#what the fucki hate venting on the internet

[biioniic-biiohazard]

CURRENT MOOD is something along the lines offff: AGHHHH VIOLENT VIOLENT KILL KILL happy :D saddd :((( HORNY💥💥 sad again :(((((( nvm HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY!!! LOVE AND HOPE IN THE WORLD EVERYONE LOVES ME AND I LOVE THEM HEHE .the government wants me dead and so do i. ope nvm horny again BONER BONER BONER. killing myself on live television!!!!!!!! happy again. i feel sick! i might be dying!!! sex is gross!!!! i might be aroace!!! nevermind i love men and gay sex and also my boyfriend loves me so so much oh no what if i'm lying and WOW BOY PRETTY i might be bi still NUH UHHHHHHHH gay gay gay gayyy. gay. boykissing. okay sad again🔥🔥🔥FUCKINGF HAPPY 🔥🔥💥💥 i'm so cringe. i'm stupid and everyone hates me. I'M SO EEPY AND TIRED. full of energy! never sleep again!!!!!! my stomach hurts. my arms hurt. my head and eyes hurt. owie!! nevermind i am now physically numb and now I AM HAPPY AGAIN GOD LOVES ME god isn't real he has abandoned us long ago. also i am satanist. oh no unless. fuck. what. I HATE GOD I HOPE HE FUCKING DIES‼️‼️‼️💯💯 lol furries are so cool I'M SAD AGAIN no nuh uhh HAPPLYYYYY YAYYY HEHE YAYYY SO SILLY AND FUN I HAVE NEVER CRIED OR FROWNED OR BEEN UPSET IN MY LIFE. i am a liar everyone will leave me :(((( I AM NORMAL. okay happy again. sad. straight face emoji goes here. i love my boyfriend i need to grab onto him and never ever let go or i will blow up and die and kill myself and everyone else. BLOW UP THE WORLD!!!:!!!;!!!! GRINS WITH FIFTY ROWS OF TEETH. sadhappyhornyconfusedangry ***I FEEL FINE NOW***

really though what the hell is my problem why does my brain do that little wacky rollercoaster thing every night why am i so weird and gross and cringe!!!! kill

[katsudondom]

I need to vent, sorry

long post incoming :)

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Yeah, I feel that I was born in the wrong generation

And no, I don't think I'm special or anything for saying that.

Like, do people think I want to feel like an outcast whenever I'm around a group of people that are the same age as me? Because I'd trade my interests and niches any day if it meant I could finally feel what it's like to have a group of friends by my side, or a partner holding my hand.

And yes, I do have many criticisms about certain aspects of modern technology and social media, but I don't downright hate it or dismiss the good that came from modern technology/the Internet entirely. If anything, I'd love to be born when the Internet was just starting to walk, when it wasn't as popular yet and when you were considered a nerd for even owning a computer. That'd be an amazing time to be alive, until "normies" (cant find a better word sorry I know it's cringe) started making the Internet more mainstream and later on it being the #1 reason why Americans are more stupid and self-centered then ever (in my personal opinion).

I'm more so disconnected with my generation because of the culture, not modern technology.. A generation where we believe in anything without doing any research or seeing different perspectives first, a generation that's easily brainwashed into believing anything, a generation that's so sure that their opinion is right that they'll even ruin someone else's life or ridicule them into oblivion just because the other person thinks differently. That's the reason why I feel like I don't belong with my generation, not because "ew social media".

Actually, that's not the whole reason why-

I also really just love the grunge/rock culture of the 90's, and the scene/emo culture of the early 2000's. It all felt like a community back then, like wherever you were at there'd be people accepting you with open arms, no matter who you were or what you looked like, ready to have you join their clique people that just liked the same shit as you do.

Nowadays, there doesn't even feel like a community anymore, even within your own culture. Everyone's divided, everyone's prejudice, and everyone can't put their differences aside and at least co-exist with each other. This "you're with me or against me" mentality is getting old real fast. Instead, let's have thoughtful and provoking conversations with each other, instead of being quick to go on social media and wishing ill to the white kid in your History class just because he wore a red hat that you happened to disagree with.

Idk, it's all just really silly.

I was just scrolling down watching YouTube when I saw a video calling people like me who think they're in the wrong generation "annoying" and I had to vent since it actually triggered me a bit, ngl, because just by looking at the thumbnail where they put a bunch of modern technologies and had "modern" in bold letters with the word being crossed out, I knew what points they were going to make, and I just needed to vent about how not everyone who feels like an outcast is trying so hard to be different.... It's 99% the complete opposite and I just always hated that stereotype from people who obviously have it way better in life, from people who clearly don't understand what it's like to be almost invisible even when you try so hard to be liked/seen to the point where you fantasize about a time you weren't even born in because "what if?".

Shit, I'm done, needed to get that off my chest and the only way I'd feel good about it is by posting it online. Scared to put tags on this because half of the criticisms about Gen Z that I wrote about relate to about 99% of Tumblr users, so I might piss someone off but fuck it, I want my voice to be heard and no one will probably care to read this anyway.

And yes, I know there's other teens/young adults out there like me, who has the same mindset as I do. I don't think that I'm the only special snowflake that feels this way, but it's so fucking hard finding someone who sees the world the same way as I do, that it does make me feel a bit like I am the only one.

Anyway,

Goodnight 🖤