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kaitaiga · 1 year ago

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COD MW OC: Damien Whitlock Profile & Reference Sheet

》 Open File

GENERAL INFO

Full Name: Damien Whitlock

Nickname: Damo

Birthday: 7th March 1996 – Sydney, Australia

Face Claim: Zane Phillips

Affiliation: 2nd Commando Regiment (2CDO REGT), Tactical Assault Group East (TAG-E), Task Force Dagger 🗡️

Rank: Sergeant

Call sign: Bravo 2-6 (2CDO)

Height: 186cm (6’1)

Weight: 90kg

Blood Type: B- (B NEG)

Sexuality: Heterosexual

Pronouns: He/Him

Languages: English, Arabic (conversational), Indonesian (conversational)

Family:

Father: Arthur Whitlock

Mother: Audrey Mae Whitlock

Older Brother: Thomas Whitlock

Older Sister: Sienna Whitlock

Younger Sister: Zoe Whitlock

Affiliates:

Task Force Dagger

→ Captain Lachlan Jones (2CDO)

→ Sergeant Daniel Greenhill (2CDO Combat Medic)

→ Flight Lieutenant Archie “Frost” Campbell (RAAF F-35A Pilot)

→ Sergeant Joseph “Joey” Hernández (RAAF Combat Controller)

Task Force 141

→ Sergeant Major Hannah “Sparrow” Cayton (@revnah1406)

→ Sergeant Annabelle “Kit” Pham (@applbottmjeens)

→ Charlotte “Jade” Le Jardin @sleepyconfusedpotato

→ Captain Price, Gaz, Laswell, Soap, Ghost

Los Vaqueros

→ Alyssa “Aly” Martinez (@alypink)

Para SF

→ Captain Arjun Dhingra, LT. Aditya Tripathi (@welldonekhushi)

Warrior Task Force (@islandtarochips)

→ Tiala "Shark" Toa

→ Agnes "Blast" Falagi

→ Nigel “Squirrel” Harrison

Urzikstan Liberation Force (ULF)

→ Farah Karim

→ Alex Keller

Other

→ Jackson Wyatt (1CDO, Warcom)

→ Benjamin “Otter” Lee (SAS)

Appearance

Hair: blond, short mullet.

Eye Colour: blue/grey

Build: tall, muscular

Scars: Bullet wound (left shoulder)

Beauty Marks: Right jaw, above and below the left eye.

Tattoos:

Personality and Traits

Damien comes across as a very laidback and open guy, very easy to approach and talk to. He is a pretty big jokester, likes to crack a few jokes here and there to make people laugh or lighten the mood.

Though in the heat of battle, he has known to be brutal towards his enemies, sparing no mercy and absolutely no time - getting a job done quickly and efficiently. He isn’t afraid to speak his mind when needed, even if it may be more emotionally driven.

Nevertheless, towards those he likes, he is a very caring and loyal person. Ride or die buddy. It’s pretty damn obvious too, he’ll never stop bugging someone he cares for no matter where they are in the world. He can read their emotions like a book too; he can tell when someone’s feeling down and will try his best to cheer them up.

ESFP-T (MBTI)

Damien is also really good with any sort of trade work which he learned whilst growing up on his family farm. You need an electrician, mechanic, or welder? He’s your guy.

Damien’s also the sort of guy to take care of others but not himself. Truthfully, after he lost Daniel, he found it very hard to cope. Thus, he took on Daniel’s role of looking after others.

Skills/Specialisations

Like any other commando, Damien has undergone a multitude of training, preparing him for anything and everything. Alone or with his squad. A few of these include:

Demolitions and Breaching

CQC/Melee Attacks

Wilderness Survival

Long Range Recon

HALO / HAHO (including water insertion)

Roping (aid climbing)

Hostage Rescue

First Aid

And so on. In his own time, Damien frequently trains in Jiu-Jitsu, earning his purple belt, further enhancing his CQC.

Biography

Coming from a family of farmers, Damien spent most of his childhood living and working out on his family farm in rural New South Wales. Throughout his younger years, he was constantly harassed/bullied by his drug addicted older brother, Thomas. Young Damien was no match for him but luckily enough, his older sister had his back at all times. Thomas would eventually runaway and was never seen again – presumed dead.

As he grew up, Damien attended an all-boys boarding school in Sydney where he met Daniel Greenhill – his best friend for many years to come. He never really excelled at any subjects other than wood/metalwork and P.E., so when it came down to his final ATAR exams he absolutely flunked them. Not wanting to continue studying or returning to farm life, Damien worked the odd job here and there to make ends meet.

Whilst working one of his jobs alongside his buddy, Daniel had dropped that he had met an operator by the name of Jackson Wyatt and suggested that he should meet with him.

After hearing all about Wyatt’s career as a Commando, Damien was sold on the idea; so much so that at the age of 19, he enlisted into the Australian Army after being trained by Wyatt himself much to his parent's disapproval. He served two years as an infantryman within 3RAR before completing the Commando selection course and earning his green beret, where he was placed in Lachlan’s B Company. Turns out he had a real knack for this sort of thing as he continued to undergo a range of further Commando specialist courses after initial Commando training.

Since then, he’s done multiple tours to Urzikstan, Afghanistan and Iraq where he was introduced to Captain Price (via Lachlan) and Benjamin “Otter” Lee (via Wyatt).

Damien has since then worked alongside Captain Price closely thanks to Lachlan’s close connection to him, particularly in Urzikstan, but isn’t opposed to flying out to lend a hand wherever.

Modern Warfare I

During 2019, Damien is first seen in the UK on a training exercise with the SAS before he is swiftly sent to London’s Piccadilly Circus to assist against AQ’s terrorist attack, alongside Gaz. Afterwards, he joins the SAS Anti-terror wing along with Price and Gaz to clear a house in Camden, full of AQ affiliates in search of any information related to the Piccadilly attack and The Wolf.

Damien returns to Urzikstan alongside 2CDO REGT, where not long after he is called to assist Captain Price, Gaz and the others at the US Embassy, also aiding to save the Ambassador’s Assistant, Stacy. Following this, he follows the rest of the team back to the ambassador’s residence only to find the Wolf had been extracted by AQ forces already. Furthermore, he is seen briefly helping SAS and CIA on the night raid to locate The Wolf at his compound.

2020/2021

After the events of MW19, Damien spent this time on rotation in TAG-E, though was later sent back to Urzikstan on an emergency deployment to help aid in the assassination of an AQ leader. This proved to be a struggle. They were given little to no information and thus were subsequently ambushed, leading to the death of best friend, Daniel Greenhill, who tried to pull an injured Damien out of enemy fire.

After the funeral, Damien spent his time spiralling down. He became depressed, not leaving his Sydney apartment for days at a time and ultimately almost being discharged from his duties. Though thanks to his Captain and two close friends - Lachlan, Sparrow and Aly - they helped him find the means to work towards getting better and soon enough, he was ready enough to go back to his duties.

Modern Warfare II

In 2022, Damien is first seen undercover at Café Gracht alongside Captain Price where they wait for representatives from both AQ and Las Almas Cartel to show up. After seeing Gaz tranquillise the cartel member, they all move to enter Laswell’s vehicle and leave the area swiftly.

Later on he returns to Urzikstan, where he is again enlisted for help by Price to rescue Laswell from AQ along with ULF fighters.

Modern Warfare III

Damien spends this time going home to Australia for a little while before being sent on another tour around the Middle East. It is in Urzikstan that he (and 2CDO REGT) work alongside Phillip Graves and his Shadow Company, unaware of the events in Las Almas concerning Los Vaqueros and TF141. He is only made aware when seeing his friend Sparrow again, where she rips the SC patch off of him and promptly has a go at Damien for wearing that thing around them, explaining the full story.

2024 Onwards

Sometime during 2024, Damien was recruited into Task Force Dagger, a task force created in order to combat and end ‘Project Nightfall’ created by ‘STALKERS’ personnel. To be continued…

Trivia

EDM and rock/metal music is what he listens to most.

He is a Mclaren F1 fan, as well as being a big fan of the AFL team: Collingwood Football Club (Magpies).

Absolute gym junkie. Has an extensive collection of pre-workout, protein powder and creatine stored in his apartment (and snuck onto base). If he wasn’t a Commando, he’d probably be a bodybuilder or athlete of some sort.

Drives a 79 series Landcruiser. His number plate is “WHITLOCK”.

Damien keeps a scrapbook that he fills with stickers, trinkets, thoughts or drawings from various places he has visited.

During his downtime in Sydney, he likes to go café-hopping! He’s a big foodie. Also likes to take long walks during the night, overlooking the Harbour Bridge and generally just taking in the city lights. It's one of his favourite things to do to ease his mind.

In the past, Damien has never had a good relationship - they’ve all either cheated on him or ghosted him. He gave up looking for a partner even though he longed to have a family of his own.

Does jiu-jitsu and is currently at a purple belt.

Thanks to Daniel, Damien is pretty good at speaking Indonesian and really enjoys Indonesian food! His favourites are nasi campur and soda gembira. He’d mix Indonesian and English together to gossip about something to Daniel. After they both graduated high school, Daniel took Damien to visit Jakarta for the first time and he loved it! Also owns a couple batik shirts.

Frequently visits Daniel’s grave when he has the time. He sits there for hours just catching him up on every little event or thought that has happened, as if he were there to listen like the old times. Frequently catches up with Daniel's family too, they've taken him in like he's their son.

Moodboard + Playlist

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smok3r7 · 10 months ago

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Is Leaving Even An Option?

Joel x F!reader

Explicit, 18+

Five: Running Away

Main Masterlist & Series Masterlist - My Ao3

Summary: Your days have become one in the same, even with the terrifying reality of death right outside the walls of Jackson. You never thought you’d be in the situation you’ve been stuck in for seven years now, the daily abuse you endure has become an expectation. You take whatever your husband throws at you, literally and figuratively, because you’ve been trained to believe this is normal. But a new man, Joel, moves next door and happens to be friendly towards you, this causes your husband’s anger to worsen. Your mind starts a gruesome war with itself - can you leave him or do you stay until the inevitable happens?

Chapter Summary: Nate is officially out of the picture for good, at least for the last year. A fun night of card games and alcohol causes you and Joel finally to have a chance to maybe spark something new. But you get scared, and what do you do when you get scared? You run away.

Word count: 5.8k

⚠️Warnings: cards against humanity, sexual tension, grinding, fingering, relationship ptsd, feeling confused

I just wanna give a big shout to @chloeangelic she has been an absolute blessing to me, thank you so much for helping me through this process, love you🫂🫶🏼

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The warm summer breeze flows through your hair as you sit on a rocking chair on the wrap-around porch you’ve come to relax on, the sounds of children playing surrounds you, the sun beaming down onto the green yards filled with dandelions in the neighborhood, and you couldn’t be any happier.

Another year has passed by without any problems, you practically live with Joel and Ellie, and you can’t remember the last time you set foot in your old place, too many horrific memories associated with that home. Nate has been gone for months now - he and Daniel got an assignment to go out West a bit more to find different supplies Jackson needs.

All you know is that they’re still alive, based off of radio communications, but in reality, you don’t care anymore, to the point where you have asked Henry, who’s in control of the radio, to stop giving you updates.

You’ve mentally and emotionally moved on from Nate, and he’s more a figment of your imagination by now. You don’t have any more romantic ties to him, which means, you’re back to your normal fun self. Your witty personality takes over the weak one that grew over you like weeds, and it’s pretty funny; you and Ellie are very similar, she’s what you would imagine your daughter to be like. It’s bittersweet.

“Hey darlin’,” Joel greets as he comes out of the house you now share with them, with a glass of lemonade in each hand, “Extra sugar, just how you like it.” He winks at you when you reach out to grab the tall glass, a smile grows on your warm face, “You, Miller, are the best.”

He laughs as he sits down next to you in the other chair with a groan, “I try my best.” You shake your head and take a drink of the freshly squeezed lemonade and your mouth is filled with the perfect mix of sugary sweetness and fresh lemons. You hum from the pure satisfaction that flows through your tastebuds, “Gotta hand it to you, Miller,” you turn your head to look him in the eyes, “This is perfect.”

His eyes gaze from your eyes down to your lips and back again, a soft smile grows on his worn face as he smoothly says, “Anything for you, sugar.” The two of you continue to stare at each other as you both silently drink the delicious yellow drink, just enjoying the beautiful summer weather.

The rest of the afternoon is spent with you both enjoying each other's company, along with the surrounding noise of people outside. However, there’s something different about the way you and Joel are communicating, but you can’t quite put your finger on it.

—

“Okay, okay, here we go. What killed the dinosaurs?” Ellie finally gets out after a burst of laughter. Joel and you have started a game night type of thing every Friday with Ellie, Tommy, and Maria, and tonight is Cards Against Humanity.

“AIDS, oh my god,” Ellie chokes, as does the rest of the group playing, but you hear Tommy snicker under his breath. Welp, that’s Tommy’s.

“Bees?” She laughs as she sets the white card down, “I mean, what?” She shakes her head and leans back in her chair, “John Travolta’s right hand… Okayyyy.” A confused look grows on her face as she looks at Joel, but he doesn’t give any hint of whether it's his or not as he takes a sip of his whiskey.

“And finally,” she flips the last white card and immediately looks at you across from her at the dining room table, you try to give her a what are you looking at sort of look, but the wine you’ve been drinking catches up to you as you try to hide your smile that’s just waiting to crack with your hand. You know it’s your card and it’s a doozy, “Old lady, you’re something else,” she shakes her head and reads, “Having no legs, just toes.”

You and Ellie are the only ones who are cracking up, both of you hitting the wooden table and starting to see tears rolling down each other's faces. The rest of the table, however, doesn’t seem to find it as funny as you both do. “That’s the winner!” Ellie hollers as she slides the black card on the table to you, and your hand stops it from flying off the table.

“I win!” You yell with excitement as you put your arms in the air and start to wave them side to side, the red wine Maria brought over giving you a boost of adrenaline and confidence to be who you truly are, and you don’t care if they don’t like it - because this is the girl you’ve wanted to be for decades, the girl who could be what she wanted and didn’t care about what others thought.

“Really? AIDS was so much better!” Tommy playfully argues with Ellie, but Ellie is quick with the rebuttal. “I know but just imagine a T-Rex with its baby arms, and with just toes and no legs!” She breaks out into a fit of laughter before she can even finish her sentence, and it causes the whole table to erupt in laughs.

God, you can’t remember the last time you felt like this - just pure happiness and comfort. It’s so heartwarming to be able to live through this moment during the time of what seems to be the end of the world, along with surviving your shit marriage. You never thought you’d be able to see or even feel this again, it’s beautiful.

After the roaring laughter dies down to a lower volume conversation about whatever Town Hall is planning for this weekend, the sudden touch of Joel’s large warm hand on your skin catches your attention. You take a second to subtly look down and you notice how his hand fits perfectly on your squishy thigh as he softly squeezes your flesh. A shudder crawls up your spine, pure ecstasy surges through your body and, god, yes, you haven’t had this feeling in years, so long you honestly don’t even know how to take care of it.

Your cheeks start to heat up and your breathing gets a bit heavy, the wine definitely not helping to keep this hidden. Without giving it a second thought, you bring your hand on top of his and give a gentle squeeze back to tell him, this is okay. Over the last couple months, the subtle flirting between you and Joel has slowly turned into something that could potentially become serious, but the conversation has never been had between you two, so it’s been a gray area for awhile now.

You’re trying to keep your full attention on Maria who is discussing to the whole table how she’s so sick of having to plan all of the events that go on in Jackson, but let’s be real, you can’t pay her any mind. All your attention is focused on Joel and his gentle touch as he slowly swipes his thumb close to your now arousal covered panties, your stomach doing flips from the anticipation, and even though you continue to nod your head with her complaints, your patience with Maria is running thin.

All you want to do right now is drag Joel upstairs and fuck him like it’s the last and only time you’ll be able to, but that’s not possible at the moment.

Joel must be thinking and feeling the same thing because he then leans into your ear and whispers for only you to hear, “Want me to send them home?” You slightly turn your head, mainly your eyes, and all you do is bite your bottom lip in a smile that’s covered by your hand, as you barely nod your dazed head.

You’re so lost in the fantasy of you and Joel finally being able to end the long-awaited game of flirting, that you’re really not even mentally here as Maria and Tommy do their farewells and Ellie tells you two that she’s gonna head over to Dina’s for the evening. It feels almost like a dream kind of state, you haven’t drank like this in god knows how many years, and you really only had three glasses of wine - but you feel like you drank a whole bottle to yourself, so you’re drunk, basically, but not in a sloppy way, just with newfound confidence.

—

Now it’s only you and Joel, just the two of you alone in this huge house, and anything could happen. As you stand in the living room a few feet away from his muscular build, you slowly make your way to the staircase, and Joel then shuts the big door behind Ellie, then locks it, twice.

Joel turns around to face you, your hand now wrapping around the brown railing that leads to the second floor. He has this smirk on his lips that shows you he’s as riled up as you are.

Feeling a bit of confidence rise in your belly, you sing to him, “Catch me if you can, Miller,” and as you start to run up the hardwood steps, only a second later, you hear him chuckle, ooh just wait, and the sound of his quick feet behind you. Normally this would terrify you, but this is different, you’re not even close to feeling scared, you actually feel excited.

You’re feeling kind of frisky too, so you decide to be a little extra; you reach the door that leads to Joel’s room at the end of the hallway and you quickly spin around to face him as he reaches the top of the steps. You strip off your flannel and undershirt, then slip the flannel back on with only your black lace bra showing. Might as well make this more fun, right?

As he sees you showing off for him, he whistles and slowly struts towards you, “My, my, darlin’,” then gently wraps his fingers around your waist and presses into your plush skin, his bearded face close to your lips, “You sure know how to put on a show.”

You gaze at his eyes, his nose and his jaw, and when you see the way he adores you, a feeling stirs in your core that you can’t place, almost like a sense of hope. But you really don’t have a clue, you can’t place it, and it scares you, but for right now you push it out of sight and out of mind because you really want this. And, well, let’s be honest - you need this.

“I thought you might deserve it,” you purr back to him as you stare into his eyes, the ones that hooked you the first time you met him, and your hand rests on his chest. The next thing you know, you feel his soft lips on yours, the scratch from his beard riling you up even more, making you kiss him back with lust.

His tongue peeks out in search for permission and you eagerly open your mouth for him to lick every inch of you, his hands still on your hips but with a tighter grip, pulling you closer to grind on his hardening cock. Your hands are now grabbing his green flannel on his chest, your fingertips beginning to dig into his broad chest, both of you groaning into each other.

Somehow Joel gets his door open and you almost fall backwards into the warmth of his room, but he’s quick to catch you. “Good catch, Miller,” you chuckle as he brings you back into his chest and you begin to unbutton his shirt as he softly shuts the door behind him. He smiles as he says, “Would never let you fall, darlin’.”

Then, like a light switch flipping on, this overwhelming feeling of needing to be in control takes over, one you’ve never been able to have before in the bedroom, and you’ll be damned if that’s going to continue - this is happening on your terms only.

You swiftly spin your two bodies around, meshed together, your fingers reaching his bottom button, and when you undo it, you slide the flannel off of his shoulders and he lets it drop to the floor. Both of you pause for a moment to take in each other, and you watch his brooding chest rise and fall with his breaths, the drops of sweat that roll down his neck, and you eye his happy trail on his belly. God damn.

“You are absolutely gorgeous, sugar,” he murmurs softly as he lowers his lips to your neck and leaves a trail of kisses up to your pleading lips.

Your hands naturally move back to his chest, applying pressure for him to walk backwards to the queen size bed, his hands moving from your waist down to your jeans as he unbuttons them and rolls the zipper down. The feeling of Joel stopping his moving feet makes you realize that you’ve reached the mattress. “Sit on the bed,” you demand between moans and kisses.

“Yes, ma’am.” You can feel his smile on your plump lips as he leaves one last meaningful kiss, then sits down at the edge of the white comforter covering the bed, his legs spread open for you to stand between.

Even though you haven’t had satisfying sex, or gotten off at all in over ten years, not even by your own devices, the routine of it all has come back, almost like it never left you. You slowly strip yourself of your light washed jeans and discard them somewhere on his carpeted floor. Shit, you hear Joel whistle at the sight of you.

You bring your head back up to meet his gaze and you growl, “Back up to the pillows, take your jeans off first.”

“Gotta say, darlin’-” he starts sliding his jeans off and starts to move to the head of the bed, “I like you in control.”

You smile at his words and think, I do too. The image of him in front of you with his legs spread and his arms folded behind his head, just waiting for you to make your first move, makes you crave him ever more. You start to crawl on the bed towards him, your face is now above his black boxers that show an imprint of his cock.

God damn. You knew he was big, but not that big.

You continue to move up his body, along his belly and his chest, moving in rhythm with each other, and his face, his breathtaking features that you love so much. Your hands come up to wrap around the back of his neck as you sit on your knees on either side of his thighs, and your panty covered folds sit on his throbbing member, his large hands holding your ass as you start to slowly rock back and forth.

You’re so pent up that you could likely orgasm just from this, but you want to feel him fill you up and claim you as his own. No, you want to claim him - make him crumble apart for you, and only you.

The mixture of moans and groans from the both of you echo off of the bedroom walls, neither one of you trying to be quiet, not even the slightest.

“Fuck, sugar, keep doing that,” he groans as he watches the way your hips grind on his cock with such ease.

Your fingers wrap around his soft curls and firmly pull to make him look you in the eyes as you bring your lips to his in a fiery kiss. Your tongues battle for dominance for a moment before he finally gives in to you, the pressure from his fingers digging into the skin of your ass, causing goosebumps to rise all over.

With your right hand, you release the hold of his curls and you bring it down where your two bodies connect as you start to rub slow circles on your aching clit, causing your body to shudder from the motion. Your lips quiver against his and you see that cocky smile appear on his face again, “I gotchu sugar, not going anywhere.” His voice is low as he brings one of his hands down to replace yours, as he moves your panties to the side and starts to swipe through your soaked folds.

Your hips buck from the sensation of Joel’s thick fingers teasing your leaking hole and your throbbing clit, begging for attention. You feel his middle and ring finger slightly push into you, then release and go back to rub a few circles, and back in again. Each time he goes back to your hole, his fingers reach deeper inside you, creating this new feeling inside you.

A string of yes, don’t stop, and right there, roll off of your tongue from his fingers now fully inserted in your pulsating cunt as he continues to pump up and down.

Your head is in his shoulder as your hands have found their place back around his neck, your hips following the flow of Joel’s thick fingers.

“Look at you, pretty girl, sitting so pretty for me,” Joel coos into your ear, his other hand now on your hip as he continues to help your movements.

You start to feel the tightness grow in your lower belly, and you raise your head to look at him, at his beautiful brown eyes, as the overwhelming orgasm rips out of you. Your body stops moving as your mouth hangs open and a strung out moan leaves it, your forehead now resting on his, your eyes still meeting his gaze.

“There you go, let it all go, sugar,” he praises as he slowly pulls his fingers out of you and moves both his hands back to rest on your ass with a gentle squeeze.

Your ears are ringing, head feels dizzy, and your breathing is heavy from the intensity of the orgasm Joel has ripped out of you, almost like you’re a virgin again from how quick he pulled it out of you.

“Thank you,” you finally utter out between heavy breaths.

His face curls, “For what?”, and you chuckle as you pull your face away from his and lay your dazed head back onto his shoulder, burying your face in his neck. You softly say with a gentle tug of his silver and brown hair now damp from sweat, “For all this.”

You listen to the pattern of his rapid heartbeat as your head lifts and lowers with his hairy chest as he chuckles, “Oh darlin’, don’t gotta thank me for that.”

You hum in response with a stupid smile, pure pleasure flowing through you from head to toe, becoming so focused on his heartbeat that you don’t even notice how your eyes slowly start to close and your breathing calms down.

“You still there, pretty girl?” Joel asks, his voice causing your ears to vibrate.

Mhmm, you hum quieter than the one before, the scent of sweat, arousal, and the mix of you and Joel fills your nose as you slowly slip into a calming deep sleep.

—

Pancakes - the familiar smell wakes you up. You yawn as your hands come to rub your eyes and your legs stretch out underneath the thin gray sheet that’s covering you. You slowly push your heavy feeling body up so you can sit, and when you do, you realize you’re alone - just you half naked, in Joel’s bedroom.

What time is it? You mumble to yourself as you turn your head to look at his nightstand, eleven-thirty am, not too bad. You’ve got to be at the stables in about an hour, and you wish you had a bit more time to get ready, but oh well.

A sudden soreness shoots from between your legs as you stand up from the bed. That’s right - you and Joel slept together. Or, actually, he just fingered you, but still-

Oh god, you start to genuinely panic, he never got anything in return, he’s gonna be pissed. Even after growing out of your battered self, you are right back in it, that horrified feeling growing in your stomach and mind all over again. Your mind starts to become overwhelmed by the questions you’re asking yourself, questions that shouldn’t even be on your mind.

Why did you do that? How do you end up in these situations all the time? Why couldn’t you just give him a blowjob or something? God, why do you always have to mess it up?

The soft knocking on the door to the hallway startles you, so you quickly grab your jeans on the carpet and spring into the bathroom and quietly shut the door.

“Darlin’?” You hear Joel’s southern voice question into the now empty bedroom. “I’m in the bathroom,” you chirp out as you pull your jeans up and button them.

“Everything okay?” He must’ve heard the tension in your voice, though you tried your best to hide it, unsure of how he feels about last night.

“Yeah, why wouldn’t it be?” You respond a bit more defensive than you wanted.

“Was just askin, but I wanted to let you know that breakfast is ready for you downstairs.”

“Thank you, baby, I’ll be down in a minute.”

You hope that you’re convincing enough for him because you just want to be left alone to think for a second. You hear him sigh, alright, sugar, followed by the click of the door shutting, and now it’s your turn to sigh as you stare at your reflection in the long mirror in front of you.

Your PTSD brain has kicked into full gear, realizing that this is exactly how it started with Nate. Your first time with him was all focused on you, and he said it was okay at the time, and even made breakfast, pancakes, just for you the next morning. But then, the next time you wanted to have sex, he had no regard for you at all - you became his personal rag doll, for him to please himself whenever, however he wanted.

It’s starting to become a sick, repetitive cycle that for some reason just keeps happening to you. Your hands grip the granite counter and you start to rock back and forth, how could you be so stupid? You bend your knees and put your forehead on the edge of the counter next to your hands and you start to cry and cry.

—

You eat breakfast in silence, and even though Joel and Ellie keep trying to engage you in their conversation, you just stare at your plate and try to eat whatever your stomach allows.

After about ten minutes of mindlessly playing with your pancakes and not paying any mind to the conversation the other two were having, you abruptly stand up and gently put your dishes on the counter next to the sink.

“I’m heading next door to grab a couple things, then I’m going to the stables,” you say flatly, and before either one of them can say anything back to you, you’re out the kitchen, through the living room, snagging your bow and arrows that are hanging up, and heading out the front door.

I gotta get out of here.

You enter your old home and you're on autopilot again, your feelings turned off, thinking you’d be hyperventilating if you set foot in here again, but now, you’re not you anymore.

After making sure you locked the door behind you, so no one can barge in asking any questions, especially Joel, you run upstairs to your bedroom you once dreaded walking into. As you push the still broken door open, and you’re not shocked to see it’s in the exact same disaster the night you escaped. He’s such a pig, hasn’t cleaned up in over a year.

You take a deep breath in and out through your nose as you walk in and go immediately to your closet, then grab your dark blue travel backpack you had while you were on your own, and you start to fill the bottom with random clothes that are on your closet floor.

After you feel like you’ve packed enough, you head back downstairs to the kitchen and you start to raid whatever is left in the cupboards, finding cans of random foods that you stuff into the bag.

Lastly, you speed walk over to the front hallway closet and as you swing it open to grab the warm blanket on the top self when you hear rapid knocking and you freeze.

“Please, let me in darlin’.”

Knew it, you mumble as you shove the blanket in the top of the bag and zip it up, you then softly close the closet door and tiptoe to the kitchen, still out of sight of the front door, but another round of knocks happen and they’re louder, followed by the sound of Joel pleading your name, “I just wanna talk.”

You stop at the sound of your name flowing out his mouth with such concern and perfect ease, almost like your name was meant to roll off of his tongue, but you shake those feelings away. You continue to sneakily go out the backdoor, so you don’t have to confront Joel. You just can’t handle it, you know it would be your last straw.

After you shut the backdoor, with your backpack on along with your bow and arrow holder, you sprint between yards to the shortcut path to reach the stables, gotta grab Dougie, your horse you named after your father who passed three years before your mom got with Roy.

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You sneak past the grocery store, not wanting to be seen by anyone who might ask questions about you having your backpack. You’re still on autopilot at this point, you just want to escape from the suffocating feeling of Jackson and its residents, needing time to really think about what’s going on with yourself.

It’s a little bit past twelve-thirty so Main Street isn’t too busy, most people out doing their jobs or going to the Tipsy Bison or Kenny’s Burgers for their lunch break. Now is the perfect time for you to jump the fence on the other side of the stables and grab Dougie, which you achieve with no problems, thank god.

However, your next difficult task is to come up with an excuse to let Vince, who’s in charge of letting people come in and go out of Jackson, to let you out of here with limited questions.

You’re on a time limit because at any given moment, Joel or Ellie will be here knocking on the barn doors, or they’ll do what you did and hop the fence to get in, and you wouldn’t be shocked if they did, because you know they care about you. So you quickly run over to your beautiful dark brown horse, who huffs as you pet his long face. Hi dad, you sigh, we’re gonna go on a little trip okay?

You unhook his reins and walk him over to the fenced in area, then open up the wooden gate and lead him out as you shut the gate to make it seem like nothing has changed. You finally mount Dougie and do a slight pull on the brown leather rein to tell him it’s time you go, just say Tommy’s okay with this and that Joel is coming after you later.

Thankfully the stables aren’t too far from the massive gate separating the infected from the living so you’re there in seconds, and just like you expected, Vince starts asking questions, but with genuine concern on why you’re going out.

“I’m just going out for a bit, want to take Dougie out for a ride,” you yell up to him as you put your hand above your eyes to shield the gleaming sun.

“By yourself?”

“Tommy is cool with it, and Joel will be coming after me later. I’ll be okay, Vince, I promise.” You nod and smile trying to convince him that this is okay.

He hesitates for a second, your anxiety starting to affect your limbs, your legs slightly shaking in the stirrups. You’re biting your bottom lip and your hands are starting to become clammy and sweaty. Vince, c’monnn.

“I’ll be back with Joel in a couple hours.” You yell at one last attempt to make him open the gates.

“Um, okay. Just … Please be safe by yourself.” He forces a smile, “Open Her Up!” He yells to the guy across from him.

“Thank you, Vince!” You yell up to him as you blow up a kiss to him, and just like that, you and Dougie are off on your own, running into the beautiful wooded land, with no real plan on what you’re doing out here.

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You’ve been gone for just under a month, after you left Jackson, Dougie took off with you into the woods for a couple miles without stopping until you inevitably had to because the sun went down. You stopped and stayed one night at the same Motel 6 that Nate and Tommy found you in decades ago, and the next day you and Dougie went another couple miles until you found this beautiful little cabin surrounded by dandelions flooding the massive yard in front.

It was perfect for what you needed, a quiet and secluded spot for you to really explore and understand your mind and your emotions.

The two days you had been out, you only ran into just around a dozen runners and clickers, which was a piece of cake for you, and in all honesty, it was therapeutic to be able to really be you for a change.

You haven’t been outside in the real world in years and a part of you deeply misses the independence you once had, along with the constant feeling of accomplishment you received from taking down infected, or people if necessary.

The sun is just beginning to set, the sky a beautiful dark orange with a hint of bright pink hue that meshes perfectly together, and you’re sitting on the front porch on the singular brown rocking chair, ironically all very similar to yours in Jackson. You have a glass of lemonade in your hand as you gaze at the sky, and somehow, the drink is not as good as when Joel makes it for you. What is his secret?

This getaway was supposed to be healing for you, and it really has been overall, however, there’s a piece of your heart that deeply misses Ellie and Joel. This was supposed to be a way for you to make a decision as to whether Joel is exactly like Nate, with the manipulation tactics, or if he’s actually nothing like him.

Your brain knows that Joel is nothing like Nate, the complete opposite actually, however even after a year of excluding Nate as a person, you’re still in fight or flight mode. You are simply not as healed as you thought you were, and that’s okay, but you gotta find something to help you cope through it, you can’t just push it to the back burner.

You glance over to your right and you see Dougie grazing on some tall grass just a about a yard away from you, a soft smile warming your face as you stare at his beautiful brown hair and watch how he peacefully eats without a worry in the world - you wish that could be you, just a horse grazing without a care in the world, what a life.

You sigh as you bring your attention back to the summer sunset, the sound of crickets and birds chirping rings through your ears. You inhale and the smell of fresh flowers and the warm summer air overtake your senses, you lean back in the chair and bring your feet up on the seat as it slowly rocks your body back and forth.

The glass of tasteless lemonade sits on the small round wooden table in front of you and you stare at it, the condensation on the outside of the tall glass pools down around the bottom and creates a dark ring on the table. Why couldn’t you just stay with Joel?

As you continue to stare at the glass, a shadow starts to appear on the other side, you quickly stand up and grab your bow and arrow that’s on the floor next to you. Without any hesitation you grab an arrow and draw your bow back, the string taught against your cheek as you aim the slim arrow at the person riding a lighter brown horse, no way, you think.

The person riding this beautiful horse is about twenty-five feet away from you now, and as you try to make out the face of this mystery man, it finally registers, Joel.

This sense of relief overtakes your body, you drop your bow right at your feet and you stand there in absolute shock, how the hell did he find you all the way out here?

“Joel,” you gasp as hot tears roll down your face.

Before you know it, you watch as Joel jumps off his horse and runs to you, when he finally reaches your shaking body he wraps his large hands around your torso and picks you up like a feather, and he spins you around.

Oh my pretty girl, babygirl, I thought I lost you forever, and what are you doing all the way out here? Spews out of Joel’s mouth, you latch your arms and legs around his thick body as you continue to sob into his neck.

“I’m so sorry.” You repeat over and over.

Shhh, it’s okay, baby girl, he softly repeats back to you, I gotchu now.

The two of you hold onto each other like that for a long time. You don’t know why you ever left Jackson, you don’t know why you left Ellie, and finally, you have no idea why you left Joel. All you do know is that you’ll never leave Joel ever again. Not by your own choice, anyway.

Tags: @evyiione @oscarissac2099 @southernbe @pedrosfanny

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galvanizedfriend · 2 months ago

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do you recommend watching The Originals?

Nonnie, you're out with the tough questions 😂

I've been here thinking about this for a few minutes. The answer is... depends? lol I know some people who really like The Originals, so it's hard to say that you should or shouldn't watch it. It really depends on what kind of thing you're looking for and where do you draw a line.

Personally, I have a lot of issues with TO lol And back when it was still airing and I was watching it as the episodes came out, I abandoned it halfway through S3 because I got to a point where the very far and few good parts were no longer making it worth my while. A lot of people think S3 is the best season, I think it's by far the worst one lol So you see how it really depends.

But I do like it that I watched it in end, even though it took me a few years. It gives me authority that I know exactly what I'm talking about when I shit talk it lol also whenever people who can't stand the show have a canon-related question, they come to me because I watched it some 200 times so other people don't have to suffer through it, and I think that's beautiful 😂😂

Here's a simple pros vs cons list *in my opinion*: Pros: it's more Mikaelson screen time, so there's that. That are some plot lines that had potential, although almost none of them are well executed. Seasons 1 and 2 are actually kind of ok. S3 and 4 Klaus hair is 🤌🤌🤌 The WILD CURLS ERA! I'm a simple girl, you give me Klaus in tight Henley shirts with curly curls, I'm in. There are some great family moments scattered throughout the seasons, some really cool scenes that make you think 'wow, this could've been a great show' (right before you get pissed off that it wasn't). Daniel Sharman's Kol is, IMHO, the superior Kol (I don't like Nate Buzz's acting). Jomo really delivers as Klaus regardless the whole bullshittery around him and gets some great chances to just be a little shit, which I love. There are some great Klaroline moments (and not just in S5). And in spite of my overall feelings for TO, one of my favorite all-time TVDverse characters is from there: Vincent Griffith. I love him to bits. I also really like Marcel, even though he becomes a glorified extra after S1, and Jackson. Also, if you're really into werewolves, this is really the show where they get any screen time. I'm not saying it's good, but at least it's there (and no, Klaus never turns into a wolf, it makes no sense).

Cons: Really bad, inconsistent writing. Some seasons have storylines that just die out of nowhere for no reason (*cough*season 3*cough*). The whole premise of the show is insane (there was absolutely no need for Hope when Marcel is right there). The crossovers with TVD are very poorly done and very glaring opportunities go unexplored (like at the end of S1). Rebekah drops out pretty soon into the show. Elijah changes personality at least once every season to the point where, by the end of the show, they just retcon him completely. The finale is RIDICULOUS. Season 4 was written by someone on a wild acid trip, season 5 is really not worth your time AT ALL (except for the Klaroline moments). Female characters are very badly treated (pretty standard in the TVDverse, but anyway). Klamille is a thing, although, as with everything else, it's so badly done it's only marginally there. There are a lot of retcons and rewritings of the show's own mythology, which is annoying. And it's just... Bad. I don't know what to say, it just never lived up to the hype of what a show about the Original family could've been or what TVD had been at its peak. It's never, ever even remotely as good as TVD was around S2-3, not even at its best moments.

Those are my personal opinions, anyway. I'm sure others might feel different, but each to their own. It's really about you considering whether or not that's something you might enjoy or if it will at least be worth your time. Maybe start it and see how you feel? Worst case scenario, at least you get to see more of Klaus prancing around New Orleans.

Also, the first episode of TO is different from the backdoor pilot in TVD. That's more of a Klaus POV one, while the one in TO is more an Elijah POV.

hope my TED Talk helps you! 😂

#yokan answers #anon #can you tell i have OPINIONS #lol

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pedrotonin · 1 year ago

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B R I N G T H E W H I S K E Y

Summary: Joel catches you stealing from his brother. He ensures the punishment fits the crime.

Pairing: Joel Miller x F!reader

Rating: R

Warnings: Minors DNI! 18+ Joel is not a nice person. Smut.

Word count: 1200+

You arrived at Jackson only a few days ago. A group of men on horses scared the living shit out of you while you were hunting for some much needed food. You tried to hide, but they found you, or rather their dog did. It growled and barked, and you had no choice but to show yourself. They'd screamed and pointed their guns at you and threatened to let the dog attack. While you cowered in front of them, thinking your last minute on this godforsaken planet had finally arrived. It hadn't. Once they made sure you weren't infected, they brought you over to their settlement. They took your gun and knife, but you got to keep the rest of your belongings.

A guy named Tommy told you you were welcome to stay, but also free to leave. That was after they held you hostage in a prison like building for a couple of days. Wanting to make sure nobody would come for you. Nobody did, so Tommy took you under his wing. He said he was going to get you your own house, but until then, you were welcome to stay in one of his spare bedrooms. That's where you were currently sitting on the bed, looking at raindrops cascading down the window.

Tommy and his wife had been really kind to you. They'd not only let you stay at their house, but also shared their food and clothes with you. It was nice. They were nice. But you didn't like being here. Actually, you hated it.

You hated people in general. Being let down so many times in your life, you trusted no one anymore. Not easily anyway. That's why you lied when you told them your name.

Jacky. That's what you came up with. It popped in your brain while you were ogling their whiskey collection. Some of it original and some home brewed. You had a couple of good night sleeps and a full stomach, so it was time to leave.

You would wait until midnight and then sneak out. Taking an original bottle of Jack Daniels with you.

When they retire for the night, you wait an hour before you sneak out the front door. Goodbye Jackson.

You hear the soft snorting sound of horses coming from the stables. Horses, how could you forget. You'd steal one of those as well.

You slink towards the stables as quietly as possible. Inside, you grab a saddle and throw it on the first horse that comes into view.

The sound of a trigger being pulled freezes you, and you feel the cold metal of the gun against the back of your head.

"The fuck you think you're doin'."

A deep, male voice, just behind you.

You don't immediately answer him, and he pushes the gun harder against your head.

"Fuckin' answer me!"

You raise your hands and slowly turn around. He is tall, and very, very angry.

"You're that kid living with Tommy," he states.

"I'm not a kid, old man. I'm fucking 25 years old," you hiss. Earning you a backhanded slap across the face.

"Give me the bag," he snarls.

You don't.

"Give.me.the.fucking.bag" he punctuates each word while taking a step towards you. Jezus, is he going to kill you?

You hand it over, and he opens it. Pulling the bottle of Jack Daniels out. Raising his eyebrows.

"What's this? You fuckin' stole this from my brother?"

Brother? Interesting.

His hand curls around your throat. Walking you backward until your back hits the wall. Then he forcefully turns you around, putting your arms behind your back, holding them with just one of his hands. The other pushes your face against the cold, wet wood.

"Ouch, you son of a bitch!" you howl. The sharp wood poking into your cheek.

"You're going to pay for this," he hisses in your ear. "They hung people for less around here."

"No. No! Take the booze! I will leave this place and you'll never see me again! I'll do anything, please!"

He stays quiet for a second. You can feel his large body hovering behind you.

"Anythin' darlin'?"

What? What is he playing at. Well, you sure as hell aren't getting yourself killed over a bottle of whiskey. So yes:

"Anything."

He smirks. His hand leaves your face to tangle in your hair, and he pulls. Hard. Your head snaps to the side.

He kicks your feet apart and moves your arms above your head. He steps closer and nudges his thigh between your legs.

"Be careful what you wish for," he breathes in your ear. You can't help yourself, you outright moan.

"You like being manhandled like this, sugar? Just my luck."

He presses his whole body against your back, pushing his hard cock against your ass.

"Feel that?"

You lower yourself on his thigh a bit more and start grinding it. Hell, it's been so long.

"Fuckin' slut," he whispers.

His hand opens the button of your jeans and he reaches inside to cup your pussy through your underwear. Finding you wet. He tuts.

"If you run, I'll kill you." He lets go of your arms and grabs your shoulders to turn you around.

You take a better look at him. His mustache and beard are streaked with grey. His hair is curly, also greying. Eyes brown, dark, filled with anger and lust. He's much older than you, but handsome. Tall, strong.

"On your knees."

You do as you're told. He opens his jeans and pulls his cock out. It slaps against your chin. Christ, he's big.

You open your mouth and stick your tongue out and he wastes absolutely no time, putting his leaking cock inside. You close your lips around him and begin to suck him off.

He grabs your head and fucks your face. You choke and gasp for air. He lets you for a moment but then he pushes himself back inside, hitting your troat. Strings of saliva run down your chin and your eyes water while you struggle to breathe.

"Fuck!!" he moans and without warning he comes. Thick, white ropes of his cum hit your tongue and your troat. You swallow all of it.

You think he'll maybe let you leave now, but he's not finished with you yet. He pulls you to your feet and pushes you against the wall again. He rips your jeans and panties down and drops to his knees behind you.

"What are you d-"

His tongue licks a fat stripe over your dripping cunt. Words fail you, only a loud gasp escapes.

He grabs your thighs and burries his whole face between your legs. Eating you out like a man starved. Pushing one, two and even a third finger deep inside you. Fingering you hard and assaulting your clit with his tongue. It doesn't take very long until you feel your orgasm crash over you. You scream while your pussy contracts around his fingers. He takes them out of you and starts to lick them clean. Slurping as he does. Your eyes widen at the sight.

"I have a better idea," he says while he pulls your jeans up and puts his cock back inside his own.

"You come live at my place. I'll keep you safe and you keep my cock warm."

You stare at him. Is he for real?

"Bring the whiskey," he says as he walks out.

You smile and follow him. Yes, this could work.

#joel miller #joel miller fanfiction #joel miller fanfic #joel miller smut #joel miller the last of us #joel miller tlou #joel miller x female reader #joel miller x f!reader #pedro pascal

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docjacksons · 5 months ago

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In which I ramble about my ace spec Daniel Jackson headcanon

This post will be exactly what it says on the tin lol. This will be an unorganized post about some scenes with Daniel that strongly feel ace spec to me. This won’t be a well structured essay or anything. Before I get into that, I’ll share a little asexuality 101 info so you know what I’m talking about. If you already know this stuff, feel free to skip to below the read more.

So! Being on the ace spectrum means you experience little to no sexual attraction. Being asexual isn’t the same as being aromantic. Aromantic means you experience little to no *romantic* attraction. You can be aro and ace, but a lot of ace people aren’t. For instance, I’m grey-ace biromantic, which to me means I very rarely experience sexual attraction to real people but I’m romantically attracted to multiple genders.

I headcanon as Daniel being ace spec but not aromantic. I don’t think he’s heteroromantic either. I don’t have a label in mind beyond that that I’d give to him. But yeah, that’s the perspective I’m coming from in with my headcanon!

Here are some moments that stand out as particularly ace to me:

— When Daniel gets accidentally married to Sha’re in the movie and she starts undressing, he seems very flustered. However, he doesn’t come across as “awkward but turned on” to me. To me, his surprise reads more as someone who has no idea how to react in a sexual situation and, in fact, the situation might not entirely compute for him.

— There are a couple examples of someone expressing sexual attraction towards Daniel and him not seeming to understand this at all.

One example is in “Need,” where Shyla tells Daniel “You’re my destiny,” and he incredulously says, “ … What?”

Then there’s the scene in “Bounty” where the assassin lady pretends to be into him and says, “You’re very attractive,” and he’s once again very confused.

— Soooo many of his interactions with Vala read to me as an ace and allo person who are interested in each other but the allo person doesn’t understand that he doesn’t feel sexual attraction.

The main example that stands out in my mind is when Vala propositions Daniel in season 10 and he rebuffs her advances. She says, “Am I really so repulsive?”

I have not personally experienced this, but I’ve seen a lot of ace people online with allo partners describe times when the allo partner feels hurt that the ace person doesn’t sexually desire them, although the ace person has romantic feelings. That scene between Vala and Daniel *really* feels like that kind of situation to me.

Daniel does seem pretty shocked by that question and just goes, “No!”

I’m sure there are other ace Daniel moments I’m forgetting, but these are the ones that particularly stand out to me!

#daniel jackson #stargate sg1 #stargate 1994 #stargate sg 1 #stargate sg-1 #⭐️ eclipse talks

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tiltingheartand · 5 months ago

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i'm sorry; that's classified

what's classified, precious?

a lot of things actually!

that's the working title (i ... will not be using it, i just hate coming up with titles so that's how it's saved) for the fic this snippet from several sentence sunday is from.

i suffer from a Terminal Case of “what if this character i just met who has a military background was on a gate team?” (… note, for those reading this who do not know what that means: this is a stargate reference.) part of this is the fact that eliot spencer quite literally would have been on one in canon if the sets had still been around, but also it is a symptom of my incurable Let’s Cross Everything Over With Everything Else problem. so. anyway.

the original version of this idea, before tommy kinard waltzed back into all of our lives, was going to have eddie be the one to have been on a gate team (and, i think, have that possibly have been one of the reasons he reenlisted? i can’t actually remember now), and that would have required so. much. timeline fuckery. and like, yes, the 911 canon timeline is very much doing the Jeremy Bearimy thing anyway, but i would’ve had to start screwing with the sg-1 timeline too and that was. a lot.

whereas tommy kinard, the man that he is, slots into the sg-1 timeline perfectly without any fuckery required; whenever anyone thinks he was actually in the army, we have a Hard Date of when he was in LA at the 118 — 2005 — and that is exactly when it needs to be to not require me to start moving things around in the sg-1 timeline.

ANYWAY. jesus goddamn christ. all of which is to say, this is the fic where jack o’neill and daniel jackson are in LA and get embroiled in some traffic Incident (i’ve rambled and/or bounced ideas for this and the original version off of @wilddragonflying and i’m fairly sure goats are involved) that the 118 rescues them from.

and then a few days later they swing by the firehouse just to say thank you, again, and tommy’s there specifically to pick up buck (and say hi to everyone while he’s at it), and then tommy goes downstairs and sees jack and daniel at the same time they see him, and it’s. A Moment. because a) they all know each other from something so fucking classified that in-universe the president of the country doesn’t even hear about it until after he’s been sworn in, and b) they all knew each other when DADT was in effect. different goddamn world.

so tommy’s acting weirdly distant and buck can’t figure out why, and then it comes up that jack and daniel are married (the 118 already all know, because it came up the other day, but why would tommy know), and — this is the snippet that i posted in the link above — there’s a weird semi-standoff until they all realize Hey, We’re All Okay Here.

(ask me about any of my WIPs, if you’d like!)

#ask meme #asks answered #911 #stargate #stargate sg1 #evan buckley #tommy kinard #bucktommy #daniel jackson #jack o'neill #jack/daniel #my fic lives here #… this may have been somewhat more than necessary. uh. sorry?

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the-bi-space-ace · 1 year ago

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Daniel Jackson & Why Stargate SG-1 is the Best Show in the World

Here we go again. Listen, my obsession with this show knows no bounds and I’m going to simply have to take you through my thoughts on every character.

Strap in. It gets long.

Daniel Jackson. Linguist and ancient aliens believer (Daniel. It really is your worst quality. Even worse that YOU WERE RIGHT HOLY MOLY) and he figured out how to dial the Stargate and get it to work. A character known for his intelligence and empathy, his moral compass and being petty as fuck. A man who pushes those around him to be better people, and to think outside of themselves. Also he has allergies which plays into a very cute intro to his character in the show where Jack literally tosses a tissue box into the Stargate to make contact with Jackson. Let’s get into it.

We open season one with the SGC traveling back to Abydos where they left Daniel Jackson in the og movie after disaster struck (that disaster you may ask??? ….. I have no clue I haven’t watched it yet BUT I DIGRESS). There’s a problem. Aliens came through the Stargate and took one of their own. They need to talk to Daniel, to the Abydonians, and what follows is unfortunate.

You see, they defeated Ra in the movie, a parasite pretending to be a god, and thought they were done with this villain. Unfortunately they’re facing a new one, same shit different name: Apophis - brother of Ra. And it turns out they aren’t finished with stealing and enslaving people. Now, the genre of villain they’re against is swift, cunning, technologically advanced, and ruthless. The Goa’uld. They attack Abydos and take a young boy named Skaara and Sha’re, Daniel’s wife, captive along with the SG team member.

Ugh. Sha’re. Daniel is so sweet to her. They’re so clearly in love. Daniel Jackson has my favorite quality in a man which is that one of his primary personality traits is that he loves his wife. Ugh. It kills me that the Goa’uld took her away and he spends the next few years desperately tracking her down. The Goa’uld end up possessing both Sha’re and Skaara and it leads to Daniel Jackson rejoining the SGC and joining Jack O’Neill and Sam in SG-1.

It’s important to note a few things about Daniel here that inform me about why he is the way that he is. He was orphaned as a child, he lost his wife whom he loved very much, and he is extremely empathetic. He basically imprints on every being he comes across that doesn’t have a family and that kills me. He’s desperate for connection and he tries to understand the motives and meaning behind everything. He cares about people. He cares about culture. He cares about respecting things you don’t understand.

While we’re on the subject of imprinting, let's talk about Daniel and his friendships. We’ll start with Sam and Daniel. True science besties. I love every interaction between these two. It's like they found their platonic soulmate that they’ve spent their lives looking for. They info dump with each other, bask in each other’s intelligence and value it even when they have zero clue what the other is on about. Their friendship is pure and quick and beautiful and I can’t talk about Daniel without touching on how he quickly latches onto his friends and makes them important and how it makes his life fuller to have them. He does the same with Jack. They clearly care deeply for each other and Daniel finds a safe space in Jack. A space where he can push and be angry and ask questions and share how he feels and never receive rejection from Jack. Yes, they fight and argue and disagree but it is (typically) a safe disagreement where they’ll mend anything they hurt. Then there’s Teal’c. Teal’c, the man who is… kind of responsible for taking Sha’re from him. A man that Daniel wants to hate but can’t. Because Teal’c is a changed man. A man who had little choice. A man who Daniel has come to recognize as a friend and ally. This. This is big for Daniel.

Imagine. Your wife is taken from you. The man responsible for choosing her to take is now saying he is going to help you defeat your enemies. He lives on earth with you. He is treated as an honorable man and warrior. He is part of your team. Your everyday life. And you forgive him. You forgive because it’s the right thing. You forgive because you know it’s not his fault. You forgive because your heart is big enough to do so. To not assign blame where it’s unfair. That is Daniel Jackson. That is who he is. And fuck do I admire this in him. If it were my partner taken, life stolen from them, parasites taken over their body and using them to harm people. If I had to look at the man who chose her every day I might not be so forgiving. I might not have it in me to see a difference. This quality is something I admire because it is something that would be excruciating for me.

Speaking of excruciating things: watching Daniel’s face when someone he loves is in danger is like getting stabbed through the heart. One of the moments that sticks out in my mind is when Jack and Teal’c are trapped on a submarine that is being overrun by Replicators. Their only hope at not letting these bastards take over the earth is to blow it up, with both of them on it. Jack tells them to prepare to do it and Daniel is immediately against it. Jack takes his helmet off so he can hold the camera up so Daniel can see his face, can talk directly to him, and tells him to do it. When Daniel, in desperation, pushes again Jack reiterates that he does not want to die by the replicators. He doesn’t want his life to be over that way. Daniel has to let him and Teal’c go. Daniel eventually gives in but he refuses to look away while two of his friends die. (Spoiler alert is that they get saved at the last minute, thank fuck.)

We watch this despair each and every time one of his loved ones is in danger. We watch his expression, his heartbreak, his feelings of powerlessness. He’s desperately done everything he can to keep them safe. Daniel is not a soldier. He is an academic. He doesn’t have the training that the rest of them do. He hasn’t been taught how to handle battlefields and death and loss like they have. Watching his friends get hurt or die is so devastating for him. They are his family. Losing them is like losing everything he has left, especially since losing Sha’re and leaving everyone on Abydos. His heart holds all of them so dear.

We know he values his friendships, but what about the times he makes friends with beings from other planets? One of my favorite times is with an Unas who kidnaps him to sacrifice him. Now, Daniel spends a lot of time trying to communicate with this Unas. He shares food with him, talks, they play games. All while he’s being dragged through the wilderness to be slaughtered. He starts to understand the Unas, to learn that he has a connection with this one. Eventually this connection is what saves him in the end. Daniel even goes on a rescue mission to save this Unas when he gets captured in a later season.

Then we have Reese. Oh, Reese. I liked her. She was an android responsible for creating the Replicators, a dangerous villain in later seasons of SG-1. Daniel spends time bonding with her, learning about her, and figuring out why she made the Replicators. She was lonely. She spent her life being told she was ��made wrong’ and that she needed to be ‘fixed’. She was sad and emotionally uncontrolled. I’m about to be annoying about this but this is why Daniel bonds so well with her. She was lonely. She wanted friends. She wanted kinship. Daniel so desperately wants these things. He’s so lonely, has been since childhood. He sees himself in her. And when she dies he’s heartbroken. It’s the first time you hear him cuss at Jack, a line that will live in my head forever: You stupid son of a bitch. Now, Jack isn’t stupid. Daniel knows this. Daniel is angry. But Jack was just trying to protect him, doing the thing he does to show his love, and it was rejected. This moment stings. It stings because of the context. It stings because of when it happens. It stings because of what happens only a few episodes later.

Daniel dies. Daniel dies because of his empathy and action. He dies protecting people. He dies. And it’s heartbreaking. Watching everyone say goodbye to him is one of the most tear-inducing moments so far. (I cried for… a long time.) Teal’c honors him in a way culturally significant to him with tears in his eyes. A man that is usually stoic and a strong silent type letting himself mourn a friend he’s grown to love. Sam cries and reminds him that she loves him and she wishes she could do more for him. He can’t even respond to her at that point but she sits with him and takes in what little time they have left. And Jack, well, he makes a joke. He tries to be serious about it but it’s too uncomfortably close to talking outright about his feelings so he makes some joke about how Daniel has been a pain in his ass for five years and despite all of that he has grown to admire the man that Daniel has become. It’s so painfully Jack O’Neill that it’s charming and gets Daniel to smile. (CAVEAT Daniel is not like… dead dead… I’ve been informed that he returns and my sadness over it is only temporary since the character will be back soon… and yet I still cried for over an hour over him.)

The worst part is that there is a chance for him to be saved. But he stops them so he can ‘ascend’ and ‘do more’. And how does he stop them? Well, he talks to the one person he knows will respect his decision, the one person he knows will let him go, the one person he knows he can trust to have the responsibility to take care of it. Jack. He tells Jack to let him go, to make them stop, to let Daniel move on. And Jack, despondent and unhappy as he is to do it, does. It is horrible to watch. Daniel standing in front of Jack, crying, telling him he’ll miss everyone while Jack says ‘yeah. Me too.’ and lets Daniel go. Ugh. It kills me. He says at some point during the episode that his life is worth no more than anyone else’s. That he hasn’t done much. He’s not done enough to help. Oh boy. He’s so wrong. He’s so unbelievably wrong it hurts. He’s an idiot. Not enough? Daniel, sweetie, you’ve given your life to this. You’ve saved civilizations, saved earth, saved Skaara, what more do you need to know that you have done miraculous things? His low self esteem hurts me here. He doesn’t believe he’s done good, that he is good. How does a man who has given his life to this cause think so little of himself? Well, I think it stems back to his parents.

Goodness. I believe his parents loved him more than the moon and all the stars. I believe they raised that boy with attention and affection and love and care and it is a damn shame that they died. It’s a damn shame they died at the same time. It’s bullshit that Daniel watched it. He watched both of his parents die when he was around 10-12 years old. He became an orphan in an instant. He went from two loving parents to the foster system in seconds. Now, he didn’t have to go to the system. He had a grandfather that could have adopted him but the man didn’t. He had a career more important than Daniel. I wouldn’t make the same choice if it were me. Hell, this little baby lost everything in a day and he needed someone. He needed love. He needed a home that was familiar. And instead of taking on the responsibility, instead of working through his anger and helping him cope you left him. My sympathies lie with Daniel here because I love him so deeply so I get angry when I think about little Daniel having a family member that could take him and instead being given up because of… what? A career? Some things are more important. (Sidenote that I am not condemning people for prioritizing themselves instead of having children… I am not ever going to have children and that is completely of my own free will and choice and wants and needs. What I am saying is that Daniel’s grandfather chose to leave him for the sake of himself and I think this rejection is where Daniel’s low self esteem comes from.)

His grandfather’s rejection is the start in a long line of rejections. Rejection from his peers, rejection from superiors, rejection from society. He finally finds somewhere he feels he belongs (Abydos) and that is gone too. In the blink of an eye. He thinks he isn’t good enough. And I think that blows. (Another side note that I think Daniel has at least ADHD if not also Autism and since I have both of those things I get really fiery about Daniel so… I’M BIASED OKAY.) He spends the rest of his life searching for connection, community, love. Hell, he even tries to infodump to Jack in episode one and faces yet another rejection of his skills and interests and I can’t help but feel like that hurts. Now, Jack does this song and dance often throughout the show with Daniel but it starts to feel more like they’re purposefully winding each other up and not like Jack is trying to hurt him. But… a different post for a different day.

Now, I won’t lie. I am super drawn to characters like this. I had a huge crush on Milo from Atlantis as a kid and Daniel is very very close to that character in a lot of ways. The floppy hair, the glasses, the nerdiness, the excitable way he talks. So… I’m a little biased… but this character… this character rules. He’s sweet and kind and sometimes so petty it makes me laugh. He’s funny and charming and GOSH I JUST LOVE HIM OKAY. HE’S STUPID CUTE IT MAKES ME MAD. But. He has flaws. Flaws that make me like him even more but flaws nonetheless. He can be one track minded. He takes things into his own hands and puts himself in danger and puts his team in uncomfortable positions because of it. He lets his emotions get the better of him. He compartmentalizes by throwing his all into things like working and solving something. He’s a great man. But he’s confused and scared and has such low self-esteem it hurts.

His flaws are on full display when he puts himself in immediate danger to stop Jack from destroying a ship that is about to wipe out a civilization that they helped get a new home for. Daniel has talked to this person, knows that he can prevent two civilizations from being destroyed, but Jack is focused on helping the one they’ve already connected with. Daniel disobeys Jack’s order. He puts himself in the path of an explosive in order to convince the other person to cease unintentionally destroying the planet in order to find another solution. While Daniel does succeed and it is the right thing he still puts Jack in a situation where he has to choose to sacrifice Daniel if he is to complete their mission and save a whole group of people. It isn’t fair. It hurts Jack, pisses him off, but Daniel isn’t putting that piece of it as his top priority. He’s putting saving two whole civilizations of history, art, and passion as his top priority. He doesn’t think past the consequences of what he’s doing.

Another case like this is in season one, The Torment of Tantalus, where they find a device that contains information well beyond our wildest dreams. ‘Meaning of life stuff’ as he likes to say. He values this preservation of history and knowledge. Even more than his own life. His one track mindedness here almost gets him killed. Jack begs him to go, tries to force him, but Daniel refuses and again forces Jack to make the choice to leave him behind and get everyone else to safety. Now, Daniel does end up following and getting out of there but it does take him a little bit of time to come to the conclusion that he does have to leave. He can’t just give up his life to stay behind on a planet about to be destroyed by a storm.

I want to touch on his pettiness for a moment because it is damn entertaining to watch him get… petulant for lack of a better word. I have never seen a man more willing to mouth off to high ranking government officials or question his bosses or down right taunt someone holding him captive. He will say some stupid joke in the driest tone I’ve ever heard and all I’m thinking is: yep this is the day he gets punched in the face. This is it. They’re going to do it. This man does not know when to shut up. My dear, sweet boy sometimes you have to SHUT UP!!! Self preservation, Daniel! Ever heard of it?!?! By far the best part of his pettiness is the looks him and Sam share when someone says something stupid. Some high ranking officer saying something stupid or derogatory? Sam and Daniel are sharing a ‘do you hear this guy?’ look. Someone being a bit too mouthy for their liking? They’re side-eyeing each other. They are true best friends. Having silent conversations with one another while everyone else in the room argues. I love their very first meeting. Sam geeking out over the dialing device while Daniel watches her like ‘who is this and why is she literally the most amazing person I’ve ever met’. Them interacting that whole first episode is just the most beautiful thing I’ve ever seen. They are best friends, your honor. I cherish them.

Daniel, above all, is the definition of what it means to have a found family. His was taken from him and he spends his life finding a family again. The great thing is that he does find it. He finds it and he holds on so tight. I’m still working through the seasons of Stargate but Daniel is an interesting and beautiful character. He’s traumatized and sad but he’s also wonderfully complex and still learning.

If you haven’t watched Stargate consider this: the found family trope runs rampant here. There’s plenty of content to watch, plenty of relationships to explore, and plenty of things to be said about this show. Plus, you could write some damn good fic about it if you wanted to :)

#Daniel Jackson #Stargate sg1 #sg1 #Stargate spoilers #this show was released the year I was born #I am the age that Michael Shanks was when he did season one of Stargate SG-1 #just think about that for a second #also all the gifs of daniel are cute #i didn't even SCRATCH THE SURFACE OF THIS CHARACTER HOW IS IT 3000 WORDS LONG #anyway watch stargate sg-1 #i have a slight crush on daniel jackson shut up #i like them smart and opinionated #I could go into a whole other thing about how he's never afraid to push back but another post another day #this is already too long #ily ok bye #i have raging adhd #Stargate Analysis

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Fanfic Recs

Welcome to my fanfic recommendation list. Thank you to all the amazing tumblr writers out there.

Stories below feature either Pedro Pascal or Chris Evans characters. Most stories are sm*t with something extra so if you are under 18 please DO NOT read. There are a couple that are just fluff or adventure. Please follow the warnings or legend below. A lot of stories are also multi-chapter.

UPDATED AUGUST 11TH, 2024

Legend

⭐️ = Personal Favourite

🔥 = Spicy times ( please note number for how spicy )

⚔️ = Adventure

🥺 = Angst

💗 = Fluff

📚 = Multi chapter

⭐️ Special shoutout to @wheresarizona @softlyspector @psychedelic-ink @finnsbubblegum and @blueeyesatnight who have all written my favourite stories so far.

Jack Daniels

🔥 Afternoon Sun - psychedelic-ink - After a night of passion Jack takes care of his significant other. Soft, attentive, and so damn sexy.

Frankie Morales

🔥🔥🔥 Box Set - frannyzooey - Quite a few stories with Frankie. All are worth reading.

Pero Tovar

⭐️ 📌 🔥🔥⚔️⚔️💗💗💗📚 - The Cross - blueeyesatnight - I inhaled this story in one night. It is so good! Fans of Outlander and Doctor Who will love this. While on sabbatical in China. you're asked to do research on a mysterious box with weird engravings of monsters on the outside. You're not one for monsters. The museum questions what Spanish bronze would be doing in China? You agree to do research for them. You've heard tales of two mercenaries that were there over 1,000 years ago. You follow the last known trade route, but get lost in the mountains. No big deal. The fresh air is clearing your head. You pull out the box and look at it closer. It is a puzzle box! You push the mechanism and it opens.... transporting you to the past. Where are you? Or more importantly when? The answer becomes clear as two riders approach you. A timeless adventure that is less about logic and more about love.

📌 ⭐️ NEW 🔥🔥💗💗💗📚🎄 - Stranger At My Gate - leslie lyman - Magic and Christmas. Your a food blogger who has returned home for Christmas. You need inspiration for a new book which is due soon. There is a knock at the door and inspiration arrives in the form of a man. A man who is apparently out of time.

Joel Miller

🥺💗📚 To Do The Right Thing - pedgeittopascal - Reader is part of Joel and Tess's smuggling group. She and Joel are together when she becomes pregnant. They figure out what to do because the QZ is not a life for a newborn. A beautiful story of love and sacrifice. There is also a second part to this story being written.

⭐️ 🔥🔥🥺📚 Adjustments - softlyspector - The 1st Joel fanfic that I read so it has a special place in my heart. Jackson era. Joel and neighbour become close. Neighbour is dealing with stuff and Joel is attentive and protective because she’s part of his tribe. Soft, fluffy, and so beautifully written.

⭐️ 🔥🔥🔥💗🥺📚 September - wheresarizona - My favourite story. I’ve read it a few times. Joel and the reader Doc were building a life in Austin. They were separated on Outbreak day. 20 years later she finds him. The rest of the story is how they reconnect.

🔥📚 Mr. Miller's Birthday Gift - jksprincess10 - DBF! Joel and reader start a secret relationship. They celebrate her birthday and then his. The relationship doesn’t stay secret for long.

⭐️ 💗💗💗📚 Where It All Starts - finnsbubblegum - Single Dad Joel and neighbour become friends when she helps takes care of Sarah who is still a baby. Enjoy the fluffiness of this sweet story.

🔥🔥🔥🥺📚 A Future Together - kteague - Joel and Reader had a life in Austin with Sarah. Outbreak day happens. They do not get separated this time. It is now 20 years later and they are still together working as smugglers in the QZ. They are tasked with bringing Ellie to the Fireflies. Retelling of the game.

🔥 Pistol - cosmictheo - Reader is a ward for Bill and Frank. Frank is fun dad. Bill is grumpy dad. One day Joel and Tess show up just as a storm approaches. Joel and Tess are partners nothing more. Sparks between Joel and reader. He tries to do the right thing but can’t fight that feeling.

🥺💗 Call My Name - toxic-seduction - Set in 1x06. After Joel is stabbed you and Ellie bring him to an abandoned house to take care of the wound. Joel calls out name while on death's door. It isn't yours. Later he tries to explain what happened.

📌 NEW 🥺🥺🔥🔥 Trying Not To Love You - supernaturalgirl20 - You accidentally slip that you've fallen for Joel. He gives you the cold shoulder. When you go missing on a patrol he searches for you. He admits the idea of loving you scares him. Perfect mix of heat and angst.

📌 NEW 💗💗💗🥺📚 Looking For The Light - cowgurrl - A series of stories set within Jackson era. Joel and you are smugglers bringing Ellie to the fireflies. You both have lost a child during the Outbreak. Is it worth taking the risk again? Family fic. Joel being a girl dad. Mostly fluff with a pinch of angst.

📌 NEW 🥺🥺💗💗 - Put On A Brave Face - toxic-seduction - Reader is shot while on patrol with Joel. He's sorry he wasn't more aware. She's sorry that she put him though the angst. Comfort each other in the end.

📌 NEW 🔥🔥🔥 One Thing I'm Missing - joelscruff - Retelling of TLOU from 1x08 forward. Joel and Reader become a lot closer. Ellie makes sure that they have time together. It is hot and really cute at times.

📌 🌟 NEW 🔥🔥🔥📚🥺 Five Days - morallyinept - Set during Jackson Era. It has been 30 years and reader meets Joel again. 5 Days together at an Outpost as all hell breaks loose in the world again. Can the two of you rediscover love again? I inhaled this story. It is so worth reading.

Javier Peña

🔥🔥🔥 Carry out - soullumii - Javi and secretary are late working at the Embassy. She’s bratty towards him because she missed a date. He makes it up to her in a big way.

⭐️ 🔥🥺📚 Infections Of Another Kind - psychadelic-ink - Set after KC. Javi is part of the TLOU verse as a former FEDRA officer. Reader is a former Firefly who is disenchanted. The two of you meet and despite your differences make a life together. What happens though when the real world comes calling again? This story is brilliant. The crossover I never knew I needed.

⭐️ 🔥🔥🔥💗📚 Learning To Live - wheresarizona - Javi has returned to Texas after Columbia. He meets his love Cielito aka you at the supermarket. Sparks fly as you two build a life together. Simply put Javi deserves to have a happy life after all the shit he went through.

📌 NEW 🔥🔥🔥 Sin Without Limits - steviesgoldfish - Set during Los Pepes. You are Javier's other partner besides Steve. You're still new to the team. You quickly figure out that Javi is working both sides to help take down Escobar. You agree to work a heated UC mission to get the info needed to find La Quiqa.

📌 NEW 🔥🔥🔥 Let Me Love You - thetriumphantpanda - Javier Peña has been the bane of your existence since you arrived to work for the ambassador. When you find yourself at a loose end following an altercation in the street on your way home, Javier is the only person you could turn to which turns your evening into something you'd never dreamed of.

📌 NEW 🥺🥺🔥💗💗📚 Paperwork - blueeyesatnight - A series of one shots set during S2 and S3 of Narcos. Javi and the new secretary for Ambassador Noonan butt heads when she first arrives. Over time she comes to realize that he's one of the good guys.

Marcus Pike

🔥💗 Spring Fling - whataperfectwasteoftime - DILF! Marcus is in Washington when his estranged college age daughter Emma and you come to visit on vacation. Immediate sparks between you and Marcus. What happens though when you have to return back to Texas in a week? P.S. This writer has a lot of Marcus fanfics that are worth checking out.

📌 NEW 🔥🔥💗💗📚 Accidental Husband - supernaturalgirl20 - I'm a diehard Jisbon fan but I also love Marcus. This is post Teresa. Marcus gets his happy ending. Reader and Marcus had a few dates but broke up. The team conspires so they have to drive to her sister's wedding together. What happens when divine intervention and tequila are added to the mix? It is a match made in heaven.

Marcus Acacius

📌 ⭐️ NEW 🔥🔥🔥🥺🥺🥺⚔️📚 Against The Wind - studioghibell - You're the daughter of the Emperor himself. You've fallen in love with his most trusted General, Marcus Acacius. Your father refuses to let the relationship continue.

📌 NEW 🔥🔥🔥 Till Death - morallyinept - Marcus has a favourite slave girl who works in the baths. With an impending battle he lets himself feel everything this time as they become lovers. He vows to return to her.

Ari Levinson

🔥🔥🔥 Don’t Get Sad, Get Even - writing-for-marvel - You catch your boyfriend cheating at a party. You decide to get even with his roommate Ari. You discover that Ari is definitely the better catch.

🔥🔥🔥 After Hours - flordmatista - CEO!Ari and assistant go on what appears to be a business trip. Turns out Ari has other plans. P.S. All of her Ari fanfics are worth reading.

Andy Barber

🔥🔥🔥 A Butterfly will Fly - flordmatista - Dark!Andy and a ballet dancer. Slight bondage. Spicy and sweet.

🔥🔥🔥 Discipline Me - flordmatista - DILF! Andy. You’re staying overnight. End up meeting Andy in the kitchen. He teaches you how to stay quiet while he drives you wild.

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Flashback

Part Four

(Part One, Part Two and Part Three)

Author’s Notes – This is the final chapter, hope you enjoyed.

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Packing up his office wasn’t something he was looking forward to especially trying to separate what belonged to him and what belonged to the SGC.

“You’re really leaving?”

Daniel looked up to see Vala standing in the doorway, Mitchell just behind her.

“I was fired,” Daniel reminded them, “Wasn’t exactly my choice.”

“You didn’t fight it,” Mitchell noted.

Daniel let out a slight chuckle, “How could I fight it? This is the best-case scenario considering what I did to get fired.”

“Which is another thing I can’t believe you did,” Vala snapped.

Daniel looked at her, raising his eyebrow, “You mean saving my wife?”

“You told me that you didn’t go there to see her,” Vala reminded him.

“And I didn’t,” Daniel replied softly, “But I did see her, I talked to her, and I remembered all I lost when she was taken. I wanted her back and finally I had the way to do it. That was my entire reason for joining the SGC, to save her.”

Shaking her head, Vala noted, “So, to hell with the rest of us.”

Daniel sighed, “It’s not about you. Not about any of you. For the first time in my life, I decided to be selfish. I wanted my wife back and, finally, I had a way to do it. I’m sorry that it means I’m leaving SG1 but I’m not sorry I did it.”

Vala let out a noise of disgust and marched out.

“You should have talked to us,” Mitchell said, “We would have helped.”

“No, you would have tried to talk me out of it,” Daniel replied, “Or you would have come along, and we all would have been fired,” he titled his head in thought, “Well in your case court-martialled.”

Mitchell shrugged.

“Look,” Daniel said, “I gave a lot to this place. I have seen things that I never dreamed of, and I have made friends I never would have expected to. But Sha’re is my world, and I have her back. You don’t need me anyway.”

“That’s not true,” Mitchell insisted.

Smiling amused, Daniel replied, “Just because Vala likes to annoy me more than you. You’ll get used to that.”

“Hope Sha’re doesn’t mind visitors,” Mitchell told him, before offering his hand, “Dr Jackson.”

Daniel took his hand and shook it, “Colonel Mitchell.”

Sha’re looked up when the door to the room she was in burst open. While Daniel was clearing out his office, she had been taught how to use the computer so was learning about her new home.

“You’re ruining his life,” the dark-haired woman who burst in snapped, “This is his home and because of you, he has to leave.”

Standing to face the other woman she knew was a part of her husband’s now former team, Sha’re stated, “I did not ask Dan’iel to bring me back, I would never ask him to do that, but he did.”

“Vala,” Teal’c’s voice made them both turn to where he stood in the doorway, “Is there a problem?”

With an angry flip of her hair, Vala walked out without another word.

Sha’re looked at the man who had stolen her from her home, who had killed her yet who had protected her husband.

“Hello, Teal’c,” she said softly, “It is good to see you once more.”

He gently dipped his head, “And you. I hear you will be going to Washington as Daniel Jackson will now be working with O’Neill.”

Sha’re shrugged, “I know nothing of this world, one city is the same as another to learn about. As long as I am with Dan’iel then I will be happy.”

“If you require anything,” Teal’c told her, “I have been on Earth for some time and have learned to translate most of the Tauri’s quirks, I shall happily help you.”

Sha’re laughed, a rich joyous sound, “I appreciate that.”

“And do not mind Vala,” Teal’c told her, “She found a place here and a lot of that is due to Daniel Jackson. She cares a great deal for him.”

“Well, my Dan’iel is a kind and generous man,” Sha’re noted, “I understand that.”

Teal’c titled his head slightly before asking, “It is lunch time. Would you care to join me?”

Sha’re nodded, “Dan’iel is busy and, although he assured me that he would join me to eat, I know my husband when he is working.”

With a smile she followed him out of the room.

Daniel was surprised to find Sha’re sitting in the commissary with Teal’c. He’d headed to the room they were using, since she didn’t yet have permission to leave the base, to find it empty. He’d been sure he was on time for lunch.

“Should I be jealous?” Daniel asked as he walked over to the table.

Sha’re laughed, pulling him down to kiss him quickly, “Teal’c invited me for lunch, and I was not sure you would remember to come for me.”

“I’m a little insulted,” Daniel laughed.

“Or I know you very well, my love,” Sha’re teased.

Daniel chuckled, “You do. I forgot.”

“Are you joining us also?” she asked archly.

“Give me a minute,” Daniel said, he headed over to get a tray, glancing back watching Sha’re talk with Teal’c, and Daniel felt himself grin again. His face was actually hurting slightly from how much he’d smiled the past few days. Grabbing some food and a coffee, Daniel took his tray and sat beside his wife.

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Jack finished his call with his office, setting what would be needed for Daniel to join him. It was a job he’d had always hoped his friend would take, expecting it to be after another few years.

Leaning back in his seat, he remembered standing guard as Daniel sat in the wheelchair by Sha’re’s body. All the Gould’s make-up and jewellery had been removed, the wound to her chest covered by a sheet. Daniel’s face pale, the burn in the centre of his forehead bright and angry as he gazed at her whispering in what Jack assumed was her native language.

Now they were together, and Daniel was fully alive because of that. Sha’re was contentedly following her husband’s lead on where they were going to be living, from the conversations he’d had with her. Sha’re was aware of her people’s fate and appeared to be taking it, along with everything else, in her stride.

Jack remembered Sha’re as being quiet, and not much else. To be honest back on Abydos originally, he hadn’t really paid attention to her, although saddened when she’d been killed by the guard and glad to see Daniel did save her. Then when they went back, she was there but again not someone he was focussed on.

He only knew who she was through Daniel, who didn’t talk about her much but on occasion Jack could get him to open up – usually when he was on morphine.

It was interesting getting to see them as a couple. Sha’re clearly had Daniel wrapped around her finger, and he was more than happy about it. Jack remembered them on Abydos comfortable together, and they seemed to have instantly fallen into that pattern.

Stepping into the commissary he smiled to see the couple sitting talking with Teal’c. They were side by side, with barely any space between them and Jack watched Sha’re’s hand rest on Daniel’s leg as she leaned into him.

So many years had passed since Daniel had been forced to leave his home, so much pain, so many losses and finally his friend was getting to have his happy ending.

Sha’re was here and despite the time that had passed, they were still as in love with one another as they had been back then.

Jack hoped nothing spoiled this for them. Teal’c turned and saw Jack standing there, so he wandered over to join them.

“Hey,” Daniel grinned.

It was odd to see Daniel this happy, the last few years he’d seemed to be at peace with his life and smiled a lot more than he’d had since joining the SGC but there was still a tinge of sadness, the losses hidden behind it. Now though, Daniel was smiling fully, all because of the woman sitting at his side.

“Hey,” Jack slid into the seat beside Teal’c, “How’s the packing going?”

“Slow,” Daniel admitted with a shrug, “There is a lot to go through. What about your side?”

Jack shrugged, “Got an office set up, very close to mine so I can keep an eye on you.” Sha’re giggled as Daniel frowned.

“Apartment is sorted too,” Jack continued.

“Let me guess,” Daniel said amused, “Same building.”

Jack shrugged again, “Different floor.” At Daniel’s annoyance he demanded, “What? I thought you’d be happy to have a friend nearby after moving to a brand-new city.”

“I think it is nice,” Sha’re said, “That you will be close to us, Jack.”

Jack smirked at his friend, “See.”

“Sha’re just hasn’t had to put up with you much yet,” Daniel replied, “Doesn’t know how annoying you are.”

Sha’re smacked his arm, “Be nice.”

He leaned over and kissed her, “To you?”

“Okay, kids you’re in public,” Jack laughed before saying, “Daniel, Landry wants you to have your office cleared out by tomorrow. He needs this to be done as soon as possible.”

Daniel nodded solemnly, “I understand. It’ll be sad to leave here but,” he turned to Sha’re and smiled, “It’s for the best reason.”

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Daniel stood in his office for the final time, it was now cleared of everything he had accumulated in more than the decade he had worked here. Two arms wrapped around his waist from behind.

“If that’s Jack,” Daniel noted, “I’m going to be really disappointed.”

Sha’re laughed as he turned to her, “And now?”

“So happy,” Daniel kissed her, “Just…” he sighed, “Just this place was somewhere I spent a great deal of time. It was mine.”

“I wish I could do something to make this better,” Sha’re told him.

“You’re here,” Daniel reminded her, “That’s all I need. It’s just a new start. I’ve done it before.”

She rested against him, “I know, my love but it does not make this easier.”

“The thing is,” Daniel said, “When I chose to stay on Abydos, it was harder than this is. Then I wanted to stay with you, but I didn’t know if us being together would work. Now, I know we do, I know how much I love you, and I know we’re meant to be together.”

Sha’re stretched up and kissed him again, “Jack is waiting for you, are you ready?”

Nodding, Daniel took her hand, “I am.”

He murmured a soft goodbye to his office and the past before walking out with his wife to head to whatever came next.

Daniel stopped in surprise as they reached the elevator finding Ferretti, Mitchell, Teal’c and, surprisingly, Vala standing there with Jack.

“Making sure I leave?” Daniel asked with a slight smile.

Mitchell saluted, “Look after yourself, Dr Jackson.”

Daniel nodded and accepted the handshake from the other man, “You too.”

Ferretti grinned, “Kids, I will be visiting so keep beer in the fridge.”

“You are always welcome,” Sha’re told him.

“But call first,” Daniel added quickly with an amused smile, accepting the other man’s hand and laughing when Ferretti hugged him quickly before he kissed Sha’re’s cheek.

Teal’c said nothing, simply dipped his head and clasped Daniel’s hand who returned the gesture.

Daniel turned to the other woman standing there looking annoyed, “Vala.”

“They made me come,” she stated.

Resting his hand on her shoulder, Daniel said, “I’m sorry that you’re angry but this was something I needed to do. You know if you try, you might gain another friend.”

Vala frowned before she glanced at where Sha’re stood. Daniel held out his hand to his wife who joined him and gave Vala a smile.

“I would like to get to know you better,” Sha’re told the other woman, “My Dan’iel speaks highly of you.”

“He does?” Vala asked.

Sha’re nodded, “And you know that he does not do that of just anyone.”

Vala stared at her in silence for a few moments before saying, “Look after him. He gets into trouble very easily.”

“I know,” Sha’re laughed, squeezing Daniel’s hand when he looked affronted.

“And you look after her,” Vala told Daniel, “Or I will come after you.”

Daniel gave her a hug, “I promise.”

With a deep breath, Daniel took Sha’re’s hand again before turning to Jack. Surprise filled him to see Landry appear.

“Take care, Dr Jackson,” the other man said.

“Thank you, sir,” Daniel replied, “Take care of the place.”

With Sha’re’s hand in his and Jack at his side, Daniel stepped into the elevator leaving the SGC for the final time as a member of the base.

But with his wife in his life once more, Daniel had hope for the future and knew no matter what came next, he had Sha’re back and they had their life together to look forward to.

#stargate sg1 #fic #daniel jackson #sha're #daniel/sha're #jack o'neill

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she-karev · 6 months ago

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Playing Cupid (Japril Season 16 Imagine)

Previous Part Here

Age Rating: 12+

Chapters: Two of Two

Fandom: Grey’s Anatomy

Ship: Jackson Avery x April Kepner

Canon Episode: Season 16 Episode 20

AN: Here’s the chapter you guys I hope you like it and GIF’s I made specially for this story. Leave and like and reblog and tell me what you think.

Summary: Amber visits Jackson at the hospital where she is conflicted on whether or not to tell him about April’s separation from Matthew.

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Amber holds Harriet’s hand while they wait for the elevator to arrive on the first floor. The youngest Karev keeps a composed face despite the inner conflict going on in her head. April just told her half an hour ago that she and her current husband Matthew split up and made Amber promise not to tell Jackson before her. Amber would have happily done that without any issues if it wasn’t for all the times Jackson told her about his turmoil over his and April’s bad timing and not giving Harriet the family, they envisioned for themselves before they divorced.

She could see that it was not just about Harriet but about April too. Even if he denied it with Maggie, Amber knew him well enough to see that his love for April never went away. Maybe it was because she had Harriet or maybe because they had a love story that was too epic to forget. Either way Jackson was too good of a guy for her to keep this from him after everything he did for Amber in her time of need. On the other hand, Amber made a promise to April and she solemnly believes you’re only as good as your word. And holding the hand of their love child doesn’t help Amber’s strife at all.

“I should tell him, right?” Amber asks Harriet who looks up at her with inquisitive eyes in the mostly empty area, “I mean he’s my best friend not to mention my means of housing so if he finds out I kept this from him I’m out on the streets and your down one babysitter who gives you secret chocolate. Do you think your mom would be okay if I told him and broke my promise?”

“No.” Harriet says in a cute way that makes Amber smile despite her little sidekick not helping.

“No, I shouldn’t it’s none of my business…but your mommy made it my business when she told me.” Amber argues when the elevators finally arrive. They walk inside the empty elevator hand in hand. Amber presses the floor button for Jackson’s room and the doors close, “I mean she didn’t have to tell me but she did and she knew I was your daddy’s best friend so really, she should’ve predicted me taking his side over hers…on the other hand she’s super nice and listened to me complain about my disaster love life and told me so I wouldn’t feel alone. Why did she do that? Why didn’t she just dump you and go be a do-gooder for society? It would have been so much easier.” She looks at Harriet who still looks up at her with curious eyes, “I could tell him and lead your daddy to his very obvious soulmate and give you one birthdays and one Christmases that most kids get from parents who love their kids and each other.” That image almost convinces Amber if she didn’t consider what could go wrong, “Or it could implode everything, and you’d have a worse childhood than me.” Amber laughs out loud as soon as she finishes, “Oh who am I kidding? You can’t have a worse childhood than I did.” Amber is leaning towards telling Jackson and turns to Harriet for support, “I should tell daddy, right? Should I tell daddy?”

“Tell daddy.” Harriet repeats only comprehending some of Amber’s rambles.

Amber takes a moment before shaking her head, “No I’m not gonna tell daddy, because mommy was in the army and who knows what she will do to me if I break my promise to her. I should keep my mouth shut, let you see daddy for a few minutes and then we will go back home and I will forget this with the help of Jack and Daniels.” The elevator stops and dings, “Okay this is our stop.”

Harriet lifts her arms up and looks at Amber with a pleading face, “Carry.”

Amber sighs, “Seriously? You said you didn’t need a stroller. You said you could walk to daddy.”

Harriet is persistent, “Carry!”

Amber shakes her head, “Fine but you’re carrying me next time, up we go.” Amber picks up Harriet in her arms carrying her by her side as they walk down the mostly empty hallway, stopping just outside of Jackson’s room window. The sight of who is inside stops Amber causing her to hide by the window carrying Harriet. She saw Vic inside the room sitting by Jackson’s bed holding his hand indicating they are back together to Amber’s chagrin. She sighs at this unexpected hurdle and Harriet looks at her confused.

“What am I doing?” Amber asks herself and Harriet, “We’re his roommate and baby not a couple of secret mistresses. Let’s go and say hi to your dad and…Vic I guess.” Amber walks by the window, knocks on the door and enters the room with a smile. Jackson looks up with a cast on his leg up to his knee, “Hi somebody wants to see daddy!”

Jackson laughs and smiles at the sight of Harriet, “Hi sweetheart how were things with your mama?” Vic looks at Harriet in shock to Amber’s amusement.

“They were good.” Amber explains smiling at Harriet, “Her mama almost had a heart attack when I told her what happened but she’s good. Harriet and I just wanted to see you before we head home to bed.”

Vic clears her throat and stands up, “Um you know what I am gonna go this looks like a family thing so.”

“Come on Vic you don’t need to leave.”

“No I do. I have to okay? This is…” Vic trails off with Jackson, Amber and Harriet looking on confused, “This was good. It was fun and it was great but this whole thing. I’m not a…I’m not a stepmom.” Jackson looks at her with a stumped look while Amber purses her lips feeling awkward witnessing this inevitable breakup while Harriet smiles still in her arms.

“You’re not a stepmom.” Amber snorts at the adorable way Harriet repeated Vic’s statement stifling her own laughter.

Vic ignores them and continues, “I’m just a person who’s trying to have some fun after her fiancé died because the alternative is wallowing and I can’t do that and…wow okay. Um this was too much too soon thank you.” Jackson frowns at that looking down at his sheets while Vic turns to Amber and Harriet awkwardly, “Hi Harriet, it was really nice to meet you after all this time. Um okay bye. Godspeed.” Vic leaves the room quickly and Amber finally lets her laugh out when Vic closes the door to Jackson’s ire.

“Thanks, it’s just how I thought you would react if Vic ever broke up with me no lie.”

Amber stops laughing but still smiles, “Don’t hate me if I don’t laugh, I’ll cry.”

Jackson grins shaking his head, “Can you please hand me my child?” Amber gladly places Harriet on Jackson’s good leg that he bounces her on.

Amber stops laughing and treats Jackson like a friend, “Are you okay buddy?”

Jackson smiles at Harriet already over Vic dumping him, “Yeah I’m fine, I can’t be sad when I’m face to face with my favorite girl can I?”

Amber smiles at Harriet, “Yeah this little girl got me through the worst time of my life, didn’t you Harriet?” Amber shakes Harriet’s hand causing her to smile, “How’s the leg?”

“It’s fine the morphine helps with the pain and the cast isn’t that bad. Link said I should be back in the O.R. in two weeks, I just need to do some PT and wear a boot for a month. How was April when she left?”

Amber inhales, “She was good she was worried about you but I told her you were okay and I told her I was gonna take care of Harriet while you recuperate. It’s the least I can do since your letting me hole up at your place. Besides me and Harriet are gonna have so much fun, aren’t we?” Jackson smiles at Amber who notices, “What? You’re not thinking of dating me so your kid can have a stepmom, are you?”

Jackson rolls his eyes, “You wish. I just thought how nice it is that you didn’t even know how to hold my baby two years ago and now you’re the cool aunt. It wears your well She-Karev, I think you’d be good with one of these someday.”

Amber grins, “Assuming I find someone to give me one of these. If not, I am just fine being auntie Amber to this adorable baby girl and however many kids Alex and Jo finally have instead of wasting my time.”

Jackson nods understanding, “Yeah, those two should just stop with the excuses and get pregnant. It’s frustrating me like it’s frustrating you, life is short today showed me that more than ever.”

“Does this mean your not gonna take anymore shifts at the PRT?”

“No and even if I wanted to I can’t. PD shut it down for further investigation into the girl's death.” Jackson looks at Harriet with love in his eyes, “If that junkie aimed higher, I wouldn’t even be here. God the thought of that it scares me, what I would leave behind, what Harriet would go through or what my mom would do on top of Webber’s condition. It really makes you see things differently and revaluate what you take for granted. And what you let slip through your fingers for reasons you don’t even remember.”

Amber looks at Jackson in thought knowing what he is talking about. She takes a deep inhale before making a final decision, “Screw it I’m going for it.”

Jackson looks at Amber confused, “What?”

“I am gonna tell you something that I probably shouldn’t or it will get me killed by your ex-wife but you are my friend and I think this will get your foot in the door and make a smart decision for once in your life.” Jackson narrows his eyes still confused, “April and Matthew aren’t together anymore.”

Jackson’s eyes shot up in shock, “W-What? What do you mean? Why?”

Amber tries to remember from April’s speech, “They figured out their reconciliation wasn’t a part of God’s plan, Matthew never forgave her for leaving him at the altar, he left to take care of his sister and never came back. Now April is working while going through her second divorce and she told me not to tell you which is more proof of why I should.” Jackson looks taken back and still processing, “Now I don’t know what you will do this information I don’t know if your gonna make your move while the window of opportunity miraculously opened but I ask that you wait until April tells you herself so I can live to give your little girl the sex talk you will not so…”

Jackson takes a few moments to process with Harriet on his lap, “Wow two bullets out of nowhere today that is a record. April told you this?”

“Yeah she did, I talked about my disaster breakup and she told me about hers we were talking. Before she left, she wanted to be the one to tell you and swore me to secrecy. And it had been eating me up for the past 36 minutes.”

“And why are you telling me this?”

Amber gives a ‘really?’ look at Jackson, “Because you process things slowly and if April told you, you wouldn’t know what you wanted until it was too late. I just thought I’d give you a nudge god knows you two need as much help as you can get.”

Jackson sighs and looks at Harriet on his lap, “She just got divorced, you really think she wants to jump back in with her first husband? And what makes you think I would want to get back together with her anyway?”

Amber groans frustrated, “I swear for someone who is a doctor you are so stupid. You told me that you went on your spiritual quest because you were confused about you and April’s bad timing and seeing her marry Matthew. You said the one thing you and April never saw eye to eye on was religion and it always got in the way between you guys. And I know it was more than that she left after Samuel and I empathize with you for that pain I do but you both moved on from that and now…you believe in a higher power like her, your freshly single and so is she.”

Jackson looks down in conflict while Amber continues, “I think you jump into these nowhere relationships with women you don’t love because the one you do was with someone else and you were looking for someone to fill that void. But now she’s free and she loves you that never stopped for her like it never stopped for you. If I am wrong look me in the eyes and tell me this news doesn’t affect you in any way. Right. Now.”

Jackson still looks conflicted and spends the next few moments looking at Harriet who looks at Jackson with a smile. The sight causes him to grin and bounce his leg.

He sighs and turns to Amber, “You know this is taking me for a whirlwind and your right. A part of me will always love April and wonder what we could have been if things were different. It’s always gonna be a burning question. I just don’t want to screw things up like last time and…I think Maggie was right.”

Amber raises an eyebrow, “When did this shift to Maggie?”

“Maggie said that I can’t be alone, at first, I was pissed and I thought she was being petty but looking at my love life I think she was right. I jumped into bed with Vic pretty soon after I broke up with Maggie who I started dating pretty soon after April.”

Amber nods in agreement, “Yeah you clearly never heard of a grieving period.”

“And I think I am gonna start now after Vic just broke up with me.” Jackson sighs, “I think I need some time to myself and sort all of that out. I’m pretty sure April is gonna do the same after Matthew and I don’t want us to jump into a new relationship while both of us are hurt and vulnerable. It’s the best thing for the both of us I’m sure of it and I will let April tell me herself about Matthew when she is ready.”

Amber looks at Jackson impressed, “Wow that might be the most mature thing you have ever said.”

“You think so?”

“Yeah.” Amber snorts, “And here I thought I was gonna be the sad and miserable one while you have a line of unattached ladies at your bedroom door.”

“But now we’re both gonna be sad and miserable together.” Jackson grins in solidarity with Amber, “On the bright side you have someone to eat ice cream with while you watch those slasher films.”

“You stay away from my mint chocolate chip or I will go all Voorhees’s on your broken heart.” Jackson chuckles, “Seriously you stay away from my ice cream or I’ll hurt you good.”

“Deal.”

“There’s nothing wrong with taking time for yourself Jackson.” Amber grins, “Just as long as you’re in the right head space when you figure out you still love a certain red headed trauma surgeon because she is no rebound for you to toss aside.”

Jackson chuckles, “You know for someone who once proclaimed love as the root of all evil you’re not shy of playing cupid between divorced parents.”

Amber shrugs, “Just because I’m miserable doesn’t mean I want everybody else to be.”

“Wow I think your maturing too.” Jackson teases.

Amber chuckles, “Shut up.” Amber sees Harriet drifting off on Jackson’s lap, “I think Harriet and I are ready to hit the pillow before we have a fun day tomorrow.”

“I think your right.” Jackson hands Harriet to Amber who carries her, “Okay sweetheart daddy needs his rest and so do you. Auntie Amber is gonna take good care of you while daddy is recovering but don’t worry, I’m gonna be chasing you around the house soon I promise.”

Amber smiles at Harriet who puts her head on Amber’s shoulder falling asleep, “Okay I think she wants to go to bed already, we’ll see you tomorrow. Try not to get shot again.”

“I will do my best, good night you two.”

“Good night.” Amber closes the door and walks to the elevator with Harriet in tow for the first time in a while looking toward the future and not the past.

#greys anatomy #greysedit #grey's anatomy #greysanatomyedit #jackson avery #april kepner #amber karev #elizabeth gillies #liz gillies #jesse williams #headcanon #mine #japril #jackson and april #jackson x april

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jadelotusflower · 1 year ago

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Rewatch: Stargate (1994, dir. Roland Emmerich)

What to do when there's so many shows and movies on the to watch list? Revisit shows and movies I've seen many times before of course! Maybe I'm just in need of some comfort viewing right now.

I can't remember when I first saw Stargate. It certainly wasn't at the cinema, but probably rented from the video store (yes, I am an Old) and was certainly keyed to my preteen interests: mythology and Soft(TM) male protagonists.

Over the years and though several rewatches, online fandom, and my love of behind the scenes featurettes, director's commentaries, and retrospectives, I've also gleaned quite a bit of background tidbits and trivia, and I have many thoughts! Most of them through the lens of nostalgia, but that can't be helped.

Are you ready to go back to Titanic Stargate?

The much maligned Pharaoh's head, but it makes for a symbolic opening, trying to find the meaning to the different patterns before the whole picture becomes clear.

David Arnold's theme remains a banger. One of the GOATs.

I'm watching the Extended Edition/Director's Cut, which opens in the North African Desert 8000 BCE to depict Jaye Davidson being abducted, which is only seen in flashback in the theatrical cut. It's atmospheric, but it does tip the hand of the narrative a bit. The stronger opening is probably:

Giza, 1928, where the Stargate is unburied. Even this scene is extended, where the fossilized head of an Anubis is also found. It reveals the sinister undertone far too soon, imo, and it was the right choice to cut it.

Present Day! Love of my life Daniel Jackson ruins his career by arguing that the Egyptian pharaohs of the IVth Dynasty did not build the great pyramids. He does not claim (as the show later does) that aliens built the pyramids. Important distinction!

"Is there a lunch or something, that everybody...?" lol, James Spader is great. This was the first role I ever saw him in, and didn't realise this was actually playing against type a bit, but I have been a fan of his ever since.

Shoutout to Viceca Lindfors, who plays Catherine with steely grace.

Jack O'Neil (one L) aka Kurt Russell (two L's), in a great character introduction that is ruined by some voiceover exposition. We get everything we need to know from his scene without it, except that Tyler shot himself with Jack's gun, but honestly it would have been more impactful if that detail was held back from the audience and revealed in the later scene with Daniel.

The great Richard Kind everybody! He will later appear in an extremely tone deaf episode of Stargate: Atlantis, but here he's Dr Gary Michaels, aka the guy Daniel gets to show up by swanning in and correcting his translation.

Daniel: That's a curious word to use, isn't it? Michaels: ...Yeah

Rae Allen plays Barbara Shore - you may remember her as reporter Gloria Thorpe in Damn Yankees. It's a shame neither of these characters ever turned up in the show, I like them both.

"You must have used Budge, I don't know why they keep reprinting his books." LOL, Daniel with his petty academic grudges. Although as I understand this is a valid criticism, as Budge's translation methods were very much outdated by the 90's. But Budge conceivably could have been a contemporary of Catherine's father, which is interesting to think about.

Jack arrives with his haircut to correct Daniel's assumption that the hieroglyphs are 5000 years old - they're actually 10,000 years old, which Daniel ironically finds ludicrous. To pick some nits, according to the opening Ra arrived on Earth in 8000 BCE which is presumably where the 10,000 number came from, but doesn't take into account Ra establishing a culture and ruling on Earth for however long before the rebellion, which is when the coverstones would have been carved.

Leon Rippy plays the General West and his utter disdain for Daniel despite him solving "in fourteen days what they couldn't solve in two years" kind of gives me life. His surly "any time" and passing over the reference materials without looking at them is so great. Fantastic performance in a tiny role.

Several people are smoking in this scene, including Jack and Barbara. It's easily forgotten just how common casual smoking was back in the day - 1994 seems a little late for it to be so prevalent, but it gives the room that atmospheric haze.

Emmerich was also a big smoker, so ...

Unrealistic that Daniel would be presenting his theory without running it past Catherine and the team first, but hey it's a movie, dramatic effect and all that.

Important to note that Daniel's contribution isn't only realising that the symbols were star constellations, but the purpose of the symbols, being a map to determine a course and destination. He also deduced that seven symbols were needed, realised that the seventh symbol was below the cartouche not inside it, and then identified the seventh symbol on the gate itself.

This is a really nice illustration to Daniel's core strength - he's not just a repository of knowledge, he's a puzzle solver.

Some small character beats - Michaels questions Daniel twice, while Shore reaches out to pat Katherine's hand in victory when West orders Daniel be shown the Stargate. Again, they should have been brought back for the show!

There's a star map in the control room, implying that they had at least an idea that the Stargate was a transportation device, making the team look even more foolish for not figuring out (in two years!) that a) the symbols were star constellations, and b) that seven symbols (address + point of origin) were needed.

Daniel assures West that he can decipher the gate on the other side in a stunning display of hubris - a character flaw that will stay with him in some form through all ten seasons of the show.

Although West doesn't actually ask Daniel how he will make the Stargate work for the return trip, so that's kind of on him.

Jack correctly deduces that Daniel's full of shit, then goes to look at the Anubis head found in the Giza sequence. Again unnecessary inclusion imo, Jack's motivation works better as ambiguous at this point.

Everyone has their own little character moment before going through the gate - Jack grits his teeth and raises his gun, Brown looks back to the others, Porro kisses a St Christopher medallion.

Daniel toying with the event horizon was a Spader addition (much to the chagrin of the VFX supervisor!)

Foreshadowing for the Abydos point of origin symbol.

"That's a nice tent! Oh, we each get a tent, that's nice."

A snarky Ferretti (the great French Stewart) throws Daniel's suitcase at him, scattering his books on the sand. Daniel is completely nonplussed, starts to gather them up and then sits down to munch on a 5th Avenue bar. I love original recipe Daniel. Don't get me wrong, I love show Daniel too, but the OG, man, just 100% unbothered when antagonised.

Although to be fair, Ferretti's frustration is justified (if not his reaction) so that probably is a factor in Daniel's (lack of) response.

Daniel feeds a mastadge chocolate and gets dragged across the dunes and slobbered on for his trouble. But he doesn't hold a grudge, because he goes from "get away from me" to patting the creature on the snout in about three seconds.

Sha'uri, my beloved!

Important to note that while the other water-bearers keep their eyes downcast, Sha'uri is the only one bold enough to look up and make eye contact with Daniel, who smiles at her.

Daniel, in return, is the only one to say thank you.

She's also very wary of Daniel at this stage, here and on the walk back to Nagada - she laughs at Skaara and Nabeh taking his handkerchief, but tenses up when he looks her way. Does she know at this stage that he has been earmarked as her husband?

It makes me curious, because I don't think that it's ever explicit in the film that Sha'uri is Kasuf's daughter and Skaara's sister (although it's implied), but it makes sense that she is the daughter of the chief and would therefore make a high status offering (ugh I feel gross typing that) for an emissary of Ra.

We know that Ra surrounds himself with child slaves (the creepy implications of which I don't want to think about), and it's unclear how old Sha'uri is meant to be (Mili Avital was 22), but I wonder if the reason why she was not married already is that this was always the role intended for her - to serve Ra in some capacity, perhaps (in tv show timeline) as a host for one of his underlings.

If so, it makes her fate in the show even more tragic.

Brown takes a picture on their approach to Nagada which is a nice little character beat - I wonder where that camera ended up? Derek Webster also had bit parts in Devlin/Emmerich joints Independence Day and Godzilla, fwiw.

"Ferretti, say again." Great line reading from Russell - he gets flack for being humourless/not being Richard Dean Anderson, but I think he has great presence in the role and character at this point - RDA!O'Neill is the product of Russell!O'Neil's experience in this film.

A sandstorm approaches and in the extended sequence there's a miscommunication that Skaara (Alexis Cruz) clears up. I like this addition, as it gives more scope to the connection between Jack and Skaara - he sees that Jack is the one in charge, but also that he's willing to listen, and Jack sees that Skaara is brave enough to face a threat, but also clever enough to diffuse the situation.

"Well that would have been an excellent reason to shoot everyone." lol, and people say snarky!Daniel was a show-only thing.

Trying to learn the word that means "sandstorm" from Kasuf and the incredulous/frustrated little laugh after is a nice touch too.

Erick Avari steals every scene he is - he was also in Devlin/Emmerich's Independence Day ("what's with the golf balls?!?" was an ad-lib), and of course he's great in The Mummy (the delivery of "Do you really want to know, or would you prefer to just shoot us?" is perfection.)

He was only 42 during this movie! Hasn't aged a day since.

A great deal of Kasuf came from Avari as well - the role was only a few lines in the script and was mostly developed during rehearsals - the same was true for Alexis Cruz as Skaara.

While "tastes like chicken" was in the script, the clucking like a chicken came from Spader.

Pivotal scene, because it really shows Sha'uri's courage - her fear is palpable, first at her duty to offer herself to Daniel then at what his rejection may mean for her and her people. She is confused by his behaviour, delighted when they are able to exchange names, but guarded again when he draws in the sand. At this point she doesn't know if he is an emissary of Ra testing her resolve, but she takes the chance and fixes his drawing to make the symbol from Earth, then takes him to the hidden catacombs.

Sha'uri's leap of faith here is underrated I feel - she's been watching Daniel so closely and makes a very correct judgement about his character - there is something in him that she recognises, and decides that she can trust. At this stage she probably knows that she is safe with him, but she wants to go beyond that and actually connect with him.

Also she's wearing red here, the same colour as Kasuf and some of the other elders wear, which does imply it's a colour of status.

LOL, this scene would never happen today.

It was almost cut from the movie! The studio's focus was on the action and wanted to eliminate a great deal of the character stuff, resulting in the film testing very poorly. Devlin/Emmerich redid the cut to put everything back in and (surprise surprise!) the next audience screening was much more favourable.

Because Jack's character arc doesn't work without this scene! We need to see Jack actually bond with Skaara, to gift him the lighter, be amused when Skaara mimics him and takes a drag of the cigarette, then for things to turn when Skaara innocently reaches for Jack's gun and he blows up.

"I guess the word dweeb doesn't mean anything to you guys, does it?"

Too good! Too pure for this world!

The hidden catacombs fascinate me - the entrance is blocked with rocks so presumably Sha'uri hadn't been there for some time. Is it something she came across as a child? Was it secret information handed down through the generations, perhaps from her mother?

The symbol for Earth is only visible from inside so she must have explored the catacombs at some point, perhaps wondering what the paintings meant, and she must have been aware that at one point writing wasn't outlawed. I do like the idea that both Sha'uri and Daniel have this great curiosity and yearning to understand - they also share a great capacity for trust and willingness to take leaps of faith that makes them very well matched.

The backstory with Ra changed very late in the process - originally the Egyptian boy was merely appointed as a proxy for the alien creature to rule Earth, not possessed by the alien. This is unfathomable to me and really don't think it could have worked - where's the menace if Ra isn't the actual alien being but just some guy who works for him?

Presumably, it means Spader came back to do reshoots for the tale of Ra's origins, and if you notice he only mentions possession in a closeups where the lighting is slightly different. The frescos in the wide shots also don't match the closeups, which Emmerich himself did.

Brown is the one who gives Daniel a gun. RIP Brown.

Djimon Hounsou as Horus!

The Anubis/Horus/Ra disappearing headgear was one of the few noticeably CGI effects - most of the film was done practically and it shows (in a good way). I will take puppets and props and extras every day over CGI, there's just something more visceral about films made this way.

Daniel dies for the first - but certainly not the last - time.

The extended edition has Daniel walking through Ra's ship after being revived - there's a cat on Ra's throne, and we see more of Ra getting bathed and dressed by his child slaves just to notch up the creepiness.

Whatever happened to Jaye Davidson?

Apparently he had difficulty with the role, no doubt because as written it made no sense, which is why they had to change it in editing, adding the flanges and the glowing eyes.

Davidson was concerned he'd ruined the movie, and apparently was relieved rather than upset to see the final film. I actually think it's a great performance, and Ra has a menace that feels genuinely dangerous.

The Abydonian langauge was based on Ancient Egyptian as developed by Egyptologist Dr Stuart Smith, and apparently great care was taken to make it as authentic as possible. I...don't think the same can be said for the show.

Dr Smith also consulted on The Mummy, fwiw.

O'Neil, Kawalsky, Ferretti, and Guy Who Will Soon Die (Freeman).

Is is Kawalsky or Kawalski? The credits say Kawalsky, but his uniform at the beginning of the film says Kawalski. I personally prefer the latter.

The extended edition has an extra scene following the escape - Jack and Daniel jump on a mastadge which takes off and separates them from the group as Sha'uri and Skaara look on thinking "where are those idiots going?"

They get stuck in a sandstorm where Daniel collapses, and they're only found because the mastadge is so upset about his new friend he wails - this explains why Daniel is coughing and spluttering when they get to the cave.

Many a slash fic has started this way, I'm sure.

I really like Kawalski in this scene - "these kids don't have anywhere else to go" really hits me for some reason. He's bonded with them too.

"I don't want to die, your men don't want to die, and these people here don't want to die. It's a shame you're in such a hurry to."

The pivotal Jack and Daniel scene - this where the reveal about how Jack's son died should have been, so we find out when Daniel does. Then we'd think back on all the previous interactions - Jack knocking the gun from Skaara's hand, being unable to shoot the kids Ra uses as human shields - and be able to read new meaning into them.

A tender moment that I kind of wish they'd let play out a little more, although Avital captures Sha'uri's vulnerability so well. This was her first scene!

While I do love the Daniel/Sha'uri romance, I think she gets unfairly dismissed as just the love interest when she's so much more. Sha'uri is the one who starts the Abydonian rebellion - she's the one who decides that "we can no longer live as slaves" and rallies the boys to save Jack and his men - she's the one who passes on the knowledge of Ra's true identity.

At that point it's unclear if she thought Daniel is dead or just captured - her reaction following the massacre in Nagada perhaps implies the former. When Skaara tells her that Ra has called an execution she's been looking at the cave paintings, so clearly rebellion is already on her mind, and she's willing to go against everything she's been taught to try and save - maybe Daniel - but maybe only his friends, to help them overthrow Ra.

Interesting costume change for Kasuf here - he no longer has his outer robes or headdress, nor is he riding a mastadge - has he been stripped of his leadership role? Horus is now in charge.

Also nice little character beat - while the other have their guns pointed at Horus, Daniel is looking back at Sha'uri.

I do love Skaara's defiance - telling the others not to bow when Kasuf orders them to, and later he'll be the most reluctant to surrender, throwing down his gun in disgust before kneeling.

Sha'uri carries a gun into the pyramid, but I think it would have been better to at least see her try and shoot at the horus guard before she is killed.

Ostensibly this is a plot necessity to get Daniel up into the ship to give him a final faceoff with Ra and setup using the rings to deliver the bomb, but I think it's also needed for the Daniel/Sha'uri relationship - if he hadn't almost lost her and been willing to risk his life to save her, I don't think his choice to remain on Abydos with her at the end would have rung as true.

"I am no longer amused." idc, Davidson is great.

The first - but certainly not the last - time Daniel will get his brain friend by the hand device.

Ra's ultimate downfall is his hubris - if he'd never revived Daniel to make an example of him it's likely he never would have been overthrown, or at least not in the way he was. Yes he may still have had the public execution, and Sha'uri and Skaara may have still tried to rescue Jack and the others, but without Daniel to shoot his staff to set off the disturbance it may not have been successful. Jack wouldn't have been able to properly communicate with the Abydonians to form a plan, Daniel wouldn't be there to reveal Horus as a mortal not a god to Kasuf, etc.

It's interesting to me because as I said above hubris is also Daniel's main flaw, although it manifests differently, but that's what really draws me to these kind of characters - people who are a force for good but in such a way that their idealism and drive could easily tip over into ruthlessness/villainy in the right circumstances, and we definitely see this explored a few times in the show.

Also interesting is even though Kurt Russell gets top billing, it's really Daniel who is our protagonist - he's the one who is the true adversary to Ra, they share the relationship and confrontational scenes - Jack's antagonist is really Anubis.

Kasuf arrives with the uprising, and ultimately I do love that all three of our Abydonian family - Sha'uri, Skaara, and Kasuf - play a vital role in overthrowing Ra, even if Jack and Daniel get the credit for actually killing him.

We're meant to be la la la don't think about it re: the child slaves who were presumably still on Ra's ship when it blew up.

And I'm a sap! Skaara and the boys saluting Jack, and getting his salute in return always gets me.

Kawalsky and Ferretti too!

It's very important that Sha'uri is the one who instigates the kiss with Daniel, to balance the earlier scene where he kissed her.

Because it's a relationship that could very easily veer into problematic or feel unearned, but by this point having saved each other's lives, having communicated and bonded and come to understand one another, they do seem to be genuinely falling in love rather than there being any sense of obligation.

I think there might have been an alternate ending - on the bts there's footage of Daniel and Sha'uri walking with the Abydonians. Daniel looks back, presumably at the pyramid, as if reckoning with his decision to stay and a last look back at his life on Earth. Then he puts his arm around Sha'uri and they blend into the crowd as Daniel becomes part of the Abydonian people.

And then they both lived happily ever after and no one ever bothered them again! I choose to see the movie and the show as very similar but different universes/timelines, so hold true to my headcanon that this version of Daniel/Sha'uri got that long and happy life together on Abydos.

But as it is, we get our goodbyes - Skaara gets a handshake of respect from Jack, and Daniel gets some nice closure on his relationships with the three surviving members of the team:

Ferretti - goes from "Isn't there something you should be doing right now? Like getting us out of here?" (throws suitcase) to "I always knew you'd get us back"

Kawalski from - "You're a lying son of a bitch!" to "Thanks Daniel"

And Jack, from "He's full of shit" to "I'll be seeing you around...Doctor Jackson."

Of course this was setting up the sequel in the planned trilogy, but it works well moving on - as I will be - to the show.

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Joel Miller x F!Reader | 𝐒𝐓𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐆𝐄𝐑𝐒 | 🌿

Chapter 7 : The calm before the storm | Chapter 6 | Summary

Series Summary : Joel Miller is no longer the same man after losing his entire family, except his little brother. A few months later, after saving Ellie from the Fireflies. He now lives in a community of survivors with Ellie and her younger brother, Tommy.

He has only one goal, to ensure his own survival and that of those he loves. Until the day he crossed paths with a young woman and her son in the community. The young woman’s face was particularly familiar.

Are you and Joel strangers or are you a lot more than that ?

Warnings : Mature content angst, smut, romance, blood, violence...

Do not : Claim, Repost, Copy, or Translate my stories anywhere else.

Notes : Reference to certain scenes scenes of the series and the game and Uncharted.

If some things bother you, inconsistent in my story, do not hesitate to tell me this will allow me to improve ! 😊

I apologize in advance but English is not my mother tongue. 💙

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- « I'm going on patrol today with the others. I'm going to team up with Jesse, he's a friend of Ellie's that she introduced me to at the party. What about you, mom? What are you going to do today? » James already packed his bags last night. He got up early at dawn to review what he had prepared and see what he was missing. Having not slept much, James is a little tired but he regrets nothing of this evening.

- « I'll be on patrol today too. Tell me, how long have you been here looking over your belongings? I didn't hear you arrive last night. » Y/N stands against the wall of his living room, looking at his son with a puzzled look.

- « I did what you told me, I enjoyed this evening. I think my body wasn't ready to drink so much and stay up so late. When I got home it was already late, so I tried to make as little noise as possible in the house. »

- « I see, if you took advantage of it, I can only be satisfied. » Y/N moves away from the wall where she was and kneels next to her son to offer her help. Even if he was an adult, Y/N as a mother will always see him as her little baby. « Do you need help with something? And tell me, did Ellie make you that offer? »

- « Yes, Ellie told me they were looking for volunteers, so I volunteered without asking too many questions. And who asked you to go with her?» James watches out of the corner of his eye as his mother joins him. A mother will never change, wanting to help and protect her child at all costs. « You can check my bag if you want, it will reassure you. »

- Y/N pulls out her son's bag in front of her and begins the inspection. « Joel asked me to be in a band with him. » Y/N scratches the back of his head lightly, finishing his sentence in a dry, quick tone. A funny atmosphere now reigns in the room. Y/N can feel her son's gaze on her without being turned towards him.

- « Okay, I don't have to worry. You'll make a really good team and I know you'll be able to handle yourself if something goes wrong. » James doesn't ask any more questions and stays particularly quiet as he watches her check her bag.

- Y/N puts his hand on James's cheek. He had grown so much that he was no longer the little boy who held her hand when he was afraid of something. Today, James stood by his mother's side unafraid of a fight. « I am so proud of the man you have become James. Your father would also be very proud of you. »

- « Maybe, unfortunately, we will never know. » James is not angry at his father's absence, but rather at himself. He did things to survive and to protect his mother, like everyone else in Jackson. But he wasn't proud of it and if one day his father came back, he wouldn't be able to look him in the eye.

- James pulls out his bag and quickly puts it on his shoulders. He then turns around and finally faces his mother. James sees through his mother's eyes that something is wrong, she is hiding something from him. But he made the choice not to ask anything, if she was not ready to talk to him then he would give her time to be. « I'm going to let you close the house because I have to get to Jesse early, and he needs help getting the equipment ready for all the teams coming in today. »

- « It works. See you later then. »

- « Yes, see you later, mom. »

A few hours later..

It is now eight o'clock in the morning. The sun rises above Jackson. The city is already very hectic early in the morning, as usual everyone does their assigned activity doing their best to succeed and complete it with a little help. Ellie, Dina, James, Jesse and the other youngsters prepare the equipment and horses for today's patrols. Adults were asked to do nothing and wait patiently for calls. Some take advantage of this time to go to lunch or simply meet and chat around a table accompanied by a good coffee. Tommy and his wife Maria are not joining the patrols today because other city priorities prevent them from doing so.

As for Joel, he was waiting for O/N in one of the restaurants in the city. Y/N should arrive normally within a few minutes. Joel hasn’t been so agitated waiting for someone in years. Sleep wasn’t on his side that night either.

After he and Y/N found themselves alone on this bench in front of the sunrise, the minutes passed and the two had to separate to take a different path.

Quietly, neither Joel nor Y/N turned to say anything to each other before leaving, just one last look.

- « If I'm not mistaken, the restaurant is here. » She said in a low voice while looking around. This city is still a labyrinth for her.

- Looking up to the side, Joel can see Y/N entering the restaurant. The young mother seems a little lost. « Y/N here! » He said, raising his voice and hoping to get the young mother's attention.

- The familiar voice rings in Y/N’s ears, it’s Joel’s, he’s sitting at the entrance to the restaurant where they were supposed to meet. « Sorry for the delay. » She said as she walked towards him.

- « You don't have to apologize, you've only been in Jackson for a few days. You don't really know her yet. » He concluded, smiling slightly at Y/N.

- « You're right. Well, to compensate, I pay for lunch. » Y/N could see Joel's facial expression change, he was going to say something. The young mother intervenes at the last minute so as not to give him the opportunity to contradict. « And that's non-negotiable, Joel. »

- « Well, I didn't mean anything anyway," he said teasingly. He knew perfectly well that Y/N had understood him even before he said a word, after all, she was his wife, so it was normal that she knew him inside out.

- « Perfect then. » Y/N goes past Joel to push open the restaurant door and go inside first.

- « There are a lot more people here than usual. » Joel is not far from the young mother and goes through groups of people to reach the bar and Y/N.

- «I think this place is very nice, I should take James here once. » She said quietly after leaning against the restaurant bar.

- Joel arrives in front of the bar, he quickly lays his eyes on Y/N until he immediately turns around after feeling a presence against his right shoulder. An old man is just to his right, Seth is the restaurant manager. « Hi, Seth. »

- « How are you, Miller? I see you didn't come alone today. » Seth never saw Joel being accompanied by anyone other than Ellie. The young mother must be someone important or just new to Jackson, Seth does not dwell on it anymore.

- « Thanks and yes, she's new to Jackson. She's from the group that arrived a few weeks ago. » Concluding his sentence, Joel is about to change the subject. « Tell me, do you have the sandwiches I asked for? »

- « Yeah, I have them here. » Seth hands the sandwich bag to Joel. It was a package wrapped in brown cloth and accompanied by a small rope that held everything together.

- « Thank you Seth. » Joel comes to put his hand on Seth's shoulder to give him a light clap, this one meaning "goodbye". Then he puts the sandwiches in one of his large pockets in his jacket and joins Y/N. « Have you found your happiness? » He asked.

- While Joel was talking with Seth, Y/N took the liberty of buying two hot coffees. « Yes, I keep my word. Here's your coffee, do you want me to carry it on our drive? »

- « No, don't bother, I'll wear both. » Joel doesn't give Y/N time to respond and gets both coffees out of his hands. During the movement, the hands gently touch that of the young mother. Y/N didn't seem to be fidgeting, a simple smile appeared on his face, then put his hands in his pockets.

It is as if this distance that they had imposed on themselves had not been present since that night. Each in their own way and at their own pace, gets rid of the barriers they had imposed between them.

- « I have sandwiches for patrol, a friend made them. »

- « I will have to thank him, he is very nice. While waiting for the kids to call, could you give me a quick tour of Jackson? »

- « Of course, I don’t mind. » Joel leans slightly to the right and pushes the front door with his leg, trying to keep a balance with the coffees he holds in his hands. « After you. »

- Y/N laughs at his behavior, the cafes come close to making a mess on the floor despite the balance Joel is holding. « Be careful with coffee, where you risk destroying breakfast. »

- « It won't happen, count on me. » He concludes following Y/N.

A great day awaits them both. In front of the short time in front of them, Joel made as Y/N asked him, a visit of Jackson. Of course, he didn't manage to show her everything but the essential was there, for the rest it will be for later.

After the party, Joel and Y/N felt closer than before, they had crossed a barrier together. After all, they were husband and wife in the past, the connection was made without much difficulty. As an adult and mother, Y/N cannot afford to throw herself directly into Joel's arms, especially in front of the others and James.

Despite the fact that they feel so good when they're around each other. Y/N and Joel keep a perfectly normal demeanor so as not to arouse suspicion in some people, James shouldn't know the truth Right now.

A few minutes later..

This is when Jackson's patrols would begin. Jesse and the rest of the children have kept their word, the equipment is ready as well as the horses of all the groups. The only thing missing now is getting the equipment to the teams before they venture out of town. Jesse comes to the center, in front of all the groups present, some misses for personal or other reasons.

- « I see almost everyone is here. We can start. » He concluded, leaving the rest of his group to distribute the weapons to others. Meanwhile, another group opens the gates to the entrance to the city. « Okay, listen to me. Here we are. You know the drill. You follow the road, you take notes, and you kill the infected you encounter. If you fall bigger than you, you come back. No bullshit, okay? Go ahead. » Jesse moves away from the entrance to make room for the groups.

- « Okay, when should we go. » Y/N isn't particularly stressed about being out of town. She and James have been out for a long time and Joel is there with her. If she needs help, she can count on his help. After stroking his horse’s neck, Y/N takes the saddle and looks at his teammate to his right to see what he plans to do now.

- « I'm going ahead, okay? » Y/N nods and says "yes". Joel then mounts the saddle and passes the young mother, moving towards the exit of the city. He could see out of the corner of his eye how James looked at him and his mother. Joel couldn't blame her for worrying about her. James attaches great importance to keeping the promise made since the day he and Joel parted the night before everything changed.

During the route, Y/N stayed ahead of Joel. Not that she doesn't like him, but staying behind doesn't thrill her that much. Then she got Joel to cover his back in case something went wrong. Joel couldn't help looking at her from behind on the path, it's like a sun standing before him, that's what Y/N, his wife and for him.

A light through the darkness.

- « Come on! Over here, Joel. » She said, raising her voice, pointing the way to her teammate.

- « I'm right behind you. » Joel's horse seems slightly agitated after crossing the river that leads them. The water was cool, he probably didn't expect to feel this feeling so soon. « It's okay, it's just water. » Joel gently strokes his horse's neck to comfort him in his restlessness.

As Joel and Y/N walked through the different landscapes, a silence settled between them. The young mother ended it without really wanting it. Bad memories came flooding back to her, she was caught off guard, which cost her a few tears in her face.

- Giving a stirrup to his horse, Joel advances to find himself at the same pace of Y/N's horse. The young mother does not seem to move her gaze, far too busy wiping her tears from her face. With a gentle gesture, Joel puts his hand against Y/N's back and makes small movements against it to make her understand that everything is fine and that he is there for her. « If you need a break, let me know okay? »

- « Thanks... » She said with difficulty, still keeping her gaze in front of her. Even by the thickness of his jacket, Y/N could feel a slight warmth and softness through Joel's gesture. Her bad memories vanish in an instant and her heartbeat and tears gradually stop. It's as if he had a certain gift saying to her, "I'm here, it's okay."

- « I know I'm not in the best position to give someone a moral lesson. But I have learned over time that in order to heal my wounds, I must have the courage to face them. » Joel takes a light breath before continuing, his gaze lost for a moment on his watch on his wrist and then on Y/N. « What saves us is knowing that we cannot heal our wounds, but we can live with them, we can live with them without necessarily being lost. » He concluded, gently removing his hand from the young mother's back and returning his hands to the reins of his horse.

- « Yes you are right. » She says, looking at Joel. A slight smile appears on his face. He didn't do much, a gesture, a few words and yet Y/N felt much better now. He always had this way of reassuring her, of using the right gestures or the right words at the right time. Despite the years, Joel had not changed on this side.

After miles from Jackson, the group is almost at their destination. They must first check one of the posts before going any further. It's break time for Y/N and Joel. Fortunately thanks to the coffee this morning, neither of them seems very tired but the hunger is present. Y/N's belly couldn't hide it any longer, the sandwiches that you can pick up Joel from the restaurant later will do the trick to keep them going for the day.

- « We should tie the horses here. » He suggested heading for the entrance to the station. The entrance seems empty with rooms turned over by time, civilization has had its day here too.

- « Maybe you should check the place out and see if there's any danger? » Y/N has never been here until today, she doesn't know the place inside out, unlike her teammate. Joel is in the best position in the group to begin inspecting the location for potential dangers.

- « I already know the place, if someone tries to hide here then he's not very smart. » He gets off his horse first with the help of the saddle. His horse tends to rear up when he's scared so Joel prefers to stay on his toes. He concentrates on Y/N for a moment to bring his gaze back in front of him. « Follow me, I have something to show you. » He rearranges his bag and does not move from his position.

- « Something like what ? » She asked curiously. Y/N likes surprises even if they are good or bad, the gesture of having done something is there. The horses are both tied to the post near a wall not far from the entrance, they seem calm. The young mother walks up to Joel to see what he wants to show her.

Joel passes by to show her the way, heading towards a broken wall. Y/N can see a slight passage in front of her, there was something on the other side. Joel cross to find himself on the other side without saying a word.

Y/N does the same and crosses in turn the passage of the wall to find himself again alongside Joel. It was installed and leaning against the edge of the wall. Y/N joins him at his side and observes the panoramic view offered to him with wide eyes.

- « What do you think of this view? Ellie and I were here a while ago. Tommy had asked us to rummage around this area and we found this outpost and the beautiful scenery that accompanies it. » His gaze did not can prevent himself from going back and forth on the landscape as well as on Y/N, it was stronger than him, his feelings defy him.

- « In a word, it's breathtaking, Joel. » Y/N closes his eyes and takes a light breath, the air here was so soft and relaxing at the same time. Life in the city and now this life changes a lot of things. The discovery of a new thing every day does not bother Y/N, this community and his son allow him to appreciate it despite the current world and the monsters that occupy it. « Really, thank you. » Once her words are spoken, she will lean on Joel's cheek to kiss him.

Joel was so busy with the view in front of him and his thoughts that it took him a while to figure out what was going on. He and Y/N had nothing to fear from stares here, other than their hair, no one was there to judge what they were doing.

On the other hand, who can judge them? Person. In this world, getting attached to someone is like signing a death warrant. Joel and Y/N knew it full well through the ups and downs they went through.

Now that they found each other, everything was different, the vision of the future was different.

- « Let's fill out the register before we leave here. » Joel remains posed against the edge of the wall and observes Y/N to wait for an answer from him. An hour ago she was completely confused and now she is radiant thanks to what she sees, Joel was proud of him.

- « Okay, give me a minute and I'm here. » Her body didn't want to leave this moment, this landscape. He looks so handsome, he was making her travel without wanting to. He missed the outings in the forest with Joel and the children terribly, he missed that time.

- « Stay here or wait for me in front of the horses. I won't be long. » Joel didn't want to interfere with Y/N's thoughts, we all deserve a break.

While Joel left to carry out his task. Y/N for his part stayed several more minutes to get lost in his past memories. She will go later to join the horses and see if all is well on their side.

- While waiting for Joel's return, the young mother equips herself with her brush from her saddle and comes to clean her horse with delicacy. A noise behind her rises to her ears, thatdo slightly startled, she points her gun at the stranger. « Wha-. Joel? Excuse me.. »

- Hands up, Joel holds back a little laughing about the situation they’re in. « I’m going to leave this on hunger, okay? » He says calmly, smiling at Y/N to make him understand that there is no problem with his gesture, it is a simple reflex.

- « I think you're right about one thing, I'm getting hungry. And leaving on an empty stomach is still not the best thing to do. »

- Joel picks up the sandwiches in one of his jacket pockets, undoes the package which was wrapped in brown cloth and a small piece of string. 4 sandwiches arrive, Joel takes two and puts the rest in the package. « I suggest we save the other two for tonight. » He gives the sandwich to Y/N.

- « Yes, that's a good idea, thanks. » Y/N takes the sandwich smiling at Joel. The young mother had noticed from the start of the road that he was very attentive without wanting to. Despite his character and personality, the years have not changed her husband.

After the meal is over, the group checks their gear before leaving and sets out again to reach their final destination. The road was not particularly calm, in terms of conversation. Joel and Y/N talked a bit about everything but the past, the atmosphere was quite different from this morning. The longer they stayed together, the more they talked together, the closer they grew. The two were so close in the past, but the years have passed and destroyed everything, making them complete strangers. Two strangers who have found each other.

After arriving at their destination, Joel and Y/N check every corner of the place together. No humans on the horizon except several infected without further danger. Their first property and cleaning the place before leaving, which is done after a few minutes, the place is back to its usual calm.

On the way back, the group decides to take another path to avoid leaving traces behind them and others following them. AThere, they are now not far from Jackson, a narrow passage seems to be on their way.

- « Let's leave the horses here and take a closer look. » He said calmly approaching the passage in question.

- Y/N drops the reins of his horse to follow him inremaining behind him and observe this famous passage. « Is there a problem with thispath ? » She asked, passing Joel a bit and taking a closer look at the road they must take. A hill rises above the road with the weathering of the road.

- « This path doesn't really seem safe. The road is damaged and the horses are starting to get tired, so…» Joel immediately stops talking when he hears the sound of several stones falling from somewhere. Her body quickly turns towards the young mother and her eyes just above her, tragedy would occur if Joel did not intervene in the next second. « Y/N! Bend down! » Joel throws himself under the rocks to block with his body and protect Y/N from the debris. He coughs lightly after inhaling the dust from the fall and then lies down next to the breathless young mother, his breath was heavy but they were alive.

- Was she in a dream or in reality? Is she dead or alive? A loud thump whispers in his ears, the shock of falling rocks despite Joel's intervention. Coming back to reality, Y/N recovers slightly after understanding Joel's gesture to protect and save her. Not everyone would have done what he just did, the protective side of Joel had just been put forward. The young mother comes to lie on Joel's chest and listen to his heartbeat. He seems slightly restless since Y/N snuggled up to him. « Thanks for saving me, Joel. » The young mother raises her head to meet his gaze and his smile.

Joel looks away after Y/N joins him and snuggles up to him. She's so close to him now, Joel doesn't know what to say or do. He never thought of the possibility that he could feel his sensations there again. It's as if time had just stopped and given way to Y/N and Joel the time to forgive each other and find each other.

- Y/N's fingers lightly trace the exposed skin of Joel's unbuttoned shirt top, then she pulls her hand up to her husband's face,wiping off some traces of dust. « Look at you, you got dust all over your face. »

Without answering,Joel lifts a lock of hair from Y/N's face and then pulls it gently towards him to bring his lips closer to hers through the silence. In what he was about to do, he was in control of nothing, his body had taken control for him. What happened today, Joel could have lost his wife in front of his eyes and it was unthinkable for him. It was out of the question to repeat the same mistake a second time.

Y/N puts a smile on his lips and lets him. Joel was scared, he didn't want to say it, but his body was showing it, that kiss that said a lot about what he felt in his whole body right now.

Allwas going to well, Y/N was alive and she was there against him.

Joel put all his heart and energy into this kiss. Her hands resting on the young mother's cheeks can feel tears running down Y/N's skin. They each take advantage of the present moment, the happiness floating for one and the other. It is after a few minutes that they deviate to recover oxygen. Their eyes meet through this precious moment.

- « Well. You had to be close to death for me to cross that barrier..» Joel used to say that with humor. He didn't need to explain himself, Y/N had analyzed him very well. It was a way for him to say, « You mean more to me than anything. And it worries me, because if I were to lose you again, I would find myself lost again. »

It was wrong on the one hand, he still had Ellie, James, Tommy and Jackson by his side. But Y/N was way above everyone, she was his wife.

After this misadventure, Joel and Y/N had to find another way to reach Jackson, bad luck for them as night begins to fall. But the luck had not left them completely because on the way, some abandoned houses were within their reach. It remains to be seen whether one or more dangers are hidden there, both human and infected.

At first sight of the behavior of the horses, nothing was to report but that does not mean that the way was really clear. Joel was the first to set foot on the ground to observe the surroundings of the nearest house, Y/N was sure to do the same a few minutes after him.

- « Y/N! Join me! » Joel had found nothing on his side as a possible danger, on the contrary, he found something that could change this end of the day. Luckily the sky was completely uncovered which provides a full view of the starry sky.

- « I'm coming! » The young mother was at the back of the house, she is exploring on her own to find something, except for a place that has been dilapidated by time, there was nothing to report. Her hands gripped the straps of her bag tightly, and she walked over to where Joel was.

Joel had taken his bag off his shoulders and then placed it on the grass in the garden, which was on the other side of the house. He then landed against and made himself more comfortable awaiting Y/N's arrival. Her attention was tonight to her and only to her.

- « Joel? What are you doing lying in the grass? » Before the young mother can continue her questions, still in silence, Joel will come and stretch out his arms, an invitation to come and lie down with him for a while. That side, soft, caring, protective, Y/N was one of the few people on this planet who could see it.

- « I don't eat, you know. Even if Seth's sandwiches don't leave me completely- » Joel stops talking once Y/N gets closer to him. In turn, in silence, the young mother removes her bag and places it right next to her. She didn't need her bag to hold herself, Joel had offered her a beautiful invitation against him, in his arms, through a warm embrace.

- « So tell me, why did you choose to be here? » Y/N understood that Joel did not do it by chance or by desire. He had something in mind, behind this choice. She settled further into Joel's chest and arms, her eyes never leaving his face.

Beside her, Joel was vulnerable.

- « Because I needed to have you near me. » This time Joel does not meet Y/N's gaze. He was completely lost through the starry sky that opened before his eyes. He had so much on his heart, questions and answers to say. But Joel is the man he is today, suppressing his feelings and keeping it all inside.

Even in front of his wife, he had this part of him that refused to leave.

Since Ellie came into his life, everything changed, his vision of the future and the world he was in had changed. This little girl has become his world, a world he has protected and will protect until his last days.

Today, his son and his wife were back in his life. How did he see the future now?

- « One day Ellie asked me a rather special question, and she was like, 'Why don't you forget it if it hurts so much? This little girl is very smart because she knew my answer in advance, but she needed to hear me say it. To make me talk about the past, to bring out all the words that are stuck in me. » Joel hugs the young mother against him, her gaze is always lifted towards the sky.

Y/N was very quiet and attentive to what Joel was telling her. It opened to her like a book. After all, she was one of the best people to help and support Joel. One of his hands rests on his chest, just above his heart. His heart rate was particularly stable, at least for the moment.

- « I replied: Because it would be like forgetting the best part of my life. It would be to forget the one who gave me new hope in my life. Forget my wife, the mother of my children. Even if it kills me now, I'll keep it all inside. I can't forget, I can't forget anything, because it's deep inside me. » Once he finished saying what was on his heart, Joel's eyes were watery and he refused to meet Y/N's gaze. He could feel her, her gaze, her attention, her worries.

- « Joel…Look at me, please. » The young mother will come and put her two hands against Joel's cheeks. Trying without forcing to turn her face towards his. He didn't give in the first time, but after a minute of thinking he let it go and got him to look into his gaze. « You don't have to bemoan the past anymore. The scars you carry will probably never go away, because they made you who you are today. »

Y/N wanted to be there for him as he is there for her. She would be the shoulder on which he could scream, cry or just rest. In this world, everyone suffers, whatever the reason or reasons, they hurt. She had in front of her a broken, tired man, but who in his heart still had this soft, caring and protective part.

- One of her hands gently caresses the top of her cheek. « But I'm here now, I'm going to help you carry all the weight you have on your shoulders. Ellie, James, Tommy, we're here, you're no longer fighting your past or yourself alone, Joel. »

- Joel didn’t say anything at the time, he just turned around to face Y/N completely. His arms then wrapped around his waist without warning, the action was done gently without shaking anyone. When Joel felt his body against Y/N’s despite the layers of clothing, he cracked. The young mother instinctively placed her fingers through her grey hair, placing light little kisses on the top of her head. « Relax, breathe, let go and live now, Joel. »

His tired body was shaking as much as it could. A few sniffles from Joel were heard. All this in the silence and the respect they had for each other. Words were not necessary at that time, just warmth between two bodies, caresses and kisses.

The evening ended in a way that Joel hadn’t thought of. Once he had completely calmed down and relaxed, Y/N pulled out of his arms to stand up and reach out.

- « Don't say anything, let it be and follow me. »

The young mother had an idea in mind and Joel would soon find out what she was up to. Y/N lets her retrieve her bag and then takes her inside the dilapidated house. His hands were tangled with Joel's, he hadn't protested or even hesitated, he let himself be done as requested, with a slight smile on the corner of his lips.

- « I will take care of going to install the horses in the garage of the house. In the meantime, sit in the bedroom. I won't be long.” Y/N saw in Joel's posture that he was against letting her do this task alone, but the watchword was to follow and not say anything. The young mother quickly left the hallway to leave Joel alone with his things.

Joel did what Y/N asked him to do in the bedroom. Aside from the condition of the room, the bed seemed to be in pretty decent condition. He thought he saw the one in his old apartment he shared with Tess. He left his bag on the floor, not far from the bed, to take off his shoes, then he fell on the mattress.

A few minutes later…

Y/N had finished putting the horses in a safe place but also so that they could rest quietly. They weren't agitated during the venue change. Once inside the house, Y/N could just hear light snoring coming from the bedroom.

His idea had worked, Joel seemed to have quickly fallen into the arms of sleep after this heart-to-heart talk. The event at the start of the day had also particularly shaken him. He didn't show it, but he was exhausted.

Discreetly, Y/N got rid of his bag and his shoes, like Joel. She then dives onto the mattress, just behind Joel's back. Once settled in, his hands move and settle around his waist, hugging him tightly. She could feel it, her body was relaxed, almost at peace.

To her surprise, Joel reacts to her gesture. Without a word, he tangles his fingers with hers. He makes small circles with his thumb, a cute and sweet gesture. Her body then slowly turns towards the Y/N face, their faces quickly coming together.

- « I love you, Y/N. »

Y/N didn't expect to hear Joel say his words. So yes, they got closer, they managed to kiss, touch and break down his barriers. Nothing was an obligation, they had each other's permission. They didn't need to talk, their bodies communicate with each other so easily.

Joel did not give the young mother time to respond to his statement. His breath was near, his nose now brushing hers, his beard tickling her skin, his lips pressing against hers. Y/N's body reacted on its own, letting itself be carried away by the softness and tenderness of the gesture.

When Joel's hands started traveling under the Y/N shirt, he felt something on his skin. Worried, Joel breaks the kiss, then gently lifts the garment and looks up at her. A scar, quite old but deep. Joel kept his hand just above it and looked up at Y/N.

- « You- »

- « We all have scars, Joel. »

Joel doesn't say a word, remains silent, he bends down slightly so that his lips can reach the place of the wound. He deposited several kisses there with great sweetness, this gesture was filled with love and anxiety. Deep down, he was having a hard time accepting that his wife had been hurt and that he hadn't been there for her, to protect her.

- « Joel, stop thinking, I know you, everything is fine. James was there, at that time our son saved my life. Y/N comes to caress his hand which rests on his belly, he was worried and his body said it clearly. « He's got something, you know, being stubborn and brave. Do you know who I am talking about? » The young mother smirked, her forehead came to rest against Joel's.

- « From you and you from me, that’s a certainty. »

She had suffered, like him, their bodies were marked forever. But that doesn't change Joel's feelings about Y/N. Joel has always been impressed with who Y/N was and who she is today.

She wears her scars with dignity, despite the suffering of her years, she still has the strength to smile and move forward. She had lost a lot of herself and yet she tried every day again and again to keep hope in herself. Survive in this dead and violent world.

- « I will never judge you for what you have become. My feelings and my love for you will never change. »

Seeing the man James had become, Joel had no words to express all the love he had for her and how she was the best mother and wife in his eyes.

He loved her to death, and the barriers they built against each other only made his feelings for her stronger. Now that he had found her, Joel couldn't let her go.

A few hours later…

The night had been very hectic for the couple, Joel and Y/N had fallen into each other's arms after the act, too exhausted to pursue a second task. A beautiful morning comes for them. Neither wanted to get out of this embrace, the warmth of their bodies was far too nice to untie.

During the night, Joel had put his arms around his wife's waist, he wanted to know that she was against him and not far from him, a mark of love but also of affection towards Y/N.

The young mother on her side had dragged her fingers into those of Joel, this small gesture came to respond to his warm embrace.

It had been ages since Joel had had anyone by his side, in front of him, when he woke up. And when he opened his eyes, Y/N's silhouette was still there, right in front of him.

After a few minutes of observation, Joel realized that Y/N was sleeping in a very deep sleep. He certainly didn't want to wake her up, just watch her and enjoy this moment, this dream. His chest heaved slowly and Joel's eyes couldn't leave his face, which seemed to be soothed.

He especially didn't want to think about the fact that once they got back to Jackson, things would be like before they left. The difference is that they weren't as close as they are now.

Would Y/N want to stay in this quote where she wants to tell the truth to James as well as the rest of the town. Reveal that Joel is James' father and husband.

A few minutes later...

Oh hey

- « Are you real? Or am I just in a dream? » Joel's voice was a mixture of hard and soft, a morning voice.

You don't know, babe

- « Well... » Y/N slowly moves his body in front of Joel's. He left his arm just so she could put her head back on it and feel like she had him close to him again. « I am here in front of you and you are here in front of me. I would say that we are in reality. Unless of course that's a problem for you? »

When you hold me

Joel doesn't respond at the moment. He was too focused on the beautiful person next to him. His other hand came to rest on the waist of the young mother, which allowed him to hold her and have her closer to him. He was hypnotized, was it really real? Did he have the right to relive this feeling with her?

And kiss me slowly, It's the sweetest thing

To love and be loved back.

You're the coffee that I need in the morning

It is in silence that he comes to put his hand on Y/N's cheek. His gaze does not depart from his. Y/N leans slightly to give Joel better access. Joel smiles at the proposal and approaches her lips with a smile on his face.

You're my sunshine in the rain when it's pouring

- « You are... » Joel stops inches from Y/N's lips. Both could feel each other's warm breath and warmth.

I just wanna see how beautiful you are

They spent a few moments like that, through the silence, breathless stares and laughter broke out between the two of them. Y/N moved to lie on Joel's chest, opening his arm, offering his chest so she could rest her head and listen to his heartbeat.

You know that I see it, I know you're a star

- « Can we stay like this forever? »

Where you go I follow, No matter how far

- « Darling... »

If life is a movie, you're the best part, oh oh oh

- « Darling ? » Joel hummed when he heard Y/N say it. He hadn't heard anyone call him that in twenty years. He liked that and he liked that it was his wife telling him.

You're the one that I desire

- « Yes, you. Old man. »

When we wake up, And then we make love

- « Mmh.. Alright, I see. » Joel gently pulls his arm away from Y/N's head. He will then stand directly above her to get a better angle. Then, he will start kissing her and come to tickle her body, more precisely the sensitive parts.

It makes me feel so nice

- « N-No Joel is not doing what you have in mind! I hate tickling and you know it! » Y/N tries to struggle under the influence of her husband, but it was a complicated task.

You're my water when I'm stuck in the desert

- « Yes, I know that, baby. » He knew that and he knew the body of Y/N on his fingertips even after his long years without seeing it. He wanted to make him pay with tenderness and kisses, that he was not so old and that he still had energy in stock.

You're the sunshine on my life

The morning ended with Joel and Y/N trying to enjoy a few more hours of sleeping together, in each other's warmth. When it's time to leave, the two dress and prepare for the return trip to Jackson.

After everything that had just happened during those two days, neither of them wanted to go back to this town pretending nothing had happened. It was impossible.

- « How are we going to tell James, Ellie and the others? » Y/N standing right next to Joel on horseback. She was in a posture that shows she was calm and attentive.

- Joel had a slight smile on his face. He didn't have time to ask her whether or not she wanted to face all this, the truth and their feelings in front of others. « We will just tell the truth and face this together, is the best thing to do. »

Joel didn't want to make the same mistake with James. He lied to Ellie to protect her and keep her close to him, but he wasn't blind and neither was the girl. He and Ellie knew very well that there was a lack of truth in the promise Joel had made. Even if Joel could go back and erase what he did or said, he wouldn't change anything, because Ellie was his world and nothing and no one could take it away from her.

When they got back to Jackson, something happened and neither Joel nor Y/N could have predicted what was going to happen. It was the beginning of a nightmare and a reality that was going to hurt a lot.

James came running without a word towards the two adults, puis il frappa violemment Joel au visage, le tirant légèrement en arrière. Y/N didn't believe what she had just seen. His body will come to interpose between the two men.

- « Oh hey! What's wrong with you James!? »

- « I forbid you to touch or approach my mother, do you understand me Joel ?! »

This is what happens when you let the lies take hold, and the truth comes out. ~*.♪。★*・゜・＊♪*.♪。★*・゜・＊♪*.♪°~ If you want to be marked on my future stories, let me know in the comments. Thank you again for reading ! 😊

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