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bcdwhcre · 4 years ago

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“Sides,” Armin x Reader

We’re gonna act like Annie doesn’t exist. Bear w/ me.

Summary: Being the female titan, you join the scouts to gather information to bring back to Marley but you end up falling for Armin which makes you debate whether or not you should continue to be a spy.

Warnings: end of s3 spoilers mixed with beginning of s4, a lil bit of angst.

Armin x Fem!Reader

The long years of training to become a scout was finally over, during the training corps- you tried to keep your distance away from others except for Reiner and Bertholdt but placing in the top ten and choosing to go forward with being in the scout regiment, it was a lot harder to avoid talking to the others.

Armin was the first and only person to easily come up and talk to you. He liked your strength and how confident you were during training, he always asked for help when it came to combat and at first you would decline and reject his pleas for you to help him.

You weren’t here for friendships, you were here to gather information. But time went on, the more Armin came up to you, the more you softened up. He was always sweet and gentle with you, always complimenting you and talking about how great you were at being a scout.

He was always making sure you were okay, mentally and physically. He was always by your side, being a good friend but deep down he already had feelings for you, he had them since the training corps.

When it came to him, all he ever thought about was Eren and Mikasa but when he seen you, it was kinda like love at first sight until he seen you in action. You were very intelligent, strong, selfless and brave. It was the reason why he liked you so much.

One day it had hit you, the feelings and realization, you were slowly falling in love with Armin the more you hung out with him, the more you worked with him and it was driving you crazy.

The days he would come up to you, giving you a simple cup of coffee or when out in the field he would be in complete awe of the way you were so good at the ODM gear and easily slaughtered the Titans without hesitation. He admired you.

You even tried to convinced Reiner and Bertholdt to go back to Marley early because you felt yourself slowly slipping and giving into Armin. You wanted to go back home and prevent you messing up the mission. You told them to leave and give the information you already have but they refused and it made you think about a lot.

Then Armin started to sit in your room most nights, ranting about beautiful things and ideas he had in that big brain of his. He even opened up about seeing the ocean to you, shocking the both of you because he only ever told Eren and Mikasa.

“I don’t mean to ramble, I know I do it a lot.” He admitted, his cheeks turning a light shade of red and you shook your head.

“No, I enjoy listening to you.” The way his eyes lit up when he turned to look at you, his heart pounding inside his chest.

Armin was never much of a bold person, he was shy and emotional and people seen him as weak for it but when you looked at him, it had given him that boost of confidence to lean over and press his lips on yours.

It had caught both of you off guard, he wasn’t expecting you to kiss him back and you weren’t expecting a kiss from him at all. It was only a small gentle kiss but it made your heart flutter, feeling as if it was going to explode out of your chest.

He gave you a small smile, standing up from your bed and grabbing the book he had brought to show you and you watched him walk to the door, he was completely flustered.

“I’ll talk to you tomorrow, I hope you sleep well.” He turns towards you, waving bye and walked out of your room to leave you with your thoughts.

The way your parents at home would be completely disappointed in you, everyone at home would be disappointed in you but hanging around Armin more made your eyes open up and shine light on why they hated the Titans and you understood.

You had become one of them and you hated to admit that but you’ve never met someone like Armin, he was different and beautiful in so many ways. You were willing to risk your home for him.

The day had came to where you had to use your titan form, not wanting to but Reiner had threatened you otherwise and it just made you feel guilty. You felt like you were betraying Armin and it made your heart break piece by piece.

You glanced over at them, sighing under your breath and leaped off the wall, your body transforming into the large female titan. You hated this with every fiber in your being but you just ran off to get the job done and return back with no questions asked.

Once the plan was done, the job that Reiner couldve simply done but forced you to do, you had heard the scouts from afar and quickly ran to hide to get out of the giant body you were hiding in.

You broke out of the tough skin, gasping for air and seeing the steam around you as you quickly got out and landed on the hard ground, your eyes moved up and suddenly they met with a pair of blue ones.

“Y/N?” Armin’s voice cracked, his heart squeezing in his chest at the sight of you, he had seen everything and the stripes under your eyes proven to be true.

“Armin, wait.” You had reached out for him but he flinched back, his eyes wide and filling up with tears.

“You’re the... you’re the female titan, you were a titan this whole time.” He shook his head, in disbelief and the memories of you two that flooded his head convinced him they were all fake.

All the nights he stayed in your bed, rambling about anything and the way he would cuddle you, kiss parts of your body and always leaving your lips for last because that was his favorite spot.

He assumed they were all fake. You were an imposter.

“Let me explain, please.” You had tried to plead with him, your hands trying to grab onto his but he continued to back away from you, terrified.

“Explain what? I just saw you! You’re a titan!” He yelled at you, making you freeze in your spot and you accepted defeat at that point.

You never wanted to hurt Armin or lie to him and the way the tears streamed down his face, it made your heart hurt and it made you drop to your knees- running away would just make you look more like a criminal to Armin and that’s the last thing you wanted to do.

You heard the scouts from afar coming closer, your sad eyes staring into his and you moved your head to look down at the ground.

“I never wanted to lie to you, Armin. I love you more than anything.. even enough to get myself arrested right now. I don’t want to lose you, everything... everything we shared was fucking real to me. Just please let me explain everything.” You were in tears, not caring about your family or your home, you were willing to give it all up for him.

He stared at you, stunned with his eyes wide and he finally took a step forward towards you. The hurt in your eyes made him soften up, making him drop to his knees in front of you and you lifted your head up to look at him.

“Why?” He whispered towards you, he was confused, beyond confused. He never expected this out of you, he loved you too much to believe you could be capable of this

“I knew I would get taken and tortured if I revealed that I’m a titan shifter. Look what they did to Eren, they almost killed him.” You rushed out, making him stare at you and he hated how easily he gave into you.

He embraced you in a tight hug, catching you by surprise as you felt his hair tickling the side of your face and you hesitated before wrapping your arms around him, burying your face into his shoulder.

“I won’t let them hurt you. You just have to be honest, tell them the truth.”

Your heart broke more if that was even possible. You didnt want to lie to him but you couldn’t bring up Marley, you couldn’t bring up Reiner or Bertholdt. You had to come up with some other plan, to please the scouts.

“Okay.” You gave in, your hands clinging onto the back of his jacket, afraid of letting him go or getting ripped away from him.

He had pulled back, cupping your cheeks and brushed his thumb over the markings that were slowly fading away and he sighed under his breath.

His heart aches for you, he wouldn’t be able to handle losing you. Not one bit. As the scouts dropped to the ground around you, aiming their swords at your head, Armin had stood up and guarded you.

“She’s not a threat! Put the blades away, please!” He shouted, making Levi grunt under his breath and walk over to the both of you.

Levi had looked down at you with disgust, his blade tilting your head up straight to meet his gaze and he gave you a cold stare.

“I expect you to come with us willingly and not put up a fight, if you do- I won’t hesitate to put you down for good.” He ordered you, making you nod your head slowly and you stood up.

Armin had stayed beside you, making the Captain give him a dirty look as well but he always trusted Armin’s instinct but hated his big heart in wanting to believe everything he hears.

Levi had stayed in front of you, leading the way back to the main base and Erwin had joined as all four of you sat inside his office. They asked Armin to leave but he rejected, wanting to stay put and be beside you- to make sure they wouldn’t do anything.

“I want everything out on the table.” Erwin ordered you, making a lump form in your throat and you made up some story about how you became a titan and why you kept it from them.

They had somewhat believed it, especially when you gave evidence of always being a good scout and never betraying them one bit but they continued to watch you like a hawk.

When you finally had some alone time, Reiner shoved you towards the woods with Bertholdt following closely behind to make sure no one was watching or coming but it was the middle of the night anyways, everyone was asleep.

“What the fuck is wrong with you? Are you trying to get us killed?” Reiner shouted at you, wanting to completely punch you in the face but held himself back.

“I didn’t mean for it to turn out like this!”

“Like what? You falling for these fucking murderers?! Is that it? Do I need to take you back to Marley and have you killed?” He pointed his finger towards you and you shook your head repeatedly.

“You better watch yourself or else Armin is dead, you hear me? Don’t blow this.” He threatened you, making your blood boil at the sound of Armin’s name being brought up.

That’s when you had enough, you were tired of it all. The mission, the secrets, everything. You raised your fist, punching Reiner straight in the jaw and it had made him stumble back in shock.

“I don’t give a shit about this mission but if you touch Armin, I swear you two would be dead in an instant. Remember your place.” You said, making him stare at you with such anger, he was convinced he would shift and fight you right in the woods but Bertholdt grabbed a hold of him.

“Not here, please, we’re supposed to be a team.”

“A team?! Marley raised us on how these people are murderers and terrible human beings and yet.. all they do is protect lives from titans. Fuck that bullshit, Marley is full of fucking liars and cowards!” You screamed at the both of them, not hesitating to hold any of your emotions back.

“You’re the coward and a traitor, once this is over with and we collect Eren- you and Armin are getting killed next.” Reiner scoffed, storming away and Bertholdt had stared at you before following his friend.

You were angry, all the thoughts rushing to your head and you wanted to kill them. You didn’t even care about the stupid mission anymore, it’s not like you were ever wanted on that stupid island anyways.

You got lucky that you got handed down the female titan. The only reason you did is because your dad had paid them heavy amounts of money just so he can finally be proud of you. Your family couldn’t care less about you, they only wanted you to do this because your older brother had risked his life for Marley and died in battle- they expected you to do the same.

Other than that, they pretty much hated you. You were convinced they did this to you so you can leave and not be around anymore.

Your eyes filled up with tears, of sadness and anger to the point where you stomped your way back inside the base and went straight for Armin’s room, seeing him asleep on the bed. You softened up, wiping the tears from your face and you sat on the floor beside his bed.

You didn’t want to wake him, he looked too peaceful. So you just stayed put, your fingers lightly brushing through his hair and you sighed quietly. You were so in love with him that it really messed with your head. You had no thoughts anymore, just Armin.

And you promised yourself to protect him with everything you had. Nothing was worth it anymore, you just wanted him.

Time had passed by, a lot of time. After getting Eren back from the two titan shifters, the scouts were settled on reclaiming wall Maria and also trying to hunt down Reiner and Bertholdt.

You were on your horse, rushing towards the wall and you had moved your head to glance back at Armin, seeing the happy smile he gave you and you couldn’t help but smile at him.

That is until everyone had made it to the wall, Reiner getting caught and not hesitating to shift and try to kill everyone. He was going crazy and from afar, the Beast Titan- the one person you haven’t seen in ages, since before you left Marley.

Your heart had pounded in your chest, you had a awful feeling. Maybe it’s because you technically were the traitor, you were siding with the Scouts but you didn’t regret doing that.

Levi had instructed you to hold your Titan form back unless it was absolutely needed because he believed Eren was fully capable of doing most of the work. But that was until Bertholdt had shown up, shifting when he saw how beaten Reiner was- convinced he was dead, it sent him into a rage.

Even then, Levi had made you hold back.

So you did.

Then when you went back over the wall after helping with Levi, both Titan shifters were down and you could hear screaming in the distance. You leaped off the wall, using the ODM gear to help you land on the floor and you saw Eren hovering over a body.

“Eren?” You were quiet but his head snapped towards you, complete pain written across his face as tears were uncontrollably streaming down.

“I’m sorry.” He said, making your eyes look down at the body and suddenly your knees had grown weak.

It was barely unrecognizable but you could tell who it was, your body giving out on you as you drop to your knees and practically crawled over to him. Your hands shaky and you wanted to grab onto him but you hesitated, the way his body was completely burnt- you couldn’t grab him.

It had taken a moment to hit you, the realization and a painful scream had left your lips knowing Reiner and Bertholdt had done what they said they were going to do- kill him.

Your heart felt empty, that’s the only way to put it. Empty. Shattered. You felt hollow.

Your screams and sobs were painful to Eren’s ears but he tried his best to somewhat comfort you. Making the others drop down on the roof and Levi had shortly came afterwards, the Titan serum being brought up but also Erwin as both of them barely were breathing.

Eren was quick to argue, threatening to fight Levi if needed for Armin to get it and Mikasa had done the same. You didn’t want to fight but you would lay your life down on the line for Armin.

“It goes to him.” You barely said over a whisper, staring down at his body and everyone had looked over at you.

“You’re telling me to pick a kid over the commander? Are you guys idiots?” Levi grunted, making your eyes shoot over at him and you stood up.

“If you would’ve simply ordered me to use my Titan form and help, Armin wouldn’t be like this right now! This is on you and you only and if I have to, I will fully use force to give him that fucking serum.” You threatened him and his eyebrows raised in amusement.

“Remember your place, cadet or else I’ll put you in it.”

The anger had bubbled up inside of you, making you rise to your feet and before you could even walk up to Levi, you were grabbed by Jean who was already injured enough from the events that occurred.

“It’s not worth it.” He mumbled, looking down at you with sad eyes, he wanted Armin to live just as much but he knew he didn’t have a say in the matter.

“It’s not worth it? Armin deserves that serum more than anyone here. Let’s not forget who even saved our asses half the time, it was him.” You practically shouted at all of them and Levi finally had enough.

He forced everyone to go away so he can decide on his own. Plus most them being injured, everyone needed to back away. But you didn’t want to go without a fight, Eren had to pull you away and take you off the building.

You didn’t want to leave Armin, you didn’t want him to die or even die alone. It made the tears slip from your eyes again, the pain you felt in your chest, it was your fault he was like this. You couldn’t help but blame yourself for everything.

But once you saw the Titan shift and eat Bertholdt, your feet managed to run over to where it was, Eren trying to grab back onto you but it was too late. You had went on the roof, watching the Titan stare at you before collapsing- the steam covering the body and you could see Armin’s body rip out of the skin.

Your heart stopped, almsot tripping over your feet as you climbed over the body and grabbed onto Armin, more sobs leaving your lips, not being able to have control over your emotions. You clinged onto him, holding his body to your chest and laid your head on top of his.

Everything was such a blur but seeing Armin just made everything clear again.

It had taken him hours to wake up, making you grow impatient as you sat on the wall beside his body and glanced around at the empty town. The victory of reclaiming wall Maria didn’t excite anyone, maybe it was because of the amount of lives lost.

Armin had woken up, his head pounding and confused as to how he was still alive until his eyes laid on you, seeing the back of your head as you stared out at the sky, hearing the breeze.

“Y/N.” He mumbled, his hand reaching out to place on your back and your eyes moved down to him.

You didn’t want to cry again but you were feeling overly emotional, his blue eyes staring up into yours and suddenly you tackled him in a hug. Almost making you both fall over but he grabbed onto you, burying his face into your shoulder.

“I thought I lost you.” You admitted, pain in your voice and as he remembered the events that happened, how he put his life on the line- he felt guilty for making you worry.

“I’m sorry but I’m here, I’m alive.” He pulled back, his soft hands reaching up to grab your cheeks and your heart finally felt full.

“I love you, I really do.” You barely said over a whisper, the butterflies swarming in your stomach and he brushed strands of your hair back from your face.

“Trust me, I love you more.” He sighed happily, seeing your face again made him realize just how precious you were to him.

He gently peppered kisses on your face, like he always did. He would always plant them all over, taking his time and always leaving your lips for last because that was his favorite spot.

Once he was done with your face, his fingers tangled in your hair and glanced down at your lips then back up to your eyes, the cute little grin on his face as he finally molded your lips together and kept it slow yet soft.

After that, you had told Armin everything. From Marley to everything and why you came to the island. He understood, he wasn’t mad at you because you never showed signs of betrayal. He knew that and he fully trusted you.

You knew everyone back home would be angry, wanting you dead but as his bright blue eyes stared at you with such love and hope, it was worth betraying your home for him. He was the only person that cared about your well being and loved you completely.

Armin was all you needed. Nothing else mattered.

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jbbarnesandnoble · 6 years ago

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Stained Secrets

Pairing: Bucky Barnes x Reader

Summary: Once a cheater always a cheater, right?

Warnings: Angst, Heartbreak, Cheating, Sad Bucky

Word Count: 1,452

Prompt: Be Alright by Dean Lewis

A/N: This was originally for @itsbuckysworld: Hello Spring 31 Day Fiction Short Story Event. But alas I fell behind and probably won’t be able to work on it anymore. I only have so much time before I have to take a hiatus over the summer (I’ll explain later in another post, so look out for that) and want to get other stories done or at least updated once more before I go (Possibly F&A, a story for a writing challenge I joined) Anyway, I wrote this in like 20 minutes one night and figured I should post it.

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Bucky looks up from the ground, meeting your sad, teary eyes. You look away, you can't bear to look at him. You don’t want to see the hurt in his eyes, most importantly, you don’t want to see the look of betrayal written all over his face. You're caught off guard when he reaches for your hand. Grabbing it gently.

Instinctively, she pulls away from his touch. Her skin was cold against his as his fingers brushed over hers. He can tell something is on her mind and her strange behavior is only making him more anxious. What if he did something wrong, what if it was the nightmares. Maybe she’s tired of him always being so needy of her. He wouldn’t blame her if she is. If she wants to leave him to be with someone who isn’t constantly trying to fight their inner demons. He’s surprised she even loved him in the first place, he’s just a shell of a broken man after all. HYDRA wiped the man he once was, he’ll always have this… this baggage and why should a girl as wonderful and amazing as Y/N, have to deal with that? It isn’t fair to her, it isn’t fair to anyone.

“What’s wrong, doll?” Bucky asks visibly nervous, his flesh hand shakes slightly as he speaks. You feel fresh tears burning at your eyes. Swallowing the lump in your throat, you speak. “I… I made a mistake Buck.” Your voice trembles, slowly beginning to break. You bite your bottom lip, trying to stop yourself from crying.

He stares at you confused, but mostly terrified. A million thoughts run through him. Each one worse than the last. His mouth feels dry when he speaks. “W-What mistake…?” he asks, dreading her answer. He runs his metal hand through his hair, the way he does when he’s nervous.

“I… last night I told you t-that Nat and I hung out... I wasn't with Nat, Buck.” your voice wavers. You know if you continue to speak you'll break down. You push on anyway. Tears threaten both of your eyes. You break first.

“Don't, please, don't.” he says in a whisper. You standing there in silence, tears streaming down both of your faces. Somehow this was even worse than anything his messed up mind could conjure up. “It was my ex-boyfriend, he said he needed…. no, he wanted to explain the other night… I was an idiot to believe that’s all he wanted.” The other night, when he decided that showing up unannounced would be a grand idea. Bucky knew what it meant, he wanted you back and he didn’t plan on leaving until he got just that. Apparently he did.

You make a fist, letting your nails dig into your flesh. Not wanting to say the next part. The part that will only break his already broken heart.

“He… we kissed.” her words are so quiet he almost doesn't catch them. A part of him wishes he didn't. He stands there, trying his best to hold himself together. That alone is taking up any energy he might have left.

“Did you... sleep with him?” he doesn't know if he actually wants to hear her answer. But he doesn't know what else to say. She stares at him, completely hurt that he thinks she would do that to him. Yes, she may have kissed him back. But she pushed him away almost immediately. Of course, almost immediately isn’t the same as pushing him away before he even had the chance to kiss her.

Bucky knows they used to date, long before she met him. He thought maybe she was over him, that he didn’t have a hold over her any more. Maybe he was wrong. Maybe this was her way of trying to get out of their relationship. If she cheats on him, it’ll be easier than admitting that she doesn’t want to be with him and his baggage anymore. Right?

“What? No, no Buck, I.. we didn’t.” He relaxes at her words, knowing she didn’t let it go that far. In a strange way, knowing they didn’t have sex gave him the slightest bit of comfort.

He closes the gap between them, standing inches from you. Slowly, cautiously, he places his flesh hand on your cheek. His usually warm hand feels oddly cold against your skin, probably from the shock of what you just admitted to him.

Neither of them say anything, they don't move either. They both know as soon as the other pulls away, that'll be it, their relationship will be over. In a messed up way, neither of them want it to end. But they know that can't happen. Not after what they did. Yes, she kissed him, but Buck can’t help but think that he pushed her to it. After all, who would want to date the Winter Soldier? She probably only agreed to go on a date with him out of pity. Then felt too bad for him to break things off.

“I'm sorry Buck, I'm so so sorry. It was a dumb mistake, I should have never let him kiss me… no, I should have never agreed to meeting him in the first place.” she knows her words will never be able to take back what she did, that they will never be able to mend his broken heart. But she says them anyway. Hoping that maybe she can at least mend their relationship.

With that, he removes his hand. The warmth from her skin lingers on his cold, numb hand. “It's not the fact that you kissed him… Y/N.” she can hear the brokenness behind his surprisingly calm voice.

“It's the betrayal that I can't get out of my head doll. I loved and trusted you for two years. Then you betrayed me. That's something I'll never be able to shake.” you meet his eyes, they used to be bright and full of life, even after years of torment. His eyes still shined. But now it's like staring into an empty void. Her heart sinks at her realization, ‘I'm the reason behind his broken heart’

A dark laugh falls from his lips when he says, “It’s my own fault anyway doll. If I didn’t push you, if I wasn’t so freaking clingy and needy…” he trails off, getting lost in his dark thoughts. He runs his metal hand through his long brown hair. Your heart breaks even more at the thought that he thinks this whole thing in his fault. He’s been nothing but perfect in every way, he doesn’t deserve the way she treated him. He deserves the world and that’s something she doesn’t think she can give him.

“Bucky, you didn’t do anything wrong. This is all on me, okay?”

They both stand there, completely broken with no hope of repair. “I would take everything back in a heartbeat. I know it won't change anything, I don't expe-” you stop yourself, your words get caught in your throat. “I don't expect it to. I just need you to know that Buck. I love you. I always will.” you smile sadly at the man in front of you.

He finally meets her eyes, he wishes he hadn't. All he wants to do is rush to her side, pull her into his embrace and never let her go. He wants so desperately to be able to forgive her and move on. He knows he can't. He spent so much time trying to fix himself after HYDRA, Y/N was the one that helped him through it. He owes her so much, yet he can’t bring himself to forgive this.

“Love won't fix what can't be undone.” she nods in heartbroken understanding. She knows love can't change anything. It won't fix what she's done and certainly won't repair the trust he once had for her, it won't fix their hearts either.

“I should go doll…” he says reluctantly. Even though he knows he shouldn't stay. He stands in her open front door. His back to her, he mutter something under his breath. To her surprise he turns around, walking over to her.

Gently, he hooks his finger under her chin, forcing her to look up at him. Slowly, he presses his lips to her forehead. She closes her eyes. Selfishly relaxing at his gentle touch. Melting into his touch. He moves his head down to rest his forehead on hers. They stand there, eyes closed.

“Goodbye doll.” Bucky says, his voice trembles at his words. A few more tears running down his already damp cheeks.

“Goodbye Bucky.” her voice whimpers, tears running down her tear stained face. Somehow, they both knew that this would be the end. That this was goodbye forever.

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aithne · 6 years ago

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(Illume) Tomika's Letters, 8/23 - 8/28: Odyssey

8/23/1583 Akita, setting sail

Dear Yukiko,

As we were arguing this morning, trying to decide which direction to go, a pair of men--gifted with that handsomeness I am beginning to associate with Thrykreen--approached the ship, bearing between them a wooden box as large as a man. It seemed to be a coffin of some sort. They asked permission to come aboard, which was granted, and as they came aboard they asked for "Lord Tadaki", as well as Haku and Funitsu, all of our Ruling Lords.

They set the box down on the boards of the deck and bowed deeply to Tadaki. They said they had been sent from Lord Takumi to bring us General Takashi, who they had uncovered in their midst. They said that the Demonbane thought that we might like to give him the true source and free him of the spirit. He had been transported in a state of suspended animation that we could undo whenever we pleased.

They also said that he was quite susceptible to questioning. The one who said this had a sly smirk on his face, which I took to mean that the man had been tortured for what he knew.

We thanked the Thrykreen and set about moving the box down to the bowels of the ship, where we usually keep prisoners. after a bit of discussion, Funitsu took on the seeming of the Demonbane, and we woke Takashi. On opening his eyes and seeing the person he thought of as the Demonbane, he blanched and moaned. "Ah, gods, just kill me, please. I've told you everything I know."

Patiently, Funitsu said, "Tell me again what you've said. We need to make sure you aren't contradicting yourself." He held up a pair of thumbscrews (dug up from somewhere; this is, of course, a former Scorpion ship) and turned the wheel with a loud squeaking noise. He muttered, "I must tell the guards to oil these better."

The man turned even paler than he had been, and his story spilled out of him. Interesting points he touched on were these:

1. General Takuma is getting ready to attack the Scorpion Clan headquarters. (I muttered a quick prayer to the kami to keep my adoptive clan safe; my fortunes are now linked with theirs. I am not usually a religious woman, and I found this odd after I had done it.)

2. General Kenshin is in a little village named Nagara, east of Tokyo. He is heading up a project called Odyssey, which, he said, was a project to place the spirit that resides in Arenro into a Warresh. Evidently, the three spirits quickly wear out the human bodies that contain them.

(The mind reels with implications, my Lady. Take care of your Lord, as much as you can.)

Lin, Reiko's granddaughter, is helping him with this. The village is lightly guarded with swords but heavily guarded with Crane magicians.

He knew little else. Gryphon asked if he could dose the general with the true source, and took a vial carefully in one clawed hand. He paused and stared at the vial. "Could someone open it for me? Please?"

That accomplished, the evil sprit was driven out of his body and into Tadaki's orb, and Takashi woke. Panda was fetched (she'd absented herself while the others were threatening him with torture) and she looked through her own orb at the general's true form.

It turned out that he'd been changed into a form more attractive--his original form had been shorter and stockier, with short hair. When he was asked if he'd like to be his usual self, he readily assented.

It took a few tries, but we finally figured out that Reiko could dispel the Polymorph spell on him. She employed her usual method of delivering touch spells, and the man looked startled at the tiny shaman who stood on her tiptoes to kiss him on the cheek.

He was looking at her very strangely, but none of us thought anything of it. It was only long after he departed that I thought that he might recognize Reiko as his lord's daughter.

We sent Takashi, along with the pair of Thrykreen who had accompanied him, back to the Phoenix Clan. After a bit of discussion, we decided that the last thing the world needs is for the Dark Son to be incarnated in a Warresh body, and so it's off to Nagara with us. We'll go north and around Aomori, and then down the eastern coast.

Six days, if the wind is with us. Perhaps four, if Haku sits in the control seat and the ship takes on his characteristics.

Panda's dog brought her a fascinating device this evening. It would be interesting to find out which one of the women on board it belongs to, but nobody is owning up to it quite yet. At least, I assume it belongs to a woman...

To bed with me. Tomorrow is another day, indeed.

Love, Tomika

8/28/1583 eastern coast, near Nagara

The past four days have been relatively uneventful. We sailed around the northern end of the island and south, outpacing the Benevolent by a good distance (they'll catch up with us in a bit).

The only really odd thing I saw was Taura, the formerly male kitsune, standing at the rail, hands clenching it as if she were afraid she were going to fall overboard. Reiko came and led her away, back down into the hold of Shrike, petting her hair and babbling soothingly. That made me wonder--I've barely seen Taura for the past few days. Perhaps something is wrong with her? I am sure the shaman would tell us if there were.

We anchored just off the eastern coast, and began discussing ways to figure out where our enemies were and how to find them. Scrying revealed Lin in a cavern, probably beneath the town, the walls covered with protective runes.

Gryphon became excited about this, and stated that he wanted to bite Lin's fingers and toes off. Reiko said, "Ah, I need to talk to her before you do that, I think."

"Why? She made you sad! Ten toes is an extravagant number! She can lose a few!"

General Kenshin was in two places at once. His body was lying as if dead in a room that had many other runes on the walls, rules for warmth and light and postponement of decomposition. And his soul, evidently, was wandering around in a Warresh body, in a cavern that looks as if it might be near the one Lin was in.

Funitsu volunteered to go scout the town. We were scrying on him with his orb, which he left behind. Soon enough he came to the town, and saw that there were Warresh scattered around it, pretending to be boulders. They're very good at pretending to be boulders, being made out of rock and all.

In the center of town, there was a well with four Warresh around it. Funitsu looked down the well, carefully; about halfway down there was a magical shimmer. Using Air Walk, he went down to look at it, and determined that while nonliving things would pass through the shimmer (so the well was still useful), living things would be transported elsewhere.

He had found the front door into the caverns.

While he was doing this, Reiko went ashore and sat unmoving for a while. Then she began talking to something none of the rest of us could see. This not being unusual behavior for the shaman, we thought nothing of it until she came back and said, "There's a back way into those caverns. It's guarded by a Warresh. Which shouldn't be a problem for the librarian. Right?"

We rested and waited for night. When dusk fell, we and two of the Thrykreen--Jeron and one other, whose name I have not yet learned--made our way into the little village. The hole into the caverns was by the blacksmith's shop, and by his door was a boulder that wasn't a boulder. The librarian ordered it to stand aside. He asked if anyone ever used this entrance, and the Warresh told him that nobody ever did. "This is a thing that you humans would call a 'sewer'. I believe you consider them noisome."

Ugh. Just--ugh. Third in line for the Crane Throne, and I'm crawling through human offal.

Still, the temptation to surprise Lin and Kenshin was great. Greater than our natural aversion to the sewer, evidently. One by one we dropped down into the hole. Funitsu gave the hole a disdainful look and cast Air Walk again, and I convinced him to carry me down with him by the simple expedient of standing on the tops of his feet.

I think that's the closest I've been to my husband since I married him. It was most pleasant. Not quite pleasant enough to make up for the way that the cavern below smelled, though. Reiko gave Funitsu a look and muttered to herself as she waded through the muck, "Damned nobles. Too good to get his boots dirty. Useless."

We followed the flow upstream, and found ourselves eventually at a dead end, beneath what looked like it must have been a communal toileting room. Using a simple expedient of one of the door swords to go about thirteen feet upwards, we emerged in a large tiled room. All of us smelled quite strongly, and we availed ourselves briefly of some water so that approaching enemies would not be warned right away of our presence.

There were barracks attached to the toileting room, and we tiptoed through them, past a pair of sleeping guards. Reiko was leading, as it was her turn to have Detect Magic up, and when we reached a three-way intersection, she pointed down the right fork "There's a magical glow coming from down there, somewhere."

We walked down the corridor, mindful that Kenshin as a Warresh was wandering the halls. We came to a door with many raised sigils on it, and Reiko said that they were definitely Lin's work.

Funitsu called up Kenshin on his scrying orb, which revealed that he was in a three-way intersection, much like the one we had just come through. The shaman pointed out that there was another room on the hallway that didn't have magic on the door, but it did have magic leaking out the edges, as if it contained great energy.

We asked a Thrykreen to open the door, and there was Kenshin's body, just as we'd seen it, still as death. Unwilling to go into the room, Haku simply shot an arrow through the man's head, making his death-like state into real death.

Behind me, Funitsu muttered a very rude word.

The splitting of his orb into two views had collapsed, and the one view was now of Kenshin as a Warresh thundering down the hallway towards us. We could hear him coming, as well as that long, low call that we know is the Warresh call to battle. I heard Reiko say to Jeron, "Don't die, all right?"

(Odd. I had been under the impression she wasn't speaking to him.)

We engaged with Kenshin, the librarian knocking him down on the first try and Haku holding him in an arm lock. Haku is stronger than he appears, it seems. The rest of us took stabs at the Warresh, and Reiko poured a vial of the true source down his throat.

The soul fled--and evidently took Kenshin's soul with it. The Warresh crumbled to dust.

Suddenly, everything was flame. We turned and there was Lin, who honestly didn't look much like Reiko at all. Perhaps the fact that she had a different body than the one she was born in was to blame. The librarian ordered the Warresh to subdue her, but before they reached her, she dropped a crystal on the ground and stepped on it.

All of the Warresh in the corridor died, falling at her feet.

Lin sneered, "You didn't think I wouldn't have a way to take care of these things, did you? Stupid."

Unfortunately, that moment of gloating cost her life. Haku, who had stuck himself to the ceiling, dropped down on her and forced a vial of the true source down her throat. Gryphon really wanted to start nibbling on her toes, but Reiko asked him to forbear until she had a chance to talk to her. The grypon mantled fiercely but settled, crouching and staring at Lin, making clicking noises with his beak.

Unfortunately, Lin refused to talk to Reiko. Reiko wouldn't let the rest of us either kill or torture her to see if she would talk, which left us at an impasse. We could send her to the Demonbane, but what if that's what he'd want?

Haku solved the problem of Reiko balking quite neatly by borrowing the mirror from Panda and hitting Reiko on the head with it. By the time Reiko got back out of the mirror, Haku had slit Lin's throat and Gryphon was merrily feasting on her corpse.

The kitsune looked quite upset as she saw the bloody scene. I volunteered to make the corpse dance, but as there wasn't much there to make move, I settled for reanimating the head.

From somewhere, the kitsune summoned up the steel to talk to the head of her dead granddaughter. The upshot of their conversation was that the plan to capture Reiko originally, before Lin died the first time, was engineered by the Demonbane, who wanted to lock Reiko up in a room by herself forever. Isolating a kitsune is one of the worst tortures you can inflict on them, after all.

The rest--stealing Reiko's memories, binding her powers--was all ordered by the Demonbane, who Lin was in constant contact with even after she became one of Reiko's spirits.

"And joining Arenro? Was that ordered by him as well?"

It was difficult to see, but some odd expression crossed the corpse's face. "I finally found a way to escape my great-grandfather. He controlled me for almost my entire life--and after my death."

Reiko asked no more questions. I asked her, as the final question, how one would get into her room. Her answer was, "Simple. Just say my grandmother's true name--the one she was given at birth."

We looked at Reiko, eyebrows raised. She sighed, and turned to the door. "Takumi Reiko." The door clicked and swung open.

It should have been an unalloyed victory. We emerged mostly unscathed, with two enemies dust, and the treasures of Lin's room to plunder. And for most of us, it was.

I think, for the kitsune, the day was altogether different. I saw her looking down on the head of her granddaughter, hair soaked with blood, seemingly torn between pain and elation. Lin was, after all, her granddaughter. All things considered, she was not a very good granddaughter, but we love even the reprobates in our families.

I saw, before we destroyed the last of Lin's body, Reiko kneel and take a lock of Lin's hair. Sentimental creatures, kitsune are.

I think that was sentiment, at least.

I hope you're well, Yukiko. Do send a message when you have a chance--we are all anxious about your well-being.

With great affection, Tomika

Quotes:

*squeak squeak squeak* --thumbscrews, as Funitsu subtly threatens Takashi

"Hey, Reiko, we have an extra coffin for the next time you go into battle!" --Gryphon

"You all kitted out, Hiroshi?" "I've got a great bloody sword, that's all I need!" "And a butt flap!" --Panda and Hiroshi

"I am flush with a sense of adventure!" --Panda, about our adventure in the sewers.

"How many times have I come close to death because I went up and played with people?" "Yes, but that was real life." --Ray and Laura

"Witch heads, witch heads, roly poly witch heads..." --Derek

"She has ten toes, right? That's an extravagant number! She won't miss a few." --Gryphon

#so queued #gaming recaps: illume #D&D recap

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I Belong To You...

Huedhaut x MC

(Rating E 18+)

Finally back to a place I believe I can write but before I tackle any of the big stuff I thought it best to try it out on a one shot. Let me know what you think.

My heart was pounding, my breaths shallow. I stood in silence outside his door with my hand in position to knock but I hesitated. What if he rejected me? What if he laughed at everything I needed to tell him?

‘Huedhaut, I belong to you.’ My heart knew the truth but some shred of doubt still lingered in the darkness. It was very late, the gods had all taken residency in their rooms for the evening doing whatever it was they each did to pass the time or continue working. I had quietly slipped through the front door of the mansion which was completely dark except for the light shinning through the crack at the bottom of the door to each bedroom.

‘Knock. Come on you came all this way don’t lose your resolve now!’ Taking a deep breath to center myself first, I pause for only a moment then timidly knock three times on his door. The door immediately opens on it’s own though Huedhaut isn’t directly on the other side. He’s somewhere within his room probably immersed in something highly important making my determination quickly crumble away. Nervously I take a few small steps inside but stay close to the door in case he turns me away.

As my eyes scan the room they finally find him in the corner with his back to me skimming through several books on one of his many shelves. Too afraid to speak I just stand there staring at him unsure of what to say.

“It must be of the utmost importance if you are simply standing there with nothing to say at such an hour.” His words catch me off guard and I’m not sure if he is angry or just being typical Hue with his snarky comments. He still hasn’t turned to face me and I’m not sure if that is making things easier or harder for me to speak to him. Swallowing hard I steel myself and finally find my voice.

“F-Forgive me, I didn’t mean to disturb you so late at night but...” I trail off unsure if I want to continue or not. My voice did nothing to mask my nervousness as it came out quiet and meek. Huedhaut immediately turns to face me, his almond shaped eyes wide.

“You.... What on earth are you doing here at such an hour? Don’t you know it’s dangerous for a woman to be out and alone so late at night?” His voice is ripe with concern not anger as he sets the book he had been holding down and approaches.

My palms are sweaty and my heart is drumming so hard I can practically hear it ringing through my head. His tall figure stands before me observing me with concern.

“Are you unwell? If something is the matter I-”

“-Nothings wrong I’m fine. Well, mostly. Sort of....I...” My eyes fall to the floor. I can’t bear to look him in the eyes right now for some reason. I hear him chuckle quietly before taking another step forward bringing us even closer which is definitely not helping.

“Thank you for clearing that up. Mostly. Sort of.” He rests a hand atop my head and my body instantly reacts to his touch though I do my best to hide it.

“Well this is certainly a first for you. I’m not used to you being so speechless and demur.” My eyes dart up to shoot him a half hearted dirty look but the instant our eyes meet he smiles sweetly.

“See, that wasn’t so hard now was it?” Huedhaut is impossible to read at times. I can never tell where the line begins and ends between playfulness and flirtatiousness. Considering it’s Hue somehow I think those lines are heavily blurred. I can’t even tell if I like or hate that about him. He is a complete mystery to me and that just makes me want him more.

“H-Hue..um, there’s something I...need to tell you.”

“Alright, you have my undivided attention. Mostly. Sort of.”

“Pffft. You really are a jerk Hue!” I can’t help the grin that stretches across my cheeks.

“Oh dear, did you come all this way just to insult me? How utterly disappointing.” I can’t help but dramatically sigh in response to his usual antics.

“Forgive me, you had something of the utmost importance to tell me. Please, proceed.” The way he is looking at me right now renders me speechless. It’s exactly the same way he looks at me in my dream. I open my mouth to speak but nothing comes out.

“Oh I see. Well thank you for clearing that up for me. I have a MUCH better understanding now.” Ugh...I’m never going to be able to tell him or ask him anything at this rate. Seeing my flustered reaction the corner of his mouth lifts into an amused smirk. I am quickly losing ground and unintentionally becoming Huedhaut’s amusement for the night.

“Y-You’re not helping!” I shout frustrated at my lack of composure. The smirk only widens further as I lose my temper. He loves seeing me so riled up! Ugh, I just can’t win with this god.

“Umm, I changed my mind. I-I’m just gonna go. Sorry to disturb you so late. Err...just pretend like I was never here.” I turn quickly to leave the room but as soon as I am about to walk through the door it suddenly closes and I hear it click. ‘What?! Did he just lock me in here?!’ When I turn around to confront him he is standing so close I can feel the heat radiating from his skin. When our eyes meet he looks at me in a way that I have never seen before.

“I’m afraid I can’t do that. Besides, it would be very ungentlemanly of me to allow a lady such as yourself to travel alone as this hour. It is much safer for you to remain here.”

“Umm....”

“I must admit, you have me quite intrigued. You are definitely not acting like your usual self tonight. It seems you are excessively nervous and have somehow lost the confidence to speak to me normally. It almost sounds as though you’ve fallen in love with me.” The way he is smiling informs me he is merely teasing me like always but I decide to go for it and take advantage of the opening he just provided.

“A-And if I have?” The familiar smile vanishes and is replaced with total shock. It is more than apparent he was not expecting me to say anything like that.

“What did you just say?” His eyes wide with bewilderment blink several times in my direction seeking clarification.

“Well, uh....w-what would you say if I was in love with you?” It could easily be missed if one weren’t paying close attention but there was definitely a faint pinkish blush dotting his cheeks as he continued to stare on, adorably speechless for once.

Huedhauts’ eyebrows twitched briefly as he studied my face. For a moment it seemed as though he was going to say something but thought better of it.

“This may be a strange thing to ask but may I touch you for a moment?” Now it was my turn to blush completely caught off guard by his sudden question.

“Errr....s-sure, I guess?” His face was no longer filled with playfulness or humor, he looked at me with an intensity that set me on fire inside. Slowly he reaches out, wrapping his hand behind my head and draws me closer before gently pressing his forehead to mine. A moment later he pulls away looking at me seemingly conflicted.

“You....do you....are you....” His voice is so soft and unlike him I’m unsure of how to respond. I have never seen Hue in such a state before.

“H-Hue?”

“You’ve seen it haven’t you. You know. You know who I am, who you were and...and....” He looks like a broken man as the grief he had kept so well hidden bubbles back to the surface.

“Huedhaut.” My voice is barely a whisper as I cautiously reach out and gently rest my hand against his cheek. Without hesitation he removes my hand firmly but gently before putting some distance between us. That simple act instantly crushes my heart. He is rejecting me after all. The tears rush forward threatening to spill over at any minute.

“You have seen, so you are aware, but that does not change the fact that you are not actually her. She’s gone. She’s never coming back.”

“But...”

“But what? Let me guess, you truly believe you love me? The truth is you only think you do because you have seen her memories.”

“That’s not true!”

“Isn’t it?” The sting in his words are only there to cover the grief. I can see the pain in his eyes, the suffering in his heart. I want to touch him. To comfort him, to love him. I don’t know if he’ll ever let me but I can’t give up now.

“No, it isn’t. I fell in love with you long before I had those dreams. Before I knew who you were, who I was and what we used to be. No, I am not the woman you once loved, but I am the woman who loves you now. The goddess and I may not be the same person but we share the same soul. Regardless of who I was, who I am and who I will be in the next life, I will always find you. No matter what you say I believe I was meant to be with you for all eternity. My soul knows that it belongs to you and only you.”

Tears stream from my eyes as I watch the pristine tears that fall from his. ‘Please, let me touch you.’ I slowly reach my hand out before taking a step closer to touch his beautiful face and I breathe a sigh of relief when he welcomes my touch. There is still uncertainty in his eyes but there is also a desire to hope for more. Ever so slowly I approach him till we are standing impossibly close, my other hand reaching out to cup his other cheek. Holding his face in my hands I stand on my tiptoes and press a gentle kiss to his lips. When I pull away a different Huedhaut stands before me.

“I won’t let you go now.” The confident way he looks at me before pressing toward me and backing me into the wall has me on fire instantly.

“Good....cause I have no intention of ever leaving.” A wicked smile spreads across his perfect lips.

“Remember you said that.” He presses my wrists above me against the wall before leaning in and kissing me feverishly. It’s deep, passionate and hungry as his lips and tongue seek mine over and over again leaving me weak in the knees. His hands move to my face holding me there as his lips glide across my cheek to my neck, his hot breath against my skin.

“H-Hue...” His name slips from my lips in a near whisper.

“What would you like me to do?” His low husky voice nearly tickles my ear before his lips begin pressing tender kisses all along my neck and jaw.

“T-Touch me...” I whimper, my hands find their way to his head, my fingers wrapping in his midnight hair.

“Where exactly?” He teases making my body so hot I feel like I am melting inside.

“Everywhere.” I answer truthfully. I hear a snap and a cool breeze washes over me informing me I am no longer wearing clothes. His cool fingers trace lines along my exposed skin sending goosebumps cascading outward from everywhere he touches. That feeling alone is enough to make me whimper in desire.

“That was a beautiful sound, let me hear you make more.” Hands caress my skin as they travel downward over my abdomen before descending at an excruciatingly slow and torturous speed. Just as his fingers are nearing my sex he pulls them away, smirking mischievously.

“God, you’re such a tease Hue! That was so cruel...” I pout thumping the back of my head against the wall in disappointment.

“You’re right, forgive me. It was not without purpose though.” My head snaps forward to gaze at him questioningly and I am greeted with his signature smile.

“I changed my mind that’s all.” Unsure I look at him with concern clouding my eyes.

“I realized, why dip your finger in the honey when you can drink from the pot.” He effortlessly lifts my body up high against the wall before resting the backs of my thighs over his shoulders. Holding me perfectly steady his lips and tongue devour my now overflowing core. My arms wrap around his head, my eyes closed tightly submitting to the pleasure.

“Oh god....Hue...mmm ....it feels... ah! So good..”

“Then let me hear more, I won’t stop till I make you scream.” I can’t take it, the pleasure is so intense and consuming I feel like I’m fading into oblivion.

“Oh god! More! Please...more!”

“Mmm, that’s it. Keep going.” His hot slippery tongue glides deliciously up and down my womanhood with such expert precision it’s impossible to be anything but loud. I am at his divine mercy as his tongue slips inside of me causing me to cry out his name over and over.

“Oh god Hue...I’m gonna cum....I....”

“Let go, let me taste all of you.” His husky voice buried deep between my thighs is the tipping point for me. The build is so intense that I nearly curl myself around his head gripping his hair tightly as I brace for the impact. My entire body shudders and quakes as the delicious release begins. Without even trying I give Hue exactly what he wants as I scream his name over and over while wave after wave floods my entire being.

Even after my orgasm has subsided my body continues to throb contentedly as Hue carefully catches me in his arms before bringing me to his bed and gently setting me down.

“H-Hue...” I can barely speak I am so consumed in the afterglow he so generously provided. His lips press sweetly against mine offering me a taste of what’s between my own legs. I want so much to keep going but I’m so impossibly tired I can barely move my body. As if he already knows what I want to say he chuckles before answering my unspoken question.

“It’s alright, just rest now. I’m not going anywhere.” All I can do is smile at him sweetly as tears threaten to fill me eyes.

“I love you Huedhaut.”

“I know, and I’ll make sure you always do, my eternal precious goddess.”

#star crossed myth #scm #scm smut #scm fanfic #scm huedhaut #huedhaut

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