#which is basically what i do on this blog lolol but it's weird how the fandom never considers that...

[digiitaldaydreams]

Hiya! I found your blog through your neocities website! I was wondering if there’s any tips or things you read/watched that help you make your site. (Im heavily considering making one of my own neocities site it just seems fun)

hihi welcome !! i have quite a few pieces of advice, but the tldr is you should come up with an idea for what you want to make beforehand, and look up how to do each piece! your knowledge will start to fill in along the way :]

(this is probably gonna be long as hell so under the cut is all of the fun stuff /silly)

the way i personally started off was by sketching out what i wanted my site to look like! if you know what you want before you begin, you'll know where to look to figure out what you need to do. html+ css are extremely easy languages to read/write once you know what to look for!

^ this was the original sketch for my site, where i planned out everything i wanted to include. it's a bit different from what actually ended up on the site, but that's alright! it's just about having an outline to work from. i think of it like outlining before you write, it feels like such a pain in the ass because u just wanna start working NOW but u will thank yourself later for taking the time to plan.

once you know what you want to make, start looking for tutorials and resources to make it easier! the grid for my homepage and some of my other subpages was made using a css grid generator, since its one of the more confusing bits of css. you can make grids without it, but its a very easy way to make a more asymmetrical design if ur using the generator!

thats linked here, it gives you some css to put in your head or css sheet, and then the html for the different boxes to slap in your main document. it can be easier to understand what itll look like if you give each one a border while you work, even if its just temporary!

when looking for information about css and html, w3schools is your best friend. its a pretty comprehensive database of every little piece of html + css you could ever need, with examples you can play with yourself to understand what each variable does! it's been a lifesaver for me, ive watched basically zero video tutorials because everything on there is explained so well and you can find basically Anything.

they even have code snippets for things that take more than one or two lines of code, which you can use and adapt yourself! (the tooltips on the official art + my art sections on the hinata shrine were adapted from a tutorial on there!)

in general, having a plan and working from there will make ur life so much easier. the pages that ive sketched out beforehand or ive had a very clear vision for have been WAYY easier to code than the ones i tried to come up with on the fly, and ive been much happier with how they've turned out as well. though i do also have some smaller, rapidfire tips as well that ill go thru now!!

— inline css (the style="" tag) seems so so useful but really should only be used when you're resizing images like buttons. when u keep all of your css in the head or in a seperate document, its way easier to debug and read later. i cleaned up my homepage recently by removing all of the inline css and looking at the code stresses me out WAY less because i can actually read it LOLOL ... plus cutting the css out and putting it in its own document made me realize that id accidentally wrote some really weird code in some places

— this is very much 'do as i say, not as i do,' but use an external editor (like visual studio code) instead of editing live on neocities! you can set up a live preview, and generally wont be pushing out 100 updates every single time you change or add something. i tend to code directly on neocities but its a bad habit and i want to break it eventually v_v

— if you really like an effect someone else has on their site, you can peek using inspect element i promise the coding police won't get you !! dont steal code line for line, but you can figure out what theyre doing and put your own spin on it. things like border images can be really cool, and i only figured out about them because i looked at what someone else was doing and figured out how to adapt it for my own site! check linkbooks and credit sections as well, a lot of people will include links to any effect they didnt make themself or got help with. (including me! the credits section of the linkbook has a ton of little things i got from other places, including a really neat little music player, the rss feed for my status cafe, and the wobbly text on the homepage!)

— most stuff in html and css basically just... says what it does in the tag. so looking stuff up for it is extremely easy! if you've used carrd before you honestly probably already know more abt html than u'd think just intuitively. when ur adjusting the margins or padding in carrd, you're adjusting the margin: and padding: properties in the css of the website it's outputting!

this is getting way too long but!! my best advice is to just get started. you'll never be able to learn without trying, and it genuinely is so fun to have something that's truly your own!

(if u have any specific questions im happy to answer anytime as well! i love talking abt neocities, its a super fun hobby and way easier to pick up than u would think!)

[lilrobinbird]

Long Ass Tag Game

Cause I wanna get to know you guys better

Thanks for the tag @edas-boytoy <33 Putting this under cut

I accidently wrote looong answer for one question shdhs

How many tumblr accounts have you had before this one?

It's my first one actually haha, I've made like two/three more after this but now they're abandoned forever

Also for this blog I have two sideblogs, I don't really use them now either

How long have you been in fandom?

Like the current one? By the end of July 2023 I posted my first Kyoshi novels fanart and maybe one month earlier I started rebloging and commenting on posts from others, this was after I read the novels and I jumped into their fandom and then in the procces I've also got into tlok and atla (I enjoyed them way earlier but I just didn't participate in their fandoms)

Your favorite trope in fiction?

HMMMmmm Grumpy serious stoick ish x chaotic more fun (and other antonyms that matches first character idk) (whatever heituat has going on))), expressive women with strong personalities, girlfailures<3, severe stern ruthless etcetc women but caring deep down inside (optional), morally gray characters, and I'm just a little obssesed with mother daughter relationships in fiction if that counts as a trope

Your favorite random fact?

That might be well known idk, but sometimes for a video game character they'll hire one person as only just face model, and then differnt person as voice and acting/motion capture

Must feel weird and funny when you basically see yourself in video game doing stuff you didn't do speaking with a different voice

Your favorite game or kind of game?

Now I don't really play video games myself but since I've watched Until Dawn gameplay yeaaaars ago I still like to watch playthroughts of those choice based horror games (the quarry, devil in me, resident evil etc), and later I watch other playthroughts for different choices outcomes scenes etcetccc, The games can be kinda stupid but fun, alsooo playthroughts of adventure games(???), I usually watch them when I eat something

Also CHECK OUT "STRAY"!! I only watched playthrought too but it looks so cool, you basically play as a cat (they did good job with motion capture, feels like real cat moves and it looks so fun to play) and you're in a world when humans no longer exist and there are cool looking robots, you can stratch walls and make robots pet you but I promise it's not just that lolol it has an actual plot and wordbuilding

Aside video games I like chess but I suck big time, but for my defence I mostly played with my friend who sucks even more aHA, we downlanded one chess app for two players and played during some classes

I think I'm just interested in 3d models and graphics hehhh I like 3d modeling

There's also a game called Hades, and this one I actually started playing myself, not the kind of games I'm usually into (roguelike),but friend got me it and! The character designs are very cool

HA nerd long anwser

A place you'd like to visit? (If carbon emissions, logistics and money weren't in question)

Honestly idk, somewhere warm, Greece? Spain would be nice too mmm mm architecture

Or someplace with cool mountains

An animal you're irrationally afraid of?

Ladybugs. No further explenations. But I do appreciate their beauty on photos and from big distance, I'm serious they are very pretty

What's your favorite season?

HMmmm currenlty maybe spring

A smell that brings you nice memories?

I still remember taking a breath of fresh spring air in a specific room last year and getting hit with memories lol, is that even a smell? felt like a smell

(If you're ok talking about food. If not, delete this part)

What's your favorite food from where you were born? And what's your favorite food from some place else?

Pierogi, krokiety and bigos from our stupid potatoland, from other places hmmm, most kinds of pasta maybe, I love pasta, pasta!! which is a little boring but mmmmm mm mmmm pastaaaaa

What's your favorite drink (if you drink alcohol, alcoholic and non-alcoholic)?

I do drink but not too often and I don't really care what, I like flavoured beer, which is alcohol for babies as my friend would say and she might be right but I like it

Do you give your pets random table scraps?

Not too often but sometimes yeah and depends what is it

no pressure tag @korrasamibottles

[andnatiabrosca]

I posted 331 times in 2022

That's 331 more posts than 2021!

49 posts created (15%)

282 posts reblogged (85%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@dungeons-and-dragon-age

@notebooks-and-laptops

@merrybandofmurderers

@bearsizedant

@thebimbobaggins

I tagged 139 of my posts in 2022

#birch speaks - 34 posts

#oc: natia brosca - 23 posts

#dao - 17 posts

#birch originals - 11 posts

#dai - 8 posts

#alistair - 7 posts

#dragon age - 7 posts

#natia 30 days - 7 posts

#da2 - 6 posts

#zevran - 6 posts

Longest Tag: 137 characters

#an early microsoft flight simulator? i think? i have no idea what it was called. i think it had a driving mode too. played that one a lot

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Zevran for the blorbo bingo? :]

aalkdjfsljs THANK YOU

(I'm gonna ramble a second, sorry: I just submitted a research proposal draft that was Terrible bc the prof clearly HATED my selection so I just did brief (250 word) proposals on 4 different topics and he gets to pick which, because crying over it is Not It, so ask to love on Zev is. 'Preciated!!!!)

(Also, today/tomorrow is my birthday [due to scheduling error, birthday is two days this year] so. not a good look on the birthday)

Okay: Completed, properly for once:

(I found a new pen I like for text on Krita so I've been using it on everything sue me)

Brief discussion:

He's feral and eats trash and is a bastard (affectionate). Of course. He's like my cat, Pirate Bastard.

Every character I like is now autistic. His SpIn is social interaction. Because it was useful. His secondary SpIn is probably leather tanning, but he hasn't had a good chance for it.

If someone says Zev doesn't need therapy, they need therapy. Likewise, Angst out the door; I relate to him TOO MUCH. Sorry.

I think it's funny if he's perpetually lost. I think it's funny that's all.

And yeah, chihuahua energy because he is Small and Vibrates and Nat carries him around in a purse (spiritually). I think he has Dachshund energy really, but that doesn't quite work. Small, says he's dangerous, but really he just wants to be held in front of the fire while you read a book

4 notes - Posted September 16, 2022

#4

I'm going to try streaming at different times this week! I'll ping here beforehand - I'm streaming on discord so that my computer doesn't explode

come by the server if interested:

I don't know how to run a server/use bot integration so PLEASE let me know if stuff is weird, thanks!

4 notes - Posted September 24, 2022

#3

Leliana for the character bingo? :]

Ended up doing this on my phone so I would Actually Do It so not the most legible lolol. (And I missed with one! It should be "I NEVER want to meet them" instead of "they've never done anything wrong"

I liked leli a whole lot the first time I played but it really has changed since. First time I played I was trying very hard to be Straight and Catholic so she was...illuminating to say the least

But frankly, while I adore her whole arc, I think it really plays best as a mirror to other arcs/as an illumination of her relationship with others & especially the chantry itself. I don't...find her particularly compelling standing alone. I think a huge part of that is her Super Religious shtick.

I generally just think of her as a contrast to Nat (Brosca) and Cassandra, actually

Basically, I am extremely queer and do love her whole thing, but she is just too earnest in her fantasy catholicism to be really important to me

5 notes - Posted August 8, 2022

#2

I keep dying trying to play the battle of denerim and it is really making it hard to finish the game TT

5 notes - Posted August 9, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

ended up doing the ship template for Natia and her crew. my handwriting is Atrocious on tablet, I am Aware.

(Not solid on any of these. Idea from @/dungeons-and-dragon-age, unsure if they want tagged, so not doing so)

Template || picrew

7 notes - Posted May 10, 2022

Get your Tumblr 2022 Year in Review →

[metalcd]

“even if metal wanted to change and betray eggman, where would they go? omega has team dark and gemerl has cream & vanilla. metal has nobody else.”

*grabs u by the shoulders* sonic... they would go to sonic.

[pet-pet-peet]

So I stumbled onto your blog (because I like being weird :”)) ) and I really like your works! And also, congrats on 200!! 🎉🎉 Not here to ask for requests (I know the pain of seeing so many requests you, maybe just me procrastinating on them),just congratulate, but if you don’t mind, who’re your favourite TWST characters and why? :D Again, congrats! And have a good day! ^^

Omg heyyyy! Lolol, I've seen you around, I love your works, too! ><

Ooof- I love all of my beans, idk what to say haha- But here's my top 5 under cut

For starters, we all know I'm infatuated with bat daddy Lilia. Idk, he's just..my type? Lol, jk. It's probably mostly to do with his adorable appearance at first, he's just very fun to draw. Not just that, though, I really like his character's personality; it's so positive a lot of the time, but then he's able to have this dark twist every now and then and I just- swoon. Also, I'm mom friend so naturally I adore dad friend!

Second favorite would have to be Riddle. I like his character development, and watching him grow was really great. He's a really good example for me of a character with big flaws being able to challenge them, even though they get the better of him sometimes.

Third is Ruggie, because honestly I kin. I also grew up poor, so I'm able to relate to his past struggles and current endeavors quite well. He also has a lot of dad friend vibes lol, so he's basically my twin.

Fourth would be Azul, because I can understand him pretty well, too. I grew up with some bully issues, which caused me to bully a kid in Kindergarten and, even though we eventually became friends, I still feel really bad- But I like how dedicated Azul is to changing himself for the sake of his own comfort and following his passions regardless of his age.

Finally, Vil. I really freaking love this man- not only has he shown how idgaf he is about gender norms, but he's another character that I admire for his hard work. He helps inspire me to feel comfortable in my own skin and focus on what I can do rather than what I can't.

Some honorable mentions would be:

Silver- my son

Ortho- my son

Deuce- my son

Idia- bestie

Malleus- sweet bean

Hope that wasn't too long lolol, thanks for the ask!

[fairymermaidfloor]

welcome! here’s some stuff you need to know before interacting w our blog!

masterlist

🌊 general info

I’ll be posting my writing here, though i will also be doing requests, but i may also take suggestions and fic ideas, so feel free to post any!!! very appreciated!!

but overall this is just here for any personal writings from my ao3 and lil ideas

🌊 rules

no toxicity, please be nice when suggestion or commenting.

this is entirely sfw, i am a minor any and all nsfw asks will be deleted.

any inc*st, y*ndere, *ntis, tr*ump s*pporters, h*moph*bic, tr*nsph*bic, r*cist, *lbiest, s*xist and x*noph*bic remarks would be deleted IMMEDIATELY.

i don’t want anything to do w any mentions of abuse

I may delete some requests if I don’t understand them or i feel uncomfortable w them (which means some angst)

i am honestly not that strict, and im relatively care-free, but i won’t tolerate any toxic behavior!!

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🌊 suggesting/requesting

suggesting is basically like requesting, but the writer gets to pick and chose what which one they want to write, and they can even twink it a lil, but don’t take this harsh if i don’t pick urs! i’ve may not have the time or im just hella lazy... and, don’t be shy to suggest! im really weird myself and i love hearing ur thoughts~

Character Limit: 4

things i’ll do:

hcs

character x reader (ill try and stay gn as possible!!)

drabbles

concepts

fandom(s):

genshin impact

ships(ill probs make a whole post ab this):

Kaeya/Albedo

Xiao/Venti

Zhongli/Childe

Beido/Ningguang

Ganyu/Kequing

Albedo/Sucrose

Childe/Kaeya

Diluc/Zhongli

Diluc/Venti

Bennet/Ravor

Barbra/Xinyan

Jean/Lisa

Xingqiu/Chongyun

Beidou/Ganyu

Kokomi/Sara

P.S. you can suggest a ship that isn’t in the list, and if i like it ill write it. but i will not do any traveler x char, because idk how to make it NOT self indulgent

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🌊 about rainy

hurray! u read and made it this far!!! so, hello hello!! im mod rainy, but you can also call me kia, lina, and etc. i love reading and writing, tho im not very good at it lolol. i also like music, mermaids, fairies, animals, the sky, flowers, fairies, and insects! also women 💞💞💞💞💞💞💞💞 and I’ll LITERALLY hire u JUST to clean my Pinterest boards (help).

i have some experience w running blog since i did once before, but w danganronpa, but my mental health dropped a lot, and i was no longer interested in it as i was in the past.. sad.

if u wanna be friends just send me an ask!! I love making friends, tho be wary that i am a minor and that i won’t socialize w any adults that i don’t know..

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🌊 tags

#mail *ೃ༄(random junk)

#rainy *ೃ༄ (unnecessary stuff and rambling from rainy)

#writing *ೃ༄ (<-)

#concept *ೃ༄ (plot ideas)

#lore *ೃ༄ (tid bits and theorys ab lore!!)

[myonmukyuu]

hot milk tea, thoughts and feelings

I’ve only mentioned it briefly, but I’ve said that I’ll be taking a break from my SetsuAyu series - mainly because of my uni workload though.

But for now, I have a lot of thoughts about the entire thing as a project as well as myself as an artist. So I figured that I’d write a reflection of sorts (warning: it gets kind of personal).

Can you believe it’s been 3-4 months since the series started? I can’t, and I’ve been the one drawing all of these!! If you’ve been reading my work, I’ll say it over and over but I really appreciate it!!! Like I’m dead serious!!! Completely!! Utterly!! Without a doubt!!! I love all of you!!!

When I posted that first comic, I didn’t think it’d get the positive reception that it did get. Like, I’ve been producing basically entirely Muse content for years and suddenly decided to tap into Nijigaku? You could argue that it didn’t get that much attention, but either way, the attention it did get surprised me. I was so happy that people were engaged (and it still makes me stupidly happy, like on a level where I’m almost embarrassed to admit HAHA)

Recently I’ve just uploaded the bonus for the 3rd update which wraps up that part, and it really just clicked - that I really have invested soooo much time into this series. 36 pages now! And we’re only 3/10 main updates in!! I have so much passion for this - like a fire that can’t be put out. Every single update has something that I want to communicate/show so I always feel fired up. Heck, if you’ve spoken to me during the process you’d catch me always saying “I’m excited for the next one!!!” while working on it LMAO. It’s been my longest string of non-stop work. Usually I feel burned out more quickly but I was always so excited that I couldn’t stop! You’d find that I’m usually in a  state of conflict bc I alwaaaays want to talk about it but at the same time I don’t want to spoil anything. (THE NEXT UPDATE JUICY)

I think it’s a clear reminder of why I draw actually. The answer between each artist always differs, but I think it’s something important to be aware of. And well, for me? I’ve realised I’m a passion-monster. Passion keeps my blood pumping 100%. As a result... you could say I might be a more selfish kind of artist. Maybe it’s burn-out from running all those ask-blogs/RP when I was like 13-16, but I’ve realised that I’m having the most fun drawing what I genuinely love. It’s kind of why you’d rarely see me do requests and why I no longer do commissions. That isn’t to say that I hate drawing for other people. It can be fulfilling! But it’s more like - I barely have the time to draw for myself, so drawing for others is kind of a lower priority in general. It’s also why I’ve decided against studying graphic design when I graduated highschool. It’s just not happening as a career.

When I ask myself, “what kind of artist do I want to be?” I always think “Somebody who marches to her own beat and works hard to make content that she loves.” It’s also why I never delete anything - even my oldest art that makes me cringe. Because the me from 5 years ago put her love into that too. It’s really cheesy sounding but that’s how I see it LMFAO. I couldn’t do that to her. And also, just because I don’t like something anymore, it doesn’t mean that no one else does. So I’ll continue to never delete my old work. As a bonus, we get to see how far I’ve come too~.

I feel a little vulnerable admitting something like this and I’m pretty sure I’ve only told like 4 humans, but I think my #1 goal as an artist is that I want people to be able to look at my work (that I actually put my heart into) and think “this person loves this” or “this person works hard”. If you can do that, and sincerely feel the feelings I put into my comic, then I’ve already reached my goal. Can people tell how much I love these characters? The series? The concept? Can people tell how much work I’ve been putting into these updates? Can people tell when I’m having fun? It’s something I think about a lot. The idea of that people might think so makes me tear up HAHA - I get really sappy thinking about these kinds of things. And well, if people can’t tell then I’m not working hard enough!

That isn’t to say that I’m always putting my life-blood into everything I make. I’m mainly referring to the stuff where I do. I think it’s pretty clear when I’m pumping a lot of love into something. In general though, there’s always an intention for me to like communicate some idea or feeling and doing something like that requires maybe a bit of love~.

I feel like that as a character, Setsuna really resonates with me a lot. In personality? Not at all LMFAOOOO (she’s such a nice girl!!). More because of her ideals and principles. After typing like everything that I did up until this point, I bet you can guess why. I’ll keep it short and simple though, since this post is getting stupidly long.

Basically, I really resonate with her drive and passion as both an artist, and just in general actually? I’m a believer in that if you’re passionate about something, you can spread that passion. That’s the mentality I have with my art. If my love shows, then maybe other people will understand why I’ve come to love something. And maybe they’ll come to love it too. If I’m having fun, maybe they will have fun too! Very cheesy, I know, but that’s just how I roll!!!

Like rare pair? New fandom? Still applies. It might take awhile, but eventually either the people who love that thing will find me, or I’ll help people come to love something new (or at least see where it’s coming from lolol)! 

And as Setsu says:

You tell ‘em girl !!! That devotion is my driving force!!

Of course I know this is idealistic, but I think that’s fine. It’s no bother to me if someone feels indifferent/ negative towards my work because that’s just natural.

I think it’s a form of communication and that’s what drives my art. I’ve been intending on writing a guide/ or talking about my art process for comics for some time now and I think that’d be the first thing I’d mention? I’m always trying to communicate some sort of feeling/tone/idea and that comes from a place of love y’know.

I feel like I’m saying “love” and “passion” a lot - you can really tell I’m vibing with Setsuna huh LMAO. There are other reasons I vibe with her too, but I won’t touch on that.

Coming back to my SetsuAyu series. You can tell why I’m so happy about it right? The story, the pairing dynamic, I feel like that people are understanding what I’m trying to communicate - that people are receiving my feelings of love for it and that makes me smile so widely. I really put a lot into it!!

This series is the first large project I’ve ever taken you see and I’m so so happy that I’ve been able to get this far! It really means a lot to me. But it wasn’t actually the first comic series I’ve tried to do. I actually had a Muse long-running comic planned years ago - a Dancing Stars on Me! AU but it never came to life. I think it was my lack of confidence that held me back. It might be weird of me to pat myself on the back, but I’m proud that I managed to get going this time!! I’ve actually written the SetsuAyu series in a way that for the first half, I could drop the series if I really wanted to at any point (each part is pretty independent, and that description I always copy-and-paste is all the explanation you really need), but now I know for sure that I don’t want to drop it! I wanna keep going!! Even if it gets tough. Although it might be a little early for me to make such bold declarations, I’m only 3/10 through LOOOL. But that’s just the way I feel right now!

I know it’s irrational and it’s something I’d rather not admit, but an anxiety that’s always looming over me is the idea that I’m not working hard enough - or that people think I’m not? Each comic update...takes like a month right? And a month is a long time. There’s this part of me that is convinced that people think I’m lazy for working so slowly. And I know it’s not true!! It doesn’t make sense for it to be!!! But like I said it’s irrational.

I’m really proud of this comic y’know. It’s a really big commitment and I’m proud of myself for being able to commit. I work full time 9-5, and I also am in my final year at university. I’m... kind of busy lol. So the huge factor in that month-long update turnaround is just that I don’t have the time to always be drawing. But I try to draw as much as I can! If you have me on discord you might notice me work on it for like 2-5 hours, almost daily before I go to bed (1am). Of course I’m not only drawing, but after I get everything plotted out sometimes that’s all I do. This comic is super time-consuming LMAO - and I try my best to work on it a little at a time.

So yeah, the entire month of comic-production is me drawing every almost every night.

Yeah it, - it’s kind of exhausting. Even though I’m itching to work on my next update, I’ve decided to take a break for uni crunch which is why I say the next one might be two months. It’s really odd though. The other night I was in bed feeling restless. It was so weird not drawing till 1am that I felt like I needed to be doing something. This comic series might have weird effects on my habits...

It makes me anxious thinking that it’d be so long till next update. But I’ll do my best to push that aside ! Hopefully I can get uni done and dusted ASAP! I want them to date dammit...

I've decided that I want to see this series through to the end. It’ll probably be May next year when that happens though LMAO! Please bear with my slow turnaround time. It’s only been 3 updates, but I can already see that I’m improving with each one. With each update I feel like I really learn from the previous and I always feel this sense of excitement with trying out new techniques and trying to create different feelings. I really want to see how the last updates will look compared to the first!  Technically we’re 3/10 (10 is an epilogue), but after 6 I actually stop doing bonuses? So teeechnically I’m like 40% of the way through~.

It might be a little over-ambitious, but I kind of want to print it out and make a hard-copy when I’m done. I’m not sure about what the demand would be if I were to sell it, but I definitely want to print it for myself first and foremost (after touching up the earlier updates of course LOL). It’d be like a physical representation of my achievement. I hope I can make it there.

Anyways, I’ve rambled for far too long. I’m not sure why I suddenly felt like talking about uh, everything but yeaaaah. If you’ve read this far, kudos to you! You now have a window into my soul that I’m still not sure if I’m comfortable with revealing (but I’m comfortable enough because I’m posting this so...)! 

After reading all of this, can you tell why I always get so so happy after each update? It’s the fruition of what’s usually 2-3 weeks of non-stop hard work! Seeing people connect with it always sends me to another realm of bliss and I always feel soft like putty LOL.

[twstedgrils]

Oc Master Post

Alright! I finally have all my ocs designed and written down! This is the official debut post for this oc blog! It’s really long (gotta go through 10 ocs lmao) so I’ll put a read more so it’s easier to scroll past. If your interested, please read and even ask me questions! I really want to interact with this fandom since everyone seems so nice and funny!

And yes, I did put grils instead of girls on purpose...I’m funny I swear

So I first want to say that my ocs are in an au, one which has NRC have female students (but still in low numbers) and an 8th dorm based on Captain Hook (making Ramshackle the 9th). Also Crowley is a tiny bit nicer to our mc in this au, mostly cause he’s basically her weird dad lol

There’s another addition to this au, but that’ll be addressed in my MC insert’s bio.

I’ll also list additional info that the text in the refs don’t address, including body types because I wanted my ocs to be diverse in that aspect.

Another thing, shipping. Oh great seven, shipping will be a free for all for me. I really like shipping. So any ship and every ship will be possible (as long as it’s not with Cheka or Ortho, cause no. Human Grim is fine, but he has to be in human form). With that in mind this blog will be very self-indulgent when it comes to shipping and such. 

I’ll come back to this to edit when I develop these girls more.

So first off we’ll start with my MC!self-insert!

I didn’t know what outfit to put her in, since Ramshackle doesn’t have a dorm uniform, so I just put her in her pjs (which were provided by Crowley).

Birthday: Feb 4 (my b-day lolol)

Best Subject: Math

Worst Subject: PE (for valid medical reasons)

Hobby: Drawing

Homeland: Not of TW

Body Type: Average

Charlotte (or Charlie as people call her) is usually quiet, especially when she first arrives in TW. But the more she’s comfortable around the people, the more she reveals her inner sass. She doesn’t want to admit it, but she’s as much as a dumbass as the ADeuce duo.

She’s also has albinism, but she used to constantly dye her hair into a more strawberry blonde so she wouldn’t get picked on by other kids. This condition also leads to her having to take many breaks during PE so she won’t burn.

She may like cats, but Grim really tests her fondness for them. But once it’s found out he can take a human form (and becomes more chill due to the amount of energy it takes to maintain said form) the two actually become the best of friends, which shocks the first year gang. 

Design Inspiration: White Rabbit and March Hare

Birthday: Feb 29

Best Subject: History

Unique Magic: Golden Doorknob (Summons a golden doorknob on any surface, making it a door to anywhere the user thinks of. Example, placing the knob on Ramshackle's walls and walks into NRC's Cafeteria via the door)

Worst Subject: Chemistry

Hobby: Track

Homeland: Afterglow

Body Type: Pear shape

Whitney is what you expect from a rabbit, timid, nervous, shy, anxiety filled, and easily intimidated. At first. If you manage it anger her, suddenly you’ll be hit by both a Scottish war cry and a rabbit kick. When she’s angry, she’s a rage filled bunny who throws the most foul of curses. Her switches are rivaled to Deuce’s bad boy switch. And just like the boy, when she calms down she get’s very flustered. 

She doesn’t talk to many people, as she hates attention. But after some she does become acquainted with the boys, almost on the line of friendship with each. 

Design Inspiration: Shere Kahn and Tigger

Birthday: Set 28

Unique Magic: Fun! Fun! Fun! (turns any part of their body into a bouncy spring. Often the tail is used)

Best Subject: PE

Worst Subject: Chemistry

Hobby: Basket Weaving and making jewelry

Homeland: Land of Pyroxene

Body Type: Apple shape (broad shoulders)

Kaya is seen as a tough no bs girl, many females admire how she can go woman-to-man with the Savanaclaw males. But actually she’s nothing but a goofball that loves to tend to baby animals and make cute things. She has a talent for making beautiful woven baskets and earrings. She helps Ruggie a lot whenever she sees him overun by errands. 

She does have a tendency to nap anywhere and everywhere like Leona and Silver, but she apologizes sheepishly when woken up. Because of her napping habit, she tends to stay up late into the night.

Design Inspiration: None

Birthday: May 24

Unique Magic: Second Chance (let’s the user go back to a certain point to try again. Only activated when close to death)

Best Subject: Chemistry

Worst Subject: History

Hobby: Singing and baking

Homeland: Coral Sea

Body Type: Petite

Wendy is a very small moon jellyfish mermaid. She was home-schooled by her mother under the sea, while her father ran a business on land. She visited land often to see her father, fascinated by all neon lights shining in the city.

She’s very quiet, like she’s actually a selective mute. She doesn’t tend to hangout with people because she fears most don’t like her because of her selective muteness. Oddly enough though, she’s always seen with Floyd, to the bafflement of everyone. She finds the eels mannerisms amusing.

She loves to sing, but doesn’t want anyone but her secret singing buddy (Daria) to listen to her. Her voice is very high pitched, but soft that it’s almost hard to hear. She also loves baking, often seen helping Jade and Floyd with preparing the sugary foods and drinks Monstro Lounge offers.

Design Inspiration: Iago and Jasmine’s red outfit

Birthday: Aug 5

Unique Magic: Dancer’s Delight (charms anyone who sees her dancing, perfect for distraction)

Best Subject: None

Worst Subject: None

Hobby: Dancing

Homeland: Land of Hot Sands

Body Type: Hourglass

Layla is like that one person who teases everyone and sees most as her friend. She uses both her height and pretty features to get a rise and fluster anyone. Her main victim is Jamil, much to his displeasure. She gets along great with Kalim, fueling his antics of carpet riding and shenanigans. But she does help Jamil in taking care of Kalim, often seeing the snake whisperer overworked.

She’s usually seen hanging out with Kaya and Whitney (with the rabbit being flustered by both of the taller females). She’s drawn to most in the Savanaclaw dorm, as she has the urge to pet their ears. She and Kaya are in the same class, so the two always buddy together, helping each other if needed.

Back home she comes from a line of exotic dancers, always entertaining other for money. With this in mind, she practices her dancing everyday. She hopes she can live up to the expectations her family has put on her. She’s not wealthy, but she’s not poor, so she doesn’t get too surpised over Kalim’s wealth. But she still does, especially when Kalim once offered to get her a tiger cub (she refused though).

Design Inspiration: Myself and Medusa (Hercules tv show)

Birthday: Mar 27

Unique Magic: Snake Eyes (paralyzes anyone with her stare if activated, even herself if she looks in the mirror)

Best Subject: History

Worst Subject: Math

Hobby: Painting and singing

Homeland: Isle of Lamentation

Body Type: Chubby

Daria is another quiet and reserved girl, she’s not shy per say but she prefers people to approach her than the other way. She doesn’t particularly like that she was sorted into Pomefiore, cause all she wants to do is paint and sing. This leads her to grow close to Epel and anger Vil. She purposefully doesn’t do anything to her appearance, only brushing her hair as she hates tangles. 

She tends to stay in a secret area with Wendy, singing with the fellow quiet girl. If not that then she’s doing artwork in her dorm room, ignoring anyone who dares to pull her away from her work. Often times this leads to both her and Vil having a glaring contest cause she didn’t sleep (”Too busy painting” she says.) or forgot to do her morning skincare routine.

Design Inspiration: Phosphora (Kid Icarus) and Electra (backstory)

Birthday: Jul 16

Unique Magic: Sparks Fly (allows the user to transfer any electricity from any device around her into her prosthetics)

Best Subject: Math

Worst Subject: None

Hobby: Modifying her prosthetic limbs

Homeland: Rose Kingdom

Body Type: Top heavy

Elina is the mom friend, always giving others affection and helping them when she can. Because of her affectionate self, she treats Ortho like her little brother. You’ll often see her playing with the boy, or in her room working on her prosthetics (with Idia helping). She loves making her limbs look non-human, but she has more human structure legs for school (as to not weird out her classmates too much). She’s made them since young, always improving and modernizing her limbs.

Because of a tragic accident, she has prosthetics for both legs and her left arm. And has trauma over car races or cars going over the speed limit. She never mentions her family around others, but it shows how much she cares for them. The same could be said for her friends.

Design Inspiration: Chernabog

Birthday: Jun 6

Unique Magic: ???

Best Subject: History

Worst Subject: Chem

Hobby: Making Clothes

Homeland: Valley of Thorns

Body Type: Shortstack

Maria is basically the opposite of Lilia, while he looks young but acts maturely she looks mature but acts like a complete child. Most believe she’s staff before she has to explain that she’s a student. She’s not a brat (thank sevens) but she is very naive and innocent. This causes for her dorm mates to become somewhat protective if someone makes a pass on her (she never notices cause she thinks they’re just being nice). 

She has a talent with designing clothes, no one can explain why. Many have approached her to pay for her designs, but she refuses. She says she much prefers to just make and gift her designs to anyone. When she’s working, it’s the most mature you’ll see her. Everyone she’s interacted with has at least one thing she’s made, whether they wanted it or not.

Design Inspiration: Hook and Scarlet (the female animatronic from the pirate ride)

Birthday: Dec 25

Unique Magic: The Sea’s Rage (a passive ability that allows the user to access inhuman strength, allowing her to lift even Jack or Malleus)

Best Subject: None

Worst Subject: All

Hobby: Pick-pocketing

Homeland: The Savage Seas

Body Type: Flat (Looks average thanks to her corset)

Jessie is the dorm leader of Bonäuber, a dorm based upon The Captain of the Seas, who is held almost as high regards as the Great Seven. She’s a very childish and extremely cocky girl. She always praises herself for being the best out of everyone, when in actuality she’s not the brightest. The only thing she is good at she is shooting a gun, loving a good hunt. She also has a child fascination for board games, so she often plays (and loses) with Azul and Idia. 

Most don’t like her because she has a bad habit of stealing from anyone and everyone. This is because of her hard childhood, having to steal to survive with no family. The Savage Seas, and the isles among it, were tough on those with no wealth. It wasn’t until a kind pirate gifted saved her from a beating and gifted her a gold coin, her first coin. She now wears the coin on her neck and vows to become a pirate as great as The Captain, using her loot to make others who were in her shoes to have a good life. Because of her ambitions, she always goes for the rich when looting, Kalim being her main target. But because of how nice and generous he is, she gets flustered and runs away without a single coin. (It’s really cute ngl)

As a dorm leader she’s overly not strict, the most she can be is over how clean the dormitory is. Uniform isn’t strict as well, only forcing those in the dorm to wear the striped shirt, vest, belt, bandanna, and boots. Bottoms can be anything, and the corsets were optional. Most dorm members were interestingly mostly females, which confused many. 

Their dorm building is a functioning pirate ship, usually docked on a deserted island. Occasionally the dorm will go on an adventure, since most are those who love the sea and can’t stay in one place. 

Design Inspiration: Smee and Tick Tock Croc (and maybe Louis from the princess and the frog)

Birthday: Oct 3

Unique Magic: When I’m Human (let’s the user take a human form with little drawback, like Kalim’s Oasis Maker. This slowly wears off if the user is over emotional, most commonly anger.)

Best Subjects: All

Worst Subjects: None

Hobby: Making tea and treats for Jessie

Homeland: The Savage Seas

Body Type: Hourglass (looks more exaggerated thanks to her corset)

Sammy (what Jessie calls her) is the vice dorm leader of Bonauber, she’s very mysterious and weird to most in the school. She’s always by the shorter girl’s side, and always takes care of her. She is a big enabler, sharing her ambitions with the leader. She’s very humble about her intelligence and abilities, often only giving praise to Jessie. She’s almost like a mother for the leader.

She’s secretly a crocodile that saved (and traumatized) Jessie when they were younger. As she saw the little girl run from an adult, causing the reptile to attack the adult. She didn’t know why, but at the time a sudden feeling of protecting for the girl took over. Ever since then the reptile was drawn towards the girl, almost obsessive. It wasn’t until she developed her unique magic that she stuck with the girl from childhood. Jessie never realized, as Sam is very keen on keeping the object of her affections(?) in the dark. If anyone threatens the two, Sam will open her eyes and glare with her slit pupils as scales appear faintly.

And that’s all of them! After posting this I’ll start working on two things.

1: cards, I want to draw cards for them as if they are canon characters. I’ll work on the school uniform cards first!

2: Grim’s human design, this one will be easier as he’ll just be a sketch. 

Again, feel free to ask any questions! I’ll answer with in character sketches! (with more elaborating in artist’s text) I’ll try my best to answer as many of them as I can! You can also dm me if you wish to just talk about twst with me!

[cosmictulips]

Hi there! I'd love a free reading from you but I can't find any pinned post with rules so I hope that I'll include everything that you need. My initials are MK(aquarius sun) and I'm really good friends with NA (virgo sun) but sometimes I feel like we're meant to be something more. Can you give me some insight of what might be going through his mind? We're both over 18. Thank you🌿

It’s different for everyone,  but I guess the “pinned post”  is just the first post everyone sees when they click on my blog xD  Either way,  you’re good lol 

Aww as a Taurus, I had this thing for an Aquarius once.  he said I was too clingy and then ghosted me.  Jokes on him because I’m distant af to people once we establish a good communication line lmaoooo --- not that... this has to do with your reading xD  ...anyway I drew for you 3 of swords, The Magician, Ace of Cups. with the 7 of wands as the overall energy. 

so my vibe is that this virgo is kind of all over the place at the moment. because like poop the 2 of cups flew out at one point but I also saw the Fool, the Devil, the Lovers likeee the Ace of Pentacles lol.  talk about a wind of emotions lol 

so it seems like the virgo here is going through something.  did they just get out of a relationship?  maybe they lost someone,  they seem to be grieving over someone or something.  this could be another person, they could just have depression but the three of swords is telling me they had to let something go and it hurt them. 

They do have,  what I would call, budding feelings for you.  so there’s a spark ;)))  I think they just need some time for healing.  they really feel like they manifested you into their lives lol with that Magician card.   I think this virgo is the type to day dream a bit because the ace of cups here, with the Magician is like, Like let me take you out on all these cute dates, plan our life together and be cute as buttons. 

even the 7 of wands is a very protective energy.  they want to protect you, and that’s probably how they show their love.  Having a virgo moon,  us virgos lolol we tend to nit pick and be so like... protective of people we care about xD have you heard them say anything like “I think this would be good for you if you...” insert something weird probably. or like do they stare at you a lot?  xD Like I would FIGHT someone lmao  that’s the kind of energy I’m getting here too.  like they don’t mean to kind of just nitpick at you it’s just they want to make sure that you are taken care of lolol.  

so yea, with all the other cards, like the Fool and the Devil especially.  they might be like, taking a risk with you.  not in a bad way I think that’s just what they’re feeling like.  ooohhh we’re doing the devils tango. like xD there’s something about you to them that is so new, that they feel like it’s risky ;))) like a little spice in their life basically lol.  you might make them a bit more impulsive and make them get out of their comfort zone lol and they might try to fight that but I feel like this virgo is just down to do whatever lol even if it’s a little... spicy ;)) if you catch my drift lmao 

they might be battling themselves on what to do.  which is to be expected because of the three of swords.  give them time to heal whatever it is they are going through. they definitely have their eye on you ;)))

I hope this helps LOL If you ever need anything, feel free to stop on by =D

[bigskydreaming]

Okay, so still trying to figure out rent and just taking a little break to eat lunch, and like, breathe, lol, but unfortunately still not all that close to solving that. I’ve only gotten one donation, which while much appreciated! does not really change the situation as much as I need. However, I did have another idea, though its fairly weird and unconventional. Look, I’m going outside of the box here people. I left the box behind months ago. LOL. Everything is outside of the box these days, so expect the weird and unconventional. This is the blog of a desperate man! 

One still preoccupied with fandom and discourse nonsense, because like, I need to at least fake having a life outside of constant desperation, lmfao, but like...still very much a desperate man, and so these posts aren’t gonna stop reeking of desperation and ridiculous requests anytime soon, lolol. I don’t blame anyone for unfollowing at any time, and hey if you do, please consider checking back in a year or so to see if I’ve like...become closer to non-ridiculous in the time since, but like. Hey, I get it. Some of these posts get weird and desperate and that’s not anyone’s idea of a happy fun time. I’ve made a deal with the universe though. When IT stops being ridiculous to me, I’ll stop being ridiculous too. 

Anyway.

So after wasting most of the day trying to get on the actual phone with someone at Apple who knows how their card actually works and why it does and doesn’t do various things, I ended up with the not super helpful answer that there just IS no way to do what I was trying to do with it. Because its so unconventional, part of the way the Apple Card works is that like, Apple has direct relationships with each of the places they’ve worked it out to let it be used like a normal credit card, so the fact that it is technically a Mastercard doesn’t mean as much as I’d hoped. Because one of the places they DON’T have specific angles negotiated with is Paypal itself, so like....you can use a side function of the Apple Card called Apple Cash Pay (basically the cash back feature attached to the credit card as part of its offer)...like that, you can transfer to and via Paypal....but the actual card itself, Paypal won’t accept as a valid credit card. Even though it is in every other way, lol. SIGH. So bottom line, there just is no way for me to send money to myself via that card and then transfer from there to my bank.

SO! Outside the box thinking, here’s where it gets weird if it hadn’t already....the thing is, the card does still work fine and the same as any other card with most online retailers, like Amazon, etc. Which would be great if I needed to buy things from any of them, but as my needs are simple and confined to just food, monthly insurance fees and a roof over my head, and the latter two are not stocked at Amazon or anywhere else....again. The source of my problem.

BUT! If anyone ELSE who’s a mutual or follows me or follows a mutual or just sees this and thinks that hey this guy seems like the real deal and is probably not a scam artist trying to sell me on my rightful inheritance of some overseas country if I just supply my banking information here....lol (trust me, I get and approve of any and all caution)...

Like, point being, if anyone IS willing to jump through a couple fairly simple hoops to make this happen, via message or email or chat or whatever works best for you, and you have like....a sizable purchase you need to make from Amazon or some other major online retailer, like TODAY, like you were already planning on it today or in the next couple of days anyway.....I could input your address as the shipping address, show you screenshots of that before proceeding so you can verify its all accurate, then make the purchase with my Apple Card, forward you any verification emails/tracking information along with screenshots showing the receipt, tracking information, that it was all accepted and approved of, etc. 

And then you can send me the money you were going to use for that purchase via paypal, just by whatever means, like, again Paypal lets you send money with a credit card even, as long as its a ‘normal’ one, lol, its just I’ve literally tapped out both my normal credits this month already, using them to pay this month’s insurance and out of pocket medical bills.

I realize there’s still a sketch factor involved here for anyone who doesn’t like, KNOW me know me, or interact with me regularly, as I don’t think there’s any way around me at least needing A physical address from you to have your purchase sent to, but I mean, I promise to delete that info as soon as its done, for whatever that’s worth. And I definitely promise to forget about it like, five seconds later as hell, I don’t remember the address of the place I lived five years ago. I’m really shitty at addresses or well, anything involving numbers really. Its a thing.

So I mean, I’m aware I’m a loud excitable, umm, passionate guy, let’s go with, who probably shows up on a lot of peoples’ dash in that kind of context more often than not, lol, but I do try my best to come across as trustworthy and true to my word and not out to screw anyone over, even people I actively hate, lol, so....if you’re willing to take a chance on this to help me out, please let me know and we’ll figure out some way to make this work. If you’re on any level concerned about giving me that information or that I might doxx you or some shit in the future, like, there’s really only so much I can do to reassure people that I’m not that kinda guy, so if this is in any way still a doubt or concern for you, I encourage you to not take that chance and subject yourself to that particular ongoing bit of anxiety, like. Trust me. I get it. 

I have anxiety issues out the wazoo. I still occasionally fret about my belief that a friend I haven’t talked to in like ten years, like secretly hated me because of some obscure reason when like, who the fuck cares, why does it matter? “Just does,” my brain says, like the helpful bitch it is. So trust me. I TOTALLY get hesitation about this weird ball request, I do NOT begrudge anyone their caution or want to set a precedent for people to be anymore LESS cautious online in any way, shape or form, like its a fucked up internet, lads, take care of yourself, PLEASE.

Again, this is simply the out of wedlock love child of desperation plus outside the box thinking equals ridiculous requests! So....it is what it is, lol, I’m not pretending its anything other than that. But anyone who doesn’t mind what it is and wants to help me out, lemme know! As soon as possible, if at all possible, as I can see the manager’s office from my window and he is definitely eyeing my door with Intent at this point.

(Oh yeah and because its always my most time-pertinent posts that end up still in circulation years after they’re relevant, this post is time stamped 3 pm, Pacific time, October 17th, 2019, lololol. That is the particular time of urgency. Any future readers of this post in the year 2023, I appreciate your concern, but like, I hopefully don’t still need you to hit me up about this at that point, lolol).

[neptunebeetle]

tagged by: @outlier-roddy

name: andrew

nickname: andy i suppose! I’ve also had the nickname butters bc of my old acc name which is still fine by me ^o^ its still my name on discord anyway lol

zodiac: cancer... i think im stereotypical crybaby cancer oops

height: 5’6 :T wish i was taller.. just a lil bit....

nationality: american

languages: english like i barely tried to learn german and spanish but i RLLY want to actually learn spanish i just.... no motivation

favourite flower: agudgd yeah i really don’t know?

favourite scent: hrm... desserts.. brown sugar.. brownies... sweets in general really

favourite fictional character: HNNN I DONT KNOW? Depends on whatever piece of media i guess bc i have too many.... 😳 but i do have a list for that LOL

coffee, tea, or hot chocolate: hot chocolate.. the only acceptable coffee is like cappuccinos or whatever and im just not into tea

dogs or cats: cats! I like dogs but they can be a teensy bit too loud or energetic for me.. also scary?? Lmao

number of blankets: one big one! I would die if i had more than one i burn up too easily

dream trip: gdusgeuydjbd idk?? Ummm i want to go to a tfcon at least once pls for the love of everything X_X

blog established: THIS blog really not that long ago, i think in january

random fact: i have a weird rare feature (not facial tho) that only 3-8% (number varies) of the population has, its pretty much pointless and nobody knows why its even a thing. Even more fun of a fact? Yeah i have TWO of them. Now what does THAT mean? I don’t know because google doesn’t know either

gender: who?

current time: ~1:10 AM typing this, ~1:30 AM posting it

favourite musical artists: god idk... technically i feel like i have to say Against Me! bc i love every single one of their songs but idk.. i really like Jack Stauber and Imagine Dragons XT basic ass mfer....

song stuck in my head: there’s a lot actually? Im listening to my playlist for songs as heard of on tiktok and i get so many of those stuck in my head... rn my brain is telling me Say So

last movie i saw: HM.... hmmm... i guess pleasantville? I already talked about it but it was okay

last thing i googled: i.. just googled the thing for that previous random fact question bc i was like “wait what Does two of them mean” like actually nothing shows up.. but before that i was looking up a word i forgot how to spell

other blogs: fuck urmm i do have other blogs im just too lazy to use them XT no side blogs for this one tho

lucky number: i don’t think i have a “lucky” number... my favorite number is 5 :o)

currently wearing: big t-shirt pj pants lolol

dream job: god like uhhhhhh i rlly wanted to be an animator but im leaning towards comics lately?? We’ll see idk i don’t want to work for a particular company or anything like that..... just.. want to draw

favourite foods: oh god don’t ask me this i hate food... that’s a lie i like it Sometimes... idk bro all i eat is fake meat and garbo trash... i like italian?

instruments: idk what that is (actually ive been told i should learn to play piano and i wouldnt mind that but ive never played any other instrument in my life)

favourite song: urmm i think overall probably Leopard by jack stauber bc it’s my actual absolute fave i love it sm..... can listen to it whenever and lose my marbles every time

I’m bad abt not tagging ppl in these sorts of games and im going to continue to not GDJHD

[dcarhcarts]

regarding recent absences

And other such updates!

If you want the tl;dr, here it is: my mental health isn’t in the greatest place right now, and I figured I ought to explain why I must ask you for continued patience for the snail speed on this blog. I’m not announcing official hiatus, but just know that I...might continue to be pretty scarce, but I’m trying my best to be here and to be writing here. To hopefully get me more active here, I plan on dropping a few threads and cleaning out my dash re: people who follow me but aren’t writing with me. You’re more than welcome to keep following me if I unfollow you, and if you want to write with me and just haven’t gotten the chance and would like me to re-follow you, pls just go ahead and shoot me an im. I will be making a separate post about both those things, it’s just that I can’t deal with how fast my dash is moving at the moment.

If you care for the long version, under the cut so as to not bother everyone else!!! Be warned that it’s uh...it’s l o n g. TW for depression and anxiety and the general things my brain does to me lolol. 

Wow I haven’t used the post title function in a l o n g time. Anyway, hi, it’s me, Ro, your friendly neighborhood mun of a 20+ muse mumu. Don’t let the kind-of-serious format scare you - nothing bad is happening. I just have a few things that I felt the need to address that have been happening either in my life or just in my screwed up brain :D Buckle in and get ready for the ride, I guess?

Starting with something y’all already know about - I’ve not been here a lot recently. I joke about that a lot, but really, if you catch the pattern, my activity here is: exclusively after 10 pm, 2 drafts at most a day, inbox straight up clogged from like a month ago. IMS basically desolate, because I haven’t worked up the courage to pick them back up since I last forgot about them in the endless stream of things I had to do about a month ago! (that being said, uh, if you want to talk to me your best bet is probably through discord. Ro#6782 - pls, mutuals only, and tell me who you are!)  

And - because I h a t e being that mun that reblogs memes and asks for for them and then never answers their askbox / puts out starter calls when she has 10000 drafts / puts out plotting calls when she has unanswered ims, (no problem at all when other people do this but somehow when it’s m e I’m like “no you’re a terrible person”???? hmmm), I’ve also been avoiding t h o s e. If you’re new and you followed me in the last month, I’ve been putting out n o t h i n g that indicates a willingness to interact with new/more people, while the opposite is true. I’m always willing to interact - if I follow back, I want to write with you, only, well, aforementioned issue aside, I also have m o r e problems.

Namely, IRL and the fucked up thing called my brain. 

As most of you know, I got a job ~end of may or early juuuune~ and....well it’s pretty damn time consuming. I can’t have my phone during the course of my job - by the way, 4 hours - and so in those 4 hours (from 4 pm to 8 pm) I can basically get nothing done here. Then there’s also the fact that the time my shift is placed mentally and physically drains me a lot. Because it starts at 4, most of my morning is spent thinking “god I don’t wanna go to work” and because it ends at 8, most of my evening is spent trying very hard not to doze off. It also drains me a lot socially - I work at a call center, and all day I’m basically calling people who don’t want me to call them and are very irate even when they pick up, and uh, that already doesn’t do well for my anxiety haha. 

The other thing, of course - is my sort-of-seasonal depression. Winter tends to equate to anxiety for me, and summer tends to equate to depression. Again, I think I’ve joked about this a lot, but I apparently can only do drafts when I have 3 finals tomorrow and I haven’t studied for any of them. When it’s break, I get into a really weird slump - when i wake up in the morning, I don’t really want to wake up, and sometimes just stare at the wall for like, an hour. Nothing that I enjoyed during the other months, I seem to enjoy doing now. There’s too much time and too little time. It’s like i spent the whole day doing absolutely nothing meaningful but I can’t break myself out of the cycle so I keep doing that, rinse and repeat day after day, and sometimes my definition of spending time is just lying down in bed again and doing nothing for an hour randomly in the middle of the day. I feel guilty for wasting time as much as I am clueless as to how to fill it in a fulfilling way. “But Ro, you could do drafts!” A Concerned Person May Say. “You like writing!” Well, Kind Person, on some of these days, absolutely n o t h i n g Sparks Joy. 

“But Ro, I follow you on your other blog too!” The Concerned Person might continue.“You’re kind of active there, aren’t you?” And the answer, Kind Person who supported my career even if that blog is mostly obscure af fandoms - is yes.  I am kind of active on my other blog, @storyblcd. This brings us to the third and final reason why I’m.....moving at snail’s speed here, and that, my good friend - is anxiety. Well, mixed with a certain amount of mental exhaustion, of course. Note: this is n o t anyone’s fault. People’s interactions with me have not been negative - and they are not responsible for how my brain chooses to reaact to it. 

I’ve not lost muse for the muses on this blog, per se - but I’m getting burned out really fast writing them, for multiple reasons. First, muse imbalance. Now I know, I definitely k n o w - that sometimes people like one muse more than another, or have more interest in writing with one or the other, and I get that. I’ve said multiple multiple times that that is p e r f e c t l y fine. But honestly the reason I’ve lasted so long on a multimuse is because I can pick which muse I have muse for when, and I can respond accordingly / ask for interactions accordingly. But when I get so many people coming at me at once for the o n e muse when I have t w e n t y it sometimes gets a little? Discouraging? It makes me question whether or not only that one muse is popular for a reason. It also exhausts me re: the portrayal of that muse, because I”m putting out so many replies for that muse in a lot of sort of similar plots/scenarios that I just get burnt right out. And then I get scared that if I keep going I’ll want to drop the muse, so I’m staying away from those threads a little bit.

Second, I’m at a point in my portrayal of certain muses where I feel like there’s a certain expectation for how it’s going to be. My personal feelings aside, I think every mun expects their own portrayal to be different and unique and exciting - and it’s not different for me, only now I feel like the expectation and the pressure of coming up with something good and meaningful outweighs the feeling of exploration as I’m “discovering” the muse. Like most writers - I still crave validation, though more and more lately, I’m at a place in my writing where I f e e l like me from 2 months ago could have probably done a better job. While it’s not necessarily true, and these pressures are coming from m e and not any outside source, I f e e l like I have to consistently Make Good Writing, and simultaneously feel like some days I sit down and I try to do drafts and all I write is garbage. It just - doesn’t feel the same? So - more and more, I’m staring at the empty drafts page and then closing it - because if I don’t w r i t e I don’t have to admit I peaked two months ago.  

Both of these reasons have made me rather a bit avoidant of my muses here / this blog. Now, I’ve been struggling with anxiety for long enough that I know that a lot of this is - well, p r o b a b l y just my brain lying to me. See even as I’m writing this post now, my anxiety is saying “haha guess what n o one cares you’ve been gone” and my rational Anxiety-is-a-stupid-asshole voice is saying “nahhhhhh your brain is probably just lying to you.” But! In the battle, anxiety is kind of pummeling me now. I will r i s e again and win the war, most likely - but for now it’s anxiety: 1 and ro: 0.

AND finally - if you made it all the way down here, you’re a c h a m p. The solution! Well, as much of a solution as I’m hoping to get anyway - we’ll have to see if it implements well. I’m going to unfollow a few blogs so I can get my dash cleaner/more organized/less fast-moving and b r e a t h e. I’m going to drop a couple of threads, I might make a couple more muses request only/exclusive only for the like 2 people that have threads with them, I might drop a couple muses (though I don’t think this will really happen, Idk tho). There will be separate posts on those things coming soon, this is just to notify y’all. Thank you for all of your patience, thank you for all the wonderful people who’ve allowed me to write with you, I love all of you!!!!

[monkeyminds]

FIRST STARBUCKS POST

Literally all my life dreams are coming together??!! I’m having my first official Starbucks blog sesh - in love. Bae even came with me <3, he's studying for his medical terminology exam that's on his first day of school. Which, he hasn't even started studying yet, so maybe me dragging him to starbucks with me at 10pm on a Friday is a good thing? Benefits us both I suppose. I'm just gonna keep telling myself that haha. We both got cold brews so we can stay up late and go out and spend our Friday night how he actually wants to...drinking.. 

I miss my bff (the one who moved to cali after graduating college :’( ..) because we would always go on late coffee dates in the city and stay up until like 1am drinking coffee and studying or just talking. He doesn't MIND coming to the coffee shop with me but I don't think it really appeals to him, like me and my bff.

SHE’S COMING TO VISIT SOON and I am VERY excited. right in time for your bitches birthday. Then I’m going to fly to DC to visit bae for my birthday and we’ll see the dark Phoenix (yas queen Sophie), AND THEN when I come back I’m going to see BILLIE FUCKING EILISH in Toronto with my other bff/almost roommate (!!!). So basically my vacation is gonna be kickass and full of some of my favorite people :))))

BUT anyways, back to blogging at Starbucks, I've just always had this weird dream of being one of those people at the coffee shop writing on their MacBooks lolol. Obvi I’m not good enough to write a book or anything but I will accept blogging as an acceptable form of writing for my goal. And like it honestly is a super good outlet, I look forward to writing on my blog now. I needed something to look forward to instead of just the mundane - wake up, go to work, go home, eat go to bed, repeat. 

I was getting into a really dark place and like super sad all the time over the last couple months - probably made worse by the looming reality of my bf moving away to school. I was crying more and just being sad. About a week ago, I decided that I'm a bad ass bitch, a strong independent woman, and I don't need to be crying over him leaving! I am my own person and I need to grow into my adult self. I’ve been with him since I was 19 (almost three years ago) so I feel like I never really go the chance. That’s when I decided I was going to start doing things I enjoy that are just for me! Blogging and losing weight were the first things put into action and so far so good. I am THROUGHLY enjoying both things. I'm way more confident in every day life due to the active(!) weight loss and I LOOK FORWARD to writing on my blog, I feel like I really needed this, you know, something to be happy about daily. And I am proud of myself for taking my happiness into my own hands and not relying on my bf.

He has been working towards getting into school for literally years and he finally got in, he needs all the support I can give him! Not the guilt he feels from thinking I’ll be sad and broken without him. I am excited to watch him thrive and what he really wants to do in life - also SUPER excited about having a reason to go to DC a bunch over the next two years!!

UGH I almost forgot to say I got a haircut, so that was exciting lmao

[simcatcher]

57 Things About Me - Tag

I was tagged ageeeees ago by @purplepxls​ thank you honey <3

57 sounds like alot. Also why 57 ? 

1. I am a very tall girl with curls. I don’t make up unless I’m going out, but my job requires me to ! That’s one of the things I like about that job, it makes me feel pretty :)

2. I can spend days in my room as long as I can see the sun... Just to write. Or get inspiration. I’ll just take tea breaks and nourish myself from time to time lol.

3. I’ve been in love once or twice or more, but I’ve never really loved anyone. I never let them too close, and I get bored too easily... When the feelings are reciprocated, I mean. I long after the ones I couldn’t have more than after my actual exes, lol !

4. Loneliness never bothered me too much. I am a loner, I need my time alone to breathe. Now my friends start families and marriage and such and I’m just like wut ? nop, not at all. 

5. I used to party a lot, alot alot alot but now I’m less wild. I don’t drink much anumore except for a glass of red wine from time to time. The only leftovers of my uni years are my damn cigarettes lol. They’re sticky.

6. I have mood swings. One minute cheerful and loud, the next sad and quiet. I think all the time about plenty of things and this is a real mood trigger.

7. I’m not very trustable when it comes to dates, things you said, ‘let me know”. I don’t remember your secrets, I forget about the dates, I never ring back. I hate commitment and pressure and go for my own freedom. I do basically what I want.

8. This is starting to be long.

9. I think love hurts and this is the only battle I’ve never engaged because I don’t want to end up broken. I don’t see the point. And I hate romance lolol. Cheesy romance that is, impossible loves are my shit. 

10. I’m a sucker for horror movies. I love them. The creepier the better ! I’m not going for butchery though, I like when the story is mindwrecking. I like it even more actually. Should I have said thriller ? Ahah, Annabelle ain’t no thriller :D

11. I have my own car now ! Along with my own place, my own roomies, my job, I’ve never been this content before and when I look back at all the times I was about to give up, all the times I’ve kept on keeping on when I felt like it was useless, now I see it was all worth it, so so much worth it.

12. I don’t want to be a mom. I don’t want that responsibility, that life changing kind of committment. I want a cat. But even a cat seems hard to handle for me. I’ve had a kitty home (for a friend) for a while, and it’s... life changing. Not sure I mean it in a good way though. I really loved the part when the little baby woke me up with her meows or when she curled up against me at night or when she gave those very special head-bumps kind of hugs. God I miss her...

13. I think some events are meant to happen. Some other are meant to not happen. Sometimes when it’s not your fate it’s no use pushing and pushing again cause it only drains all your energy and you’re left flat and without substance. I’ve learnt that the hard way cause I’m kind of stubborn, I give myself 200% or I don’t. Sometimes if it’s meant to be it just happens, you DON’T have to push or rush, cause it comes to you naturally. And when it’s not for you it’s not, and the only thing to do is let go. That’s the hardest part.

14. I believe in miracles sometimes, or a little hand of Fate who knows. 

15. Looking at the night sky when there’s no one and nothing around but the wild animals outside is one of my favorite thing to do. Empty your head, breathe fresh air (well erm smoke a cig) and look up. I make up stories and find my own constellations. The last one I’ve found out is shaped like a wink / smile, and now that I got that job I dreamt to get, I can’t see it anymore in the sky. It’s still there though.

16. I don’t have a style, but if you ask my roomies they’d say ‘bohème’, which is fine by me. 

17. I like open spaces with little people. I like mountains, lakes, beaches and islands, I like big fields and feeling so small. I would love to be able to fly, but I’m afraid of heights. Since I’m afraid of heights, you can be sure I’m climbing on rooftops and trekking whenever I can (with friends. With friends, eh.) I mean, I try to fight against the fear, or no, it’s more like I want to understand it the best I can so I can know it by heart and never let it diminish me. Still a WIP lol

18. I don’t know continuity. I speak as I think, and it’s messy. Changing subjects is my specialty. Some think I don’t listen. Maybe I don’t, but I think I do, and I try !

19. I used to take anything. The anger, the sadness, anything to the point I couldn’t feel at all. Now it’s the opposite, if I’m angry I can’t (and won’t) contain myself, if I’m sad I’ll let myself cry. I’m done wearing a mask.

20. I don’t put labels on people. I don’t judge or, when I do I always try to get the other view. When ppl tell me someone has done this or that, I never take for granted that the person is a jerk. Ppl have reasons you never know about, and most of the times the issue is a communication issue. You don’t get what I mean, you twist it to fit your idea of it... anyway.

21. I love pizza and chocolate, but pizza more. Summer of 2015 was the sweetest summer of all for me. It was bright and warm. I was 21.

22. I feel so much. So, so so much some days it’s hard to keep up with the world. I feel so much and yet it’s like I’m the greatest self-absorbed person you’ll know. It’s always about me, about me, about me, and I guess that’s why I can’t be in a relationship and don’t really want to.

23. I read books in english and in french. Depends. Also I never read a book. I read plentuy, all in the same time, I start them in the middle, I go past and forward, there’s no written law about how to read a book but my roomate still thinks I’m weird.

24. I’m still 24 for a bit

25. But I’m turning 25 soon

26. Do you want to know when ?

27. No ?

28. Yes ? Well, that’s the 28th. Funny joke ain’t it ! the 28th of November, therefore a Sag lady here.

29. I don’t know where I’m going, but I’m going.

30. I feel empty and depressed if I don’t have something to fight for. Something I love to fight for I mean. When it’s something I don’t love, I still fight but it takes loads more of energy and I don’t know if I could do it again. 

31. Sometimes I feel like an old lady, sometimes like a little girl, but best is when I feel like a woman. A pretty red-lips/dark har young lady. It’s a nice feeling.

32. Where will I be when I’m 32 ?

33. I would really want to smoke a cigarette right now but I have to control myself cause I only have 4 left and I don’t have a car for now and where my parents live you need a car if you want to purchase cigarettes cause countryside means countryside we only have a hairdresser and a bakery around here

34. Mu little brother must be the person I love most in the whole damn universe, and though he drives me crazy like no one else I would go to the moon and back for him, he means the world to me

35. I have the best parents in the whole world

36. I wouldn’t trade my childhood memories for all the gold in the world

37. I’m quiet when you don’t know me, a little (hem, little) less when you do. 

38. I consider myself a fighter, cause though I try not to fall, I get up when I do and I don’t complain much.

39. I think I’ll stop at 41

40. I hate social media so much, I hate how they control our lives, I hate how the kids got smartphones and such and I wish they would still go out and play in the dirt like I used to cause those are the best memories I have and sometimes good memories are a good fuel to keep on

41. There we go

42. I love thunderstorms. They fascinate me. They make me happy for some reason. I love it.

Thank you, have a nice night, a nice day, a nice nap, a nice cookie and a nice life. Cheers <3

(I tag the ones who haven’t done it and would want to cause I’ve seen it on many blogs already ?)

[y00sungshairpin-blog]

genderbent!rfa +v and saeran with a male!mc? genderbends give me a life worth living (not really but still lolol). i'd especially feel bad for jaehee, bc he'd have to deal with a chat of extremely extra girls for about two years... yikes. thanks in advance!

Yoosung:

she is so dramatic

every time someone contradicts her she’s ready to fight

she is the kind of girl who is afraid of talking about her period and will go bright red if anyone mentions it

she wears skirts but always tops them with oversized sweaters

always has her hands in her pockets

doesn’t like makeup

doesn’t know what a hairbrush is

she slays the hairpins though

in the chat she’s constantly talking about her celebrity crushes and has posters everywhere

hell she has a crush on her own LOLOL character

also plays otome games

MC pampers her with presents

she loves going up to him while he’s cooking and hugging him from behind

she’s the little spoon of course

and loves it when MC plays with her hair

calls MC daddy

Zen:

doesn’t go out without makeu

has the biggest boobs

which she is not afraid to show by wearing tight clothes with long v-necks

she does squats

and yoga

sends provocative selfies in the chatroom and everyone is so sick of it

except Jaehee omg

and MC

he loves her body, her curves, everything about her resembles a goddess

and she loves to show it off in their private time

she lap dances for MC all the time

and sings in the shower like the real Zen

she wears red lingerie a lot

a lot of thongs

she’s extremely romantic and, although she’s always on a diet and encourages MC to eat healthily too, she can’t help but buy him chocolate all the time

when she’s with Jumin she rolls her eyes constantly

and makes remarks on her expensive accessories and how she doesn’t deserve them because she doesn’t realize how valuable they are

and she “doesn’t know how a true lady should wear them”

always stuffs her handbag so that she can use it to hit those catcallers in the face

Jaehee:

he’s so done with life 99% of the time

he looks so gOOD IN A SUIT??

and he is such a gentleman

secretly good at ballet

every time he opens the chat room he sighs

all these girls talking about their bra problems or their periods

he’s really not that interested

especially because he’s G A Y

any time he talks in the chatroom is to act like Jumin’s dad and remind her that she has work to do

or to chat in an extremely gay way with his extremely gay boyfriend MC

buys him flowers and finds time to cook for him

he’s the bottom though

Zen to him is like Beyoncè or Gaga to most gays

he has posters of her everywhere and forces MC to watch her performances together

which MC is kinda indifferent about

bUT HE FULLY SUPPORTS HIS FRIEND SO HE WATCHES AND CHEERS FOR HER

Jumin:

such a diva

always waits for someone to open doors for he

and holds out her hand every time she is introduced to a man until they kiss it

as I said, a diva

she drags the shit out of Zen

but with class

because she is S U P E R I O R

always wears expensive jewelry and those really tiny but stylish clutches where nothing fits

but who needs a big bag when all you need is your phone and your credit card

oh also lipstick

she always wears dark red lipstick

and slays it

she’s had multiple men offer her money to have sex with her

and she was absolutely disgusted

but she’s too nice and S U P E R I O R to slap somebody in the face

so she always has bodyguards with her

her relationship with MC is extremely romantic

much different from the other relationships she has

and in bed she dominates MC and he loves it

she especially likes leaving lipstick markings all over the man’s chest and neck

and obviously won’t admit it but, despite being the giver in the relationship, she wouldn’t mind receiving roses from her boyfriend every day

he just likes roses okay

707:

dat ass

Nicki Minaj who

twerks a lot

has like 6 secret tumblr blogs where she reblogs memes and writes gay fanfic

loves cosplay of course

wears aesthetic clothes

loves baggy jumpers and hats

extra af

she likes making herself pretty for her boyfriend

so she tries many different hairstyles and makeup looks all the time

loves taking pictures

and often asks MC to help her with cosplay photoshoots or regular ones

has names for her boobs

and for MC’s boy parts

in the chatroom she always sends pictures of the outfits she wants to buy and cannot afford because of all the money she spends for her car

is jealous of Zen’s boobs but mocks Yoosung for being the flattest

loves wearing sunglasses and acting mysterious because she’s a secret agent

and hugs her sister all the time

lowkey into phone sex

uses send nudes memes

and it seemed ironic at first

but it wasn’t

also has a vine account

i know vine is dead but fem!707 would totally have one shh

and gets MC into cosplay because she wants to do couple ones

couple goals

V:

stylish af

and she has the clearest skin

likes wearing cute outfits with short skirts and wool sweaters or blouses in pastel colors

once tried giving herself pigtails

MC loved it so much that he basically forced her to wear them every day

not that she didn’t like it

she felt cute in them

she loves taking pictures of course

snapchats her meals

she paints her nails herself

with pastel or light colors

and her makeup is always quite natural but still a work of art

i mean her face is a work of art in itself but she paints another work of art over it

very cuddly with her boyfriend

and makes cute videos of them kissing while laying sleepily on the bed

bought matching friendship bracelets for Jumin and herself

Jumin never leaves home without it

hell she never takes it off

neither does V

she’s very shy when it comes to intimacy but is also very sensitive to MCs touch

despite her innocent looks she is an amazing dirty talker

MC is shook every time

very responsible and generous

when she goes out with Jumin and Seven she ends up paying for everything the latter wants even though Jumin is the rich one

she has the brightest smile and the cutest laugh but she’s very self conscious so she tries to show them as seldom as possible

luckily MC is great at making her laugh

even if what it takes is a tickle war

Saeran:

emo to the extremo

owns a lot of band merch

eye pencil is a must

no makeup other than that

except for mascara purple or black lipstick in special occasions

she loves eating AND making ice cream

but she needs to keep her tough facade so that she can defend her boyfriend from all the hoes that try to hit on him

when she’s alone with MC she really enjoys wearing cuter, girlier clothes

it was weird to her at the beginning but she started to love it when she received a VERY positive response from her boyfriend

very shy and blushy

wears flower crowns at home all the time

likes being cuddled by her boyfriend and doing activities together

she’s always the one who organizes dates

but the thing she enjoys the most is just chilling on the couch

when she feels lonely while hacking she asks MC to sit on her chair and let her sit on his lap

it’s usually at night so he sleepily rests his head on her back and falls asleep with his arms around her waist

she loves it

and when she’s done she stands up and gently kisses her boyfriend to wake him

then grabs his hand and leads him to their bed

and tucks him in before snuggling close to him

he’s still half asleep at this point so he doesn’t even realize it

but she’s really carin and loving and S O F T so she takes care of him in exchange for his support while she’s hacking

always pulls her sister’s hair to tease her

and it always turns into full on fights full of scratching and slapping

they love each other though

it’s playful

sort of

MASTERLIST

[han-and-kai]

11 questions tag...3?

ive done this alot i lost count xD

thank you @straykidding for tagging me !!

1. Is there something that always makes you happy? What is it? drawing :>

2. What are your all-time favorite songs? oh theres alot, um...i guess spring day and 21st century girl by bts OH AND BAEPSAE 3. Got any pet peeves? tapping sounds, gosh if someone is like tapping on their desk at school with their fingers or hands i wanna fling myself to hell 4. What’s your dressing style? Is there someone that inspires you? oh so theres basically 3 ways i dress cuz i just like all of them and sometimes they overlap each other -soft pastel aesthetic- basically anything pink or pastel, (i wear alot of pink im actually wearing pink rn) usually floral or very fluffy like sweaters and stuff, also lots of dresses and skirts -preppy- dress shirts, straight pants, sometimes i steal my dad’s shirt and ties and i go for like the shirt dress look, its fun, i wish to wear a real suit one day ooh or like a tuxedo  -hipster/my gay look- flannels, beanies, jeans, bomber jackets, bandanas, i love them and apparently look cool which i never feel but wow i guess looks are decieving eyyy

5. Why do you run a tumblr blog? cuz i have no life and its fun :>

6. Describe your ideal day. Chilling with my friends, just hanging out and having fun, laughing and eating, itd be great 7. Who are your biases (from all groups you stan)? dear lord this is gonna be LONG -BTS: Jin and Jimin -ASTRO- Eunwoo and Moonbin -Stray Kids- Jisung, Jeongin, and Seungmin -Got7- Jinyoung -Blackpink- Jisoo -SHINee- Key (theyre kinda dead tho) -TWICE- Jeongyeon  -Day6- Wonpil and Youngk and ahhh i think thats it

8. From 0 to 10, how much do you hate JYP? oh definitely a solid 9x10^∞

9. I there something you’d like to (be able to) do, but can’t? (e.g. playing an instrument or flying to jupiter) lolol be free from my house

10. What’s your favorite season and why? Oh i like autumn cuz of the pretty color change and the weather is nice and cool but i also like spring because of the flowers!! 11.What are the things you love? My friends most definitely, they helped me so much and i want to be with them for as long as possible cuz i could never repay them for how much they have done for me

ah... im so bad at making questions

1. whats your fav cold drink? 2. chocolate chip cookies or oreos? 3. are you still in school? 4. do you have a job or volunteer work? 5. Do you have any pets 6. am i gonna finish this without making stupid questions? 7. trick question all these questions are pretty stupid 8. do you like anime (wow such weeb) 9. do you like video games (wow such nerd) 10. what temperature is it where u are? 11. whats ur level of weird

i guess i tags zee hoomans now @straykidzz @jisxngie @yang-jg @seungchanie @seungminty @chanbaee @felixsfreckles @mosquitofelixsfreckles @jeongn @idkwhoeletotagwhoops