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Febuwhump Day 13 - "You weren't supposed to get hurt"

Part two of the We Forgot To Post Some Prompts Special. This one's family drama edition!

"...Kina?"

What.

Astotheles briefly abandoned his guard to glance to the side. Kina was frozen in the middle of moving into position, staring at the Royal Blade like she'd seen a ghost.

"...Maki?" Kina asked.

...did they know each other???

The Royal Blade- Maki, apparently, if that was his name. It was an odd trick of perspective to try and think of the mantis as the person who would have an informal name, considering that he had been half-certain the bug didn't have any sort of life outside of being Elizant's personal lap dog before now, but considering that Kina seemed to know him-

"I- Kina, what are you doing here? You- the mission- we thought you were dead!" 

Kina reared up- breaking formation entirely, Astotheles noted somewhere in the back of his head, but considering whatever bundle of something she was bringing to light with the Royal Blade, he couldn't really bring himself to resent it. He could easily question it, though. What in Bugaria could have possibly given her the chance to build any sort of relationship with Elizant's top minion?

Kina took a step back as the Blade- Maki, advanced on her. The blade fell limp in his claw as he abandoned his guard almost entirely. "I-"

"You- you were missing for months! Were you here this whole time?" His scent muddled as he advanced further, a mix of emotions that Astotheles struggled to decipher- and that he really shouldn't be spending the time to decipher, in the middle of a battle. Kina continued to back up, driven by the Blade - a sight that would've been almost comedic, if it weren't for the situation at hand. He was barely half her size against a bug that towered over most of the battlefield - and she was still retreating, though she smelled more of shame than of fear.

"Didn't you think that I might still care?" the Blade asked, somewhere between accusatory and hurt, and Kina reacted, flinching back as if she'd been struck.

"I didn't want you to get hurt!" she cried, distress leaking into her scent- an Ant stumbled out of her path as she flared her wings, a cricket darting around her ankles. Astotheles was getting increasingly certain that this was not the time or the place, and yet...!

The battle still raged around them. With the Royal Blade distracted, the tide was changing, if slowly. Astotheles caught a handful of bugs slowing, shooting glances at the unfolding drama in their midst before dealing with the actual fight. Distracted. Off their game.

He didn't have time for this.

"Kina-"

Astotheles had heard enough.

The mantis saw him coming, but he didn't react quickly enough. A sharp blow to the back of the claw, and he was disarmed- another few blows to the head knocked him out before he could bring his guard back up. The Royal Blade crumpled to the sand like a puppet with its strings cut, taken down by a needle-hilt to the head, and Kina jolted to attention, raising her blades in preparation to...

To attack the bug who had downed her squadmate. A conditioned response. And one that Astotheles knew very, very well.

She stared at the bug on the ground like her whole world had abruptly been turned upside down, and all that Astotheles could think was that we don't have time for this.

"We will need to talk about this later," he told Kina. Her expression wavered, stress, worry, relief, and resignment mixing so closely that he struggled to tell where one scent ended and the next began. It was a concerningly long moment before she nodded.

There was history, there. But he didn't have time for whatever new surprise that Kina had been hiding in her back pocket, and right now, he had a battle to win.

[schmetterlinq]

December 12th is my 28th birthday!

And so much has happened in 2017, I feel compelled to look back and ramble about my year....

Looking back, taking stock of my feelings, helps me process stuff. My head is so full of thoughts all the time that writing things out helps. And it feels particularly important this year like I said. Because so much has happened and for the first time in a long time, I can actually say the good has outweighed the bad for the most part. It didn’t always feel that way at the time, but in hindsight this has been the best year I’ve had in, well, years.

(It feels strange to say that when in the wider context it often feels like the world is falling apart. But maybe that’s why it’s even more important for us to remember individual good things.)

There’s so many things I want/need to talk about that I barely know where to start, so I’m going to do my mother’s favourite thing and make a list.

Family My sweet sibling, the first best friend of my life, got married this year. Their wife is from the US, and they met while she was in London on a university exchange. Funnily enough, my sibling was actually born in the US themselves, because at the time my father was working in NYC so we lived abroad. (I have little to no memory of this being 2 at the time.) Because being born in the US automatically gives you citizenship, my sibling has an American passport, and they were able to move out to be with their wife as soon as they were done with university in the UK. They didn’t have to deal with any difficult or expensive immigration requirements which was so fortunate for the two of them.

The two of them have lived together in the US for several years now, and while I miss them terribly, seeing their happiness makes my heart so full. My sibling is two years younger than me and we’ve always been so close. They have grown from the kid I spent nights crying with while they struggled with their gender identity and sexuality, into a happy, capable, confident, proud person. Being in a relationship and making a commitment to someone through marriage was always very important to them (I remember teasing them because they’d buy wedding magazines even as a teenager). They and their wife are perfect for each other. Our whole family adores my sibling’s wife, even our younger brother who generally hates everybody. She really feels like one of the family. She’s in our family group chat and everything (yes we have a family group chat, my dad needs somewhere to post all the animated emojis he finds on his iPhone…) They married in California and we were all able to be there which was so special. Seeing the life the two of them have built together is such a blessing. I will be able to see the two of them again this Christmas and I’m so excited. In California I felt free and light, and I actually enjoyed the sun and the hot weather. There was another special part of being in California which was ALICIA 💕… more on her later.

Work Since February, for the first time, I am working a full time job. I know, 27 is pretty old to start working full time – more on this later as well.

I was finally able to translate the experience from volunteering and part time work I’ve been doing for the past few years into a proper position (with a proper wage!) and although I moan about my job a lot, it’s really been a gift. To be honest, I used to worry my mental health wouldn’t allow me to work a full time job. Now it’s been nine months and I’m (mostly) coping. It’s been such a confidence boost. Getting this job also meant I was able to leave my old part time job, which gave me a lot of useful experience but had become a very toxic environment due to management changes and had been really getting me down. My new office is much more chill and friendly which has been much better for my mental health, and I am given much more responsibility as a full-time staff member and able to do more in depth work with my clients.

My role is helping cancer patients claim disability benefits and other welfare and financial aid. It’s hard sometimes but it feels important. The welfare benefits system is under attack in the UK at the moment and people are really struggling. I don’t do this job to feel good about myself of course but – it’s good to feel like I’m doing something to help, even a little bit, you know?

It’s also almost ten years now since my grandmother died, of cancer, which triggered the worst breakdown and depressive episode I’ve ever had and led to me dropping out of my dream university when I was 19 and spending nearly a year in my bedroom at my parents’ house watching daytime TV and hating myself. I wasn’t able even to re-start university until I was 21, which is why I am that much ‘later’ to really get into the world of work. I actually don’t think about my grandmother all the time at my job, although part of me worried before I started that I might. In fact weeks can go by and I don’t think of her much at all. But it feels right that this is what I’m doing now. It feels like I’ve come full circle, in a good way.

This isn’t what I want to do forever. Long term, I really want to go back to university and teach and write. But I enjoy this for now, I’m earning a wage, I’m gaining confidence and helping people, and I need to get my mental health and my self-discipline really back on track before I think about going back to learning. Which leads me neatly on to…

Mental health; the compulsion to write I’ve been on anti-depressants for nearly 10 years now, and I probably will be for the rest of my life. No shame, I don’t ever want to stop taking them, they’ve been lifesavers. On top of that I am finally – finally – taking the first steps for getting into treatment for my ADHD. I had my first consultation a month ago and my second is at the start of the new year. I’m trying not to hope for too much, but if I could find ways to navigate my executive dysfunction in particular it would really change my life.

Mentally, I’m always up and down. I think I’ll always have the tendency to get lost in dark places and take a while to find my way out, for the rest of my life. But overall I feel pretty happy. And more than happy I feel hopeful, and, for the first time in years, to my astonishment, to my disbelief, I feel… creative, I feel inspired to write again.

Writing was always my first love. I wrote my first ‘novel’ when I was 11; I used to get up at 5 in the morning to write chapters before school. (I still have a copy of this ‘novel.’ It’s hilariously, heart-warmingly bad. There are dragons.) Throughout my years at school, which I hated (I was good at the work but I had no friends), I would write like a mad thing to escape my dark moods. As well as prose I began writing poetry and, later song lyrics. I discovered fanfic when I was 16 and that helped me connect with other people who wrote, share my own writing and make the first real adult friends I ever had. Writing was a compulsion; I couldn’t not do it. I would write and dream, and dream of having other people read my writing and feeling touched by it.

My grandmother was also a (actual published) writer. We used to talk about our writing for hours. She was a kindred spirit to me, and when she died, it was as though I lost my creativity. It’s not that I haven’t written anything since then – I have, I even did creative writing as part of my eventual degree when I went back to school – but it was never the same. I never felt that absolute compulsion to write that used to fuel me in the past. It really felt as though part of me had withered away and died. I honestly had started to give up on it all together and tell myself it was a nice thing I did as a kid and then grew out of.

(Part of me doesn’t know how to write this next bit without feeling extremely embarrassed and exposed, like the time I got drunk at my uncles’ Christmas party and told a complete stranger my entire mental health history. But I’m also trying not to be embarrassed by my feelings and how intensely I have them, and I can’t explain where this is going without talking about this, so here goes.)

My love of kpop never really overlapped at all with my writing ambitions before, which was honestly a good thing. It was a welcome distraction from the fact that I often felt about as creative as a plastic bag.

Even just fandom wise, I have to stop and say this year has been kind of bananas. After Alicia (as I said – more on her later!) got me into EXO last year, I used to joke and say, well, at least this is the ‘worst’ i’ll ever get! I never had any interest in any other boy groups or liking any other boy groups or even sparing a passing glance at any other boy groups. I felt like I already had too many of them. I felt like in a few years I’d probably age out of kpop anyway as my faves started to retire so there wasn’t any point in getting into any much younger groups. I certainly never felt any interest in these new young trending boy groups, those were for the youths, get them off my lawn.

Then I read online that a member of BTS, Min Yoongi - who I was semi-aware of through a couple of mutuals, yes that means you Hyemi - had released a solo project that talked a lot about mental health issues. I was quite impressed by that – we all know that stuff is hard to talk about for anyone, and more so in the kpop industry. I was curious so I decided to download it and give it a listen.

I spent an evening with this solo project, a lyrics translation website and a bottle of wine. Somewhere halfway through, when he talked about being in a psychiatrist’s office with his parents, I remembered my own parents and them arranging my psychiatric appointments, and a chord rang in me and I started crying. By the end of the album I was crying more than I had in a long time but it was in the most cathartic, cleansing way. I listened to all the tracks all the way through about three more times and read the lyrics and just cried until I felt drained and uplifted.

For quite a while that was all there was to it. I would listen to his songs and feel happy and comforted. But of course after a while I started to want to know more about the person behind the songs. I saw a gifset of him just throwing glitter over himself and I knew he was going to steal my heart and he did. The trouble with this is, once you start to pay attention to one member of a group you inevitably learn about the others and start to appreciate them as well… then I made the mistake of telling Hyemi about this and she made it her mission to drag me further in and now, well, I find myself having adopted several new kids.

But back to my main point. At some stage, listening and thinking and feeling understood, I started to feel that compulsion to write myself again.

I feel like a part of me that was sleeping has woken up. I really want to write again. I’ve written songs again, a type of writing I really really had assumed was just an immature teenage hobby. I have a notebook in my bag again. I’m certainly not back to how I used to be as a teenager but it’s there, it’s still in me. I have no idea if it will really go anywhere but honestly… I don’t care. I have a part of me back I thought was gone for good, a part of me that I used to share with my grandmother and still makes me feel connected to her.

I never really feel any desire to meet or talk to celebrities I admire. I’ve done it in the past and it was always inevitably hideous and embarrassing and disappointing. But if there was a way, just as one writer to another, I would say, thank you, thank you.

And now with that (finally) over it’s time for the finale to this monster of a blog post,

ALICIA, or how EXO got Hattie a girlfriend

The biggest, brightest highlights of 2017 have been the times I was able to spend with my favourite person in the world, Alicia. Alicia was a highlight of 2016 too of course, but this was the year we finally got to meet in person. It had been well over a year of talking online all day almost every day, of

Alicia and I met, of course, right here on tumblr dot com, because we are that gay millennial cliche. We were casual online friends for quite a few years actually and used to chat on tumblr messenger about random shit. At the beginning of 2016, she decided she was going to get me into EXO (still an impressive feat, I’m sure some of you remember how I used to hate them) and we started messaging each other online multiple times throughout the day. We were both going through some quite tough things then, me with my shitty part time job sucking the life out of me and her with a very close friend/almost sister moving far away. We distracted each other with EXO and in the process, she became my best friend and also I kind of wanted to hold her hand a lot. We had no idea how we could make it work, neither of us had a lot of money and didn’t know if we could afford to travel regularly to visit, let alone even consider long term options like moving, but it felt too… important, too promising to let it go and so we just kept talking. And finally, finally, in May this year, with the boost that having my new full time salary gave me, I was able to fly to visit her in the US for a week. Our first days together were soft and lovely and rainy and we held hands and shyly got to feel comfortable with each other. In the summer I was lucky enough to have her as my plus one at my sibling’s wedding, and we got to spend some beautiful, extremely hot, silly days in California together. And then in November I spent my first real American Thanksgiving with her and her lovely family who have been so terribly sweet and welcoming to me.

I don’t want to be one of ~those people~ and write some novel length post about how great my SO is but part of me is honestly still in a state of ??? It seems so random that we even got to meet each other. We’re so similar and yet so different at the same time. She understands me and puts up with me when I’m being a grumpy little raincloud and cuddles me and makes me food and tea. She’s so cute and smol and fits perfectly under my arm. She takes me to Starbucks and for vegetarian food and she holds my hand whenever we walk together. She listens to me ramble about random shit and rambles back at me about the same. She indulges all my weird interests and even finds my enjoyment of car racing cute. She makes me feel like I’m not alone any more, I always have someone to go to who will support me and fight my corner and see the best in me, and I want more than anything to be that person for her as well. I love you, my koala 🐨💕

This is so long and I don’t know how to finish… I feel like my life might be going somewhere. For the first time in maybe ever. As I’ve said before. I don’t want to hope for too much. But most of my life, especially since graduating but even before that, even as a teenager, I felt directionless, like I was just being swept along. Now I feel like I’m finally starting to see some semblance of a path ahead. I don’t want to hope for too much. But it feels really good, it feels really good.

If you got to the end of this mess then congrats tbh. I wish you all a beautiful Christmas and the happiest new year!

(ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧*:･ﾟ✧ 

[thatsnotbeautiful]

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hi! thanks so much for making me a thing, i’m so excited to see what you come up with!

i tend to be pretty long-winded with my Dear Gifter letters, but please know that all of these are intended as suggestions or as jumping-off points for you to brainstorm ideas, if that sort of thing helps you. i’d say the only thing you “have” to read are my general dislikes, i.e. things i definitely do not want to see in a fic/art.

some of my ideas are nsfw, but definitely don’t feel like you have to include nsfw if you’d rather not.

likes

i really love fics that focus closely on characters, the relationships they have with each other, and the dynamics of those relationships. e.g.s: a character overcoming an obstacle, a character learning something important about themself, slow burn/relationship development, fluff and domesticity, rivals with benefits, complicated dysfunctional relationships - i could go on. (perhaps by extension, i also really like polyamory.) looking at characters and how they fit together is probably one of my favorite things in fanwork tbh.

i like canon-compliant works as much as AUs; i’d enjoy a “deleted scene” as much as a future fic or rock star or space opera AU. cute slice of life is great, but if doing an AU is something you’d be interested in, i particularly love anything involving scifi/advanced technology or magic.

dislikes

please none of the following: incest, non-con/dub-con, abuse/bullying, angst/unhappy endings (i’m fine with hurt/comfort or characters being sad or suffering as long as it’s resolved somehow?), pregnancy/kids/parenting, big age gaps, ageing characters down, gore/torture/graphic violence, character death, infidelity.

~ REQUEST 1: YURI!!! ON ICE ~

some things i love in YOI that i’d like to see more of in a piece of fanwork are: - characters using and keeping up with each other via social media - long-distance friendships/relationships and running into each other all over the globe - how most of the skaters seem to be friends with each other and sincerely cheer each other on while also compete with each other and want to achieve the best result they possibly can - characters developing their figure skating career - some of the costumes are so beautiful?? i’d love to see more stuff involving pretty clothes in other contexts, too (maybe even lingerie if you want to go nsfw, idk)

onto the ships:

--otayuri--

HELLO, WELCOME TO MY YOI OTP. i love both of these characters and their relationship in canon so much

laundry list of ideas:  - i like thinking that they provide a form of respite for each other, that they feel comfortable opening up to each other in ways they don’t with other people, that they can really be themselves around each other. (i’m thinking about when they’re having tea with each other and just chatting with those easy smiles.) some kind of scene like that would be lovely - i also like thinking about how both of them go so hard with skating and how hanging out with each other could be a kind of break from that specifically? so: spending time just doing fun things together, introducing each other to things they like, goofing off and being teenagers - teaching each other how to do things, e.g. Otabek teaching Yurio how to ride a motorbike or Yurio teaching Otabek how to cook pirozhki  - soft domesticity: sharing a bed, cuddling on the couch while watching a movie, just general taking care of each other - Yurio introducing Otabek to his cat or taking care of a pet together  - relationship development! slow burn, friends -> lovers, snapshots of how their relationship develops over time, UST!! bonus points if one or both of them don’t realize their growing feelings for each other right off the bat - rivalry! Otabek challenging Yurio for the gold and how that effects their friendship (if it even does at all)! - getting into a fight or one of them Honestly pissing the other off and then making up again - literally Anything w Yurio acting catlike  - rule 63 or any kind of trans hcs  - fantasy (actual fairy+hero?) AU - kemonomimi AU

nsfw-ish ideas: (some of the prompts make more sense if they’re older and presumably have more experience) - first times - size difference (Otabek picking Yurio up and carrying him around; Yurio growing taller than Otabek as he gets older seems to be a popular hc, but i actually like him staying shorter/smaller/slighter ;;)  - Yurio wearing Otabek’s clothes and Otabek getting flustered at the sight (or vice versa) - Yurio being really bendy and just, casually stretching around Otabek and Otabek getting super Flustered  - i love... D/s... i think either role could work wonderfully for either of them. i love Yurio being a bratty, fighty bottom who wants to be pushed around and put in his place, and Otabek being an unyielding top who is so soft and doting during aftercare (pain kink, “punishment”, humiliation, choking, overstimulation, bondage, gags, collars, petplay are all fair game here); but likewise i also love Otabek quietly yet very desperately wanting Yurio to step on him  - presentation play e.g. wearing heels, lingerie, other pretty clothes - not used as a humiliation thing or source of embarrassment, though, it is only a good and awesome thing - again, rule 63 or trans hcs are A-OK --Yurio friendships w/women--

Yurio is so, so important to me. so are literally all the female characters in the show, they're all so great and different despite being minor characters. it goes without saying, then, that Yurio and his relationships to femininity, to women in general, and to specific female characters are all very important to me, too. 

when i say "Yurio and femininity" i don't just mean in terms of presentation, although that's definitely part of it: i love Yurio's brashness when we first meet him contrasted with the delicate hand-flick right in Yuuri's face; i love that he's nicknamed both the "Russian punk" as well as the "Russian fairy"; i love that his hair and outfits for his routines are pretty feminine and he is totally okay with that. 

i love that so much of his strength as a skater ("eyes like a soldier") comes through ballet, which is typically regarded as being very feminine and delicate (despite being one of the most hardcore and brutal types of dance ever)

Yurio & ballet - i'd love to see something about his development over time, either pre- or post-canon, or something about how he feels about ballet and his training in general. something just showing him practicing would be great too

Yurio & women  - i have a lot of feelings about how he doesn't really have any female figures in his life family-wise, but ends up having a female role-model/coach in the form of Lilia, and friends in the form of Yuko and Mila. i like the idea of him looking up to them (esp Lilia and Yuko) and deriving strength from them.  - with any of the three, i'd really like to see their relationships developing as Yurio grows up 

Yurio & Lilia - i love Lilia so much, she's such a no-nonsense hardass and demands so much from Yurio but also gives him such fond, proud looks whenever he's skating. - anything with Yurio trying his hardest to meet Lilia's expectations - them interacting outside of the skating/ballet context (i mean, he lives in her house for a while???) - seeing the post-canon aftermath of Yurio winning gold and breaking Viktor's record

Yurio & Yuko - i love that Yuko was one of the only people who was truly, outright "nice" to him when he came to Hasetsu, i love that she cheered him on before the Hot Springs on Ice exhibition when he seemed to really need it, i love that they still keep in touch. - Yurio visiting her in Hasetsu when he's older or Yuko going to watch him skate - Yurio interacting with her family as a whole (the triplets!!)  - Yuko acting as a source of emotional support for Yurio

Yurio & Mila - anything featuring their bickering-sibling-like friendship (but also supporting and maybe even doing nice things for each other through all the teasing!!) - if you like otayuri, i really like the idea of Mila realizing Yurio has a crush on Otabek, and consequently teasing him about it or using it to mess with him. i love Kubo saying that Mila is "into Otabek"; i really like the idea of her being flirty at Otabek or telling Yurio that she wants to be, again, just to mess with Yurio or maybe spur him into making a move but also because, hey, Otabek is pretty damn cute, and flirting with cute people is fun. 

--Phichit ships--

i will straight up admit it right now: i love Phichit Chulanont with my whole entire heart, hence i mostly requested these ships with him at the forefront of my mind. 

(that said, i do like all the other characters as well, i wouldn't have requested them if i didn't, haha. i'd be more than happy to read fic focusing more on them instead, if that's what you're more comfortable with. any shippy content with Phichit in it is automatically good content, even if he might not be the POV character or main focus.)

Phichit things i'd love to see in any capacity for any of these ships: - Phichit's 5GB external hard drive of blackmail material that he's Too Nice to actually use - Phichit's Internet Thirst; or: ANYTHING involving taking selfies, or photos, or video. getting other characters into SNS or helping them with it. soliciting help from them to get the Perfect Lighting. general communicating via social media (and yes this includes nsfw stuff: sending nudes, taking sex videos and voice recordings, etc) - Phichit attending this year's GPF banquet with everyone - Phichit being That Friend who is always in on all the gossip in spite of it happening, like, on another continent - Phichit who isn't looking for a serious relationship but who really enjoys casual FWB setups, who gets propositioned by other figure skaters on the regular, who loves making out and who considers smooching his friends p much a form of greeting

more ship-specific ideas:

Phichit / or & Yuuri - i am absolutely here for former boyfriends or former FWBs. i do like it happier rather than angsty, though? they dated or messed around in Detroit and amicably parted ways, and by the time we reach canon Phichit is sincerely happy for viktuuri - i also like it purely platonically. their friendship is so important to me. Yuuri calling Phichit at whatever hour in the day, Phichit including Yuuri in his dream of reaching the GPF final, both of them respecting each other a lot as skaters and hoping for the best for each other - i love the idea of them experimenting and experiencing first times together - first kisses, trying out sexual things with each other. even better if it involves a lot of laughter and even awkwardness that results in more laughter - Yuuri telling Phichit Everything regarding him and Viktor, even back when it was just him fawning over the posters of Viktor he had in his room - Yuuri talking to Phichit about his sex life with Viktor in exhaustive detail or asking his advice/opinion on certain things; Phichit doing the same w his various escapades with various other people - you know how there are those fan theories like “the pole dancing moves Yuri was doing at the GPF banquet weren’t easy, he must’ve taken pole dancing classes at some point before” - Phichit taking those pole dancing classes with Yuuri is 100% canon to me. so anything involving that (and potential makeouts after class while still wearing their pole dance gear) - taking sexy pictures together/Yuuri helping Phichit take The Perfect Nude - just keeping up with each other and their daily lives over time and distance after their training in Detroit comes to an end - visiting each other’s homes in Japan/Thailand!!

Phichit/Leo/Guang-hong or Phichit/Guang-hong - all three of them being super into SNS together - for Phichit/Guang-hong, Guang-hong seems so soft and sweet, i really like the idea of Phichit Dragging him into shenanigans and generally being a “bad” influence - Guang-hong having a hidden spicy/mischievous side is also good though - one thing i really like that’s applicable to these three is two people already being in a relationship flirting/pursuing the third person, coming to terms w the fact that they’re both crushing on someone else, enjoying the fact that their s.o. has a crush bc wow it’s hella cute. the flip side is also good: the third person crushing on both members of a couple at once and deciding what to do about that (here it’d be Leo/Guang-hong as the established couple and Phichit as the third) - Leo/Guang-hong is honestly super cute, i love how they were watching the streams while chatting with each other and i love how much Guang-hong outright admires Leo

Phichit/Chris - i'm actually pretty fond of Chris? he seems like a good friend and his over-the-top ice fuckiness is both awesome and hilarious - i like Phichit/Chris because they occupy similar "good friend" roles for the show's protagonists (Yuuri and Viktor), they're also both fun and outgoing people, i think they'd have a lot of fun together - Phichit Loves being in on the Drama and taking incriminating photos of his friends; Chris is basically a walking incriminating photo - viktuuri wedding planning and/or best man shenanigans - POLE DANCING TOGETHER - Phichit taking photo/video of one of Chris's routines (either bc Chris asked him to for reference or bc he just wants to idk) and things get Spicy

~ REQUEST #2: HAIKYUU!! ~  ushishira - (mutual) pining - Shirabu being jealous/possessive - i have been pretty darn fixated on the “will you use me mercilessly in any situation” line from S3 so, uh, anything riffing on that  - JUST D/s AND BOTTOM USHIJIMA IN GENERAL - Shirabu who’s dealt w having a debilitating crush on Ushijima for So Long (that he perceived was unrequited) that when he actually starts dating Ushijima he doesn’t know what to do w himself for a good while - ushishira from the POV of a third party, esp get-together fic; other teammates making comments @ either of them about their crush(es)/developing relationship - anything involving devotion, including AUs (retainer/lord, priest/god, etc) - mind-share, mental links, fusion (Steven Universe-style), bodyswap  - FAKE DATING!!  tenshira - one of the things i love most about these two are their vastly differing approach to volleyball - Shirabu, though irreverent, is also deliberate and conscientious, while Tendou works best when running with his gut and doing things that are considered out of the ordinary by most players. i can see that translating to their approach to dating? e.g. Shirabu doing things Properly and Tendou just swinging in and sweeping Shirabu off his feet  - Shirabu clearly finds Tendou Annoying and he’d probably continue finding him annoying even while crushing on him. Tendou probably enjoys bothering Shirabu a little too much. - frenemies -> lovers - both of them bonding over having unrequited feelings for someone else (Ushijima?) and ending up getting with each other instead along the way  goshiten - my favorite goshiten dynamic is Tendou enjoying messing with people and Goshiki being perhaps a little too gullible than is good for him. just how much can Tendou get Tsutomu to do. (nothing outright malicious though plz) - Goshiki’s Praise Kink. anything with Goshiki being eager to please or Tendou finding him so cute and being very free and abundant with his compliments - date fic! especially Goshiki being like i am going to take you out on a DATE and aiming to impress and Tendou enjoying every minute of it regardless of whether Goshiki messes anything up (as he inevitably does)

akakuro - they’re both very caring in their ways, and spend a lot of time looking out for other people on their team. i think they’d definitely recognize that quality in each other. - in a lot of my Akaashi ships, i think of Akaashi as a good shoulder to lean on for the other character, but i think Kuroo is one person who wouldn’t need to depend on Akaashi as much, and who Akaashi could let himself relax around? - showing appreciation for each other, spoiling each other, relaxing together. - UST is great. Kuroo being very smitten and sweet and romantic about Akaashi is great. - Akaashi teasing/dragging Kuroo and Kuroo lowkey enjoying every minute of it - flirting, enjoying that in-between period of both parties knowing they like each other but not having actually gotten together or clearly acted on it yet  - Akaashi wearing beautiful clothes 

~ REQUEST #3: FIRE EMBLEM: FATES ~

Hinata/Oboro/Takumi and Hinata/Takumi - i am so, so weak for lord/retainer stuff and both of them are so clearly devoted to him, holy shit, they even purposefully dress like him and compete over who is better to him, in Conquest route they freaking die for him. and i love how Takumi clearly has soft spots for them and feels more comfortable around them, e.g. doing nice things for them both, being noticeably less prickly around them  - devotion stuff aside, though, i’m also really interested in them navigating that space between retainer and friends/lovers. Hoshido seems to have pretty clear shoulds and should-nots when it comes to how a retainer should act yet these three easily seem to bend these (e.g. Hisame commenting that Hinata acts Overly Familiar with Takumi) - if you go the OT3 route - please involve both Oboro and Hinata equally; i’d love to see either a V-relationship with both of them dating Takumi and being close friends with each other, or all three of them dating - if you go the Hinata/Takumi route - i am so tickled by the fact that they’re overly familiar to the point that Hisame notices it and thinks it’s inappropriate, and i love that Hinata’s supports are about him putting on show fights for Takumi to cheer him up - anything expounding on either of those things would be great - any of them doing something super nice for the others - surprising them with a gift or taking them on a nice trip - bathing together, sleeping together - helping Takumi unwind - brushing Takumi’s hair - helping Takumi deal w his nightmares - h/c (bonus points if someone cries) - comfort sex or stress-relief sex - altered states, sex pollen, marathon sex

Mitama/Rhajat - GOD, i love my weird trouble girls, they’re probably my F/F OTP??? their supports are so great, i love how they’re both odd in different ways and kind of alienate other people, i love that they end on this BFF/”us against the world” note - anything extrapolating off of them teaching each other stuff, maybe Mitama even teaching Rhajat about poetry and Rhajat teaching Mitama about summoning the undead - anything focusing on (their different brands of) magic, i love magic - future fic showing them living their lives together, traveling the world together - all of the above sounds like it could easily be platonic but i definitely don’t want it platonic. i want them to kiss and to be so very Overwhelmed by gay feelings (especially Rhajat) - expressing love and affection in ways that look fucking strange to outsiders. Rhajat being her creepy self (like when she has feelings for MyUnit in-game) but Mitama finding that so utterly charming

Scarlet/female!Corrin - oh my god... i’m so frustrated by how this plays out in the game like their supports are pretty much The Most Romantic thing ever but then you can’t marry her if you’re playing female Corrin, and even if you marry her as male Corrin she gets killed off in like 2/3rds of the game routes fjdskhg - post-game fic (but with Scarlet surviving, somehow). how they live out their days at court. they’re both pretty unfamiliar with court life? Scarlet is, well, a rebel, and Corrin has been sequestered away throughout most of her life, it would be interesting to see them figure their new lives out together. - getting dressed up together and going to fancy events like banquets etc - CONVERSELY: Corrin running away w Scarlet on Adventures - get-together fic, date fic, anything involving lots of cute flirting and those first fuzzy blushes of romantic feelings - anything playing with Corrin’s ability to transform into a dragon