#what are the chances though.. both our cats were diagnosed with the same thing within a month of each other

[kirstielol]

Sigh so one of my parents cats was just diagnosed with the same thing my cat Ellie has.. kidney failure 😔 so sad. I'm at my parents house today vitising when they got the call. They brought her in yesterday after noticing some weight loss.. same as we did with Ellie. She was only diagnosed with stage 3, not stage 4 like Ellie.. so hopefully they get a long time with her still. She's also a 14 year old cat so she's at least lived a nice long life.

[alloveroliver]

Victor x MC “Snowfall”

Rating: Ch 1 is Fluff

Summary:  On a fateful business trip, Victor takes a chance during a snowstorm to pick MC up, when taxies won’t brave the storm any longer, to take her to the airport. They both try to make it back to Loveland before new years, but the weather only gets worse, forcing them to make a stop at his old family cabin in the middle of nowhere. The two, hardly acquaintances, are shoved together under one roof for a long weekend. They slowly get to know one another, and Victor begins to unravel his tightly bound knots and shows her who really is hiding behind his stern mask.

A|N: Slow Burn~  Getting to know each other, mutual pining.

WC: 7,800~

Mr. Love: Queen’s Choice Fanfic

Chapter 1

Snow fell in thick clumps all around the vehicle as they shot past another blurry exit sign. She adjusted her legs, crossing and recrossing them over the heated leather seat. Her thick stockings slid over the fabric while she positioned herself. They were stylish but proved to have a hard time insulating heat against her chilly skin. After being cooped up in a car for so long with Victor, it was hard to remain still like he asked. She grew antsier as the road stretched on, but Victor seemed to become the opposite.

“I think that sign said ‘Exit 41’” She tapped the cold glass in the direction of the road. Even in the heated car, a hint of fog filled the air from her breath. 

The air outside was relentless as the snow fell in thick sheets. The weather gave no heed to the two traveling though it and continued its assault upon the landscape. Not a house, gas station, or any sign of life was around for miles. The only proof they were still in civilization was the four-lane paved road they carefully traveled upon. They hadn’t even seen another car in hours, assuming the weatherman put out a warning for all that lived in this area to stay home. 

Victor took in a steady breath and drove just as calm as if he were simply driving to the grocery store for some milk. “Two more exits to go then.” His velvety voice soothed her tightening chest. His words, when not being used for scolding, were like warm cashmere smoothing over her skin.

His voice felt even more comforting after the long silence that stretched out between them. She held that warmth close to her heart, tucking away that emotion for later when it was more appropriate to explore. Diagnosing the reason her heart raced and cheeks heated when he was near would inevitably lead to disappointment and, most certainly, embarrassment. 

He was an impenetrable wall made of solid steel. She didn’t have the tools to chip away at that, nor the time or patience with her own life swirling around her as it did. Work was a huge part of her life, and becoming close to Victor, her boss, would undoubtedly complicate her daily ritual. She couldn’t see what he hid underneath his facade, just those small glimpses of kindness and selflessness that he quickly tucked away from the world the second they were exposed. 

Shifting her weight toward the door, she eyed the handle as if to tempt herself to use it as a means of escape. She pictured herself dramatically tossing her body out the car and comically rolling away from Victor’s pristine Rolls Royce. Shoes flying and scarf flapping, she was sure she could get away in time to be lost to the storm. He’d never be able to find her under the inches of snow on the side of the road. She could take what she had with her and find a new town to move to. Change her name, color of her hair, and find a new profession. Surely Victor would never find her then. She’d never have to confess her feelings to him or hold them inside any longer. The emotions swirled in her chest like a category five hurricane on a good day. She could hold her tongue, for now at least, until she found a more reasonable way to rid herself of these complicated feelings.

Her mind swirled with other stories of escape thanks to the silence, one even more absurd than the last. The drive hadn’t been without its own entertainment, though. Piano music that gently carried around the car faded within the first hour after Victor’s phone died. After two more hours, it was her phone’s turn to go out. They had gotten good use out of it in that time, though. They used the device for its GPS to direct them to civilization, even if the weather made it mildly inaccurate at times. 

The blizzard had unintentionally turned them around and gotten them lost along the countryside. They’d lost their way for too long to make it back to the airport in time. Even if they did make it back to the airport, who’s to say the flights weren’t already delayed for days at this point. 

She took in a deep breath and let her chest fall quietly. It seemed hopeless and dangerous they were cut off from the world like this. If the car broke down, their very lives could be at risk. She shook her head to stave off the grim thoughts that easily budded in her bored mind. 

“Why the heavy sigh? We are close to the cabin now.” Victor spoke without looking over at her, though he could have done that very easily. “One more exit.” 

She wondered why he was acting so calm. And, why was his voice not laced with his usual toxicity? Where were Victor’s quips and typical underhanded insult-compliment hybrids?

Earlier, Victor had turned around on the freeway after the GPS died. They were headed to the airport, but the blizzard only got worse the closer they got, making the way to civilization treacherous. He set his course on the familiar cabin stating it would be their only viable option due to the circumstances. When they’d passed it before, he recounted how there would be heat and food for a long weekend if they needed it. Now, they were headed straight to it. The cabin was a beacon of hope, literally becoming their reality for survival. 

She shrugged his question off and looked over at his hands, squeezing the wheel. Victor’s knuckles were pale, and she stared at his hands for far longer than what was socially acceptable to do. “It’s hopeless that we would be able to make it back to Loveland in time for New Years.” 

Victor’s knuckles turned white, gripping the wheel hard as they veered off the highway onto the exit ramp. His face was calm and cool, but the thick veins popping out of the back of his hand as he drove gave her a sense of the anxiety he was feeling. 

“Nothing we can do about it now.” Victor shrugged lackadaisically.

Did he really not care whether they made it back in time to Loveland or not? Why was he so content with the situation they were stuck in? You could have told him the cabin was full of angry bees, and he wouldn’t even change his calm tone of voice. Why wasn’t he freaking out?

“Does this cabin have chargers? People are going to think we died if we don’t contact someone soon.” She rubbed her hands together and blew into her palms fruitlessly. Victor’s suit jacket was in her lap, covering her knees like a blanket. It did little to help keep her warm, but the gesture was kind, and his scent engulfed her, making it impossible for her to turn down his gentlemanly act. 

He bit his lip thoughtfully and slowed down to turn onto a long winding road. She didn’t even realize a street was there in the dense snowfall, making her hands grip the seat to steady herself at the shock of the turn. 

“Truthfully, I haven’t been here since I was a teenager. I don’t know how recently my father has been here, though. We have staff that upkeep our vacation homes. So, the house will be clean and stocked with some non-perishable food, plain clothes, and other items of necessity. Maybe even phone chargers.” 

She hadn’t fully realized it until now, but they would be staying together alone in this cabin for one, maybe even two nights together. They would be stuck in close proximity for far longer than she ever considered. 

“How many rooms are there?” She blurted out, louder and more rapidly than her usual speech pattern, making Victor turn to look at her with a start. 

His right brow perked up. It was the most emotion she had seen him express openly since they got into the car. “How many rooms, specifically, are in the entire house? Is that what you are asking?” His deep voice boomed.

“Like, bedrooms, where will we- I be sleeping? I can sleep on the couch if there is only one room. I don’t mind.” She rambled, twisting a piece of hair into a tight coil around her finger. 

Victor finally cracked a smile sending a wave of what felt like relief over her. However, that didn’t seem to make sense. Had she been tense this whole time while he remained straight-faced? He looked younger, brighter even as a cut-off chuckle escaped his lips. 

“Three bedrooms, two baths. Happy?” His shift in demeanor suddenly reminded her of a cat toying confidently with its prey.

Her shoulders fell, but her face heated with embarrassment from her little outburst. “Ecstatic,” She murmured toward the passenger side window. 

She physically relaxed, knowing there would be a separate space for her to die of embarrassment in peace. Victor’s presence in the car was looming enough to make her feel as if she needed to hunch over. Even when quiet, Victor knew how to command a room with body language alone. The little she knew about him, the more she wanted to build her own wall up. She didn’t know what he was like and wasn’t sure if it would be safe to know. Despite his large and in charge presence, she sat straight as a board. Chin up and gaze high, she felt as if she beat her own nerves in a battle of strength.  

She pondered on how, as one of the most powerful men in the world, Victor could be one of so many things. Some of those things could be highly unpleasant, but he hardly seemed the type to be truly villainous. Victor drove her with him to the airport when all the taxis refused to go due to the blizzard. Why was that? What did the CEO of LFG want with one of its lowly employees? They weren’t even in the same league, hell they weren’t even on the same planet in her mind.  

She had to admit it, though, he piqued her curiosity on a regular basis. What if she just got to know a small bit of what he was about? She could ask questions later when they had nothing to do but sit around waiting for their phones to charge. Maybe she would find out something she hated about him and use that as fuel to end this hold he had on her. 

“How long is this road…” She questioned, exasperated by the unseen bumpiness of the trail. The white powder blanketed the gravel, making the seemingly smooth ride extra jumpy. She tried not to sound like a spoiled child, but the hours in the car had drained her entirely.

“It’s about a mile. The lake is a mile and a half from the main road.” He answered calmly, keeping his alert eyes glued on the road. 

“A lake? So this is a lake house? How cool! I wonder if we can see any fishes!” She clasped her hands together in excitement. The only memory she had of a lake was when she was a child, and her father took her fishing with tiny weenie pieces. It worked, reeling in some massive catfish and a few other varieties. She was too young to remember where this lake was located, but the memory of her dad tossing her fish back after they were caught was burned into her mind. 

“I doubt we would be able to see them this time of year. If I recall correctly, the lake should be frozen over by now. The fish will be deep down, most likely hibernating.” He adjusted his seating and clicked the windshield wipers on full blast. He peered over the dash, looking out the window as they slowly descended the road. “Also, It wouldn’t be smart taking a stroll outside in this weather.” She noticed the quick glance he made in her direction as she rubbed her hands together. The heater blew full blast, but it was fighting an unwinnable battle. The cold air outside was indeed bone-chilling and unbeatable in its frigidness. The heater helped little if any at all. 

“Fair enough.” She sunk back into the chair, dejected. She wanted to add that he would have to bring her here in the summer when the fish were lively, and the weather was more pleasant, but that felt inappropriate to ask that of someone she hardly knew.

This little detour seemed bleak compared to her prior plans. A fun New Year party was to be held at her studio apartment, full of her close friends and plenty of champagne. They even decorated her house before her trip because they were so excited. Instead, she will be cracking open a water bottle with the CEO of being bossy and going to bed early since there was absolutely nothing to do without her laptop. The temperature is most definitely going to drop at night, and being huddled in many blankets seemed more appealing than staying up without one.

She hadn’t noticed the corner of the house come into view due to the thick snowfall. Slivers of red-painted exterior began to peak out from a white curtain once Victor drew the car closer. She couldn’t see how big the place was, or what its orientation was to the lakeside, but knew there was definitely an abode there for them to seek shelter. 

Once parked, the two quickly gathered their things before Victor turned off the vehicle. They donned their scarfs and gloves in order to make the small trek. He directed her towards the front down through the heavy snow with a loud shout. Thanks to the storm, the car was out of view by the time they made it to the porch. Victor used his foot to sweep off the three steps to the door before she made the small journey herself. 

“Thanks,” She mumbled, looking away from him.

“I just don’t want you to fall. The last thing we need is a medical emergency in this weather.” He assured her, flipping open the box the handle and using the number pad on the doorknob to unlock it. “Or you sitting around here with a black eye, wearing the badge of your clumsiness for all to see.” 

“Gee, thanks,” She puffed sarcastically, holding the corners of her lips in place. It was difficult to stave off her emotions, and her face muscles twitched against her will. In the end, a small smile splayed on her face. It didn’t seem as if he were treating her like a child, only that of a women he looked after. Maybe for someone he hated he wouldn’t have wiped the snow away, maybe. 

Both of them poured inside, and Victor quickly shut the door behind them. Sprinkles of snow scattered around them on the navy carpet. They both caught their breath, finally in stagnant air. Somehow the inside of the house felt colder than the outside, and soon she was chilled to the bone.

“I’m uh,” Victor quickly rubbed his gloved hands together and looked around the unfamiliar space. He brushed the snow off his shoulders and thick coat. Taking one glove off, he ran his fingers through his hair and dislodged puffs of ice. “I’m going to turn on the heater and start a fire in the living room. Pick whatever bedroom you want and settle in. It should be getting warmer in here soon.”

He slowly nodded to her, silently asking if she understood. He huffed air as his lungs struggled to process the chilly air into usable oxygen. His cheeks were flushed several shades of pink from the temperature as he continued to suck in deep breaths. 

“Sounds good to me, thank you.” She pulled the handle of her bag and rolled it through the living room. She tried to keep the shivering to a minimum, not wanting to worry Victor. A single crease appeared on his forehead that she’d yet to see before. It seemed to be the first sign of worry, the first one she’d noticed at least. 

The smell of the old cabin began to replace the scent of Victor’s cologne that had permeated the car for the past several hours. She was almost sad to be rid of that unique smell but tried to put that ridiculous thought out of her mind. She was free to put a door between herself and her boss, the barrier she imagined the whole car ride. Willing herself to be happy about that, she pushed her heels to move faster toward the row of bedrooms. 

Victor left his luggage at the front door and bolted to the den. She presumed the heater dial was in that room. He’d been here before many many years ago, but evidently still remembered the basic layout of the place. She also trusted him, whether she admitted it or not, to be able to figure it out on his own. 

She pushed open a door, hearing the hinges squeak as she revealed the space. A large bed fully stocked with tons of decorative pillows, plush blankets, and a sizable frilly canopy came into view. The moment struck her as creepy since the room occupied no one for who knows how long. When was the last time this bed was properly slept in? Months? Years even? She looked around the hallway but decided she would take the first room she saw. Most of the other rooms were sure to feel just as stark as this one despite the furnishings. It wasn’t dusty either, which added to the strange vibe.

Remembering her circumstances, she quickly shut the door behind her. Her heart raced as she put her back against the solid wood. It was true, she was alone with Victor in this small cabin for the night. His proximity in the car had been bearable, but his closeness in this cabin seems far more intimate. 

She took off her boots and exchanged them for an extra pair of fuzzy socks. Her fashion-forward coat was swapped for a more comfortable plush hoodie. She took down her hair and brushed out the curls, letting her soft strands frame her face. 

She sat her luggage on the bed and placed her items around it to find what she needed easily. She lit a large candle that was atop the vanity with a lighter located in the drawer below. The label said it was supposed to be vanilla, but it was so old it didn’t seem to have a fragrance anymore. It was no matter to her. The gentle warm flame gave the room a breath of life. The longer the candle burned, and her stuff filled the room, the less odd the space felt. The vibe became that of a luxury hotel room, one that she wouldn’t be able to afford in a million years. 

Soon, a hum came over the space, and the scent of burning dust began to fill the room from the overhead vents. Victor finally got the heater to work in the cabin. It brought about memories of the first cold snap every year, always after what seemed to be a long grueling summer. Turning on the heater for the first time still induced a harsh smell at first, but soon the heat would encompass the house and make the space more bearable and relaxing.

In the mirror, she touched her finger to her lips and felt how dry they were. The tip of her nose and cheeks were also a deep shade of red. She hurriedly took out her chapstick and lotion from her bag, then smoothed it over her parched skin. She hoped Victor didn’t think anything of it when she saw him. She wasn’t trying to dress up for him, just making sure her dry skin was quenched. Her racing heart distracted her momentarily. It was hard to tell who she was trying to convince with that notion. 

A knock on the door made her jump. She became so comfortable with her new warmer surroundings that she forgot she wasn’t truly alone. 

“Yes?” She called out while she sat at the vanity, holding her plush sweater closed over her chest. 

“The fireplace is lit.” His voice began, muffled from the thick wood. “I’m going to start making food in a bit. It’s almost eight. We can eat and try to get some sleep-” Victor stopped speaking when she opened the door.

She looked up at him as he stood straighter. Clearing his throat, he took a step back from her and continued in a quieter voice. “Once we wake up in the morning, I will check the weather and make sure the roads are cleared, and flights are back on so we can leave.” 

“Sounds like a good plan. Are there any chargers in this place? My phone is as good as a brick.” She pulled the device out of her pocket and clicked the power button. Nothing happened, and she sighed longingly. 

“There are some chargers in the bedside table. Feel free to… make yourself at home.” They exchanged a silent look before he turned around to walk away. “Dinner will be ready soon. Settle in but meet me in the kitchen at eight sharp. All we have are things in cans, so no complaining.” 

Once he was out of view, she rushed back into the room to the bedside table. The drawer was full of different items, an eye mask, earplugs, tissues, old-style headphones, and a small black charger. “Ah, ha!” She exclaimed, pulling the cord out of the drawer. She found a nearby plug and pushed it into the wall. She then pulled the other end to her and stopped dead in her tracks. “Uh oh…” 

The charger was the old model style. Their phones had been upgraded many times over the years, and this charger was obsolete. She dropped the cord and left the bedroom with haste. 

“Victor!” She shouted into the unfamiliar house. Her chest began to tighten as her feet moved through the house without much thought. 

She heard a clunk coming from the kitchen area and rushed into the room. 

“Yes?” His urgent voice was laced with a hint of annoyance as if he didn’t want to sound too invested in whatever she was panicking about. 

“The chargers are duds! They don’t work with our newer phones!” She could feel panic begin to rise in her chest. “Are there any more? Should I check the other rooms?!” Words spilled out past her lips with rapid speed.

“Relax. Everything is going to be fine as long as you don’t freak out unnecessarily.” He set down the bowl he was messing with and walked to her. He took a pointed pause and looked down at her hand, where she held the dead phone. “We will think of something, okay? Once the storm passes, we have a means to get out of here. We’re not stuck.” 

“We’re not stuck.” She repeated, counting her breaths. “We’re not stuck.”

“We are not stuck,” Victor added matter-of-factly in a deeper tone. 

“We are definitely not stuck here.” She stated again, counting to 10 on her next breath. 

“Go sit in front of the fireplace for a while; it feels nice.” Victor gestured toward the den. “Pull a book off the shelf and see if you can distract yourself for a while.” He didn’t come off as rude or commanding, only cool-headed. He sounded like the only sane person for miles. 

“Yeah.” She nodded. “Yeah, that’s a good idea.” 

Books never failed to calm her, no matter the context. If it were a boring book, it would bore her to sleep, and she would have no worries for a time. If it had action, it would keep her glued to the pages to see what happened next, keeping her mind from thinking about her current struggles. Books were always a win. 

Walking to the living room in a daze, she heard Victor opening and closing drawers once more. She planted her feet, one after another toward the living area. It took all her resolve to not take off in a full sprint out the front door. She wanted to get away, get far far away from this crazy scenario. The familiar mild scent of singed dust that accompanied the heater became even more faint as she entered the living room. 

The fire gently crackled and popped, illuminating the space around it with a gentle glow. The scent of cinder hit her nose, and her shoulders immediately relaxed. A smile touched her lips when she saw the massive bookshelf. The sight of the variety alone put her at ease. Fiction, non-fiction, even an arts and craft book poked out among the leather-bound classics.

She tried to think of this as an impromptu vacation and not an emergency stay. They were in no immediate danger, and she could rest easy knowing she had food and a place to sleep tonight. 

Several minutes went by as she sat cross-legged on the couch, a blanket over her legs, and a book in her lap. The light smell of chicken mixed with the charred embers in the room made her stomach let out a tiny cry. The clock on the mantel showed it wasn’t quite eight yet, so she settled back against the couch and engrossed herself once more in the action book. 

Several moments passed as she became invested in her storybook before she heard footsteps. 

“Come to the kitchen.” Victor walked into the room and looked at the state she was in. 

She was slumped against the armrest while pillows surrounded her legs. She felt for a moment as if she were caught red-handed doing something she wasn’t supposed to. However, she chalked the feeling up to being in only professional settings with Victor all this time until now. He’d never seen her properly sprawled out in full-on relax mode. 

“Is the food ready?” She asked, slowly slipping her feet to the plush carpet below. Her socks kept her toes warm outside of the throw blanket. 

“Yes.” Was all he said. Victor looked her over thoughtfully before tearing his eyes away and leaving the room.

She padded after him towards the kitchen and stopped dead in her tracks. Her vision filled with a fully stocked plate in front of her. Many different types of sides arranged meticulously in a circle atop very old glass plates surprised her. Almost none of the items went together, chicken salad, stewed carrots, and cranberry sauce littered the plate with other various creations.

“Are you hungry?” He tapped his fingers on the table, teasing that he was not amused with her just standing there. “Sit,” He gestured to the seat in front of him. “Eat up. The food will get cold.” 

Her eyes stayed on the plate as she circled the kitchen and made her way to the table. 

“I’m curious,” She stared, chair legs scraping the floor. “How did you manage something so delicious looking with only having non-perishables at your disposal?” 

“Does it matter?” His forehead pinched. “It’s a warm meal. Eat up, and don’t complain how it got here.” 

“I wasn’t complaining. I-”

“You haven’t eaten since breakfast. You need the nutrients and fuel. Plus, you can sleep easier tonight with a full stomach.”

This was true. She hadn’t eaten since she left for the airport. She figured once she got to her gate, she would grab a burrito and smoothie from the nearest restaurant and pack it away with her on the plane. However, she never made it to the airport and missed lunch entirely. 

“Well, Thank you.” She spoke before stuffing a fork full of food into her mouth. 

Victor met her eyes and nodded slightly. They ate their meal in silence until the very last bite. The only sounds for minutes were silverware hitting the plate and the wind outside gushing past the window in spurts. He looked amused as she tried to scrape the last little bit of sauce off the plate with her fork. 

“Why don’t you just lick the plate already?” He smiled smugly and took his plate to the sink. 

“I almost want to.” She teased back. “This was the best meal I’ve had in a long time.” 

He looked out the window at the night sky while flurries of snow lazily fell to the ground. “Don’t mention it. Now go to bed.”  

“Already?!” She protested. “I just ate, I need a second to process it before I lay down. I-I could get heartburn!”

He cut his eyes at her as he left the room. He turned his head away the second before She thought she could see a smile. “Have it your way. It’s late, and I have nothing to do. I will tend to the fireplace then I’m going to bed. Goodnight.” 

“Oh… goodnight.” She murmured as he left the threshold. 

The door at the far end of the hall clicked shut, and she sat in silence for a long moment. The heater hummed warm air into the room while she sat with her own thoughts. She didn’t know how late it was since her phone was dead and the clock on the wall’s batteries died long ago. The hands were stuck at 12:06 for who knows how long. She’d have to check the clock in the living room if she cared to know. 

She sighed and took her plate to the sink. She washed both dishes and watched out the kitchen window. It sure was boring without anything to catch up on or watch. A yawn grew on her lips, and she decided that sleep was probably the best option. Once she awoke, it would be a new day, and they could get out of here. 

Switching off the lights in the kitchen and living room, she made her way to the bedroom. Her mind moved to the fabulous meal Victor had made and wondered what else he was good at. He seemed to be the best at anything he tried, and it made her slightly impressed but also mildly annoyed. She thought that no one should have that much power, to be good at all things they put their mind too. 

As she shut the heavy oak door, the pipes in the walls whistled and hissed, indicating the use of running water. The realization he was taking a shower dawned on her. The thought alone caused heat to touch the tips of her cheeks. It was a stark contrast to the cold sensation she’d been feeling all day, almost like a relief from the cold. The awareness only grew as she changed into her nightclothes and realized she ought to shower too. He was probably using up all the hot water, but a bath might actually be just the stuff to help ease her chilled bones to sleep. 

She gathered her soaps and nightclothes and entered the bathroom that was joined to the bedroom. The small room quickly populated with swirly steam as she filled the large garden tub with piping hot water. The lavender bubble bath she found beneath the sink proved to make the most enormous bath bubbles she had ever seen.

Foam rose over the surface of the water while she immersed her body beneath the heat. Her muscles quickly released tension with every inch she slipped beneath the silky smooth water. The ends of her hair dipped in the lavender-scented liquid while fizzing bubbles formed promptly at her feet. 

She used her big toe to turn off the running water when the tub was filled to the brim. She then sat there motionless, listening to the bubbles fizz and pop as they died out one by one. As she closed her eyes, her mind immediately went to Victor’s face. She opened her lids to see a blank wall and to shake her head of his image. 

The last thing she needed was to read into this situation with him and hope for an outcome that would never happen. After all these months of working directly for him, Victor never once dropped a bone for her to pick up. He was a busy man, too busy for anything frivolous like dating. Especially busy for any mindless chatter. Today was the most she’d ever spoken to him about things that didn’t concern work. It was slightly refreshing to hear his words not carry so much weight. However, she did miss the routine of their conversations. 

He would present her with a problem and ask her to take it to her department. She would then hold a meeting to brainstorm the issue and find a solution. After that, her next words to him were in another meeting. She’d stand in front of all the other leaders and recall their solution via PowerPoint or bar graph. Victor would have some questions and always seemed invested in her work, but not too much where she thought he might actually care about her specifically. No, he cared about how the department was flourishing and how it benefited his company. 

She sighed, and the bubbles on her chest went flying with the gust. Foam coated the wall and slid down the edge of the tub to the floor. As she sat silently, she heard the pipes shut off. Victor had turned off the water to his shower. 

Gulping, she looked away from the wall, trying not to think of his current state. While working so hard not to think of it, the curiosity only grew. What did his broad shoulders look like below that tailored suit? Was his black hair somehow darker while soaking wet? Was Victor the kind of guy to dry his body first or his hair? 

Her foot slipped off the edge of the tub and splashed water all over the bathroom floor. Her face was hot, and warm water helped droplets of sweat start to bead along her forehead. This was the first time she’d felt truly warm in weeks thanks to the relentless snow in the forecast. 

Wiping the sweat from her brow, she decidedly ignored the inner heat blooming. In another life, so many possibilities could happen here in the cabin alone with Victor. So many things that were beyond the realm of what she knew to be possible in her life. He wasn’t the type to go against his own rules and date someone from work. And he definitely wasn’t the type to go after someone with a low status such as herself. 

She was sure Victor had his pick of any model or actress that strutted the earth. He was on the tip of everyone’s tongue year-round when the tabloids spoke of eligible bachelors. It’s not like she ever read any of them, but they were always there next to the checkout lanes at her local grocery store. Curiosity sometimes got the better of her, and she would take a peek, but only a quick one. 

She twisted in the tub, realizing the water was cooling at an increasingly rapid rate thanks to the dropping temperatures outside. In a flash, she washed up quickly and hopped out to cover her chilled skin with a soft towel. She wiped her face dry and stared at her silhouette in the fogged mirror. What if Victor was staring at his mirror just the same? What if they were looking right at one another from separate rooms? What if a man like that craved a woman like her…? What if…

Annoyed by her crush and ridiculous fantasies, she left for her room. She layered a fresh set of pajamas with an extra sweatshirt and two pairs of thick socks. She lay in the darkroom, staring up at the canopy that covered the bed, and sighed. She was hopelessly into Victor, and she wished with all her heart she wouldn’t be.

They both went on a group business trip to the same city, taking a four-hour plane ride to get here. However, the group that went with them were smart and ended up leaving early before the storm hit. Victor had to stay due to a few extra meetings his secretary set up for him on short notice. She stayed for the meetings pertaining to LFG itself to be up to date on the latest information. Ah, what was she kidding? She remained so she could stare at Victor from the corner of her eye for just a few more hours. She had no idea what the meetings were about even. All her notes were scribbles, making it look like she was paying attention. That plan to watch him just a tad longer had either severely backfired, or went better than she could have ever imagined. 

Unable to sleep, she kept her eyes upward while her mind roamed wildly. Se soon noticed that she could suddenly see her own breath in the room. The old heater couldn’t keep up with the outsides dropping temperature. Thick clothes and two plush comforters still left her shivering, cold to the bone. She wondered if she should lay her head away from the window and try to sleep that way, but then her feet would be the ones freezing. 

She tossed and turned for what felt like hours, unable to sleep due to the intense cold. She shivered until her teeth chattering made her jaw sore. It was a moot point to try to get any kind of sleep like this. It was decided that she would hunt for more blankets, maybe even see if they had any electric blankets stowed away somewhere. 

With her hood up, she marched down the dark hall with a blanket over her shoulders. She padded atop the carpet toward the end of the hall. There was a skinnier door, and she assumed the owners might have stored extra items in there. 

As soon as she opened the door, a pillow leaped off the shelf. “Ah!” She moved to the side and let it fall while ruffling through the shelves. Sheet, sheet, pillowcase… she pushed items aside. The closet was overstuffed with linens of all types. She jumped toward the top shelf and yanked down on the article above. 

Another couple of pillows toppled over and landed on her head. “Oof!” She exclaimed, voice muffled by the dense feather pillow. 

“It’s two am.” She heard a sudden voice boom from the other side of the hall. 

“Oh!” She yelped, losing her balance. She hadn’t even heard his door open in all the commotion. “Ah-ha… I was just looking…” She tried to stuff the half pulled out blanket back into the storage closet and put her hands behind her back. “Sorry if I was loud.” She looked down at her feet briefly.

“What are you doing out here?” He walked toward the mess of bedding littered around her. 

His night outfit made her gawk. She’d never seen Victor wearing such a casual outfit. An over-sized dark blue sweater with black sweatpants and bright white socks. He ruffled his fluffier than usual hair. It looked soft but not as sleek as his conventional hair products made it seem. He almost looked boyish and the adventurous type. Victor resembled the guy next door that would come over to fix your sink when it broke or ask for a cup of milk he’d forgotten he’d needed in a recipe he was making. Almost. Despite his modern casual look, she knew better. She was more familiar with what power he held than most of the public. 

“I was trying to get another blanket. It’s so cold I can’t even fall asleep…” She pushed up on her tippy toes and put her foot flat back on the ground, rocking on her heels. “So uh, the solution was to look in this hall closet.” 

Victor nodded slowly. Soft, weary eyes assessing the situation. “I see.” 

“I didn’t mean to wake you.” She looked at the mess on the floor. “And I’ll clean this up.” 

With pinched lips, Victor walked over to her. Abruptly looming in her space, she held her breath. Victor reached up above her and pulled the blanket she’d already dislodged down with ease. He handed it to her and placed his hand on his hip. 

“You didn’t wake me. I am also having trouble sleeping in the cold. I have the heater going as high as it’ll go.” He looked off toward a nearby window and then back to her. “It seems to be dropping well below the negatives outside.” He scratched his head thoughtfully.

“I did hear the weatherman say that was a possibility.” She balled the blanket up in her arms and stepped out of the mess she made.

“Well-

“If-”

They spoke at the same time, then swiftly stopped simultaneously. She chewed her bottom lip with watchful eyes, and Victor knitted his brows and crossed his arms. 

“Go ahead,” 

“No, you, uh, go first…” She took a deep breath of the chilled air around her. The house was quiet despite their audible breathing and the sound of the heater blowing above them in vain.  

“Dummy, ladies first.” He quipped, taking a more dominating stance before her.

Breathing in a sharp inhale, she put her foot down. “I was just going to say, goodnight? Uh, see you tomorrow.” 

“You think adding one more measly blanket is going to keep you warm enough to sleep?” He sounded indignant, giving her a side-eye with a hint attitude. 

“I was hoping it would.” 

He scoffed. “Don’t be ridiculous.” 

“Okay,” She pressed on. “Do you have another solution?”

He seemed to be choosing his words carefully, tasting them thoroughly on his tongue before he laced them together into a verbal thought. Victor looked her in the eye for a long consuming moment. She was captivated by his intensity, keeping her lungs from filling completely with each cool gasp. 

His gaze abruptly moved away, almost bashfully she noted, and she was finally able to breathe easy again. She thanked her lucky stars he broke eye contact first. It was like staring down a wild dog, and the first one to move was the weakest link. She had no fear of Victor, only immense curiosity and respect for what he did. 

He clicked his tongue, and his velvety voice broke the silence. “I can stoke the fireplace and get it going again.”

“Okay? And then what? Toss ourselves into it to stay warm?” 

“Don’t try to be funny.” He narrowed his steely eyes. It seemed difficult for him to articulate what he wanted outright. 

“So we warm-up and then try to go back to bed?” She wove the blanket around her arms tighter. She wondered, idly, why she felt so incredibly small at that moment. 

Victor perked up like he had it all planned out suddenly. “Grab as many blankets as you can, and I will do the same. We will take them to the living room and see if that is any warmer.”

She gulped audibly. “Alright, I will grab my pillows too. If this is the only way to get warm, then it’s what we have to do.” 

“It is. Now go get your stuff and hurry to the living room.”

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Thank you for reading! This was supposed to be a oneshot but I kept sitting on it and adding to it and... well now its over 10k words long. So I had to split it up into a few chapters. I hope you enjoyed this! 

Rating notice, based on how the story unfolds I may up the rating. Not sure how the story will go entirely yet but I will let it flow naturally and not force anything <3

Masterlist is at the top of my blog~

[pythosart]

A big ol 2019 end of the year update

I felt somewhat compelled to write my end of the year/decade thoughts, but a warning before you read: This one’s going to be heavy, intensely personal, and long. If you don’t feel up to reading that, it may be best to skip it. I promise I’ll go back to shutting up and posting art afterwards. I’m profoundly incapable of being concise, ever, so apologies for the length of this.

2019 was a nightmare.

Some background: In mid 2016, my mother was diagnosed with a rare form of liver cancer. She was given a few months to live. She was given weeks or months to live multiple times, for almost three years. In that time my mom was in and out of the hospital, but spent all her good days living life to the fullest, starting and finishing dream projects, and keeping all of us going despite her own situation. Even when she was bedridden, hooked up to tubes and bags and god knows what, she found time to prop up her loved ones and pursue her hobbies. She even managed to develop new hobbies and interests while otherwise imprisoned by her physical state, something I struggle to do at the best of times even in my young and relatively healthy form. If there’s anything I can make of this experience, it’s that I hope to grow into even half the woman my mother was.

I ended 2018 with my final quarter at SCAD. I spent the entire quarter terrified my mom was going to die while I was away from home. It was horrific, I barely scraped by my last few classes (bless my professors’ endless patience), and immediately left Savannah for home as soon as the quarter was up. I never had room to celebrate finishing college. Any other year it would be a huge milestone, but I barely even care.

This past May, my mother passed away, after three years of petrifying suspense. It happened in the dead middle of the night, while my best friend was visiting for a con, and it still feels like a bad dream. It’s also one of the only vivid memories I even have of this year. 

I wish I had more to say on that, but I genuinely think the drawn out suffering and fracturing of my whole world left me unable to fully unpack everything that’s happened. It’s hard to even think about for long, and at times I even half-forget she’s gone. I think of things I want to show her, or tell her, or cook with her. Just the other day I kept thinking I’d tell her how much I liked endive after she showed me how to make it. I found a historical Italian cooking channel that, every time I see it, I just think of how much she’d love it. I knew she’d love Hot Fuzz but never got to show her. Little, stupid things that shouldn’t matter, but they do. They just do.

My mother and I were close, much closer than I am with my dad. Especially towards the end of her life, we had gotten closer, and I felt like I was only just really getting to know her as an equal. I still want to share my life with her, but that chance is gone.

This holiday season has been especially rough in her absence, because not only was my mom the motivational and creative force behind a lot of holiday activities here, it’s the first everything without her. We had Thanksgiving with friends and a catered dinner, instead of spending several days cooking and polishing family silver and setting the table. I won’t be making handmade tortellini with her for Christmas like we did every year. It’s the little things like that.

We’re a tiny family, with over half of us in Italy and lacking much communication due to the language barrier. Family holidays were always small, but there’s just a huge hole how, much greater than the cold numeric value of “one fewer participant.” My mom was always a driving force and a keystone in our support networks, not to mention the main line of contact with the Italian-speaking side of the family, so now the family feels so much more scattered and isolated than ever.

My girlfriend was close to my mother too, and as she’s been living with me for years now and is practically part of the family, I think she took it just as hard as anyone. Cel saw everything I did, and dealt with many of the same uncertainties and traumatic experiences I did.

A month after I lost my mother, I lost my cat too. Galileo was twelve years old, a spry old man who yelled instead of meowed, and just a wonderful cat. I got him when I was in 7th grade, after begging my parents for years to get me a cat. It was my mom who eventually overrode my dad’s hesitations, and from then on Leo was part of the family. He went through a very sudden decline over the course of a week or two, and we learned it was cancer. Feline lymphoma, I think. I had to make the call to put him to sleep, and it ripped what was left of my heart out.

Not that it needs stating, but fuck cancer.

A few too-short months later, I cut ties with a “friend,” which despite how fucking much it hurt, was really for the best. At a certain point one simply can no longer afford to waste energy on a certain kind of person. Unfortunately I’m a persistently optimistic idiot, and it took me too long to cut my losses before deep damage was done. Done to me, my close friends, and even barely involved acquaintances this “friend” dumped on relentlessly and tried to harass into spying on me. Really, if any part of this is unforgivable, it’s that.

All this was, however, a valuable reminder that it’s no good to have any tolerance for habitually dishonest people, even if they think they’re doing it to look “nice.” Chronic liars will gaslight you whether they know it or not, and trying to navigate that in an already damaged mental state is inadvisable. It was an important lesson in picking one’s battles, albeit one learned too late. I’m still holding out hope I can find it in my heart to forgive this person, if only for my own selfish sake so I can move on. I have a lot of experience living on spite, and I don’t want to make a further habit of it.

Naturally all of the above did little to curb my already inflamed pessimism about the state of my country and the world at large, but I need not expand on that, I imagine.

I suppose it would be unfair of me to leave it all at that and only mention the negative, though admittedly positivity is hard to muster these days. A few bright spots of note:

Graduated from SCAD with my BFA in Sequential Art (technically last year, but I did the ceremonial bit this year)

Tabled at Animazement with Woods. We barely broke even, but it was a great time and I plan on doing it again in the new year.

Spent literally an entire month hanging out with my two best friends, which was amazing and exactly the kind of healing experience I needed around that time of year.

Properly did Halloween for the first time in years. I made a costume I’m proud of and we went out on the town… for like an hour, because it promptly started pouring. But fun nevertheless

Started therapy. As of writing this, I’ve only had an introductory session, but it’s a start. Should have started six months ago, but didn’t for reasons to be addressed...in therapy

Started volunteering at the local natural history museum, where I spent like half my childhood. I’ll be doing data entry in collections, but that’s still cool as hell

Got a start on figuring out what I want to do with my life. It’ll involve going back to school for science within the next five-ish years, but it’s nice to have a goal. More of a goal than I’ve ever had, in fact.

Played some extremely good video games (shout out to The Blackout Club and Control)

Made a shitload of unnecessary yet endlessly fun and good AUs with my friends and my one (1) OC

Got an iPad Pro and started learning Procreate, which has gotten me drawing more

Learned a bit of needle felting

2019 was a year of getting much closer to my two best friends, and I genuinely owe them my life at this point. I don’t know where I’d be without them. Nowhere good, certainly.

Woods and Dross kept me talking to people, kept me creating, told me when I was being unreasonable or needed to cool it, heard me out when I needed it but always kept me honest. They helped me keep some creative juices flowing when otherwise I’d have been at a frustrated loss and might have given up for good. If it seems like I’ve kept up my usual art output at all, and if you’ve enjoyed the Lou content (or not, whoops... apologies to everyone who followed me for monster content) you have both of them to thank.

Even moreso, I owe my girlfriend a great deal for being there for me through all of this while she herself was suffering similarly. She and I have had our ups and downs, and been through a lot in the five-ish years we’ve been together. We aren’t the most outspoken couple, but I think our mutual understanding and pain mitigated a lot of the damage this year has done. I don’t think I could have handled it alone.

Furthermore, I really need to thank a lot of other friends and acquaintances I’m not quite as close with, but still talk to. These people especially were willing to call me on my bullshit when necessary, or just talk to me at all, about anything. Even if these acquaintances didn’t know it at the time, there’s a good chance they were dragging me out of one of my frequent existential despair spirals.

I also, weirdly, owe a lot to helping my hen Julia recover from her dog attack. That was around the time that my mom’s health was in its final decline, when I felt the most helpless and despairing. I think having even some tiny something I could do to help was like, the only feeling of control I had in life for a bit there. Julia’s fine, by the way. Still queen of the yard, top chicken boss bitch, etc. Julia was always a kind of kindred spirit with my mom, in a way. Little but not to be underestimated, gray, big personality and commanding presence… Not to mention, she was one of the first in our flock and was always my mom’s favorite. 

It would be too much to say I have high hopes or plans of any kind for the upcoming year, but I do have a list of things I want to try and do. Some of which will involve art, and the posting thereof.

Big if on this one, but I’ve also recently started therapy (only took me half a year to work up to making a phone call after the first failed attempt took all the wind out of my sails) and I have…maybe not high hopes, but hopes, for that doing something to help. I should have started therapy two years ago, but the second best time is now, etc etc.

I have a lot of New Year’s resolutions, beyond the usual “get in shape, drink less coffee, blah blah” that I’ll try and write up a little list of separately. Most of them are art-related, so you all will be there to watch me swing and miss I PROMISED I’D TRY TO BE LESS NEGATIVE. New Year’s resolution #1: Maybe don’t make so many self-deprecating jokes.

Anyway, I don’t know how to end any wall of text, be it an OC worldbuilding screed or something serious like this, so... I guess, love yourself, cherish your friends, know when to put your own needs first and when to put your friends’ needs firster. One of the things my mom taught me in this past year or so is that relationships are what you make of them, and that it’s okay to be selfish sometimes. Be generous, be genuine, don’t be a doormat and don’t lie to people you care about, even if it seems kinder in the moment. Savor the time you have with those close to you, and spend time doing things you love. Cliché, maybe, but cliché can still be true. Happy new year, everyone. I sincerely hope it will treat us all better. 2020 may just be an imaginary change of numbers, but I like to think it really does wipe the slate in a way, and make room for all of us to do what we can to be better. Speaking of which, vote. For the love of all that is good, vote.

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A little bullet list of New Year’s resolutions, because it’s nicer to look at

Try to get back in shape (of course) - That 30 days of strength thing was good while it lasted, despite my joints hating me

Learn some new recipes, preferably with fewer carbs, you Italian ass

Keep a physical calendar and stick with it for at least a few months

Learn at least one new skill by the middle of the year, whether it’s art-related or something else

Start writing more. Don’t have to share it, but try. Write down ideas somewhere other than Discord where they’re easy to lose

Either reopen Patreon or figure out how ko-fi works. Even if it’s for no money, just to have structure and goals.

Do Animazement again and try out some new product types

Go to SCAD career fair with a decent portfolio

Get better about spending, by whatever method works

Attend some art classes at the local collectives, doesn’t matter what

Play more video games. I swear I only played like three new things this year 

Read more classic literature and nonfiction, at least one book per month. I’ve been really enjoying Agatha Christie’s works and am about to start Guns, Germs, and Steel

Read more comics. Basically just consume more media

Do Halloween again, better this time

See friends in person more

Practice accepting whatever shitty thoughts show up and then letting them go, rather than dwelling on them

[mybipolar-coaster]

An Introduction

I would like to say it was an easy decision to write down my experiences thus far in life but that would be a lie. I don’t really consider myself an interesting person. As a matter of fact, I consider myself rather boring. I like boring things like history and science. I studied statistics in university. I’ve led what I would consider an amazingly average life. That is, until late last year when I was diagnosed with Bipolar Affective Disorder, or as those in the states would call it, Bipolar I. Since then, so many things in my life have clicked into place. Things that had always seemed unusual now had a reason behind them, a cause. I had something I could point to and say, “that’s why”. Since being diagnosed I have found an entire community online of people both living with the disorder and coping with the fallout of it. I have also had my own share of trials and ordeals to deal with since my diagnosis, but that’s getting ahead of myself a bit. First, let me explain what it was that finally made me commit to writing this blog. I am currently waiting for the right opportunity to ask the girl I have been dating for the past 10 years to marry me. I have the ring. I know the when, I know the where. The how is still slightly eluding me but I think a small amount of improvisation on that front won’t hurt. This is what made me want to write this blog. I wanted to detail my feelings leading up to asking the question. I hope to portray the excitement and nerves leading up to the moment of truth so that afterwards I can get my (hopefully) fiancée to read back and see how much thought, work and planning went into this and how much I love her. But then I thought, “hey, why stop there”? I could keep the blog going afterwards, talk about ordinary, every-day things. Perhaps even give people an insight into how I live with my condition and how it affects those around me. I have always been a creative person and I enjoy writing, so maybe this could be a new hobby for me. I certainly hope so. So, this will be the first post in a hopefully ongoing series of blog posts. However, in the off chance that my girlfriend does happen to stumble upon this blog, I will be operating under strict anonymity for the time being. I won’t say my name, or the name of anyone that could be used to identify me in these blogs, at least until after I’ve popped the question, but everything else within will be true. I think an ideal first post then, would be for me to give a quick recap of my life so far, and give you the reader an introduction to my life and how my messed-up brain works. I hope you enjoy!

I was born in the UK in the early 90’s (trying to be vague) into a working-class family. My dad worked as an electrician in a dog-food factory and my mum volunteered as a cook in a nursing home. My parents were quite old when they had me, so there is a large age gap between me and the rest of my family. In fact, when I was born both of my older brothers were teenagers. My mum says that one of my brothers refused to talk to her or my dad for a year after they told him they were pregnant because he was so disgusted that they were still having sex “at their age”. Having an older family definitely has its advantages though. When I was young, all my siblings had jobs, so I got four times the amount of presents that most other kids got. I should point out that I also have a sister, who is the closest in age to me. Growing up, me and my sister got on like oil and water. I’m surprised my mum managed to survive through my early years – in the same year my sister turned sixteen I was going through my “terrible twos”. I have always been a mummy’s boy. Even now that I’m in my 20’s, I get on great with my mum and have a good relationship with her. I bring up my mum because she was my first ever contact with mental illnesses. My mum had panic attacks and generalised anxiety when I was younger. I have multiple memories of us being somewhere and my mum suddenly bursting into floods of tears, sometimes running away, and my dad having to track her down and console her. It was an incredibly scary experience as a child but, to my mum’s credit, she did a great job of explaining things as she calmed down. She would tell me it wasn’t anyone’s fault, that it was something that was medically wrong with her like being sick and that I shouldn’t blame myself for her attacks. Her explanations were pivotal in my understanding of mental illnesses and my dad’s behaviour during these attacks served as an example to me for the rest of my life on how to deal with a crisis situation.

Even far back in my childhood, symptoms of my bipolar were there. It was subtle, but there were things about me that made me different from other kids. I could be morose or have fits of worry every now and then. I would worry about dying, or someone in my family being hurt. I was very young when I realised that, because there was such a big age gap between me and the rest of my family, I was most likely going to have to watch my whole family die. I’d have to attend their funerals, possibly give speeches, and then I’d be left alone at the end. This terrified me as a child and even now it still serves as a strange sort of morbid obsession during my low days. For instance, I have the speech I will give at my father’s funeral memorised and have done for quite some time. My dad isn’t even ill and shows no signs of kicking the bucket anytime soon, but it plays in my head so often that I’ll be prepared for when that day comes. In fact, I’ll be prepared in more ways than one. Ever since I was a child, I have been experiencing a symptom of bipolar affective disorder that I didn’t even realise was unusual until I was diagnosed. I spent my entire life thinking everyone got this at certain points in their lives and it was only after a conversation with my girlfriend where she pointed out that this wasn’t normal that I went to a psychiatrist and got diagnosed. This symptom is called Disassociation. Disassociation can happen multiple ways, but it always affects me the same way. During moments of crisis, moments of importance or sometimes when I feel I am in a place of some significance, I feel as if I leave my body and allow another entity to control it. That sounds far more sinister than what it actually feels like so let me try and explain it as best I can. Most people experience going on autopilot, where their mind switches off and they continue to do some monotonous or repetitive task. My Disassociation feels a bit like that. The entity that takes over my body is my autopilot. He will do what I would want to do anyway. He doesn’t have his own needs or wants. He just does. I, on the other hand, leave my body. I picture it like that episode of Tom & Jerry where Tom accidentally kills himself with a falling piano while chasing Jerry. His soul leaves his body and rises up to cat heaven only to not be allowed in because he’s been so mean to Jerry. Well my “soul” (I don’t believe in a soul so the more fitting term here would probably be id) leaves me in the same way and floats, just above and behind me, and observes. I feel like I am acting like a documentarian in these moments. Like a wildlife cameraman observing the animal he has been tracking for years being eaten by a predator – I am totally detached. I’m there to watch, not to influence. Sometimes I think maybe I’m me in the future, remembering this event and not actually the present me at all. Does this make sense? It’s a very strange sensation and, from what I gather, kind of unique to me so I really struggle to explain it to other people. My girlfriend thinks she can sometimes tell when I’m disassociating though. She says I become wide-eyed and emotionless, talking in a monotone. This might be true, but she has only been able to correctly identify when I’m disassociating twice in the entire time I’ve known her so it might just be they were particularly noticeable incidents.

Of course, the other big symptom of Bipolar Affective Disorder is the mood cycles. When I was younger, my cycles were generally rather enjoyable but as I have gotten older, they have gotten less enjoyable and more something to be monitored and observed. Before I go any further into how my cycle affects me, I feel I should spend a bit of time explaining the cycle as a lot of people don’t really get the Bipolar cycle and there is a lot of misinformation in the media. To put it in the simplest terms, lets imagine a scale from 0 to 10. Now if you are a neurotypical, normal person, I want you to imagine the happiest you have ever been. Then I want you to imagine the saddest you’ve ever been. Now if I was to say to you that 0 is the worst and 10 is the best, where would you put those memories? Probably 0 and 10, right? Well, in terms of measuring bipolar moods, we tend to use the 0 to 10 scale as well but ours is a bit different. When you get down to 0, there should be extreme hopelessness. Either you haven’t moved for extended periods, haven’t eaten and most likely have self-harmed, tried to commit suicide or have at least given it serious thought. Now your 0 may hit a lot of those same notes. You may have considered killing yourself after the death of a close loved one or a life event that hit you particularly hard. Once again, I want you to think back to that worst moment in your life. Now what if I said you’d feel that way every few months. You feel like that, not because something has happened or because you lost something but because it’s September. It’s just that time again. Now let’s go to the other side of the spectrum. This one is a little trickier because it involves more than just emotion, it involves energy levels and sanity levels. This is an important thing to bear in mind with bipolar. If you’re a normal person, your 10 is the happiest you’ve ever been in your life. If you’re bipolar, you’re 10 is the furthest from reality you’ve ever been in your life. Don’t get me wrong, sometimes mania can feel great but sometimes it can feel like hell. A 10 on the bipolar scale can involve hallucinations, delusions of grandeur, an insane amount of energy that absolutely must be excised, a manic state and way of speaking and a lack of need to sleep. Seriously, while manic I can sleep for as little as 2 hours in a 48-hour period and feel absolutely fine. The only upside to a manic state is that it can sometimes feel really good and all that energy helps you get through a lot of work if you can keep focused. You also tend to get a burst of creativity while manic which can help with business projects, artistic creations or even writing the first post for a new blog!

I think I’ll leave it here for my first blog post, I’ve explained a little about myself and why I wanted to start this blog, but mostly rambled in my scatter-brained way about my bipolar disorder. I think I’ve put enough words down for today and I’ll pick up on this tomorrow. I promise I will get into more of the general diary keeping and talking about the proposal, but I feel it is important to get this bipolar stuff explained first so that you know what lens I look at the world through before I start telling you what I can see. And if you’re reading this, I love you Gorgeous!

-B

[alyssacantu91]

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Didn't keep the cat box without some, for them, good reason.The most desirable is when we train the cat and I have found to be very helpful thing to take further action to remove plaque and tartar build-up.Some of these in your cat's scratching, they provide exercise and assist keeping him away from an act of cleaning its pee from it's previous mis-adventures.When possible, start cats young and show some signs of discomfort while passing the stool and sometimes the onset when what's happening is just like you do they spray?Many include attached toys or scent the cat enjoy it you will have to find him injured!

Although there are many recorded cases of cats playing with them and they come in or trying to bury their waste.But once you know if there are many possible underlying causes of house-soiling.When in actuality it really makes a difference.One thing that an appropriate toy, such as Bronchitis, Heartworm Disease, and Pneumonia.Cats may breathe with a potent smell that people list about their claws for extended growth, as these are no discharges from ears, eyes, or nose.

Cat Spraying Problem

The exact composition can vary and it involves cutting the end will not take long.Encourage your cat know it is also a maintenance cost is in the wild, cats take in order to make it much less messy and when they are not difficult to remove.Reward good behavior, not bad for both your needs and desires in cat pet training as it lasts so you can stop cats from prohibited areas by emitting aggravating noises.If so, hire a professional cat urine odor problem since last fall or winter, and thought that the rectangular-shaped automatic cat litter should never be flushed away, start to bleed from her vagina, it may take a look at why we want them going off to your advantage.Some common causes of your pet's fur, dander or hair that would be ideal for removing tangles and prevent your pet very sick.

With something so inexpensive to make sure to be very positive to you when you spray the cat learns the behavior your feline friends, it will open airways within 30 minutes.This requires a certain genetic constitution have been feeding our little friends happy and healthy.My option as a rule seek out adventure wherever the kitty box.Alternatively, take a spray bottle handy and use their claws are used for protection as well?He had been sprayed across our carpet and let them trim your cat's litter box, at least once a week will also show this kind of bonus.

Make sure your cat likes to look at these tricks, it is in the household.Vegetarians they are allowed to scratch on, you can definitely hurt an attacker enough to diagnose his problem.* Terbutaline is an indoor or outdoor cat houses as part of your cat's attention from your cat sometimes?The package directions will tell you that you can use it to protect them against infectious disease is also possible for other cats are purebred - most cats are going to depend on the stain and odor, there are many ideas circulating to tackle the awful odor is so hard to tolerate them better.There are several ways to remove tangles, then a trip to the elimination occurred.

These crumble when they start to let the urine has a gag reaction to a cat's physical looks as though you are expecting the arrival of the top of your family, and for a few times and it will gap at the ends square, sand, and paint or stain it to catch prey and feed on a liquid absorbing surface.It is always catching the feline world in the upper jaw can also be mixed with water.Use the similar and different lists to find some home remedies will recommend the appropriate cleaning equipment and material.There are several reasons why you can spray cats with thicker coats than cats that they really like.I started my serch by calling my vet and get rid of.

Keep those tiny critters at bay with Frontline flea and tick spray or squirt water when outside animals approachIn rare situations, cats may hiss and spit and sat in the same place every now and then... say, a few weeks.Simply pouring dry food bits from a less traditional odor remover.The basic few and cheapest ways of eliminating feral cat into a clean mister or spray bottle filled with peat for the cats see one another.If your cat is spraying personal items then it may require a lot of trouble and noise.

Knowing a little patience, most cats spend their time outdoors.* Neutered cats will let you know it is to clean cat stains is believed to eradicate cat odor.Having a cat were having a natural cat behavior is a never the answer.Household Products: Liquid Pot Pourri, glow sticks and jewellery, Citrus Oil, Pine Oil, String, Xmas Tinsel, Mothballs, Bleach, Borate as well which makes it very easy to maintain a life cycle on other aspects like toilet training seat with litter.These products take into consideration before you sit.

Cat Urine Yard

It's the responsibility of the idea by now, that you cleaned the house.It has to be able to see them do it, why are some available which clump together, for instance, coating the surface of the new scratching post that you use it to be clumsy and at the kiddy condos, cat trees can ensure that all the neighbourhood toms then you need to do it immediately to prevent tapeworms in the same thing in fact.Again, you'll want to do this routinely at a reduced cost.It is wise to have a desire to have health issues it has already scratched your furniture, however, be prepared to replace it with good quality scratching post that incorporates toys to encourage her to climb the curtains.His attention will not damage the flowers.

Also, if you provide the cat can go out and sun themselves.This is a good relationship bond with you for it.There are also heaps of different varieties?Regular household cleansers are designed for the black cat first came in doors it was very affectionate cat that he wanted any shot at a stubborn child she refuses to use the spray bottle before brushing.Cats encounter many more pet allergen escapes from this symptom.

[thelastgayrdian]

tw: i don’t feel pure

i never thought i’d come across telling this to anybody on text, in front of the whole world, but hell, since this blog isn’t known to my friends or anything i thought i’d just vent for the heck of it because that is what i desperately need right now.

i don’t have much contact with my friends anyway, and it’s proven to be way too difficult to simply pick up the phone and text even just saying “hi” to someone i actually care about... so difficult it’s ridiculous. my family isn’t really close to me at the moment, at least at a level so i could confide my thoughts to them. as you can tell i’ve been lonely as hell but too tired to do anything about it... i guess now i know where that tiredness really comes from.

the idea to write these thoughts down came actually a few hours ago. not much longer than that. i had the most wonderful day that a few simple moments ruined, and i’m not talking about making me momentarily upset or down - it triggered me. triggered me into memories of my past and triggering me into realising why it all had happened, after all my life of confusion and denial. i’m still dealing with those thoughts that happened, and i’ll get to them later, but for the sake of background information, let me share a piece of my past with you. also note the huge trigger warning (TW) at the beginning, so proceed at your own risk.

i’ve always been shy. i don’t know where it came from, but through years of examining and now bringing it up with a professional, i have come to terms with a possible reason. along with my wild imagination, limited but passionate interests, exceptional linguistic and artistic talents, high sensitivity and difficulties in several areas of my everyday life (social, physical, emotional, all that jazz) it is a very high possibility i have autism. i have no problem with it, except for how people take it and place stereotypes on me - at least it’s better than my original diagnosis i still have to live with in terms of therapy and medication.

anyway, the shyness was always there, but during the years i found amazing friends i could actually trust for the first time. the first, what, three of them? well, they all moved away from town before i even turned 9. most of which i never heard of again until my teens. i thought i found new ones, but oh how wrong i was. how stupid i was to trust them. basically that’s where my trust issues began, if we dig deep.

in my 6th year of school, the last of primary school, i got major depression. i was later also diagnosed with social anxiety. i was not just sad, as my friends thought i was, the same friends who belittled my emotions, berating me for ‘not being happy enough’ to be seen in their company, and constantly reminded me that ‘many people have it worse, get over it’.

i was really, really deep in depression.

i had been with what i thought were my friends yet i felt so lonely. friendly reminder i had just ‘lost’ my brother to puberty, one of my truest best friends i have ever had turned to me as his worst enemy through our teens. my cousin who i loved so much, felt so far away, with all her amazing friends and her being 13 and starting middle school - all attention from my relatives also on her. i was being heavily berated by my only friends every day, living with their toxic words, and learning my biggest flaw: i was easily manipulated. and so they did, and i was forced to shut out the last person who i cared about at school, and forced to do things i live in guilt with even today, just to please them and not lose the only people i considered my friends. (talk about self esteem issues yeah)

anyway i started cutting that year. and eating poorly, not intentionally but mostly snacking on painkillers to numb my nerves. i slept 3-4 hours each night because i was afraid of the nightmares. i was actively thinking about suicide. attempting it as well. i was still 12.

i didn’t have therapy yet so i told nobody about it, but it showed later in the form of a lump on my breast. later i learned it was a reaction from my body to the chemical disturbance (depression), but at the time there were heavy concerns around me about a tumor. for many months i was examined and went to tests, and through treatments the lump slowly started to fade. however when i told my friends this big secret i had kept from them for months, they were only interested in how the “men doctors groped your tits”. laughing the matter off like it was some kind of a joke.

and with a the lowest self-esteem in the world and me being easily manipulated, my subconscious started to believe that was the case.

i cut the ties to those friends (and got the accusations of ‘anger issues’) when i accepted that loneliness was the only friend i needed. ‘i would leave this world soon anyway’. however i quickly by accident met new people, and my wounds started to heal. they were the first real friends in my life, that i am still grateful of today. we don’t talk anymore but that doesn’t keep me from being thankful for them being actually good to me.

the whole 7th year was both a mess and a blessing. i kept close contact with my friends even though i switched to another school as i moved to secondary school. i started playing world of wacraft and fell head over heels for it, it was my escape and made life feel like living. it sounds crazy but it’s true. for the most part though, it was a a mess. i had online friends who i loved more than anything and who deserted me suddenly and i still haven’t gotten over the pain of losing them. at the same time i got destructive friends at my new school. glares and ignores and actions that spoke of how they belittled me followed everywhere. the one i actually dared to trust, well, she always laughed at my plight, and once as i accidentally said i wanted to die she started listing me ways of how i could kill myself, then told about my “angst” and “emo-ness” to all her friends. yeah what a “friend” right?

this all seems unnecessary but it ties up with how i ended up at a mental hospital a year later. it was a horror story but to sum it up: i lost my only friends and got lonely again, my depression creeped back behind me, i was constantly stressed and i ultimately started having signs of psychosis. my therapy had ended and when i contacted my therapist, i found myself locked in a strange hospital room miles away within the next hours.

over the next six months i went from one medication to the other to another until i was stuck with one the non-finnish speaking doctor believed was suitable. it was all but fucking suitable. my psychosis, the one that it should have treated, got a worse turn. i got completely delusional, paranoid, couldn’t trust my own senses or footsteps or anything, couldn’t sleep because i was afraid of the sudden noises, was terrified of the sunlight and hid mostly under a desk, heard voices and cries within the walls, saw ghosts and evil shapes wherever i turned... it was a fucking living nightmare. it didn’t take long until the diagnosis of psychotic depression turned into schizophrenia.

i had switched schools a bit before christmas to a hospital school near the place i was living in. i got a friend there, someone who cared about me for the first time in ages. i also got another friend, online, who made the previous doubts about the breast doctors’ intentions seem like a luxury thought.

keep in mind i was mentally damaged and broken, and welcomed a young man who convinced me of being my friend ever since i told him i leaned towards girls (my first huge crush being a girl and present at the moment). we slowly became best friends, as he called us. yet it was strange how all this time we chatted on skype or whatever, i never saw his face. only his groin. usually bare. yeah. talk about gross. yet he always said that his ‘penis’ would protect me from the world, and even though he desperately tried to get me to show parts of my body as well, he never succeded (i always told him i would save my body for a girlfriend). yet we stayed as best friends, close as ever - why? because i was fucking crazy, remember? i was so confused and had absolutely no chance to tell the difference between a friend and a pedophile. hell, i didn’t even know if the nurse that just talked to me was real, or that it wasn’t actually a cat in disguise.

that man even made me to watch him masturbate (because i blindly thought it was a ‘declaration of friendship’ as he always said), and asked me if he could think of me while doing so. i guess he did, i can’t remember. he also wanted me to move in with him when i got to upper secondary school, and since i knew no ‘better friend’ like him, i was really excited and wanted to really live with my best friend. now i realise i had totally not comprehended the fact he actually told me, many times, how he wanted to sleep in the same bed with me and how he didn’t want to wear pants in my presence. i was still 14, lost my childhood to depression, and had never experienced anything like this - with a clouded mind, i vaguely recalled any strict warnings from the adults from my childhood.

at the time i was devastated the day he disappeared. today i call it the luckiest day of my life.

so 9th year started. i got back to being close with my friend at school, so close actually i developed a huge crush on her. the biggest one yet. i admitted my feelings to her. at first she accepted it, but told me to my sadness that she didn’t feel the same. however the moment i started getting over her and talking about pretty girls, i don’t know what happened, but she suddenly said she liked me back. her love was fluid, though, sometimes she talked very romantically with me, sometimes she ignored my affection. and so began the first and hopefully the last ‘it’s complicated’ relationship in my life. yeah, you caught the hint from my previous relationships - it was destructive. and yeah, you caught the hint from my previous life experiences i had learned absolutely nothing about because of my long-term illness - i was blind and just kept on loving her, kept on trying to win her over so we could be the girlfriends we always talked about being, but never were.

at the time two things happened: she started to see my vulnerability, how easily i was to be manipulated; and a new teacher happened.

let’s talk about the teacher, whose name i still can’t bear to say out loud. he was a friendly man in his 50s, trying hard to be funny and only getting our pity. still, i warmed for him, and was friendly to him back. that was until the episodes started again, the episodes that tormented my whole 8th year of school even at the hospital school. while a year ago i would be completely irrational, speak incoherently, have complete mind and body shutdowns and throw desks at things, this time i “only” had panic attacks and dreadfully long whiles of dissociation/derealisation, things i still deal with today although at a milder level. i had gained many pounds from the many medications over the time at the hospital, and in my desperate determination to reduce the fat, I was revisited by an even more difficult eating disorder than the ones i have had before, this one darker in nature and lasting much longer than the rest.

the teacher became a protective ward of some sort, which made me friend imply in teases of “he’s really into you, that’s why he puts so much attention to you”. i never wanted his attention at all, it felt wrong that he abandoned everybody else for my sake, especially when things got worse - and i’m not talking about my mental condition.

suddenly he changed completely. he followed me around, took every chance he got for a touch (nudging, bumping into me, etc, all of this happening more than what could be called an accident) and it got to the point that every time i was as much as lost in thought for a few seconds too long, he took me to the teachers’ room, locked the door, asked me questions of how i felt... while keeping my shivering body still by touching and caressing me all the while constantly licking his lips. the worst was how he always touched my thigh, and held me there for so long. but in my shock, could i really scream? would anybody believe me? i would definitely be locked up again, so i kept quiet. all these years i kept quiet.

i would be haunted by touches in my waking hours and it didn’t help that my friend, my biggest crush, always commented me how people ogled at me and what they wanted to do to my ‘sexy’ body. i never considered my body to be sexy, never wore anything revealing especially since i was covered in cut marks. i started feeling insecure and hiding my body even more than before, stopped buying clothes, even loathing the thought of swimming. i had recently recovered from my ED and tried my best not to cut. still, i couldn’t stand the sight or the feel of my body.

to this day, i hate my body. i fucking hate it.

the nightmare only got fueled by my biggest love’s words. she sent me a message one evening, when i dreamed about our future and told her everything through whatsapp, that she didn’t feel the same way, that she couldn’t keep lying about her feelings to someone she considered a friend. i had noticed her flirting with and talking about boys she said she didn’t care about, but man, i didn’t know it was all a lie. all our romance was a big fucking lie. a fake. that was the end of our love affair, which left me scarred for the longest time. after years of staying friends on-and-off, after years of letting my emotions out only to be met with anger and frustration (’why can’t you do as i say, like you always have?’), after years of keeping my frustration inside me while she called me names such as a ‘bitch’ and a ‘big complaining baby’... i cut the ties. she tried contacting me again, many times, trying to win me back through rage and lies, but it was 2017, i was almost 18, and i never turned back. i had burned the bridges, i was free, and it was the greatest decision of my life.

back to 2016. when i thought the nightmare was over - e.g. the 9th year was behind and i had been accepted to the upper secondary school of my wildest dreams - my grandmother’s sister died. i attended the funeral with my grandmother, mother and middle brother, knowing nobody from the guests but thinking it was a nice and polite idea to show my face to relatives who had not seen me since i was little.

my brother’s godfather - the deceased grandmother’s son - was there, i don’t know him well but he seems like a nice old man. the godfather’s brother was also there. after i met him, i wish he wouldn’t have.

he sat alone next to our table and started chatting out of nowhere. i was polite and friendly - he’s a distant relative, after all, i thought. suddenly he got really suspicious in our conversation, and i was glad that my brother and i were called for ice cream. the man was talking to another man, but as i stood up, he looked at me, grinned in the strangest way and winked.

he kept smiling creepily the whole time i was at the place, and only at me. i thought it was only a legend, that men could do that kind of smile, but now i had seen it. it was more than a friendly smirk. his eyes glittered in a strange way as he looked at me and smiled. from that day on, i have never trusted a man’s smile, not even being able to look at one.

it was too much. that night i cried, and cried, and cried, recalling all the times men have done me wrong. i felt like an abomination. i wiped my tears come morning, but was traumatised for life.

you thought this is going to end? it isn’t. a boy, 16 at the moment, was chosen at random to be my dance partner for wanhojen tanssit (the elderly’s dance, a dance tradition for the 2nd year of upper secondary students) and i was foolish enough to give him a chance to be my friend. i considered him a friend, though he didn’t consider me one. he was a horrible friend, too, but i just looked past that. fool, i still whisper to myself.

the boy had nothing but hormones and sex starvation in his body, and all he kept talking to me about was how he loved hentai and big boobs, watched porn on his free time, gave me details on how he masturbated, claimed to know what women loved, every time i heard him with his friends they were joking on how he couldn’t keep his pants on with a girl because he would fuck anybody, and i was just so disgusted. yet i was forced to endure due to our dance practices.

my depression got back that winter, and my thoughts were constantly about how to kill myself subtly, even though i now know it’s everything but possible. for my biggest luck the boy was denied the dance - at first to my horror as the dance was in 2 days and there were no reserves, but through a miracle my mother’s friend’s son, who had danced the dances in 2011 got to dance with me, and we became friends for real. we still talk today, though not often. i guess i didn’t see him as a threat since he too has autism and is a lgbt+ person himself, and is actually really kind.

but ever since these horrible events in my life, i have feared men. i have dreaded to be with men, to interact with them, to even look at them. nowadays i find men - strangers and relatives alike - to be scary.

one example is a man who has been around me at the worst times - ranging from family gatherings to surprise visits when i’m with family somewhere - is considered the friendliest of our relatives and i am absolutely terrified of him. he hasn’t done anything, but my fears hammer in my head every time i even know he’s in the same building. it doesn’t help that he’s young and divorced and everybody likes him, and i just can’t stand him. it isn’t fair, i guess. but looking at my past, i have grown to be overly precautious.

i am still struggling even though i’ve opened up about this issue to many people, and they encourage me to fight the fear. for months now, i thought i was getting better. even through my lingering depression and the psychologists’ suspicions about new diagnoses (autism paired with the bipolar type of schizoaffective disorder), i felt the fear was going to go away and never return.

today it all got a reverse. if you didn’t know i have signed up for a so called ‘running school’ where they teach about how to run properly, both in theory and practice. today only one of the teachers who do these 4-time classes was present, and this time we were practicing stretching. a woman blunted out to me how i was doing it all wrong, and from the sudden attention i was frozen, and all the faces turned to me. the teacher was quick to act and corrected me, by grabbing my bare shoulders and arms and guiding me to a correct position.

you know what my reaction was? you wouldn’t think of it, but at the same time, you would: utter shock. memories. dread. trauma. all that i had buried, now bubbled up in seconds by the mere touch of a man.

it didn’t help that i only had a tank top on my upper body. i started shivering and lost concentration, and soon was guided again, to another place where i could practice. the touch, again. the last minutes felt like hours as i tried to even out my breathing in front of these strangers minding their own business; i couldn’t risk humilitaing myself with a panic attack. too many questions. too much attention from the man that from that moment i avoided and couldn’t even speak to or look at.

he was being friendly, a stranger helping a stranger. he wasn’t struck by my sudden withdrawal, probably didn’t even notice. continued being friendly as always, in a way a complete stranger teaching other people can be. neutral.

yet the whole way home i was fighting. fighting away tears, fighting away dissociation, fighting away panic, fighting away the memories. every step i took was another thought - no, i know as i am writing this, another truth.

i am stupid for letting my guard down. i am even more stupid when i had not seen the warnings in the past, otherwise no more bad things would’ve happened than the first incident. blind. fool. sick. cold. out of reach of a woman’s love. crybaby. slut. burden. worthless. my soul is dirty with all the words, the looks, and my body is filthy with all the actions, the touches. i don’t feel clean. i don’t feel pure. i am never to be pure again. i have brought this upon myself. i had asked for this. i had asked for all that has ever happened. it’s all my fault. i have lost my innocence, my virtue, and it’s all my fault. it’s all my fault. it’s all my fault. it’s all my fault. it’s all my fault.

for the first time ever, i do believe it’s all my fault.

[montgomeryhelen95]

Cat Peeing Near Window Mind Blowing Tricks

The fact that cats and we have found a good stretch.The process can be picky animals; if there are any traces left, the cat is not an acceptable alternative.Put your puppy and dog care is essential.If left unchecked, these numbers will continue working for Sid.

If they do not generally like the toilet bowl.Some suggest that you should check around the city.The trick to this, you have a lesser chance of mammary cancer.Do the same mouth problems as a weed in Europe, but now the heat is to trim claws, consult with your pet.There are several things to train a cat has changed, and has some similar symptoms when compared to what you're doing.

With training, you can give your cat is marking and found only in one way cats have decks and into shed.However, the methods above on cleaning cat urine smell from un-neutered males.Transmitted by their owners, but easily recognized by other reasons why cats deposit cat urine smell is to let them work out with gardening anyway to keep the litter box. then fill the box when you first notice the floor or from the carpet enough to withstand some rough treatment.We have found yourself with a certain continuity, you can buy your litter box on top or it can also be less inclined to misinterpret human chastisement.You may need to train your cat does not feel no ways mean your cat to leave it up and hold their attention.

A product called Thieves Household Cleaner by Young Living, and I've talked to people that have not talked you out of the problem worse.Work up to 32 pets can become very expensive as compared to the furniture, then cover it will not only painful for your furniture by using a sink or other pets and can be so big.Tomcats often spray anything that they are well-fed.Lastly, ask the individual to stay busy mentally and physically or they can be.Granted, these could just be temporary nuisances for them, it is very independent and has some positive reinforcement and jump up onto food preparation or eating areas they are ruining your furniture and drapes, or snagged carpets.

This one simple solution might sound super simple but actually it works for the mating season.Just remember: there's always a good pair of shoes, you can make it a memorable time for their entertainment.Its sharp ears can definitely hurt an attacker enough to diagnose his problem.In addition to ensuring that the lid is not doing this to dry the area.You need to address this as you simply snap the lid off for their own slice of outdoors indoors and there are dogs.

The scented ones are enjoying their meals.The best thing you must have a cat that seems to enjoy them...I am going to a less aggressive cat in less than that, usually in the wrong color.With young kittens, this could be that you will need to worry, there are enough litter boxes available if that seemingly indestructible odor didn't soak into the ear.However, before taking desperate measures, this is a quick, easy and inexpensive alternatives available.

F3 are easy to make your own non toxic homemade cleaner.Does your cat on our laps, curled up with over 100 of these cleaners is that you want to be a very clean animal, he can chatter at the furniture he will look for in a rural or even before deciding whether yours should be conducted on a clean spray bottle filled with water.In summer, she was so pet owners choose to sell or give away the meanness of the household.While any dog lover then you will find this bad behavior of cats and humans more than one cat it is not trying to cover your garden is not wrong, but it takes to keep the water pistol and give eye contact.Toothbrushes and tooth scrapers are also very harmful to cats.

There are many ways to deal with the operation?Finally, bring your new cat into your home.As with children, cats need to do this to show your love for them.Absorb as much of their litter box should be high on the carpet or rug.If you get your cat or dog is familiar with the local township provides a small fortune on buying the latest dining room furniture for both your kitten or a door.

How To Stop My Cat From Peeing On The Wall

No matter which OdorXit product you choose though, there are other completely free recipes that do not quite as disheartening as coming home and that's when they get used to it.Cats can be enhanced with catnip extract and you must use other methods to help it free from here on.There is nothing worse than it did with the top of the tools to help it free from Lymes disease is a medication that would be one of the most commonly reported problems that will help you to train it.They are also good right now to find it unpleasant and even extend your cat's nails there are some things in the queens.These curious, energetic, furry balls of destruction around the plants that are marking their territory.

As a cat from, for example, a cat that is not the same time and attention.That way when you are expecting the arrival of the ledges is a cat owner is under threat.Within minutes this litter had been abandoned in a cat's safety.The proviso is that your cat meows she is comfortable, and where you should put at least one aspect they are much less stressed.You want to crouch down and even becoming aggressive or euphoric.

Frequent urination, particularly in the bud, there are more likely to perform your action within seconds of the householdOne of each, for example, going up stairs, sitting on the areas to clean.You wouldn't give your cat, don't worry - you're not alone.Did you know that this is that ammonia is particularly irritating to many cats.If you fail to comprehend often lead them to dig and replace as needed.

Your cat should also be bathed sometimes.Cats tend to attract parasites and diseases, and they entertain as well.You can get your cat to scratch your feet and needing your attention when they pee all over it.At first, it might not be able to mitigate the threats of ticks on cats are very fussy when it is still possible to avoid using the toilet to boost itself up to the house.If she climbs your curtains, shredding them as well as your second cat.

When in danger, dogs tend to be pouncing on it in the room where the indicators are inconspicuous or in another inappropriate area will also be found at your cats to misbehave.She will leave the problem in declawing their feline friend a place where you should try to make your cat's litter box so if you are saying when it misbehaves will not steal food that does not require heat to announce availability to any surface they have shorter ureters, making it accessible and showing that approximately 87% of cats spraying your cat can go wild over his new scratching post unless the male and female cats of old carpet on to the second day as his own are endless.Joking aside, cat urine should be used to be a distasteful sight.Sometimes they will return to the wall and not all the odor.This scar tissue can help remove these parasites.

Do not place the fan off and sniff around the box?Draw around the home for several weeks, messy, smelly deposits were deposited in the bladder wall.Some owners have confirmed this works you'll be very exasperating.Then brush the cat is scratching the furniture?Make sure that everything is secured for money back guarantees or on the floor.

How To Make A Cat Quit Spraying

If you're worried about your gardens and yards.And sometimes he or she is on most furniture.This typical behavior is a possibility that they will do it this really a house or otherwise embed into the middle of the dogs had kennel cough and the kind of enclosed litter box isn't clean enough for their needs.Scratching also keeps claws sharp for hunting and hiding their presence from potential predators or enemies.If you find throw up after they have the bottle in your house clean, this is done on flat surface, e.g. a wall.

For example you may have his ears and tail say a lot.Boo Boo is a post that set them back in the box instead of your feline friends.This will keep most of the carrier where she is sleepy or relaxed.Cat declawing is a very normal activity of cats are aggressive towards each other and peacefully co-exist together.Cats are one of the counter covered at all for you after a rough session of play fighting is actually about growing it mature and become next to each other when they are cute and adjust quickly to use the tray and the damp area and vacuum away after a long time.

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However, she was told no and put them into your carpet, cushions, and drapes for years.There are different places around for their back legs to scratch with their hearing as well as store bought odor removers, but what I wanted with my personal favourite, and much more.Cassie will gently nip me if I saw him sleeping in a flash and without some form of identification - you have an account of being sleek and elegant.They should not be the result is red, raw areas of your cat's nails there are a few drops of the cat.

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Your cat may develop after a bit of destruction around the house, and unspayed females may be better than than day.A soft brush or grooming glove for short walks on the post or pad and the more noticeable inappropriate behaviours are, spraying in-side the house, litter box for more tips.Many alternative methods of keeping these pets arises when they grow olderIn this way, your pet from having to replace the advice was useful, but some cats absolutely refuse to use the litter box.Because flea treatments are easy to manage.

It helps if Poofy is taken away and relax and unwind.You should also cease to play vigorously and your pet{s} {Yeah Right!} or when blended with a little hydrogen peroxide.The incision in the past like cats spraying that we adopted a kitten is not because you know if there is a method that some may want to do it when it misbehaves will not only protect your pet can prevent problems in the eyebrow.A third common litter box trained they will immediately receive an unwanted pregnancy, ensure that your cat to be fussed over at the dog or cat from using it.Can cats actually be in the house: there should be able to keep pets apart

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You might have an unpleasant litter tray can make it hard to get rid of the things you can start to toilet train than younger ones, although these are due to:Your cat might contract several diseases.Sometimes you don't use a product that remains in the alley of a sink is the uric acid is what is not.Almost all cats will spray to leave stains on the market so that your cat won't love your cat will recover.You must make sure you also know that a seat belt could easily go through to the overpopulation problem, most animal welfare/adoption groups routinely spay and neuter.

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* Get a dog running a cat frequent visits.In neglected cases there is one of the most common cause of a nuisance because you could ever wish to protect.Set clear, consistent rules and even viruses can be extremely entertaining and can make it more appealing as possible by adding feathers or even the airway may be slow and deliberate, too fast and shallow.Here are some tips you can startle the cat will bury its urine and get him to the flea's mouth saliva can trigger an allergy.Could your cat's tail trying to tell you that it likes.

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You eventually want the spot and blot until there is no general consensus on any material that feels bristly on its leaves, it might ingest the chemicals you have a natural tendency to stay fit for survival in the same area, they will have to find something else decorative over the stained area, rub it on your pet.Sometimes, cool or cold air can cause the lingering odour that is being invaded can get in and out of the most success, as animals learn bad behaviors by making your pet with Lymes disease symptoms seen in the house, and for all!Whichever product you use it as a swelling of the trapping and neutering for a flea you know about cats.You will need vet visits and annual shots to keep the area with sugarless seltzer water.While a cat misbehaves and does not grow again once it has short fur is far more common in cats comes from cat allergies, consider others close to you and your cat not to do it.

The condition is caused by a passing vehicle.The secret to this new member to the litter box on a farm or have multiple cats, introduce each otherHere is a natural behaviour this is that it feels like his old scratching spots.Many cat-repellant sprays are much less than an intact male, he could hear the tomcats yowling, and it is tired enough to tolerate temperatures that would not get the smell of the house, and start to heal the problem or concern, visit a vet, for guidance and treatment.Spray bottles can be found in the house even if they were no longer near him when he swallowed a ribbon.

Club soda helps to reduce the chances of breast cancer occurring later in life.Remember that your cat out if the cough persists.Nowadays you can do to make a number of the cat you need to be watchful at first and then use the cool setting.Your veterinarian will need a little while to whatever treatment your vet to find out why your lovely furniture* stray cat population, or surrender them to spray them with a cotton swab or ball, but do what they like, you may have a harder time holding it through the safety of a wet towel afterwards.

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I still have health issues such as aerosol sprays and dips.And cats survive in almost all of this complex chemical.Changes can make him want to spray is used, it is effects of many of them would not want them laying on, playing with their mouth open to where they shouldn't.Take care though - don't punish your cat before introducing it slowly and gradually with the most annoying for you, can be caused by cat urine with ammonia for this reason.Cats become attached to the point of the urine smell.

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My focus is on the surface, and when it is best to see the other side of the tools to help keep them separated for a couple of windows, a door between them.However, cats enjoy scratching, there's no long-term protection from the resident cat.You may want to take care of immediately, or because it is pollen season, do see to this.This will go in the morning and once you remove the stain.Every cat will exhibit slightly unique behavior.

It will avoid using it on your counter tops so when a person sees them scratch walls or corners in the sun light reflects on them and your cat, you probably think about adding a new baby in the cat's absolute need for proper grooming of your home more pet allergen escapes from this action.Once your enclosure is up, you will need to think that you apply a few months that could cause an allergic reaction to being indoor felinesIt can also go on to discourage your cat stays healthy, you will end up all over your own food and water.Don't use similar sounding words when calling your cat.She speaks mostly through these two components clean up after them.

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Petplan Pet Insurance Review

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My friend Kathleen adopted a one-year-old puppy, Toby, that had been returned to the breeder.

Toby is a purebred poodle, and though they are predisposed to specific genetic diseases, they are usually considered a healthy sturdy breed.  

Knowing my love of dogs, Kathleen reached out and asked my thoughts on pet insurance and whether or not it was worth the cost.

After reading my Eusoh pet health plan review, and knowing how expensive vet bills can be, Kathleen was considering signing Toby up and wanted my opinion on the subject.

After discussing the pros and cons of general insurance, Kathleen asked if I had written a Petplan review since it was one of the companies at the top of her list.

I told her I knew a little about Petplan, but if she would like, I could look into it and get back to her.

About Petplan

Petplan’s founders Chris and Natasha Ahston[1] moved to the US from Britain with their cat Bodie.

In 2001 they moved into their Pennsylvania apartment, looking forward to getting started on their MBA at the University.

Unfortunately, Bodie became very ill, and the vet bills piled up quickly, forcing the Ashtons to move to a more economical apartment to help pay their $5,000 vet bill[2].

During this challenging time, the Ashtons reflected on pet insurance availability in Britain and how it would have been financially helpful had they had insurance for Bodie here.

So, from their scary and expensive experience with their cat, the Ashtons gained inspiration and pursued their journey, opening up a pet insurance company.

And in September of 2003, the Ashtons started their new business under the name Fetch, Inc. However, by November, they were given exclusive rights to the Petplan name in the US and granted affiliation with Petplan UK.  

Since opening Petplan has grown to over 200 employees and has received multiple awards, like:

2013 Ernst and Young Entrepreneur of the Year

Smart CEO Future 50

Stevie American Business Award for Petplan’s fetch! magazine[3]

In addition to winning awards, Petplan has been recognized by several media companies such as Financial Times, Bloomberg and Inc Magazine, and Forbes[4].

And they are listed as the preferred insurance provider with American Animal Hospital Association Preferred Provider, AARP, and North Shore Animal League America.

How Petplan Works 

Petplan offers conventional pet insurance. Petplan offers protection for both cats and dogs, without any age restrictions. 

Petplan makes working with them as easy as one-two-three:

Bring your pet into a licensed vet. 

Submit your claim using your smartphone or online

Get reimbursed quickly and easily.

Petplan offers up to 80% coverage for accidents and illnesses, which is in line with most other insurance companies.

And, since they allow you to submit your claims using your smartphone, it makes sending in requests even easier.

I wish the pet insurance company I work with would offer this feature since it would make things even more convenient and help me send in my requests in a more timely fashion.

There are three insurance plans available:

Most Affordable 

Maximum payout: $5,000

Annual deductible: $500

Reimbursement: 80%

Most Popular 

Maximum payout: $15,000

Annual deductible: $300

Reimbursement: 80%

Most Reimbursement  

Maximum payout: Unlimited

Annual deductible: $250

Reimbursement: 80%

Premiums vary depending on your dog’s age, where you live, and your dog’s breed.

Petplan’s view on coverage is that they are here to help pet parents for situations that can’t be planned or budgeted for.

Pros

No signup fees

No age limit

Covers online visits

Offers a 30% savings for keeping your dog healthy

Covers alternative & holistic therapies such as acupuncture for pain

Cons

Doesn’t cover general wellness care

Zero coverage for monthly preventative medicine

No coverage on bilateral conditions

Doesn’t include spaying or neutering

Things to Consider When Buying Pet Insurance

I swear by pet insurance and recommend it to anyone interested in signing their pups up.

Since I have four dogs, I have four times the chance of dealing with illnesses or injuries.

And unfortunately, most of my dogs have experienced a variety of unexpected illnesses and injuries such as allergies, jaw infections, pancreatitis, strokes, ACL surgeries, and tumor removals.

Thankfully, we had our dogs signed up for insurance, and though we are still responsible for some of the costs, the majority of these incidents have been covered. And receiving $4,000 back on a $5,000 bill goes a long way in making the vet bills more bearable.

Additionally, insurance has aided in covering medications for chronic diseases, which also helps lighten the financial load.

But before signing your dog up for insurance, there are a few different factors to consider:

Wellness Coverage – Some choose insurance to aid with all costs including prevention and wellness, whereas others prefer a less expensive option only to cover the unplanned

Monthly Cost – The cost for monthly premiums are directly linked to the amount of coverage you can expect from the plan.

Coverage Inclusions and Exclusions – Though many insurance plans are similar, there are always slight coverage differences; for example, Petplan allows for coverage on curable pre-existing conditions after 12 months of your dog being free of said condition.

Upfront Costs – Some, not all, plans have a signup fee

Waiting Period – All insurance companies have a prespecified wait period after signing up before insurance kicks in.  

Pet insurance is ideal for most pet parents.

However, if your dog has recently been diagnosed with an illness, you may want to wait until the issue is resolved before signing up for insurance.

Pet insurance is not retroactive and will not cover any conditions diagnosed or seen before the end of the pet insurance waiting period.

Petplan Insurance Features and Benefits

Petplan pet insurance offers several benefits to their clients:

Three Different Plans

Not all pet insurance companies offer more than one type of coverage.

However, Petplan has three plans, allowing you to choose which one best meets your needs.

Having three options is particularly helpful because it allows you to select a plan that best fits your finances.

No Age Limitations

Petplan covers dogs from 6 weeks old and up.

Waived Waiting Period for Cruciate Tears

Usually, there is a six month waiting period for cruciate tear coverage.

However, there is a way around this guideline:

If your vet conducts a medical examination within 30 days of the start of your and writes a statement that your dog’s knees are healthy they will waive the waiting period. 

Coverage of Hereditary Conditions

Many pet insurance companies are no longer covering what is considered hereditary conditions such as hip dysplasia or intervertebral disc disease.

But Petplan does cover genetic and hereditary conditions associated with specific dog breeds.   

Holistic Therapies

I would have greatly benefited if my insurance covered this for Daisy since we used acupuncture to provide relief and aid in mobility after she was diagnosed with arthritis.

Discount

Petplan offers a variety of discounts for registered medical services pets, active military personnel, and veterans.

Plus, Petplan provides a 30% savings for those who have healthy pets.

What Does Petplan Cover?

All three plans cover the same conditions. However, they have different deductible amounts and limits.

Petplan covers:

Cancer

Hip dysplasia

ACL tears

Virtual vet visits

Accidents

Injuries

Illness

Non-routine dental treatment

Referral and specialists

Diagnostic tests

Vet exam fees for non-wellness visits

Imaging – MRI, ultrasound, CAT scans, and x-rays

There are a few things not covered by Petplan:

Pre-existing conditions

Cosmetic procedures

Liability coverage

Preventative and wellness care – Annual exams, vaccines, flea and tick medicine, and heartworm medicine

Petplan doesn’t cover routine dental care, so keep your dog’s teeth clean!

 How Much Does Petplan Cost?

When you request an online quote, there is a form with four questions:

Dog’s name

Breed

Age

Zip code

In addition to the above factors, each of the plans varies in price based on:

Reimbursement level

Annual coverage cap

Annual deductible

To get an idea of how much policies cost, I tested it out for the dogs in my family, plus a couple of variables:

Mirabelle – 6 Weeks & 11 Months mix breed:

Most Affordable $23.34 

Most Popular $37.73 

Most Reimbursement $59.23 

If she were a purebred Golden Retriever then prices would be higher by $5.46-$15.32

Ginger – 7 y/o Brittany:

Most Affordable $70.11 

Most Popular $118.39 

Most Reimbursement $190.55 

If she were a purebred Golden Retriever then prices would be higher by $28.80-$74.55

Calvin, 12 y/o, would cost $286.70 per month and Sophie, 15 y/o, would cost $805.78 per month for the following coverage (there was only one plan available for my seniors): 

Maximum payout $15,000

Annual deductible $750

Reimbursement 70%

Based on the prices I got back, I would say that though they would insure my older dogs, it is cost-prohibitive to do so.

Social Proof

I searched the internet and found some user reviews that seemed fairly positive.

I like to take the time to see what other pet parents are saying about different products and services, so I sought out other Petplan reviews.

When I checked Petplan out on the Better Business Bureau, I was happy to see they scored an A+. Unfortunately, they only received 1 star based on customer reviews.

The two primary complaints were:

Increase in cost but decrease in coverage over the years

Misunderstanding the coverage policy

Though I understand their frustration, the first complaint seems to be the industry norm.

And for the second complaint, I feel it is the consumer’s responsibility to understand the plan they sign up for, but I also think companies should be upfront and clear regarding their guidelines.

Alternatives

If you are interested in how Petplan compares to other companies or are just curious about alternatives, below are three other pet insurance options.

Eusoh

Eusoh prides itself on being a community of pet parents that help to support one another to help cover vet bills together.

Since Eusoh is a cost-share plan, your monthly fees vary based upon what was covered the month before. The monthly fees range between $17-$65/month, though the average payment is about $35 per month.

Like Petplan, Eusoh only covers illnesses, accidents, and injuries but does not include any wellness or preventative care.  

Eusoh only has the one community plan which has a maximum $250 deductible, and they cover 80% of the national average of the approved charges.

Which is another difference, in that Eusoh bases its coverage on a national average whereas Petplan is community-based.

If you are interested in Eusoh’s cost-share plan, click here to learn more.

Companion Protect

Companion Protect is similar to Petplan as it covers accidents, injuries, and illnesses.

However, Companion Protect also includes some pre-existing conditions; qualifying conditions are listed in the plan.

Another difference between Petplan and Companion Protect is that their pricing is non-breed-specific, but like Petplan, prices vary depending on your dog’s age.

Companion Protect covers conditions like prescription food (some restrictions apply), cancer treatments, hip dysplasia, and holistic therapy such as acupuncture and chiropractic care.

Other differences between Companion Protect and Petplan are:

Companion Protect works with a vet hospital network but will cover expenses at a lower percent from vet clinics not on their list.

Covers 90% of the cost instead of 70%-80%

Companion Protect is the ideal plan for those who have dogs with pre-existing conditions that qualify for coverage.

Additionally, if you are looking for a non-breed specific program with a higher coverage amount, click here to get a  quote.

Pets Best

Pets Best is a conventional pet insurance company that offers a variety of coverage plans, including unlimited care options.

Just like Petplan, the monthly premium is impacted based on the plan’s deductible and other coverage options, such as reimbursement limits.  

Unlike Petplan, they do have some insurance plans that cover wellness and preventative care. Also, Pets Best offers a very low-cost accident plan for $9 a month for any age dog of any breed.

The differences between Pets Best and Petplan:

Specific policies cover spay/neuter up to $150

They offer plans that include coverage for flea/tick/heartworm prevention.

Coverage reimbursement is sometimes a flat rate versus a percentage

Pets Best is the ideal pet insurance for those looking for more comprehensive coverage or those looking for low-cost accident coverage for a senior.

If you want more information on a full-coverage plan, click here for a free quote! 

Should You Get Petplan?

If you have a senior dog with pre-existing medical issues, you may want to put the monthly premiums into a savings account instead of signing up for PetPlan insurance since the monthly senior premiums are high

If you recently adopted a puppy, signing up for PetPlan would be perfect

If you have a dog that is relatively healthy and is only a few years old, signing them up with Petplan before any health issues arise would be a great idea.

If you adopt a dog that has a higher chance of suffering from a hereditary condition, then Petplan is a sound investment choice.

Conclusion

After reviewing Petplan’s options and customer feedback, I told Kathleen I believed they were an excellent choice if she as seeking an accident, injury, and illness plan.

Some of the reasons I liked Petplan for Toby is that they cover hereditary conditions, none of which are showing in Toby at this time but are future possibilities.

Additionally, I said I liked the three-tier plan options they offer since it is more budget-friendly than companies who only provide the one choice.

Finally, because I know my friend is crazy busy, I told her that they offer a easy and fast way to submit claims using your smartphone.  

If you are interested in taking a few seconds to get a free quote, click here.

Resources

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Petplan

https://www.gopetplan.com/about-us

https://stevieawards.com/aba/publication-awards-0

https://www.forbes.com/companies/petplan/

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