 1: Ryomen Sukuna

So it starts. A little different from the anime, but the difference is more the order of the scenes than anything else. Okay. In the anime we open with Itadori waking up to Gojo’s beautiful face. In the manga, Megumi is in the begining of what is about to be a no good, very bad 24 hours. Did he even sleep, I wonder.

Anyway, Megumi is talking to Gojo, who is not being very helpful.

His hair is so long in the anime I had to wonder how long did it take him to get it to stay in place.

Next up, we meet the occult club: Yuji, Sasaki and Iguchi. And they are playing ouija. Why would you do this children?

Then, in comes the council president who is, apparently, weaker than a carp. That’s a lil’ mean kids. Also, come colect your twin, Iida. He needs help. Then comes asshole teacher. And no, Mr. Council President, changing the application is not fair.

And we see the first monster and Megumi has questions. Ask Sasaki, she would know.

No, seriously, did he sleep? This barely even started and I already worry about him. It took me a second to realize this kid is the same one that was lowkey freaking out about the missing cursed object earlier. The power of rolled up sleeves.

Question number 1: why did they specify which school Itadori is from? Is he not from this school? I’m confused.

Itadori: 1. Asswhole teacher: 0. Good for him.

“We’re scared because we like it.” Okay. That makes no sense, but okay. You guys are cute. 

Question number 2: who is Zenin-senpai?

And Megumi finds the cursed object...kinda.

Also

Iida, you gotta keep track of your relatives.

Oh, grumpy grandpa. Can’t blame him, being in a hospital must suck. And whatever it is he wants to tell Yuji about his parents, the kid doesn’t want to hear it. But I do. Tell me.

“You’re a strong kid, so help people. It doesn’t have to be everyone. Just whenever you can. You may feel lost. Don’t expect gratitude. Just help them. When it’s your time to go, make sure you’re surrounded by others. Don’t end up like me.”

It is a good advice all around, but ended up real sad there. He only has his grandson visiting him, it seems. He sounds lonely (obviously, or he wouldn’t tell Yuji to make sure he has company when he dies. Duh). I wonder what kind of regrets he has. And then he died. In the anime, the scene was still and silent for so long I thought my phone had freezed up.

Poor Yuji. 

Question number 3: Yuji seemed to have only had his grandpa and now he is dead. And he is still a minor? What will happen to him now?

Question number 4: Yuji says that this is his first time experiencing death. So his parents aren’t dead? So, they left? Is that why he didn’t want to hear whatever his grandpa had to say about them? 

Megumi found Yuji. How? Did you follow him there? Wasn’t Yuji like, super fast?

So, it turns out Megumi is also a student. I thought he was an adult, doing grown up job, dealing with unhelpful coworkers. In the anime, I found out he was a student when Gojo showed up and Megumi called him “sensei”.

So, they meet and explanations happen. Thank you Megumi, you’re very helpful.

You know who is not helpful? Whoever it was that decided to place a very dangerous cursed object in a school. Schools tend to have very curious people that go around poking at things they shouldn’t. Like a Special Grade Category Extremely Dangerous Cursed Object™. Definitely the last thing you should put in a school. Dumbass.

Anyway, the thing is empty. Megumi’s day is just great. So is Yuji’s.

Are they always gonna be like this? I feel like they are always gonna be like this. Dumb children :)

Anyway, the occult club wants to peel off the seal. Why, children? OMG!!

“I can’t get it off!”, she says. Good. Probably for a good reason. Stop trying!!

And the seal is off. Gross. Don’t keep holding it. 

Whoever was the owner of this finger desperately needed to fix their nails. Too pointy. Also, are those little faces over there? It looks like faces to me.

It’s just occult club’s luck that the seal is so old. Fucking great for them.

Megumi, baby, you might as well have told him to come with you. But point for trying. See, this is why it took me so long to figure out he was a student instead of an adult on the job. 

Disgusting thing. Disgusting, ugly thing. Buy a clock.

Poor Sasaki. She just wanted to have some fun of the haunted kind. And Iguchi, boy, wtf.

Ah, yes. PUPPIES!!! I tried to do the do shadow thing, but I can’t with my left hand. The ring finger just don’t want to join up with the smallest one in that hand.

Look at them!!

I named the white one Ghost, - yes THAT Ghost, he deserved better - , bc in the anime it is white fluffed and red eyed. And the other one I’ll call Shadow. Bc I have no creativity. They are literally Megumi’s hand (Ghost) and the shadow created by it ( Shadow). Huh. Nice.

I don’t know if they have names, so I’m gonna call them that for now.

“Go and feast!”. Look at the bags under his eyes. He hasn’t slept. You really should have slept, boy. Is this going to keep happening? Possibly.

Meanwhile, Yuji is outside, debating fear and death. The difference being your grandpa had already lived his whole life. It’s painful, but it was time for him to go. Your friends are only just now starting their lives, so for them to die now would be incredibly unfair and all kinds of wrong.

Just how many monsters, sorry, curses are there? I thought it was just the one? Jesus Christ! All because of one rotting, smelly finger.

And that disgusting scene. It is no less disgusting in the manga then it was on the anime, though there was more groping in the anime. Gross, gross, grooooooss. Leave her alone, damn it.

And Yuji for the rescue!

Question number  5: how did you get that high up, boy? They are in, what, third, fourth floor? Did you parkour your way up?

How did he manage to grab both of his friends, who is this kid?!

Disgusting monster. Yes, Fushiguro, rip it to shreds. I need to write his last name if I want to learn how it’s spelled. I kept calling him Fushigari. It’s why it has been Megumi so far.

“Did you know people actually die?” At first, this is funny because, of course people actually die, duh. But then, even though you know everyone dies eventually, it feels much more real when it’s someone you’re close to.

Megumi has no time for more explanations, give him the thing.

Aaand there’s more monsters. And I thought “That’s it? Megumi is gonna die already? But I like him!! You can’t!”. Thankfully, he didn’t die. He just got a beating, but he is fine!

I wonder who is going to explain all the destruction in the school. And how they are going to explain it.

Yuji for the rescue again. You go, boy.

Right?! I mean, he is just a random high school kid, right? How can he just puch a monster just like that?

Question number 6: does this have something to do with his parents? It does, doesn’t it?

Damn it Yuji, why didn’t you listen to your grandpa. I wanna know.

“I’d be having nightmares if I left now!” Yeah, the less PTSD, the better. Good kid.

And here comes the finger eating scene. No less gross. But here it seems more calculated, where in the anime it was more a desperate times, desperate measures kinda thing. He was about to be eaten himself, after all.

Look at him. He doesn’t even hesitate. Like I said to @niks-minion​, Yuji and Midoriya need better eating habits. They can’t just keep eating things they find in the street like that. Especially Yuji. You don’t know where the finger has been, boy. And it’s definetely expired. And he ate nail first. God, this is disgusting. He didn’t even made a face. Or gagged. I did. Disgusting, disgusting, disgustiiing. Ugh.

Anyway, Megumi, poor boy, is freaking out because his brand new friend of just a few hours just got possessed by the thing he just ate. No good, very bad day.

A face only a mother could love. Maybe. This is worse than any of Bakugou’s worst faces.

And the monster got ripped to shreds. Good.

Nice tattoos you got there. But what’s with the obsession with children and women? You leave them alone, creep.

Yuji for the rescue number 3.

Itadori be like “ Surprise, bitch. Bet you thought you’d seen the last of me.”

And next he knows, he is gonna be exorcised. He looks so confused. This was a very weird day for him.

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ooh hey I've got something for you: your characters as lines from Siken poems :))))

THIS IS MY WHOLE PERSONALITY AND BRAND IN AN ASK THANK U FOR THIS HOT DANG OK

(also this was really fun and I learned something about my characters from this so thaaanks)

It’s under the cut bc this is LONG

Jess - wishbone

You saved my life he says I owe you everything.You don’t, I say, you don’t owe me squat, let’s just get going, let’s just get gone, but he’s           relentless,keeps saying I owe you, says Your shoes are filling with your own damn blood,you must want something, just tell me, and it’s yours.          But I can’t look at him, can hardly speak,I took the bullet for all the wrong reasons, I’d just as soon kill you myself, I say.You keep saying I owe you, I owe…but you say the same thing every time.          Let’s not talk about it, let’s just not talk.Not because I don’t believe it, not because I want it any different, but I’m always savingand you’re always owing and I’m tired of asking to settle the debt.          Don’t bother.You never mean it anyway, not really, and it only makes me that much more ashamed.There’s only one thing I want, don’t make me say it, just get me bandages, I’m bleeding,          I’m not just making conversation.(…)Do you want it? Do you want anything I have? Will you throw me to the groundlike you mean it, reach inside and wrestle it out with your bare hands?          If you love me, you don’t love me in a way I understand.

Shadow - Planet of Love

Imagine this:You’re pulling the car over. Somebody’s waiting.You’re going to diein your best friend’s arms.And you play along because it’s funny, because it’s written down,you’ve memorized it,it’s all you know.I say the phrases that keep it all going,and everybody plays along.Imagine:Someone’s pulling a gun, and you’re jumping into the middle of it.You didn’t think you’d feel this way.There’s a gun in your hand.It feels hot. It feels oily.

Diana - Little Beast

In the living room, in the broken yard,in the back of the car as the lights go by. In the airportbathroom’s gurgle and flush, bathed in a pharmacy ofunnatural light,my hands looking weird, my face weird, my feet too far away.I arrived in the city and you met me at the station,smiling in a waythat made me frightened. Down the alley, around the arcade,up the stairs of the buildingto the little room with the broken faucets, your drawings, all your things,I looked out the window and saidThis doesn’t look that much different from home,because it didn’t,but then I noticed the black sky and all those lights.

Melody - Visible World

The dawn was breaking the bones of your heart like twigs.You had not expected this,the bedroom gone white, the astronomical light pummelingyou in a stream of fists.You raised your hand to your face as ifto hide it, the pink fingers gone gold as the lightstreamed straight to the bone,as if you were the small room closed in glass

Ricky - Snow and Dirty Rain

We have not touched the stars,nor are we forgiven, which brings us backto the hero’s shoulders and the gentleness that comes,not from the absence of violence, but despitethe abundance of it.

Bonus: The entire novel - Editor’s Pages: The Definitive Version

Imagine a story where everything goes wrong, where everyone has their back against the wall, where everyone is in pain and acting selfishly because if they don’t, they’ll die. Imagine a story, not of good against evil, but of need against need against need, where everyone is at cross-purposes and everyone is to blame.

Bonus 2.0: OTP: put them on me if you want to - Editor’s Pages: The Long and Short of It

We dream and dream of being seen as we really are and then finally someone looks at us and sees us truly and we fail to measure up. Anyway: story received, story included. You looked at me long enough to see something mysterioso under all the gruff and bluster. Thanks. Sometimes you get so close to someone you end up on the other side of them.