#well. i can just. do it next week. nbd if i dont today

[0bsc3ne]

my goal for 2024 is to, one per week, develop a new habit to help me restrict. last week was to not eat at night after getting home from my partner's. i think this week's is going to be to always plate food before i eat it- no more straight from the fridge or bag. and next week it's going to be to not always finish the entire plate and get ok with "wasting" food. so here's to seeing how those go

[sixthousandbees]

I have just managed to tidy my room for the first time in months! certainly hoover for the first time in months.

I did it by addiction baiting myself

I’ve been doing the four times runescape, but (understandably) its a bit overwhelming and tiring, and I (or part of me at least) got burnt out quickly. last time the runescape addiction took ten months to fizzle out. this time it was a week!

good news? bad news? I still really wanted to play it, but because playing it times four is a big ask I would start to open the instances and go NOPE and close them again. and I’ve been so tired I haven’t been able to do much anyway.

I’ve also been avoiding the energy drink, because I’m genuinely trying to fix my sleep schedule, but I dont think thats going to work.last night I slept for 5 hours, and the day before I slept for 14, and the day before that 12, and I have been exhausted for WEEKS. I am tired of being tired.

as today was 5 hours I woke up at 7am, and after a couple hours being groggy and failing to get myself moving I had some caffeine for the first time in a week. it is like .. 16 hours later and I am AWAKE I can FOCUS I AM ALIVE. I mentioned possibly staying up all night off handedly to mother&sister and they were absolutely not, at least try to sleep. BUT. I dont want to. its going to be another week or two of being dead and dead tired, and if I can squeeze another 4 hours of alertness out of this then fuck the broken sleep schedule.

ANYWAY. addiction baiting. sorry. so part of me wants to play runescape and part of me does NOT. the part of me that does not seems to be the one of us that does the thinking. the “thoughts” I hear in my head, the monologuing. the body seems to be the one that wants to play runescape. its also the one typing at the moment. a lot of things we do is high teamwork. teamwork so flawless we rarely notice it. but. we also fight a lot.

The room has been a mess for forever. The body doesn’t really care about the mess. it gets around it, nbd. the brain does not appreciate the mess, but fighting the body to tidy up the mess is exhausting as well. SO the brain made the promise that it will stop fighting the body in playing the runescape IF we can get clear floor (and clean bed. dumping everything on the bed doesn’t count)

and NOW. I am SITTING ON MY CHAIR. first time this year. I’ve had everything at 200% magnification whilst lying in bed. not sure I’m a fan of sitting. The floor is clear. the floor is hoovered. the bed is clear. the sheets have not been changed, but the runecape promise is for like a week, so maybe next week I’ll get clean sheets

[dandeliononthemoon]

*strums guitar* I love you bitch (affectionate)

*strums guitar* I won't ever stop loving you

Bitch (affectionate)

(was this a meme I've only heard audios of it iykyk if you don't 🤷‍♀️oh well)

Okay enough of that

Hope you're having a good day, staying hydrated and taking care of yourself

I'm doing good my allergy medication doesn't allow me to drink coffee so I've been coffee-less for a week now :/

In other news the other day I was laughing at something my mom said n I laughed so hard I walked into the corner of her bed and bruised myself 🤡👍 (twas okay nbd)

I've been thinking of getting back into journaling that was nice (I have not been consistent since like 2018

the mission "mj gets abs 2023" is afoot in full force and has been making me tired (which is good cuz I sleep on time then)

Oh also the other day my mom walked in on me spinning in my chair (uk those chairs that spin and have wheels) singing along to you belong with me (as one does). The poor woman didn't even question it she just went "ye ladki" *sigh* , closed the door and walked away 🤡💀

okay that's all I got

Sending you lotta love

-mj 🌙✨

MJ OMG HII

IT'S SO NICE TO HEAR FROM YOU I MISS YOU <333333

i.. dont think i know the meme, but same to you <3

it is okay today, the sun is out, but can't really enjoy it bc i am prepping for an exam monday (can you believe that my professor did not let us know when the exam was so i had to find out indirectly from a friend who said she was going on holiday that week bc there were no classes and i was shook so checked the schedule and that is how i found out) (that was 2 days ago so rip me) plus i have to work today, but it's fine, my uni friends are gonna visit me at work to have some choco milk together (employee benefit, the choco is free) bc we wont see each other next week and it is a way of celebrating the end of this uni term

ah clumsy mj that me too tho

2 days ago i was working and i walked up the escalator and then made to stand but i almost tripped then steadied myself and then somehow my knee buckled so i was hurt anyways, i am fine tho, just a scratch

oooh i could never quite get in to journaling bc i have a hard time developing habits and i never had smth particular to write down

but it is good that you are doing!!! do it if it makes you feel calm and nice and good and peaceful

keep it up with your workout!!! you can do it!!! i kinda started too but i haven't been really consistent (i should tho)

LMAO YOUR MOM WALKING IN AND THEN SIGHING LEAVING-

my mom doesn't comment about that stuff much either actually, i mean not even what your mom did, mine does not even notice i think lol

lots of love back at you with some extra sprinkles ✨

good luck with your exams you can do it (idk when they are but in advance)!!!