#when people hated me just bc i am arab LOL

[boobpancakes]

ok but my mom had untreated bipolar disorder and was extremely abusive towards me and i would never take it out on another bipolar person ever it's not hard to realize everyone's experiences are unique

[cry0]

@mrdogface

I wrote a massive post reply to this and then tumblr fumbled and I passed out lmfao.

I'm going to try again.

first, I apologize. I'm so sorry that happened to you. I'm not pitying you, but I want you to know I am sending all my love and good health to you. You deserved better. It's so hard already for men to stand up and admit when they've been a victim, esp of SA, so I know you using your voice is you taking control, you standing up for yourself, and I'm proud of you. If you ever, EVER, need to vent, talk, scream, cry, etc, know that there are strangers on the internet (including me) who will never, ever judge you. I hope you have loved ones that will do the same.

There are other examples of SA in comics, unfortunately even to Bruce, that you can use as an example.

knowingly using an extremely racist character take that the writer had to apologize for and has been retconned several times over.. is not good. I don't blame you for it, really. I love characters that I can see myself in. It's probably why I love Talia. I've seen myself in her fight between her love of her life and her love and loyalty to her father. thank GOD i dont have that issue to the same extreme!!

i know you mentioned talia fans are in ur ims bitching at you, and im not going to do that. i'm just going to ask that you, please, find another character to hate on. it's okay. i hate on characters all the time lol. but the book that grant morrison based their writing on shows a VERY consensual wedding and a VERY consensual sex life.

please find another character. and again, im sorry. and im proud of you. for whatever a stranger's opinion is worth.

i know nothing about tarantula, but i hope to god that the writer of that bullshit takes back the "it's not rape, it's non-consensual sex" garbage. that's rape. that is assault. i wish they would show proper healing for dick, but we know better. comics aren't good at that.

but don't enjoy this. don't enjoy the talia massacre. she represents a middle eastern and chinese woman written almost entirely by only american media. it's about time she be written as she was intended. as someone who represents good. arab + chinese people are never written well in american media, and i mean - you might can guess why. but it's stereotype based and it's not okay.

anyway, i hope you are well, truly. you deserve a better day and i honestly mean that.

EDIT: NOW tumblr tells me it actually posted that other one. omfg. I'm sorry for popping up in ur notifs twice. i AM going to leave this bc i think i touched base better here than before.

[alavenderleaf]

Tagged by @gilliebee <3

Name: Lavender and Leaf interchangeably

Pronouns: he/him and she/her interchangeably (but genuinely okay with whatever, I’m genderfluid c: )

Where do u call home? Dubai, UAE. Even tho it was meant to be a temporary arrangement I’ve lived here my whole life and now any other emirate feels off lol

Favorite animals: goats. You ever jumped around with a baby goat??? Peace and love on planet earth 🥺💕💞💝💘💖💗💓💓💘💝💞💕

When it comes to birds: chickens and pigeons. Everytime I see one I’m like that’s so me. I’m them. They’re me. We are one.

Cereal of choice: anything with chocolate bc I’m still 5 years old

are you visual, auditory or kinesthetic learner? visual for sure, my ears don’t work right and I freaking love diagrams.

First pet: I’ve never named a pet except my current cat (xiexie!!) so my first pet did not have a name. It was a smol baby chick that grew up to be a mean ass spoiled ass fucking rooster who’d peck everyone except me <3

he was raised as a girl bc whoever gave me the chick told me it’s a chicken not a rooster and my dumbass did not recognize the signs of him being male and would argue with everyone who tried convincing me otherwise 🤠 denial is one hell of a drug bc how could I see the tail and mohawk (?? Tf u call that thing on its head) and be like “yes this is a chicken :) I see nothing wrong about this” anyway trans king. He’s just like mommy <3

I did have to give him away eventually :( he was taken to some uncle’s farm and got a chicken harem like the high value alpha male I knew he always had the capacity to be 😌 (ofc until another rooster was brought over and he lost the fight. He was plucked naked and shunned and he passed away featherless and bitchless. But we don’t talk about that)

Favorite scent: ………… lavend-*gun shots*

do you believe in astrology? Not really? But it’s so much fun !! :) I am a Capricorn sun Taurus moon and Leo rising, so do with that as you will <3

how many playlists do you have in apple music/spotify? I don’t use Apple Music. Spotify is purely for my friends so we can send playlists back and forth but I hate that everything is paywalled and it decides to choose shit for me. Like bitch. I did not add any of these songs to the playlist get tf away from me. Also why can’t I listen to my music offline???? I hate u. Anyway I just checked I have 87 playlists ???? 🤠🤠 When. How. Who are all these people I literally don’t know any of them?????

Sharpies or highlighters? Sharpies!!!! I love markers in general but sharpies always fire up my creative neurons

song that makes you cry: I’ve never cried to music but Fourth of July by Sufjan Stevens makes me so. :(

song that makes you happy: not to be a stereotype but Bastans by Miami band. (It’s a staple wedding song lmao)

and finally: do you draw/write/create?: YES!! My artistic skills are. Fine. But I do write a lot! My ao3 is lavender_petal and I’ve been learning how to create gifs over on my hockey side acc @gaybroons Also! I started making little braided bracelets lately :) they’re not perfect but they are fun!! I do try my hand at some Arabic/English translations from time to time but I’m not the best at it lol

I’m tagging: @loulucifer , @lindholmline , @earth-to-sway , and anyone else who wants to do this, but no pressure <3

[palestinenatural]

tagged by @angelsdean t h a n k  y o u  bestie. These are so fun

rules: answer 30 questions and tag 20 blogs you are contractually obligated to get to know better.

name: moth

star sign: capricorn

height: idk like 1.60m ?? (short kings unite)

time: 12.18 pm

birthday: december 26

favorite bands/artists: ORANGE BLOSSOM, florence + the machine, jadal, mashrou' leila, hozier, hanine y son cubano (which is a band that sings popular songs in the son cubano genre but in arabic. their minds), of monsters and men and héroes del silencio (bc I am an old lady)

last movie: Bombay Rose on Netflix. C-i-n-e-m-a

last show: outlander (as established I am an old lady and I'm making my sister watch it) because I love drama and jamie

when did I create this blog: 2021 when I got tired of seeing mostly usamericans making headcanons lol

what I post: supernatural and also palestine

last thing I googled: at any one time there are like 160+ tabs open on my browser but um a paper on the uses of Cuscuta spp bc they're holoparasitic plants and I love them

other blogs: my main @artsymoth and a blog for paganism -I'm a golden calf girlie (gn)- @bss-samsiyye

do I get asks: only from the mutuals fortunately

following: don't look at me. avert your eyes. 1000+

average hours of sleep: like 9 or 10 I love sleeping

instruments: my parents made me learn piano but I hated it so I only remember a little bit and later on I took violin classes

what I'm wearing: my blue plaid pajamas 😊 like some sort of cartoon sam

dream job: I'm currently studying veterinary medicine so ideally a farm in Palestine or a job at the Al-Ma'wa wildlife center in Jordan (if you're reading this go look at their Instagram) but after deducting the colonialism tax. probably some kind of raptor rescue in Canada jsjsjs

dream trip: [old spice voice] look at my url. Now back at me. Now at my url. I'm on a camel! Jk the camel population in Palestine has decreased dramatically in the last fifty years, cheetahs and water buffaloes have gone locally extinct and it takes 12 hours to go from Bethlehem to Haifa (a 3 hour trip max). But it would be really cool

nationality: Mexican

favorite songs: this is too difficult I'm just going to list some from my on repeat playlist lol. Not The Lovin' Kind by Buffy Sainte-Marie, Habibi by Mashrou' Leila, Cassandra by Florence + The Machine, Al Tobah by Jadal and Dorian by Agnes Obel.

last book I read: Entangled Life by Merlin Sheldrake. Top 3 books ever

currently reading: The Annotated Arabian Nights (translated by Yasmine Seale, best $48 I've ever spent), The Orientalizing Revolution by Walter Burkett and The Ethical Slut 3rd Edition by Janet Hardy and Dossie Easton (for sims 4 but also it's a good resource)

top 3 fictional universes I'd like to live in: supernatural obviously, I won't rest until I can take cas to brunch, then welcome to night vale because I love surrealism and horror, and then probably the picture of dorian gray because someone needs to parent Sibyl and her mom is definitely not doing it.

I don't think I know 20 people I'm simply tagging my favorites

@daalcurrynatural @angelhannah @colochocas @meatmensch @angeltiddies @fangurl @dojacas

[yourlostearring]

went into the city with my bestie and her pals from grad school last night which was really fun but the real highlight of the evening was me rectifying one of their birth times after being given a 2 hour window to pick from and only being THREE MINUTES off like… sometimes i get insecure abt my astrology shit bc i am well aware of how it and the people who spend their time and money practicing it are perceived by the vast majority of these self aggrandizing “progressive” thinkers who populate cyberspace like i see the “yeah it’s fun but if you take astrology seriously you need mental help” comments with hundreds of upvotes on the most general of forums and even though i shouldn’t care bc (not to be all ~not like other girls~ lol) i know my interest in it is fueled by an unwavering curiosity for the human condition/world history/philosophy/synchronicities/just yk phenomena in general lmao and not borderline narcissism and like many seem to assume like i know when people criticize astrology they typically mean the loud minority of enthusiasts (or astrohoes, if you will,) who won’t date scorpios because their ex is a scorpio or who take one glance at a birth chart and start repeating “oh yeah that makes sense” like a hypnotizing mantra and like i know whenever i explain my perspective on astrology im typically met with a newfound respect for the practice or at the very least a peaked curiosity that might’ve not existed before but also i don’t think you should have to like… explain the context that makes your interests worth having? like who cares about whether or not i spend time reading ancient arabic translations versus the generated write-ups on cafeastrology like i hate that i feel the need to provide that distinction when i talk about something im passionate about when all that should matter is that im passionate and that in and of itself is cool. it’s so cool to have interests and passions about literally anything! like i don’t get why everyone feels the need to be so superior all the time and have like the right opinions like what’s the fun in that!! anyway that wasn’t the point of this post lol im just slightly hungover and taking a break from eating my kfc famous bowl and wanted to get into how cool it feels to have successfully used my newfound knowledge on the egyptian terms to rectify a birth time with that level of accuracy like i don’t even care that i was a few minutes off because i still got the terms of the angles right like how flipping neat is that! so yeah just wanted to geek out for a sec until i started thinking about why i feel slightly silly for being excited about this legitimately cool thing so i guess i just had to remind myself that it is cool to be curious and i shouldn’t have to feel the need to explain why this particular interest should be met with respect just because of its negative borderline misogynistic connotations like who cares if i get lumped in with all the other bisexual astrology gfs or whatever lmao sigh it’s moments like this where i wish my sun was more dignified maybe then i wouldn’t care so much about being perceived :-/ anyways now i am going to continue to eat my kfc and maybe later ill spend some time flipping through mathesis by firmicus to keep feeding my ravenous brain that i am feeling particularly grateful for! oh how i wonder what other knowledge i will soon behold…

[boygirlcrisis]

rest of posttt contiuation of question 7. HOWEVER i do not resonate with that psychologically? as a person i do not feel mostly arab, nor do i feel so little maltese, and i dont feel turkish at all. because: i have lived my entire life in malta, but in libyan/maltese household. so while i have many aspects of libyan/arab culture, language, traditoon, etc. as part of my identity, you have to remember that everything everyone everywhere that i love is maltese or in malta. (mostly- ex. family living abroad - but then again i only "love" them bcs theyre family- ive onyl seen them like twice so i dont really know or like them as people? or libya- (i was there when i was young, never visited again until iwas thirteen and spent 2 months there because of passport problems but was also very depressed at the time and so my only recent memories and thoughts about the country is that i couldnt survive going back. if id had to stay any longer i was going to comit suicide and im terrified to ever have to go again. yeah id been bad mentally before going but it got so bad there. and turkey which i went to once and hated it (it was right after the libya trip as in literally plane from libya to trukey. was also depressed there and i can think about that year too long without crying) (lol) so yeah not great. also we have no connection to turkey like i didnt even know about my turkish great grandma until a while ago. i know fuck all abt the country lol but i feel very maltese. here i have memories, my home, my friends, places that i love, culture that i fit into way better than libyan culture, etc. yk? so yeah T.L.D.R :ethnicity i know what i am biologically and i care because i am very bothered by it not being at all reflective of my actual self- how much dna wise i am from each country doesnt fit how much of them i am as a person. also i am very annoyed to not know what the fuck my race is 8. reminder to do this tomorrow !!!! or maybe just later but in a separate thing from here. u can always check the 3rd part of question 1 though i mentioned a bit abt this there. 9. yes!!! ill write more abt this later but i write, i make things, i draw (badly) and my creativity and different forms of art i practise are all that makes me who i am and keeps me sane 10. what the fuck is a creed. let me look it up

?? idk. i havent had one but ill think about it. i guess morality wise i follow islamic guidance but i also have my own personal rules and ideas for what i should do- ive just never like put it down all together or into words or a "creed". interesting though. ok thats it for this one!!

part 3 of the identity ask thing im doing!!

ok so 5. well this is a weird question in that i dont know how to answer it ? i guess human being because i am a lot of things and i believe that those things do shape me as a person even though theyre not things i specifically do ex. my nationality culture religion disabilities mental state etc. but at the same time i do also think that the things i do are a big part of my identity ex. the things i enjoy doing such as making things and writing and reading, the stuff i watch/listen to and such. but at the same time it depends on the specific thing. like even if i do something tat is "bad" or that i perceive as being morally wrong for whatver reasoni sometimes do see it a a reflection of my flawed inner self or whatever the fuck or like being weak willpower wise but usually thats just when im feeling shitty mentally you know cause other times il act in whatever way and just see it as action bad person neutral yk t.l.d.r: i view myself as a neutral being and what i do or am both contribute to my identity but dont define it especially as those things change over time. 6. yeah im muslim :3 7. broo i have no fucking idea what my ethinicity or race even are i am so confused about it still like i know which countries im from technically but that doesnt help at all heres an explpanation: i have 4 grandparents, right. as most people do. 2 of them are fully 100% from libya- an arab country in north africa. ok so im 50% arab and north african. then i have one fully 100% maltese grandparent: malta is a european country in the mediterranean and its also par tof the eu. its an island then i have one grandparent who is half libyan and half turkish- except we have no physical documents to prove the turkish part because paperwork back then was obviously all wonky. so in percentages that would be: blood/dna wise: 62.5% libyan 25 % maltese 12.5 % turkish okkk rest in reblog bcs tumblr character limit :(((

[edengarden]

Hi, can I have Haikyuu regular matchup! I describe myself as much as I can I am a 163 cm INTJ girl with curly and light brown hair, brown eyes, I'm a little fat and I wear glasses like to listen to nightcore or slowed music. I usually do not care about what people say and I do what I think is right. am very introverted and I prefer to be myself (ngl sometimes I get annoyed really fast). I can be funny or serious around people and be quiet outside but from the inside I'm very shy and to read books / manga and watch romance, horror movies and animation, and I usually get emotional watching them. I am a direct person to the people. I prefer to stay home to read comics, sleep, play, rather then go out with people. I like to take care of my appearance and take the time to get ready (I NEVER wear pants so I usually wear shorts or dresses) and people tend to say My personality is really edgy (idk what that means I think they mean I'm a bruh girl?). I'm really tsundere so sometimes some of my friends say that they think I'm emotionless and I never cry but if u look closely i actually do care about people just show it to them with my little actions bc I'm not really good with words oh and one of my bestfriends always says that "U do not know how to express your feelings properly and people say that you do not know your worth and you hide ur true feelings" oh alsoooo Ive been to a karate and boxing class before but I hate sports that includes running and ummm My fav subject at school is maths but I'm really good with languages ​​too! (I can speak 3 fully language and I can understand Arabic too) and I really like to teach people the studies that they do not understand That's all I can say lol tysm!

I’ll match you up with Iwaizumi!

I think your vibe can really match his! As an introvert, the worst thing you could do to yourself is have a partner who’s so all over the place that it drains you. And Iwa isn’t like that at all; he’s calm and yeah ok he’s stubborn but he cares bro. Buddy has experience with people who have trouble expressing their emotions; he’ll be patient for you (Oikawa’s jealous). Iwaizumi gives me some kind of motherly vibe, I’m 100% sure he’s looking out for you all the time even if you don’t SEEM like you do the same (oh yeah he notices the attention you give to details but he won’t tell you to spare your ~pride~). And omg omg you look shy to people and when they see who you’re with they’re like “how the hecking heck did THAT happen” because Iwaizumi looks so scary and people do come up to you and ask about that but after a while you don’t even see him as a scary person so you’re just sitting there dumbfounded like “he’s?? He’s not scary??” People think you’ve gone BLIND (lmao blinded by love)

Pft before you two were a thing it was tsundere city. Iwaizumi was planning on just admiring you from afar but the entire freaking team was this 🤏 close to confessing FOR him so he was forced to put on his big boy pants and tell you because we all know you wouldn’t have made the first move either. He was high key shocked when you accepted his feeling because like you didn’t seem like you held any interest in him?? Like at all?? And then he learns that you’re hella tsundere and it’s like BAM match made in heaven

Songs!!

- Put Your Head on My Shoulder, Paul Anka (soft song for a tsundere couple? Sign me the FUCK up bitches I SWEAR-)

- Bad Liar, Imagine Dragons

- Shrike, Hozier

- Drive-In Saturday, David Bowie

[littleoldrachel]

not doing a fun tag for like 3 weeks even though i love this shit and @onereyofstarlight is one of my faves?? more likely than you’d think! tysm for the tag bree, i’m sorry i’m a disaster lol!! also your answers had me beaming, you’re wonderful!

1. paddington or winnie the pooh?

i love them both so much but it has to be winnie the pooh! i actually have a tattoo of him on my side! thinking about 100 acre wood makes my soul happy and nostalgic. take me to a land where i can just eat honey with pooh and mope with eeyore and adventure with tigger pls and thank you

2. what would you most like to do if you had 4 hours to explore a strange city?

eep! i would go to where there’s plenty of nature like gardens or the beach and just sit and admire and people watch, and then go to a cute cafe and try the local specialty and then just wander round the city without any particular destination just to Absorb It All

3. do you think classic literature is overrated? 

some of it, yes definitely! i just reread jane eyre for the first time in years and i was... very underwhelmed. and also icked out at the age gap and how awful mr rochester is?? but i digress! i feel like a lot of classic literature is very beautifully written but is also very grim and not all that accessible so i’m personally not a huge fan. that said, pride and prejudice (and jane austen in general) is one of my all-time faves so ~

4. if you could learn any three language instantly, what would they be and why?

okay so i already speak arabic and french, but my arabic is nowhere near the level of fluency i want it to be, so i would love to just,,, know it properly?? (ps if anyone wants to chat arabic with me pls let me know i miss it so much!). spanish bc i’m currently learning it on duolingo but my best friend is spanish and it is important to her, and i just love spanish music and i would be able to learn so much more about culture and communicate with so many people and and and ~ hmm maybe russian? i think it’s such a cool sounding language and the alphabet fascinates me! (so many languages, so little time!!)

5. what is the best gift you have ever received?

oooh there’s definitely one i’m blanking on but the one in my heart rn is my friends throwing me a surprise party when we were all at uni and it was so unexpected and not usually my thing but it was the loveliest afternoon and i got to spend time with all my favourite people and it makes my heart happy to think about it and means the world that they planned it so carefully *cries*

6. what’s a story that sets your heart aflame when you hear/read/see/experience it?

WHAT A QUESTION wow, okay my mind has gone blank but any kind of found family story makes my heart SING because that is The Good Shit right there, and exactly what this smol lonely queer craves. the last story specifically that made me !! was red white and royal blue bc MY GOD

7. rollercoasters - yay or nay??

*chanting, growing progressively louder* yes yes yes yes YES 

8. describe an outfit that would make you feel like the most confident person on the planet.

oooo this is a big ask lol, BUT i feel good in my doc martens, a pair of black skinny jeans, a leather jacket and my hair pink. and if my makeup done like on euphoria i feel like i could be Confident.

9. do you avoid spoilers when there’s new media afoot or do you seek them out like your life depends on it?

increasingly i’ve become one of those people that seeks them out?? which i don’t love for me tbh? i always used to hate spoilers and then i think infinity war happened and something shattered inside me lol! 

10. do you believe in parallel universes?

yes! i’m afraid i cannot talk maths with you bc i am Very Bad at maths, but i love your enthusiasm and i definitely believe in parellel universes!

damn bree these questions were SO good, tysm!!

look it’s been so long and i feel like i always tag the same poor souls lmao so if you wanna do it, just drop something in my ask box and i will come up with 10 questions for you!! <3 <3 

[lavellane]

21 QUESTIONS

TAGGED BY: @chuukitten thank u gal !!! 

RULES: answer 21 questions and tag 21 people

1. nickname: tay or tay tay is what ppl usually call me !!! sometimes ppl online call me lahtays but they usually mispronounce it so :) 

2. zodiac: aquarius! tho i swear astrology fucked up that day bc im the furthest thing from mysterious OR creative lol

3. height: last time i checked like 175cm (ish) so about 5″11 ! i have a very limited concept of my own existence so i rly dont think abt my height at all oof

4. hogwarts house: h*fflepuff

5. last thing i googled: the definition of orthopedic sdfhfjfsdjdsjf

6. favorite musicians: i hate these questions bc whenever someone asks i just. completely blank hhhhhhhh but okay i rly like regina spektor, radiohead, the national, tamino, the wombats, twenty one pilots, k.flay and 2wei so basically yea im a mess lmao

7. song stuck in my head: tummy by tamino ://///// its been 4 days and im losing it but,,,, it still slaps lmao

8. following: 324

9. followers: ehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

10. do you get asks: not much anymore! i turned off anon a while back due to the,,,,  honestly impressive amount of creepy anons i was getting dsjdfskjfdskj

11. amount of sleep: honestly TOO much my sleep schedule is messed up djfdkjfd

12. what are you wearing: grey cat pyjama shorts and a blue tank top 

13. dream job: Wailing Forest Maiden 

14. dream trip: greece ! for the ancient history and architecture! also ive always wanted to go to new orleans! 

15. instruments: i can play hot cross buns on the recorder  :))))))

16. languages: english and a little bit of arabic tho ive forgotten most of it now lol

17. 10 favorite songs as of now: (i cant pick faves so i’ll just chose the songs im into rn)

tummy / tamino (also just. his entire discography but whatever lmao)

brutus / the buttress

calamity / king shelter

i apologize if you feel something / bring me the horizon 

i should have been a con man / avi vinocur

suspirium / thom yorke

the cultess - moana 

lost elf theme - trevor morris (DONT @ ME. DONT @ ME. DONT @ ME.)

hope is a dangerous thing for a woman like me to have / lana del rey

moby dick / jakey

18. if you were an animal: if i had a choice, i’d wanna be a fat, fluffy af housecat lmao

19. favorite food: hmmmmm i think maybe curries ! or anything sauce based w like. a Lot of spices nd flavour

20. random fact: when i was like 11 i wrote a short childrens story for my homeschooling program and my teacher loved it so much she literally called my mum and asked if she wanted to help me publish it lol. i had a panick attack and cried and it never happened bc i am truly :) a Dumbie Bitch

21. my aesthetic: hmmmmmmm faded hoodies, chipped nail polish, cosy nights in, campy horror films, messy buns, ugly laughter, cat fur Everywhere

TAGGING: @caiwyns @emerius @denerims @drthamen @synthzander @trvelyans @femmeshep @velvetvelor @eledhrim @ratcorvo @seradagna @morenva @nordxz @lvllns @noonvraith @lelianasgf @yennefre @oneshallop @harlotrohan @ciriofcintras @dragonaqe

[jjpmoans]

About me tag

I was tagged by @peachyparkjinyoung @goodnightkisseu @riceeater22 @jj-nyoung @prettywordsyouleft @itsallabigmess @ahgase55g7

Thank you lovelies. I just had time to do the tag. Here it is!

Rules are :

1. Tag the person who tagged you

2. Answer the questions

3. Tag 10 people ( I'll be honest, I'm gonna tag probably more than 10 lol)

Let's get it started!

•How tall are you?

Honestly in my group of friends, I am one of the tallest but right now here in Tumblr, I'm one of the shorterr one hahahahaha.

5'1 ft or 158 cm

•What color and style is your hair?

My hair is black in colour and straight cut. Honestly I don't have any other colour or any style bcs I wear hijab. But if you're interested in me wearing hijab, here's a pic of it!

•What color are your eyes?

I honestly don't know hahahahaha i think dark brown.

•Do you wear glasses?

No I don't. But interesting fact about me, I love glasses hahahahahaa. I always love to wear someone else's glasses and it messes with my vision tbh. So now I have astigmatism but not bad. I end up having headaches whenever I faced with some high brightness .

•Do you wear braces?

Again, nope. I'd like to but not now. And I'm happy with my teeth even though my teeth are not that pretty ahhahahahaha

•What’s your fashion sense?

I am hopeless. Idk you tell me hahahahahaha please do

•Full name?

I'm a Malay so i have three names. Nik Nur Syafina. Nik is a family name, Nur means loght and Syafina means pearl. That's all in arabic.

•When were you born?

3rd September (yes I am a day before markiepoo) and I'm the same age as maknae line (EEEAAASYYYYYYY~~)

•Where are you from and where do you live now?

I'm Malaysian. And still live in Malaysia (unfortunately)

•What school do you go to?

An education university. And no ngl I hate this uni so no giving their name. Not proud of it hahahahahah

•What kind of student are you?

I'm that naughty student. I don't pay attention in class, that one who always get called bcs I'm either sleeping or talking hahahahaha sorry teacher. That was me in high school.

Now I'm a good one-- but still distracted in class.

•Do you like school?

I like them as long as the teacher is bearable and it doesn't start in the morning. Hahhahahaha I'm serious, I'm Lee Ahn girl version in term of study habit.

•Favorite subject?

Back in high school, it was english. Now in uni, I guess Statistic. Or Ordinary Differential Equations.

•Favorite TV show?

I actually don't know which is tv show or not. Okay so back then, I love House. That medical drama on AXN. And now I love NCIS. And for korean drama, I'm interested in any comedy and romantic drama as well as-- actually I just watch anything hahahaha.

•Favorite Movie?

Now? The Outlaws hahahahahha I'm not kidding THEY ARE GOLD!! Please. Watch it hahahaha. Oh hm english movie? I guess Harry Potter.

•Favorite books?

I read malay novel so I don't think it fits to be written here. But I read a lot of fanfics hahahahhaa. I have my fav author from asianfanfic which is vanillasushi. And here? Oh god I'd be making two posts if I write them down hahahahhaa.

•Favorite pastime?

Sleeping. Hahahahahaa I'm ready to sleep anywhere and everywhere.

•Do you have any regrets?

I do. First was me being an idiot for liking boys and they insulted me to no end bcs I'm fat and too ugly for their liking.

Second, I regret not fighting for my study. I have two offers for oversea study, one in New Zealand and another in Korea. But I did not go for both bcs of money problem.

•Dream job?

Being EXO or GOT7 manager/staff because that means, I can see their true self. I'll be there when things are hard, even with them to actually go through it. Even if they won't end up with me, at least I've been with them for a short time.

•Would you ever like to be married?

Still yes. Though it's getting even scarier nowadays with a lot of divorce news in my country

•Would you like to have kids?

Fun fact, I love babies. But once they reached 4 or 5 y/o when they get annoying, all i know is to slap them away but I still love them. But please, get those hands away from my face.

•How many?

I'm happy with whatever number I'll get. But maybe 4. Hahahahhaha

•Do you like shopping?

As long as I have money to buy hahahahahaa window shopping is torturous

•What countries have you visited?

I frequent Indonesia, Jakarta, Bandung and Medan. I've been to Mecca. And that's all. So if someone wants to sponsor me, yes I'm on. Hahahahahah

•Scariest nightmare you have ever had?

Scariest? I dreamt of my late grandfather (he passed away early this year). I was there at his last breath and I saw him dying. So in my dream, I saw him struggling and it was so painful and excruciating. I can see myself crying bcs it was too painful to watch.

•Any enemies?

Not that I know.

•Any significant other?

Nope. I'm hopeless with love. And none of the boys feel attracted to me.

•Do you believe in miracles?

Yeap. I do.

•How are you?

I am half fine and half not. I'm having a hectic week and I'm still in it. Tomorrow is a holiday but I have a few things to submit. I just finished proposal defend and I'm exhausted shit.

I'm fine thank you. Hahahahahaha.

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I'm tagging @starhibiki @sevenpeaches @xiaojuxiyou @tuanyiems @ijustwantacue @katdefbeom @lamptastical and all my followers and mutuals who want to do this!

[whittynovels]

restore me predictions 2

*"It made me wish I’d had a sister. Or a mother. Someone to learn from and lean on. A woman to teach me how to be brave in this body, among these men" -Juliette gets friends!!!!! -I want juliette to get a makeover and people who give her boy advice and talk with her about girl stuff and ugh girls -She was never this way with the twins it always felt so awkward *Will Kenji get a love interest? -“he tries” -kenji totes flirts with international people -is the ex-girlfriend his????? -tahereh said kenji doesn’t get anyone in this book but thats ok we'll have a slow burn over a 3 book arc it's what he deserves -T said it’s someone we don’t already know which is fair bc everyone we already know he said is too much like a sister to him so it would be weird *Juliette’s favorite color is black? Sounds fake but ok *JAMES AND WARNER JAMES AND WARNER JAMES AND WA -“were you CRYING?” ummmm just fucking punch me in the lung next time -honestly is every character in this book just gonna witness a warner breakdown why we gotta do him so dirty like that -james is gonna be so mad when they find out they’re brothers because in unravel me he gets pissed about not being told stuff/getting left out -I don’t think it’ll happen this soon *WARNER’S EMO POWERS IN HIS POV -THIS IS THE NUMBER ONE THING I’M EXCITED FOR AND SHE HASN’T SHOWN IT YET IN THE SAMPLER SO I WAS WORRIED BUT YIPPEE I CANT WAIT TO GET CUTE WARNETTE SCENES WHERE WARNER IS AWARE OF JULIETTE'S FEELINGS AND ASKS HER ABOUT IT AND WANTS TO VALIDATE THAT SHE FEELS OKAY ASFUGHJKL;; *JULIETTE DRINKING ADFSGUHDIJ’K -I always wanted to write this but idk -Juliette is happy drunk / warner is emo drunk -Warner super concerned taking care of her *More people with powers? [we been knew reaction pic] -I honestly couldn’t guess any of the powers without just reciting powers from twilight or something lol *Kenji calling warner a dick and warner wanting to punch him -ME -Tahereh is teasing so much kenji & warner dialogue that it makes me wonder about them. Why are they together so much. Why does warner trust kenji. What. Help. Slow down *THE KIND OF MUSIC WARNER LISTENS TO -Either smooth jazz or beyonce, there’s no in between *What warner did to be leader of sector 45 -Pressure waves dude??? -No other predictions. no clue. help. *A cliffhanger?? -I honestly can’t tell you what state my anxiety will be in if there’s a cliffhanger -I think it’ll mirror other books where there’s certainly stuff unsolved but it’s not like someone dies then it’s like “aight, see ya next year” *She keeps hinting about deaths but tbh I don’t think anything will happen until book 6 -She did this with ignite me thinking big deaths would happen but it was nothing -I think she teases to create angst and fear but we’ll be fine -I trust her (t don’t let me down) *Another chapter 55 (◕‿◕✿) *lgbt characters !!!!!!!!! kenji, Brendan, Winston, whatever mans kenji gets *nO ADAM AND KENJI BRO MOMENTS HAHAHAHA -Kenji roasts adam at every opportunity *wARNER SPEAKING SEVERAL LANGUAGES UUGHGHHHHH WHAT A MAN!!!!!! WHAT A MAN, MY DUDES!!!!!!!!!!!! -Seven languages? Oh my lORDDT -I’m not even gonna predict what they are but hooooleeeee mollleeeeeey -We get to see him speak “a couple” ugghhhh I can’t wait to see juliette hear him break into Arabic or something and she’s just like !!!!!!!!!!!! *When asked about juliette and adam’s friendship growing, tahereh said “he’s a part of the story and there’s more left to come” and im just like noooooooo -At the same time, juliette is so forgiving I don’t doubt they’ll finally talk *PPL ROAST ME ABOUT AN ADAM REDEMPTION ARC BUT JUST THINK ABOUT WARNER AND ADAM’S FRIENDSHIP AND ADAM BEING SOMEONE WHO CAN SAVE THEM ALL IF HE PROJECTS HIS POWER AND DISABLES OTHERS’. I’M JUST SAYIN G *WARNER NAKED CRYING ON THE GROUND -WARNER HAS ANXIETY??? PLS LET WARNER HAVE ANXIETY I WANT ANXIETY REP -But at the same time I don’t because #tooreal -I feel like she posted this quote so out of context and it could be nothing but I leapt to the worst conclusions -Why isn’t juliette there? Did they have a fight? Did something happen to her? Did he read his dad’s journals? -DOES KENJI SEE HIS SCARS? -Is warner completely naked?? I’m so confused. I’M SO CONFUSED *Kenji calling warner cute constantly mY HEArt *WHY IS JULIETTE’S POV SPOILERY -Is she kidnapped??? Is she miserable??? Is a character with mind control powers harming her??? Is she separated from warner? Like WHAT??? It’s so spoilery that she can’t even find one quote to give us? *THE VALENTINES DAY SNIPPET -JULIETTE’S CONFIDENCE -THE TOWEL -WARNER’S POV SEXYTIMES -FWUJAOIFPKOIOBLHEIJKMF -SLIHBFLABKVLEAJFGFYOUDLHIJF -I was legit sobbing I was so happy for the first warnette kiss in 4 years -(lowkey wish there was more dialogue and description but that feels almost gluttonous at this point because we are so fortunate for having it at all) *Tahereh said she “likes” the ending of restore me -I don’t think we’ll have a cliffhanger, like I said. -She said “I don’t think it’s sad” so I hope it’s empowering like previous books -T said juliette is her favorite, ever, by the end of RM, so I think she’s fine and she doesn’t die clearly lol *AN EX-GIRLFRIEND COMES INTO PLAY -WHOSE??? WHAT IS THE TRUTH?????? -WHO IS GONNA CLAIM THIS WOMAN -Warner? Is it one of the overseas people? MY MANS IS A HOE!!!!! He out here saying “I didn’t have friends” but he actually meant “I had friends with benefits” -Kenji? Adam? Castle? I literally wish it were anyone else lol I’m solid on my theory of juliette being warner’s first everything but the internet and the author say otherwise *It’s confirmed that juliette MEETS her parents!!!!!! Oufhaouhilvgudyahisjkop;pzfx;ia I’MS O  EXCITED SHE’S GONNA ROAST THEM I’M REA DY FOR HER TO ROOOAST THEM!! -Also warner said in unravel me he wants to kill whoever made her miserable as a kid so I want warner to threaten them or pull a gun or something and im just ready for there to be tea -The biggest question I have—more than what warner did to be leader of sector 45—is what her parents are like. Not even just physically and with their personalities. I’m so split on wondering if they’re sorry or if they still hate her. Are they happy without her? Do they regret it? Will they accept her as she is now? Will they learn to trust her? *New novellas??!!?!! -I was shocked we didn’t get one before this book. -Whose POV? We get a kenji short story so maybe from him. Since we get warner POV in the book, it’s not as important anymore as a separate novella. So it’s gotta be kenji, adam, castle, Anderson, someone, idk. james? new characters? -Maybe it’ll have bonus content from previous books in the trilogy (LS PS LP PL SP L S PL SPL S PLS PLS PL SPL S PLS PL S PLS) *The bird symbolism comes back I’m emo -Juliette flying (ie. Airplanes, she becomes the bird herself? Idk) -I always thought it was so weird that the “the bird I imagined is the bird on adam’s chest” conflict/coincidence was just randomly dropped. -Does juliette become adam’s bird? -DOES MY GIRL FINALLY GET TO SEE A BIRD???? AHHHHHHH --i used to want ignite me to end with her seeing a bird so maybe i can finally have my dream come true and one of these books has her seeing a bird in it *Juliette’s powers are still growing -Unless it has to do with killing people and not physically moving stuff like castle then idk. I’m conflicted about this one. *More about warner’s mom, it’s ok I’m just gonna cry over here *Warner’s virginity better not be a hot topic in this book because I am tired and I’m so happy not knowing -Same how I feel with sex scenes like ty for having them but I don’t need to be ~too~ well-acquainted with their anatomy, ya know? pls no sarah j maas porn in these woods, thank you *Juliette and warner get to travel!!!!!!! -Now that warner knows how to drive a helicopter I just imagine them being like “hey Barbie wanna go for a ride” “sure ken” “hop in” then I don’t wanna live forever starts playing because wasn’t there a helicopter scene in fifty shades *Warner and his 5 o’clock shadow sounds fake bc in unravel me when he was being held captive there was no beard [angery frog meme] -Why my mans so stressed he aint shavin????????? He needs a hug and 3 advil *SHE EITHER GETS A HAIRCUT OR A TATTOO IN THIS BOOK -I’m 50/50. On one hand, she mentioned in ignite me that she needs a haircut, but I really really reall yreally hate haircuts in books so I’m salty -Also Ive always wished she’d get a tattoo bc it’s so empowering and she has a lot of mantras she lives by and warner is such a cheerleader for them and he would love it too *WARNER IS LITERALLY THE EMBODIMENT OF CAR RADIO ABOUT OUTRUNNING SILENCE OAUHOSJIKO;DI;FSLDGYHIJ MY MANS IS EMO AND I LOVE AND SUPPORT HIM UNCONDITIONALLY -I’m concerned that he and juliette aren’t together more in this book. She’s in a meeting he’s not invited to??? Aaron warner? More like aaron burr, not being in the room where it happened

[misterbitches]

Most ppl porbably know this if u have been following me for a while bc i’m a prettentious hIDEOUS anarchist BITCH and i never shut up about it but i’m a filmmaker (and artiste i paint and illustrate...poorly) I hate awards shows, i hate the self-congratulatory BS rthe rich pplkin a room or ppl who want to be rich or gain social capital. No matter their color or gender etc it’s bullshit. Definition of insanity is watching this shit over and over and expecting a different outcome. It’s truly a wonderrful feeling to be acknowledged and if awards show didnt determine some bullshit (literally « good opportunities » it depends on who. What happened to lupita n’yongo?)

I have some sad news: 1 - i think other races are realizing that, much like the black counterparts they obsess over because we are just that fuckin’ fascinating, but they are fads. You are a fad ni the machine that isw bullshit Culturalism and multiculturalism as progress. Do not rest on the rich people, believe in your fucking self and do what you need. Bong Joon Ho existed befor ean dafter that win (i kidna want to go into this more but no) and barry jenkins pre-moonlight made a film that was extremely well-received and featured (shock) a black cast and good actors and was about gentrification. He took a break from filmmaking and focused on advertising IIRC for THIRTEEN YEARS. SO THEY EXIST. As for black filmmakers and arrtists we are alsways. Here. Leads me to 2; you exist and you should not be stolen from

2 - i startefd doing more research on blackface and minstrelsy digital blackface as well. And blackness is a commodity as we know butt here’s just constant fucking theft. I learned about the few succesful times balckface was incorporated (by black people ofc) and just yea. It was eye-opening. I didn’t know the oscars were happening and then i got the notif about boseman before bed and it was pointless.

I think he should have been out of the runnin at least for a bit. They knew what they were doing because the academy didn’t vote for him. I can’t remember correctly but if I have vague knowledge the movie wasn’t received super well (like, say, a fences) so maybe it makes sense. But this man died at 43 and was working through COLON CANCER (my father had the same thing, same stage, but he’s here at 62. It’s just shitty. It’s fucking shitty) and you want to evaluate his work? In this stupid fucking paradigm after this hell year? After the hell year for black people specifically (spoiler: THIS IS OUR CONSTANT) and what I find dumbfounding about this is this is capitalism. This is hollywood. This is the mainstream (refer to #1) because there has to be winners and losers. This is a hot take so maybe we dont’ need to judge posthumously—at least not in an instant way when someone passes but released a work—at least maybe not an award. Critiquing and talking about their work (like jonghyun’s album poet|artist) is different then hyoing up a construction and saying to a man who is by the way um como se dice DEAD!!!! DEAD! HELLO! And saying « lol u lost the most important awards show ‘ever’ according 2 us also ur dead also this doesnt matter and oh btw here’s an nft of this DEAD BLACK MAN’S FACE in your goodie bags! » like what is this garbage

Technology has made it so removal of ownership is an even better form of stealing. An even better way for minstrelsy to prevail on non-blackness. When black minstrelsy has existed (IE black people using that pain and stereotype as subversion, as laughs, because the trauma of being seen as an object is endless. So we have to figure out what pain you put upon us and how we can proceed) and we are innovators, creators, foundations. FIlmmaking relies on black exploitation and erasure, most art does, and we are not people until we can be commodities. We aren’t real because blackness is an expression not a state of being, not trauma and pain, not joy and immense beauty.

The thing is that (most) AI, NFTs, techno advancement (space ex lmao) isn’t about absorption, sharing, and innovating. Deepfakes all of that shit too. It facilitates THEFT. Tik Tok is born out of black theft and like most bad things that evolve black pain evolves to greater pain, particularly in america, so now black people are having their work removed or livelihoods copied (btw if ur not black u will nevr be, u will never understand our structure of feeling and who we are. I know it pains you but build a bridge and get the fuck over it. You can’t be a nigga and eschew the nigger) it seeps into regular popular culture. The fact that an NFT of nirvana’s last shoot is being sold is fucking everyhting Nirvana is against. Basquiat would probably hate that (if he could wrap his 1980s brain around the concept. I hate it. I hate it because none of it is to help artists or to go further. You don’t have to recreate a Nirvana song via AI because this time has passed. The band members wouldn’t even want that.

We can’t bottle time and memories and remove the fucking context from them. It’sd scary. And so much of this is just relying on black exploitation and theft of immense black labor. Our freedom is intrinsic to world freedom and yuo can see as things evolve how (particularly in the US but also our likeness as culture and cutural exploits) and eventually, maybe, you will be erased like us. But the thing is: we know this, we live it, we keep going. Can other people handle that? I am not so sure, though I hope they will. One last thing as more and more people try and become progressive or whatever I really just wish they understood blackness as a real root to liberation. Ending Israeli Apartheid is a big one as well; we are not free until Palestinians are free but if they get free then we have to attack the (non black) « arab » psyche of superiority. However, Palestinians have an afffinity with black people in the diaspora because of the genocidal tendencies in the US and because of SA apartheid.

I’m going to stop here but none of these things above are intersted in sharing more art and stuff. The OSCARS were cvreated to bust unions and keep black people out. Celebrities who are radical got their lives destroyed. And now we have very little legacy of people doing what they enjoy because they enjoy it and being able to speak up. It’s less of a necessity when you can just get in the room and chill. The idea is to get people realizing they dont WANT to be in the room.

Lastly: my thoughts on representation are complex. I do not believe the representation of asians is going to go as far as people think and I absolutely do not believe that it is because of the anti-asian hate and sinophobia that is borne out of this time. Hollywood has no interest in being progressive and what little we get it’s being pushed onthe inside. Even for streaming companies outside of TV—status quou is imminent. Media is propaganda and true amazing artists can convey it. But it’s more about money and fame as capital atp which is always the direction it was going.

Artists deserve happiness, ownership, and a life. They should want to say things that matter, nothing is apolitical, and we should strive to make good shit. Strive to reduce waste on sets. Strive to see people as fucking human. Art is a ridiculous stupid bougie rat-race but here I am.

[eroda94styles]

Tag Game

Tagged by @ambrose-asylum-ft-mitch, @lilmisscrisis, and @superrezzy00. Thank you so much!!

1. What time did you get up this morning?
 - Around 9:45am

2. How do you like your steak?
 - I don’t know, I don’t eat meat.

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?
 - Can’t remember, I watch movies online. Either Suicide Squad or Don’t Breathe; what ever was the last to come out.

4. What is your favorite TV show?
 - American Horror Story

5. If you could live anywhere in the world where would it be?
 - Ireland

6. What did you have for breakfast this morning? - Nothing

7. What is your favorite cuisine?
 - Arabic

8. What foods do you dislike?
 - Hate guacamole, fish, mayo, and other things I can’t think of.

9. Favorite Place to Eat? - 
Olive Garden

10. Favorite dressing?
 - Italian 

11.What kind of vehicle do you drive?
 - Acura

12. What are your favorite clothes?
 - Concert/band/wrestling tees and skinnies

13. Where would you visit if you had the chance?
 - Ireland, lol.

14. Where would you want to retire?
 - Ireland, lmfao! 😂

15. Favorite time of day?
 - Late at night, like early am.

16. Where were you born?
 - Lafayette, Louisiana

17. What is your favorite sport to watch?
 - Wrestling

19. How many siblings do you have?
 - 2

20. Favorite pastime/hobby?
 - Listening to music, watch wrestling, play video games, read comics, or mostly sleep

21. Who are you most curious about their responses to this?
 - I have no clue

22. Bird watcher? 
- No, but I’d like to

23. Are you a morning person or a night person?
 - Night

24. Do you have any pets? - Sadly no, my mom is scared. Just wait till I get my own house, I’ll have more pets than Natayla!!

25. Any new and exciting news you’d like to share?
 - I’m going to a Twenty One Pilots concert in like 8 days, and I’m turning 19 in 12 days. SEND ME LOVE AND SAMI PICS! MARK YOUR CALENDARS, MARCH 6TH PEOPLE! 😜

26. What did you want to be when you were little?
 - A vet

27. What is your best childhood memory?
 - Going to a park with my family and climbing a tree for the first time

28. Are you a cat or dog person? - Both

29. Are you married?
 - Hell to the frickel no and never will be 😂

30. Always wear your seat belt?
 - No, please don’t give me a ticket...

31. Been in a car accident?
 - Yep, nothing serious tho

32. Any pet peeves? 
- Rude, judgmental people

33. Favorite Pizza Toppings?
 - Although I’m not a fan of pizza (please don’t tell Liv Morgan), I’ll get veggies if I have to eat it

34. Favorite Flower?
 - Water lilies

35. Favorite ice cream?
 - Cookies and cream or mint chocolate chip

36. Favorite fast food restaurant?
 - Cane’s or Popeyes or BK

37. How many times did you fail your driver’s test?
 - Haven’t taken it yet

38. From whom did you get your last email? 
- Back to the Future

39. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card?
 - WWE Shop or Ticketmaster

40. Do anything spontaneous lately? - Walked outside, I don’t like leaving my house

41. Like your job?
 - Don’t got one; but if you mean being an annoying sister and daughter then I LOVE IT

42. Broccoli? 
- Absolutely 

43. What was your favorite vacation?
 - I liked going to Florida for Disney and Universal or Chicago bc I went on a plane for the first time, but family fought the entire time so it wasn’t enjoyable

44. Last person you went out to dinner with?
 - Mom and sister

45. What are you listening to right now?
 - The Lumineers

46. What is your favorite color?
 - Sky Blue 

47. How many tattoos do you have?
 - None

49. What time did you finish this quiz?
 - 5:36 pm

50. Coffee Drinker? - Yep

Tagging @ambrose-mode, @baleesi, @ponyboysxsunset, @gothicninibalor, @dandelionw1shes, and who ever wants to do this ❤️

[survivor-kalymnos]

Ep. 2 - “I'd like to speak with the manager” - Maxyne

cranjes

lol cool so i’m in a majority alliance without having to lift a finger? fuckin love that. the challenge is a shit ton of greek letters and i cant like be literate in english so i volunteered to sit out. i have enough charisma, uniqueness, nerve and talent to get through if we lose.

Gregg

Well, tribal went according to what was said and honestly that was nice. Know i hope we can win immunity because dont want to go to tribal again. Im talking to people but not im not like fitting in with people it seems. I might be an outsider. So hoping i can live long enough to survive and live for a swap time.

Elle

Dusty started an alliance chat with myself, Fae, Erick, Cranjes, and Van which I agree with. I really like Van and Fae, but I do not necessarily trust Cranjes and Erick. However, it is good that we have a majority alliance at this stage in the game. I want to be able to protect Maxyne, but I am not sure what the group will decide. For now, I should be content with not imposing my will on votes and being a follower. It will serve me well in the long run. 

Elle

After a drunk night, I can say for sure that I am well-established in this tribe. I think Sasha and Frank are in the most danger. Cranjes did not even know Frank existed until tonight, so it seems like they could be the easy vote this time around. I would not be mad at it at all. I want to keep Maxyne safe, after all, since they are someone who I feel I have a deep connection with. The duolingo challenge could prove troublesome, but I am hoping that the tribe pulls through together in order to negate the disadvantages we received.�� 

Tristin

Ok so we lost the challenge and we just have to recover and win this one!!! The challenge is duolingo and I-. I hate. The language is Greek. I wish that it was a language that I knew like Arabic or English but rip. Lucking I joined a Greek letter Fraternity so the alphabet is easy for me but everything else... whew child. 

Eliza

Greek is so fucked, I know how to say xylophone but not hi????

Franco

I miss Susan. She was fun... Even if i did help orchestrate a unanimous vote against her :(

Anyway. Moving on!! This challenge is hard and Greek is hard. I underestimated how difficult it would be to learn an entire new alphabet. Odds are in our favor because Plati has a 40% disadvantage (which is HUGE), but I'm still a lil worried. A lot of people on Nera either seem busy or not invested. The running score should not be as close as it is right now, we should be steamrolling!!!

Sasha

right, okay, god damn I need to get in this. high key. well, I'm trying but in the midst of everything happening irl, I'm a mess lmao. Jay sent out an edgic with no names to the tribe chat and I was like "okay which INV one is me" because that's already obvious. I need to like, actually do stuff so if we lose this challenge I don't be the first boot of my tribe asdfgnjhbcdsge

Elle

Once again I am the sole provider of the tribe win challenges because my back is hurting from carrying all these people. Since it is Raffy-proofed meaning that it is averaged, I just have to pray to god that people do as well as me. Like I even helped them in the tribe chat. If that was not enough then I do not know what will help these people. All I know is that I will not be going home since I am strong in challenges and they will need me for later.

Elle

Because I know this will come up eventually (and I want the proof here) these are my guesses for who people are: Sasha - Dylan Cranjes - John Fae - Birch Maxyne - Colin? Duncan? Anyways love. I hope we win the challenge xoxo

Maxyne

PLS EVERYONE DOING 30-40 LESSONS AND I'VE 14 I'M GOING TO Διε

cranjes

well shoot. oh well. gotta yeet a hoe.

michele

greek stinks, not even mad about only getting 7😂

Sasha

when you had the lowest score of everyone in the tribe, excluding the one who was exempted from the challenge : )

Maxyne

They better hide their damn ankles, cause whoever sprain their ankles during the hunt, imma shatter the next one >:(

Elle

It sucks that we are going to tribal, but I already know who I want to vote out: Frank. They are not very active and they did the worst in both challenges. So, for me, this is a no brainer vote of getting them out. Cranjes did not even know they existed until yesterday. I feel pretty confident at the moment.

Rain

Yay, we won immunity! Finally made an alliance chat with Franco, Michele, and Eliza. We are a fantastic quadrant, and we make a tidy majority, though I’m sure we’re gonna have swap soon. I’m honestly not feeling Gregg anymore. If we had gone to tribal, I would have pushed to get him voted out but like, not pushy like because that’s how the vote gets flipped on you. Lenny might be a weak link too? Who knows. At least worm is excellent. I hope susan gets eliminated from redemption. Honestly... I respect her, but I don’t miss the energy. 

Elle

Also, earlier in the day, Maxyne and I had a little chat about working closely together in the game. I really like Maxyne, so this works out for me. I will keep them as a covert operator away from my big majority alliance. Eventually things are going to shake down such that the alliance crumbles, so I need to make sure people will have my back when it does. 

Sasha

wait I didn’t actually score the Lowest I’m just dummy ckkaskfbak

cranjes

who the fuck is frank

cranjes

i have no idea who’s gonna get the yeet. i’m being told it’s either maxyne, sasha or frank. but who is frank.

Dusty

Sooooo we lost the immunity challenge, which I’m not surprised about because I personally had no motivation to try and learn a whole new language and alphabet...But regardless I did my best and at least not he worst. I’m fine with us losing because it just means losing a less-active player, and gives us a tribal to strengthen the alliance that is myself, Erick, fae, Elle, cranjes, and Van. I really like this group of people. Erik, fae, elle, and I have been working together to try and find a damn idol but so far our hunt has only brought us to the other tribes camp

Franco

AHHHH WE WON. IM SO GLAD we don't have to do tribal again. I know I wouldn't be in danger but the less risk the better???

Anyway!! I now have 2 alliances!! Rain has been talking to me about getting an alliance for a while now, but they arent,,, the best at consistent communication and enacting plans. But I can't judge because that's definitely not my strongest suit either. They brought in Michele and Eliza which i think is HILARIOUS since us three already have our own alliance. It just kinda works. Rain doesn't strike me as a super strong player but theyre fun to have around, at the very least it's another number and perspective for Michele, Eliza, and I. It just makes our trio stronger than we already are!!

Fae

Hi!!! I don’t have much to say, but here are some predictions on who is who. Van = Zach Erick = John maybe? Not 100% sure on that one. That’s all I have but I Think Maynor might be also be playing, but he is also currently about to win an atomic so maybe not? Zoe and Ellie are probably here too. Maybe Stephen? Is that a stretch? Only time will tell.  

cranjes

OHMYGOD I FOUND AN IDOL this is what happened oh my god i’m screaming so i told erick i voted for him for the idol bc he started talking about ghost adventures and i love ghost adventures so in turn he shared the clue with me. it said something about tedious tasks, and idk why but i had to look at the top of the waterfall. under all the little stones. and there she was. i’m gonna cry this is so exciting. is anyone gonna find out? no. hell to the motherfuckin no. this is my secret and my secret only.

Worm

So my tribe won immunity! That in its self is very exciting just because of how hard I work. We were very lucky though with all disadvantages because our asses would have been handed to us if not. Tribe wise, since we won I can take this chance to create tighter bonds with everyone. Part of me feels as though Jay may decide to add some twists to the game like an early tribe swap. If this does occur I want to be ready so I don't get swap fucked. Overall I think my relationships with everyone are good and can help me get to the merge. The only person that I don't have a decent bond with is Gregg, I don't think anyone does though. He isn't too active in the tribe so unless he is doing a lot of socializing behind the scenes I don't think anyone is too close to him. Now I know I'm safe so I shouldn't need to worrying about targets and who to get out when I have to go to my next tribal council, but I think I just like having a plan even if it doesn't need to come to fruition. So right now this plan is just in a passive state and is only told here.

Also fuck these idols. During my search I've only found a big egg and sand. What kind of tomfoolery is this! I have a feeling an idol has already been found, especially because Franco was given a clue to where it is hidden. But Im gonna keep going cause maybe I might find some more cool shit.

Frank

I’m quite concerned about possibly being voted out tonight because I’m not that social and that is concerning. Looking at all my messages though I have responded and the other people left me on read so like that’s why some conversations ended. Right now I get good vibes from Cranjes. Do I think I’m gonna go voted out though...yes, yes I do. Will I stay on redemption for a while...hopefully. But that doesn’t mean I’m giving up for the vote tonight, I’m going to try until the end because that’s what I know best.

Eliza

Dear diary.... Some of these damn people are gonna make me lose it, also at this point I think I’ve tried to clock my whole tribe + Elle as Raffy, I swear at least one of them is raffy, Franco and Michele I’m looking at you. I will find him. Anywho, I think it’s about time I give my early game analysis of everyone! I’ll even give my analysis of the alliances I’m in for extra fun. 

Let’s start with alliances!

Elfranchele: Includes: Eliza (Ellie), Franco, Michele I honestly think this alliance could go far, my two beautiful meat shields whom I love ever so much! Right now at this pre merge stage I believe that we’re the core that’s going to be controlling the votes until swap/merge, and honestly I’m pretty ok with it. I’d love to go far with these two! Named alliance: Includes: Eliza (Ellie), Franco, Michele, Rain

This alliance formed because rain wanted it to, they didn’t realize that elfranchele exists, and it’s goo that no one knows of it. I like rain and think I could work with them but considering that someone already wants them out, I’ll be working with them for however long it’s going to benefit my game, love then as a person but I don’t want a target on my back. (Y’all like the playing style I’m trying this time??? It’s new for me ain’t it) People!

Franco: Ugh, I’d literally die for Franco, but I can’t attach myself to him, I need to remain a free agent although Franco is definitely my #1 as of now, I mean he gave me half of a super idol for fucks sake. As long as I find the idol before he does it’ll be great, because I already know that both Franco and I are good social players, so having an idol that I don’t have to share with him/that he doesn’t know about? Beautiful! I want to go far with Franco, but I’d prefer to go a tad bit farther than him.

Michele: We love Michele, her humor is great and I love the whole elfranchele alliance, Michele is the same story as Franco basically, minus the fact that she doesn’t know about the super idol. I think Michele and I could definitely work very well together because as of right now I have no reason not to trust her. Franco is still my top person right now but I still love Michele and want to go far with her.

Rain: Rain is fun! We love them, people are already suspicious of them and that does not look very good, hopefully it’s just Lenny overthinking but I’ll be wary of that. I love rain and want to work with them but they’re not someone I absolutely NEED to go far with. This time I’m trying to stick with people only when they benefit me, that’s very new for me because I’m generally a very very strong social player that gets everyone to like them and then I pick a side and stay. But I’m try to branch out more this time!

Tristin and Worm: These two are kinda the same story for me so I’m grouping them together before this gets too long, I love them both and they are generally great people to have conversations with. I could see myself working with them very long term. I told worm about Lenny wanting rain so that I could gain Worm’s trust and it definitely worked so that’s great! I love these two and think that I’ll be able to work with them without anyone suspecting that we’re actually working together.

Gregg and Lenny: They don’t really do anything, I mean Lenny wanted rain out but other than that? These two have made no real impact and haven’t done anything, if we lose again I see one of those two going. Ok that’s it y’all, sorry if this was too long!! Have a great day.

Elle

Frank is definitely going to make their way out of the door today. He has not really been fighting for his spot at all, so it should be an easy vote. I felt like I got closer to Cranjes/John earlier in the day, so I feel good that we will be tight if I keep going for it. Finally, it seems someone has already found something in the idol hunt since I searched a spot that used to have something in it. I hope I grow close to whoever it is so that they will not use their item against me. But I feel pretty comfortable with my place in the tribe, however that is when I am the most vunerable.

cranjes

we’re voting frank. he just done been done too darn quiet until today. he made life a LOT easier by throwing a name out cough sasha who isn’t in the alliance of six (me, erick, van, dusty, fae and elle) and as far as i know it should shake out to be frank going to the redemption island duel. granted it’s survivor so who knows BUT i don’t think i need to play my idol. so that’s where i stand. Van It’s been a pretty chill day ngl. The Big Alliance™️ has pretty much decided who’s going home due to inactivity and just generally not caring about the game. Talk of Sasha has gone around, but everyone is still voting frank as of right now.

Tristin

I’m super happy that we won the challenge. I don’t have to worry about sending another player from out tribe to redemption island. However, this round Michele tempted me with the possibility of voting out someone big. She didn’t say who but I told her I was interested. I’m here for chaos gorls. Currently I’m solidifying a F2 with Worm because they’re cool and I like them. We also talked about voting off Gregg which is cool because Gregg is currently our weakest link. Also for the sake of the edgic, I must mention that I SEE lenny but she doesn’t do much which is a negative to me. She’s just barely above Gregg on my totem poll.

Worm

So since we are safe my mind is wandering. After playing enough orgs, my gut is telling me that there is already an alliance in place on my tribe. I first suspected in when Franco won the reward with 5 votes. Then after we lost I talked to Michele maybe 5 minutes after it was posted and she said that she already talked to some people and that they all seem to be on board with getting rid of Susan. And then today, Eliza told me that Lenny wanted to get rid of Rain last round and that her and a few others got Lenny to change her mind and go for Susan. This conversation had me concerned cause I haven't had many conversation about strategy other than confirming the Susan vote and few people saying they want to work with me.I digress on that. As I continued to talk to Eliza she then mentioned that Rain doesn't know about Lenny targeting them unless either Michele or Franco told them. So my brain connected some possible dots I kinda came to the conclusion that Eliza, Franco, Lenny, and Michele are working together (or at least Eliza, Franco, and Michele). I don't want to put the cart before the horse but I might need to see if I can solidify an alliance with Tristin and Rain (if they would only communicate with me :'( ). Not gonna reveal any of theses gut feelings yet but I'm gonna keep researching and seeing if my gut feelings are correct. And if the are I need to figure out if I wanna be messy if we go to tribal soon or just ride it until merge. I can go with the flow and just be social and go with the numbers but that might not be whats best for the long term of my game. There is so much mystery in this game that everything feels like a poor decision. I feel like the confused lady meme right now and its only the second round. (Reference: https://i.kym-cdn.com/entries/icons/original/000/021/464/14608107_1180665285312703_1558693314_n.jpg)

Erick

We lost the challenge :(  I had to exempt myself for medical reasons so I can’t help but feel partially responsible. But I feel safe in my alliance, and I feel confident we are voting out Frank.

Frank

I’m feeling a bit better about tribal. I said Sasha’s name before and now that’s spreading apparently since now I’ve heard their name from others. For right now I am happy but I am fully aware that anything can happen in the next few hours. I am going to try and maintain the conversations that I’ve had today throughout the game so I can be seen as more social. I just want to do well.

Lenny

I hope people in the tribe like me. I am not sure if I want to start an alliance with franco and worm or one with michele and eliza or both. I also think Tristan is a good person to have on my side. Very grateful we won this past challenge because I could’ve been in jeopardy with my performance in the duolingo. Why is the greek keyboard so anxiety provoking.

Maxyne

Okie dokie, so long story short we lost challenge and I think the plan is to vote Frank off unless it's a ruse to kill me instead. Tribals are always nerve wracking cause you never know what's gonna happen until it happens, and when it does happen... it's too late. I think i've been making good progress socially. I'm playing up the humor side as I usually do cause every tribe needs a clown. I'd be happy to fill that role it'll take me far. I don't think I'm a social threat as of right now but I would like to say that my tribe likes me. I didn't build the connection as much as I would like to this round since people came to me and I didn't come to them which doesn't always fly well. Hopefully if i survive tribal which is *checks time* a few minutes from now, i'd like to work more on my connections. Right now, it seems like Elle is the top of my personal leaderboard but i wanna expand my options. Also the idol hunt? Trash. I'd like to speak with the manager. I highly doubt that everyone here sucks at the idol hunt. One of these bitches have it. I fuckin know it. Someone has to be lying about it. Still, I wanna do what I can to find it. It's probably not there anymore but I need to satisfy my need to hunt. Anyways, let's go snuff a torch and hope it's not mine.

[littlekoreanlangblr]

i just realized i never really did an “introduction post” so here we go!!

my name is Savanna (사바나, Vanna, and some people even call me Sam) and im 19.

school: im almost done with my sophomore year of college and in the summer 2019 ill be graduating with my associates in Foreign Languages. then ill be transfering to a 4 year school, but i wont be staying. im going to take the classes need to get a certificate to Teach English as a Foreign Language (TEFL). after recieving that i will hopefully join the Teach and Learn in Korea (TaLK) program and be a paid afterschool english teacher for a year! (im going to make another post explaining the various teaching-english-programs in korea) my plan is to see if i really like teaching english and then want to get a completed bachelors in that, or if its not for me i will go the more interpreter/translator route

languages: so i have been studying korean for almost four years now, but i dont really count the first two because it was very lazy and i didnt make much progress. ive been told that i am conversational, but im not very good at forming my own sentences and listening yet (if you are korean or are really good at speaking korean and want to be language exchange partners please message me :)). that said i am very good at reading and writing. ive also studied russian and arabic for a semester, so i can read and write in both, but i really dont like gendered languages so i dropped both of them and havent continued my studies. ive also had the typical three years of spanish that most american kids have to take in highschool

hobbies/fun stuff: i absolutely love watching movies. i will watch the most simple kids movie and break it apart and look at the major themes and their use of colours and symbolism and the like. i love movies. also tv shows, though recently i havent been in much of a tv show mood (besides the comedies like the office, b99, parks and rec, and community. i can always watch those). i absolute love avatar the last airbender so please talk to me about that. im a big fan of BTS (thinking of doing a different post on them too lol). i like a lot of animes and will always take recommendations, love books but i havent had much time to read bc of school. but the books i absolutely love are percy jackson, harry potter, i am number four, the legend trilogy, any markus zusak book, and generally most YA fiction novels. the youtubers i love are jenna marbles and julien solomita, dan and phil, danny gonzales, and ryan trahan. i like others but these are the ones i watch all the time. i think the only other thing i do is draw and other art type things and am obsessed with tattoos. OH i am also a part of a show choir and love singing and learned like dancing. our show choir does more of like modern songs (like we do Mic Drop by BTS, For the 2000s mashup by Todrick Hall, and Africa by Toto)

personal: thought id lightly cover this because i am effected by them daily and may mention them in later posts. so i do have moderate social anxiety but that is much more under control that a couple years ago. i also have moderate depression which is so annoying because when it really hits i just have no motivation and i hate it. i wouldnt be surprised if i also have ADD but idk i havent ever gotten that like “diagnosed” i guess. ALRIGHT ENOUGH PERSONAL BLAH

why i made a langblr: so basically i need more motivation and exposure to korean because im getting bored with the school material and i dont feel like im making any progress. im not really sure what ill post here but im just gonna give it a try. also this account is much calmer than my main so its a nice break

wow this is hella long im impressed if you read all of that. but yeah thats me!! feel free to message me at any time i love to chat

[edengarden]

Hi, can I have a BNHA and Haikyuu regular matchup if u can’t do both just choose one of themif it’s ok ofc! I describe myself as much as I can I am a 163 cm INTJ girl with curly and light brown hair, brown eyes , I’m a little fat and I wear glasses I like to listen to nightcore or slowed music. I usually do not care about what people say and I do what I think is right. I am very introverted and I prefer to be myself(ngl sometimes I get annoyed really fast). I can be funny or serious around people and be quiet outside but from the inside I'm very shy and like to read books / manga and watch romance, horror movies and animation, and I usually get emotional watching them. I am a direct person to the people. I prefer to stay home to read comics, sleep, play, rather then go out with people. I like to take care of my appearance and take the time to get ready (I NEVER wear pants so I usually wear shorts or dresses) and people tend to say My personality is really edgy(idk what that means I think they mean I’m a bruh girl?). I’m really tsundere so sometimes some of my friends say that they think I’m emotionless and I never cry but if u look closely i actually do care about people I just show it to them with my little actions bc I’m not really good with words oh and one of my bestfriends always says that “U do not know how to express your feelings properly and people say that you do not know your worth and you hide ur true feelings” oh alsoooo Ive been to a karate and boxing class before but I hate sports that includes running and ummm My fav subject at school is maths but I’m really good with languages too!(I can speak 3 fully language and I can understand Arabic too)and I really like to teach people the studies that they don’t understand

That’s all I can say lol tysm!

Hi! Unfortunately, I have a rule that mentions that I only take one form of matchup from one fandom. However, if you want, you can send in your description again and I’ll match you up with an hq character!!

I’m matching you up with Tokoyami!

And I NEED to come clean as to why I’ve decided this because the image is so funny.

We all know that this boy is a Poetic Emo, and he probably expresses himself that way. So to you, who has no idea how to normally process emotion let alone process it in such a fancy and vague way would be so funny. Of course, he likes to keep it simple for you but once in a while he’ll blurt out some shit about you and the moon and the sea and you’re just sitting there sobbing like “PLEASE CAN U SPEAK NORMALLY FOR A SECOND I DONT UNDERSTAND” He actually sort of finds it cute that you have trouble processing your own feelings or showing them??

This boy DEFINITELY notices the small actions you make for him and he could get so flustered over it?? No one else notices but he does. In fact, I like to think that when Tokoyami’s crushing on you, he notices ALL your little quirks and personality quips and at some point he tell you that he’s noticed you doing this and you’re like “...i do that??” And in his mind he’s like omfmsoskdjsj how does a person remain so ignorant about their own self—

Oh my god, how did Dark Shadow not expose Tokoyami’s crush on you?? The world will never know, but you KNOW you’re good for Tokoyami when even his quirk is ecstatic to see you. It’s so cute, you get to go home to not only your boy, but to your boys?? Like ur mans and his talking, feeling shadow?? NICE. Dark Shadow established his role in the relationship as “The One Who Will Keep It Real”. Just as you’re very forward with people, you’ll notice that if Tokoyami is trying to avoid a subject, his quirk will usually cut the bullshit and outright tell you that yes, he wants flowers for Valentine’s Day and he wants you to take him out for a midnight picnic he’s THAT romantic even if he doesn’t like to admit it

Songs!!

- Lust, Puma Blue

- Exit Music (For A Film), Radiohead (look me in the eyes and tell me he doesn’t listen to this shit I dare you)

- Oh Ana, Mother Mother

- The Hearts Filthy Lesson, David Bowie