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llatimeria · 4 years ago

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also if a neurotypical person ever used a tone indicator on me i think i’d probably riot for reasons that are probably dumb because nts are the ones who should learn how to be clearer more often. but i think if a neurotypical person said /j or /srs or /gen to me i would get the exact same vibe as the I’m-talking-to-a-kid-who’s-special tone that i got whenever i had symptoms around my classmates

#it's a very specific tone in my experience because like #its not explicitly condescending. it's not explicitly cruel. it's just... too helpful. in a way #it's not even a tone that's inappropriate in every context. like #if they had used that tone on an actual little baby kid who was younger than them it wouldve been fine #or even just A Person With Different Disabilities Than Mine may have appreciated it #but to me it was like. because esp. by the time i was in high school it was not obvious that i had learning disabilities #whereas in elementary school i couldnt avoid people knowing that. i was pulled out of class like. daily i think #to go to special ed #in high school i didn't have that kind of thing going on so even though i have always been pretty open about my disabilities most people #wouldnt Just Know #so i had . several experiences where i saw people's opinions of me change from 'quiet kid' to 'weird kid' mid-conversation #especially when i was having meltdowns obviously that changes your opinion of a person pretty quick but like #it was very strange sometimes to be having a problem - especially a regular intrapersonal problem that every teenager sometimes has -#and instead of your friends treating you the way they treat their nt friends when they're upset #you get treated like a toddler having a temper tantrum #and like. that's the tone i'm talking about

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