#weepy answers

[canisalbus]

your art makes my cry so hard that im genuinely scared to read the fic. i dont think ill ever recover from my heartstrings being pulled so agressively. im suing you for my medical bill :/ you owe me a heart repair

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[yoshinoritoshi]

blegh...i request your weepy thoughts...lays on the street dying like a poor orphan

Please do not die... I think he would crash out if you died, or whatever the kids say nowadays... Now then, let's see...

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I know many like to make him out as a bit too obsessive/possessive, but I don't really see that with him in canon... In actuality, I think he's so insecure over himself that he tries to keep you close to him so he can observe how others interact with you, he'd pretty much be tied to your hip if he could, but he knows that's inappropriate, so he holds himself back. (He does have some self-awareness at times!)

Maybe he does watch you from afar sometimes, but it's nothing you aren't aware of, as he tells you he likes to see how you're doing even if he's not right there with you... Just as long as he doesn't miss out on doing his own thing while watching you, you don't mind, and he's eternally grateful for that. It's assuring knowing you aren't upset with him for being so worried over you, after all, there's lots of dangerous survivors within the manor...

Basically, what I'm saying is, I think he needs reassurance, and he needs to be able to self-regulate his own emotions by doing his own assurances at times. Methods that you've given him permission to do or approval for, as he believes upsetting you is akin to forfeiting his right to life itself... Weepy can be extreme, but he can also be easily convinced by you into breaking bad habits and to adopt new ones.

Is that a bad habit in of itself? To do anything you want him to do? To be willing to change his entire being if it means you'll stay with him? Maybe. (Though you never order him around, it's all just suggestions!) But he never wants you to feel pressured to stay with him or indulge him or love him, and even if it would hurt him immensely, he'd let you leave him. Just as long as you don't go to someone who wouldn't care for you, he'd be okay with that...

And if you did leave him for someone like that? Well, he knows how to take care of them, all for your safety, of course. Then if that event caused you to come back to him, he'd be delighted to welcome you with open arms, promising you that he doesn't blame you at all for getting involved with such a nasty person... And he means it, to him, it's never your fault, just the people around you.

I wouldn't call your relationship with him as toxic, but he can be a bit excessive... He'd never hurt you, or yell at you, or anything like that, but he's self-destructive on occasion, which can be worrying... Comfort him and help him learn some confidence, and I think it'll all be alright. There's nothing Joker wants more than your happiness, and to have his own on top of that? It's a dream come true.

[hyperfocusthusly]

🤕 🤕🤕🤕

Hello darling 🧡

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“But,” he takes a steadying breath, “when you nearly left? I-” Tommy’s fingers tighten around Buck’s wrist. “I knew that it wasn’t right, I don’t remember why I feel safe with you, I just know that I do. We aren’t supposed to be apart.”

Buck feels completely frozen.

“A-and I know you want to go,” he pulls in on himself, “and I have no right to ask you to stay,” he falters, worries at his bottom lip. “But I know you’re supposed to be here.” Tommy takes a step towards him, something soft and pleading in his eyes. “We’re supposed to be here.” He says it so softly, so simply as if he hasn’t just made Buck feel like he could be knocked over by a light breeze.

Buck takes a deep breath, tries to stop his voice from shaking.

“I was only going because I thought you didn’t want me.”

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Forget me not

[heartstringsduet]

I need a fic where Carlos goes out with his ranger/ pd buddies for a birthday/ celebration & tk has to pick him up bc he’s v drunk and Carlos gets stressed bc he has a Husband™️ and he loves him and is obsessed with him and is not interested in a very hot man and then being like OMG your my husband??? When tk tells him and then he gets all cuddly & starts gossiping about the stuff he found out whilst he was sitting there (bored/ but entertained) at the party😂

Ahahaa I love your mind!! I can totally see him being pretty stoic and focused at work, with Ranger Soup being the only one tilting his head over in the cubicle and seeing that Ranger Reyes is occupied with making a new photo manip for TK's 30th in his break. So when they all go out for Ranger Dijon Mustard's (or smt) birthday and see Carlos drunk because he's not used to holding much liqour anymore, they see a lot more of his very goofy and in love side. "My HUSBAND saved someone from the Chrysler Building once. In New York. My husband is from New York." "...we know." "Yeah? Oh. Did I mention that my HusBanDDD~ is from New York?... He saved a stink bug once. As a kid. My husband was a kid once and an environmentalist in the making. Married to the best person on the planet you know?" Carlos blinks and blinks. "The best." I might write this anon. I might, if my brain gets less mushy this week.

[tohruies]

omg i made it to coco’s inbox ahh i never manage to !!

okay so i know absolutely nothing about karasu which feels like a crime because i love tabico, but what better way than to get to know him through someone who loves him - so if you had to describe him, how would you? and linked to that, what about him made you fall for him??

and also i love you so much, always <3333 i hope june is an amazing month for you !!

ERIS, I LOVE YOU!!!!!! i am so happy to have you here, how are you!!!!!! THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS ASK. i am already tearing up thinking about my response 🥹💘 wah. Wah.... top 5 asks that could kill a coco......... ;;;;

i hope it is not repetitive of me to say this, but i like to think of karasu as a pomegranate 🥺 from the outside, he's hard to read... thick skinned, but not necessarily in a mean way ;; just... sealed? you can't tell what he's feeling by looking. he's tough on the surface, maybe a little rough too, like he's protecting something inside. but if you take the time to open him up... very gently and very tenderly, what's inside is so red and vibrant and beautiful 🥺 all the pieces of his heart like seeds tucked close together where they're safe and no one with malicious intent can reach him 🥺

and he's not easy!!!! you can't just bite into him; you have to be patient... he's the kind of person you have to work for, i think. not because he wants to make it hard, but because he's been dropped a few times and knows that not everyone is gentle 🥺 you get your hands stained with him, but if you're willing, he gives you something so incredibly honest and precious. and once you see the inside of a pomegranate, you never forget it, you know! ah. this is how karasu feels to me... (⌯˃̶᷄ ﹏ ˂̶᷄⌯)ﾟ

WARNING: THERE IS A VERY LONG LIST UNDER THE CUT 🥺🥺🥺

i love that he doesn't know how beautiful he really is

i love the way he looks at "ugly" things... how he doesn't turn away from them. and how he doesn't pretend they are "beautiful" either. he just sees them for what they are -- somehow that makes them softer

i love that he gets angry at unfair things. i think it means that he cares more than people (and he, himself) realise

i love that he never tries to impress anyone and how he just does what needs to be done. even when it's hard. even when no one acknowledges his efforts

i love that he is not afraid of scary things... rough things... the harshness of this world. be he is afraid of soft things, like being loved too gently or being seen too clearly

i love that he does things without asking for thanks, like fixing things that are broken, or listening when no one else does. i love how he remembers things that seem small

i love that he is not always kind, at least, in the way the world likes. but he is kind 🥹 in the way thorn bushes are kind because they protect their roses... something like this

i love how he isn't gentle in the way people expect, but doesn't drop what matters to him

i love how he walks like someone who doesn't expect to be followed

i love that he doesn't try to be understood, even if it makes him very lonely sometimes

i love the way he looks at things when he thinks no one's watching. the way his eyes pause on small, ordinary miracles, like a butterfly emerging from its chrysalis or steam curling from a bowl of soup

i love that he's not always easy, because most things worth loving aren't

[prettyboykatsuki]

do u have a sona at all ? I’d love to draw fanart for u as thanks for all the free writing u give us ♡

this made me so emotional skdjfkjsdf that is very sweet of you. i dont really have a proper sona but i do have some selfship art where u can see me !!!

here they are

one | two | three

[gigglesandfreckles-hp]

Hello hello! Ok it’s nighttime and I finally have a minute to gush over Right Timing properly so here I am. First of all I didn’t wait AT ALL to read it I snuck glances at the chapter while driving to work (never have I been this grateful for traffic) but I had to stop when they met outside the bathroom because I just couldn’t stop smiling like a loon. Then I reread the whole thing at lunch and again now that I’m home in bed so I feel properly ready to discuss it.

If you asked me before I couldn’t quiteee put my finger on what I loved so much about this fic in particular. You said yourself there’s a million amazing angsty-James-and-lily-pining-hard-before-they-get-together-but-don’t-admit-it fics- and like ten of them are yours. (another fav of mine is the jilytober one that ends with James going to ‘change the circumstances’ I’ve reread that ten billion times the fact he makes lily wait in the passageway as if her leaving would break this moment is peak James and I’m obsessed). But this one just hits different and when the first chapter came out it literally left a void in me that I NEEDED more of them and I had no clue why. Now I realise that what I love about it is that the whole story sits on a crossroads. Both of them are so into each other, they are both talking about it, but it’s like they’re soliloquising - WE can hear the obvious truth but they seem to be passing each other by. Lily talks about her dream guy, describes James, he has no clue. James talks about how the timing seems to finally align with the girl he likes (and literally nearly kisses Lily when he does it) but lily doesn’t know it’s her. And on top of that, they’re both hanging on the precipice of romantic decisions: James with Emmeline and lily (though shes said no) with Bertram. The whole scene can either go one way or the complete other and where it ends we have no clue. And it’s so beautifully written that their mutual yearning, their bittersweet efforts to make the other happy, seem so genuine. I wholeheartedly believe that this James and Lily love each other so much, are so besotted with each other that they simply can’t bring themselves fully to say it. Everything is so up in the air and yet so close to perfect that reading it makes me frustrated in the best possible way.

And now with this new scene, it all just perfectly falls into place. There’s just enough prelude to the confession that the longing between them is evident and then James comes up to Lily and the whole story shifts. And as a reader you realise that what may have previously felt just out of reach for these two was absolutely inevitable. Lily is James’ dream girl, he is the love of her life. It’s so damn obvious that it was gonna fall into place. It was ALWAYS gonna end up like this and for, it makes the bullshit from the first chapter feel so much dumber but also so much more necessary, because how can two teens ever ever risk something so important on a late night chat when one’s just been asked out and there’s even a flicker of doubt about the others’ feelings? It’s too big a jump for the most important relationship in their lives.

And then James (of course) has enough of waiting and takes the risk. I wonder if Sirius spoke to him in between scenes but I like to think he doesn’t need to. James just sees the pieces fall into place, sees what he’s wanted for years and says fuck it and acts. And Lily, who is usually incredibly brave, who has been in plenty of uncomfortable situations, who has lost so many of those closest to her to standing up for what’s important to her, all of a sudden can’t do that. All of a sudden is a complete coward, is in complete denial, is letting the crutch of her stubbornness hold her up against what’s right in front of her. Because this is more important than anything else, and she can’t risk it or lose it the way she’s lost other things, other people. And she needs James to say it, needs him to fully take the leap. And he does, shy and earnest and a little scared even if a part of him knows she’ll jump with him, and she does too.

Like that scene is so quintessential Jily. It’s so rare for me to feel the characters jump off the page like that, esp in short fics like this because there’s just not the space to make them three dimensional, but abi honestly you did it so so well. Watching them progress it all just made sense, like yes they are dumb and stupid and young but it HAD to happen that way goddamit, it just did. Like they made it so hard for themselves but that’s what it fucking took and it WORKS.

Not to mention the last bit was so hot like James pulled the moves out in this one. If that’s what we’re in for in your m rated summer fic then honestly SIGN ME UPPPP. When he said “I think you want me to touch you” I nearly dropped my phone like I was in so much shock?? Like last chapter u can’t even tell her u like her directly now ur here being SMOOTH about it?? Best line hands downs

Other favs include

Lily reflecting on how her older self would look back at this as a low point (and then fully preparing herself to go back and continue to put herself through it - very typical 17 year old girl behaviour)

Lily liking frozen butterbeer like yes this is my fellow iced latte all year round girl

James telling emmeline let’s go as friends and then sitting her with the girl he actually fancies?? Like the poor girl but honestly it made me laugh a little bit he’s so STUPID

Bertram saying “I thought I lost you” when he saw her talking to James like everyone else is INCREDIBLY aware of their feelings for each other huh

James knowing lilys butterbeer order and getting pissed she’s buying her own drinks on a date. Yes James, what WOULD you do if you took Lily out? Maybe you should ask her so we can all find out hm?

The subtle eye contact and banter between J/L like they’re so in sync

James being obviously jealous and Lily getting mad and yet STILL not putting the pieces together.

And from chapter one: you saying Sirius was sharp as a dog I giggled

Actually your entire Sirius characterisation is incredible I’m in love w how you write him but here esp he’s such an ass and I love it

Also from ch 1 James freezing his parchment so Lily can sleep on his lap like u ain’t slick sir?? Honestly the only thing stopping Lily from realising how (ahem) into her he was at that moment was the pillow in his lap

Last but not least have to mention I’m obsessed with the part where they’re talking ABOUT TO KISS and lily still doesn’t think he likes her and James STILL CANT ASK HER OUT I love my idiots in love but god I wanted to bang their heads together and also sit and stare in awe and appreciate the moment so much like UGH it was so PERFECT.

Right so I have to stop this has gotten insanely long I’m so so sorry. Abi I can’t say thank you enough for this it honestly made my day. I know you said it’s a couple weeks late but the universe has perfect timing bc honestly I needed this today especially and I’m so so grateful. Have a wonderful day Miss freckles we love youuu xxx

anon! i have no words! (except of course i do because i’ve got a phd in yapping)

play-by-play comments are the best! and…are you in my brain? like actually? because yes!!!! you get it! sometimes when i make jily do something especially stupid, i get self-conscious because i’m like ‘okay no one’s actually that blind��� and i worry that their mutual pining is too exaggerated. but then i remember what it was like to be 17 and in love and constantly wondering if i was reading too much into the boy’s actions or if i was just imagining things i wanted to see and then that little thread of worry would be paralysing! because putting yourself out there at any age is scary. doing it at 17? near impossible. everything has to align juuuuuuust so, which means there are lots of stupid moments leading up to that aligning moment.

i don’t see james as a particularly smooth person, because he’s such a dweeeeb. but i think he has his shining moments of being Hot On Purpose. and i think Lily is perhaps an unreliable narrator in that regard too. so his bathroom bravery could have fallen on the side of cringeeee, but because it’s him and because it’s lily. she eats it up. and we, as readers (hopefully), get to do the same!! and in regard to my m-rated cruel summer fic… “i think you want me to touch you” james is certainly present. 😏🙂‍↕️ (i plan to post the first chapter in the next week!)

truly, thank you for the thoughtfulness of typing all this out and sharing it with me!!! i’m happy you encouraged me to revisit this story and happy you enjoyed it!

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[thebookworm0001]

i just need you to know that i re-read your solavellan fics constantly 😭 i love them so muuuuch (especially the post-trespasser series) 🖤

I- oh 🥹 Thank you. I’m. beyond flattered that you like them so much. 🫂💖

[miidnighters]

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interview the writer | @idnull

1. what color do you associate with your muse?

Barty - Red or orange Bella - Baby pink or butter yellow Billie - Bubblegum pink Callie - Black. Maybe purple? Flynn - Blue Hartley - Red Isaac - Green Morgan - Soft green - like glass green Poppy - Purple Rion - Orange Tate - White? Or maybe a sharp blue

19. describe love

I should not have picked 4am to answer this lmao. I think love is choosing each other. Like, outside of all the feelings and everything, I want to choose my husband first. We had simultaneous shit days the other day and were snapping at each other and whatever but when we were apologising my husband said we're a team and we are. Anything we do, we do together - and I'll always look to him first.

29. list your top two movies

Howl's Moving Castle

Tangled

[tewwor]

omg we get to shout at you about how we feel about your ocs?? damn, love this holiday, need it 439086409654 times a year, OKAY SO they are So Much Fun. not to take away from the brilliance that brought them to life, because your lore is always so very exceptional and i am especially so clinically fond of the way you create communities of characters (yknow harborview and the marked for example, or even smaller 1x1 connections like my beloved f1x and that other giant titty guy he doesn't like) where all these unique concepts and personalities and backgrounds can really change and impact each other and create even More life (which you bring to paper so exquisitely like how the Fuck do you do it), but looking away from the literary genius for a second, they are 'simply' and genuinely so much fucking fun. reading about them is fun, writing against them is fun, even when i'm staring at things that don't involve me/my bozos bc it was there on dash i just love how full of life every piece of writing becomes thanks to their individuality and i just canNOT get enough of your characters. they are SO MUCH FUN, you make character creation and writing and just the entire thing so much fun by exposure alone, so imagine the excellency of the vibes when we write together, like it's so easy to point at your ocs and go 'this is why rp's a thing, do you see how much fun you get out of it?' i just get Giddy yknow and... yeah ♥

ANONYMOUSLY (OR NOT!) TELL THE MUN HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THEIR ORIGINAL CHARACTER! ( accepting ) — @ptternminds

LEN?????????? LEN WHAT THE HELLL!!!

I... WHAT DO I EVEN SAY TO THIS BUT SOB?? PROFUSELY????? OHHHHH MY GOD???? this means so, so much to me on so many levels holy shit. i keep rereading this and im going to BAWL

[forest-hashira]

I heard you're feeling very emotional about suguru? 🤭 is it time to put him in a box and shake him or is it good emotions?

jkhskjdghksjh hi nyssa! it was good emotions, i was just very much feeling how much i love him :((( still kinda wanna shake him around but mostly i wanna sit in his lap while he reads to me. and also hug him so tight he tells me he can't breathe 😭

[yoshinoritoshi]

I was actually pretty shocked to see you liked Joker so much before, not many like him because of his canon relationship to Natalie and all... So thank you!

Yeah I get that a lot, it seems people are more hesitant to write for male characters who already have canon romance in their stories... But I don't give a damn about that tbh. If a man is hot, I'll split him up with his woman, I don't care!!! I'm his woman now.

Plus, wouldn't it be cute to have Joker spare you during the massacre and run away with you after...? Sounds adorable to me... And you can live in ignorance forever of what he did, or maybe you agree with him... I dunno, but I think he'd truly treasure you.

[shortbreadly]

well that trailer made my cry hysterically

[fox-guardian]

if u have an android, you can get an older apk file of the tumblr app. not sure exactly how far back you'd have to go to get pfps in banner notifs back but its a pastability

I don't know what that means <3 I think I will just sit and weep as the day's toils have worn me to the bone and I have not even a mutual's silly little profile pic to cheer me from my woes

[starsfic]

"hey Ao Lie kinda looks like a BL boy" "a what"

Considering I've been trying to figure out a Jadepeach AU of The Remarried Empress (and possibly a Marry My Husband AU) this is more accurate than you think.

[aesrot]

I’m so normal. Michael this whole time completely in control of its doors and then suddenly being locked out….

the loss of control.... it is supposed to be the one playing w peoples mind, then why does michael feel like he's being played with? within its own domain?