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i actually hate missing the sound of someone's voice because eventually with enough time i won't be able to remember what good morning sounded like coming from their lips or the way their laughter would echo between my ears i'll only be able to remember that it was a voice that i loved belonging to a person that i loved
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#suddenly started missing someone's voice and i just wanted someone to tell this to#i'll remember what's said word for word#but it'll be silent#empty#when i revisit the memory
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Now I need a lab safety wizard! U
se your PPE, do not microwave food or eat food. Specially in the Ethidium bromide area. Stop touching things with gloves that touched contaminated areas pLEAse!
You can see I'm frustrated lol
I have sent a helpful Lab Safety Gnome your way. May he guide you, and any students in your proximity to respect the Lab Safety Rules.
#wizard#lab safety#ask#This ask/concept sent me blasting back to the past where I (many years ago) wrote a series of short stories-#-about a chemistry teacher who was constantly at odds with his students regarding lab safety.#The concept being that said chemistry class was a notoriously grade booster due to the teacher giving out test answers.#So you have a group of lassiez-faire students ready to kick back- when 3 weeks into the term the 'easy teacher' keels over dead.#And is replaced by a newer teacher who genuinely cares about the subject and wants the students to learn.#Rest in peace Mr.Ratman. You were probably the best anti-villian I've ever written.#Yes. The Anti-villain; because he's only ever portrayed secondhand by said students.#The whole point was about how much they really hated this guy and their attempts to ruin his life.#So it was up to you (the reader) to untangle what was the truth and what was just a rumour.#It was a commentary (and honestly a personal vent) about the frustrations and anxiety of high academic expectations#And the dehumanization of teachers struggling to motivate a students who push the blame of their failures outwards.#The original is lost to time (and a broken USB). All I have is a spotty memory of some scenes.#I remember it being really damn bleak. If I ever revisited it I think I would give it a more hopeful tone.#May Mr.Ratman be immortalized as the Lab Safety Wizard/Gnome forever more.#If you read all that; thanks for coming down memory lane with me. Don't eat in the Lab. Wear your PPE. Know how to access safety equipment.
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im friends with like half the gilmore girls cast on facebook cause i was super annoying when i was 12 and so now this app just gives me the funniest notifications. sure man, me and the bestie
#i kept posting screenshots from the show and tagging the actors and theyd be like omg memories#kathleen wilhoite would revisit one of my posts every goddamn year when it popped up in her memories š she still does it sometimes#again me and the bestie i guess#remember when people would just accept u if u sent them a facebook request... great times
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Yāall ever think about if Sora falls to darkness that inside his heart will look like the Destiny Islands falling again
#i do a lot#kingdom hearts#one of the biggest reasons i think weāll see something like this in canon. briefly at least#not only would parallel ddd w venās heart/armor no longer there to protect sora#and roxas and xion gone from soraās heart too. so sora would be alone#and actually there as opposed to in the RoL/awake when riku dives in#but also there is no way nomuraās gonna pass up the chance to bring us full circle like this. he loves making his characters revisit/relive#worlds and memories like this to make a point. and soraās heart was sunset in dddā¦ following kh1 the dark and stormy night comes next#The thought of sora and riku reaffirming their love and friendship here when it broke the first time the islands fell#both of them having to in a way relive this horrible night for the final time#but riku doing the total opposite of last time. trying to save sora trying to stop the darkness from consuming everything#being totally honest with sora. reaching his hand out for sora but this time heās not being consumed by darkness.#heās become the light in the darkness. and they finally reach each other they finally grasp hands. Iām chewing on glass#i donāt think sora would āfallā to darkness in the traditional sense#thematically i think it makes more sense for him to be faced w another martyr choice#though his own negative feelings would still be tangled up in there. and this would parallel kh3#and if sora chooses to let darkness into his heart to save others itād also parallel kh1 w riku choosing to open the door/let the darkness#into destiny islands at the risk of others#god itād be just like kh1 but weād be playing as riku and heād be the one looking frantically for sora#a reversed dynamic. but now they understand each otherās pain and feelings so they can reach each other#figuratively and literally#i love parallels i love symbolism i love themes kick my ass !!!!
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Shitty little danganronpa favs. Miss this era sometimes
#also this is from memory so if I got either design wrong be nice to me pleasie#danganronpa#gundham#gundham tanaka#kazuichi#kazuichi souda#sorry guys this is like a different brand of cringe but sometimes you need to revisit the past#and sometimes you end up liking your little pencil doodles you did when revisiting said past#so sometimes you need to post them even if nobody gafs
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āyou visit oftenā why are you calling me out like that google š
#i always forget what all hes been in when i make edits so i revisit his wiki often to jog my memory
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#art#artwork#vent post#vent comic#memory loss#forgetfulness#on the other hand#i could rewatch shows and replay games and still be impressed#revisiting all the details feels great#but its awkwarrrrd when it comes to communication with others#ādo you remember when..ā yesn't <3
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my life might be a dumpster fire,Ā but things don't seem so bad when i remember that oneĀ :Ā chris pine likes me,Ā and two,Ā i will be in las vegas in exactly a monthĀ Ā š¤š
#GOOD MORNING EVERYONE! asdfghjkl it's no joke that#when im sad sometimes i go revisit pictures and obvs my#memories from comic con this summer and i feel better lol#it's not easy but i'm trying to stay positive. hope you babes#are doing the same. i REALLY wanna write but i'm not sure#if i will get an opportunity before the weekend? let's see!#tbd
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i dont think i've ever had such a drastic change from sketch to final
i also dont think an idea has ever taken me this long to execute JHDKFH
#only thing comparable is the sketch i decided was cringe and abandoned#only to revisit it like 8 months later when he died and it's on the front page of one of his memorial books now-#it felt too emotional at the time for silly block game and i was embarrassed about it#felt just right later on. still a huge favorite of mine. might redo it one day :0#feels wrong to redo it but also feels like doing it justice ya know#but anyways this aint about that. love this one too lol#the posing changed SO MUCH.......... it might as well be entirely new š#im in love with how it turned out tho. even if i CLEARLY lost steam later#techno's HAIR probably has more lines than simon. like all of simon#chat
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There's always a slight yearning in the back of my mind wishing I had been born in the right place, time, family situation, income level, etc. to have just lived in one single house for my entire life. Imagine being born in a place that still suits you, even through all of your personal evolutions and etc. The idea of deep familiarity with an area because you've lived and explored it for 40+ years, being encased in a web of memories and connections. Being able to clean out your old childhood bedroom and find personal artifacts, to dig in the yard and remember. I know those lives can still be plenty imperfect, but there's just something so seemingly solid and stable and Grounding about it that I sometimes wish I could have.. (At least from my outside perspective as someone who's moved around a bit geographically and even within the same area, never lives in the same house/ apartment /etc. for more than a few years usually.) Like... having a place that is printed upon, fully your own, rather than chronically a visitor, every thought of a space always tempered with the notion that one day soon you'll have to pack it all up again, etc. There's something peaceful about the permanence.
#I think also because I'm a very nostalgic person - THOUGH not in the way that somep poeple mean when they say nostalgia because I've realiz#ed that to some people apparently it means like.. more of a sad emotional thing? Or when I talk about being nostalgic they say 'me too' and#then describe how they're always depressed dwelling on the past wishing they could revisit it and replaying it and feeling sad and etc.#Whereas for me - it's not in a deep or emotional way at all. It's very detached - kind of like someone who is doing like a scientific#cataloguing of something? I don't feel any remorse or sadness or longing or sitting there sobbing for hours over people/pets I've lost or#etc. It's more like a fun contemplative excercise and extension of self analysis plus just documentation. Like I know your memory fades as#you get older OR even as stuff is actively ongoing humans have terrible recall - even the ones who are less emotional/more focused on#accuracy our minds still twist things or etc. SO I looove to have documentations of everything possible so that in the future I will have#as full and complete of a view of myself as I possibly can. sure the image will undoubtedly be a little distorted but having real evidence#of how something was at a time is very valuable. You look through old messages or letters or something and you always find other alternate#versions of yourself. Not in a worse way like inherently inferior Previous Models Of You who haven't yet been perfected but even just in a#neutral way like 'what they're saying is not a BAd thing but also is not how I would say that today.' etc. ANYWAY I find it really interest#ing to document and remember things and love revisiting the past - not in a sad way - but just like. curiosity. reminiscing and recalling#and filling in gaps. or trying to have the same feeling I felt at a previous time so I can remember what it was. Collecting information for#documentation purposes. Like for example - I would love to go back and tour all of my old childhood houses/apartments. Not to like#sit in the middleof them and cry and go 'ohhh my childhood waughhh' - but literally because I want to take detailed photographs so I#can remeber exatly what they looked like and recreate them in sims or some other digital way. Why? idk. just to gather the information. If#I ever live to like 80 years old and I'm still reflecting on my life curious about the dteails of it. I want to be able to fire up my#ancient windows 10 laptop I've kept all these years and open up the sims 4 and tour my old home with accuracy etc. ??#Not sure why really. Maybe an extension of how I generally care a lot about having an 'accurate' view of things? Like I would rather be#accurate than be happy. I don't understand 'ignorance is bliss' because I would always rather know. I always always in any situation am mor#focused on 'what is the well researched practical truth' than about 'how does this make me feel' or etc. Truth above ALL else even if it#were to make me miserable. Aka why I'm a 'boring' 'annoying' 'UM actually..' type of killjoy lol because it's very hard for me to understan#that some people can enjoy something or have a good time even not knowing the full facts of a situation or etc. BUT anyway. since that is#some core driver of my personality for whatever reason (just the plague of ennegram type 5 perhaps lol) maybe that also drives me to my#kind of minor obsession with like 'I must have a complete view and calatoguing of my life that is as accurate as possible within the means#i have' . Is it REALLY important for me to know the exact layout of on of my first childhood bedrooms? no. materially it does nothing for m#in life. BUT hey. it would make a great addition to the Accurate Life Story Catalogue lol. ANYWAY.. But I think a lot of wanting to live in#one place forever is not just the ease of documentation. but the sense of having a constant. Much of what i crave most in life is stability#& familiarity &routine bc of how my brain works. And it just would feel so good to be Settled. Never uproot again. One little place FOREVER
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story wise im honestly not really expecting That much from shadows story in the generations remaster because generations already has nothing going for it in terms of story but also black doom being the main villain has me losing my shit because ive always thought shadow being part black arms was a really interesting concept and wished they did more with it and i also just really like shth and am happy to see them referencing it so openly instead of being ashamed of it and pretending it never happened because annoying youtubers and game reviewers decided it was bad. rips off shirt to reveal another shirt undernearth that says Number 1 Shadow the Hedgehog (2005) Defender
#idgaf about sonic generations getting a remaster i dont think it needs one and wouldnt be interested in it if it wasnt for the shadow thing#but man. i screamed when dooms eye showed up in the trailer because i wasnt expecting it lmao#im also wondering what the explanation for him being here is gonna be. because hes dead#im assuming that shadows stuff takes place at the same time that generations itself does#because it wouldnt make sense to put it in the generations remaster if it doesnt#so it probably has something to do with the time eater thing. it brings back a bunch of stuff from shadows past#and he starts experiencing the horrors or whatever#also wondering if there will be any maria or gerald appearances.....#the revisiting painful memories part of the description makes me think there will. but we cant know for certain right now
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Silver Tongues is the found family anthem. Silver Tongues is getting cocktails with the crew after a long week. Silver Tongues is leaning against the wood panelling in your mates upstairs flat and hanging out the window smoking, so the smell doesnāt get into the cushions, whilst you finish the wine nobody really likes and laugh too loud and the music is spilling out the window into the night. Silver Tongues is tripping over your own feet and waking up the next morning with a sore throat and aching arches and smiling.
Silver Tongues is āI donāt feel like going homeā because I never want to go home without you, I never want to go home at all actually, I never want to leave.
Thereās no where else Iād rather be, but when Iām back in the molasses of reality, stood in front of the wrong door and on the wrong street, and itās been weeks since weāve talked and ages since Iāve breathed easily, Iāll remember all those stupid jokes, only we know
#silver tongues is about solace in memories as much as itās about making those memories#itās about visiting and revisiting#about thinking and craving#when youāre struggling#and gosh do I relate#Louis Tomlinson#silver tongues
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more inazuma
#inazuma eleven go#inazuma eleven#tenma matsukaze#matatagi hayato#from 2022#its fun revisiting old characters when youve improved#i really like these two sketches a lot still ;o;#esp the matatagi one. still proud#didnt look up references or anything just went with my memory and vibes
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I played through Signalis and fucking cried, Highly recommend to anyone who likes space lesbians
#signalis#like holy fuck#i aināt saying shit#BUT HOLY FUCK this game got me emotional#i got the memory and artifact endings#i would do the others but i only have 2 play throughs in me#maybe when i revisit the game
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ill just be minding my business and then remember how fucked the experience i had with cps was and just how fucked cps is in general and actively harms the children its supposed to be there to help and get so mad i dig a hole into my skin with my nails so deep it starts drawing blood
#again. if you want the lore on why i fucking hate social workers so much. there ya go.#it makes me wanna fucking throw up everytime i see people felate social workers like theyre any better than cops.#not to be a broken record or anything but truly. the only fucking thing i had a lot of the time when i was like 14 was my stupid littl#e dc hardcore mix cd and i think digging that up and revisiting it has really brought up a lot of hard emotions and memories for me#ptsd fucking sucks so bad and it sucks so bad that ive made no progress since then either#i dont know. i dont know yall.#''you have to process your trauma'' ok well thats too hard and id rather die so. guess im too weak then and im not cut out for it#this is fucking stupid anyways.#too many feelings with nowhere to put them and no idea where to even start#thats not even considering what i currently haveto deal with in the present#um i give up and i was a fucking moron for ever believing life could be better#i dont have any profound conclusion. i was just fucking stupid for ever thinking i could be happy. lol.
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#you know what.#danganronpas so good when you dont have someone in your ear telling you it sucks#revisiting it now. i was expecting eo much worse#and it has its issues dont get me wrong#but i think its in a similar boat as homestuck where people have a lot of negative memories attached to it because they got into it when#they were teenagers#but that doesnt make it something thats *only* for teenagers#which i feel a lot of people subconsciously think#on top of the localization just generally not being very good#and the most recent wave of fandom having gotten into it through game grumps where they spent the entire time making fun of the game and#acting like theyre too good for it#i think i hate arin hanson. but thats another conversation LOL
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