#what a long long day of trying to be okay abt something i'm not remotely okay abt

[bugmin]

when my supervisor asked if i spent my break sleeping but i just look like that coz i spent the last hour and a half bawling

[distant-screaming]

hc: again, gae roomates with fawn (in an au, leave me alone). have a decent sense of fashion, reblogs everything that appears in her sight, is a spam blog for every other blog, is more than infatuated with palmneung/akkayan/soundwin. one of those ppl who'd text "hv nightmares/dreams abt me" after getting into a serious relationship, fruity af (I'm sure u give those vibes irl) AND you like floral patterns (idk where this came from, maybe cause you were ranting abt palm and my mind ended up corresponding you with his hawaiin shirts).

ana my bestie my bff hi!!

@user-soundwin and I are virtual roommates in the sense that we echochamber ourselves further into insanity every day <3

My sense of fashion is pretty decent as long as I'm not burnt out and/or hyperfixating on something (which happens to be... more often than not) in which case it's just whatever's cleanest o7

reblogs everything that appears in her sight: yeah okay leave me alone /j

Very much a spam blog! I'm not remotely sorry!

OGH MY HOLY TRINITY palmnueng + akkayan + soundwin

You know what, I've texted 'have dreams/nightmares about me' to platonic friends more than to romantic? That's kinda funny

'fruity af' I TRY!! I think my irl vibe is pretty 'Something is off about her but I can't quite put my finger on it' <3

Oh my GOD I adore floral patterns! They're so silly and fun!

all in all you get a score of 7/8 :]

[owlmylove]

Hi, I feel so bad. I had a terrible day at work and when I was driving home someone honked their horn and yelled at me and I'm all alone and have to go back into work tomorrow, and i just don't know how to feel better. I love your blog and you are so nice and are so kind. Thank you 💖

Hello love. I’m so sorry. It’s been a long time since I’ve written the kinds of long and lovely replies which you so fully deserve, but I hope my shorter and sweet words can still do some good?

I’m sure you have additional, unique circumstances I can’t imagine, but I do know how isolating it is to come home to a lonely house and know you’ll have to leave it in a few hours just to go to work, just to start the cycle again. People being cruel or rude doesn’t help. The days getting darker and colder (at least, in my hemisphere atm) certainly doesn’t help. It’s hard to know how to feel better. It’s okay if it takes time to learn.

I once spent a very dark winter in a very cold, quiet apartment and the best I could do was order myself dominos parmesan bread bites when I needed something warm and happy. Which: maybe not the healthiest option, but it gave me warmth to hold on to. It made me feel good. Whether you try slow-cooking some soups made of your favorite things, or buy a UV therapy light (which I’m abt to do for seasonal depression!) or a weighted blanket, or just some flowers. Whether you buy absolutely nothing at all, and just try to give yourself time to nap or sleep or read or rewatch your favorite movies. Whether you try stretching or yoga or brisk walks under changing leaves. Whether none of that helps, even remotely! I hope you will still give yourself the time to try what feels good, and be kind to yourself. Because that’s what I would do if I could, and that’s what you deserve.

It’s not an easy thing, learning how to make yourself better. Sometimes you physically can’t, and that’s okay. It’s taken me a few years, and sometimes the tested methods don’t work, and you have to find other ways. Sometimes you have to sit with the feeling for a while. But if there’s one thing you know you enjoy — no matter how small — I hope you can start there. And if you can’t think of anything, may I suggest trying dominos parmesan bread bites because they are, quite honestly, my most reliable garlic-buttered survival tool.

I’m sorry if this was an unwanted to-do list of a reply when you just wanted to vent (also, sorry for missing the short & sweet mark. Old habits die hard?) but I want you to know that no matter how lonely you feel, you’re not alone in this feeling. it’s going to change. and hopefully, in time, it will even get better. until then, I hope you give yourself all the kindness you deserve (spoiler, it’s a Lot) and I will do my best to keep posting kind and lovely things for you to enjoy, as a poor substitute for ordering you dominos. Thank you for messaging me. I hope your world continues to grow a little brighter.