#whew anyway back to drawing lmao i forgot i was doing anything but eating sleeping breathing kuwameshi for a minute there

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prev your tags are mighty and true also YEAH i love team urameshi i love them also the thought that yusuke is to kuwa as toguro is to genkai (as well as itsuki is to sensui what kuwa is to yusuke) IS SO FUKING. GRRRGRRGAGOUH the way they couldve been tragic lovers separated by their differences and one's inability to face their fears OR codependent to the point of enabling the darkest and unhealthiest parts of them in this entropic sorta way is just. GUH. HOUGHGHNGH!!!!! also yeah when i rewatched a lotta the yusuke leaving stuff i was like man he really DOES feel like he's breaking up with the both of them. and their different reactions are so interesting to me like keiko being like :/ i don't think my new bf would like it if we got married and stuff and yusuke's yk ily :) and her yeah me too :/ bc she's trying not to get her hopes up bc yusuke really does let her down a lot and she has every reason to not believe his promises when he's made them a million times before and broken them almost every time. vs kuwabara losing his absolute goose off his gourd desperate and yusuke not chewing him out for it at all but explaining his reasons and insisting he's going and when kuwa starts lashing out at the others pulling him aside and promising he'll be back. there's a lotta overlap with his treatment of keiko and kuwa here but kuwa's reaction is so different to keiko's and the way yusuke acted when kuwa was trying to say what he means to him just.. gaougugohhohghh basically

AND YEAH the kuwa can speak violence but it's yusuke and hiei's native language is literally shit i've been saying for years omg we are big brained. yusuke and hiei were both born outcasts assumed to be dangerous, corruptive, impure, etc, and they both leaned into it to some extent, for their physical and emotional survival. i imagine kuwabara grew up with similar prejudices, but he took a different approach in rising above them via honor code stuff. he looked to how a man should be (often taking influence from pop culture, it seems) and tried to be that to prove them wrong, to be good in spite of what others said, rather than being bad to spite them (hiei + yusuke). and sorry to kurama for leaving him out but we dunno enough about his upbringing sorry man <3 anyway yeah it's such a key point of communication for yusuke and hiei and while it also is for kuwa it's not like,, NEARLY as hard for kuwa to talk about his feelings. anyway they make me insasne. that point about hiei and yusuke bringing out the worst and best in each other AGAIN ginormous brain moment but like the way yusuke talks to hiei when they have the post-sniper fight encounter and yusuke's like ouhhh you're a softyyy like. i think yusuke is almost the gentlest with hiei in some ways. when he asks him in this kinda tentative quiet way if he'll help after coming all this way (so he KNOWS hiei cares and hiei can't deny it) it's like he's trying to teach him some of that language of. not hitting each other. it doesn't go great but it doesn't go horribly either. (maybe it doesn't go great bc he brings up kuwabara, and hiei's like >:/ oh right ugh this is such a kuwabara thing to do being all. open about feelings and shit. gross. and it reminds him of vulnerability being a bad idea and he's like nope shutting that down now moment's over. but yusuke makes it easier to forget that.) ugh the yusuke hiei dynamic makes me absolutely stupid and contrasting it with the kuwa yusuke dynamic is just. scrumptious. bc they really are the shoulder human shoulder demon to him a lotta the time. anyway YEAH but also at the same time hiei and yusuke fall into the pessimistic let's watch the world burn shit a lot easier together than with any of the others because they share a bitterness and a hurt and a mistrust that the other two don't. kurama's too practical and schemey to be a pessimist (too focused on how to make good outcomes happen to worry about how unlikely they are, which is the only way to survive for that long) and kuwabara's so focused on narrative/the ways things "should" be/unable to let himself think of bad outcomes because it'd crush him bc he's sensitive yk to be a pessimist. b'yeah

also yeah i WISH yusuke and genkai were a little sweeter than they were in canon but i also think that distance is like. captivating in its painfulness, much like a lotta the show's relationships. just tender enough to drive you nuts but not quite enough to satisfy anything. it leaves you hungry and aching like the characters themselves who are all starved for affection and GOD DAMN. ANYWAY

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