#what other sounds hmmm 'yes yes' is essential

[tuituipupu]

actually that "love you" käärijä video i'm sending virtual smooches with to mutuals...

i need that sound in a build a bear 🧸💕

vv (this sound)

[lemonhemlock]

The episode where Rhaenys busts through the floor and murders countless smallfolk and it having absolutely no narrative consequences on the story or condemnation of Rhaenys' character, and the episode where Aegon murders the ratcatchers causing Otto to crash out have this whole monlogue about Aegon being The Worst being written by the same writer really tells you all you need to know about HOTD. And before you ask, yes, they were both written by Sara Hess lmao.

Yeah, I know there was discourse a while ago, because this dissatisfaction regressed into racist and misogynistic attacks directed at Sara Hess. Obviously, that's vile and people should, first of all, rid themselves of this despicable framework of viewing the world (because, as always, this is absolutely just another opportunity to dunk on a woman - these people don't care about good storytelling) and, secondly, learn how to actually formulate an argument that doesn't sound like the ramblings of a basement-dweller.

That being said, she is categorically not a good writer, there's no other way to put it. She can come up with some good ideas (or, at least, a glimmer of good ideas - for example, the daemyra argument in S02E02 was good - one of the season's highlights, actually) and her line-level writing is... adequate. But, on the whole, her record on House of the Dragon is littered with inaccuracies and logical fallacies. I haven't seen her other shows, but I decidedly have no desire to and will be actively avoiding if I see her name. And I am including Ryan Condal in this mess, too, because he has the ultimate say-so on how the scripts look. These two together truly are the blind leading the deaf.

I think the ratcatcher pity party was, in a way, a reaction to all the backlash she received for the Meleys dragonpit scene. But, instead of fixing her mistake and making it work in the context of what she had already written, she made some absolutely abysmal storytelling choices that defy common sense and contradict her own text. A very easy fix to this would have been to show the population of King's Landing become very anti- Meleys, Rhaenys and, by extension, Rhaenyra. But, of course, the wider narrative set by her genius colleagues was that KL couldn't possible have any negative feelings towards Rhaenyra, so it's completely swept under the rug and the commoners are made to consider Meleys' death a bad omen.

But, naturally, they had to do something about all the criticisms that they are not focusing on the negative effects this war has on the population. However, instead of showing that in a balanced way, they decided to pile all these evils on the greens again. Rhaenyra faces no backlash from the low-born for any of her actions. She does sacrifice them to Vermithor, essentially, by preventing their exit and it's framed as the beginning of her moral compromises and falling into self-aggrandizing behaviour. Yes. But where are the consequences to this? There are no consequences. These dragonseeds don't seem to have any family who are asking questions about them or blaming Rhaenyra for setting them on fire, basically. Not even one noble person hears of this and goes "hmmm that's kind of fucked up actually". Larys, the literal Master of Spies, who might have reasonably be shown to have found out this inside information via his network of spies, might have had some lines informing the green council about this awful thing Rhaenyra has done. Might have even informed the population, in order to turn them against her. But no, of course not, we can't have anyone actually be anti-Rhaenyra.

Meanwhile, we have close-ups of the fucking dog longing for the ratcatcher who literally kicked it in a previous scene. How do you even qualify the framing decision to invite the audience to feel sorry for a child-murderer? To feel more sorry for him than for the actual mother of said murdered child? We have Otto, of all people, lecturing Aegon about how over-the-top he is acting, because he executed a couple of ratcatchers. Otto, who, by the way, is shown in S01E09 to be executing people because they would not bend the knee to Aegon. Otto does not value commoner lives more than noble-borns (last season, he refuses to outlaw child pit fighting and, even in the previous episode, he gets annoyed by Aegon ruling too much in the smallfolk's favour), but he grows a temporary conscience for the purpose of this one scene, because we have to engineer another situation in which Aegon looks cruel or stupid (or both, preferably). Alicent's entire household was purged by Larys for supposedly being Mysaria's spies, the brothel was even set on fire and she gave zero fucks about that, but Aegon's ratcatcher execution is somehow one step too far.

I have said this before, but just thinking "civilians don't matter" in the ASOIAF universe betrays a fundamental misunderstanding of the themes and message. Can you ultimately be anything other than a "bad" writer if you miss the point to such a degree? And you can tell that's her true opinion about all this, because she can't write a storyline in which civilians do matter to save her life. The suffering of the lower classes only matters in her stories just as far as she can instrumentalize it to demonize the greens. She's not interested in any kind of systemic exploration, because that would also involve the blacks and it would interfere with Rhaenyra's hero framing. Like Ryan Condal, she doesn't have the chops to write beyond the hero-villain binary, hence all the flip-flopping and the retconning and the logical fallacies. And, at the end of the day, I can just watch a Marvel movie for that, you know?

[echolepzy]

rant about isat to me NOW /silly

i need to know your opinions. favorite ship? sifloop or isafrin truther? favorite silly? favorite trauma? any North Island headcanons? I may be ‘on hiatus’ but that will not stop me from scrolling isat tag for several hours a day. this game is eating me alive and i’m not mad about it

-that one mutual who’s supposed to be on hiatus but is really bad at it

(i won’t be reblogging but i will send more asks to reply i need to talk to someone about this stupid fucking game-)

Oh fuck yeah gladly

Favorite ship? Personally, I prefer isafrin, but I think they’re all neat. I also really like exploring the non-romantic relationships! This game shows that intimacy and romance aren’t essential for happiness and companionship, and I really cherish that.

Favorite silly? That’s a tough one, it’s hard to pick just one! I think I’m gonna go with Bonnie, though. Bonnie’s definitely one of my favorite sillies.

Favorite trauma? Hmmm… There are a lot of ‘em. Guess it depends on my mood. Does Mal du Pays in itself count? I really like Mal du Pays. Maybe too much. At one point I was thinking “Hmm, Mal du Pays. Yes.” and a whole AU came out of it, basically.

North Island headcanons? Ah, yes, The Country (TM). I like imagining that people from the Forgotten Country are just. Literal star people. Like actually people that came from stars. Also that they were probably more technologically advanced, and they used Wish Craft a lot but on a smaller scale (with more people making wishes, the power was more evenly distributed and big dangerous wishes were less of an issue), which led to them placing very high value in the saying “Be careful what you wish for” and commonly seeing greed and selfishness as one of the worst flaws a person could have. (Semi-unrelated but I would also really like to see more about the other countries like Poteria and Mwudu)

For any miscellaneous thoughts… I love thinking about Sadnesses. My AU has some significant focus on them and expands on them a lot, and I’m hoping I’ll get around to posting it at some point (it’ll be on @spiraling-stardust though lol). Also I love seeing people write Siffrin and Loop with a twins dynamic, like a chaos duo with a shared braincell, I absolutely love it. If anyone has any ideas for different kinds of Craft that weren’t introduced in the game, I’d love to hear about that too (after all, there’s supposedly enough to fill entire books with! I think Sound Craft and Illusion Craft should be a thing).

My brother is the most Loop-coded person I know, and since I plan on cosplaying Siffrin for Halloween, he called me stardust ONCE and suddenly it’s literally my name now in some places. Wtf why did we accidentally assign each other to kin two of the most mentally ill characters ever why did this happen. Sometimes we even do the phone hand thing when we talk to each other. I guess this is a thing now (help)

If you wanna talk to me about it more be my guest!! I must talk about the sillies. The sillies ever. They’re in agony and so am I. Brand sparkling new hyperfixation and it’s spreading like wildfire

[flnpushy]

helios 5

After experiencing Maria’s interesting breech birth Kara was off to try and catch up with Bailey once more. She was close to birthing her babies head when she had left Kara and Maria prior. Kara wondered around through the gardens not having much luck finding Bailey. She checked all the garden areas that were easily accessible, but with no luck. Kara then checked the pools. She went in each pool room in order until finally, bingo. Kara spotted Bailey squatting near one of the pools. She was in full squat, her face was in a grimaced pose, she was clearly pushing, and pushing hard. Kara approached. 

“Bailey?” Kara asked as she neared. 

“Oh, Kara, You found me!” Bailey said. 

“Yes I’ve been searching high and low.” Kara said.

“Sorry, I got into a pushing phase and needed the water to help calm my aching opening.” Bailey said. 

“It totally ok, I just wanted to offer you some support if you wanted.” Kara replied.

“Yes, support is good!” Bailey mentioned. 

“So where are you at?” Kara asked. 

“Well honestly not much farther than I was 12 hours ago when I was with you.” Bailey said. 

“You mean the head has yet to come out!?!” Kara exclaimed.

“Yeah 12 hours later and still trying to get her out.” Bailey said. “I think I’ve tried it all honestly to get her out.” 

“When I make a push I can see her head, but she just slips back in.” Bailey added. 

“Hmmm Sounds like she’s in a bad position.”  Kara said. “Have you tried a swim?”

“No haven’t thought of it.” Bailey said. 

“You’d be amazed to what water can do for birthing.” Kara said. 

“Ok Lets go!” Bailey said. 

The girls wadded into the warm water of Birth Pool 10. Once becoming acclimated to the water Bailey tried wiggling her hips around as much as possible when swimming. Anything to help her baby get into a better position. After a good swim it was time to try again.

“Ok, try some pushes and let’s see if you can get that baby out.” Kara said.

  Bailey swam over to a nearby squat bar and began waiting for a contraction. Kara swam over and took position to spot Bailey’s opening. A couple minutes later a contraction came. Bailey began to push. She squatted down and gave it her all. Kara noted her opening bulging a little with the push. No signs of baby with the first push. The next push came. 

“Ahhhhh mmmm oooohhh…. Come on baby girl.” Bailey muttered.

A tiny bit of hair poked out, before quickly sliding back in.

“Oh, good girl, good girl.” Kara said.

Bailey tried again, the top of babies head came into view for a moment and slid back inside. 

“She likes mommies belly!” Kara said.

“She needs to come out of mommies belly!” Bailey said. 

“She will, but not easily.” Kara said. “She’s not in a favorable position.” 

Bailey tried a couple more pushes. With each push the head would come into view, but recede back in faster. After a few more attempts, Bailey was growing tired of the pool. It was time to dry off and push in a different location. Kara suggested they walk around to get the baby in a better position to come out. So they did. The girls exited the pool hall and headed toward the main commons of the huge facility. The commons was a large open air cafeteria in a sense. It was a place to eat, gather, and get information about the world of Luna. It was around mid day and the tables were jammed with other mothers grabbing a bite or socializing. As the entire Helios Facility had a self cleaning membranous floor, mothers could essentially birth anywhere and walk around with no need for covering or clothing of any kind. Kara and Bailey made their way over to a table that was empty. They sat down and took in their surroundings. The large white quartz pillars and open glass roof over 100 feet above was quite the spectacle in itself. 

Just then the girls were approached by two Central Command workers. 

“Hello girls, we are going around doing general surveys on every pregnant or birthing person in the facility.” 

“So basically everyone?” Kara asked.

“Yeah pretty much.” The worker responded. 

“We just want to evaluate your current situation.” The worker asked. 

“Well Im Kara and Im 10 months pregnant, baby one.” Kara replied.

“I am Bailey, I am 13 months and in birth, baby one.” Bailey said. 

“Ok, where in the birth stages are you?” The worker asked. 

“Labored for several days, pushing for a couple days, head hasn’t come out yet.” Bailey said. 

“Have you seen the babies head?” Asked the worker. 

“Yes, but it slides back in after I push.” 

“Ok, thank you girls, another Command Health Officer may follow up.”  The worker said as they proceeded to other women. 

“Little weird isn’t it?” Bailey asked.

“No, not really, they do a lot of welfare checks.” Kara said. 

Just then a woman wearing a lab coat walked over and presented her badge, along with an assistant who was carrying supplies.

“Hello, I am Karen with Central Health Command, we are doing general checks today to evaluate how women are going in our facility, and how your health is overall.” 

“Ok, how can we help?” Kara asked. 

“We can start with you.” Karen said. 

The assistant set a birth stool down on the ground and motioned Kara to sit on it. 

“Im not in birth yet.” Kara said.

“We know, just want to do a general health evaluation on the baby.” Karen said. 

Karen grabbed a tool from her assistants bag and prepared it. The tool was a state of the art probe that could relay all the information about a baby inside the womb of any mother. Karen cleaned the tool and came toward Kara. 

“Ok legs wide.” Karen asked. 

Kara opened her legs revealing her opening. Karen inserted the probe. It was cold, but luckily small. Karen then opened a device and the scanning began. 

“Ok so we can see what’s going on inside you.” Karen said.

“About 10 months along, female baby, mucus plug in place, baby in proper orientation, around 17.5 pounds, and growing, estimated to be 19 pounds at birth.” Karen stated. “A happily pregnant girl!” 

Karen then removed the probe and motioned Bailey to sit on the stool. Bailey sat down as a contraction hit. She couldn’t help but push. As she did the babies head came into view in her opening. 

“Oh my look what we have here!” Karen said. “No probe needed.”

Bailey continued to hold her push, but then the baby rapidly receded back in her belly. 

“Hmmm that’s not right.” Karen said. “Babies don’t recede that fast normally, have you been having a hard time trying to birth?” Karen asked.

“I mean its my first baby so its a struggle.” Bailey said. 

“Poor momma.” Karen said. “Reason its so hard is due to a nuchal hand, the position of the baby is poor.” 

Karen dawned a glove and touched Bailey’s opening. 

“Ok, bit of pressure here.” Karen said. 

“AAAAAHHH MMM owwwww…..” Bailey moaned as Karen put her finger in to release the Nuchal hand. 

Karen then pulled slightly and a tiny baby hand popped out above the babies stuck head.

“Ok that should help get things moving.” Karen said. 

Bailey stood up, she now had a babies hand hanging from her opening. 

“Good luck momma, let us know if there is no progress in 24 hours.” Karen stated as she left.

Bailey looked at Kara, and Kara looked back at Bailey.

“Ok then.” Bailey said. 

“Well baby should come out now easier anyway.” Kara said.

Just then two other girls approached. One girl was a tall blonde with a built frame, she was clearly near the end of pregnancy, but it was unclear if she was in birth. The other girl, a shorter slim frame brunette was waddling as she walked. Her babies head stuck out between her legs, the baby had lots of hair, and had clearly been hanging out of her for some time. 

“Hey girls.” the tall blonde said as they approached. 

“Hey!” Kara responded.

“Did the Command just come and check you over to?” The brunette said.

“Yes they checked us both.” Kara replied.

Just then Bailey had a contraction. She squatted slightly and began to push. Kara and the other girls focused their attention on Bailey’s opening. She pushed again, her opening bulged, the babies hand was compressing against the top of her opening as the head fought for any open real-estate to squeeze out. Then the head came visible. Bailey ended the push, but the baby stayed put at the opening. 

“Good Girl momma.” Kara said. “Keep trying.” 

Bailey bore down hard again, the head pushed ever slightly farther into the opening. She kept trying. Her face was becoming red with the strong effort, and a bead of sweat began to roll down her forehead. The head moved ever closer to nearing crown. The tight squeeze of full crown was ever near. But baileys contraction stopped. The baby would remain stuck for now, and Bailey was still a pregnant girl. Bailey carefully sat down on a chair as to not compress the babies head in her opening. The baby was close to crown and she didn’t want to risk compressing it, by doing so could squeeze the baby back in her belly. As they waited Kara and Bailey socialized with the other girls. The tall blonde was named Angela, the brunette was Kenzie. Angela was 11 months pregnant, similar to kara, but with baby number two. Baby number two is known as the mothers “Challenge baby.” This baby is usually genetically selected to be much bigger then the first baby and could easily be 20-23 pounds at birth. As for Kenzie she was in birth and her second babies head was out. The head between her legs was huge as her baby was estimated 23 pounds. The second baby was usually a male, bigger framed and bigger structure. However this made baby two a real challenge to push out. Kenzie had been in birth for over a week now and it had taken her 4 days to get the babies head out!

As Bailey was so close to having her babies head out, she needed to find a better place to do some real pushing. Kara and Bailey got up to head for garden 31.

“Oh, can we join you?” Kenzie asked. 

“Yeah of course.” Bailey responded.

The group of girls made their was to the gardens. Soon after they arrived in garden 31. A magical garden with arched bridges, water falls, and a range of flora to be seen. The girls set up at a birth station with two birth stools, two squat bars, among other facilities. It was an ideal location for a group to birth. Bailey sat down on a birth stool and endured a contraction almost immediately. The other girls gathered around to watch the effort unfold. Bailey started pushing and the babies head slid farther into her opening. It retracted a bit at the end of the push, but not far. With the babies hand sticking out, the head was having difficulty finding room to come out. Bailey kept pushing and slowly advancing the head. Each push was making some progress. It wasn’t long until the head was at full crown. The baby was big! The head stretched Bailey to her max. The baby was just about out to the forehead, but remained stuck there after several pushes. 

“Come on baby, Come out!” Bailey yelped.

Even with all baileys efforts, the babies head remained at full crown. Baileys opening was so stretched her skin around the babies head was blanch white in color, her perineum had no more space to give. She kept trying pushes on the birth stool, wiggling her hips, and squatting to get the baby to come out. 

“I can feel the rest of the babies body inside me trying to squirm around! Bailey said. “Its kicking its little feet trying to get unstuck!

“Just keep pushing.” Kara said. 

Meanwhile Kenzie’s baby was starting to make some movements. The babies head was born and had been for around 12 hours. As the baby tried to squirm its way out, Kenzie began to feel pushy. She sat down at the birth stool next to Bailey and tried a couple pushes. The baby didn’t move much, but it was rotating. She kept trying pushes and wiggling around to get the babies shoulders to engage and begin to come out.

“Come on little man, help me out here!” Kenzie said, as she strained and struggled to get the shoulders to come out.

As the birth center did have positive air pressure and gravity, it felt similar to earth. However the gyros used to produce the gravity weren’t quite as strong as the designers hoped. Therefore there wasn’t too little gravity to make people lighter than air, but just enough. However due to this reduced gravity it wasn’t like earth where a mother could use gravity to help her baby come out. The gravity on helios was small and made no difference in helping baby come out. It all came down to movement of the baby and mommies birthing muscles. 

As Kenzie was having a trying time, Bailey was about to have a worse time. She continued to try and push past crown, but no matter what she did the babies head wouldn’t advance. She had been trying for 2 hours now at full crown. She had tried sitting, standing, the birth stool, the squat bar, side lying, a birth ball, and laying on her back…. Nothing. The baby was stuck at crown.

Meanwhile Kenzie was making some head way. About 2 hours had past and she was in luck. The babies shoulders were starting to come, she was pushing hard but making progress. She had been in birth now for over a week. Finally with a few more pushes the shoulders gave way. The baby slipped out to its chest. Kara who was watching nearby was stunned. Kenzie’s baby was absolutely massive. 23 pounds. Kenzie had been side laying while pushing. Now all she had to do was push out babies tummy and legs, and her “Challenge baby” would be done. The baby who was still half inside Kenzie started to cry and makes noises. Kenzie called for central command. A few moments later central command arrived and Kenzie delivered one last big push, freeing the baby from her. Kenzie was then taken with her baby by central command for a checkup and evaluation for re-impregnantion. Angela also followed with Kenzie. This just left Kara and Bailey. 

It had now been 3 hours for Bailey at full crown. She was stretching no farther, but the baby remained in her. She could feel the baby in her trying to squirm and kick to get itself free, but its efforts were quelled by the tension of skin around its head. Bailey was really struggling. She was exhausted and was making no progress. 

“This baby HAS TO come out! Bailey said.

“It will.” Kara replied. “Its just bad positioning.” 

Bailey went to get up off the ground where she had been laying. As she moved she could feel something happening down below. The baby shifted. Bailey pushed. But it made no difference. After almost 4 hours at crown……. The baby was retracting back inside her.

“NO NO NO AHHHHH NO!” This CANNOT be happening!” Bailey shouted. But it was. 

The babies head slowly retracted from crown and slipped back inside baileys tummy, along with the babies hand that had been hanging out. 

“Oh my god… I am actually fully pregnant again”… Bailey said.

After 4 hours at crown Baileys baby had completely slipped back in, her vagina closed. After 4 hours at crown, it now looked like she had never pushed at all. Kara noticed Bailey’s belly jiggling around. The baby inside was squirming in a protest as it was now back inside the womb. After days of trying to escape, the baby was now stuck inside once more. Bailey was awestruck…

“I am never going to push this baby out of me.” Bailey said. 

“You will.” Kara said. 

A few moments later contractions came. It was time to try again. This time around the baby moved much faster. The head was visible in just 3 pushes. She kept going, lying on her side with her upper leg propped up on the squat bar. She was heaving her tummy with all her might, doing everything in her power to squeeze the baby out of her. 15 minutes later and after a couple of small slip ins, the baby was back to crown. She had to work at it a bit but the head advanced. Finally….

“AAAAHHHH MMMM OOOOOOO AAAAAAA!!!! Bailey yelped.

The babies head popped out. 

“YES!” Kara Said “Good girl!” 

“Ohh it hurts so bad!” Bailey said. 

“Water hun, you need water to calm you aching opening.” Kara said. 

Kara arranged 2 scooters from Central command and the girls headed for the birth pools. Pool 10 was the chosen one. The girls arrived and waited to scan in. The walked up to the door.

“Welcome to pool 10, There is currently one other using this area.” The computer said aloud. Kara and Bailey accepted and were allowed in. They walked in and walked over to the pools edge. Bailey waddling as her babies head was hanging out. As the reached the pool another mother was swimming about. It was Clear she was in birth, as sticking out from her opening was a babies body hanging out. The baby was breech and was only born up to its chest. The other mother noticed the new arrivals and swam over. 

“Hi, I'm Alex.” She said.

“Lovely to meet you.” Kara replied. 

Kara noticed that on Alex’s baby was a diaper sort of covering. 

“Is your baby wearing aa diaper?” Kara asked. “Its not even fully born!”

“Haha yes, Alex replied. Its to ensure the pool stays clean if there was to be any meconium from the baby, all breech birthing mothers have to put one on the baby if they are in the birth pools.” 

“Wow Didn’t know that!” Kara said. 

Bailey and Kara made their way over to the shallow end and waded around for awhile. A couple hours later Bailey was on a birth stool pushing for the shoulders. She struggled and tried for about 2 more hours until finally they came free. Bailey gave one last push and the baby girl was born. Kara summoned command for Bailey and they arrived to escort her. Kara had witnessed another amazing birth on Helios. Soon however it would be her turn to push! 

[excelsior9173]

Sleep Oil?

Ok so Sleep Prayer Oil (yes from sleep token)??

-olive oil for the vibes, I usually use grape seed as a carrier, but the vibes of olive oil are what I’m feeling for this.

-Pachouli (sleep aid, and also VERY sensual)

-Mugwort (for astral/dream work)

-Lemon Balm (love, dreamwork, healing)

-Lavender (sleep aid, but intense dreams)

-rosemary (creativity)

-peppermint essential oil (money/prosperity)

-Grapefruit essential oil (mental clarity)

Ok, so here is my list, copy pasted from my notes app so that is why the formatting and wording is all weird lol, of all the herbs and oils I’d include in a sleep prayer oil, and all my reasonings.

But I freaking. Listen, I don’t believe sleep is a real god, but when I was like ‘what would I put in this’ my mind kept going back to rosemary, and I was like ‘why tho?’ And the first thing that popped up when I searched for herbs for creativity was rosemary and I just said ‘ok. Sleep wants that in there’.

I cant make this rn, cause… I am not uhhh ‘practicing’ (my practice is gathering knowledge until I can move out), but I want to 🤣. I wonder if I could get by with substituting lemon oil for lemon balm, cause I have access to essential oils, but not herbs and putting them jars lol. I could honestly say this was a blend for seizures and I wouldn’t even be completely lying….. I’d actually just have to buy the patchouli and mugwort 🤣🤣🤣…. I’m so tempted. I’ll let you know if I do it or not😂 or maybe I just leave out the mugwort and patchouli for right now? I feel like the others have everything covered, but the first two where more like the pa-pow of the oil, idk if this makes since? Like those are the main two and if I was making this for real, I would do only a little bit of the other ingredients, and a lot of the main two, but if I’m not including them I’d do more of the others…. Fuck it I’m gonna end up making this, oops. (But probably with grape seed oil, since this is an essential oil blend… I’ll be back with more notes I’m so sorry).

Edit: this just keeps getting longer longer sorry; went to gather the oils, realized we do indeed have patchouli! But not rosemary… thinking of substituting oregano for rosemary…. And maybe clary sage for mugwort?? Hmmm. Lots of thoughts. Same associations for both things as the list above… ok I have to be done now I’ll come back and tell you if it smells good in a different ask lmao.

Sorry for info dumping to you about a silly little oil, but I was having fun with it.

What would go in your version of it, if you don’t mind me asking👀 I know you said you where doing your own research on it, and I’m curious🥰.

i have sat on this for waaaayyyyy toooo long but university was absolutely kicking my ass for the last… month and a half? idk i was going through it for a hot minute 😅

but! finally getting to tuck into some research now that i’m done school for the term and have a quiet day at work. (this is gonna get hella long cuz i’m having a lot of fun researching and i’m gonna use this as a sounding board a bit as i read)

so! first thing i’m learning is that intention is a huge part of this (i knew the intention part already, part and parcel with working with tarot!)

i think given that sleep is introduced to us as some sort of deity, i would probably make a ritual anointing oil.

the carrier oil itself is another question. i think since sleep feels like a deity not easy to commune with (the intensity and allegory in the music makes me think that, if we were worshipping a true god, conversing with sleep takes a toll on the devotee). with this in mind i think grapeseed oil might make a decent base. it is a good choice for anything used to anoint the body (which i feel would be part of this ritual oils use, if we must dream to encounter sleep then anointing the body makes the most sense to me!) and it is ruled by the moon and water element- making it very fitting for sleep token! grapeseed oil is also useful for blends that intend to boost/strengthen mental abilities (it also helps with fertility magic and given the lyrical content at times- seems somewhat fitting) another useful aspect for a ritual for sleep. i do like the vibes of olive oil as well, and it’s a very versatile ingredient but i don’t think i’d like feeling it on my skin so grapeseed it is! (also my local magick shop has grapeseed oil so easy for me to obtain lol)

now the fun part- the essential oils!

(i’m realizing as i write this that i need to purchase a grimoire so i can start recording my research and recipes…)

so this part has taken me a lot longer to fiddle with, not only finding the right associations but also smells i enjoy, but i think I’ve got it!

- sandalwood (its grounding, promotes inner peace, aphrodisiac) [i went back and forth here between sandalwood and cedar, same associations but i prefer the scent of sandalwood]

- lavender (promotes sleep, reduces stress, pretty straightforward lol)

- patchouli (grounding, sharpens your wit, good for prayer work) [loooove the smell too, i’d do anything to naturally smell like patchouli lol, hippy association be damned]

- mugwort (astral projection, lucid/prophetic dreams, meditation)

- lemon balm (love, healing, astral projection, it also amplifies the effects of other herbs)

- clary sage (vivid dreams, divination)

i keep going back and forth on whether or not to add clove, it’s another aphrodisiac and also good for treating insomnia so i think it would fit? but i’m not 100% sure on it yet lol. my familiarity with essential oils and herbs is very minimal

but yeah! now to get the oils and mix. not sure exactly how the mix will come about, will need some trial and error with it i think! again, sorry this took me so long but here we are! finally i did it!

[hadesknockedupintheunderworld]

Who is the most powerful version of tails in the sonic franchise?

Hmmm

I wish I could give a better answer, but unfortunately I have not yet consumed the bulk of the Sonic franchise, so I will do my best!

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To me, the answer depends on your criteria. Personally, I think my criteria for "most powerful version of Tails" depends on a couple things.

How much innate power he has (and how well he uses it)

How well he balances his fighting prowess and his technological/menanical/strategizing skills on the battlefield

And if he does obtain any extra power (usually through usage of magical artifacts or the chaos emeralds or what have you), how well does he use them?

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Using this criteria, I'll start with Nine as an example (as I do see him as one of the more powerful and efficient versions of Tails).

Innate power: He's not some secret chosen one or overflowing with chaos energy or anything. He does have some baseline innate physical power, given that he *can* spin dash, but he largely utilizes his mechanical tails or other external devices he has control over to do damage. So he ranks lower on the innate power scale, but not the lowest (let's say ehhhh 2/5?)

Balance: Nine is one of the versions of Tails that is better at this. Though we don't get to see him fighting personally for the bulk of the runtime of Prime, we have evidence that he can play the role of fighter and strategist. Even though Sonic was holding back, his backstory, the way he fought Sonic physically those few times he did, and moments such as in S2 where he dismantles a number of eggforcers guarding him all imply that he doesn’t prefer to fight, but he can and will fight on his own (and do a good job of it) if driven to it. Plus, even when Nine does hang back and play strategist, there are still many moments where his vantage point still allows him to fight (like when he directs Sonic's movements so he can blast Chaos Sonic in S2). I'd place him higher on the balance scale, but not the top (closer to a 4/5).

Extra Power: I hate to do this to him but like...2/5 at best. I love him. He's great. Unfortunately, despite having a large goal, he didn't have much of an idea of what executing the goal in question looked like. So when he had time to spend on his "perfect home", he didn't add much to the Grim aside from a lab for him and some palm trees for Sonic. And when he finally obtained the paradox prism, despite his large shows of power with the thing, he largely used it to protect the Grim or to persuade Sonic to give himself over. So when he was more fully utilizing the kind of power the Prism can give, it was earlier in S3, while he largely just used these shows of power to get to Sonic. He messed with gravity and projected his head across shatterspaces, but the former he only took as far as he did while believing Sonic would save the people and only as long as Sonic hadn't surrendered, and the latter he pretty much did (yes as a show of power also) largely to keep contact with Sonic so he could convince him to give in. Essentially, at his most mentally sound and well rested, he used the prism for easy and low stakes shows of power, or only as much as he needed to win over Sonic (and while keeping the danger level manageable), so he hardly was using it to its full potential. In the beginning too he made very few robots. Then, as the battle waged on to a climax and everything was on the verge of falling apart, he pretty much just used the prism to keep the Grim together and to protect it. So he just...made a bunch more robots (ironic, given his "all that power at your disposal, and all you could think to do was build a bigger robot" in S2). Point is, Nine has the potential to wield great power well, but unfortunately during the events of prime, he didn't much do that (which is largely because of his lack of visualization in terms of what his "perfect world" actually looks like, and his tactic of doing the bare minimum of messing with the other shatterspaces so he can get what he wants and isolate himself again).

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Now, another example is Archie Tails.

Innate Power: Wow. Okay, if not for the inconsistent handling of his character, I'd put him at a 5. He gets a 4.5 by virtue of his chosen one powers and the fact that he generally cleans house when he becomes Hyper Tails. However, as I said, he loses .5 for inconsistencies in his character. There are times in which he utilizes his raw strength to fight or to assist in battles, but these moments are few. Kind of like early Sally, when Tails isn't in his chosen one form, his physical prowess varies based upon what the narrative demands. So sometimes he's just some kid who no one lets fight and needs to be saved a lot. Sometimes he can fight side by side with Sonic, but he can't hold his own. Sometimes he proves that he has some genuine strength but is benched as the strategy and technology guy afterwards.

Balance: Ehhhh 2.5, largely due to the inconsistencies in his character, the fact that earlier depictions of him are benched due to his age or the writers keeping him at a "stay back at the base" role without also characterizing him as more useful back at the base, and that later depictions of him place him in the "guy who can provide strategy or help back at the base who is good with technology" more often than putting him in the middle of any given fight. Essentially, he stays back at the base more often than not, and it was well into the comic before he was even given the "smart kid who's good with technology" trait. I'm being a bit generous with the 2.5 given that there are times he decently balances the whole technology prowess thing with fighting in the field.

Extra Power: 4/5. He ranks so high because he doesn't come into this kind of power incredibly often, but when he does so he generally handles it well. It's a bit cheating I suppose since usually he and Sonic (at the very minimum) fight together while in super forms, and they both have epic fights with the current bad guy when they do utilize power rings or chaos emeralds together. However, as with Nine, this is quantified less by potential and more by the examples at hand. The only reason I didn't rank him higher is because (at least as I remember) he doesn't really use power rings or the chaos emeralds for anything other than fighting a bad guy (usually with Sonic) or for powering his devices. This is to say that there is more room there for him utilizing higher powers (that aren't innate) to their full potential or experimenting with them.

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But, anon, if you're still reading, by now you're probably looking for an answer. My personal answer to your question "Who is the most powerful Tails?" is, surprisingly enough...classic Tails?

Sure, classic Tails doesn't really have any inate chosen one power or anything, but during classic era games he's decently balanced out as the technology guy and the guy who can fight in the field. He can fight alongside Sonic and has gone on more than one solo journey. He apparently can be trusted enough on his own that he went on vacation alone (the only classic game I remember off the top of my head where you explicitly have to save Tails)?? In fact, Superstars best shows off the balance criteria, as Act Tails depicts Tails as proficient enough to mess with Eggman's tech while he fights badniks alone (at least, I assume alone). I guess my point is that (despite any innate chosen one power or anything), he fits the balance category well (I personally think about equal or better compared to Nine), and the Extra Power category pretty decently (in this case, I'd say about the same as archie Tails in one of the examples).

So yeah classic Tails turned out to be my answer! 😂

Although I'm curious what other people think

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Thanks for the ask, anon!

[ben-the-hyena]

Can I ask for pm hcs 🥺🥺🥺

Oh I said a lot before already !^^ what didn't I say hmmm... ah yes ! The Mayor does say they need to be 1000 ghosts for the curse to be broken and set them all free. A curse the Phantom does NOT want lifted and is paranoid about the fact they are 999 already. Which is why in my fanon Phantom Manor is unknown to ghosts from other places, no afterlife bureaucracy, network and legislation like I see all haunted places that welcome ghosts to have (inspired from the fact Little Leota does say you need your death certificate to join the mansion and how the Ghost Host essentially gives a tour promoting if any of us will die soon and want a place to stay). So whenever a wandering ghost in search for a new house to haunt comes across it very intrigued because they never heard of that one before, the Phantom puts on a show of being amicable and welcomes them in for dinner, shows them where they will haunt/sleep, says they will sign papers and he will take their death certificate later, he actually calls in a Reaper, who can kill for good the Undead, and they are summoned and murder the poor ghost who, if they understood what was going on, found themselves trapped in that manor the Phantom is omniscient in and linked to therefore sees everything and controls it. A death-DEATH trap

That's because the lore of PM has Henry Ravenswood becoming rich out of nowhere, which sounds inspired from many southern legends about rich but cruel land owners who made pacts with the Devil to become rich. Which he did, and he signed for his soul. Not to the Devil since there is no Hell or Heaven just an Afterlife, but still to have his soul owned by demons to torture forever. He had always a sort of medium gift he never worked on like Madame Leota but knew about ghosts and could see them from childhood, and knew that they would need an unfinished business or a traumatic experience or a broken heart to intend to. He sure would have one of those, he just wouldn't need to die fully happy or of old age and was careful with it. And he did find one unfinished business : prevent his daughter he has incestuous lust for to marry and stay a virgin for his own virginity fetish. So when he and most of the town died in the Thunder Mesa earthquake (which was scary and traumatic as well) while she was engaged to a 5th suitor, the rage at the idea of someone else touching her while he would be away had him directly become a ghost and he managed to fool and murder her fiancé on her wedding day, and it turned out in a sad turn of fate he had a lot of reality bending powers for a ghost and decided to torment other ghosts, one of them being able to summon and trap spirits thanks to his medium gift he had as a mortal which amplified as a ghost like it did for Leota. He trapped her fiancé Jake in her own pendant without her knowing so she would never guess and look there which also amused him in his own sick sadistic mind, and summoned evil spirits to aid him imprison and trap within the manor the other ghosts made ny the quake, feeling like a God who could now do anything he liked and prevented himself all his life, bow he could be openly evil

But the demons did end up find him. His unfinished business WAS finished from the moment he killed Jake and they sensed it. So they returned to claim him, with a Reaper (essentially grim reapers who serve Death itself and can kill for real those who "escaped" aka ghosts zombies and vampires ; I HC it takes place in the same universe as the Petit Vampire movie ok) to snatch him for good while they would travel (demons, interdimensional lol) to join him in the Other Side to torture him forever. But crafty and realizing now he was in deep shit, he offered a new deal : whenever a new soul would come, he would offer them by summoning a Reaper to send them to torture eternally in his place, he could be a sort of honorary Reaper himself, or a delivery man at least. They accepted, let him rule on his little kingdom for now and fetch them innocent souls who did not deserve it, it would be even more fun and cruel. But still wanting him, they warned him that if the Manor ever welcomes new residents or prisonners who would stay there for good and reached 1000, the deal would be other and they would claim him. Reassured, he accepted...

...realizing only later that him + his dog who returned a well + Mélanie when she would eventually die + the dead citizens of Thunder Mesa + the evil spirits he just called = 999. Oops. And with Jake in her necklace it was even actually 1000 !... but apparently either they didn't detect him because he trapped/hid him good or because the necklace itself is its own dimension or anything or just because he didn't officially take him for prisonner unlike the others- he doesn't know nor wants to, but one thing is sure is he doesn't count ! And while he does rejoice about this, the coming of any newcomer fills him with rage and fear swiftly replaced by pure evil sadism when he calls for the Reaper to double-kill them as he keeps them captive for them. A good, effective deal, to which his prisonners notably Mélanie feel helpless and hopeless about, feeling both awful for the unsuspecting newcomers some beg to stay for breaking the curse one way or another and more realistic ones like Mélanie beg them to run away while they can, and for how it seems they will forever haunted under the Phantom's iron fist

As of 2023, the Hatbox Ghost is the only one to have made it "alive" (heeeem...) back in 1992 when he was still banished from the Mansion and looking for another haunted house after Mélanie managed to help him escape. He never forgot, and this memory haunts him no pun intended he never told anyone not even Emily. His guilt he could not save anyone nor that poor, poor Mélanie he developped a deep friendship for in only 2 days there (the fact she was a heartbroken bride got him, he has a soft spot for brides at this point lol. Also the fact it's her own father wanting to marry her one day DISGUSTS him) and only hopes she is okay and will find a way one day, and the fear he never felt for anyone about the Phantom, never had a ghost scared him so much for how menacing, sociopathic and cold he was, and how close to double death several times... somrtimes where he sees 2 red dots in the dark he grows paler than he is and flashbacks before realizing it is something else and not his eyes, but he hides it and keeps it for himself

If he only knew, meanwhile, how much the fact a ghost DID manage to escape manage to give them hope and form a resistance still going as of 2023

[clairelsonao3]

Happy STS! So, while recently thinking about the words depolymerize, neodymium, ammonium persulfate, and other chemistry-related terminology for no reason, I found myself wondering: How do you go about your chemistry-related research for GSNBTR, and how do you decide which compounds, etc. to name-drop for the scientific elements of your story?

Happy STS, Kate!

Hmmm ... what a funny question to ask, being that I'm an English and creative writing major with absolutely no knowledge of any of those concepts. 😅

The truth is, a layperson can sound fairly authoritative (at least to other laypeople) using a combination of knowledge gleaned from AP science courses, years of having read widely but not particularly deeply, and, of course, Google. 😅

It really does help if you do have some baseline knowledge, although you don't need much. For instance, I'd heard of the concept of neodymium magnets, although not what they were actually called, so I googled "strong magnets used in scientific research" and they came up instantly.

Same thing with depolymerization, basically. And then as I was reading about that, it emphasized the importance of catalysts, of which ammonium persulfate is a common one -- essentially chosen at random, though I tried to go for something plausible. Reading about that, in turn, led me to the process of electrolysis, which is the common way it's synthesized in the lab. In that way, one concept can lead you to another.

The key, for me, is to go lightly on trying to explain concepts I myself don't fully understand, or I'll end up sounding ridiculous. If you're fairly sure you understand something, chances are your readers will, too. And have faith that your scientific wunderkind of an MC can handle everything else 😁

And of course, all of this is predicated on the assumption that nobody reading my work is an actual research chemist, because if they are, they're sure to hunt me down and hurl a beaker of sulfuric acid in my face (yes, I googled that, too). 😂

(For anyone confused by this delightfully tongue-and-cheek answer and question, the words Kate mentioned all appear in Ch. 31 of GSNBTR, posted yesterday. )

[more-than-a-princess]

your  name: Arsene Lupin

your age: 22

your perfect date: We would paint the town red as the Americans say, perhaps a day at an amusement park, then we can go to movies, make sure people SEE us entering a hotel together only to secretly leave from an alternate exit for a heist. (gotta create an alibi)

make out in private or in public?: Hmmm, if you'd give me the pleasure I'd say in private. I am a gentleman after all, whilst I have no shame of public affection it would be unruly of me to make out with you in public.

do you like to cuddle?: Yes please mademoiselle.

tell me something about you: I have a photographic memory and i can manipulate my own vocal chords to sound like anyone I've heard at least once, i'm also not bad at imitating machines and vehicles as well.

why do you want to be my valentine?: There's a part of me that knows..it knows that I may not be able to call you 'wife' or even 'lover' one day. I'd be satisfied to call you my Valentine even if it were for one day, I would be the happiest man alive.

Valentine's Day Application - Accepting through February 14!

She tended to forget: despite the fact that she was on the run and needed to remain in hiding until there were no public threats against her life, he was still younger than she was. And still, sometimes recklessly, calling the shots alongside his friends, all employed by the Novoselic Royal Family to keep her safe.

"I'm not entirely sure if it has occurred to him that being seen entering a hotel together would, inevitably, lead to having the press tipped off," Sonia remarked. Even without royal duties to speak of at present, she still couldn't turn off the part of her mind that worked through all the potential ways she could cause scandal. Scandal that had nothing to do with her hobbies, that is: she was far more amenable to being caught in a graveyard in the wee hours of the morning tracking some sort of paranormal activity than she was having her love life speculated about in the media. "And the immediate assumption would, inevitably, be..."

She trailed off, her cheeks turning pink at what was left unsaid. Sonia had a hunch that the world imagining they were engaging in such acts would likely appeal to him, if not will it into existence. Even if it would be all anyone would ask her about once she was able to resume her old life: who he was, where he came from, what he did and had he met her family yet.

That was the trouble with dating as the Princess of Novoselic: expectations were always heightened beyond anything a budding relationship should ever need to handle. She could smile at a man and laugh at something she found sincerely funny, and the rumor mill would churn out something akin to a passionate romance destined for the altar.

"I would enjoy visiting an amusement park and seeing a film, though. I cannot deny that," She agreed. "As long as we do not skip the roller coasters and haunted houses: those are essential. But more importantly-"

Sonia paused, sighing as she set the application aside. Not in a discard pile, not in an acceptance pile, but somewhere in-between. Rather like how she felt about him.

"He is a man of disguises and there are so many instances when I feel I do not know him. He desires an intimacy with me, emotionally and physically, but I wonder if he has truly considered what that means. The life I have been living since I met him, that does not resemble anything of what it will be once I am no longer under threat."

She swallowed, running a hand through her hair, the way she did when she was anxious. "I am not allowed, nor do I have it in me, to participate in casual relationships. I suppose I just do not understand how he can be so interested in me, when I feel we do not really know or understand each other. That when this is over...so will we."

"Nevertheless, a date might be a method of getting to know each other. No masks or costumes or voices that do not belong to us: just...us."

"I decline a visit to a hotel, though. Even if it is meant to be a facade for a heist in progress. There must be another way that does not invite unkind gossip."

But a date with no added pressure of a romantic holiday? She would give it, and him, a try. If just to try and get to know Arsene Lupin, whoever he was beneath his many disguises.

[dulcewrites]

I’m dying for more of the Fools such in au. Do you have any more ideas/ thoughts you wanted to share about it? What was the moment Aemond realized he and Myrah might actually be happy together and vise versa?

Yes, I do have more thoughts! Thank you for asking First and foremost, I just recommend watching the movie (fools rush in) for anyone who hasn’t seen it. Not even just for this, mainly bc it’s one of my favs and I think others should watch if they haven’t 💀

Anyway onto the thoughts. I’m gonna try to do like a mini timeline of events I could see happening and hopefully that answers some things

Myrah and Aemond meet at a restaurant owned by Myrah’s aunt. In this cute little town right outside the city (where Aemond lives)

They instantly hit it off ofc, go back to Aemond’s hotel…. Baelor is conceived 😊. Myrah books it out of there in the morning before Aemond even wakes up

They go about their business for weeks till Myrah starts feeling tired a lot, and even feeling a bit sick. So she goes to the doctor. The checkup is going pretty normal till her doctor is suddenly like ‘congrats mama 🤭’ and myrah is just like ??? 😵‍💫😵‍💫😵‍💫

Myrah goes back and forth between even telling anyone and just getting an abortion is secret. But she breaks down one day to her mom bc she scared. Her parents are pretty traditional so ngl it does hurt their soul a bit that their young daughter is pregnant and won’t even tell them who the father is. Her aunt (who owns the restaurant) is like 👀 but also is like ‘girl if you want this baby dead I’ll drive you’

In the end, myrah ends up deciding to keep the baby. Then makes the decision to tell Aemond. Not bc she wants anything but more for him to know. She doesn’t want some guy showing up in 10 years like hmmm is that my kid. But she is nervous bc she knows how this looks. She knew very little about Aemond, or his family. But it takes one google search and she’s like ‘ofc he’s from one of those families’. She comes from a working class background. She can only imagine what his family would think about her

So, she shows up at [insert work place for Aemond I haven’t decided on]. Not super appropriate but she kind of has no other way to reach him.

He is confused to see her. She asks if they can get lunch, mainly bc she wants to tell him in front of people so he doesn’t act up lmao

Anyway he takes it… not great. He excused himself to go scream in the bathroom 😭. But when he comes back myrah reassures him she doesn’t want anything. This was a curtesy thing, and that she (and the baby) will be fine.

Aemond shocks her, and honestly himself, by asking if he can come to the first appointment. Myrah is halfway to saying no bc her parents advised her to cut ties cleanly especially if he doesn’t explicitly say he wants to be around permanately. But he looks so earnest so she says yes.

I sort of debated how I imagine Aemond telling his family, namely Alicent. Honestly I could see him jay blurting it out one night on the phone. Like ‘I’m having a kid’. Now this ofc shocks Alicent. Bc frankly, she thought if any kid would be making her a young grandma is Aegon. But she gives him sound advice about raising a child (especially while not being in relationship with the mom) is not easy. And if he’s not 100% in, he needs to leave them alone for their sake.

the thing that really pushes him to step up is viserys tbh. His father is so critical of him for this. Probably makes some disparaging comments about myah when he hears she’s essentially a struggling artist. Hinting at her doing this on purpose. And Aemond really can’t believe for a moment bc really??? Viserys targaryen has something to say about raising kids??? That’s rich. But then he remembers how clueless his father is so sure he would think he’s a great father/made good decisions and has room to talk

Anyway fast forward to the first appointment with the obstetric. I feel this appointment def lays the early stages of them being good for each other. It should be nerve wrecking and awkward, and don’t get me wrong some parts are, but he holds her hand and when they do the ultrasound he has that’s “their” baby in there.

When they leave, Aemond is very clear about wanting to make it work. Not just co-parenting but with myrah herself

Ok that was super long winded opening to their relationship. Anyway in terms of hiccups they may face. Aemond is a workaholic. Hard to curve and him and myrah butt heads a lot of what things are considered ‘important’ in life. It is understandable when you grow up in the family dynamic he did, that ideals in that department is murky. They both have to create appropriate boundaries before baby Baelor comes.

Moments they realize they could be happy together. For Aemond, the way she gels with his mom and siblings. Mainly Alicent. She also tells viserys and daemon to fuck off one night (she instantly feels guilty. Pregnancy hormones what can ya say) but Aemond loves her for it. Also when Baelor comes, Aemond sort of feels like his heart is bursting. For myrah, the fact that Aemond tries. She isn’t expecting perfection but nothing bothers her more than someone who dwells in their situation when they have the means/wherewithal to get better. Also he is very handson from the get go. One of her fav memories is him shooing her out of the apartment so him and Aegon could paint the nursery. As well decorating the nursery with him

[gr1evance]

for Ronnie; 🎮 🎻🎶🎄 ❤️ and for Strudel; 🎶 ❤️ 🤍💔🍦

for ronnie (going with like. the ronnie i use for rp where its post grievance and atrophy and theyre living in a mortal world just bc its more applicable to a lot of these questions):

🎮 VIDEO GAME CONTROLLER — what are three of your oc's favorite hobbies?

definitely playing guitar or just doing anything creative or artistic, probably going out in nature just like. taking a walk or something. even doing creative stuff outside but just Being outside (and vinny has definitely gotten him into gardening too at least a little). and then the last one. does gay activities count. cuddling and kissing. i feel like thatd be really high on his personal favorite activities list so im counting it

🎻 VIOLIN — does your oc play any instruments? what is their skill level

YES as previously mentioned he plays guitar. and hes had... hundreds of years to practice it so. hes definitely good at it though i dont think he honestly cares much for "mastering" the instrument or being able to do anything super complex i think he just enjoys the sounds and the process of playing the instrument and making the music happen

🎶 MUSICAL NOTES — what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?

i dont think he really has a preference? generally stuff thats not too loud not too fast paced. i can see him really liking jazz though. or anything in the blues genre. he seems the type to like older stuff as well. again though i dont think he has too much of a preference as long as its kinda slow and not too loud

🎄 CHRISTMAS TREE — what is your oc's favorite holiday?

probably valentines day because 1. his husbands birthday and 2. he is very gay. i think the gusbands generally try and celebrate mortal holidays just for fun and to shake things up but he doesnt have like an attachment to any of them that mortals might have from growing up with them. but he likes valentines day.

❤️ RED HEART — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

hmmm. probablyyyy. hes a good listener. very thoughtful. and this is a weird one but just bear with me. hes like.. kind of slow moving? emotionally and physically he takes a while to process stuff or spends a while getting to places and like. that strikes me as a positive trait bc theres just a lot more thought going on there i feel? a lot more consideration of just everything. if that makes sense

for strudel:

�� MUSICAL NOTES — what type of music does your oc like? do they listen to music very often?

definitely like. pop music love songs or songs about feeling good having a good time with other ppl. just generally positive stuff. but also probably more like. indie stuff thats kinda chiptune and fast paced and generally upbeat in that kind of pink glittery sparkly way. if that makes sense. though i think hed like a lot of different stuff thats just what he gravitates towards

❤️ RED HEART — what are three of your oc's positive traits?

hes VERY very caring and compassionate. cares about everyone and everything with his entire being. hes also an artist with a very high appreciation for art (because he. is kind of just art that came to life) and also a strong desire to make art and especially has an interest in art for children and he thinks art made for children to experience and learn from is very beautiful and essential and i just find that a really sweet trait of his. i dont wanna just describe the words kind or sweet or caring over and over again but i feel like. hes just full of kindness and love and its hard to not bring that up repeatedly. hes never judgemental and loves everyone and is kind to everyone and i just think hes so so sweet

🤍 WHITE HEART — what are three of your oc's neutral/questionable traits?

he is. completely selfless. which CAN be good especially i think in the fact that hes a pacifist (specifically in the situation hes in.. i think this is beneficial to him. even if its not too beneficial to the overall group) but. he kind of views himself as lesser and like hes supposed to be protecting everyone else and never himself. which can be good but also does a lot of bad especially for his mental health. and then hes also very sensitive which like. not a bad thing. its not bad that he cries easily or is bothered by violence but it creates a problem because he is trapped on. the murder and gore and death forever repeating island. and finally hes very obsessive and attached to his boyfriend which. again. is a thing of his thats not really a problem? it wouldnt be a problem really if it werent for the fact that his boyfriend is just a plush toy of. his boyfriend he used to actually have that he can never talk to again and it causes kind of constant emotional turmoil. and also the murder island is not the safest place to bring the last remaining thing of your boyfriend you have left

💔 BROKEN HEART — what are three of your oc's negative traits?

he is a self sacrificing pushover and that is not really an exaggeration. i mentioned before hes very selfless and while that can have some upsides. his self sacrificial tendencies are just unhealthy and HAVE almost lead to him dying. and also if you told him to go stand in a bathtub full of acid hed be like :( okay and go do it? simply because you told him to. and then hes.. extremely self isolating and up until the island quite literally almost never left his apartment. a very very big shut in living in the quiet and the dark alone which is definitely doing some evil stuff to his psyche. finally the last thing. again its hard not to circle back to some of his big traits like being a bit of a pushover but prior to the island he kind of exclusively hung out with people who made fun of him because. he felt like that was all he had in the communities that he was interested in. all of these are very like focused on himself and not as outward and thats because he really really tries to be. as loving and compassionate as possible which is great but it does mean he is shooting himself in the foot 50 times a day. yknow?

[thagantm]

MINI RANT INCOMING ; how .  .  . how  the  f***  do  some  folks  in  the  tags  have  the  impression  that  the  s1  scene  of  Steve  smashing  Jonathan’s  camera  could  have  anything  to  do  with  him , Carol , and  Tommy  wanting  to  “humiliate  Nancy” ? like  .  .  . what ???

I’m .  .  . hmmm .  .  . alright .

I  know  that  critical  thinking  isn’t  one  of  the  strong  suits  of  the  ST  fandom  as  a  whole ( and yes , this  sounds  mean , that  is  on  purpose , btw ) but  in  what  world  can  anybody  believe  that  primarily  Steve’s  actions , but  also  Tommy  being  his  usual  helpful  omega  male  self , were  not  even  a  little  justified  and  -  more  importantly  -  largely  served  to  PROTECT  Nancy . Steve  is  still  actively  dating  Nancy  at  this  point , why  the  hell  would  he  want  to  humiliate  his  girlfriend ?

I’m  fully  aware  that  the  Duffers  love  to  use  certain  means  to  build  up  a  bias  for  or  against  characters . when  we  first  meet  Jonathan , he’s  the  caring , gentle  older  brother  who’s  a  bit  weird ( relatable  for  most  of  us ) and  quiet  and  a  touch  shy ; a  character  one  can  easily  sympathize  with . at  the  same  time , the  first  impression  we  get  of  Carol  and  Tommy , is  via  Barb , another  sympathetic  and  lovable  character , who  personally  doesn’t  like  the  two  and  thus  only  hands  us  the  perspective  that  they  both , for  no  reason  she  ever  actually  mentions , are  horrible  people . we  go  into  the  first  actual  scenes  with  them  somewhere  around  ep 2 , already  believing  they  are  awful  and  neither  ever  really  gets  a  chance  from  the  fandom  after  that  point . now  by  the  time  Steve  smashes  Jonathan’s  camera , people  surely  will  have  an  idea  of  who  the  characters  are ( and  that  Jonathan  indeed  is  a  sweet  kid , but  a  little  weird , while  we  simultaneously  are  to  believe  that  Tommy  and  Carol  are  awful ) so  I  understand  a  certain  wish  for  specific  perspectives  and  outcomes , but  come  on  !

hate  on  the  alleged  “ bullies ”  as  much  as  you  want ( funnily  enough  neither  of  them  are  ever  actually  shown  to  bully  anybody  -  I can  write  a  whole  other  rant / hc  on  Tommy’s  graffiti  on  the  theatre , but  oh  well ) the  one  clearly  in  the  wrong  there  is  Jonathan and  Steve  & co  have  every  right  to  be  pissed  at  him . Steve  most  likely  wants  to  save  Nancy’s  reputation  by  making  sure  that  there  are  no  photos  of  her  in  her  underwear , first  of  all . besides  that  obvious  point , what  happened  here  is  a  clear  violation  of  the  privacy  of  all  four  of  them .  Steve , Tommy , and  Carol  seem  a  little  blasé  about  the  fact , sure , but  consider  that  they  are  supposed  to  be  the  “ cool  kids ” . all  three  of  them  would  die  without  their  carefully  crafted  reputations , so  what  do  you  do ? you  keep  discomfort  under  wraps  -  which , however , doesn’t  mean  they  didn’t  feel  any . imagine  you  found  out  someone  was  hiding  in  the  bushes  by  your  house  and  took  pictures  of  you  without  your  consent  or  knowledge .  .  .

truth  be  told , for  people  who , allegedly , are  so  goddamn  awful , their  handling  of  the  situation  is  remarkably  benign . smashing  Jonathan’s  camera , pushing  him  around  a  little , ripping  the  pictures  apart .  .  . it’s  uncomfortable , but  not  horrible . we  never  see  any  further  consequences  for  Jonathan , or , in  fact , Nancy  later  on . neither  Carol , nor  Tommy , seemingly  tell  anyone  that  Jonathan , essentially , is  a  stalker . neither  tell  anyone  that  pictures  of  Nancy  in  her  underwear  exist(ed) . they  had  the  chance  to  ruin  both  of  them  in  the  wake  of  this  and  didn’t . now  before  anyone  screeches , this  is  not  me  saying  meeting  the  basic , lowest  standard  of  human  etiquette  automatically  makes  you  a  good  person .  .  . this  is  me  saying  these  two  aren’t  the  irredeemable  assholes  the  fandom  likes  to  believe , and  that  some  of  the  things  they  do , even  though  leaning  on  the  mean  scale , are  justified .

[oblivions-dawn]

For the OC Ask game: 12, 16, G, and 💀!

Hello Moriche!! Thank ye for stopping by <3

✑ First time leaving their home country

I'll answer this for Wynn and Do'Shavir, as they have very different answers! So Wynnarwe left Alinor for good via pirating her own ship to get away from an arranged marriage she didn't want. For her, it was the ultimate freedom to get away from a life she knew she would've hated and find her own path, never looking back. In Do'Shavir's case, he wanted to travel and seek adventure--but he did so with a heavy heart, as he does love and cherish his family a lot. It was extremely difficult and he was homesick a lot, at first, but he persevered and writes to them whenever he can.

✑ First thing they remembered feeling ashamed of

Hmmmmmmm! I feel like answering this with my Falmer, Helthune. She doesn't remember much from . . . before, but I imagine she felt shame when she couldn't communicate with Gelebor. I mean, the first of her kind she's seen in so long who isn't twisted into, well, what they are now, and she can't even talk to him!! But with time they managed to figure it out, and now they communicate via their own sign language. Thank goodness for his endless patience and willingness to essentially adopt Hel <3

✑ First time seeing the other one sick/injured

For my girls, Vigdis is always getting fucking hurt LKNSFKGJKDFG. If she isn't covered in blood she isn't Vigdis. I want to say the first time Serana really sees Vigdis hurt isssss. Chapter XI, The Moth Priest? There's that very juicy section when Serana notices Vig's lip is bleeding, and. Well. 😏 Now . . . Serana doesn't get as hurt often, so it took some digging around for me to remember. There's a part in Chapter XVII, Darkfall, where it seems like Serana yelps in pain and it MOMENTARILY distracts Vigdis--which is detrimental BECAUSE SHE'S IN THE MIDDLE OF A FIGHT. But a reaction is a reaction all the same. These girls are gay. OH but I should say that, at first, Vigdis is very not accepting of help when it comes to injuries. Stubborn asshole. BUT SHE SLOWLY LETS SERANA IN . . . . . . SO SLOWLY . . . I'm not saying you have to read my fic to understand but [proceeds to violently foam at the mouth and collapse]

✑ First time writing character death, and how you felt about it

GASP. This is the part where I admit that I love writing DEATH. The amount of people Vigdis and Serana have murdered . . .augh. I crave it. I miss it. Man I really need to write my chapter because the death I want is, well. In this chapter. And I need to WRITE IT. Ahem. Let's see. Uhhh. Character death? Hmmm. I have . . .murdered one of two of my own characters. If I'm honest, it was euphoric. I LOVED writing their deaths. There's emotion involved and. sighs wistfully. I sound insane. I know I do. This goes for canon characters too--one which I'm about to get to . . . .fufufufu. mwhaha. mahwhaahhahahaa

[gelmaah]

Starting a new hobby (?)

(look at this cat i found at the local park~)

June blog post (2022) 🌤

It's the end of the school year and I want to start a new hobby, maybe something related to music. 🎵

I feel like I've always wanted to do something related to music ever since I first listened to that one song that came to me in a youtube recommendation. I think that song was obenkyou shitoiteyo (a jpop song mixed in with rock elements)

I remember that I first listened to it during the earlier half of the first semester in 2021–it was a monday afternoon after late night classes. It was really uplifting for me at that time for some reason and when I relistened to it I kept feeling that way. So whenever I felt down I just repeated it and it somewhat calmed me down. (and I'm glad I found it too)

Apparently this is backed by research too:

'scientific research has shown that it can influence physiological processes that enhance physical and mental wellbeing.' 'benefits of music, including improved heart rate, motor skills, brain stimulation, and immune system enhancement.' https://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC8566759/

And I don't disagree, music helps a lot more than I thought it would.

As a person who hasn't ever taken an interest in music before this their entire life, the whole music culture and the idea of 'vibing' to something is starting to makes a bit more sense.

Surprisingly enough, thinking back, I've been surrounded by music more than I previously thought–playing the radio from the car and singing along to songs like broken (lovelytheband) and havana (Camila Cabello) and the like.

take a look at your spotify wrapped or the radio stations you listened to and you may be welcomed by a wave of nostalgia as you reminisce how you were back then.

I felt very inspired to do something about this after listening to their songs for such a long time. So I thought I might as well do something about it–express it.

A few weeks ago I tried to learn piano. Downloading booklets with practice sets and practicing an hour every day after school. But as a week passed I started practicing less and less until I it came to a point where I had basically given up. I think one of the key reasons I failed was that I didn't have a tutor–and also the fact that the piano was in the coldest room in the house 🧊.

Here's two other options–and I'm getting a tutor this time however expensive it is 💸:

It's pretty blurred because I kept it on the back of my phone for such a long time without looking at it. Still, I wrote this initially when the idea of learning an instrument came to me (it says 'drums' on the back) and I'd probably have forgot if I didn't do so

Write down your aspirations! Who knows when you might have the time to act on them––and writing it down turns your thoughts into actions, however little of a step that may be, at least you're going in the right direction ➡️.

So piano didn't work out, and drums seem complicated–well, all the foot-hand-leg-arm coordination jazz feels like a bit too much for what I can handle right now, especially with having to invest in an entire drum set or something of the like to be able to practice at home.

hmmm, by process of elimination bass seems like a viable option:

smaller than piano & drums (transportable and affordable)

the low bass tone (the low–deep feel of the bass is something I haven't explored very much and seems cool)

rhythmic and funky feel (e.g. Disco Yes, Billie Jean, and Feel Good Inc)

there are local tutors (very important if you don't want to give up and provides good motivation to practice)

lower barrier of entry compared to something like the guitar (lower initial investment to sound good, i.e. less complicated)

and stuff like this -> (2:35-2:50)

Also techniques like this (3:07) which vamp the song before the chorus–I like the idea of being the kind of unapparent but essential part of a song that comes up sometimes to do their job and returns back to jam with the rest of the instruments.

'The bass performs two basic and vital functions within a band or group:

Bass provides the rhythmic foundation. Bass provides the harmonic foundation.' https://www.studybass.com/lessons/basics/the-role-of-the-bass/

I'm not too sure yet, but I really want to do something about it. Just take a look at techniques like slap bass–wow.

Maybe i can be like that some day.

[yelenabelovasbxtch]

for your one shot prompt can i request a florence x reader w/ #45?

Work Crushes

#45: "If I kiss you right now, I won't be able to stop"

Word Count: 2068

Concept: You meet Florence on the set of Black Widow and the two of you hit it off.

⚠️Warnings: Smutty, 18+

Tag List: @flosbelova @bridgecitybrad @justthis-stuff @chloe7076 @ailenepuff @wandanatvoid @3xbyrn320 @ravenclawbitch426

For the last few months, you’ve been working on the set of the upcoming Marvel film Black Widow. Your job was fairly simple, you helped place actors on set, you basically just made sure they were standing in the right spot and you were always on standby with hairspray and other essentials in case a quick fix was needed. You primarily worked with Florence and Scarlett. Because of this, you naturally got close with the two of them but Florence more so than Scarlett, this was mainly because of her super chatty personality. You couldn’t help but get a little lost in her eyes every time you have to fix a piece of her hair. Her bold and hilarious personality, accompanied by how absolutely badass she looks when kicking bad-guy butt has your eyes glazed over and your mind in other places. This love for Florence grew over time and the more time you spent together, the more nervous you got.

Florence was starting to tell how off you were acting. She could see your lack of eye contact and how much you stuttered when you talked to her. She asked you if everything was alright and you nodded your head yes. Once you walked away you heard Scarlett ask Flo what was up and she just briefly explained that you seemed off and told Scarlett why.

You could hear Scarlett chuckle and Florence ask in a confusing tone why she was laughing.

“Florence...it sounds like y/n has developed a little crush!” You hear Scarlett say with your back turned to them and your eyes widening.

“Pffftttt. What? Me? No...haha. No way does y/n find me attractive, besides she is way too attractive for me anyways! No way could I pull that.” Florence responds.

“I don’t know Florence...you don’t give yourself enough credit. Maybe you should hang out with her and see what happens!”

“Hmmm yeah, maybe I will then.” She responds as they are about to start the scene.

A little later on you were grabbing water to get ready for Scarlett and Florence because they were doing an action sequence and you feel someone tap you on the shoulder.

You turn around to see Florence standing in front of you. “Oh- uh- hi Flo, sorry the waters are taking so long I just had to wait in line for a while-”

“Oh- no, y/n, don’t worry you’re doing great, no rush. I just wanted to ask if you maybe wanted to grab a bite to eat after shooting wraps tonight?”

“Oh, uh, yeah, sure!” You respond with a gulp as your eyes widen.

“Great! Want to swing by my trailer around 7?”

“Sure, see you then!” You reply.

You can’t believe that just happened. I mean, Florence Pugh wants to hang out with you? You definitely never saw that one coming. You can’t get your hopes up though as far as taking it past friendship goes. You are fully aware that Flo has a boyfriend (Zach) and that they are very happy together, besides you weren’t even sure if Florence was into women, to begin with.

After shooting you quickly head to your locker and switch into some nicer clothes that you haven’t been running around in all day and then go to Florence’s trailer. You knock on the door and Florence quickly swings it open.

“Hey y/n! You all ready to head out?” She says with the biggest and most beautiful smile.

“Yep!” You reply as Florence starts walking down the steps out of her trailer.

“Ok, so I know this really great spot I would love to take you and it’s not too far from here, do you like Italian?” She asks.

“Love it!” you reply.

“Great! My driver is just around the corner waiting in the parking lot, he can take us there.”

“Awesome,” You say as you’re walking towards the parking lot with her.

The two of you get in the car and drive down the street to an Italian restaurant. The server places you in a more private booth where it is small and round so you and Florence are almost sitting next to one another but still able to sit “across” and make conversation. You both place your orders and then the scariness sets in. You’re practically on a dinner date with Florence Pugh and now you need to make conversation with her. You were feeling nervous about it but lucky for you, Florence is very chatty and also quite the easy person to talk to so conversation flowed pretty naturally. The two of you finished your meals and decided to stick around for dessert too. After they cleared your plates away and you sat there eagerly waiting for your creme brulee, you noticed that Florence slid a little closer towards you.

“Y’know y/n, it has been really nice getting to spend time with you tonight. I never realized we had so much in common.”

“Thank you for inviting me.” You say with a smile.

“I do have to ask something though…” She says as your heart starts to race.

“Scarlett mentioned that she thinks you may have a tiny crush on me, was she right?”

“Uhhhh- maybe a little. Sorry, I don’t mean to be so unprofessional, I just couldn’t help it and I’ve tried really hard to ensure it does not interfere with my work and-”

“y/n, y/n, you don’t need to worry about it! I’m flattered, and might I add you are quite attractive yourself” she says as her eyes widen and she quickly adds on “not that looks are everything of course! Personality is important too and might I say, you definitely kill it in that department.” She says trying not to say something that you may deem offensive.

It was kind of cute watching Flo get all flustered when talking to you about how attractive the two of you are.

You can’t help but blush when she says all of this and before you could respond, the waitress shows up with the desserts.

The two of you finish eating and Florence invites you back to her place to hang out for a little while longer and have a couple of drinks.

The two of you get into the car and go back to Florence’s hotel, which for the record, is amazing. Much better than your super small one bedroom hotel. But I guess what do you expect, she is a movie star after all which is something that you seem to keep forgetting about.

“Welcome! Let me grab some drinks.” She says as she walks towards the kitchen and grabs a chilled bottle of champagne with two glasses.

“I hope you’re not wasting the fancy stuff on me.” You say with a chuckle.

Florence laughs, “y/n, trust me it doesn’t get too fancy with hotel champagne but if we were at my place, like my actual home, I would definitely crack open the expensive stuff. You’re more than worth it.” She says with a soft smile.

You feel your cheeks start to get rosy, luckily you can blame the alcohol but it was definitely because of all the compliments Florence kept throwing your way.

The two of you talked for hours and made your way through the bottle of champagne in no time.

A fairly tipsy Florence has moved very close to you on the couch as she praises you for being such a good friend and slaps one of her hands onto your thigh. She starts moving her hand back and forth in a comforting sort of way as she continues to babble on about how great you are.

“…you just always know when to fix my hair on set and you’re so professional and you listen so well when I talk. I love seeing you every day…” she says with a little bit of slur in her speech. “I love to see you and your beautiful eyes, and your flawless hair, and who could forget your gorgeous smile.” She says as she starts getting close to your face.

You can feel the bright redness in your face as Florence compliments you. You suddenly feel frozen as she is just inches away from your face. She leans in even close and you can feel her breath on your lips.

“Florence…I don’t know.”

“C’mon, I just want to kiss you so badly” she says as she continues to lean in.

“But if I kiss you right now, I won’t be able to stop.” You say in a quiet and lower voice as you start to tilt your head and lean in.

“Good.” She responds as she grabs your head and pulls it towards hers. Your lips are crashing into one another as you rest one hand on her thigh and one on the side of her face. The two of you continue to passionately kiss each other as you feel her hands make their way down your body and one reaches the inside of your thigh. You feel shocked and extremely turned on by not only kissing Florence but also the feeling of doing something you’re not supposed to.

The two of you pull away from each other.

“Wow.” Is all you can get out.

“Agreed.” She says. “How about we move this to the bedroom?”

“Are you sure Florence? I don’t know, I just know how much you love Zach and I would hate to get in the way of that.”

“Y/n, I’m a grown up and can definitely make my own decisions. Besides I would be lying if I said that I haven’t been watching you for quite some time now.”

“Okay.” You say as you grab her hand and she pulls you off the couch and leads you towards her bedroom.

Florence pushes you down on the bed and starts kissing you down your neck for sure leaving a slight trail.

“This okay?” She says as she tugs at the hem of your shirt.

You nod your head yes and next thing you know, Your shirts on the ground. She unclips your bra and starts kissing down your chest making sure to tease your nipples along the way. She eventually makes her way down to the button on your pants and slowly undoes it as she is kissing around your hips. You can’t help but squirm a little every time she kisses you. It gives you butterflies all over your body. She takes your pants off and starts kissing in between your thighs. You feel a heat growing in your stomach and you knew you desperately wanted to feel her touch.

“F-F-Florence please, I need you so badly.” You mutter out.

“Oh do you?” She says as she teases you by drawing circles near your clit.

She slowly starts kissing your pussy and all of a sudden you feel her tongue slowly licking up and down your slit. She was moving incredibly slow, it was torture but the best kind imaginable. You feel her fingers near your entrance as she thrusts one into you. She slowly starts pumping her hand in and out as she continues to go down on you.

God did this feel good. No sex has ever felt this good.

Your whole body and all its senses were feeling overwhelmed with pleasure. It felt so fucking good. You look down at her as she’s licking your pussy and she looks up, locking eyes with you. Fuck- that was the hottest thing she could’ve done. You feel your climax coming.

“F-Fuck. Florence i'm going to-”

“Cum for me.” She says in an aggressive tone.

With her voice fluttering through your head you release and your back arches as she continues to pump her fingers in and out of you to let you ride out your high.

When your body finally relaxes she comes up and wraps her arms around you.

“Holy shit.” You say.

She just chuckles and kisses you again. “I’m guessing you enjoyed that?”

“Oh yes.”

“You’re adorable.”

“Adorable? That’s it?” You say while trying to keep a serious face and not laugh as you swing one leg over her.

“Yes. Absolutely adorable.”

“Oh I’ll make you pay for that” you say as you pin her arms above her head and start kissing her down her neck.

“Oh please do.” She says.

— the end —

[kiefbowl]

hmmm...I’m laying in bed and thinking about my own childhood. I’m thinking about how through music and television and movies I was exposed to the idea of women who can be nasty in bed before even learning any real mechanics of sex (except that the penis goes into the vagina). also, how much the boys in my class ended up exposing me and the girls in our class to ideas of sex in much the same way with their jokes and coded references, undoubtedly through their porn exposure. sometime around 7/8 grade, it was definitely fun for some of the boys to get away with “girlie sex noises” in class. High pitch moans, breathy oohs and ahhs before laughing to themselves about it.

As a girl, it’s not like you’re completely in the dark, but you know you’re missing big pieces of the puzzle. It’s like the first time you hear the phrase “blow job” and you’re not quite sure what that means, but you know it’s a sex thing immediately. The first time I heard the phrase blow job I was in middle school and a girl I was friends with (who had some fucked up shit going on at home) told me a “joke” about how pigtails are blow job handle bars. I was too embarrassed to ask what a blow job was but I felt so uncomfortable at the idea and couldn’t express why. Thinking of the age I was, I probably still wore pigtails sometimes. My imagination of course ran wild. So here’s this girl being told that a secret sex thing that doesn’t sound pleasurable can relate to her childish hair style that makes her into an object (handle bars)...but when exactly do young girls get exposed to the idea that sex is mutual beneficial and natural and pleasurable? I remember learning the handle bar joke, but do I remember learning those things? How many girls or young women have sex over and over again before they even learn that they can orgasm? how many girls and young women know that to be “good” at sex you have to impress a man by being “nasty” but don’t know what that means? I’m not even sure I know what it means now. How many girls think “I have to be nasty in bed” but are too embarrassed to ask “what does that mean?” and so act out anything and everything? try to be wild by moaning and saying “yes daddy harder more more more” but have no idea why they are saying it?

But now I’m 30, and I’ve had a lot of good experience with sex and a lot of my bad experiences with sex are in the past, and I’m self assured, scientifically knowledgeable, have had orgasms, have had long loving relationships, masturbate, explored female pleasure...and it hits me that I really don’t know what the fuck “nasty” is supposed to mean. Sure, act like a porn star, be hyper aerobic, be willing and ready to live out your boyfriends fantasies, whatever. But what I mean is, we attach these words - wild, crazy, nasty, dirty, naughty - to sex to be euphemisms of what exactly. Ultimately, they don’t really describe sex as much as they describe a mindset about sex, and more specifically a mindset about male sexual desires of female objects. That girl is nasty because she likes that I cream her, fill her, ram her, she’s nasty because we do it in the shower, in the car, she’s available day and night, she’s nasty because she blows me, sucks my dick, drinks my cum...but these are just frameworks of ways to have sex that aren’t inherently nasty? Men just think sex is degrading for women and like that. Sex is just nasty, right? Missionary lights off wife loving is boring and necessary sometimes but really good sex is getting to degrade a woman with your cock, filling her up with your cock and jizz, making her take it, teaching her violence, making her your slutty little thing...using her as masturbation essentially and knowing that’s humiliating for her, maybe even knowing that more than her...

And the first time tween girls are exposed to sex talk are these messages garbled through the approximation of other tweens? no wonder no wonder no wonder no wonder.....