#welldamnshawn

[welldamnsatoru]

Updated Masterlist

Last Updated: 20/6/19

Series

Camp of the God’s series

Shawn is son of Hephaestus and Y/n is daughter of Athena and multiple times Shawn saves y/n’s ass until eventually they form feelings for each other.

Soulmate Series

Shawn and Y/n are soulmates but Shawn is fully against having his future dictated and is against having Y/n as his soulmate despite the pull he feels to her.

Falling series 

Shawn is a fallen angel and after crash landing on earth rocks up at nurse Y/n’s office bruised and battered where she helps him.

Imagines

Prince Eric au 

Shawn nearly drowns but luckily he has mermaid Y/n around to save his life, repeatedly. 

Do you even know what time it is right now?

Y/n can’t sleep so Shawn sings her sleep, very short and fluffy.

I’m not going to apologise for this. Not anymore

Y/n and Shawn are best friends, Shawn wants to be more but Y/n doesn’t want to risk their friendship despite feeling the same way until Shawn has had enough and shows her how he feels.

I dedicate this song to you

Y/n attends one of Shawn’s concerts where he dedicates a song to her.

Why do I always call you when I’m wasted?

Y/n and Shawn break up when she gets offered to study abroad for a year and a month after they break up Shawn rings her when he’s wasted.

#shawnsgettingsometonight

Shawn gets caught buying condoms at the chemist by fans and a certain hashtag begins trending.

Maybe they’re right. Maybe I am no good for you

Shawn turns up at y/n’s house at 2am bruised after defying his gang leader’s commands of using Y/n for a mission and Shawn begins to doubt if he is good enough for her.

How long have you been standing there?

Y/n gets caught singing one of Shawn’s songs by Shawn himself.

His ego is so visible; I can almost watch it grow   Part 2

A random guy starts to chat Y/n up at her best friends engagement party and Shawn gets jealous.

Just once   Part 2   Part 3

Just once Y/n wants Shawn to be there for her, especially when he misses her graduation.

If I didn’t know any better, I’d say you were trying to seduce me

Furniture shopping with Shawn and Y/n.

You’re so cute when you pout like that

Shawn tries to take a photo of Y/n but she keeps trying to doge it.

When you love someone, you don’t just stop

Y/n is sent a picture online of Shawn kissing another girl and she gets upset about it, resulting in a fight when Shawn gets home.

My eyes are up here

Y/n is a YouTuber and since her camera stand is broken she gets Shawn to help her film a video.

I thought I lost you

Y/n is in a car accident and Shawn leaves one of his concerts to be with her.

I’m not going to stop poking you until you give me some attention

Y/n’s studying and Shawn wants attention 

Just pretend to be my date

Y/n has a family dinner where her family always bug her about never bringing a date so she asks Shawn to accompany her.

What else do you love about me?

Y/n and Shawn list everything they love about each other.

I was actually hoping that you would ask me

Y/n asks Shawn to their school dance

You can kiss me whenever you want

You’ve been dating Shawn for a while and you haven’t kissed and you really want to but you’re really nervous about it

And you woke me up for this?

Y/n has a really weird dream and she just has to tell Shawn about it

I’m so in love with you

Shawn accidentally tells Y/N he loves her 

Just tell me you love me

Y/n and Shawn are drifting apart so Shawn decides to break it off, much to Y/n’s efforts not to

The fight (part 1)   The fight (part 2)   The fight (part 3)

Shawn an Y/n have a massive fight resulting in Shawn leaving when he’s about to go on tour the next day.

Do you think I want to be away from you?

Shawn is going on tour which results in him maybe missing the birth of his child which doesn’t settle well with Y/n

I meant what do we do after the ceremony but I see you’re thinking ahead

Shawn and Y/n tie the knot.

My plan was to follow your plan

Shawn and Y/n are looking after Shawn’s cousin, its really fluffy

I can’t wait to see you     part 2

Shawn has a side chick and Y/n calls him out over it and the truth is uncovered ;)

Never

Someone in y/n’s family passes away and Shawn is on tour and she doesn’t tell him and he finds out through someone else and he gets angry that she didn’t tell him but also cries with her.

One Night  Part 2

You’re in a relationship but you’re in love with Shawn- the only reason you’re not with him is because you’re scared of being hurt. One night things get heated between you and Shawn and feelings are confessed.

One for me, one for baby

Y/n is pregnant and asks Shawn to bring her weird combos.

Are you filming me?

Y/n is driving and Shawn is in the car too and another driver did something and y/n was just angry and swearing and Shawn laughs and records her.

I don’t know how to forget you

Shawn said some not so nice things about Y/n so  she’s been avoiding him and he ends up coming over to her house when he says whats on his mind

Like that Part 1    Part 2       Part 3

Based off like that by Bea Miller

You can’t protect me from everything

Y/n is three years younger than Shawn which causes her to get a bit of hate thus Shawn breaks up with her in hopes of lessening the amount of hate she gets.

Did you wish that was you?

Y/n has been in love with her best friend Shawn, she finally gets the courage to tell him but instead she finds him kissing another girl. He tracks her down and their feelings are revealed. 

I’m doing this for you

Shawn is older by 3 years than Y/n and this causes a fight between them.

You deserve better than me

Y/n is curvier than the average girl but you and Shawn are dating and his friends question why he’s with y/n when he can be with anyone he wants and y/n overhears and gets really sad and insecure?

Like you used to

Y/n is feeling insecure for whatever reason and Shawn like reassures her and kisses her all over to make her feel good.

I didn’t come here to get teased

y/n and Shawn are a new couple and y/n got stuck in the rain on her way to see Shawn and he lets her wear his clothes because she is soaked

I’m sorry that I’m busy

Y/n  goes on tour with Shawn, but she feels them getting distant from each other? She stays on the bus and continues to support him & after awhile (lots of talks between them) they make up?

I’m the real deal

100% bad boy Shawn

Notice anything different about me?

Y/n gets her braces off and waits for Shawn to notice.

Summer camp      Part 2

Shawn and y/n hate each other from school but they are forced to share a room on a summer camp where there’s a change of heart.

Falling apart

Shawn seems to have time for everyone except fro Y/n so she decides to confront him about it.

All mine (Werewolf au)

Y/n comes home smelling like another male much to Shawn’s immediate displeasure which makes him go a little crazy to get her to smell like him again.

[parkerspicedlatte]

I wanna see more 5sos content!

Going on a following spree. Reblog if you...

Write for 5sos

Create Fan Art for 5sos

Make Moodboards for 5sos

or just love 5sos in general

will also not complain about Shawn Mendes or Tom Holland\Harrison Osterfield and Co. (oh and Harry Styles, love me a brunet with an accent)

Tagging some peeps to get the word out!

@the-claire-bitch-project @parkerpuffwrites @h0tsos @madmadmilk @madformichael @hollandroos @aw-hawkeye @bensbuttercup @24kcalum @cakesunflower @celestialparker @definitely-not-black-cat @fanboy-tom @glitterprincelu @gentleshawn @harryandmolly @irwinkitten @katsens-writing @lovemelikeyou1997 @morningfears @peteparkrrs @softboyshawn @spiderboytotherescue @tequila-clifford @welldamnshawn

[web-of-fics]

Happy follower Friday!!!

Shout-out to:

@lost-girl-will-be-loved @obiwankolaja @lovcyou3000 @star-holland @cyberspunk77 @majesticavenger @violet-harmon-is-a-lesbian @vanillanestor @sonicisnotsober @thewinchesterchronicles @thekennysaur @mmunou @welldamnshawn @squishychar1ie @theater-geek76 @thatnerdypotato @xxuniversum-sidereumxx @imfeelfantastic

I hope you have a stan-tastic weekend!!

[softboywriting]

So idk where I read this one doc about greekgod/ Demi god Shawn and y/n and OMGGG it was fucking good!! Do you know anyone who write stories like these??? Thanks

I know when I first started here for shawn two years ago there was blog writing a demo God/percy Jackson like AU and I was say it was welldamnshawn? Or something? But she left? But idk someone else may have done it by now 🤣

[mendesftoakley]

2018

I’m going to keep this brief. To those of you tagged, and even those who are reading this (my largest apologies if i missed someone). Thank you. I do not say this lightly. You all inspire on the daily, and throughout this year I have made it a mission to rid of the toxicity that can be found on any website. Through this endeavor I have singled out some of the most beautiful souls who mean nothing but love, and are warriors with an unbelievable work ethic. I know this year has been hard on all of us, so with this, I send you out on a note that 2019 will be better, you’ve gotten this far, you got this. Remember whatever you put out into the world, will come back. Whether or not we have talked, you’ve inspired me, heres to you 🥳

@shit-to-kinda-okay @babyshawwn @marlahey @infiniteshawn @brittanyzelazno @brighterthanluckystars @shawnm521 @torontogawd @wordsandshawn @mendes2k17 @smallerinfinities @sauveteen @gentlemanmendes @heartopen-testify @siennarossi @sippingchai @lostinshawnslight @writtenbybigoceans @welldamnshawn @i-see-you-mendes

[shawnmend-yes]

tell me about some good ass writers on here. thanks

LETS GET STARTED THEN. So currently I'm in love with @welldamnshawn because hello Percy Jackson and this bad boy series is literally killing me. LIKE DUDE MORE PLEASE (when you have the time (but preferably like now)) because I'm actually in love and Shawn being a flame ball and just slfoghxba but I'm calm totally calm and not like imagining Shawn running round throwing fireballs at you with that cheeky ass little grin or like reaching to grab your hand and being literally boiling like dude. ANYWAY and I'm L I V I N G for sassy evil Shawn like Mmmhmmm come at me. The we got @imgonnaregretthisblog this ones a total and utter nutter. She's got a small hogwarts series (bitch where the fucks the rest of that?) and a series of firsts which makes my life honestly just read all her stuff but don't like - tell her because she will get cocky so like... Careful. Literally this girl makes my day on an everyday basis just because she's literally the weirdest creature but damn has she got typing skills like I'm not even going to question her milk first routine because it's clearly working. I will NEVER get over A higher education series. Ever. There's also the "I liked the building not you" like hell ducking yes please by @illumegeoff but seriously like a higher education is the ONLY reason I wanna go to uni now and it hits you right in the feels, if you haven't read it it's a total recommend because your not really living. Shakespeare who?There's @ihaveabadreputation who is literally the nicest person ever like I'm pretty sure she could make a conversation with a pole and have it blushing. Also she kinda like broke tumblr with that thing, you guys know the one. I'm not even gonna name it. But this girl honestly. She's a total cherub like just read her entire masterlist please and then we can talk. @imagines-mendes has a hella lot of awesome blurbs that just leave me buzzing like literally the cutest little things that I just can't deal with and I have to like put my phone down for a sec and just breathe because I get so excited when things work out and are all fluffy and sarky and she wrote this piece blue (I'm pretty sure) and I just like I needed that and it's a work of art. Picasso got nothing on you. @mend-es okay so just real quick I LOVE that she uses song titles as fic names like I literally cannot stress that enough it's amazing. COLLEGE SHAWN POEMS I WOULD WRITE YOU LIKE YEAH YEAH IM OKAY LETS GO. I'm so happy and in love with it it just makes me get a little bubble of happiness in my stomach and it's justhogwarts with @motherlifesucker and she likes 5SOS so she could probs murder someone and I'd still be down, hogwarts like I can totally see Shawn being a cheeky prefect and obviously she's written a zillion other amazing fics but I have a tumblr crush on this piece that will never go away. And OBVIOUSLY we can't forget @wordsandshawn who just like kills everyone really. She's like a sneaky ass ninja, doesn't say a lot and then hits you in the back of the head with the cutest little fics until your just a sobbing ball on the floor but it's fine I'm fine we are fiiiiiine. And let's not forget the fact that she totally fucking broke me with her wrong assumptions (? It's something like that) and I just died and cried and honestly like I cannot even stress the fact that it broke me for a solid like month.

[shit-to-kinda-okay]

writer recs??

strap in lads, there’s a lot. these people are so super talented and i’m so thankful for the content they write for us. I know it takes a whole lot of time and effort and they all make me feel !!!!!!! I love every one of them and the work they put out so enjoy!! (i know, i thought I could only read memes too)

@foreverlostinyourlight

@babyshawwn 

@illumegeoff

@ruintoronto 

@thesmutofthemendes 

@nobravery 

@achinglyshawn 

@sippingchai 

@permanentguitar 

@purebeanshawn 

@nike-shawn 

@mercyimagines 

@welldamnshawn 

@wordsandshawn

@fairfieldct 

@illuminateshawnn 

@kidinlovewithakid 

@illuminateeshawn 

@mend-es 

@imagines-mendes 

@ftmendesthoughts 

@saysweartogod 

@grayandshawnimagines 

@raindropmendes 

@shawnieboiii 

@mendes2k17

@papishawn

@ihaveabadreputation

[welldamnsatoru]

Series Masterlist

Camp of the God’s Part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7 

Soulmate x bad boy Shawn: Part 1 | part 2 | part 3 | part 4 | part 5 | part 6 | part 7 | part 8 | Part 9 | part 10

Falling: Part 1

[chloeg830]

Library Shuffle Tag Game

I'm posting this for the second time and I am v frustrated about it bc my draft didn't save but okay let's go

so i was tagged by the lovely @mel-the-fangirl and this is my first Tag Game, so thank you!!

Heavy In Your Arms / Florence + The Machine

The End Of All Things / Panic! At The Disco

Daughters / John Mayer

Nobody's Perfect / Jessie J

Love Don't Die / The Fray

Redemption Song / Bob Marley and The Wailers

Balaga / Natasha, Pierre, And The Great Comet Of 1812

Ending / Isak Danielson

Wait / M83

Don't Be A Fool / Shawn Mendes

so that's about it!! a lot of my music is alike, except for an occasional bob marley song. but lately, i've been really into Isak Danielson!!

tagged: @connormurphweed @welldamnshawn @evan-hansens @riverdalerebel @ihaveabadreputation @oscorp @stevenrogrs @avengerschatroom @daveeddiggsit @fvckingavengers @gratitudejoyandsorrow @hufflepuffholland @colombianxs @babyparker @babyshawwn @bananashemmo @nedandpeter @nedleedslove @manuelmiranduh @tomsh0lland

[parkerspicedlatte]

Rules: Answer 21 questions and tag 21 people.

1) Nicknames: Ria, Reetz, Moo (don’t ask...)

2) Zodiac Sign: idk i don’t keep up with this shit

3) Height: 5′4′″ (i only JUST measured myself, i thought i was 5′2′’ for the longest time!)

4) Hogwarts House: Geez i don’t know I’ve never read the books/seen the movies

5) Last Thing I Googled: I googled what “projecting” meant and how old the dude from disturbed is (he’s 46)

6) Fave Musicians: 5sos, Billie Eilish, Shawn Mendes, Black Veil Brides, Gerard Way, MATT CORBY, Milk Carton Kids, Jesse Cook, CCR, The Struts, Jonny Cash, Simon and Garfunkel. Yup lots of weird combos....

7) Song Stuck In My Head: Kiss This-The Struts

8) Following: 139

9) Followers: 760

10) Do You Get Asks: Not that often (i would it if you guys would interact, don’t be scared. tell me about whatever ;)

11) Regular Amount of Sleep: sometimes 3 hours sometimes 11 hours. it’s weird

12) Lucky Number: 20, i love the number 20, it’s smooth #OCD

13) What Are You Wearing: Ankel socks, plaid purple pj pants, and a tweedy bird crop-top (not even kidding, it creeps my lil cousins out.)

14) Dream Job: Musicians, baker/barista, butcher, artist, potter....arts stuff

15) Dream Trip: I’m going to Australia in a few years when i get married

16) Instruments: I sing and play guitar, i want to pick up piano and bass (mostly bass)

17) Languages: English, French, ASL, learning German

18) Favourite Songs: at the moment.... The Boxer-Simon and Garfunkel, My Boy-Billie Eilish, Ghost of You-5sos, Silly Notes and Gypsy Clothes-Ron Pope, Hazy Shade of Winter-Gerard Way+Ray Toro (cover), Belly Side Up-Matt Corby, Michigan-Milk Carton Kids,

19) Random Fact: I have never told a single person that I write fanficton (besides you guys obv.)

20) Aesthetic: Sitting out in my screened in porch, small pottery mug of hot tea, rain falling on the tin roof, acoustic classical guitar in hand, blanket over my legs (cause it’s cold), puppy by my side, grey skies. thunder in the distance. 

21) Dogs or Cats: I have a dog, i have always been more of a dog person but i do like cats, one day i swear i will get an Australian Shepard, Great Dane, and Bull Massive. I love those suckers. 

tagging these loveliee: @h0tsos @madformichael @misskarynie @hey-its-grey @softboyshawn @parkerpuffwrites @lovemelikeyou1997 @lokiislowkeyhot @katsens-writing @acebatmickey @harryandmolly @eyestheyseeyou @infiniteshawn @irwinkitten @starksparker @song-bird-shawn @lovely-parker @morningfears @hereforlukescruff @fanboy-tom @zachheroin @welldamnshawn @softforcal @converse-luke @golden-hemmings

[softboywriting]

Hey! I was reading this soulmate au the one where you have the timer thingy and he's like this bad boy kinda... But now I can't seem to find it... The prologue was was called 6 minutes or something Could you please help me find it? I guess it's yours.

I don't have a timer soulmate au other than Heal Me which is similar but that's not bad boy it's doctor au. I think welldamnshawn had a bad boy timer soulmate au. I'm not sure if her blog is active anymore tho.

[sippingchai]

Do you have any other Shawn writing blogs? You're amazing xoxoxo

Thank you so much!

In no particular order, off the top of my head: 

@nerdomendes@sourshawn@achinglyshawn@permanentguitar@illumegeoff@illumendes@ihaveabadreputation@mend-es@welldamnshawn@wordsandshawn@babyshawwn@lostinshawnslight@wordsformendes@nike-shawn

I know there’s waaaaay more writers out there that I’m forgetting and I’m sorry. 

[aulenika]

thanks to my amazing friend @ruintoronto​ for tagging me! I guess most of you guys was already tagged but still @alexevah​ @welldamnshawn​ @raineshawn​ @illumegeoff​ @ruinrose​ @ihaveabadreputation​ @shawnmendesdream​ @filyambda​ @goodbyeofthemendes​ @mend-es​

the last

1. drink: apple juice

2. phone call: grandma

3. text message: my boss

4. song you listened to: Perfect by Ed Sheeran

5. time you cried: yesterday reading The Sun is Also a Star

6. dated someone twice: no

7. kissed someone and regretted it: no

8. been cheated on: no 

9. lost someone special: no, I think

10. been depressed: 3 years ago

11. gotten drunk and thrown up:my birthday last year (:

3 favourite colours

12. purple

13. navy blue 

14. sunset pink

in the last year have you

15. made new friends: yes

16. fallen out of love: yes kinda

17. laughed until you cried: maybe a couple times

18. found out someone was talking about you: no, I am too boring to be talked about

19. met someone who changed you: not irl, but yeah

20. found out who your friends are: yes

21. kissed someone on your Facebook list: no 

general

22. how many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: almost all of them (my friend list is not long)

23. do you have any pets: yes, a dog

24. do you want to change your name: no, I love my name

25. what did you do for your last birthday: watched il volo concerts (yeeeah)

26. what time did you wake up: around 12pm

27. what were you doing at midnight last night: watching new episode of suits

28. name something you can’t wait for: next weekends (:

29. when was the last time you saw your mom: 3 weeks ago

31. what are you listening to right now: youtube video

32. have you ever talked to a person named tom: no

33. something that is getting on your nerves: my uncertain future

34. most visited website: vk (russian copy of facebook), twitter

36. long or short hair: long

37. do you have a crush on someone: Shawn? 

38. what do you like about yourself: my eyes are fine

39. piercings: ears

40. blood type: don’t know

41. nickname: don’t have one

42. relationship status: single

43. zodiac: cancer

44. pronouns: she/her/they/them

45. favourite tv show: parks and rec, friends, glee, the oc, new girl, how to get away with murder, supergirl, suits, teen wolf

46. tattoos: three; want one

47. right or left handed: right

48. surgery: no 

50. sport: I am a lazy ass bitch, walking is fine by me. But I enjoy watching hockey 

51. vacation: gonna have one in 6 days.

52. pair of trainers: don’t have any in my possession

MORE GENERAL

53. eating: don’t eat fish, not fond of most vegetables. Love pasta

54. drinking: tea

55. i’m about to: go to sleep, it’s 4am

56. waiting for: next weekends, autumn, my life to change

57. i want: move from russia

58. get married: never

59. career:still don’t know

WHICH IS BETTER

60. hugs or kisses: both

61. lips or eyes: eyes

62. shorter or taller: taller

63. older or younger: both

64. nice arms or nice stomach: doesn’t matter

65. hookup or relationship: both?

66. troublemaker or hesitant: hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER:

67. kissed a stranger: no

68. drank hard liquor: no

69. lost glasses/contact lenses: no

70. turned someone down: yes

71. sex on the first date: no

73. had your heart broken: no

74. been arrested: no

75. cried when someone died: yes

76. fallen for a friend: no

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

77. yourself: try to

78. miracles: yeah

79. love at first sight: never experienced

80. santa claus: no

81. kiss on the first date: i guess

82. angels: yes

OTHER:

84. eye colour: hazel

85. favourite movie: the dark knight trilogy, the man from u.n.c.l.e, scott pilgrim vs. the world, la la land, wonder woman, last night, shakespeare in love, match point, the fifth element, crazy, stupid, love., moulin rouge!

[welldamnsatoru]

You’re my girl // Shawn Mendes

Summary:  Y/n’s freaking out about her upcoming exam’s and Shawn just reassure’s her :)

Author’s note: So lately I’ve been feeling really off my game with my writing so I’m sorry that this sucks and everything I post from now on will probably keep sucking till I get back in the writing mode.

“You need to stop that. Right now.” I place my hand on my hip, leaning against the door frame. Shawn was sitting on the edge of our bed, his back facing me.

“Stop what Babe?” Shawn chuckles, playing another chord of notes on his guitar and humming softly to himself.

“Stop singing with you amazing voice while I’m in ear shot because I am trying to study for my finals and you’re singing is distracting me.”

“Distracting you hmm?” Shawn turns his body so he can look at me. “Are you trying to say you don’t like my music.”

“No!” I rush to say, my cheeks tinting pink and I brush a strand of hair that fell into my face behind my ear. “Its so good that it makes me want to forget about school completely and just lay on the floor and listen to you sing.”

“You always can..” He trails off, raising an eyebrow teasingly and I sigh.

“You’re supposed to be telling me to go study, not encourage me to slack off.” I groan, moving to sit next to him on the bed, my arm brushing his own. He leans the guitar against the bedside table.

“Are you alright honey?” Shawn murmurs, turning is attention towards me.

“I don’t know. I just feel as though all this information is going in and straight out my brain.” I mutter, flopping back onto the bed, my eyes fixated on the ceiling.

“Y/n.” Shawn says softly, moving to lay on his side next to me, his head propped up on his hand. “You are one of the smartest, hard working people I know and it may seem like you’re achieving nothing at the moment, but trust me, when you get to your exams all that information is just going to flood out onto your papers.” His other hand raises to cup my cheek.

“How can you be so sure that I won’t get in there and flunk them?” I whisper, his brown eyes holding my stare.

“Because I have complete and utter faith in you that you will do incredible, okay?” I nod, feeling his thumb rub my cheek bone softly and I raise my hand to rest it over his. “As long as you’re doing your best, that’s the most important thing. A grade doesn’t define you, baby.”

I smile at him, my eyes tearing up at his sweet words. “I don’t know how but you always manage to make me feel better.” I giggle, lifting his hand from my cheek to kiss his wrist.

“You’re my girl, I’m meant to know how to cheer you up.” Shawn chuckles, rolling onto his back and interlocking our hands. I hum in agreement, my hands absentmindedly playing with the fingers on his right hand.

“I suppose I should go back to studying.” I look at Shawn to find his gaze already on me.

“I suppose you should.” 

I don’t move. Neither does Shawn. 

“I could take a break though.” I think aloud, “And you could play me something on the guitar.” He grins at me, sending the last persuasive thought of studying to fly from my brain.

“I was just about to suggest that.”

[alone-in-madness]

Hi can u do a Shawn smut where they were on board on first class plane and there were no one else except them and they decided to just fuck on the plane? Thanks xx

That's SUCH a good idea but i dont write!! Sorry!!! You can ask @babyshawwn @thesmutofthemendes @dirtymendes @welldamnshawn @ftsgerald to do it because they are SO AMAZING WRITERS!! love u👏😏😍

[welldamnsatoru]

Chapter 10: We’re partners in crime // Shawn Mendes

Authors Note: AYYY so here it is.. last part :( so sad. LETS GO

Chapter 1:https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/165861136790/chapter-1-youre-going-to-wish-wed-never-been

Chapter 2:https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/166035402061/chapter-2-why-did-you-come-here-shawn-mendes

Chapter 3:https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/166104883601/chapter-3-ill-take-my-chances-shawn-mendes

Chapter 4:https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/166172386006/chapter-4-i-want-you-to-want-me-because-im-me

Chapter 5: https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/166248497496/chapter-5-were-a-perfect-match-shawn-mendes

Chapter 6: https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/166317428186/chapter-6-how-could-i-have-done-this-to-my

Chapter 7: https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/166496245691/chapter-7-i-like-you-as-a-good-girl-shawn

Chapter 8: https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/166865465451/chapter-8-i-want-us-to-be-soulmates-shawn

Chapter 9: https://welldamnshawn.tumblr.com/post/166897905431/chapter-9-i-just-shot-someone-shawn-mendes

Recap: My hands shake while I ring the cops, telling the voice on the other line what they need to know. She tells me there is help five minutes away. I don’t reply. All I can see is the moment I pulled the trigger and Jeremy falling to the ground.The phone drops to floor and so do I, curling my knees to my chest I stay there, tears trailing down my face.“I just shot someone.”

They sat me on the bed, Shawn passing me a water bottle which I griped in my still shaky hands. I look down at the plastic, peeling a part of the label away to distract my self from my thoughts. 

My thoughts that included seeing Jeremy fall to floor- blood staining his shirt playing on repeat. The gun ringing out and hearing Tommy’s surprised shout, it all blended together.

No one thought I would follow through and pull the trigger. I didn’t think I would do it either. The police came, tall officers dressed in navy blue who looked down at me with sympathetic glances. The female pulled me up off the ground and led me into the room Shawn and I had fell asleep in. 

Shawn and the two other officers followed shortly behind her and all stared at me, almost like they expected me to have a breakdown. I didn’t. I sat there quietly, tugging off the label, refusing to say a word to anyone.

“I’ve called your parents. They’re going to drive down and pick you up.” A male police officer tells me, crossing his arms over his chest. I look blankly at him. He coughs awkwardly.

“Can I have some time alone with my soulmate.” Shawn poses the question but it sounds like he’s telling them more than asking.

“We need to question her about today’s events, I’m sorry sir but since you’re both witnesses..” the man trails off and Shawn sends them a heated glare.

“She doesn’t have to say anything without a lawyer and frankly that’s exactly what she’s going to do.”

Their eyes meet and its a stare off.

“Jeremy had tied Shawn up, two guys had him on the floor and he couldn’t get away. I was under the bed, where Shawn told me to hide, but then I heard a gun shot. Worried about my match I went to see if he was okay but it was just a lure to get me to show my face.” The cops look at me intently, nodding for me to continue.

“Jeremy is the leader of the libertas gang on the south side and he had originally told Shawn to kill his match because that’s what libertas members do but Shawn refused. Jeremy said he would finish the job off for him and held the gun to my head. 

Shawn kicked one of the guys holding him and while Jeremy was distracted I grabbed the mug of the coffee table and smashed it on his head, he dropped the gun and I picked it up, pointing it back at him.” My words are toneless as I recite the story.

“Shawn had taken down the two guys so I said to Shawn to come to me, he did. I told Tommy and Jeremy to freeze and not to move or I would shoot. Jeremy lunged at me and my instinct took over and I shot him.”

The female officer nods. “It seems like it was more an act out of self defense but unfortunately,” She pales and pauses, her gaze flicking to Shawn who glowers at her. “If he dies, the family may take you to court.”

“You’ve heard her story, I want to be alone with her. Now.” Shawn orders and the female officer nods her head to her partners and they walk out, shutting the door behind them.

Shawn doesn’t say anything. He stands near the door, seeming to not know whether to approach me or to speak from where he stands.

“I told you not to leave the room.” Shawn says quietly. I sigh, leaning over to put the water bottle onto the bedside table. 

“I heard a gun Shawn, I thought you were shot.” 

He scoffs. “Jeremy would never have shot me.”

“But he would tie you up and threaten to shoot your match.”

My sentence creates another silence, strengthening the gap I can feel growing between Shawn and I. 

“I wouldn’t have let him shoot you.”

I don’t meet his eyes. I can’t. I don’t want to see the sympathy that is more likely going to be there. I might have killed someone and all I wanted to do was forget today ever happened.

“You did a good job of making sure that didn’t happen.”

His anger is quick to lash out and he storms over to me, raising my chin with his left hand so my eyes catch his.

“I was fucking tied up. I honest to God did not think that you would coming running out at one gun shot.”

“You obviously don’t know me very well then.” I snipe at him. He leans forward until his face is inches from mine.

“I know you well enough to know you don’t act rationally.”

“I thought they killed you!” I growl at him, glaring heatedly at him, my heart thumping as my fury grows. “I needed to know you were okay, damn the consequences.”

“You should have stayed where it was safe!” He lets go of me, recoiling away.

“I needed to know you were safe.”

“They could have killed you Y/n!” His voice breaks and I stare at him, watching as the anger dissolves into fear; fear for me. “They could have killed you and there would have been nothing I could have done except watch as your body would have fell to the ground just as Jeremy’s did.”

I wince at his words but he keeps talking.

“Seeing that... seeing you die would have been the worst moment of my life and I will do anything to not have to see that for as long as I can.” 

“You can’t stop the inevitable.” I murmur, and he takes a seat down next to me, his thigh brushing my own.

“Y/n.” I look at him. “When you shot him, I knew that things would change, they are changing.”

“Changing by me getting locked up behind bars.”

“Can you just listen to me? Please?” Shawn pleads and I fall silent, feeling slightly guilty.

“I would do anything to change our places right now. If Jeremy does pass away, it’s going to be hard, I don’t know how you’re going to react and that scares me- not knowing how to help you.”

I reach out, grabbing his hand and entwining our fingers.

“I just... I want to take all of your pain away, I want to take all the bad things I’ve brought into your life and just erase them permanently.”

“You can’t think like that Shawn.” I tell him softly. “There’s always going to be pain and awful things happening but we have to learn to move past them and move forward.” 

“When my Mum was alive-” His voice crackles when he says this, and I know he’s close to tears at the mention of his mother. I squeeze his hand gently. “She used to tell me, when you find your match, I hope she never goes though the pain that my father put her through.”

“Shawn.” I let go of his hand, instead wrapping my arm over his shoulders and pulling him into me until his head is resting against mine. He puts his hand just above my knee, the warmth heating my skin.

“I feel like I’ve failed you. My match who’s perfect for me and all I’ve done is tarnish her and forced her to shoot someone.”

“I did that to protect us. It was self defense.” I say bravely, yet we both know it could so easily get twisted into something more.

“If you want to never see me again, tell me now and I swear I’ll leave.” 

“Don’t be an idiot.” 

He chuckles, turning his head to kiss my temple.

“If you leave that would probably be my undoing. I need you now more than ever.”

“Even though I’ve been a shit soulmate?”

“Even though you’ve been a shit soulmate.” I grin and his shoulders shake gently as he laughs.

“We’re a match, a team and no matter what happens, we need to stick together.” He squeezes my thigh. 

“You could say...” I look at him cheekily. “We’re partners in crime.”

At least we could be shit soulmates together.