#when will he learn not to question me and my queer media analysis knowledge

[surethingsis]

Before watching Deadpool and wolverine I briefed my boyfriend on the basics:

- guns are a sex metaphor

- stabbing is penetration

You know... The usual stuff. And he told me to stop saying stupid shit...

Well the joke was on him because after the movie ended he understood.

[incorrecttowerofgodquotes]

Thank you for your queer undertones analysis of tog, i really love it! If you don’t mind, can i ask your opinion about the korean and English translation of tog? It seems like you already said that the English version watered down the queer-coding and the gay subtext in tower of god, is it ok if you tell me some examples of that? I don’t know Korean so i hope this won’t bother you too much. Another question is about Bam growing his hair out again. He even said that he would like it longer, so that’s something he really wants to do. How do you think about that? What’s the reason behind that? And the last question is, could you please do more analysis about the queer subtext in tog? You did amazing job and it will be so great to see more of your analysis. English isn’t my language and i don’t use it daily so sorry if the grammar is too bad. Thank you for reading this and i hope you have a really nice dayyy!!!

Thank you for the ask! I hope you also have a nice day, and your English and grammar were perfectly fine!

1) About Korean, I don’t know any (I just learned how to type with a Korean keyboard) so I don’t know exactly how the translation differs, especially when it comes to the queer lens. I’m also not that knowledgeable on how queer society is seen in South Korea (but I’ll definitely be researching into that later). If anyone here knows even baseline info (but make sure it’s credible) then feel free to share it. From what little I know, LGBT issues in SK are still seen as taboo and kept in their niche subcultures.

2) The growing out or cutting of hair is usually synonymous with a change in character when shown in media. Bam’s hair style at the beginning of Season 2, showed how he isolated himself from others, covering his eyes with his bangs. What struck me upon the start of S3 was that Bam’s hair looked somewhat similar to Khun’s, and that he had a more confident and snarky personality that was subdued in the first two seasons. I don’t think Bam will go back to his FUG hairstyle, but instead gain a new one, one that frames his face better but shows a clear maturity. Bam might start braiding his hair, which would add another similarity to Khun, but I think he’ll just stick with a ponytail for the foreseeable future.

3) Finally for the queer analysis, I’ll probably get up to more of those shenanigans now that we’ve entered the marriage arc. I’ll probably do one over White in the near future. I might also do an analysis over the princesses and how SIU showcases the unrealistic standards women are forced under in an oppressive patriarchy

[hazydaaze]

An analysis of the Bold Type that I need to get off my chest (it'll be worth it, I promise)

I studied English literature at university, and it has always been instinctive for me to analyse characters, storylines, bigger pictures and under the surface tensions in film & tv. Discussing emotions, motivations and themes with my gf and my pals late at night is one of my favourite pastimes ever and I love everything to do with filmography and art ahhhh. (I wrote my dissertation on David Bowie & The Artistry of Sexuality, ya feel me?)

The Bold Type isn't filmography at all, but I think Jane Sloan and Jacqueline Carlyle hit different for me, being a queer woman in my 20s and a full-time writer. I can't really explain why. I guess there are a lot of queer female characters in film & tv that don't really feel inherently queer, and even as two identifying straight women Jane and Jacqueline felt queer to me. Their connection and understanding of each other was authentic and quite complex. I think they had potential to be something that we'd never seen before in mainstream media, because of their age difference and life experiences. I thought that was so compelling and so important to talk about and to give a recognised space to.

There is one thing that struck me most about them and it's insane to me that I haven't seen a lot of analysis on it, so it's the point of this post.

To my knowledge the show or actors haven't delved too deeply into it either, and given what went down I don't understand why people AREN'T talking about it. I wanted to bring it up. Btw, this post contains spoilers.

***Sexual abuse trigger warning***

In season 1, we learn that Jacqueline is the victim of rape, and the only person she has told about it is her husband, Ian. Given that she mentions that they've been married for around 19 years and the assault happened before they met, we can assume Jacqueline has been carrying the weight of what happened to her for over two decades. During all that time she didn't talk about it with anyone else, not a single other person.

And then Tiny Jane comes along. Jane Sloan, the big swing writer who just wants to write meaningful stories that help other women and girls that need it, like she did growing up. She fucks up a lot on the way and slowly begins discarding her judgemental opinions as she grows. But when she is at her best she has genuine compassion and empathy for people, and despite her reservations, Jacqueline gives her the opportunity to write about the story of a rape survivor and performance artist. She isn't aware, at the time, what that means for her own trauma or her own acceptance of it. But she does it anyway, because she sees something in Jane and she has seen it there from the beginning.

Jane starts to write and, as we know, in the most beautiful and compelling moment at the season 1 finale, Jacqueline is confronted with what happened to her. She stands in Central Park holding these weights, and you can see the crushing pain in her eyes as the realisation descends down on her. She shares a look with Jane, and a moment of understanding passes between them at what this means.

Despite all this, she lets Jane capture her trauma. She lets her publish her untold experience of her rape from two decades gone. She lets millions of people see her story in writing, with Jane Sloan's name printed above it. She re-lives and faces up to the harsh reality of that pain and that truth, through Jane.

Can you even imagine the trust you must have in someone to do that? The sheer love that took, for Jacqueline to give Jane her voice and her truth, with all its painful and hard repercussions?

This storyline is the boldest part of the Bold Type. It's the most honest and the most authentic. It captures the raw emotion of Jacqueline, and of Jane, and the two characters really see each other for who they are. It's one of the reasons why their relationship is so central to the other's storyline.

We don't ever see Jane truly unpick in detail what Jacqueline did for her. It spoke so many volumes and ... well, isn't that what love is?

It's this storyline that sets the tone for their relationship over the course of the show. Jacqueline sacrifices herself for Jane again and again. She publishes the article about the lack of accessible healthcare at Safford and gets fired for doing so, purely so Jane can afford to freeze her eggs. Jacqueline says there were a lot of other things that contributed to it, but Jane knows her article was the final straw, the point of no return.

Over a decade of pouring everything she could give into Scarlet Magazine and it’s readers, only to be gone in a second. All for Jane.

And again, in season 4, in the few real moments we are given between them, one of their final interactions is Jacqueline giving Jane the go-ahead to explore a story of potential abuse at States & Nations, a company Ian is associated with. Ian literally asks Jacqueline to stop pursuing the story, due to the sexual relationship he had with the source when he and Jacqueline were separated. When Jane challenges Jacqueline over her reasoning for pulling the story, she asks her to give the story a chance. Jacqueline lets her, knowing full well that it could prove irreparably damaging to her marriage and her family, and she does it anyway.

Jacqueline chooses the truth, over her career and over her marriage. She chooses Jane. As humans, there isn't much more you can give to someone else. I’m wracking my brains trying to think of a way Jacqueline could portray her love for Jane more, and I’m all out of ideas.

I want to reiterate again how insane it is to me that none of this is really acknowledged, or at least not nearly as much as it should be amongst the show, its creators and its viewers, Jacqueline continually falls on her sword for Jane (weird analogy, but she does) and it is repeatedly glossed over. Their relationship is quickly dismissed as a "mother Jane never had" or a simple "boss/employee" power dynamic, and it seems so hollow, unjust and sorry - so unbelievably boring - in contrast to the experiences they have shared together and the sacrifices they have made.

I understand Jacqueline’s character was based on Cosmopolitan Editor in Chief, Joanna Coles, and therefore it makes sense that this queerness to her relationship with Jane was not intended. However, it’s there. Everything I mentioned in the post happened on the show in canon.

In 2021, the possibility that these two women could have romantic or sexual feelings towards each other shouldn't be a stretch. If either of these women were male characters with this much intertwined investment, high stakes and sacrifice, there would be no doubt they would be endgame. They would run away, have the hottest sex, all the while their reputations would be forever ruined in the name of love. And we, as viewers, would celebrate it without question - we would never dismiss it.

The concept of what they are, and what they can be as two women should be able to live and thrive. It should be given a beating heart. In the very least, the reality of it should be on the table and up for debate. But for many viewers, and the show’s creators, it just isn’t. And here lies the problem.

Jane and Jacqueline have such a beautiful dynamic, it is so deep and soul-wrenching. How can we ever limit what these two women are and what they would do for each other?

I really hope that one day we can see a relationship like theirs given the queer space it deserves. Because it would've been the bold thing (and the right thing) to do.

I'm going to publish a longer and more in-depth article about this on Medium, because as I said, analysing is my favourite pastime and I can't stop doing it. But for now, this is all I can manage.

Edit: Read my published Medium article.

Here's to Jane and Jacqueline and what could've been.

[waitingtoexhale]

Queer Media One Tragic at a Time Has Reprogrammed My Brain

I find myself continually lowering my standards for the type of media I consume. Queer character? Check. Limited tragedy? Check. At least once instance of happiness? Check. Alright, that’s good enough for me. I LOVE THIS *insert media type here* SHOW, MOVIE, SONG! But, along with the good comes the bad and the ugly. Along with the brief instances of happy, complex, characters come the violence, the stereotypes, the woe. At this point, simply having a queer character that doesn’t die is the best I can hope for and that truly stresses me out. On a regular basis.

In Queer Youth Cultures, Karen said it perfectly, “I think there's a lack of homosexual characters who are presented in a positive and uplifting, or not even positive and uplifting but just represented on the screen or in the media in general. I guess it's a desire to have a voice. I know this sounds like pure shit, but it's a desire to have a voice, to feel that l'm being spoken for or even just represented. But that there's a voice up there that's representing, or at least trying to represent my own experience. I want to have a say in what's going on and I'm not willing to just accept the images that are represented in front of me as being the only possibility. I take it maybe beyond its limitations of what's there. I try to expand, try to just open it up to possible choices that exist for me that might not exist for the creators for that particular film or TV show. But I will be heard” (2008, p.175-176).

Shameless acceptance of the toxic gay dynamic:

While sexuality is particular to each individual, the social constructions of heterosexuality and homosexuality are cultural categories humans use to make sense of their sexuality (Queer Analysis, 2010, p.198). Shameless, an American comedy-drama television series based on a British show of the same name, stars Cameron Monaghan as Ian, a closeted teenage boy who realizes he is gay and navigates the complexities of his queerness as a social identity and Noel Fisher as Mickey, a closeted homophobic thug who upon realizing he is gay engages in a sexual relationship with the one other queer person he knows who also happens to be the kid he violently bullied. Ian and Mickey start as a toxic portrayal of settling and acceptability in its truest form. Ian is in a predatory relationship with an adult and still possess a great deal of internalized homophobia when he is essentially propositioned by Mickey and their turbulent relationship begins. Mickey is struggling between his desires as a closeted gay teen and his need to match the criminal ideals expected of his father and family name. They are an explosive pair that seem to cause each other physical pain and mental anguish, yet the fans are wholly supportive. Even when healthy potential partners are introduced, the toxic couple of Ian and Mickey are reunited time and time again because media has established a trope where queer characters are only allowed complicated togetherness. Queer characters are punished for choosing their queerness and therefore not allowed true love and happiness. Despite having this knowledge and nothing in common personally with these characters, I love this couple and I love this pairing, so I am part of the problem. I am a product of this generation of idolizing toxic behaviors between characters because unfortunately those are the only “happy” queer characters I have seen continually produced. I have settled into a pattern of accepting negative stereotypes as simply good enough. I have traded the simple fact that the queer character doesn’t die for the harsh reality of their lives.

Another sad queer lacking Glee:

When queer characters are introduced, there are a set number of personality types and lived experiences they are allowed to have. Take Dave Kurofsky from Glee who serves as the closeted homophobic bully who after being outed in the “On My Way” episode attempts suicide and is comforted by the out-and-proud effeminate Kurt, a previous victim of Kurofsky’s wrath. We get to observe the pointed shift in Kurofsky’s personality from homophobic bully to repentant closeted queer, but the lack of character development unfortunately makes it difficult to feel sorry for him as a character. Instead, as an audience, we are forced to revel in “media representations of queer culture as essentialist, marking out the dichotomies between male and female, heterosexual versus homosexual (Queer Youth Cultures, 2008, p.175). Kurofsky is unable to learn what it means to be a queer man and grow from his internalized homophobia because he is coming his existence and framing his life experiences through that of Kurt; this is apparent when Kurofsky is unable to dance with Kurt at prom because of the perception of gayness. We accept Kurofsky’s story as powerful and real and heartbreaking because it is, but at what point do content creators have an obligation to tell the story a different way, in a positive uplifting light?

Degrassi: The Next Generation of bury your gays tropes:

Degrassi: The Next Generation, a Canadian teen drama television series, made history for tackling the tough social issues affecting teens, but frequently not talked about. They embraced diversity in their casting and range of topics covered while spearheading a progressive movement of introducing characters traditionally absent from popular media. Adam, a trans male character played by a cis female actress is a well-rounded first introduction to many into the lives of trans youth. The audience is familiarized with concepts such as passing and outing as well as the complexities involved in sexuality vs gender. Adam, besides being inaccurately portrayed by a cis woman, which is damaging to the idea that trans folks are the gender they have identified with rather than their gender assigned at birth, provides a much needed avenue of representation for queer youth in popular media. Continuing with our previously identified tropes, as a result of Adam being happy, relatively healthy, and well-liked he has to die. Queer characters are not afforded regular happiness in media they are given a taste then sacrificed as tools of writing via violence, sacrifice, or martyrdom. Adam is not gay bashed or driven to suicide as other queer characters are, but instead tragically killed as a texting while driving PSA. This death is particularly hard felt because Adam was truly shaping out to be a normal high school kid facing the complexities of life and surviving, but the creators, once again, took a queer character as the source for a lesson in some predetermined idea that queer happiness is short lived and tragic regardless of circumstance. There is a need for punishment of their queerness.

Queer punishment, a Supernatural concept:

What do shipping, fandoms, and heteronormative dominant culture have in common? Queerbaiting. Queerbaiting, “a term employed by media fans to criticize homoerotic suggestiveness in contemporary television when this suggestiveness is not actualized in the program narrative” (Brennan, 2016, p.1). A concept typically negatively connoted is a primary tool of heteronormative culture ensuring queer culture remains as a subculture rather than its own, established independent source of media. Audiences, particularly queer individuals, are forced to imagine scenarios and worlds where their identities are represented and dominant. “By creating a fantasy space, queer youth have an environment where they are free to explore many possibilities” (Queer Youth Culture, 2008, p.174). From these creative worlds come the likes of couples like Dean and Castiel (#Destiel) from Supernatural. The creators introduce intimacy and connectedness; the couple is ideal and non-stereotypical or superficial. Unfortunately, our trend of no happy endings for queer media continues because despite the fan observations and urging this couple is never acknowledged or confirmed as such. They instead give several seasons of romantic teasing culminating in a teary subversive confession immediately preceded by death and not just any death, a death where Castiel, an angel character is drug to hell. The sub context is overwhelming in deciding queerness is so offensive that any acknowledgement to the sort should result in punishment akin to biblical reckoning.

Lingua Franca, the road to universal language and communication:

Even as queer media continually evolves becoming evermore accurate and inclusive the conditioning I have been subjected to, as a consumer of queer media, completely reprogram my brain. While watching something as relevant and present as Lingua Franca I am unable to completely enjoy the film as I am waiting for the proverbial other shoe to drop. Lingua Franca is a progressive film about a trans Filipina woman seeking a path to legal immigration in Trump’s America. The film is written, directed, and stars Isabel Sandoval an actual trans woman of color and therefore the portrayal is very real. As a film about a trans woman, the pace is melodic and light while the subject matter is focused on the life of Olivia rather than her transition or identity as a trans woman. While watching the film, I found it beyond refreshing that there were no invasive surgery questions or blatant misgendering by supposed loved ones. That being said, as a first watch through, it was anxiety inducing; the lack of discussion regarding Olivia’s trans identity led me to worry for her safety in a cis-heteropatriarchal world. When Olivia is engaging in her relationship with Alex I see the natural connections, simplicity, sensuality, and beauty, but I also worry about the potential for the violence I have come to expect when viewing true queer happiness. The scene where Olivia is outed by Alex’s friend shifted the entire tone of the film for me as I watched Alex spiral and truly cringed at the thought of watching another film showing an act of physical violence against a trans woman of color. While that thankfully did not happen, the fact that I remained restless throughout the entirety of the film waiting for it alludes to this reprogramming of sorts that has occurred. Creators show queer characters as poor unfortunate souls brought down by their queer identities therefore, I have come to expect and root for in some regards, a victim. There are limited instances when I can truly enjoy a queer film without a sinking feeling in my stomach waiting for the catch, waiting to exhale and simply experience queer joy.

[ladyloveandjustice]

I know this question has been asked many times before but, is it possible to analyze anime and manga from a feminist POV if someone isn't Japanese? because many things that Westerners consider feminist might not be such for Japanese people (such as several magical girl series) while things like BL are seen as feminist for many Japanese girls. Do you have any articles that get into that with more detail?

I’m by no means the go-to person for this, but it is something I’ve struggled with and thought about, so I’ll give answering a shot.

My current opinion is unproductive to try to label things “feminist” or “not feminist” on a broad level anyway. Things are usually a mix of good and bad, progressive and regressive and while there are anime that are blatantly talking about gender roles and gender politics- Revolutionary Girl Utena frex- its rare for it to be that clear cut. It’s much more valuable to acknowledge nuance and just honestly engage with what we find positive and negative. I think the presentation Is this Feminist or Not? Ways of Talking About Women in Anime hits a lot of good points.

Western fans consume anime and Western fandom is going to react to that consumption. People are impacted by the media they consume, regardless of where it comes from, regardless of how well they understand the original context. Anime fans will have anime inspire them in harmful ways and helpful ways, wherever they are. It may be perceived differently in the original cultural context and its certainly valuable to learn about that, and certainly we need to value that perspective and acknowledge the many viewpoints, and also be careful not to make uneducated assumptions about intent, etc. But to say you shouldn’t be “allowed” to engage with gender in anime as a Western fan strikes me as short sighted, because you ARE engaging with it whether you analyze and acknowledge that engagement or not. And other fans are going to engage with it whether you analyze and acknowledge it or not. If we shut up and just let the creeps in western fandom control the conversation, that helps no one.

With analysis, I think the best rule is to write from the heart, learn all you can, admit when you don’t know something, be open to other viewpoints and correction. That goes for anime analysis as well.

For articles, I think pretty much anything from animefeminist will show how good feminist anime analysis can be done. Some of it is about how a specific handling of a topic impacted the writer personally.. Some of it points out troubling trends and discusses them. They’re all well supported and often carefully avoid reductive arguments. They actively seek diverse perspectives. They also often link or feature perspectives of people from Japan. There was also a recent article on engaging with anime fandom as a black person. It’s good important stuff.

Since you mentioned BL and including the perspective of Japanese fans, Anifem featured a  podcast on BL where Masaki C. Matsumoto discussed how he really connected to BL as a young queer guy in Japan. He also did a Youtube video on his channel Queer English (where he also talks a lot about social justice and queer issues in general) where he talked about it and talked about how he considers a lot of the backlash against BL to be linked to misogyny, etc. His perspective was really interesting even though i’m not really into BL. (There’s also a video called Sexist Anime is Japanese Culture? worth checking out. Pretty relevant to this topic actually as he specifically says “I don’t like it when people say they want to respect my culture and that’s why they don’t want to say anything bad about misogynist content in anime and manga.”)

So yep, Japanese people’s perspectives are gonna be varied like any people’s perspectives, obviously. I’m sure there are a lot of different opinions on BL. Same goes for magical girls.

I think “Do your best, be sincere, learn more and listen” is always the key. I think reading autobiographical manga is another thing that’s invaluable for any animanga fan wishing to think about social themes and get additional context. You’ll get perspectives on gender, lgbtq and mental health issues in Japan straight from people who are dealing with them. Recently, I really enjoyed ‘My Lesbian Experience with Loneliness’ (by Nagata Kabi, a clinically depressed lesbian, it goes really deep into her mental health issues and is painfully raw and relatable) and “The Bride was a Boy” (by Chii, a trans woman).  

We might make mistakes in analysis, god knows I have, but going in with an honest intention to expand your knowledge, discuss your feelings, and listen to different perspectives counts for a lot. 

[amateurteacher]

WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A QUEER IN...?

First, a confession: It’s 22:49 in my country and I feel like my body is doing everything it can to separate itself from whatever's inside me. My skin doesn't feel like a skin and it seems like the air is solid under my fingers as I type these words. In the middle of this anxiety attack I remember that tomorrow I have to get up early for my class. I am 21 years old and the youngest professor at the university where I work. That means I still don't know how to handle the fact that my students of tomorrow think that one of the bloodiest massacres in Colombia's history is the fault of the victims because "they should have foreseen it". The college where I work is the most expensive college in the city, which means that many of its students are children of the privilege. Every time they express these violent expressions I can't avoid to see rocks in their hands and feel that if they could know I was a lesbian they would not hesitate to throw them at me, because, in most contexts, the privilege is misogynistic and markedly homophobic. My parents and my sister are sleeping. This silence is not very different from the silence that I usually feel when I am around them and I cannot show myself totally. More than anyone, I'd like to talk to something, and I feel like this blue page is the closest scenario I have to that conversation.

I graduated from literature at my university and I would like to share with you (the something invisible but real, the something timelessly present, the something unknown that takes time to read to another unknown, the something that is something because you cannot be someone when you are all at the same time) how some of the knowledge I learned during that period influenced my reflections on three of my favorite shows: Carmilla, Wynona Earp and Orphan Black. I would love to show you the thre ready-made reflections, but for now I will write my thoughts around Carmilla for as long as I need to take up my usual breathing and be able to sleep more peacefully.

I probably write this for myself but I still hope to find an echo in others "desvelados", which is a rare construction in Spanish that means “the one who lost sleep or can't fall asleep”, or in any fan, who like me, has found company in the stories of these series.

A METHOD OF ANALYSIS

Summarizing the whole theory, my method of literary approach is based on the works of Georg Lukács, Jacques Ranciere and studies on polyphony of Mikhail Bakhtin, from which a conception of literature is derived: literature is NEVER a reflection of reality, but a refraction of voices (many voices) of society (more a painting than a photo). Literature (and perhaps it would be good to already speak in terms of narratives) works in terms of representation. Therefore, I would not agree to use a book as a historical document, but certainly a book would reinterpret the voices of a historical moment in order to, according to the ideological positions of the author, create a version of it. The characteristic of this position is that it does not consider that the key to reading a text is in aesthetics as an artifice, as a manifestation of a style, but that all aesthetics are charged with an ethic (the author writes in a way because only in that way can he express his political bets).

All of the above is reduced to three levels of analysis. In my words:

-"Outside the book", which implies that to understand a book you must know everything about the author's writing context (why could this book only have been written at the time it was written?), the historical context in which the narration takes place, and the current literary situation in terms of literary movements and debates.

-"Inside the book", and I hope you don't misunderstand me, this is very important because we do literature, not sociology. This is the moment to put into practice all the critical tools related to time, characters, repeated thematic points: the architecture with which the story was constructed. The style of the book.

-A new one outside the book? Let's say "Above the book": this is the most interesting moment of the reflection where we try to construct the universe of values that allows the union of the two previous levels. Basically, what was the resulting image of reality, once we put together the pieces of the puzzle that the book proposes

You're probably bored. I think the only way I can explain myself is to "teach a lesson", but this is actually just as exciting for me as a last-minute goal, and I'm starting to feel better. All right, let's see how it goes when I analyze Carmilla.

CARMILLA AND THE UNIVERSAL LOVE

To give a quick example of what the first two levels of analysis would be like, because I want to focus on the last one, the "outside of Carmilla" could refer to a context of the need for good queer representation in the media and, to give a very specific example, a knowledge of how universities work in terms of fraternities (an element that, by the way, is not common in Latin America) The “inside of Carmilla” (and only referring to the digital series and not to the beautiful film) has an obvious aesthetic element that is marked by the presentation of the story from a "webcam" ,that is to say the story in a constant confession mode (usually from Laura- I take the moment to say that Elise Bauman  and Natasha Negovanlis are such a gift) and in a single setting (the room-the living room-the library).

So let's move on to "above Carmilla". I won't lie. When I approach a new series I usually do it for its queer representation. It still surprises me, moves me, makes me nervous, all at the same time, to see two women kissing on television. It is a constant reminder of validity.  I don't think there's anything wrong with this. But what makes me love a series is that, along with the fangirl that I can develop through a relationship, there is a space for deep reflection on who we are as people.

In Carmilla there are many reflections on this subject. In the first season the questions could be presented as: Is it worth fighting for what we think is right even when all the odds are against us? Should we resign ourselves to the fact that there is a natural world order that is stronger and more powerful than our vain attempts? In the second season the questions revolve around power: can we sacrifice everything around us in order to defend what we believe? Who determines that my cause is the noblest cause? Can I judge the actions of others based on my own scale of values? In the third season this exercise that I have been doing (to separate the reflections linked to love from the other reflections) is more difficult, because if one of the reflections of the second season around love, which I have not intentionally mentioned is should I change what I am for love?, in this last season the question is relativized and expressed as what is it that love causes in people, and when it comes to the issue of loss (Laura in the other dimension, death) how do I survive a lack of love, or why do I have to overcome my fears first to love? (I don't think it's a coincidence that this is the season for the beautiful Hollstein statement, interrupted by the Dean's applause)

Let's move away from all these reflections and focus only on the love between Laura and Carmilla. How do you unite the inside and the outside?

There are two consequences that I find in the presentation from the webcam: first, the world is reduced to the micro-world of, once again, Laura's room, the dean's former apartment and the library. This implies that an implicit pact is created with the characters. We must believe the story they tell us. The world is their world. It is a series without tricks in that sense, and very transparent. Everything that happens outside is only important because of its consequences inside. That is, the work is already "simplified" and what we can see is how what happens outside (the action) changes the characters (the reflection). That is, first conclusion, reality is only important for the kind of person it makes us be.

The second consequence is that as we can only see the immediate context of the characters, there are few characters. However, and to ensure the coherence of the story (that is, to convince us that a true story is being told) these characters were as varied as the outside world can be, and in that sense, and as I explained earlier that these characters are our only contact with the outside world, each of them would be an archetype. Laura is not just Laura, she is the archetype of people who have hope in changing their reality; Carmilla is not just Carmilla, she is the archetype of people excluded from history (because Carmilla's great debate is always in relation to history: should I let it all happen because in the end what happens won't have consequences for my immortal self? Can I overcome my past or will I remember it for all eternity) And… as the only romantic love story (couple love if you want to see it that way) we see in the series is the relationship between Laura and Carmilla, that relationship then comes to be built on an archetype of love. Wait, you mean the relationship between a young girl and a vampire is an archetype of love?!, but how can love between two specific personalities be a model of love?! Well, let's analyze how the series naturalizes love between them as love and period, and not as an expression of love between two women or love between a human and a mythological figure.

The explanation is very simple: the series does not problematize the fact that, for example, Laura is a lesbian, nor that Carmilla is a vampire (the two elements that could characterize this relationship as an "atypical" relationship). In the first case, and this was one of the elements that attracted the fandom from the beginning, we do not have a "coming out" in the series, and in fact, Laura's or Carmilla's sexuality is never a topic, it is not an element that the plot focuses on. It's just like that. It exists. It happens.

Likewise, the characters quickly get used to the existence of the supernatural in the story (except for Perry, and perhaps on another long night we could talk about his case. I mean, is the most reluctant of the situation possessed by a vampire goddess? That should be an important detail) This circumstance, which sometimes surpasses the absurd, does not create an “unreal-fake world”. Why? Because when Laura questioned the reasons why the world "was like this", and when all the characters questioned the same thing, they did not question why the world has vampires, or giant fishes or many dimensions. They questioned why evil or power or corruption exists. That's the world they want to change. It’s that "the weird", "the perverse", the "abnormal” about their lives.

I consider then that the purpose of the series is to analyze love through love between two women. That we forget and that we remember at the same time that they are two women. The love between Laura and Carmilla is a universal love, as an archetype, because it is presented as an expression of the standard and regular love that can be felt. And this, the basic claim to which all non-heterosexual people aspire, is achieved in the series thanks to all these strategies that I hope I have explained.

It's 12:47 pm. It's officially June, the month of pride. I think I should get some rest soon, because I really should get up early. I'm not anxious anymore, but I feel numb. I just want to make one last comment: is the love between Laura and Carmilla an example of perfect love because it is the official representation of love in the series? NO. Not at all. And this is the beauty of it all. We can learn from love through them: their difficulties, their celebrations, their lessons. What makes really transgressor the love between them to my eyes is not the fact of being a queer love but the fact that they decide, in the end, that their love will make them better, and that they will not destroy all if one of them dies. This is the Hollstein revolution. To break all the violent ideas associated with romantic heterosexual love, as an archetype in itself: possessive love, love that cannot be forgotten, love of “if you are not for me you are not for anyone”, “if I failed in love, we must all fail”. I'm not saying that all heterosexual love is like that. I'm talking about the patriarchy's versions of love (another night of explanations). Wow, my conclusion seems to be that Hollstein is, above all, a feminist love. I think I will end this conclusion like this. Nothing could be better than this.

Well, this is my literary reading of Carmilla. I am not an expert on this subject, nor do I want to present my version as the only one, much less the best. I was just looking for an outlet to unite my passions: literature + being a lesbian.  I don't know if anyone will read this or if anyone will find it interesting enough to continue the conversation. I just want to thank my Tumblr companies, with whom I have rarely spoken but who are with me now and always in this “struggle for being” in the day to day. This is my way of thanking you for your selfies, your gifs, your jokes, your criticisms of violence. I'm just getting started. I hope to publish my thoughts on Wayhaught and Cophine soon. I hope to sleep.

Feliz junio, my darlings.

PD:

-Sorry if I have grammatical or spelling mistakes. English is not my native language.

- As you can see I am using queer as a spectrum and not as a specific identity. I hope this isn't vague or offensive.

 Karla.

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Aspec & Arospec YouTube List Part 2!

Apparently there are a lot more ace youtubers that I missed on the last list…

The descriptions for each channel are pretty much just copied and pasted from their channel descriptions. Unless they didn’t have a description, in which case I just wrote ‘vlogger’.

Please note: All the content of the channels below may or may not reflect the views or opinions of this blog or it’s moderators. Nor is all of it safe for work or free of problematic elements. Please use your own discretion. 

Note 2: If your favorite youtuber is not on this list, feel free to add on! 

Enjoy!

Aaron Ansuini: A trans ace vlogger who talks about both asexuality, being trans, video games, art, and motivation; Twitter

Abbie Wells: Aspec singer, actress, and vlogger; Twitter, Tumblr, Instagram 

Aced It!: We are just a handful of Ace/Aro YouTubers who wanted to make a community to chat! Hang out let’s talk! ; instagram

Ace Ideas: We are a diverse group of asexuals here to share our knowledge, experiences, passions, hobbies, and stories surrounding our asexuality.; Facebook, tumblr, twitter 

Aceland Alexander Kent: Transgender-Male, Homoromantic, Aceflux-Asexual musician and vlogger. He used to run the queer information channel, Questions and Queeries ; Twitter, Instagram, Tumblr, BandCamp

Ahsante the Artist: Artist, Storyteller, Harvard 2015. A place for educated discussion, spirited lifestyle, cultural critique, creative reflection, and the silly goings on in the life and mind of Ahsante; website, Tumblr, Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, Portfolio website, Patreon

Androigynous: Hey guys! Andie here. Your resident cat girl. You’ll find gameplay, art, unboxings and feline vlogs! There’s something for everyone. ✨; instagram, facebook

Antastesia: A French asexual feminism/lifestyle/travel/vegan vlogger; Tumblr, Twitter, Instagram, Facebook, professional website

Anthony Pero: Posting funny videos and skits with the purpose of making people laugh. I like to focus on anything from serious topics like depression to goofier subjects like my Facebook newsfeed. My channel also consists of parodies of people I know, things I see, or random events that I think need to be spoofed; Twitter, Facebook, Instagram

ArtByFlan: Sometimes I draw things. Sometimes I record myself drawing things. Sometimes I post videos of myself drawing things here!; tumblr, deviantart, facebook, twitter

Asexualise My Asexual Life:  Asexualise Your Asexual Life: Empower And Enhance Your Asexual Life. Giving Asexuals a voice in the world. It is my mission to give asexuals a voice in the world; to empower other asexuals to be comfortable and confident with their asexuality; and to give insight into my colourful asexual life, to enable others to better understand their own and to know they are not alone. I want to educate others about asexuality, so that in the future, all asexuals can live in society happily.; twitter, facebook 

Autistic Asexual fangirl Adventures: just a vlog page, random ramblings and adventures of a autistic asexual and geek who wants to try and make the word a better place.; twitter

BaptismOnFire: My name is Jack, I love horror and all things creepy. Here you’ll find videos about nightmares, monsters, creepypasta and generally spooky things! Remember to watch the skies, stay paranoid and trust no one…; Twitter, Tumblr, DeviantArt

Blue Phoenix Ace: American ace education vlogger. My goal is to educate people about Aromanticism and Asexuality, because maybe it will help someone learn the truth about themselves before they hit the age of 37!; music channel, Website, Soundcloud, Facebook

BreakfastAlexis: An asexual artist who creates animatics; tumblr, twitter, redbubble

Brian Langevin: Occasional videos discussing asexuality and life in general! This channel also hosts an archive of Everything’s A-Okay - a project Brian Langevin started alongside the project’s writer, Amy Liang, to bring greater visibility to asexuality; Twitter

Channel for Positivity l Understanding l Justice: Demisexual Korean-American motivational vlogger. Stay woke. See BOTH Sides. Social Justice. Bite-Sized Politics. Build more POSITIVITY :D Pragmatic Utopian. Diversity. Understand Humans & Relationships. Embrace Progress.; twitter, tumblr

Christi Kerr: This channel is a mix of whatever I like to do, which mainly includes vlogging but could include any number of things; Twitter, Tumblr, Facebook, SnapChat, Instagram

Christine Sydelko: The youtube channel of vine-star/popular internet comedian and her boyfriend; Twitter, Instagram, Snapchat

Clara Unleashed: Denmark based asexual/biromanic vlogger. They also run the aspec focused youtube channel, My Ace Experience ; Instagram, Twitter, Tumblr

Cultlleader: Asexual Vlogger; Instagram, twitter

curlybobofelia: UK based asexuality Awareness, LGBTQ, Mental Health Awareness, Disability Rights, Child Rights & Anti-bullying Advocate vlogger; Tumblr, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram

Dylan Tyler: I’m Dylan, and I suck at writing the intro things, so let’s just eat a lot of popcorn together and do an unhealthy amount of binge watching. Subscribing makes it easier to find me when you’re up for binging :) ; instagram, twitter

ElectraSnow: Demisexual artist, makeup artist, and special effects makeup expert: Twitter, Etsy, Tumblr, Facebook

Elisa Hansen/Maven of the Eventide: Voraciously vivacious Vampire Reviews. The Maven peers into the realms of the creatures of the night for a humorous analysis of vampires in media and pop culture; Twitter, Facebook

Embly: 18 years old, also the cutest small potato in the neighbourhood, wine mum, also very salty and nostalgic over a jam sandwich she lost over 2 years ago; Twitter, Instagram

Estelle Z: Music, vlogs, scrapbooks, and whatever else I happen to fancy; Tumblr, Twitter, Soundcloud, Facebook, Patreon, Gumroad

happy fish: Autistic, mentally ill, queer, nonbinary person vlogging about my life and trying to pretend I know how to function as an adult.; etsy, tumblr

Heroic Pages: Canadian, lover of books, films and imagination…and also a huge nerd!! Critter! Very much an unapologetic introvert (INTJ) ACE hermit cat lady den mother!; twitter, instagram, goodreads

JakeMale TV: I do Comedy sketch videos but also Vlogs! I share my life experiences with you so you can laugh at my mistakes. I have funny moments in my life, come and join me living my life. Click on ‘SUBSCRIBE’ to be told when I upload a new video! I advice it, MY LIFE IS WEIRD! I also do a University Advice series!; twitter, facebook, vimeo

Jeff Miller: Demiromantic/demisexual transmasculine musician, actor, and all around content creator; Patreon, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Tumblr

janeil darnell: An aroace vlogger; twitter

jennaclarek: Heteroromantic asexual. I just graduated college with a BS degree (get it) in Audio/Video Production. I’m also obsessed with Taylor Swift, strawberry cake, and musicals. I mostly make videos about books, but I also make videos about my life, my faith, and the other things I enjoy!; goodreads, twitter, tumblr, instagram, bandcamp

Jourdann: A channel that’s all about ships (the tv kind), college life, and artsy videos; Twitter, Tumblr, Instagram

kaihugstrees: Non-binary asexual. I make videos every week about my life, from travel vlogs and challenges to videos about mental health, disability, and queer topics; Twitter, Tumblr

Kelly McCraw: Akoiromantic Asexual vlogger

Marshall John Blount: Just an Ace guy trying to make it through life…This vlog will be about my everyday life and Asexual awareness…..I hope y'all will tag along on this interesting journey with me 💜💜

marsisnotcreative: Brazilian vlogger. Does covers of songs, videos chatting about stuff i enjoy, giving opinions, rants about some things that bother me, pseudo-artsy videos; twitter, tumblr, instagram

megathornberryy: Aspec book reviewer and vlogger; Goodreads, Twitter, Instagram

Milo Stewart: My name is Milo and my pronouns are they/them. Gender confused college kid named “YouTube’s most controversial trans vlogger” by The Daily Dot; Twitter, Instagram

Mikey Neumann (of Chainsawsuit Original): Ace president of Chainsaw Original and film critic ; Twitter, Website

moonchild: My channel covers a large variety of topics and genres, some of which include asexuality, body modifications, mental health, with the occasional story time or rant video thrown in; Tumblr

Overlysarcasticproductions: Sarcastic, yet informative, summaries of classic and not-so-classic literature and mythology, as well as major historical events! (Red has stated that she is asexual); threadless, cafepress, twitter

Peach The College Girl’s Vlog: Asexual Biromantic gaming channel ;twitter, twitch, snapchat

Phoebe Saturn : i make youtube videos as a hobby and hopefully have a positive impact on your day :] ; twitter

ppusherr: Gender, Sexuality, and Social Issues solved with Positivity and Education; Tumblr

punkygirlontherock: Asexual Canadian vlogger

Ricky Dillon: American YouTube personality and singer-songwriter; Book website, Twitter, Tumblr, Instagram, Spotify

Sally Le Page: Grey-ace UK vlogger. Aims to bring science further into popular culture by making science videos that make you laugh, make you feel and make you think; Website, Twitter, Facebook, Instagram, Flickr

sara elizabeth: Demisexual American make-up vlogger. i’m sara and i’m sorta obsessed with makeup and musicals; twitter, instagram

Sebastian Columbine: A horror and surrealist, filmmaker and artist in Los Angeles, California. This youtube channel surrounds Sebastian’s unique style, both in terms of fashion and beauty, as well as their lifestyle and artistic endeavors; Professional blog/website, Instagram, Twitter, Facebook, Patreon

skellydun: life is an experience. here are some of mine; Tumblr

SixFootNerd: British, six foot and a total nerd! Just someone talking about Movie/Tv News, Events, Reviews and Discussions; Twitter, Tumblr

Sophie Foster: Demisexual/biromantic fashion, makeup, and lifestyle vlogger from the UK; Tumblr, Twitter, Instagram

SoulOfEbony: I wanna scribble cartoons for a living and make people smile.; tumblr, twitter

Taye Nic: I’m just an 20 year old college student who is trying to live for the first time:) Lol, I just got into makeup! I also love making things, broadway, Disney, my boho chic style lol and NYC more than anything else! I also love to make friends so stop by; twitter, instagram, pinterest

The Asexual Goddess: Ace and in your face. I’m actually an introvert so i don’t know how that works

TheGothicAlice: Asexual Aromantic artist, Manic Panic dyehard, horror junkie, cynic, and part time model; facebook, Etsy, Tumblr

TheMysteriousMrEnter: Asexual/Aromantic animation reviewer; DeviantArt, Tumblr, Twitter, TvTropes, Facebook,

Vivi Addams: Feel free to hang around for a while, watch some Lego animations, hopefully subscribe… Enjoy!; Tumblr, Twitter

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Engineers in the winter: RESEARCH Element 2

Engineers in the winter: RESEARCH Element 2

Thank you for visiting Part 3 of Planners in the Summer! At present, we look inside my interview using Harper Hopkins, a soaring junior engaging in research throughout computational physics. Harper Hopkins is initially from Maine and reports computer research in the Tufts School associated with Engineering. This woman is involved with Ladies in Computer Science, two theater categories (Bare Bodkin & 3Ps), the trans support group, the exact queer immediate friends, and Avian, a interpersonal organization which includes a focus on learning and locality engagement.

Hi Harper! Could you you should tell me somewhat about your analysis?

I will be doing homework in computational physics with Professor Bob Atherton during the Physics Office. We’re viewing modeling one of the striking using a statistical physics process, based on concepts of data theory as well as cellular automata.

Support. You’re going to should break this down. You will absolutely a compensation sci serious, right?

Yes, Really a workers comp sci important! But computational physics talks about using existing computer scientific research methods in addition to applying the crooks to physics concerns. The research we have been doing is known as a mix of sociology, physics, plus computer scientific disciplines. We’re using a statistical method of sociology, taking a look at the structure and history of social networks— just how language or opinions get spread around through multitude, for example.

Okay. Enjoy exactly does one model any social network?

I’m modeling the social networking using ruse of particles moving random on the surface of the sphere, drawing the illustration that contaminants are persons. If they arrive close plenty of together, people form an association. In the real world, this could be as though you go on a class jointly or bump into people at a celebration, for example. Wish looking at the length of time they continue being connected the actual they contact form or bust connections. For example , if the airborne debris drift away from each other and visit outside the distance threshold, the bond will break up. In every day life, this could be as you finished that class and never talk to that individual so you unfriend them at Facebook 24 months later.

Fascinating! The way in which did you wind up in a physics lab like a Summer Scholar?

I took Physics 12 along with Professor Atherton, and I dearly loved his teaching style. 7 days a week, he offers a soft make any difference theory exploration group in which he becomes together with scholars to discuss studies and work on code. At some point he said, “Hey, anyone looks pretty excited about this stuff. Do you wish to take a stab at this job? ” I had been already able to ask the pup for potentials, but this individual beat me to it!

Aw, interesting! I love the item when such thinggs as that work available. So , I like to ask present students, the key reason why did you finally choose Tufts and exactly how did you find it?

I actually possess a great tale! The summer previously senior time, I had certainly no intention for applying to Tufts whatsoever. So i’m from a minuscule town within eastern Maine, where we have exactly one coffee shop— well, 2 if you find the bakery. Sooner or later, I was presently there and some tired, dirt-covered men followed into the look. Two lecturers and a college. I couldn’t help however , eavesdrop and found out we were looking at geologists. These needed enable looking for road directions, and for various reason That i knew of exactly where while in the library the actual maps they were looking for have been located. Trouble they were right from Tufts and searching for items for a past or present student’s thesis. Once i helped them all, they thanked me and even said, “You should apply to Tufts! in I thought ?t had been kind of great that they permit a haphazard high-schooler make them. A couple weeks in the future, I visited Tufts, when five seconds I knew it was the place I had formed to go. Manged to get in MALE IMPOTENCE and never regretted her decision!

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    While the associated with portfolio appears to be simple, the actual of designing an art class portfolio looks like mysterious along with overwhelming. It’s hard to believe that particular application need can improve so many inquiries. Students frequently ask questions for example; ‘What’s a new portfolio? ‘, ‘What are those really interested in? ‘ ‘How do I sum up my knowledge? ‘ ‘How will this unique weigh into my judgement? ‘

Performs this sound familiar? I know, as artists we’ve almost all been there, it’s really a lot to consider in— consequently let me start by saying, deciding on art college is hard. You have to prove you both academically and nicely. Your portfolio is your creative transcript; them demonstrates your own artistic ability. It permits us to assess your personal skill set along with ideas, and also understand how all of our program can support you along with propel an individual forward as a possible artist.

Your portfolio need to represent a person, who you are, promote your hobbies, and mirror what you’ve been exposed to. It should comprised of 15-20 pieces of your company’s most recent, most robust work; deliver the results that mentions your knowledge and what you like to do having those ability that you’ve acquired. So indeed, it is a good plan to have quite a few pieces in the portfolio which will speak to your variety of technical skills across an array of media explaining your strengths, while many other pieces show your personal voice or conceptual investigations. It may possibly contain works-in-progress and bits brought to conclusion. Sorry, nevertheless there isn’t a one-size-fits-all recipe that you follow. The selection is a reflection of anyone — it again shows us who you are and just how you synthesize the world you meet. Remember, your own personal portfolio can be a curated bio of the operate that you’ve carried out to date — your inspired conversation begun years before you decide to even thought regarding preparing a new ‘portfolio, ‘ and this discussion will continue long after anyone hit put up in SlideRoom.

I know this seems frightening, I know if you’re putting on your own out there in a manner that isn’t uncomplicated, and I find out it’s still a bit halfandhalf. — for that reason embrace the very ambiguity plus flex your own creative problem-solving muscle. Take a look at it’s your company love, romance, and willpower to fine art and skill making with which has gotten you actually this significantly, so make go and perform what you enjoy. As performer Agnes hun Mille and once said ‘The artist in no way entirely appreciates — People guess. Natural meats be completely wrong, but we consider leap subsequently after leap in the dark’. Merely leap.

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