#where the cracks /really/ start to show in Nahyuta's mental health post-SOJ but idk!

[beauzos]

i also personally feel Nahyuta's mental illnesses probably overall started as a child. Dhurke did his best to keep his kiddos happy i'm sure but i can't imagine that there wasn't a lot of trauma involved throughout Yuta's childhood, and no one really would have the education or tools to identify what Nahyuta was struggling with-- not to mention that Yuta strikes me as a deeply Internal person, somebody who doesn't want to talk about himself or show weakness, especially not to his dad, who also does. that exact same thing because of his own trauma n issues. Dhurke would never tell Yuta to keep that stuff to himself, but i think Yuta would get the feeling that he's supposed to just "man up" and deal with it because everyone else (ie, the Dragons, and Dhurke ofc) is tough and just Dealing with the horrible hands dealt their way (though inside everyone's breaking down, they just wanna be strong from the kids or strong for the cause, whatever, but i think when the kids aren't around, everyone is a lot more vulnerable)

not to mention i bet you Yuta's heard Dhurke say some flavor of "i'm a man, men can deal with it" or something to that effect and that stuck with him so, so much.

he wants to be tough. he wants to be good for Dhurke. but he's just hurting himself, and Dhurke is none the wiser, though sometimes the cracks start to show a bit throughout his life.