#when did u get him? how old is he? whats it like living witn him?

[diorkyeom]

Hello, it's me again!

I hope you're doing well. What's happening for you where you live? Are you preparing for any holiday activities? I know there's about 5 coming up, one has to pique your interest.

Currently I am avoiding a sewing project 🙃 and my cat is helping! His name is Hoshi (he's got turned out feet like a dancer and he's "a tiger" who's both afraid of everthing outside and has a temper tantrum if he can't sleep on my hair.

Anyway, I'll stop slacking off now!

eee hello !! im currently preparing for my mock exams so everything's gonna be a lot more stressful from now on 💔 but other than that everything is good :] i have a secret santa exchange going on w my friends so im also thinking of what to buy!

[renoiry]

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I used to enjoy my birthday. Even this year. I mean today. I was so excited before till i get some massage from my lil bro.

Two days ago i rembered he ask me "when was exactly my birth day, this month, right?"

"yes. 15days after mine" i said

"am about to ask some prizes?"

"and how about me"

He went silent aftrr i said that kind of joke.

And he texed me "hey i can't give u any prizes, but i just want to say thank u for become my sist who never ever punch me. Happy borth day"

Thats masaage really hurt me A LOT. I mean... This world is scary for both of us. If u ar my close friend u will understand gow much i was struggling and really wanna to die. Lebay huh? That isn't the point tho.

Me and my lyf wich is mess as fck make me want to kill my self. At this age. At this fcing age. And heres my lil bro who only 11 yers old (this year). He struggle so much more than me. I mean, yeah my dad left me when i was only 2weeks and my mom also when i was 2yo. That wasnt a big deal bcs i used to live in peaceful environment.

Only 7yo of my lil bro when he should handle the pain from adult toxic human witn no humanity who punch him. Also still at that age ppl around him keep asking about his father who physically and mentality hurt our family. I really want to slap them when they just easily said that " where is your father, he ll never come back, oh poor boy"

WTF was hapend at those society. I ll never forget and still feel so sick of that.

My lil bro can easily get rid of that case. But that is not his faults to become who he is right now. Idl what im gonna said but that what i said. He didnt do anything wrong at his lyf bcs the society build his personality.

Now everyone know how rebellious my bro is... But ppl still so mean. Seems like they can do whatever they want to my lil bro even a harmful and abusive things.they mean like really MEAN.

But he always melt me when he treat me and my mom softly. He is innocent yall SO DAMN INNOCENT. but what they did to my precious lil bro??!!!!

All of this shits make me think alot. About being born and giving a birth. I really dont want to have a child. Because of my mom, my lil bro and myslf. I ll love my children but- i love them so much even i dont have one yet. I love them and i dont want to face the fact that no matter healty atmosphere u have is still imposible to dont get hurt by other. U r the only one protagonist and other is antagonists that is the rule.

Thats it. I ll change my mind if i bumb the other fact about this life. My life. But i wont never ever change my mind about this:

PLEASE DONT U EVER TRY TO ASK "WHERE IS YOUR FATHER " TO A BROKEN HOME CHILD. AND DONT U EVER EVER USE THAT FOR TOUR TOXIC JOKE. AND ALSO "WHAT IS YOUR MOM DOIN"

guys u okay?

Those questions make me dont want to make a friend and hate to meet new ppl.

Thank u and happy birth day to me :')