#when i was a sophomore in high school i watched 10 seasons of spn in 10 weeks and then never started watching again <3< /div> Explore tagged Tumblr posts

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slice of life comic that i drew while at the mechanic. brought to you by my love of time loops

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So I didn't really talk about my conclusions from basically directly ingesting the entire series of SPN over the course of a month but that's mostly just because like. It didn't actually change my opinions on the things that mattered to me by the time I'd stepped away from it back in high school. Like listen ok

I slammed so hard into SPN from sophomore to senior year (2012-2014 basically) that when I want being met with whatever the hyper fixation of the week was, you can bet your ass I was loading up on SPN any way I could get it, including borrowing friends' Netflix accounts to watch. I worked So Hard to catch up on the show in the months leading up to season 10 specifically, because I was hyped at how close I was to being caught up and able to watch Live ok so I did the thing

And I was so disappointed in the Fanfiction episode that I couldn't handle it and then the next episode was Rowena centric but in the Standardly-Supernatural-misogynistic method, that I couldn't keep watching. I think I held on for dear life through 10x08 before I couldn't take it anymore

I lived and breathed the fandom only to throw it into the deepest darkest closet, so much so that the only thing that could actually convince me to pick it up again was the confluence of my surgery date+recovery period, mixed with seeing a Take about it that gave me Feelings so I Had To Check Myself bc this person was giving an analysis from the perspective of actually having watched the ship go down in the glorious pyrotechnic display that was November 2015 ok and I didn't have that so I needed the understanding of that missing seasons

I think I came away actually agreeing with them but tbf I can't actually remember the Take itself, so much as my burning annoyance about it

And like the thing is, just as any piece of media can hold whatever a fan wants to put into or take out of it, SPN can do that. But given it's unique length and relationship with the viewer (both perceived/aspirational and Actual) it has a Lot of extra length on that rope

Idk I just. I don't think I've ever been so disarmed by all the ways something could've been Good, or even just marginally better, which would fundamentally have made it Not The Thing

I don't think Destiel could've had this staying power, I didn't think @whyissupernaturaltrending could exist, I don't think the media landscape as we know it today could be at all the same if, underneath it all, Supernatural had been anything more than the trash fire it turned into. And I will agree wholeheartedly with everyone who says that the show rebounded in the last 3 or so seasons because, having mainlined it for a month straight, I can certainly tell you that even the perfect arc of seasons 1-5 cannot really compare to the depth and monstrosity that seasons 12 on wrought. And even still, there's plenty of it that simply couldn't have happened at all if that complicated relationship with the viewer had been replaced with something else like. It's got everything it's got because of all of these things and that's why I love it the same as I hate it and why I'm never taking notes on my opinions on this show lol

[lateral-org]

in 2005 I was 2 years old. Not much I remember.

I started watching the show in 7th grade (late 2015) because my best friend would stop bothering me about it. I'd been into doctor who and had seen plenty of cas fanart but other than that didn't understand anything. I was closeted deeply and the kind of depressed you could only really be in middle school. I remember staying up late over christmas break watching destiel compilations and realizing that I might be bisexual. That was a big part of my life.

In February 2016 my dog died, and I coped by scrolling through consulting-cannibal's spn comics and binging seasons 9-10 of the show with my mom on the couch. The show's a great place to go when grieving.

Dropped off the show for a bit, but then I moved my sophomore year (2018) do to my parents' divorce. I was lonely and in the darkest headspace I'd been up to that point. I decided on a whim when I was stuck home sick to rewatch the first five seasons. I ended up getting to like season 7 within a few weeks and then skipping ahead to the newest available episodes on Netflix.

After that I fell off again, but due to previously explained reasons I am fact back on my bullshit.

I'm 17 now, openly bisexual and dating a wonderful disasterously bi nonbinary person. I dropped out of high school (sophomore year really sucked) and went to community college after getting my GED. I'm set to get my associate's degree next fall (i'll be 18). We have a new dog named Phantom who is a little wimp that I love very much.

I've also been diagnosed and medicated for ADHD, been through 3 years of therapy, and I'm in the best headspace I've ever been in.

I credit supernatural with helping me figure out my sexuality. Dean and Cas both had plotlines I related to deeply, and I'm sincerely grateful for the representation if not only on screen, in fic and fandom. I also wanna say that I've never seen a show quite so good for coping with grief. It's a central theme and helps you feel less alone when going through a loss.

Supernatural was a formative part of my life and I'm deeply grateful to it, even if the writing sucked in a lot of places and even with the years and years and years of unconfirmed queerbaiting. I don't regret a second of my time spent with it and I'm honestly excited to see how it all shakes out.

okay since i'm wigging out about spn let's do a fun game and get NOSTALGIC

++reblog and tell me where you were in your life when supernatural started/when you started it, and where you are now that it's ending. ++

for example: in 2005 i was an emo teenager living in New Zealand and screaming at my parents. now i'm married and have a cat and i'm writing a novel.