#which is funny bc i started one months ago that's still not finished

[vettesebas]

no one:

absolutely nobody:

me: hey, how 'bout some seikki fic?

"i know what you boys said the other day."

Seb said it plainly, without malice. he'd already taken his usual place on the massage table, arms halfway out of his race suit.

Heikki smarted a little. he and Antti were just having a bit of fun. Antti didn't have to take it as far as he did, but you can't put the shit back in the horse. "oh? and what did we say?"

"that i am 'fruity.'" a small smile settled on his mouth. he'd flailed his way out of the suit, the crinkling loud in the tiny, darkened room.

Heikki didn't blanch; in fact, he shrugged. "prove me wrong."

Seb chuckled once, looked at Heikki, then chuckled again. he peeled the fireproofs off his body, exposing the sweaty, well-toned torso of a two-time world champion. droplets flew from his hair as he drew the shirt overhead.

Heikki frowned internally. it wasn't like Seb to go for a massage without a shower first. body heat rolled off of him; the scent of champagne, clean sweat and spent adrenaline filled the space. Heikki turned around to let him finish disrobing. he seemed to be taking an awful long time, humming languidly as he did so. Heikki heard his charge arrange himself flat on the surface, followed by a tap on his rear.

"cheeky," Heikki surmised. Seb only beamed at him and awaited his rubdown.

Heikki got to work in his efficient, no-nonsense style. stroke, stroke, knead, stroke. Seb let go entirely at Heikki's touch with a blissful sigh, the race draining from him. he was being more demonstrative with his feedback than usual, and that was saying something. Seb was so sensitive, so keen to react to stimulation that sometimes he was a literal handful; Heikki didn't quite know what to do with him.

rhythmic groans started to slip from Seb's mouth, matched to Heikki's strokes. the deeper the trainer went, the deeper the groans. what's gotten into him today, he wondered. Australia'd been a rough one, he couldn't deny that. it'd been a while since a celebration; did the new diet make the champagne go to his head?

a few moments of silence as Heikki unknotted the young driver, his flesh warm and yielding. then, as he worked on a particularly hard knot, out spilled "oh yes…yes, just like that. ohh." Seb followed with a hushed noise that instantly made the base of Heikki's spine tingle, a sensation alarming but ignorable. 

the kneading stopped. "...too much?"

Heikki thought carefully how to phrase his response. "a little, yeah."

"i can't help it if you're doing a good job." he peeked up a sidelong glance at Heikki, an irresistible smile painted on his lips. prickles of sweat needled at Heikki's scalp. was it especially warm in here today?

there; the back was done. "turn over," he ordered, tried not to glance down, and failed. even through a thick white towel, his patron's excitement was clearly evident. it wasn't the first time – these things do happen – but unusually, Seb displayed no awkward gestures, revealed no sense of shame. he stretched his arms, relaxed and dreamy, that blissful smile still plastered all over his face. something about the warmth in his gaze, pupils huge in the low light…

Heikko took a proffered arm, delighting Seb. he worked from fingers to shoulder, manipulating, squeezing, bleeding all the tension out of Seb's body. then the other arm. Heikki could now see Seb's face; his eyes closed, his mouth working, smiling, humming that damned hum again. even Heikki had to admit he looked angelic, in an infuriating way.

done with the limbs, Heikki slid his muscular forearms down to Seb's pecs. a small gasp escaped Seb's perfectly pink lips, his eyes fluttering open ever so slightly. Heikki could feel the tiny nipples stiffen under his hands, the effect almost immediate. a flush wended its way up his arms and into his neck, unbidden. he moved to the abs and obliques, but Seb squirmed ever so slightly under his grip, almost shimmying, pulling the attention back to his chest.

as much out of curiosity as the need to do a thorough job, Heikki slowly squeezed more massage oil onto his burly hands. if he didn't know better, he could swear he saw Seb bite his lower lip the tiniest bit. Seb was watching him work, that much he could tell. he warmed up the sweet-smelling oil between his hands, dribbling a little onto Seb's bare stomach; Seb shivered involuntarily at the contact, sucking in air. god, he was really giving it his all today, wasn't he.

firmly, gently, Heikki placed his hands back on Seb's chest. the air came back out again in a sharp pant, at once ragged and needy. why the hell am i doing this, Heikki thought to himself as he began to knead Seb's soft tits, the nipples becoming mush under his attentions. Seb was outright moaning now, his eyes wide with ecstasy, loving each insistent stroke. Heikki heard his pulse roaring in his ears as he glided oil all through Seb's thatch of chest hair, matting it down, making it slick. Seb swayed and arched on the table, mouth soft and smiling and wet, his hand slowly going towards the towel—

Heikki grabbed the offending hand and held it still. Seb snapped out of his reverie enough to register surprise and a whiff of doubt — had he gone too far?

Heikki fixed him with a stern look, an arm's length away. with his free hand, he started to work Seb's chest again, his eyes flicking all over Seb's face, taking him in. Seb tilted his head forwards as Heikki came nearer, straining for all he was worth, until their lips finally met in the middle.

Heikki wasn't aware that he'd always wondered how Seb would taste. champagne and sweet heat and an eager tongue greeted him, melting his resistance. he let go of Seb's hand and proceeded to knead again, cupping him, stroking him, thumbing the nipples. his reward was hot breath in his mouth and divine mewls and hands around his cheeks, clamping them together.

at last they came apart, a thin strand of saliva linking them still. Heikki gazed down in disbelief and wonder. how had this goddamned twink make him come entirely undone?

Seb looked up at him with a vicious twinkle, still punch-drunk. "homppeli," he breathed inside their warm little universe, whisper loud as a shout.

"turpa kiinni," Heikki said with a breaking voice, placing a fake slap against his cheek, before he augured in for another kiss.

[love-belle]

i should hate u !!!

*ੈ✩‧₊˚ in which their post break-up era is them using shady captions to communicate and the media and fans being confused.

or

for when you loved them too much. ˚ ༘♡ ⋆｡˚

social media au // max verstappen x fem!reader

sequel - today and tomorrow and every day after that ⋆·˚ ༘ *

warnings - language

author's note - hello!!! i really hope u like this <3 i was initially gonna do daniel ricciardo one first but i already had 1/2 of this done so i just decided to post this :) thank u sm for reading <3 i love u

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f1news y/n y/l/n and max verstappen called it quits almost a month ago and it seems like they didn't end on good terms at all. the singer, at her london show last night, threw shade at her ex-boyfriend, saying and we quote, "the next song wouldn't have been possible without this one dude who inspired it obviously. so — here's 'i should hate you'. spoiler alert, i do. thank you!" the reason for the split is still unknown but sources who claim to be close to the pair said that 'it was bound to happen — with their different goals and plans for the future," seemingly referring to the talks that y/l/n wanted to get married and verstappen didn't. both of them have yet to comment on the situation. for more details, click on the link in our bio.

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[solarwonux]

I think I have boy problems????

Well...would it still be considered boys problems if I am the one creating them in my head??

Anyway, buckle up for the ride if you want to know all about my boy problem/not problem.

Backstory...I've stayed away from dating for a long time for a lot of reasons. And to be honest I am very happy being single. It's fun, but until recently people have mentioned or asked if I had a boyfriend bc I just look extra happy and pretty. And I'm like nah it's just me, I am just happy. But it did get me thinking should I go back to dating??? It's something I've been toying with for like a months or so. And my friend constantly wants to set me up with someone. I don't know how I feel about apps, but for now it's a no for me. Now, that that is out of the way...here's the situation.

More backstory, a couple of weeks ago. A co worker of mine who has been dating was like "I'm going on a date with this guy I met from bumble." She had previously told me about him but then I asked to see a picture. And let me tell you the world is fucking small. The guy that she was going on a date with is friends with my friend. And I have previously only heard about him and I've seen pictures of him. So I told my Co worker this and then she told him when they went on the date that they had somebody in common. She did tell me about her date and she said that honestly he gave her more like friend vibes and that she isn't looking for anything serious but he is.

Flash forward a couple of days I meet up with my friend because we are going to Hong Kong together so we were finishing planning our trip. She tells me that she hung out with the guy during the weekend, and that he kept asking about my Co worker, but my friend doesn't know her, she's only met her once. And he tells her that they had planned to go on another date, but that something came up and they decided to move it to another day. As of right now, I'm positive they still haven't gone on that date.

Now flash forward again to Saturday night. My friend is celebrating her birthday and this is the first time that I officially meet this guy. The first thing he says to me is "hey you're _____ co worker." And I was like yeah. We start walking to the first destination of the night it's cool we are vibing. But whenever I meet someone for the first time I am always really reserved, until I feel comfortable. Then we go to dinner and one of our other friends there says "hey you guys are matching you should send a picture to (co worker name), it would be funny." Tbh I laugh it off and move on.

Then we get to the first bar, but on our way to the first bar I think he asks me how my co worker is and im just like "fine," idk if he wanted more deets on her but hes the one talking to her he should just as ask her straight up. But anyway at the first bar after a while he comes up to me and was like "Let's take a picture so I can send it to _____." And so we take the picture (tbh I'm offended that he didn't even send me the picture it's kinda cute.) Then we start to get more comfortable with each other.

We go to the club and this is when things start to get a little complicated. Mind you we didn't leave the club until like 4 am. But anyway, I don't drink anymore when I go out for a lot of reasons. But he asks me and I'm like "oh I think I have an allergy to alcohol " which honestly it's not a lie. My nose gets really runny when I drink and I get really red. Then everybody is dancing, we are all having a good time. He's a dancer but so am I so we start having like idiotic dance battles with our other friend. And the vibes are good.

Then at some point I do ask him to dance with me. It started out very innocently but then things get very heated and touchy. We last like this for a long time, maybe like 4 songs. Then I try to teach him how to salsa and bless his soul he's trying. But this lasts for like another couple of songs. But then I see my friend crying so I was like "bye my friend is crying," so I went to see what happened and I do have a vague idea of what happened, but I just sit down quietly next to her. And he comes to sit down next to me.

Flash forward an hour later we do the whole dancing thing again. We are touchy, I try to get him to salsa. But then it's time to leave. On our way to the restaurant we are walking alone together and just talking. He's asking me how long I've been living in korea and how long I've been studying korean. And maybe you could classify this as flirting but tbh I am clueless when a guy tries to flirt with me.

Moving on we eat dinner/breakfast bc at this point it's like 5am. But it's finally time to go home. All our other friends call cabs. But me, my friend him decide to just take the bus or train home since the first train was going to open in like 30 mins. We are walking and I said "I almost fell in spanish." And then he says something that can insinuate do you want to kiss me in spanish. But not like that it's pretty complicated but earlier in the night while we were eating dinner my friend and I said "saliva" in spanish, which there are a multitude of ways. So basically he brought that up again.

Anyway, back to what I was saying. I said "lol stop saying that." And then my friend was like "omg you're insinuating that you want to kiss Laura." And I don't know if he was trying to deflect it at first but she kept like joking with him about it and I can't remember if my friend was the one who brought up my Co worker or if he did. But I did say "she wouldn't care if you did." Because in all honesty it just seems like she wouldn't especially if she has hinted that he's not really interested him.

Now my problem is...I think I now have a stupid crush on him. I have the means to contact him in a bunch of different ways. But first idk if I should because even though I am interested in him. I just don't think he would he interested in me, just given my track record nobody ever is. And if he was I think he would've at least tried to say something by now. Also it could be very possible that I'm the only one that remembers what happened bc I was the only one who was sober. So he might not know what happened, which makes me feel terrible. But there's also like my Co worker, like I don't want to be that person who steals somebody from someone.

So it's just a frustrating situation because I can see myself getting to know him. And he's also the first guy i feel comfortable with. Like i let him touch me and it didnt feel bad but good. And i dont know if you guys know me or remember but if you're new here just know that last year in april something very bad happened to me involving a guy. And since then I've been repulsed by men. But he's the first one that I haven't felt that way with.

And like idk what to do but I already cried about this so many times. Like should I make a move or just send him a message or forget about it because I'm delusional and like he is not interested in me.

Ugh I'm sorry for ranting. It's just my real friends from back home were not helpful at all. And it's to long to explain to my friends here over text so I rather tell them in person when I see them. But for now I just needed to get it off my chest.

[again-please]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Spread the self-love ❤

well hello there!

i do at long last finally have more than 5 fics that i will cop to (sorry 2 my abandoned reylo children) which feels nice.

A Little Further is like my pride and joy, one of those times it just feels right from start to finish and your brain never gets in the way. it’s funny bc this was written fully three years ago at this point deep in early access, but even having written it knowing only the version of act 1 that was available at the time, i’m still happy with it.

Moderation was the result of one long weekend where i became completely possessed. i hadn’t really been interested in writing the bite scene initially bc bite scene was kind of the bread and butter of early access and i felt like it had been Done, but then as DWMD started to grow into the beast that it is, i really wanted to have that moment on record for neve and astarion. and Vexed Due to Multiple Kinds of Thirst Astarion is simply the most fun thing to write.

Dancing With My Demons is third here not out of a lack of love but because it’s the long haul. it’s the complex relationship. it was originally supposed to be MAYBE five chapters and now i’m gonna be writing this thing until i’m 40 probably because i decided to see it through from early access to the full release. the trajectory has changed a lot but i love it and i love neve and i love you if you’re on this weird journey with me and my darling wizard.

Sitting Out Dances on the Wall is like literally for me and @aevallare and neve and auri and no one else. my obsession for two entire months and the most self-indulgent thing ever written both in terms of making our favorite barbies kiss and sneaking in a ton of neve lore. read if you dare.

find a thread to pull, and we can watch it unravel. because look bitch i’m a reylo forever and this thing basically got me back in the game. it’s stupid and sappy and i probably wouldn’t be here posting again without it. this and A Little Further are probably proof that i should stick to the three-shot as a format lmao

thanks for letting me blab a little c:

[eyes-inthe-dark]

Hi Hello I actually make things sometimes

I don't know if anyone who follows me is interested in this stuff bc I very rarely post things from my own life, but I decided to be a little more active on here besides reblogging funny shit regarding my current hyperfixation.

So, here is the (incomplete) crafting diary of a neurodivergent trans person surviving christmas with the family and the dark and dreadful times (winter) in general by making shit! with my hands!

First: fiber stuff

I picked up tablet weaving over the last few months of 2023 and made my first pair of somewhat mistake-free shoelaces over the holidays! Only got the pattern completely right on the second try with the red but both laces now get to add a fun little detail to my shoes.

Next I tried a more complicated pattern and experimented a lot, hence the irregular pattern and troubleshooting at the start of the band. I'm now repurposing it as a camera strap and I learned a lot from it tho.

My current setup is basic cardboard tablets (I had to make extra ones so I had enough for the last band with 30 cards), tying the warp to something sturdy like a bookshelf, and sitting down with a backstrap belt on the other side of the room. I used thin wool yarn for this, which stuck to itself quite a lot, but not too much to be unmanagable, and I really like how the finished product feels.

If anyone's interested, I could make a longer post on how I made the shoelaces, I think it's a very beginner friendly project.

I managed to get my hands on a drop spindle and gave that a try, but I ran out of wool after making a very small amount of very chunky yarn and am currently working out where to best get sth local. It was fun tho!

I also finally finished the knitted scarf that has been in my wip pile for... approximately three years? I started it when I was still in school, feels like an eternity ago. It's just a simple (although very long) red wool scarf, but it keeps me nice and warm in this cold, harsh- *checks weather* ...5°C and neverending rain.

Next up: woodworking!

Noodled around with my grandpa's old dremel that we still had lying around, which resulted in this truly terrifying weapon:

Behold! I named it Toothling. It's great for poking friends and family when they least expect it.

This was more of a test run to see if it all still works and to try out doing small scale work with wood, now I gotta think of something fun to make. (I say, as if I didn't already have 50 different ideas)

Before that fuckery, I made this magnetic dice box/rolling tray for my lovely partner's birthday.

Though I don't feel like I can take credit for working the CNC magic on this, I did all the hands-on work with the sanding, assembling the magnets, shellac coating, and whatnot. I'm pretty sure wood is some sort of fruit tree, since it smells strongly of what I suspect might be plum or cherry.

Last but sure as fuck not least: embroidery

This I actually get professional instruction for at uni. I've kinda lost patience for it atm, but mostly because I cannot resist making unnecessarily complicated pieces with tiny little stitches and then am forced to finish it because I do actually kinda need to pass this class. My lecturer keeps telling me not to go so detailed, yet I have proven resistant to her good advice. But, I figured if I have to make two full pieces of embroidery to be graded on and put hours of work into, I might as well choose designs that I can turn into patches for my jacket:

Catha and Ruidus! I love me some big moon little moon imagery. The prompt was to incorporate most of the techniques/stitches we've learned so far. Added the little gold chain stitch around ruidus for the arcane latticework. It came out a little wonky shape wise, but I love it nonetheless.

And my most recent wip, a stained glass window design with the Ninth House skull and Gideon's sword behind it, to feed my current Locked Tomb obsession.

And that's it!

[xoxojisu]

MY THOUGHTS ON THE FINAL HASHIRA TRAINING ARC THAT NO ONE ASKED FOR BUT I WILL BE SHARING

first of all.

why did they animate muzans walk for SO GODDAMN LONG. like okay ik big deal bc KIBUTSUJI MUZAN 👹👹 is here and like suspense is rly important and yadayadaya but like BRO. i could've baked a wedding cake in that time like WHAT. i wanted to just press the +10s button so bad the whole time but i convinced myself the suspense would like add to my experience and i needed to sit in my anticipation bc this is how ur supposed to watch it but i got so impatient like bruh its not that hard just WALK.

secondly!

idk why but the hashira desperation to run run run was so entertaining. like after i finished the ep i rewound it just to see them like running to the mansion. i have no idea why i js rly thoroughly enjoyed that part for some reason. like the "get there in time!!"' and "oyakata-sama!"' stuff was just so fun to see like yesss run run run (do i have a problem)

same thing applies for when gyomei was like "THIS BITCH IS HIM" and they all went like *widened eyes* 😳THATS HIM?!?!?!!!?!😳 like it was just so fun to see

same for like when they all started releasing attacks on him?? like they all went ___ breathing, ___ form!! and i was like YESSS GET HIMMMMMM. so upset they didnt js like kick his ass. like ik it would've been a terrible way to end everything and stuff but like. i kinda js wanted a simple clean like 40 minute fight scene with js like all the hashira + tanjiro vs KIBUTSUJI MUZAN DUN DUN DUN!! but like obvi that'd be kinda anticlimactic and muzan cant go down that easily but like still. WHOOP ASS. WHOOP ASS. WHOOP ASS.

thirdly!

muzan is rly fucking hot im ngl

KIDDING WHAT?!?!?!?!?! crazy why would u think that... (ik u agree dont try to lie to me rn.)

fourth point!!!!

idk why but i had no idea amane was oyakata-sama's wife. anyways.

fifth point!

i was lowk kinda let down?? like ik this ep was like an essential transition and stuff but when i saw 40 mins as a non-manga reader i was hyped bc i thought it would be this like rly cool episode full of fighting and important details and while yes it was like rly important i was kinda sad that there wasn't more conflict and fighting. like yeah oyakata-sama died and all but he was dead like 10 yrs ago bro

sixth!!

i am so hyped for the next arc but like they said its gonna be a movie?!?!?! bruh. ARE U FR. listen im like not the type of girl who could like go out to her local theater and see the freaking demon slayer movie like no. (im shy) which means im gonna have to dodge spoilers for MONTHS and then wait for MONTHS for it to come out so i can watch it at home in the safety of my bed. its gonna be the hq movie all over again (if anyone has any good piracy websites for hq movie + the demon slayer movie once its out lmk!!)

seventh noteeeee

that whole end credit scene with rengoku?? was it like a casual dead-mentor encouragement thing or was it like foreshadowing that he'll be rly important in the next arc

eighth note!!

i thought that *angry sanemi running noises* were so funny i was literally giggling

that is all goodnight

[noangeleither]

"About the Blogger" Meme

Thanks for tag @bioloyg <3

Star Sign(s): Scorpio Sun (I literally never remember my other ones, I should probably memorize them)

Favorite Holidays: Christmas and Halloween. even tho i find it harder to feel the holiday spirit up until the very last minute i love christmas so much. and not even to be corny but its true that when you grow up you start to care less about the presents and more about the memories with family and friends.

i grew up in a religous family so my parents didnt let me celebrate halloween but i still love it with my whole heart. im a november baby so i love fall and all things eerie and spooky.

Last Meal: McDonalad's snack wrap and one of those new fruit splash drinks. its exam season so ofc im eating like shit. will probably eat some ice cream when i get home after my physiology exam in 30 minutes. so yay to junk food

Current Favorite Musician: currently ive been really enjoying pinkpantheress. her new album is literally 10/10. she has such a knack for melodies, and her lyrics are very eerie and poetic while maintaining a cutesy 2000s vibe. shes also a sampling queen.

honoarble mentions: ive been listening to a lot of janet, rosalia and red velvet these days too.

Last Music Listened To: feedback by janet Jackson. bro istg you have to clear the area when this comes on, i cant help but dance

Last Movie Watched: last movie i watched was bride wars. honestly a classic movie, so funny and i love wedding movies so i reccomend it. that was a month ago tho, which is crazy.

Last TV Show Watched: like the wonderful person who tagged me i watched the bear last. i just rewatched s02e01. ive been doing this thing where i'll either rewatch episodes for research, boredom or just because i get sucked in rewatching a specific clip that makes me want to rewatch the whole episode.

Last Book/Fic Finished: last fic i finished was keeping up with the berzattos by chefskiss40 on ao3. ive reread it like 3 or 4 times now and im patiently waiting for an update. its just so good, i love the domestic vibes. im not a fan of seeing my ships start families in canon but in fic? oh i could read that forever

Last Book/Fic Abandoned: not really abandoned but sorta modified? the sydcarmy high school au i started in the summer was a good concept but i didnt really have a concrete idea where the overall story would go. BUT im planning on maybe doing a series which is just a collection of one shots of them in HS? OR i plan on doing a multi-chapter shorter story that is an AU that also takes place in a high school setting but with a twist that i dont want to reveal bc that would mean i would have to commit to it. lol

Currently Reading: nothing. unless you count all these articles/research papers I've been reading for my health research studies course (think i aced the exam yesterday so maybe all the pain was worth it)

Last Thing Researched for Art/Writing/Hyperfixation: doesnt really count as research but basically i was on pinterest creating boards for 3 different fics. was researching wedding dresses for a nat & syd fic where they go wedding dress shopping (will be finishing after my last exam). also just creating two other boards to inspire myself to start the au i teased above and my bones and all AU/retelling i talked about last month. i want to watch some more cannibalism media and maybe research about 80s pop culture and politics before i dive into that one fully.

Favorite Online Fandom Memory: ummmm probably just being a menace on twitter with my friends that i made through being a reveluv. we talk every single day, and they are some of the best people i know. maybe the times we used to get up early or stay up late for comeback season, watch the kcharts being updated hourly and crack jokes about group we liked and didnt like

Favorite Old Fandom You Wish Would Drag You Back In/Have A Resurgence: technically THG is having a resurgence right now but im way too into the bear to really get back into it and also i havent seen the new movie. im excited to once exam season is done but i feel like the hype is already dying so i dont see myself getting too into it.

Favorite Thing You Enjoy That Never Had an Active or Big "Fandom" but You Wish It Did: uhhhh cant think of one tbh.

Tempting Project You're Trying to Rein In/Don't Have Time For: honestly every sydcarmy fic idea i have that would take multi chapters to flesh out. one shots are very safe for me. but im praying i'll commit to it. esp the bones and all AU lol

this was fun

tagging some ppl to do this too, only if you want!

@amieraisposting @chefkids @sennenrose @sydneys-adamu @sydneyscarm @happylikeasadsong @chansoooo1-blog

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July 9 - Updates from Miami:

I wore my short work shorts today and they were comfy, fit perfect, not riding up which is great news haha. Also a loose crop tank top, I felt self-conscious the last time I wore it to work, but overall felt skinny and fit today :) No one commented on losing weight though which is reasonable bc I don't think it's noticeable to anyone but me lol. Also no one commented on my haircut but it was tied up in pigtail buns and a bandana today, honestly not sure how else to contain it during hot work days... It's funny that I wanted to cut my hair bc I was always wearing it in braids on work days but realistically it's too hot to leave it down most days and now idk how to put it up when it has all these layers... The next 2 gigs should have some cooler weather so I'll get to leave it down but for now it's kind of annoying haha. I guess I need to learn some new hairstyles.

Had a Celsius and 2 granola bars for breakfast, one propel pack, an entire subway veggie sub for lunch with sweet tea, yikes at the sugar content but it is what it is, and I ate almost the entire sub in like 10 minutes lol I was so hungry (didn't end up finishing it, but almost). Was planning on eating the sun chips that came with it during break but then we were on code red for like at least an hour so break was cancelled and I didn't feel like eating lol so I'll save them for tomorrow.

Nice to see my work friends, I won't be at the next gig with them so it's good to see them now :) Mostly chill day of work, a lot of walking, some lifting (big lights, awkward angles /down stairs, around seats, up onto the truss) but there were so many people on our team and we had to wait for the riggers to hang the truss first so it was a lot of sitting around. Felt like I didn't really do much today, there was a lot of waiting and a lot of people jumping on every task we were assigned, but I'll take an easy first day back. Sounds like we might have some long days ahead of us so that'll be fun haha.

Now I'm back at the hotel, R is still at work, I had a poke bowl last night that I'd been craving forever from my favorite place when I used to live here, it really hit the spot lol I ate all the veggies/tofu yesterday but had some rice left over so I saved it in the fridge, might eat that now and call that dinner 🙃 also 2 beers so far tonight. Will probably smoke a joint later and eat a bunch of snacks. 5 cigs so far today but who's counting!

Overall, good day! Feeling good, having fun, I love my life! I'm glad I came here and didn't back out when I wanted to :)

Other notes about my body bc I just want to share them lol:

- my wrists/hands are looking really skinny these days, I noticed while driving down here (hands on the steering wheel) all the little bones in my hands, wrists looking thin, yet very firm strong forearm muscles?

- my shoulders have been looking/feeling very bony lately which I enjoy but I had to carry a 50ft feeder cable today which isn't that heavy and should've been easy, but I have lil bruises on my shoulders from it... I made a joke about having a month off work and my shoulders got soft but fr lol like that shouldn't have caused a bruise and I even switched sides halfway and both sides have lil tender spots like it's bruising. Not sure if that's a muscle thing or an iron deficiency or just like toughen up and get used to it?

- my thighs are definitely thinner than 2 months ago however I would feel a lot better about them if I could lose like another 5-10 pounds over the next few months... At the same time, hipbones are starting to pop out too and unfortunately if they get too prominent they get really bruised when carrying things at work so its like a balance of, lose weight so my thighs look great vs lose weight and get bruises on my hipbones lol, who will win ? only time will tell....

[erins-quinn]

“about the blogger” meme

thanks for the tag @currymanganese @cruciomione and @ashluvsu4ever (some tagged sydneys-adamu but that’s still me!! lol) this is late as hell but y’all are real cool! 🩷

star sign: scorpio! as far as all that other stuff like rising and moon and sun I’m not sure.

favorite holiday: I don’t have one but I’d have to say christmas for the food

last meal: chicken soup bc winter slapped me in the face now I’m sick

current favorite musician: don’t have one! I kinda hate music

last music listened to: “I know the end” by phoebe bridgers. doesn’t help my I hate music stance but that song is great so what I will do is put that song and just that song on repeat for months and not even touch anything else. I’ve also been listening to the parade revival bcr for months now.

last movie watched: blue beetle I think? and that was kind of a while ago. but great film! a lot better than I was expecting.

last tv show watched: besides just putting stuff on for noise im gonna say jury duty. an incredible watch you should consider if you haven’t already.

last book/fic finished: it was sydcarmy but I can’t remember the title. but it’s about their first fight in the cross over between whatevership and relationship and carmen gets sick and I’m also sick so!!

last book/fic abandoned: I mean I don’t read books, so that’s abandonment all on its own and if I abandon fics im not gonna publicize that lol.

currently reading: … not a book. and honestly idk basically besides re reading I’m currently reading most sydcarmy wips. I haven’t read for a different fandom since june lmao.

last thing researched for art/writing/hyper-fixation: I think “how to make a crochet coaster” I’m thinking about starting to sell and of course idk how to go about it but I figure actually making shit is a good start? who knows.

favorite online fandom memory: this isn’t a “fandom” per se (say? idk) but back in 2020-2021 I used to spend a lot of time on twitch and I got really attached to this one guy and his community. anyways I called a pop tart and a toaster strudel the same thing and got positively annihilated by the chat. twas very funny.

favorite old fandom you wish would drag you back in/have a resurgence: hmmm idk. for the sake of not having the same answer twice I’d say maybe cobra kai. I really miss loving that show and the ship I was attached to had meta that reminds me of sydcarmy. when the engagement was high it was really fun and if people suddenly decided to start caring again I’d go right back.

favorite thing you enjoy that never had an active or big “fandom” but you wish it did: american vandal!!! it’s less that I want it to have a big fandom because really who wants that and more I just wanted to know the show was appreciated, which it wasn’t :(

tempting project you’re trying to reign in/don’t have time for: I was almost roped into embroidery and punch needling and then I had to actually consider the fact that there’s no way I could commit to that. maybe one day tho.

if u see this pretend I tagged you and do it! :)

[catspinach]

ive been meaning to vent on here about work for a long time now so here

i was hired in as a shift supervisor at a brand new starbucks with all brand new employees aside from another supervisor, Mylah, who is a 4yr partner(remember her), and maybe 2 others or so. none of us knew what we were doing. i was barista trained separately from the rest, followed by supervisor training, and then a week off. I came back and had no idea what the hell i was doing, and everyone was mad that i didnt know what to do??

Mylah trained me, and it was brutal. She would critique everything i did, and I always defended myself, saying "why do i need to do it that way if this way gets the same results?" and she did Not like that lmao and the entire training was incredibly tense.

Months pass, and she is worse than ever. she's had several lectures about her behavior but not a single writeup. Nothing has changed. She trained a new supervisor a few weeks ago, and she treated her the same way as she did with me. At some point she slammed a freezer and started shouting, making her cry, and Everyone in lobby turned their heads. i felt awful and wanted to say smth, but I'm genuinely scared of her. Everyone is. Several people have admitted to me that they call off when they see Mylah on the schedule.

The other day, the lobby was empty, and we were free to talk about all the harassment we've faced with her. I cant even remember all of it there's so much but uh here's a list of stuff i remember:

My manager gave Jenn some extra hours, and when they came in, Mylah cornered them, asking why they stole all her hours?? Jenn was comfused because they were literally just added to the schedule so that they would have enough bodies on the floor. Apparently Mylah was pissy at them for the entire rest of their shift, which sucks bc they were already working 12hrs that day:'(

I became friends with a barista named Diana, who is hispanic, and Mylah (white) would always say rude things that made her uncomfortable, saying its okay because her bf is mexican ._. It became a problem and eventually Mylah started looking through all her stuff to get her fired, and succeeded. Diana told me that Mylah would joke with the other baristas about how im stupid and bad at my job, and she said she always stood up for me which definitely did not help her with this whole situation but I greatly appreciate her for it, and we still talk!

Anna said Mylah was talking to her about me and how i do my job wrong. she said i don't face the bills the same way in the deposit bag, and that I dont fill in the money order right so I'm the reason we have so many goddamn nickles, and she said I don't double count the drawers and that's why there's so many mistakes with the deposit. the funny thing is, i DO face the bills the same way, I have never even DONE a money order because that's morning's job, I TRIPLE count the drawers bc i have anxiety, and nobody has EVER said anything to me about the deposit being off.

At some point someone said ret*rded, and Mylah is autistic and was rightfully mad, and brought her to the back to yell at her. not sure what she said but when she came back she went up to me, and only me, and apologized. so like that really hurted but okay whatever ill just go kill myself ig

Mylah was opening one day and told Morgan that since I was closing that it would probably take longer than usual to close? I asked Morgan how Mylah was with closing, and she said that nothing gets done until the absolute last minute, and it takes at least half an hour to finish closing. My record is 2 minutes past close.

Jenn and Taylor told me that I'm their favorite out of all of the shifts, because I make sure to get everything done, I am fast, efficient, and if they have a question I will do my best to figure out a solution for them. Apparently, when they ask Mylah a question, she answers with, "I dont know man, I just work here" and walks away. which like. mood. but she's getting paid 20/hr compared to the baristas at 15/hr, and there is absolutely no reason that the baristas should have to pick up her slack.

Anna used to be friends with Mylah, and they went to get piercings together, and Mylah thought it would be super funny to snapchat Anna having a panic attack about the needle! outside of work, but still fucked up

theres more idk

Mylah got it in my head that I'm the worst of all of the supervisors, and when I found out I was almost all the baristas' favorite, I started visibly shaking with relief! Ive been trying so so hard to make up for how "bad" i am at my job in fear that everyone will hate me otherwise, and now I gind this out and I don't know how to handle this information jdgdheb

I asked them if they would like to talk to the manager as a group, hoping that will show her just how serious the situation is. I don't usually pray for someone to get fired, but I want her ass permanently out of my sight asap

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Guess who is starting (another) (new) business in the new year lmao who is surprised. Its funny bc i spent this entire year working on another new business (which i had 3 launches for this year 💀) which i am so passionate about but for some reason things kept getting in the way so i finally took it as a sign after a very random convo with my gay friend 2 days ago. I am so excited about this tho bc i actually have the educational bg for this and also a bit of experience in the field so i feel like i know what i’m doing this time around. The other business i dealt with imposter syndrome every fucking week eventhough i am very qualified to take on clients etc but i just felt lost often. This new thing is actually an old thing but i am finally taking it seriously now. There is a LOT of competition tho and i have to work with a lot of suppliers which i can only hope execute my projects to my standards. Creating an investment plan for the year bc i am about to make some very big purchases and i’ll also (finally) be hiring a team (very scary) but that’s luckily not until like 3 months into the new year bc of testings and lots of legal work. Very relieved tho bc it takes the pressure off of me a bit bc i don’t have to have things like my website, templates and original content ready for jan 1st like i was planning for the other business. Also no need for a studio as of jan 1st (yet) but i REALLY want one so might just go ahead and still manifest it lmao it would be so fun. This is veryyy out of my comfort zone. I backed out a year ago bc this requires me to be in the limelight all the time, have lots of in person meetings and also just the fear of not being exceptional enough in the industry. But this time around i am more ready than ever. I feel confident about it. Might even start a blog to document this bc i feel like that would be so fun to look back at lol. So excited for the new connections i’ll be making. This was my passion all along i was just so nervous to pour into it but it’s time :) Finishing up my 2023 overview, Q1 plans and maybeee i’ll get started on the branding. Already did the strategy work + creative direction and it’s looking SO good. Ahh can’t wait to see how this unfolds!!

[dykecolumbo]

finally sending you this :) also how was your day today <33

baby - what makes you feel better when you’re down?

sugarpie - what’s your favourite sweet treat?

darling -  what romantic gesture makes you feel the most loved?

button - do you have a type? what is it like?

sunshine - what’s the nicest compliment you’ve ever gotten?

baby girl - how do you like to be held?

lover - how do you show someone you like them?

buttercup - what does/would your online dating bio say?

boo - what’s your dream date?

wild thing - what’s something about you that surprises people?

bubba - tell me a funny story from your childhood. 

honey - what’s your favourite hot drink? (I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD IF YOU SAY PINEAPPLE FANTA BUT MICROWAVED-)

my love - what would your dream home be like?

(i started answering this when i first got it like. 3 or more months ago. i just finished it now it's been in my drafts forever im SORRY I LIVE IN SHAME)

my day was goood i played an absurd amount of solitaire and thought about ripping my business law teacher apart with my teeth

baby- i go for a lot of walks and bike rides. sometimes i'll bike out to one of the many playgrounds near my house and chill on the swingset

sugarpie- im a total gummy bear pilled gummy bearcel. i love gummy bears so fucking much

darling- oh god idk. im classy at heart. id love to be wined and dined. never have been thought so i can't say it makes me feel the most loved. i rlly don't know

button- mmmm not really? not at all actually. if i like you i like you and if i don't i dont

sunshine- is it bad nothings coming to mind??? not in like a "everyone is so mean 2 me" way just like... idk. im very average. ig i like it when people tell me i'm funny

babygirl- dude i do not know. im awful at like... cuddling bc i just cannot sit still for the LIFE of me. ig just hug me idfk

lover- uhhh kiss them on the lips repeatedly "but in a friend way" which is tbh how it normally starts but whatevs

buttercup- uhhhhh god i don't know. "in need of a lobotomy but my head's still ok" or some dumb bullshit like that

boo- wined. dined. sixty nined is preferred but not a must

wild thing- when i was at work because my hair is technically past my jawline i had to have it tied up all the time when i was working with food, but the one, SINGULAR time i was doing something other than food i got to have it down and i got to show of my huge ass curly ass hair. ik this is boring but so am i! one of my many charms

bubba- my gramps used to live in this apartment building down in florida, and my mom and i went to visit him one year, right? so my grandpa had just moved into this building and little 5 year old me really wanted to be shown around. i don't know why because it's not like we could go into any apartments other than his, so we just walked down 5 identical hallways on 5 identical floors. but i really wanted a tour, so he showed me around while my mom stayed behind in his place. now my grandpa lived at the FIRST DOOR on the SECOND FLOOR. so my gramps and i get to the FIRST DOOR on the FIRST FLOOR, and because all the floors looked identical, my goldfish memory was like "my mom is in there!" and i put my face up against the window and yell cus i wanted to surprise her. i did not surprise my mom. who i DID surprise was a woman in just her bra and underwear watching blue bloods, who jumped out of her seat and screamed at the 5 year old staring through her window, which scared ME and i cried the rest of the evening. fin

honey- NO ONE MICROWAVES FANTA?????? i like peach oolong tea

my love- im flexible. log cabin in oklahoma works just as fine as a studio works just as fine as townhouse as long as that bitch isn't minimalist, and near civilization i will be CONTENT. im not an off the grid type of gal i need to be near people and places

[coffeeallaloneandlord]

That poll about fiction vs nonfiction was funny to me bc just last night I made a formal reading calendar for myself which I am going to share with you all here. I'm using August to try and finish up some loose ends with what I'm reading and then sticking to my curriculum. For reference I am typically reading up to 6 different books at once I need a ton of variety which is why I came up with this schedule lol.

Fall

Fiction

September: Back to school. American Lit something short less than 200 pages. I'm thinking of reading Of Mice and Men by John Steinbeck for this (107 pages)

October: Something I will admit to getting influenced to do is I started collecting Pulitzer Prize for Literature winners. I saw someone on tt who had theirs organized together and I was like I bet I have enough to put together a shelf. I had 7 at the time, a few months ago, now I've doubled that to about 14 (all thrifted!). But I've only read 1 lmao. Since the Pulitzer is awarded in October I'm gonna make that my month to read one.

Nonfiction: Historical Bio. For this category this fall I want to read a biography I have of Mary Wollstonecraft.

Winter

Fiction: Classic Literature. This can mean whatever I want but basically something pre 1945.

Non Fiction

Nov/Dec: Poverty Awareness in America. Got this idea from Google technically for January but I thought Nov/Dec makes a lot more sense for obvious reasons.

Jan/Feb: Black History

Spring, March - May

Fiction: Contemporary Literature

Nonfiction: Women's History, Gender and Women's Studies, Feminism, etc. This is really a year round category for me but I'll focus more on it in the spring.

Summer

Fiction: Shakespeare :) Really the idea to read on a yearly basis started with Shakespeare in Summer idea. The seasonal aspect really motivated me to follow thru with finishing. I can see myself expanding this category to include Shakespeare and also Greek/Roman Classics.

Nonfiction: June is Pride obviously, and then I couldn't really come up with a final category for July/August. Like I said at the top, I'm using the next 2 weeks before September to try and finish up some books, so I just wrote "Summer Reading :)" here lol. For nonfiction maybe I could do a sports book for the summer, I just read Moneyball which was one of my favorite reads ever so I'm still riding that high lol.

And this only represents 2 of my given reading slots, a fiction and a nonfiction. And the reason I did this was to balance my fiction and nonfiction lol! My other slots aren't seasonal but generally look something like this

Slot 3: Memoir/Personal Writing

Close friends of mine know that the single most influential important book of my entire life, the book that made me promise myself to never stop reading books, is the Autobiography of Malcolm X. I really really really believe in the power of autobiography and memoir, they are consistently my favorite books ever and I think we have so much valuable insight to gain from living inside the experiences of others. I am always reading something in this genre.

Slot 4: Elena Ferrante I know some of the tumblr girls respect this one. I am on the second of four in her Neapolitan Novels. I also have another novel of hers that I found at the thrift I couldn't believe my eyes. I predict it will take me another year to finish this out.

Slot 5: Something Fun and Light, either like sci-fi/fantasy or kid lit/YA or both. However Fun and Light are really misnomers bc I feel like I wade thru a lot of like shitty pulpy stuff trying to find something palatable. My friends on Goodreads know what a hater I can be lol. Or the flip side is I just read Charlotte's Web for the first time in forever and it almost made me cry like constantly lmao.

Slot 6 Miscellaneous but usually something will just call to me and make me drop everything else I'm reading so I gotta leave room for that.

And that's how you can figure out which 6 books I'm juggling in any given month!

[ljbrary]

20 questions for fic writers

tagged by @anxiety-banana HEY AB ILY I'M SORRY I KNOW YOU TAGGED ME IN THIS A MONTH AGO SO THIS IS SO LATE BUT STILL

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

22

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

101,550

3. What fandoms do you write for?

right now ive been writing for the last of us but most of my fics are star wars (specifically most of them are the clone wars) and i have one six of crows fic

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

all of them are star wars fics

lean on me (but let me laugh, first)

don't fix it if it's not broken (but broken's only a point of view)

fill the hollow space with silence (and other words of comfort that aren't so comforting)

it's a process (you wouldn't understand)

it's not good grief (but it's better)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i think i get to most of them and i seriously try my best to but like i struggle with replying to even my texts irl and i have no concept of time at all (the adhd is adhd-ing unfortunately) but every single one literally makes my life

6. What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

i think either the love only lasts so long (the grief lasts longer, the guilt never leaves) or this silence hurts worse than the truth (if only you would tell it) which are quite literally the same exact situation just from different povs because i have never had an original thought in my life. it's post-mortis arc in the clone wars with anakin and ahsoka and the transparently trauma-shaped elephant in the room between them.

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

i honestly have no idea? so im just going to say my tlou fic statistically significant because although its bittersweet it ends with joel and ellie together and thats literally all i need to be happy at this point in my life.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

no, but i probably should.

(that was a joke. but like if i did its fine bc i have 3 brothers who've already found my ao3 and bullied me for it so the hater would prob need to get real creative after all that lmao.)

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

no

10. Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

no i dont have the executive functioning skills necessary to plan one of those out but they sound interesting.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

guys my fics aren't that good. if someone stole it they'd just return it no worries.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

no i haven't but that would be sick.

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

like ab said in her post, ab, ash, and i tried but it just never came to fruition but it was a fun attempt

also my older brother and i when we were younger tried to write a percy jackson fic together.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

i like found family more than romantic stuff, but if i have to choose definitely percabeth because they are the reason i have unrealistic expectations in life.

15. What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

ALL OF THEM IM SO BAD AT FINISHING THEM

16. What are your writing strengths?

thats so funny lmfao

okay but self deprecation aside idk maybe like imagery or metaphors sometimes? also apparently writing emotion ig? my english teacher in high school told me i was good at the psychological aspect of understanding a character and their actions/emotions but i don't know man

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

for starters, starting. im supremely bad at starting things. i always struggle with intros/the beginning of writing pieces. and i struggle with plotting/planning things. i also am incapable of writing genuine dialogue, every conversation i write sounds so disjointed and awkward. i also tend to focus too much on the introspective aspect of characters and forget about that irrelevant little thing called a "plot."

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

i made up my own language for a few star wars fics and it was so atrocious that i can't even bring myself to reread them again so i think i'll be staying away from that one for a little while.

however if i was smart or savvy enough to pull it off i would totally do it that would be sick.

19. First fandom you wrote for?

percy jackson when i was 10 years old on wattpad. my older brother and i co-wrote the fic and then i made my friend at school edit it on the computers in the library. still have yet to live that one down.

20. Favourite fic you've ever written?

weighted words hurt more than loaded fists (if you know how to use them) i have a soft spot for it even though it's one of my least popular fics in terms of like hits and kudos. its just a found family (shocker, i know) modern/foster care au with rex and ahsoka. i like the imagery, metaphors, and just the vibes overall.

okay leaving this open to anyone who wants to do it!!

[a-tale-of-legends]

Reading the fic I'm currently reading, I know now that realistically,a pokemon journey, even for the protag, would take a hella long time. The protag has that Protag Power, so I can imagine they complete their journey in a shorter amount of time, but still. For my sake, I'm not gonna be super realistic with my au. I want to keep within my timeline, so at most each arc is gonna be within a year. The shortest, I think, is the swsh and SV arc, both only happening within a few months due to the gym cycle ( swsh) and the semester ( SV).

That being said, I do think some of my ocs are quicker than others. I mentioned a long time ago that Danica finished her journey before Kenji, and Kenji had the head start ( he was getting close to the lake of rage when Danica started). Meaning that Kenji probably took about the full year to finish his journey, which is really funny to think about only bc Sinnoh is arguably more difficult to travel around. But I guess Danica is built different. ( I will say I might change this later! But I do ultimately think Danica became champion before Kenji)

The island challenge is probably another one that doesn't take super long to complete. Maybe a month at least? Which is honestly the shortest, even compared to swsh and sv.

There's the question of if the post games of each game would be within the year of the main game, or would it bleed over into the next year. I want the swsh post game+ dlc to be within the year of the main game. Same for SV. I think traveling across Kanto in HGSS and taking on the gyms there would honestly take another year if I wanted it too. It kinda messes with my one year policy but I think it'll be ultimately fine. Kenji is much stronger than he was before so I don't think it'll be that difficult for him, so maybe less that a year? Hmm.

Seriously, I know that traveling within a year is probably pretty unrealistic, but it's for my sanity lol.

[fantasticcloudcreation]

I'm high so I'm just gonna ramble for a second

I bought an 8th on the way to the last festival and I still haven't finished it, I'm amazed. Went through 2 packs of gummies in the time between so that counts but I'm just amazed this bud is still hanging in there! One more bowl I think and then I'll restock on gummies before I leave and then decide if I want bud when I get to Texas, but we're in a hotel and I won't have my usual work buddies with me so maybe gummies will be enough, otherwise there's like a million people at work who can point me towards the local sources haha

Went for a walk today, my knees were hurting which either means I haven't been walking enough lately (yes) or it was colder today so that sometimes has an impact, or bad shoes, or of course my brain was like "what if I have some secret illness that causes problems with connective tissue" or something but realistically I just haven't been moving enough since I've been here. It was nice out though, windy and cloudy and kinda chilly, felt like fall, I'm glad I got to have one day of fall weather while I'm here before I head south for the next couple months :) it's gonna be hot af in TX but I'm trying not to think about it

Stepmom + stepsisters made dinner and cake today, it was delicious but stepmom was cutting ginormous slices of cake, I was like "can I request a smaller piece" and she was like "no" and gave me a big slice lmfao so I was like ok im not gonna be weird about it, took me longer than everyone else to finish it but I did eventually eat it all

The one stepsister that I was talking about being super skinny and going to the gym and everything and I was feeling all insecure about myself because of it, I noticed that she doesn't have a thïgh gäp and felt better about myself (can you believe I'm really out here judging myself/her against each other like bitch shes 23 relax lol) but at the same time I'm glad my gäp is securely Back like it's been around but now it's like, i love sitting down with my knees together lmfao why am i like this. I also looked at pics from my LW today and honestly my body doesn't look much different right now??? Which is weird bc I still have at least 10 pounds til I get there based on my last scale reading but maybe the muscle gain really makes that much of a difference?? I'll take pics when I stop by my brother's house again on the way to TX. Also looked at pics from my HW and it's so great to see that I've never been back to that since I lost it the first time, like I've been gaining+ losing the same 10-20 pounds since then but never gained back the full 30... Also grateful that I started all this before it got too high, like kinda crazy to think I've been in and out of disordered eating/"dieting" since I was 14 but at the same time looking at my before pics I never want to be that big again... in the grand scheme of things ("average american" and all that) it wasn't even that bad but for me I kinda would pick a lifetime of intermittent diet phases...? Also grateful that my "disordered " behaviors never get too out of control and I kinda just phase in and out of them over the years ... Idk life is weird!! Funny to think I'm comparing my current 28 year old body against pictures of my 17 year old body, funny that most people want to get back to their high school bodies and for me it's my HW/before pics. Funny to think about how I took those pics a couple months before junior prom bc I was going to get skinny for it (I didn't) funny how I didn't actually hit my LW til my fourth year in college /21 years old, funny how I'm still here comparing myself to pictures of my younger self at various ages.

I was also thinking about thïgh gäps and how I have a fucked up tailbone bc I fell on ice while snowboarding when I was younger and maybe that influences the thïgh gäp like maybe it caused my pelvis to tilt farther or something ?? Bc I have the narrowest hips lmao I had to buy a new pack for a backpacking trip a couple years ago bc my old pack couldn't tighten enough and the sales guy at the camping store was like "you have the narrowest hips I've ever seen" lol idk I feel like just based on my body structure there's no reason I'm in the club of girls with natural thïgh gäps but I'm glad it's working out that way??

Anyway. Besides the giant slice of cake, today was a good day :) sad I have to leave tomorrow but the next chapter is starting and it's gonna be great!!!