#welcome to another episode of Blu Overshares Like a Dumbass

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rose-coloured goggles: what’s one risk you took that ended up being completely worth it? | grin: what was the last thing that made you smile - really smile? | cookies: chocolate chip or blueberry?

thanks for the ask resiot! 

 im answering rose-coloured goggles last and out of order bc i rambled way too much xD

grin: does this count? also when i saw this ask and a) noted that u asked it almost immediately after i rb-ed and b) saw you asked this question i did grin too hehe :D 

cookies: that is such a hard question xD i think im going with chocolate chip bc i could eat that stuff for days on end haha its so goooood dammit i want a cookie now 

have a virtual cookie too resiot 🍪(lactose-free) 

rose-coloured goggles: uhh hmmm putting myself out there for a series of social events at a club at my uni that i wasnt sure if i should commit to but i was like well why not make some new friends and though zoom speed dating was  pretty daunting and my heart was pounding throughout the awkward social interactions, it was worth it cause i did get to meet some new people and get a  “big” plus a “sib”! it wasn’t rushing or anything close to that level of commitment (that stuff is scary ahaha) but it was like a big/little event just for the club, and even though i felt like i embarassed myself a lot (rip)  im glad i did it and stepped out of my comfort zone; also i realize i still dont really have a “completely worth it moment” yet so heres another story if u wanna hear more rambling:

idk if this counts as a risk, but i was about to go to a travel swim meet (6th grade i think?) and my friend literally just told me that she wasnt going after she promised me she would and she was the only friend i had who i knew was going so naturally i was like omg ahhhh like who am i going to hang out with?? how to social?? and then i didnt want to go anymore bc i was too scared but its not like i could back out bc my parents already paid for it plus i already signed up for events and my coach was expecting me to be there, so i went. 

the morning of, my mom was dropping me off at the bus but i didnt have anyone to sit with and i was too scared to ask anyone so my mom was like, hey that girl looks like she’s alone, want to ask her to sit with you? and lemme tell u my little heart was pounding so hard bc even tho im shy now i was a lot shyer before so i was like omg what if she says no what if she says no what if she judges me and! she said yes! and we hung out together at the meet sometimes (i was still too shy so uh i turned down her offers of me joining her and other ppl bc those were,,,fast swimmers and i was intimidated so i just played games on a tablet i was actually able to borrow for once on a trip bc my parents knew my friend ditched me and i didnt know anyone OTL)  

fast forward like 1 year later we’re in the same swim group (also we went to the same middle + high school), and we become super close friends! still are to this day, and i am super glad i met her <3

...haha thanks for reading through all that 😅also i hope u enjoyed the drunk squirrel if u clicked on the link hehe