#weirdtink rambles

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Moving halfway across the world by yourself to start a new life is all fun and games (it really isn’t) until you’ve got a fever of 39C and there’s no one to even make you a cup of tea.

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Just a personal ramble on friendship

One of my best friends N went back to our home country a couple months ago and our bestie M who still lives there had given her a couple things to give to me. She just sent me the package and M's stuff is here, but also a bunch of things N made me. a DIY smiling pitbulls photo album cause that's the only thing that cheers me up, she framed my new acceptance letters to grad schools, wrote me a heart-wrenching card, got me stickers, and a Vimto to celebrate (cause I can't drink champagne).

i miss my country a lot, and i'm living in a city by myself, while my 3 closest (and only) friends are either in different states or halfway across the world, and my sister on the opposite coast. yet they never fail to support me and show me that they love me, through all of it.

we were talking the other day about how the four of us went through so many different friendships to find each other, and how we all have different dynamics with each other that have evolved as we moved away at different times, but how that's never affected our group dynamics or our 1-on-1. we've never doubted each other's intentions, we never doubt that we love each other. among other things...

I found these 3 amazing people as a young adult and they showed me what true friendship, love, and support is. they've raised my standards for any new friend or potential partner who may come into my life because I don't know if anyone will ever match what they bring to my life and the person I've become because of them. and for once, I don't doubt that I'm a good friend either. I know I offer all this back. i know that all my love and patience and effort is seen, felt, and appreciated. we have different love languages and neurodivergencies and yet they all seem to fit together like a perfect puzzle.

the whole point of this ramble is just remembering how lucky I am to have finally found my people who never fail to remind me that I am seen and loved and cared for, after abusive relationships and manipulative friendships, and I hope that for everyone. nobody should go through this without a person or a few people who have your back and your heart no matter what.

I hope someone today reminded you how much they love you and how much you mean to them. and if not, then this is your reminder. it gets better, you find your people, and you learn that you deserve love.