#whatever he sucks idc abt him 👍 I DONT LOVE HIM!!!!!!! THIS IS TOO MUCH FOR MEEEEEE

[chrisbangs]

smth abt chan written, arranged, produced songs that make me wanna pick apart his process and brain and thoughts... i wanna make music with him i think he's so thoughtful with the instruments and sounds he uses and i wish i could talk abt it with him and know what he's thinking abt when he uses this kinda sound instead of this one...

[beesedees]

live blogging because i smoked weed for the firdt time 👍

i gurned in skme music because vibeh

my chest kinda hurts ngl

not very live laugj love of me

things seem to be going kinda slow and like

i feel heavy

but in a sleepy way ig

i mean

itis 2 am vut whatever

aw i lef ymy watwr bottle on my desk :(

my bfs name is muchael

he got me the weed

hes also gonan get me some blades

love him for that

and i just love him

hes such a coll person

like

hes hot too gah damn

i got lucky asf

i love gim so much omg

i kinda feel like im aboit to fry wtf

cry*

im

good cru thouyh

idk

i really wanna be on cslk woth someone

but also

i dont really wanna talk yk????

also its 2 am so like

i dount anyone is up

chest pain went away

but omg my bf

hes so

dhdhdndndnf

like

hes so important me yall dint fet it

i could just kiss him forwver all over his adorable face

only provlem with the music and the headphones is that i cwnt tell whcih noosed come from muic since unfamiliar songs and i. feeling a teeny tiny vit paranoid so its like

hrngnrg

bavk go bf

hes so fucking cute and he goves the best hugs and he just makes me feel so loved yall dont get it ong

i wanna spedn like

forever with him omg

ifs raining out

i wanna kiss him in the rain

brw the reason he gave me the weed was because i was beign silly goofy and said we shoudl sneak out and get high together one nigjt and he said we donf have to get high to have fun and fhen i said yea but i will get high at soem point. ifs be good for my mental healgh

so then we met upagain and he brought the weed and i was like oh no its yours you keep if and he said that he doesnt want it so like

slay

and ifs like

concentrated thc

should i be posting abt thos?????

idk

idc lmao

oh this song dcuks

idk the name

but its the one with the numbers

popular on tiktok for a while

dude i can feel my body but like

i dont

hate it??

idk

woah wtf o jist like lifted mg foot and it felt funky??

idk

im spacy tbh

but also pretty present

might call my friend

not call

text

vut u havent talked to her in like a few monfhs so itd be weird to text her like

idk

who gives a fuck

my eyes are frtting kinda droopy

i wanna cuddle with my bf

hes food to cuggle with

fuck i love him so much

i just wanna likd

hodl hkm forwver omg

i wanan amke everything ok for gim

because he means so much to me

idk

whatever

i think im gonan like

save thos as a sraft for now

so if youre reading this, itd no logner a draft thats crazy

dude im cry8ng and my eyes sting so much this fucking sucks wth

i think my mousieterizor is fetting in my eyes

homophobia actually

im fucking

hungru man

(hello, not high bee here. i ended up getting some food, spaming my bf with unreadable messages, and passing out after. overall, it was pretty good)