#when i auditioned i talked to him and he said hed be willing to work with me but that there’s only so much he can do cause everyone needs to

[lesbianboyfriend]

i love the performing arts so much but more and more i am realizing that the sort of run-yourself-into-the-ground rehearsing mentality in these spaces is not sustainable for me…and it’s like i get it because i understand how much hard work goes into those performances!!! i know how important it is to be at every rehearsal!!! and i know no one ever intends to make it an exhausting endeavor on a huge time crunch but the reality of it is that that’s the only way to get it done sometimes with the limited resources most artists are working with….still as a disabled performer this kind of behavior is even less viable for me than my able-bodied peers and i’m increasingly faced with the choice between my health and my passion. and the unfortunate matter is the groups/spaces that are more accommodating aren’t ever the ones that are offering opportunities at the level i want and enjoy. i don’t know how to grapple with this without compromising something important to me.