#which i dont want to ask what implies its a bit nasty to think about

[izzyliker]

hey - this is one of the mods of the bi jon project. we don't actually dislike or disagree with pan jon at all, we just want to make a project focused on and celebrating bisexuality. our carrd is a bit rambling, but frankly we were trying our best/overcompensating to try and make sure people didn't misunderstand us and do - well, this. our intentions are good, and it's really kind of disenheartening to see all the hate we've gotten for what was meant to be a positive project. (1)

you're under no obligation to answer these, but i saw some of your posts in the tag and felt like reaching out because you did give us even the tiniest bit of slack in good faith. honestly, if you have any advice about what in our carrd is so overwhelmingly bad, we'd be happy to hear it. we've been trying to respond to the overwhelming amount of criticism we've got in a positive way, and take peoples' suggestions. (2)

as for why 'no anti-antis' was at the bottom of our rules list, it's legitimately bc we were trying so hard to be preventative about this negativity that we forgot to add it when we first posted the blog, and just remembered later. again, you're under no obligation to answer these, i just feel like no one's really actually letting us defend ourselves/are taking things in as bad faith a way as possible. (3)

im not exactly sure how the posts showed up in the tag bc ive been very purposefully not tagging them, also ive blocked all of you back (not sure why you blocked me if you actually want feedback, so it seems more like you just want free positive pr and not actual feedback) so its unlikely youll see whatever it is that i reply to this but whatever. 

the issues have all been repeatedly brought up to you so i dont really see how me repeating all of them once again could help. when i last looked at the cardd the things that stood out immediately included. 

pitting ace & bi identities and people against each other REPEATEDLY,  

starting off with a guilt trippy tone and maintaining it throughout (in my experience this is the #1 best way to receive backlash because people do not want to participate in events where you feel like youre being guilted into it, which going into scrutinizing detail over there not being enough content and passing judgement onto authors or artists over it is something that comes across as guilt trippy.),

repeatedly equating asexuality with sex repulsion (not to get into the misleading information about modteam aspec identity breakdowns, since you claimed that 3/4 of the team are aspec, which is technically correct, but what you didnt say was that only one is acespec. surely you know that [allosexual] aro and [alloromantic] ace are not interchangeable) and calling using biromantic over bisexual a “misunderstanding” of the identity as if how to define romantic vs sexual attraction (how to divide, if or if not to divide, use interchangeably different labels) isnt a deeply personal choice ace people who experience romantic attraction make, 

claiming that bisexual jon is canon (he isn’t. this is why people are suspicious of anti-other mspec identities sentiments. which theyre right, if youll be so kind as to stick around til the last paragraph) and repeatedly implying that the reason there isnt “enough” content centering bi jon because the aces are simply unable to not fixate on his asexuality (again, pitting identities against each other),

making the banned ship list way needlessly confusing and including ships that dont even include jon to it, which simply comes across as some kind of a list of bad ships, idk. a way to bypass this would simply be to say “we are looking for portrayals of healthy relationships!” and that couldve just been it. if you felt that that wouldnt exclude specific ships (eg. jondaisy that a lot of people write as a relationship between trauma survivors who have done very bad things trying to get better and learning to trust each other) it is possible to simply say “the modteam is squicked[/triggered] by ships with daisy/elias/peter and we’d like to read all of the works submitted so we’re asking not to receive submissions with those ships.” hating ships is literally completely normal but making rules hard to parse is going to attract questions, especially when the implication is that ships are excluded on the grounds of morality, and a blatant power difference ship (jonelias) is equated with jondaisy, which is from what ive seen almost exclusively shown to be a relationship between equals. that makes people EXTREMELY confused about where the line is. thats why youre getting so many questions about this.  

in general the carrd was spotty, guilt trippy, and needlessly moralizing where it definitely did not need to be. the key to getting people to engage without getting backlash is to make the event seem fun. when your carrd is filled with stuff about unrelated negative stuff people are not going to think it’s a fun event at all. 

and none of this even gets into the fact that at least one of the mods has a history of open hostility against pan people. i heard through the grapevine that he has since made a fauxpology about it, but frankly it already shone through in the language used in the event descriptions. its extremely hard to take any of this is good faith when it is easy to see that one of the organizers is quite fucking clear about thinking pansexuality is biphobic and the carrd is or at least used to be full of anti-pan (and other mspec identity) dogwhistles, and is notorious in some of the tma fic author circles for being extremely fucking nasty about trans men writing fic he doesn’t like to the point of pretending that we’re all cis people (in case youre not keeping track that is misgendering us by implication) because he doesn’t like it. i think some of you (or maybe all of you? idk) in general could stand to examine whether your engagements and participations in the fandom have been at all about having fun or adding positivity to anything, or simply making posts about what other people are doing wrong. it seems that every post i see from anyone in this group is guilt trippy and authoritative, and sadly this translated directly into the event. 

when youre, say, a trans man whose first touch to one of the mods was a post about how fic where trans men have piv sex with cis men is hurting him personally and making it a moral issue and not a matter of a simple preference to the point where he feels comfortable making claims about the trans men (and transmasc nonbinary people) writing fic about trans characters re: their gender or whether theyre fetishizing trans men, your willingness to engage in good faith with an event hosted by him that features numerous red flags is not going to be unconditional. 

im sorry to hear that it has been bad for your mental health, and idk whats fucking going on with this event anymore, but my good faith interpretations have diminished significantly since i saw the shit tmc specifically has been saying about pansexual people and pansexuality as an identity label. i have no clue where the rest of you stand but tmc has repeatedly, consistently shown himself to be unable to act in good faith towards anyone other than people who agree with him.  

[monster-noises]

9 and 10 for the ask meme? i dont think i actually know if u have ocs so if so, ur choice of those, if not, a character from something ur into right now

Ehehe, you must be fairly new round these parts anon! Or perhaps fairly old and have been missed by both my old and newer obsessions...

But hoooooooh boy I got OC's

I got So many OC's

Just so many OC's......

But I know that there's really only one me audience wants to hear about right now 😖 (which is all fine by me!)

So I will answer these Questions about my OC Lazarus! And just for funsies and a twist Also Heisenberg (both from resident evil village! Just in case, for Anon, with Lazarus being my inserted OC ofc)

9 - favourite Headcannons;

My Favourite headcannon, which i guess is just cannon, for Lazarus is the open genuine care he puts into/has for his creations.

With the villagers, and even the other Lords, (as well as in his previous life pre-abduction) Lazarus is very standoffish, he puts on an air of cold snobbishness, very formal yet also creepy and deeply off putting in its impersonal theatricallity.

But he's like a pile of warm nasty not-ready composte with a layer of ice on top.

Crack off that outer shell and he's all filth and warm fuzzy goo on the inside.

He looks after the horrible things he makes as if they were his pets or his children, he makes sure they are comfortable, well cared for, that they stay in one piece. They are art pieces yes, they have titles and meanings. But they also have names, and to some degree personalities. And Lazarus is rather serious about his care for them.

It's just really sweet thinkin about how easily he could just think of them all as art objects, or in some cases as weapons or tools, how heartless and distant first impression would suggest that. but there's still human love in that rotted little heart, and so he treats them like the "living" things they are, with the all the gravity that being their creator implies.

My favourite Heisenberg headcannon on the other hand! Aside from him being trans (i've already gone on about that in a previous post!) Is his past with Alcina.

I feel like i've Also outlined this somewhere else.. (someone pleasencorrect me if i'm wrong and i'll swoop back in and give you the full story) but the long and short of it is i think they used to be.. not as much enemies as they are now, they were never going to be Friends per say, but they were closer in the way siblings who are not necissarily the same kinds of people are close. (Keep in mind this is WAY in the past, like when Karl was a child -> teen) Lady D would protect a younger Karl from Miranda a number of times while Karl was growing up (I also have the headcannon that all of them have gotten Worse over time, just like.. morally, or something to do with their Cadou/brainwashing, hence why she's evidently Fine with the Rose plan now.) Which lead Karl to his first inclings of trying to Rebel, when he eventually planning actual rebellions though he was Greatly dissapointed when Alci refused to join him, and in turn she was disgusted that he would betray Miranda and the family this way. (Though over the years Alcina has become.. worn down a bit. I see her as a woman in Great Conflict but that's another post for another time...) The two fought about it and parted ways full of seething rage, resentment, and a deep saddening sense of betrayal.

I just think it adds a lot to their conflict in game, sure them just being "put-upon older sister hates her shit-ass little brother" is good but also like.. what if was tragic and sad too though? And added to both of their character motivations and behaviours?

10 - ships!!

Easy to answer this one is! Lazarus and Heisenberg, (they don't have a good ship name gjjdks) is my very own much beloved OCxCanon ship! I love Heisenberg with my whole heart so I made up somebody who could Kiss him for me fjjdkdjnw 😖

Lazarus has blossomed into a character I very much adore in his own right at this point.. but he's at his best at Heisenbergs side 🥰

I am also p chill with Wintersberg, though I'm not super into it.. honestly I find the full Miathanberg Much more fun, Mia's still alive, let her get in there!!! The woman is absolutely wild! Her and Karl would get on like a house on fire! They wouldn't be dating themselves but they'd sure get Up to some Shit I'm sure... Imagine Ethan trying to manage both of them at the same time.. fucking priceless...

[celestialselfdiscovery]

hey! great blog, its really inspiring and just awesome. might u have any tips on how to make a new reality posible in which u dont focus on what puts u down anymore an share them if u do?

You have a very good question and I appreciate you asking; the answer is incredibly simple. More simple than people realize.... but today with this answer- that will all change. Suppose your goal is to create a new reality, but you also do not want to focus attention on what’s negative- that is a great intention, and the answer to your question is within your question!! Every human being has what they call “a subconscious mind” - more and more evidence is coming out from quantum physicists (scientific research/studies) that proves that since everything in the world is made out of energy particles, and energy particles are easily manipulated. Matter/solid objects are also made out of energy particles. Like water for example, water can be solid like ice, or invisible/see through/untouchable like vapor, energy comes in many forms. Thoughts and emotions are forms of energy too. How does this tie into the subconscious mind you may ask? The subconscious mind is a data bank that collects/records/recorded everything that you have ever been exposed to in your life ever since you’re born, everything you see with your eyes, everything you hear with your ears, everything you think about, everything you feel emotionally, everything you say out of your mouth, everything you aren’t paying attention to but you’re exposed to, the music lyrics you’re listening to, the things you read on the news or stories, every single bit of information from your environment is being absorbed into your subconscious as a form of HYPNOSIS, meaning EVERYTHING in life is a subliminal download to program your subconscious mind. Why does this matter? Because everything you are living out/experiencing RIGHT NOW- IS THE MANIFESTATION/creation of data/info that’s been downloaded into your subconscious mind.  The future (every second that occurs is the future) is created based on what’s being absorbed through your subconscious. Do you know what that means? It means that YOU have ALL the power and control to decide on what YOU want to create in YOUR experience/reality/life/future by YOU deciding on what YOU want to focus your attention on. It’s really that simple, if something doesn’t make you feel good- your intuition is screaming “don’t give attention to that!! stop it!! focus on what makes you happy!!” - when you are feeling good, I call THAT “following your intuition”. Feeling bad=not following your intuition. If something makes you feel bad, there is NO reason to give ANY attention to things that make you feel that way. STOP feeding that energy, the more you feed into that negative energy- THE MORE YOU ARE CREATING IT INTO YOUR REALITY. In a book by Abraham Hicks I’ve read this sentence stood out to me “Worrying is using your imagination to create what you DON’T want.”  You know the best part? Your subconscious mind CANNOT tell from what is called a “truth” or a “lie”. It’s ONLY purpose is to RECORD->CREATE->RECORD->CREATE(repeat). You do NOT need to feed your subconscious mind with “Truths” that DO NOT make you feel good. If you wanted a puppy, and saying “I don’t have a puppy” just because it’s true even thought it doesn’t make you feel good- you are programming your subconscious mind to create MORE situations in your life where you STILL don’t have a puppy. If you practice saying to yourself, thinking about, imagining how good it feels “I have a puppy” (even if it’s what people would call a “lie” ) - the subconscious mind downloads THAT information, energy particles that you’re emitting from those thoughts and emotions are manipulating energy in the universe (like wifi internet or tv particles for the tv to have something projected or the radio to hear music) to create a circumstance for you where you have manifested a puppy into your life!! Don’t say stuff like “I need a chair” when you want a chair either, because by saying “I need” it’s implying that you STILL “NEED” that (I used chair as an example but you can use money, or love, or a job, etc in the example to get the point). The subconscious mind doesn’t know the difference between you joking either, so never joke to yourself by saying “haha I’m so dumb” because you will unintentionally stummon situations in your life where you’re going to feel exactly that way- “dumb”.     All of this really means is the best tip is that you should do your best to pay attention to 1) what makes you feel good vs what doesn’t. Then ONLY do what makes YOU feel good. 2) Pay attention to what you allow your subconscious mind to get exposed to, if you’re listening to a song and it has negative lyrics about negative circumstances- you’re literally hypnotizing your subconscious mind by listening to those lyrics to create negative situations/feelings. Even if the song is a Bop, if the lyrics are shitty, then it’s a song to drop. Reading negative news ONLY PERPETUATES MORE NEGATIVITY INTO THE UNIVERSE BECAUSE PEOPLE ARE PROGRAMMING THEIR MINDS WITH THE NEGATIVE INFORMATION , FEELING NEGATIVE ABOUT IT, AND HUMANS ARE BEING USED (I know this will come off as conspiracy, but governments/positions of corrupt power KNOW this for centuries) Humans are being USED to create/perpetuate more negativity and destruction in the world. (side note, please get your news from��https://www.goodnewsnetwork.org ) 3) Once you are more aware of your own thoughts, your own feelings, and you’re taking action steps to program your OWN subconscious by speaking/saying/talking about things that you love, by reading things that you love and make you feel good, by looking at pictures of things that you love and make you feel good, anything where you are using your thoughts, ears, eyes, voice to program positive things into your subconscious mind is a form of SELF HYPNOSIS because you are programming your subconscious mind like a computer, by you making sure you download information that ONLY MAKES YOU FEEL GOOD-  through repetition, your subconscious will eventually use your NEW POSITIVE PROGRAMS to override OLD UNFILTERED previously downloaded information from when you used to live in what I call “auto pilot mode” and THIS is the REAL way to use “Law of Attraction”. “Law of Attraction” is just a froofroo la di da word that symbolizes what is NATURALLY SCIENTIFICALLY IN NATURE OCCURRING SINCE THE BEGINNING OF HUMANITY. 4) Because you’re aware of your thoughts, program your own subconscious and you only follow what makes you feel good, if you begin to notice for some reason “negative thoughts would randomly pop up” and you recognize that it can’t possibly be your own thoughts because you have set the intention to only think about positive things- then you must know that those negative thoughts are NOT your own but energetic interference from energetic (low vibration) beings that feed off of negative human energy, these beings exist among humans in their own dimension that (for now) is invisible to the human eye, some people call them demons/ghosts, but what they really are is one of the races of multidimensional aliens. (there are high vibration aliens and there are low vibration ones that work with corrupt positions of powers such as governments) If you’ve ever seen the show “adventures with Rick and Morty” and have seen their portal gun- life is something similar to that. (There are multiple dimensions and multiple timelines and multiple dimensions of each timeline etc) Life is surely stranger than fiction for sure.... Anyway!! These nasty ass low vibe aliens feed off of negative energy (like in the movie Monsters Inc, the monsters use kids screams (the kids fear) as electricity for their world. But to discover that higher vibration laughs are a lot more powerful (very symbolic undertone in the movie)) That’s why I brought up the conspiracy about how humans are intentionally being used to create more negativity because these low life filth demons feed off of the negativity.  These negative beings are capable of using telepathy to attempt to program your subconscious mind by telepathically planting negative thought formations into your mind (some people call these, intrusive thoughts, in worst cases, this manifests as schizophrenia ) Depression is a great example of possession/or a low vibe alien/demon attached to a human host utilizing the human as a battery pack by continuing to feed negative thoughts to the human host, the human host accepts these thought forms as their own, thus programming their subconscious to create more things to be negative about in their life. (I used to struggle with depression/suicidal thoughts for years until someone else told me about the existence of these alien beings and how the subconscious mind works and I INTENTIONALLY focused on making sure I destroyed/eliminated negative thoughts as soon as they would try to enter my mind and I would IMMEDIATELY replace the negative thought with positive thoughts to “exorcise” the entity.) If the negative entity cannot control you, and you do not emit negative emotions/energy, then the negative energy literally cannot feed off you!! However, if you’re around other people and they don’t control themselves like you do- they have the potential to have entities already feeding off them to attempt to poke your buttons/provoke you back into negativity in order to jump from one human host to another (you). Don’t let those dirty bastards distract you from creating your lovely new reality of positive possibilities!! Love you!!

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homestuck epilogues stuff

thoughts about the homestuck epilogues, as in, spoilers and theories and things ive noticed by reading it over twice and talking with friend @kravicle while they were reading

this is just a list of theories me and krav came up with ok. also stuff u might not pick up in only one read? we’re just spitballing here 

MEAT AND CANDY TEREZI ARE PROBABLY ONE AND THE SAME

> just didnt see proof they weren't the same lmao, we only get john+terezi's messages from both timelines and she could have gotten messages from both meat!john and candy!john

>time is fucked on her end also so (shrugs)

>(terezi meeting meat!john) "something else is different about him. different, somehow, from how she thought he’d be when she imagined they’d next meet. under all the gore, he smells... too fresh."

>TEREZI: HMMM

TEREZI: YOU SM3LL OLD3R

TEREZI: BUT NOT 4S OLD 4S 1 THOUGHT YOUD B3

JOHN: what does that mean?

TEREZI: DONT WORRY 4BOUT 1T

>"In multiple realities, all [John] wanted for her was this. To be home safe, with all their friends. And now that she’s here, she’s lost."

> (meeting Meat!roxy) "Terezi’s head is filled with stories about a different version of Roxy—the polar opposite of the one standing in front of her."

DIRK’S PLAN PART 1 (free will)

>maybe plans to get Actual Free Will thru ultimate godhood??? also explains why he feels okay with removing free will from his friends- for him, this isnt real free will anyway?

>(dirk talking about kanaya) "What WAS she thinking? What are any of us thinking, really? Who’s doing the thinking, and who’s having the thoughts?

The more you study the question, the more it seems all concrete forms of accountability go up in smoke. Her original thoughts were never that important, and the significance of the idea that she was the one authoring them was always a bit overrated. My mission is to someday clear this all up for everyone. Remove the ambiguity, suck the mud out of the water. It’ll be a lot better that way, trust me."

>to old callie, dirk's plan "[john’s] ultimate sacrifice was made to put the missing keystone in place and avert the supreme dissipation of all that shall be considered to hold truth, relevance, and essentiality."

>although narrator callie thinks this world has some sort of actual free will. says "[john should kiss terezi etc]. it’s wrong to contradict one’s true thoughts and feelings. irrational. unbecoming of an existence governed by free will."

>his plan to give everyone/ultimate gods “free will” will end up destroying canon????

DIRK’S PLAN PART 2 (complacency of the learned, ultimate self)

>complacency of the learned, 12 people attaining ultimate knowledge (=ultimate self), and turning "either insane or evil"

> (candy ending, rose’s POV) "The thoughts in her powerful brain race. What will they name the planet? How long will it take for the ship to arrive? Once the new race has established an advanced enough civilization thousands of years from now, who will the lucky kids be? The ones who get the chance to play what will arguably be the most important session in the history of Sburb?" 

>finding more people to attain ultimate godhood???

>dirk asks terezi to come with him and rose at the end of meat, along with john's body (implied that she did accept-callie!jade points and dave thinks she points both to dirk+rose and john+terezi, callie doesnt prove him otherwise)

>dirk wants 12 ultimate gods for each aspect????

>"If your perception expands beyond the meat sack of your body, then are you really an individual anymore? Why shouldn’t we become gods? Why shouldn’t we become one God."

- (callie speaking) "[John] is simply being barred from ignoring his true thoughts. even without the aid of a juju, he is fortunate enough to be blessed with the only true form of divinity. to be released from the prison of nonsensical inhibitions which so often psychologically hobble the more primitive forms of life."

>callie is probably an ultimate god, terezi should be?? with rem8mb8r?

DIRK’S NARRATOR STUFF

>dirk probably doesnt know hes in a story/that he has an audience (us) "How can I respect a fucking pronoun when nobody can even hear me?”

>does dirk control people by using you-ness? using 2nd person to control, 3rd person to narrate?

>”JADE: and where there is an identity, there can also be an agenda.”

CANDY TIMELINE STUFF

>part of the black hole, a utopia, place removed from reality/canon in some way??? WEIRDO DREAM BUBBLE????

>cut off from canon in some way- dirk and rose cant get to ultimate godhood anymore, john cant use retcon powers

>candy!john mentions multiple times he doesnt think of him and his friends as "real"

>sky in candy!timeline described as more vibrant (VS pre-sburb being described as muted)

>candy!karkat talking to sollux and probably being foreshadowing without knowing: “KARKAT: I THOUGHT THAT YOU TWO LITERALLY DIDN’T EXIST ANYMORE! KARKAT: OR AT THE VERY LEAST WERE TRAPPED IN A DEAD UNIVERSE PERPETUALLY COLLAPSING INTO ITS OWN ASSHOLE.”

>CALLIOPE: we’re all going to be very, very happy. I trUly believe that. ^u^ 

>ROSE: Oh Kanaya, you’re right.

ROSE: We are going to be so astonishingly happy!

>ROXY: omg

ROXY: were gonna be SO freakin happy!

>Dirk in Meat: "Cherubs are fuckin’ weird, I’ll totally concede. Still not sure what makes them tick. What they idealize, what they really want. It all comes across to me as a little cloying. Perfection to them is a sweetness beyond comprehension. Sugar so potent it’s poison to us. To our bodies, to our souls. Like the place she was operating from was a realm of self-construction. A bubble of pure, phantasmal confection."

>end of meat!callie can see into candy!timeline ROXY: they stay home all day with the blinds drawn paintin some weird ass shit on the walls

TEREZI: WH4T?

ROXY: its not as bad as it sounds i promise

ROXY: some of it is like

ROXY: weird and violent??

ROXY: like lotsa nasty purple blood and um

ROXY: nudity????

TEREZI: >:?

ROXY: yeah yikes

ROXY: but MOST of it is cute stuff like... various combos of all of us being happy and gettin married and shit

>obama’s here. god i need a minute

>dirk told gamzee something??? 

“DAVE: wheres dirk

GAMZEE: tHeRe’S nO nEeD tO wOrRy AbOuT hIm. :o)

GAMZEE: YoU’rE gOnNa GeT wHaT’s BeSt FoR yOu. He ToLd Me ThAt, AnD i’M gOnNa MaKe SuRe HiS wIsH mAkEs LiKe A mOtHeRfUcKiNg MiRaClE aNd GeTs TrUe.

[...]

GAMZEE: YoU dOn’T gOt AnY nEeD tO gO aNd CoNcErN yOuRsElF wItH hIs MoRtAl FlEsH bOdY oUt HeRe In ThIs CaNdYcAnE wHiRlPoOl BeYoNd ThE iNfInItE bLaCk WiNk Of ThE wIcKeD sInGuLaRiTy, My NiNjA.

GAMZEE: a SaCk Of MeAt AnD bOnEs In OnE lIfE oR tHe NeXt Is OnLy A mEaNs To ThE fInAl ToTaLiTy ThAt WiLl DaMn AnD rAiSe Us AlL iN bRiLlIaNt ApOtHeOsIs.

GAMZEE: In ThE oNe TrUe LiFe We AlL fLoW fRoM tHe OnE tRuE pEn,

GAMZEE: aNd EvErY hEaD rOlLs DoWn ThE pAtH tO tHe OnE tRuE hAnD.”

> dirk before killing himself:  “ It is the very last moment of narratively consequential action that will happen in this whole, barren world. “

OTHER STUFF

> dirk teaching men about "combat, philosophy, life, love." (jake, dave, obama, not said explicitly but also probably gamzee????) what is UP with that

>gamzee also wanting to teach kid tavros about combat philosophy life love, “to behave the way a mentor does”

>re: john “Your complete lack of remarkability, specific motivation, drive, opinion on where to direct your own fate—these deficiencies are exactly what made you so useful, so susceptible to being endowed with the you-ness I’ve borrowed to satisfy my purposes.”

>at the end of meat, callie in jade's body in candy timeline kills lord english and gets big powers or whatever. cherub stuff

>terezi gets a text at the end of Meat, we dont know from whom (candy!(vriska)?)

>john left letters for everyone in Meat but no one’s found them yet?

>snapchats were probably before the split 

>this whole post makes both me and krav sound like we’re been talking about this for 24 hours straight (we did)

[1995n]

i am in love with your ‘billy/sub!steve/tommy’ au and i would die for a 1000000k fic of them it’s so great. (if you’re accepting prompts, tommy and billy and some of the basketball team use steve after a big game to unwind. maybe in the locker room. billy sweet talking steve that YES he can handle one more dick. maybe the coach is in on it too. maybe watersports are involved. maybe billy makes tommy eat a filthy and used steve out at the end— clean him up for billy’s turn)

anon, god, i love you. enjoy these 2k and some words of steve/billy/tommy/coach/oc p0rn.

(also this is completely unbeta’d and i didn’t even reread it, so if it sucks its all my fault really lol)

steve spreads his legs further, and he feels the muscles in his thighs straining – he’s openly crying because of the pain, tears running down his cheeks and all, and thinking about billy’s words a few moments prior.

when billy scores the last, decisive point, steve knows what’s bound to happen; the team just has to celebrate this, and he happens to know what exactly will go down in the locker room once they’ve shook hands with their rivals and blown kisses to their fans on the bleachers.

everyone around him seems to be oozing testosterone, all sweaty and wild as they run around the court yelling and hugging and screaming in each other’s faces. steve watches dumbstruck; they’re really too worked up over nothing. this is barely the start of the season. well, he sighs as he runs towards billy hargrove, who’s running around after having lost his shirt, winking to every girl he eyes, at least they’re off to a good start.

“hargrove,” steve whispers and it goes unnoticed to most people around since he’s talking so low and breathy, “let’s leave now.”

billy gets the hint, and blows one more kiss to the wild crowd before running away with steve towards the locker rooms.

inside, it smells horrible; teenage boys stink as much as you think they’d do, and even worse. steve and billy are eyeing the few people they’d like not to leave, all secretive, trying to imply something great is to come if they don’t hurry away like the freshmen are doing.

“hey harrington,” some kid says, and steve’s head perks up in curiosity, “we’re having a party tonight, you joining?”

steve smiles apologetically. “sorry,” he says, and his eyes meet billy’s in some silent plea of ‘please help me come up with a credible excuse’, “i don’t think i’ll be able to make it.”

steve’s poor attempt at declining the invitation snaps billy out of his reverie; steve can’t seriously expect billy to not be out of it if he’s naked down to his boxers and about to take those off too. “yeah, kid,” billy throws an arm around steve’s shoulders and smiles at the boy standing in front of them; his grin is nasty, predatory, and billy’s just trying to salvage his plans for the evening by scaring this unnamed boy away, “we already have plans.”

the boy gulps, and trots away after hurriedly dismissing himself from the two. billy laughs. “great king can’t make time for his own subjects?”

steve glares at billy; he’s stark naked, so that might soften up the intended effect a little bit. he notices billy’s eyes roaming up and down steve’s body. “eyes up here, hargrove,” and steve’s eyes roll while billy’s narrow in a wicked smile, “and no. thought you wanted me here. i’d be happy to leave and go to the party, actually.”

billy leans into some closed locker, and steve wonders how is the cold metal not bothering him since he’s not even wearing a shirt. steve shrugs, and billy hurriedly slides out of his boxers to follow him into the shower. “aw, so you don’t like being the team’s toy?” billy’s pouting. steve looks at him thinking it’s a good look on.

steve is lost as he soaps himself up, but he soon loses sight of billy as he washes his face and soap gets in his eyes. “c’mere,” billy says, taking steve’s wrist in his hand and walking him closer, until their chest are touching and billy’s hands are on steve’s face and billy’s hard cock is on steve’s thigh. “it’s not that i dont like it,” steve says now that he can see, as he lazily touches his palm and thumb to billy’s dick, “but i don’t love it, either.”

billy hums and nods solemnly. “don’t act like you do then,” he tells steve.

steve is confused as he makes sure no one else is joining them in the shower, and talks as he resumes working on billy’s cock. “what do you mean?” he asks, and it takes billy a second before he’s replying. “i mean,” he’s out of breath and steve can feel himself hardening under the steady jet of warm water spilling from the shower head, “you always look so satisfied when there’s a cock in your ass. don’t look to me like you don’t enjoy it.”

steve ends the conversation by flicking billy’s cock head once. billy whines, but he doesn’t speak again.

now he’s got three cocks he’s nursing, plus his own that’s bobbing inbetween his spead legs and onto his stomach, and thinking about how in hell he lets himself always be goaded into this type of shit.

it has to be the whole team working against him, what with all the praise they give him. he can’t refuse, when he’s on his knees and coach is standing before him, gently caressing his face and running his thumb over his plump lips and saying, you did well today, steve. steve is damn weak and everyone knows that all too well.

they’ve reached a silent agreement that there must not be more than four guys with steve at a time, billy included. steve can’t physically take more than four cocks, even though he’s tried to before.

so now he’s got the coach fucking his mouth so good and spit and cum are running down his chin and coach’s moaning praise every now and then and feels tears mixing with the other fluids. it’s so much, but at the same time it’s not enough. which is why he’s got one cock in his right hand and one pounding his ass.

billy, meanwhile, watches from afar. it’s a little thing they do; billy is the last one to touch steve, be it having steve give him a blowjob or be it having steve bend over one of the benches and fuck him raw until steve is screaming. but now, with tommy fucking steve’s hole, billy is content with just watching and absent-mindedly rubbing himself over the fabric of his shorts. the show steve’s giving him would be more than enough to bring him over the edge, but really, the prospect of painting steve’s inside white with his cum looks so much more appealing than wasting it on the floor or, best case scenario, his stomach. so he patiently waits.

steve has come some two times now, billy doesn’t really know. he’s got cum all over himself, billy doesn’t really know if it’s his or someone else’s. it could be coach’s, it could be tommy’s, or it could be alex’s. billy doesn’t care enough to find out.

“fuck, steve, you’re so tight,” tommy grunts inbetween thrusts, “i’d love to see you take two dicks, though.”

billy moans appreciatively. no one had ever thought of having steve take two dicks at once – or better yet, no one has ever voiced the thought of wanting to see steve take two dicks at once; billy knows he’s been having a hard time lately getting the image of steve being sandwiched between him and tommy unstuck from his head. and now he ponders if this is the right time; he doesn’t miss steve’s dick twitching hard at tommy’s words, and thinks that yes, steve is ready for it. and billy works to make it happen.

“hey coach,” billy calls from the bench he’s sitting on, “why don’t you go ahead and try it out?”

the coach looks at billy, his thrusts evening out and eventually pulling out entirely from steve’s abused mouth – it takes him a while before he can say anything, and coach’s finger is already slipping in beside tommy’s cock. both coach and tommy moan, it’s so crammed inside and they’re marveling at how capable harrington is. it feels a little awkward, though. steve hides his face in his arm and voices his feelings. “no, i can’t – please – don’t –” and it’s not that he’s not confident in his ability to stretch, it’s more of a pride thing.

billy’s beside him in a second, and gestures alex to stop fucking steve’s hand: he needs him focused, just a second. “yes, you can, baby,” billy’s stroking steve’s hair and head and gently pressing a kiss on his forehead, whispering all sorts of encouraging words in his ears as coach slips the second finger in and the sting becomes almost unbearable for steve, ‘almost’ being the key word, “you’re doing so good, you can take another dick, right, baby?”

steve’s nodding frantically. he’s torn between pleasure and the pain of the stretch and he doesn’t really know whether to yell out or talk or just keep silent. despite this doubt, he goes for small whimpers, which only seem to spur tommy and coach on. tommy, who hasn’t moved since coach slipped in his first finger, gives now a hard thrust that hits steve right in the prostate, and they moan in unison; steve’s back arches, and coach slips a hand under his knee to part his legs further before slipping inside him in one swift motion.

the first thrust is tentative, tommy and coach testing out new territory and awaiting steve’s approval. it doesn’t take long for him to adjust and to start thinking this can actually turn into something pleasurable, and he‘s very vocal about how he’s feeling: fucked out, but extremely good. his tongue is coming out of his mouth to loll around, he’s got two dicks pounding his sweet spot at turns, so relentlessly and steve seriously feels like his skin is melting off the bench and on the floor.

soon he takes up stroking alex’s dick again. he’s functioning badly, his hand doesn’t exactly respond well to his brain’s inputs, but he can’t be blamed when tommy’s coming inside of him and he’s coming too, again, and his dick feels so oversensitive; of course someone’s hand, he can’t really tell whose, has to touch it. he’s yelling, god that hurts so much, and there is so much happening right now and he doesn’t think he’s ever felt so used.

billy notices steve is overstimulated. he gestures coach and alex to step back; eventually, they do, if reclutanctly.

“clean him up,” billy whispers in tommy’s ear: he gets the hint.

the second tommy’s tongue touches steve’s hole, a tear comes down steve’s cheek and his chest starts heaving faster; billy can feel his heartbeat speeding up from where he’s teasing steve’s nipples. “calm down, baby,” billy whispers to steve, so tender and yet his hands wander all over steve’s twitching body so taunting, “you did so good. you’re such a good little toy.”

steve would say he doesn’t love the pet name, but tommy’s eating him out and every sensation he feels is amplified somehow, so he can’t really produce any other sound than a small whimper. i know, billy says, i know, baby.

steve doesn’t really notice billy standing up and switching places with tommy, but he does when out the blur he’s seeing he makes out freckles in blond locks’ stead. he knows what’s coming, but it’s still unexpected when billy slips inside of him in one go. it’s so hard not to yell but he doesn’t, because after all billy just told him how good a toy he is: toys don’t yell.

billy’s hands are under steve’s knees holding him in place. “fuck, baby, you’re so good. taking your third dick today like it’s your first, god, baby –” billy’s rambling and steve moans and groans at the praise – billy knows how to push his buttons, and he always pushes them so good. “yes, steve – yes, just a little more, hold on just a little longer –”

billy’s thrusts are unrelenting, so much different from tommy’s. steve loves them, steve loves billy, and he’s say that if he wasn’t busy sobbing and moaning and screaming. it doesn’t take neither billy nor steve long to come; billy was already on edge, and steve is so sensitive that at this point a single touch to his nipples could bring him to his climax.

steve is now on his legs. he’s stopped crying, he’s washed himself, and is ready to leave – after all, he’s pretty tired, what with the game and the fucking.

as he slings his bag over he shoulder he feels a pain in his lower stomach – fuck, he needs to take a leak. he’s so eager to go home already wonders if he can hold it — no, he can’t, because of course, he’s been drinking all day and hasn’t had yet the chance to go to the bathroom. he slips the bag on the floor, and goes for the urinals.

he notices, as he pops the button to his jeans, that his cock hurts. it’s no wonder, really, with how hard it’s been stroked, but it bothers him nonetheless. he makes a mental note to tell billy to not to this for a while.

but it’s somewhat relieving to take it in his hand as he gets closer to the urinal – the bathroom smells, and that’s a turn off, but peeing is a relief. so relieving, actually, that he’s not surprised when a moan slips past his lips: billy’s behind him and has replaced steve’s hand with his. “you ready to go home, harrington?” billy asks, even as he strokes steve and has him hardening again under his hand.

“you really can’t get your hands off me, eh, hargrove?” steve says, but he’s thrusting in billy’s hand, even as his pee keeps hitting the front of the urinal. thankfully billy’s bathed in cologne, and he takes a sniff from his neck; despite hating his perfume, steve thinks that it’s better than the smell of piss that’s lingering around him. “damn right i can’t – you’re really irresistible.”

steve moans, and thinks that if this why billy’s so eager to go home, he’ll stay in the locker room for the night instead. he can’t take any more.

[chipsncookies]

what's the dirt on sporas?? do tell

There's a lot of criticisms on sporas but I'll just tell u about maxie and archie (and how sporas poorly handled them).Before sporas, u have to understand the rse chapters first. Chapters ruby & sapphire's plot is similar to the ruby & sapphire games: maxie wants to expand the land, archie wants to expand the sea, protags have to stop them, with some creative liberties like archie being a director in a tv company (it affects the story a bit). The biggest difference however, is that archie and maxie were possesed by the orbs they used to awaken kyogre and groudon. These orbs were eventually expelled from their bodies. However, both suffered side effects: they became weak, power-obsessed, and morally corrupt (even more than before). At one point, Maxie killed Courtney, both burned Norman's corpse, and archie stomped on a poor feebas. The bosses escaped after being defeated by the protags.If u think they're evil compared to the rse bosses, get ready for emerald chapter.In emerald, there's an original story which is set after r&s chapter (instead of an au like emerald the game). The plot follows this boy, Emerald whose goal is to capture jirachi, but he got interrupted by a mysterious man in armour who also wants to capture jirachi, known as Guile Hideout. Guile did nasty things like kidnapping people, stealing rental pokemon and setting them onto innocent pokemon battle audience and press, all in order to capture jirachi. Even emerald + frontier brains couldnt stop him. It is slowly revealed later that Guile once had come into contact with the blue orb, and let its power seeped into every fibre of his being, making him obsessed with kyogre's power. He also wants to drown the whole world. Sounds familiar? That's right, he's Archie. So what actually happened? At the end, after a looot more fighting, the protags finally defeated guile/archie. Archie who looks more dead than alive at this point told us the truth: after fleeing in ruby& sapphire chapter, he and maxie was saved by a mysterious woman named Sird (how? Idek it's not revealed). She knew about their condition, about them being possessed, and warned them that their body is decaying/weakening quickly because of the possession, they will soon die. BUT she has a solution! in the form of an armour, which has the ability to slow time. The problem is there is only one armour, and as we all know, archie has it, so... we dont see outright but it's heavily implied that archie killed maxie. Archie admitted to the protags that he abandoned his crew, and he abandoned maxie, even though they went through hardships together. He said he's 'this kind of person' which suggests that he's p much accepts he's evil.'But Chips i just want to know about sporas why did u tell me all of the above' everything i told u is important to understand sporas because, guess who came back? THE SAME MAXIE AND ARCHIE. Not from an alternate universe, not different people, but the same guys who got possessed and supposedly tried to kill each other - but now they're back, in completely different appearance (maxie with the glasses and sweaters, archie with the wetsuit & new beard) and new crews (yes oras shelly, matt, tabi & courtney are there) and they all want to stop a meteor from destroying hoenn.No, there's no explanation how they came back from the dead, why maxie became a nerd, why archie became a pirate, how they build new magma & aqua (old team aqua & magma members from r&s chapter admitted that they never saw their teammates again after r&s incident nor have they heard about aqua/magma revival), why the bosses need to be revived from death to destroy the meteor, WHY THEY ARE STILL SMUG AND CONDESCENDING TOWARDS THE PROTAGS even if they now share the same goal... the list goes on. So, you get the idea.Sporas could have worked if they follow the oras games plot (alternate universe! Entirely new characters!) but no they wanted to keep everything connected and in one universe, so you get this massive... inconsistent characters, bad writing, confusing plots, side characters who don't have anything to do with the plot showing up (giovanni is in sporas but he didn't really.. do anything??) because they wanted to follow the oras games but ALSO stay within the lore they established... sporas ended up being none. 7.8/10 too much plotholes :(In conclusion, sporas is bad because it tried to do everything but ended up being nothing. If u want to read rse or sporas go ahead, tbh i'd rather u judge by yourself. If u end up liking it, good! More power to u! I didn't, so i pretend it never happened.(Sorry this is so long. I tried to contain my salt but i spilled all of it whoops.)#pokespe #sporas #oraspe #chipsays #asks

[alexandrasrivers-blog]

hi friends its krista again idk why i keep posting these intros u all know who i am

anyways this is lexi and she’s the worst

there’s some bullets under the cut if you wanna plot with her :-) and her bio is right here

her real name is karlene alexandra gothel, and she is the child of the infamous mother gothel from tangled.

make sure you remember her middle name bc it plays a key role in the story

she definitely does not go by karlene anymore

she goes by lexi instead for reasons that i will explain momentarily

honest it would be best if you didn’t call her karlene tbh you’d probably get punched or spit on not sure which

though she doesn’t introduce herself as karlene gothel anymore so like y’all might be safe from that

okay so the first thing to know about her is that she pretty much hates everyone and everything. i wish i was exaggerating but i promise you that i’m not. she’s genuinely the worst. like, she truthfully doesn’t care about you or your feelings and that will probably never change.

i should probably talk about her birth now though shouldn’t i because like “woah how did gothel have a kid what no way !!” Alright, here’s the story. So, a loooong time ago, a droplet of sunlight fell from the sky and from it grew the infamous magic golden flower that set everything up for the events of Tangled. That night, though, a droplet of moonlight fell as well, thus growing a magic silver flower. I know, creative, right? Anyways, that magic silver flower was never discovered, because it ended up being covered up by weeds and vines. Fast forward to when Rapunzel’s hair is cut and Gothel falls out the window of the tower. It’s implied that she’s dead, but that wasn’t the case. What ended up happening was that Gothel used the last bit of magic she had left and used it to disappear, ending up deep in the forests of Corona. After wandering around for days, looking like a frail old woman who should have died hundreds of years ago, she came across that Magic Silver Flower. You can imagine how shook she was. I know I would’ve been shooketh as hell. She probably thought she was seeing things. anyways she dug up that flower and washed it off in the river to get all the dirt off the roots and then she ate that bitch right then and there.

surprise surprise it turNED HER YOUNG AGAIN !!! and by young I mean like she looked to be in her early thirties.

And then she moved into a village on the outskirts of Corona where no one would find her, and met a man named Henry. Gothel felt absolutely nothing for Henry whereas he was beyond smitten with her. tbh Gothel used him for fun but then she found out she was pregnant so she packed up what little she had and ended up back in her tower.

When Karlene was born, the first thing Gothel noticed was that her eyes were a startling silver color, and the baby’s skin had a sort of ... glowing hue to it? And it was then that Gothel realized just how special this child was, and that the effects of the Moon Flower passed down into her daughter. 

Realizing this was what awoke the greedy side of Gothel, and she felt the need to covet this child the same way she coveted Rapunzel. The only difference was, Karlene fucking despised it growing up. She literally hated that tower. If you were to ask her about the tower now, she’d clench her fists and say she wants to burn it down. She hated that tower so much that when Gothel was away on a trip to the market, she left.

This is both the best and worst thing that Karlene had done for herself. The best, because she was finally free of that godforsaken tower. The worst, because she was only free for a good six hours.

Homegirl took off as soon as she was outside, and ran until she got to a river bank. Keep this in mind, because it’s important.

At that river bank, she was approached by two really big, scary looking dudes. If you’ve ever seen Tangled, I’m just going to tell you that said dudes are the Stabbington Brothers aka the two guys Flynn went to steal the Crown with. 

She tried to fight them off and ended up pushing one of them so hard that he stumbled back, and this was super surprising to the brothers bc that didn’t happen very often. So they talked her into following them (( stupid girl )) and led her to the Snuggly Duckling, where they proceeded to show her the secret entrance into the Mines of Corona. As they got deeper through the mines, they came upon yet another secret door, which led to a tunnel that brought all three of them to a warehouse of sorts. In this warehouse was a giant red mat, and some of the most malicious, nasty looking people you’ve ever dreamed of. Adults, and teenagers alike. 

basically !!!!!! they brought her to an illegal fight club !!! and threw her into the ring without any experience with a lot of money bet on her winning !! and shE GOT THE SHIT BEAT OUT OF HER !!! but honestly karlene is one of those girls who is like definitely not going down without getting a punch in (( even though she’s never fought anyone in her whole life #yikes )) so she got back up and spit blood in her opponents eyes and punched him as hard as she could and ended up knocking this kid out.

she ended up living in that warehouse in like apartments above the room where the ring is and stayed there until she was eighteen and p much became the main event like she was a real money floater every criminal around had heard of her and wanted to face off against her and a lot of them lost but some of them won u kno how it is

BUT THEN GOTHEL somehow heard thru the grapevine where her precious moonlight was and hopped her ass into that warehouse and honestly the sight of her shook lexi so much that she wasnt paying attention to her opponent and got the shit knocked out of her

and when she woke up, she was outside in the grass being scolded by gothel

who pulled the whole “mother knows best” shit on her to which lexi was like “lol hell no” and gothel was all “wow the disrespeCT !! if u think ur so big and bad lets truly see how u do on ur own” and shipped her ass off to wda

where she has been for a year currently

she is very into provoking people honestly like she doesn’t have a fight club here yet (or at least she hasnt found one) and is rlly itching to fight someone again 

she likes to see who’s going to take the first swing

but at the same time she rlly doesn’t care

im so !! abt her so doesn’t care abt anything sighs how will i even deal with this kid

i think im gonna post random fact about her now?

she’s 5′3 and uses her lack of height as an advantage tbh it gives her easier access to punch guys in the dick and chicks in the tit which is always fun

she loves blue raspberry cotton candy ok dont question it

SHE WILL NEVER HURT AN ANIMAL OK SHE LOVES ANIMALS she has a year old gray maine coon and his name is oscar and he’s a dick tbh like he has those hateful eyes

honest meme is oscar likes u then ur doin somethin right friend

her favorite color is pastel pink dont judge

she wears a lot of athletic clothing bc its comfortable and she doesn’t care what she looks like so u kno catch her walking around campus in sports bras and leggings bc why the fuck not i guess

idk whAT ELSE TO PUT MAN FUCK 

i really love her though and im hoping you guys do too pls come plot with me

[thehalfworld]

Fanfic MST: Forbiden Fruit: The Tempation of Edward Cullen, a Twilight fanfic [part 4]

I’m on a roll.

There’s more rape in this one; it’s not really described in detail, though. There are also references to what occurred in the last chapter, and an instance of mostly consensual sexual activity (although it stops short of actual sex).

Recap: Last chapter, Tiaa’s foster parents Dave and Marie left on a trip, leaving her in the care of “Uncle Larry” (Dave’s brother), who promptly began beating and raping Tiaa. After one such incident, she ran off into the woods and encountered a strange man who claimed to be her father before blacking out.

Chapter 1

Previous chapter

AN = No flames pls, theres no point!if u dnt like my story dnt read it, its as simple as that!

I never got the whole “don’t like, don’t read” thing. How can you know if you like it if you haven’t read it?

btw atlantiana is NOT marisue be cause look she is NOT perfect and not everyone in the stiry likes her! she has problems and she has flaws and shes UNHAPPY would u like her life?i no i wouldnt, its totally tragic and horible.u flamers arent even makin sense1

Having bad things happen to your character doesn’t make her less of a Mary Sue. Loads of Sues have tragic backstories. Look at Batman.

Chapter 4 - la push

I sat quitely on the la push beech apart form the party that was going on beside me. Mike Nooton was following me round like a pulpy and he was so borin! None of the things he had to say were interesting but I was nice to him because he wasnt a bad guy.

That’s actually pretty in-character for the guy, if I remember the Twilight Saga correctly. He’s nice, but not very interesting. I think Bella even made the puppy comparison at one point.

My thoughts were elsewhere - i could'nt stop thinking about the events of last night, when uncle larry had raped me and I had had my scary vision in the forest and a tall p[ale guy in my mind had cale me his daughter. I didnt understand any of I felt so so awful that I had been rapped by that hideous pervy SICKO when I had bin saving myself for the right guy and for marriage and my virginity was torn from my grasp by that twisted guy, it was so crule and unfair, it made me want to cry

So uh… what happened after she blacked out in the woods? Was her dad gone when she woke up? Did Uncle Larry do anything else to her after she returned home? Did she return home?

"omg MIKE watt are you doing talkin to HER?" I turned round and saw four nasty faces learing at us. It was the chearleaders I had seen in the cafetearia, and one of them was the girl dateing Ewdard Cullen, the brown hare girl who was standing at the back looking moody but not saying anything

You know her name! You’ve called her by name before!

"Stop being mean Jessica" mike said angerly "tiaas' awesome and if you can't see that its just you bein blind and shallow and stupid like your all ways are"

Think this is the author calling out her flamers or what?

"yah I mean look at her clothes, she looks like a stupid goth biaach with her slutty top and short skirt and fithnet tights is she a RAT HOOKER or what?" Jessica screamed.

Man, I love this fic. “RAT HOOKER” is a great insult.

She was realy ugly when she shouted even though she was technology a hot chick and was dressed in skimpy pink clothes.

I don’t remember Jessica that well from the books, but I think she was described as short and a chatterbox. I don't think she was a cheerleader or had a particular fondness for pink. Also she was dating Mike at one point after Bella set them up with each other.

"you no what Jess, you and YOur frends are SO shallow and YOU are the real slut! you and bella and angela and laruen may were short skirts and low cut tops an stuff but that doesnt maek u beautiful! Its watt underneath that counts!" mike shouted

Wait, so are they sluts because they wear revealing clothes or because of their behavior? Because right here it seems like Mike is criticizing them based on how they dress, which is a bit weird when we remember Tiaa also wears revealing clothing (“fishnet top” ring a bell?).

"yah, speakin of witch" said a sly blond girl in the gang who was called lauren, pointing at me "watts with her breasts, they are huge, I bet they are fake!- she laughed and her friends all laughed too even bella and angela who had been quiet until then.

I don’t remember a damn thing about Lauren or Angela but I remember they both existed. One of them was definitely shy but I don’t remember which.

I got up and pushed past them and ran away into the darkness. I cold hear them all laughing at me and i felt so embarrased I was relay sensitive about the waste I looked I hated the fact that it made all girls hate me and all guys stare at me, I would have given anything to be ugly or just inviable. I wasnt stuck up and didnt think I was beta than anyone else because of how I looked I just wanted people to treat me like a normal person! I could'nt help being slim and blond with relay big boobs it wasnt my fault I hadnt done anything wrong!

Remember in chapter 1 when Tiaa talked about how she used to be self-conscious about her appearance but got over it and now doesn’t care what people say about her?

-are u ok?" said someone from beside me

If you don’t have that MCR song playing in your head right now I don’t know what’s wrong with you.

"who arr you?" i asked. 3 realy pretty goth girls were standing there smilin at me and I smiled back

Oh, of course, the Sue’s backup choir.

-we are tyffani, abigaille and rochelle" they said smiling "you seem cool, do you want to be our freinds?"

I like the idea that Tiaa could be multiple friends.

Judging from the names, these three are children of that white mom whose baby name photo went viral on the internet. The one who named her kid Lakynn or something.

"ya of course, i'm just a bit meloncolly cause those horrible chearleaders were bein mean jerks and saying my boobs were fake" i said

"omg, u mean jessica and bellas gang? They hate us too because we dont care what they think" said tyfanni "they are just jealous cause youre the prettiest girl in the school now and theyre all plain next to you but we dont care about stuff like that, we only care about peoples personalities “

“That’s why we made sure to talk about how pretty we think you are.”

"cool" I said, and we talked for hours

I talked to tyfanni, rochelle and abigail for hours and they were so cool.

How long was that again?

I'd never had proper freinds before who didnt care watt i looked like or where I came from they just liked me for me, and I liked them cause they were uber cool and we had loads of stuff in common! But after a while they all went home and I stayed on the beech.

Glad we skipped the scene where Tiaa has fun with her friends so that we can get back to the part where Uncle Larry assaults her again. Nice to see the author prioritizing.

It was getting late but I didnt want to go home to uncle larry in case he raped me on his car again.

Phrasing seems to imply that if he raped her in a different location it would be alright.

Soddenly I heard a voice from behind me.

I hope “soddenly” is an intentional double entendre.

"well tiaa, thou seem to be causing quite a stir at school" his voice was smooth and sexoy and from another time.

Who could this be?

Edward.

Never would have guessed!

"what do you mean!" I demanded

"basically every gay at school wants to have sex with thee, and every girl wants to eat thee alive for it, hows that for causing a stir my lady?" he smiled and kissed my neck.

Wait, every gay at school? Including the gay boys? This girl is powerful.

"shut up jerk! Btw I met youre girlfriend before, bella I think her name is! I dont like her or anything, but how the hell can u cheat on her like that and kiss me how u did? Its sick ur a cheatin bastard and i should tell everyone. Tyfanni told me you and bella are like the schools golden couple or something, watt would happen if I told ppl how you had acted in that corridoor with me?"

Uh… the fic would go in a direction I don’t expect it to and it might be redeemed somewhat by at least being less predictable?

"OMG SWEET LADY! THY MUST NOT TELL ANYONE! " he screamed "it was a moment of madness thats all! Im so so sorry for watt happened,i hope thine can forgive me, but ive promised myself to bella and thats just how it is, no matter how much thou intrests me"

Use of OMG may seem anachronistic, but that abbreviation has actually been in use since the early 1900s, so it’s totally reasonable that Edward might use it. Although probably not out loud.

"fine, then stay away from me " I shouted as I left to go home but he followed me and grabbed me and pushed me down on the grind.

I think he’s sending mixed signals.

I was burning with anger and fury but I wanted him so deafly i didnt even try to resist him.

So deafly?

He new how much i wanted him and it drove me mad. He put his hands inside my panties and i gasped. I was soddenly desperate to sex with him and i tore my clothes off and i was in my underwear.

Again, I hope that’s innuendo, but in this fic it’s actually possible the author thinks “suddenly” is spelled like that.

I took off my bra and showed him my naked heaving beasts.

Nothing turns a guy on like naked heaving beasts!

"have sex with me now edward " I whispered

" i cant " he said, although his body was on top of mine and his fingers touched my nipples

"please, i'm begging you" I said, hating myself for being such a dirty hore but unable to control my burning desire

No one in this fic has any self-control whatsoever, huh?

-NOOOO!" he shouted and ran away crying.

I put my clothes back on slowly feeling so ashamed and embarased i could hardly move. I could'nt beleive i had begged him to do sex on me and even worse he had said no!

Okay, I guess Edward has a tiny bit of self-control. Which is good, as he is a vampire and would probably be eating people left and right if he was totally unable to control himself.

I went home and uncle larry made me cook his dinner and suck his cock while he ate his food and then he raped me and hit me with a shoe all night and i didnt even complain cos i felt like i deserved it for being such a horrible slut even though it made me want to die inside.

Bread, eggs, milk, squick. Uncle Larry seems more interested in hitting Tiaa than raping her, incidentally.

Uncle larry finally left me alone and I thought about killing myself as i cryed and cryed as i fell slowly into a dreamless sleep.

Aw.

Next chapter

[tiracallout]

The following is a copypasted submission from my inbox

hello. this is a year overdue and i personally doubt that anything about this blog is still active but i hadn’t really cared to write anything out until the other day. i don’t care about anonymity seeing as i’m already mentioned on another submission here so i go by tara currently and i’m an at the time 29 year old member of a system. i tend to be long winded but it’s a bit more coherent than the other system member’s was and skips straight past providing context for our living situation and is strictly edel relevant only

my memory isn’t exactly ‘good’ but if i can remember correctly i met him when he approached devon and seemed really excited to meet me because he thought i was nice. he was flat out told that i wasn’t exactly social or super openly friendly but he insisted anyways. i don’t know why i said hello after that but i guess i must’ve been lonely or bored. i don’t remember what i said but the conversation couldn’t have lasted more than ten minutes. this was some time during the general end of year 2015/new year 2016 i’m pretty sure in hindsight he probably thought because i was a 'fictive’ i’d have to like him. other people have agreed with me that they think he thought that because i’m a 'fictive’ who isn’t afraid of confrontation he’d get an excellent attack dog out of this. i’ll never know the truth about this either way

honestly i barely remember talking to the guy. one thing i remembered was asking him what was wrong only to find out he was having a breakdown over some 14 year old posting ship art or something and making fun of them for jokingly calling themselves trash. i didn’t want to get involved so i mentioned that the kid was 14 and being twice this kid’s age but that i didn’t quite get it and moved on with my day. maybe a comment or two in passing. i keep to myself he still has this odd insistence that i’m actually a super nice and friendly person. even if i’m the one who says otherwise. as if he knows me better than i do. he also tells devon, who is 17 and pretends that he’s not, that he finds it admirable that i’m not afraid to call people on bullshit and can be blunt if i have to be i make a twitter at some point. according to the records it says that it’s february 2016 he asks to follow it so i let him. it’s a small thing with 20-30 followers. i have that i might softblock at any time in the bio. at some point i softblock him, along with a small handful of other people, because i don’t care about idol games and this was the one thing that i knew i could have as mine and mine alone. i go out of my way to message him about it and say that it was nothing personal because i saw that was what he had asked his reaction was a little… disproportionate. he went on to threaten suicide and forced everyone into comforting him even when he admitted that he was being manipulative. i was shittalked for this in plain sight and everything that he said happened just wasn’t true. which is fine i guess, personally i have better things to do and i couldn’t give half a shit about it. what did bother me is that it wasn’t just me that saw it but devon, because we were cofronting more often at the time. he had seen the context of everything and had a breakdown over watching edel’s breakdown i give edel a 24 hour cooldown period before messaging him asking for an apology for the 17 year old he set off. i said that i didn’t care for one and wasn’t going to say anything else. or i guess i phrased it as 'withholding my comments’ which might’ve sounded harsh i guess but i was on edge for an unrelated reason and that’s just kind of how i talk. other people said that i deserved an apology but it’s in the past either way i got to watch him specifically @ someone begging them to kill him because he had made them promise to at some point. i got front row seats for this whole shitshow and was lead to believe it was my fault. this went on for several hours. this had all started over a softblock. talk about asinine when he eventually calms down, and this whole thing takes forever. i get this nice little message “oK now that i’m calm, I will apologize for upsetting Devon but its unbelievably distasteful asking me to apologize for having a breakdown over something that someone left me for a few days before. How am I supposed to react when I feel like people only care about my interests, not me as a person? I don’t hate either one of you. Not even you. I don’t hate anyone. I was upset but I got it out of my system and calmed down. I’m very sorry for upsetting anyone. I really am. But I really dont appreciate this wording, or the implication you have something nasty to say to me.” firstly i had had no clue that someone had softblocked him recently and i apparently had pushed him over his weekly unfollower limit or whatever. even if it weren’t my space to do what i want with how the hell was i expected to know that. secondly i never expected him to apologize for having a breakdown, it was that he did it where devon and i could watch it when he had to have had other accounts. i wasn’t super thrilled about having my personal business thrown around to begin with but there was nothing to do about it at this point. lastly that “i don’t hate anyone line is full of shit” and i didn’t really need to be chastised for telling him to own up to hurting someone or be treated like i was being given some sort of pass and i hadn’t earned it. regardless i was tired and didn’t care to try and argue so i apologized for being 'rude’ and explained that i was tense about something else entirely and that there were no hard feelings and moved the fuck on with my day

according to the archived dms this was around april 2016 i’m fairly sure

this is where devon starts seeing everyone talking about being treated like shit on top of personally witnessing it happening to me before he loudly cuts edel off

at some point i find out that edel is dating a minor under wraps and there’s a set up with bunch of middlemen to talk about things. that was all him. we’re both reassured that things will be broken off and he 'didn’t know better’

i have no way to keep an eye on the situation devon has been effectively given a gag order after a mutual friend did something of their own volition and he assumed that it’s because devon has been talking. devon hasn’t even been around and people have told edel that. having no point of contact with anything on that end on top of having things offline be in a crisis of sorts i take everyone at their word and expect that it’ll be done. something that i’m not proud of to this day

this was around may-june 2016 months down the line and 3000 miles later i find out completely on accident that that’s not the case. i have no way to get in contact with anyone and i’m absolutely fucking horrified. if i try and talk about any of this i’m risking someone who was manipulated by edel at that point being hospitalized due to the stress of it all. i try and do what i can to keep the kid anonymous, hoping that it’ll keep him at least a little safer than they would be otherwise. including finding out devon found out he knew a systemhop mod and personally sending a message asking them to take posts with identifying info about them down because i had heard they hadn’t consented to being outted like that and that edel was checking the blog. i really wish i could’ve done more and had known exactly how the hell to handle that situation. edel had still been discrediting devon and i both months later and i had no way to even keep an eye on anything without spying on a teenager, which i wasn’t willing to do

estimated around september-october 2016 apparently we were always referred to as a package deal. even in the 'apology’. it was pretty heavily implied by how he treated other 'fictives’ that i didn’t have my own free will and opinions in this. that was even more obvious when devon was the one listed on the 'do not follow if you follow’ list next to outted abusers and pedophiles and i wasn’t even mentioned despite having separate accounts and him knowing the username. i had to message him personally to get that removed anyways once he was called out so some fucking apology that was. two lines for the both of us despite getting massively different treatment. devon, the younger and less 'fictional’ of the two of us, was cornered into apologies and i was talked down to and shamed, not taken seriously from the beginning

after i saw the apology i messaged him and other than telling him to remove the username i told him i didn’t want an apology or even a direct response and that he wouldn’t hear from me again. as far as i’m aware we haven’t had any sort of contact since. i don’t know why i’m submitting this really but it gives a semi solid timeline/backup for other people’s submissions so why the hell not

this was october 2016