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On the rare occasions when we talk about the spectre of veganism you can probably physically tell the amount of psychic damage that we take from seeing people throw out any part of a carcass.
#we speak#hey man you can use that for stuff. there is a use for that. you can use that for things that aren't just letting it rot. sir.#this is maybe part of why we have so many fur scraps but like. you can use that stuff. please use that stuff. we are begging you.#did you know that sinew is useful and can be used for cordage? it's true! you should use it!#do you think that a given part is Useless? you're probably wrong! give it to us. please. we are begging you. please.#we are a very specific type of person and that very specific type of person is the type of guy where improper corpse handling harms us#personally and physically. every time. at least put it in the freezer or something if youre killing it you better be ready to process it#we have very strong and extraordinarily specific opinions on things that have been known to make us disagree with people#the animal will die at some point regardless of whether or not you were the one to kill it#and because you have a big brain and the luxury of most likely not needing to do this to survive#you can grant that animal a relatively swift and painless death and then bring its body to as much use as possible#USE IT. FOR THINGS. PLEASE. WE ARE DYING.#we understand viscerally why failing to field dress an animal in assassins creed kicks you out of the simulation as Out Of Character#we are the same way and every time a piece of media has the protagonists kill a bear or whatever and just Leave The Body There#we are taking large amounts of psychic damage from every single frame#you cannot imagine how much hatred we hold for the existence of prion diseases and the fact that you can't eat meat from CWD deer#killing an animal does not have to be animal cruelty if you're not an idiot#we think that wasting parts of the body SHOULD count as animal cruelty though#not legally for obvious “that would open a legal can of worms that should stay closed” reasons but like. in terms of avoiding it#animals kill and eat each other all the time. its natural. you are an animal and you can kill and eat other animals and they will be tasty#however for the love of whatever god you worship PLEASE put the effort in to actually put the whole carcass to use#it will not make the animal suffer less to refuse to partake in its remains. it only means that those things will go to waste.#a body is not a sacred thing. it should not be treated as specialer than anything else but we think it's disrespectful to not make use of i#for related reasons we have a deep and abiding hatred for the laws that mean we can't choose what to do with our own body after our death
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Hola querida! We need a story where brainy says something along the lines of “touch her and I’ll kill you” or “don’t you dare touch her..” we don’t see many instances of protective boyfriend brainy.
- I was trying to think of a scenario for this for a while, but 6x03 gave me an intriguing idea. Thanks for the prompt! x
Brainy had expected this task to be easy.
After all, compared to every other thought track currently running simultaneously through his mind, gathering a box of belongings from Lena’s old workplace hardly needed space for consideration.
Brainy understood why Lena didn’t want to face Luthor Corp again, certainly not to collect the meagre selection of knick-knacks that one of her old assistants had no doubt scooped into a piece of cardboard for her to carry out with her tail between her legs. It was a cruelty, plain and simple, and Brainy was beginning to learn how much such cruelties stung.
So, when Lena had mentioned with offhanded distaste what she needed to do that day, Brainy was more than happy to volunteer to go in her steed. It worked in his favour, after all. Alex had been pushing him to get out of the lab for some fresh air for nearly eighteen hours - now he could fulfil her request.
With one thought track focused on reformatting Nia’s training simulation, and another remotely accessing the Phantom Zone data map for any new leads, Brainy found he had far too much of his mind left wide open - places where far more dangerous thoughts were now encouraged to grow more often than not.
Perhaps a distraction was exactly what he required.
The office should have been empty. That’s what Lena had said, that’s what Luthor Corp’s security feed had suggested. Brainy hadn’t considered any alternative outcomes, and so the moment he’d spied Lena’s belongings sat on the table by the sofa, he’d headed there immediately.
“Not even a week without her assets and I see my sister’s already wrangled someone into doing the heavy lifting for her.”
The sound of that voice sent every nerve in Brainy’s body on edge.
He’d been doing better. Over the last few days since his talk with Lena, he’d been doing better. Giving himself an emotional outlet, allowing them to flow from him instead of being boxed inside, turning to toxic waste in his gut. He’d even found it easier to switch his attention from the television when Lex’s face predictably appeared for one of his seemingly never-ending publicity stunts.
But, that was television. That was circuits and screens, separating them from one another.
Now, Lex was stood there in the room with him, Lena’s desk acting as their only partition.
Brainy could feel Lex’s eyes on him, shark-like and hungry, waiting for his response. And so, Brainy kept his jaw locked tight, focusing his line of sight on the box and nothing else. Of picture frames and other keepsakes.
A photo of Lena and Kara stared up at him, their smiles so pure and genuine it nearly stung.
The acid in Brainy’s lungs swelled.
Aggravatingly, his lack of response only made Lex that much more talkative.
“It was an impressive hack, by the way,” Lex continued casually. “I assumed you were the mastermind behind it. Reminds me why I wanted you on Team Lex to begin with.”
Brainy stiffened. “I was never on your team.”
He shouldn’t have spoken. Shouldn’t have given in. But suddenly, all that he had done to free himself of his emotional backlog hardly seemed enough. It surged from the very depths of his uninhibited mind, hissing and spitting like vitriolic acid.
Which only seemed to make Lex’s confidence grow.
“Is that what you tell yourself?” Lex asked. “Does it help you sleep at night?”
Brainy bared his teeth.
“Oh no,” Lex said, fake sympathy dripping from his voice. “Something tells me it’s not working.”
Brainy pursed his lips, instead reaching once more for the box. His arms trembled with wasted potential, but he ignored their protests. He had a task to do. Unexpected interruptions aside, Lena was counting on him to carry it out. And he would not fail.
“Maybe it isn’t for you at all then,” Lex wondered aloud. “Maybe you sell that story for your girlfriend’s benefit.”
An ugly flash of red tinted Brainy’s vision.
“Nia, isn’t it?” Lex asked innocently. “I hear she works for CatCo, quite the up-and-coming journalist. Although, CatCo is such a troublesome place of work, isn’t it? Always getting destroyed in the crosshairs of city-wide threats. Just how long can that place go without another casualty?”
Brainy could hear the barely disguised threat behind Lex’s words.
Fresh rage bubbled inside his chest, inching closer and closer towards his heart. The box blurred from his line of focus and, in the next instant, Brainy found that he was staring directly at Lex, his fingers clenched so tightly he felt the sharp prick of his own nails digging against his flesh.
“Touch her and I’ll kill you,” Brainy said, his voice so low he barely recognised it as his own. But it was his voice, and he realised all too soon that his threat was very real.
After all, he could do it. He knew exactly how to do it. Multiple ways, in fact, flashing through his mind with startling precision, each one more elaborate and gruesome than the last. Watching the light extinguish from Lex Luthor’s eyes… nothing would make him happier.
His ancestors would revel in it. They already were, louder than ever before, melding with the rage that was corroding his lungs with every breath he took.
Some quiet part of Brainy’s mind startled at such inclinations, such a desire to be one like the bloodline he had fought so hard to renounce.
But what was one whisper against a hoard of enticing cheers?
Lex only stared at him, with that smile that never quite reached his eyes, urging him to the very edge of his emotional barriers. “Empty threats, Brainiac-5.”
That was all it took.
Brainy didn’t remember clearing the room, only that when he was fully aware of himself again, he was stood in front of Lex, his right hand gripped firmly around his throat. Every implant inside of him was fired up, ready to snap his neck at the slightest provocation.
When a gleeful laugh tumbled from Lex’s lips, the red staining Brainy’s vision only grew stronger. He growled out, slamming Lex’s body against the reinforced windows with enough force that they shuddered inside their fixtures.
All he needed to do was activate his implants to their highest capacity, activate his ring, and he could take Lex high into the sky. He could watch the oxygen drain from his lungs. Watch his eyes bulge and swell.
Or… or he could simply drop him. Drop him down into the city he nearly destroyed, allowing him to fall with such velocity that the only thing that might remain of him on the sidewalk would be a smear of blood and bone. Like he had never been a person at all.
He had never been a person at all.
Brainy bared his teeth, looking his enemy in the eyes.
Which was when he saw it.
There was no fear there. In fact, if anything, Lex only looked deeply satisfied with what he’d done. What emotions he’d brought to the surface.
Brainy’s eyes flickered back and forth uselessly over that expression, trying desperately to make sense of it. But it… it didn’t make sense. He was threatening Lex’s life and… and he didn’t care.
No. It wasn’t that he didn’t care. He was enjoying this. This game. This…
The red film washed from Brainy’s eyes all at once.
He let go of Lex’s throat, stumbling back a pace, gripping uselessly at Lena’s old desk, squeezing it numbly.
Brainy’s chest heaved.
This wasn’t him. He’d spent months now hiding from his truest self, allowing the rage of everything Lex had put him through to fester into a corrosive bile inside his chest and stomach.
But, he was not a killer. He would not turn to the darkest version of himself. He had fought far too long and hard to prove that he was not his kin. That he would never follow the path of his clan.
Lena had let Lex go. And now… now Brainy knew he must do the same.
Lex had crumpled when Brainy had removed his hand, holding tight to his throat between dramatic gasps of air. Still, he was smiling, something crazed shining in that expression. Something... desperate.
Ah. Now, Brainy believed he understood.
Lex needed this… this sick form of attention. Without his sister, without Supergirl, he had run out of enemies to aggravate.
Perhaps it had not been happenstance that this office had been inhabited when Brainy had arrived, after all.
“You aren’t worth my attention,” Brainy said through his teeth, trying to draw in from the emotionless façade he had pulled in the past. It was far more of a struggle than it had ever been before, but it was enough to keep his voice steady. Brainy took a step forward, watching Lex quizzically, as though he were nothing but an animal inside a cage. “My friends,” Brainy continued levelly, “my loved ones, we protect each other, but who would protect you?”
Lex blinked, the smallest furrow creasing his brow, a murmur of confusion.
Brainy’s lips twitched. “If I were to kill you, who would even care if you were gone?” He smirked. “No one.”
Brainy turned away from him then, ignoring the angry red handprint that still painted Lex’s throat, ignoring his enemy’s attempts to goad him even as he headed out the door.
Instead, he took Lena’s box.
And he walked away.
#supergirl#my writing#brainiac 5#lex luthor#nia nal#anon#my prompts#this wasn't quite brainia heavy in the end but i just HAD to explore brainy's emotions okay?? i NEEDED to#also sorry once again for the delays in prompt fulfilment. if i get hit by inspiration i go for it. there is no order in my inbox.#thank you for the prompt though!
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Sanctuary - Chapter 21
Warnings: profanity but that’s about it
Tagging: @c-a-v-a-l-r-y, @alievans007, @innerpaperexpertcloud, @valkyrie-of-the-light
They meet in a coffee house two clocks from their hotel; arriving separately, hoping not to draw attention to themselves. There was no way of telling of how far word had spread. If the news that a solider for hire had travelled out into the general community or if the people responsible very keeping it on the downlow in fear of escalating tension. There was already longstanding angst between the IRA and everyday folk; their acts of brutality and domestic terrorism were decades old and while silent, still had the propensity to flair up at a moments notice.
Tyler is already on his second extra large black coffee when Yaz arrives; the younger man casually slipping into the bench across from him, iPad in one hand, his own SAT in the other.
“That shit will kill you,” Yaz remarks, wrinkling his nose at how incredibly strong the brew smells; the colour as dark as fresh black ink.
“Too late. I’m already dead inside.” Tyler retorts, and removes his sunglasses and places them on the tabletop, followed by his personal cellphone.
Esme had sent him videos that the kids had made for him: Tanner bragging about how many popsicles he ate in one sitting, TJ showing off his black eye and swollen nose, and Mille proud as shit that she’d been the one who had inflicted the damage. She had no shame; she wasn’t sorry and refused to apologize and declared she would do it again in a heartbeat if he so as much breathed on her the wrong way. And then the baby; with his very first haircut, freshly erupted teeth, and a handful of words that seemingly cropped up over night.
The loneliness is intense. Those beautiful little faces and those cute, soft voices telling him how much they missed him. How much they loved him and couldn’t wait for him to come home.
He rubs his hands over his face. He’d managed to trim the beard. Had taken the clippers to his hair. Followed by a long, cold shower that did little to calm his nerves and worry but had successfully managed to aggravate every bit of arthritis that existed in his body.
“You look like shit,” Yaz comments, and then peers into his mug. “Black, huh?”
“Yeah. Like my soul.”
Yaz smirks, then orders a caramel latte from the waitress that drops two menus onto the tabletop. His eyes following her as she walks away; eyebrows arched as he admires the way her hips sway from side to side and the way her skirt just seems to hug each and every curve. “You look like shit,” he says, as he turns back to Tyler. “Get any sleep?”
“Not really. You?”
He shakes his head, and pushes one of the vinyl bound menus across the table. “Eat something for fuck sakes, can’t have you wasting away on and perishing from starvation in the middle of a job. Nik would beat my ass. And your wife would kill me.”
“You realize I could break you in half with my bare hands, yeah?” Tyler smirks, as he flips open his menu.
“I do. And do you realize I’ve actually had nightmares where that’s happened? Where I’ve pissed you off and you’ve just gone medieval on my ass? I’m not ashamed to admit that you scare the ever loving shit out of me. I’m glad we’re friends, man. I’m just saying. Because I really do not want you to kill me with a garden rake.”
“That’s played out. I’d use something more creative. Like a tire iron. Or a pitchfork.”
“Nothing surprises me about you anymore. So after we talked, I couldn’t turn my brain off. It was like it was in overdrive. Firing on all cylinders. I can’t wrap my head around this. I can’t figure out how they made us that quick. We didn’t go through any airports, we didn’t have to check through customs, there was no flight manifesto. At least not one with our real names. How?”
“They had us made before we even got off the plane. Probably before we even left Colorado. There’s someone inside. A mole. There has to be. It’s the only thing that makes sense.”
“Maybe McCann? Maybe he is in on this. Maybe this is some big game.”
“I think it’s someone on the team. He even told me when we first met that he’d paid to get my information from someone and that’s how he tracked me down all the way in Guatemala.”
“How fucked up is that? That he actually showed up there and followed you? Like a goddamn stalker.”
“How fucked up is it that that’s not even the most messed up thing in all of this?” Tyler counters, and casts a glance towards his cell phone as it vibrates against the table. Taking the opportunity to check on the notification as the waitress returns with Yaz’ drink, and her phone number. The latter she boldly tucks into the breast pocket of his shirt before flashing a dazzling smile before taking their orders as if nothing even happened.
“Well shit…” Yaz’s eyes once more follow her backside as she heads to the kitchen with their requests. “…and she’s’ cute too!”
“And legal,” Tyler smirks, as he types out a quick reply to his wife’s text message.
“Fuck you,” Yaz mutters. “That was a complete mistake. I didn’t realize she was that young. You could have been my wingman. Had you not gone into the bathroom to get laid. And thanks for that, by the way. I had to piss in an alley out behind that bar.”
“Take it as a badge of honour to know your godson was conceived while you were taking a leak outside and taking one for the team.”
“You two conceive your kids in the most fucked up places, I swear. Is anything normal with you guys? Or did you just figure, ‘hey, we started this shit out during some craziness, let’s keep the trend going’?”
“Excuse me for not being vanilla like you. Which is why I have a very satisfied wife at home and why you have callouses on your palms and carpal tunnel.”
“Sometimes I really hate you, you know that? Think I should call her?”
“Why wouldn’t you? She’s cute. She’s obviously into you. She was brave enough to give you her number. Maybe she’s brave at other things.”
Yaz smirks. “I like the way you think. Maybe I don’t hate you after all. This never happens, you know. When we go somewhere together. You’re the one that is usually getting all the phone numbers. Which you don’t even use, by the way.”
“Why would I? I’m married. Happily.”
“At least pass them on to your boy. What is wrong with me? How long have I had to struggle as your sidekick? How long have I had to witness women tripping over themselves to get your attention? You and the blue eyes and all the muscles.”
Tyler grins. “I’m flattered, Yaz. I never knew you had a crush on me. If I swung that way, I’d probably give you a chance. I’d probably split you in half though. I don’t think you could handle all this.”
“You’re a very disturbed individual, did you know that? There’s something seriously wrong with you. You’re not my type anyway You’re too...pretty.”
Tyler snorts. “I’m pretty? You have some pretty messed up definition of pretty, then. The tattoos, the scars. How’s that pretty?”
“The eyes. The hair. The smile. The big arms.”
“Alright, alright. I’m getting a complex here. Quit flirting with me and let’s get down to business. What did you find out?”
“Quite a bit actually,” he powers up the iPad and leans it against the napkin holder and condiment dispenser at the edge of the table, so they can both see it. “It wasn’t that hard to find. And I’m honestly surprised none of us thought of doing it before. Looking into the wife. There’s some good stuff. First…” he taps on the screen and brings up a side by side picture of Heather McCann; one from her earlier years (either high school or college, Tyler can’t say for sure) and a current photo, before she’d been taken.
“She’s from New Zealand. Which we already knew. Born in Christchurch. May 29th, 1979. Her mother was heavy into the activism scene; protesting shit like pollution in the oceans, nuclear arms, animal cruelty, women’s rights. So on and so forth. A couple arrests under her belt. Nothing serious. Creating a public nuisance, assault on a police officer, vandalism. Nothing too scandalous. The father however, had quite the extensive criminal record.”
“He’s dead?”
“Killed. Ten years ago. While on vacation on the Bahamas. It was a hit. No doubt about. One to the back of his head.”
Tyler sips his coffee. “Execution style.”
“Exactly. Now, I couldn’t figure out what the hell he could have been involved in that led to that. So I did some more digging. His name was Alphonse Buckman, and this criminal record of his, there is some pretty serious shit. Racketeering, four counts of assault with a deadly weapon, money laundry, trafficking…”
“Another Amir Asif.”
“New Zealand’s own. And there’s more. Much more. We’re talking uttering death threats, threatening a public official, conspiracy to commit murder, accessory to murder. It just goes on and fucking on.”
“How was he even out on the street? With a list like that? He should have been doing at least fifty years if you add all of that up.”
“Money, Tyler. Money. This isn’t just some normal guy. He was the head of very prominent crime family in New Zealand.”
He frowns. “Didn’t McCann say that he met his wife while trying to extract someone from a crime family down there?”
“He wasn’t just extracting someone from any crime family. He was extracting them from this crime family.”
“Jesus fuck,” Tyler runs his hands over his face, rakes a hand through his hair, holding it away from his forehead.
“It gets better. So much better. Or worse. I’m not sure which. Remember what McCann told you? About his wife being a shop keeper?”
Tyler nods.
“That’s bullshit. Her grandmother was the shop keeper. Grandmother on the mother’s side. Remember that part, okay? Heather wasn’t just some innocent caught up in all of this. Just some random off the street. She’s the daughter of an international criminal mastermind. We’re talking a guy that was even wanted by Interpol and still managed to get off. Heather was the extract.”
“Wait…wait…you lost me. What?”
“Heather was who McCann was hired to extract. He was hired by the father. Because the mother had taken off with Heather to get her away from him. He wasn’t there to get someone away from a bad guy. He was working for the bad guy. A bad guy with extensive ties, to, you guessed it, the IRA.”
“This is fucked,” Tyler concludes. “This is quite possibly the most fucked up thing I’ve heard in a long time. That I’ve been mixed up in.”
“It was his very first job. As a mercenary. He left the IRA to become a soldier of fortune. And they took that as a huge slight. Because of all that he knows about them. And because he’s no doubt had to go after some of their members. He’s a traitor to them. But…”
‘Nothing good every comes after ‘but’, Yaz. Nothing.”
“He hasn’t just pissed off the IRA. He’s pissed off everyone associated with the ex father in law. Because he took money from them to do jobs that he never followed through with. We’re talking big money, Tyler. Like millions of dollars. Huge cash. So he’s got the IRA after him and everyone that still has ties and loyalty to his father in law. They both want him.”
“So there’s a huge pissing content going on between the IRA and these other guys.”
“Exactly. This is messed up. And I have seen some messed up shit. One word. Dhaka.”
“Still doesn’t explain the weird feeling I get from the wife,” he gives the waitress a polite smile as she returns with their food and cutlery.
“This is where it gets really interesting,” Yaz says, as he digs into his food, then shoots the waitress a thumbs up from across the coffee house. He swipes left on the tablet, bringing up school pictures of the McMann children. “This is Emma and Nicholas McMann. Michael and Heather McMann’s two children. Born here in Belfast. Not that that means anything, really, but just bare with me here. So McMann came home on the twelveth and found his place tossed. Completely trashed. And his wife and the kids missing and a letter, claiming to be from the IRA, saying they were responsible and that they’d be in touch. But he never called the police. He never once reported that his kids or his wife, had been taken.”
“Because he knew that the cops would find out about his own illegal shit.”
“Precisely. He spends a few days trying to take them down. Stirring up some real shit here in Belfast with the IRA, who in turn, turns around and says they have no idea what he’s even talking about. They say it wasn’t them. That they had nothing to do with it and if they wanted him dead that badly, they would just do it. They wouldn’t do that to kids.”
“So they say. We’ve seen a lot of screwed up shit involving kids, Yaz.”
“I agree. Or normally I would. But I’m starting to think it isn’t the IRA. They’re a proud bunch. When they’re involved in something, they admit it. They adamantly refuse to take any responsibility for this. Which leads us back…”
“To the father in law,” Tyler concludes.
“Which in turn, leads us back to her,” he brings another picture of Heather McCann on the screen. “Guess who runs the books for dear old dead daddy’s people back home. Guess who is the only child of said dead mobster and the executor of his estate and his power of attorney.”
Tyler sighs. “I need something stronger than coffee for this.”
“She’s the ring leader. Supposedly. I can’t really prove that. Not yet. You know, some of this shit would be a lot easier to dig up it we had an actual experienced intel person. Someone with real hands on experience. That has done all of this before. And really awesomely, I might add.”
“Forget it, Yaz. Don’t even say it. There’s no way I’m agreeing to that and you know it.”
“Esme has tons of contacts,” he reasons. “All over the world. She’s dealt with this kind of thing. Organized crime. In New York City and Philadelphia. I’ve seen her file, Tyler. From the people in North America.”
“You ran a background check on my wife? Just now or…”
“Back when Nik was going to hire her. We had to check things out. Check references. Things like that. You haven’t seen her file but I have. And it’s not just impressive. It is super fucking impressive. The circles that she’s infiltrated, the people she’s got to trust her, the mercenaries that she’s helped get people out of some horrible shit. She doesn’t just know things that regular people know. She knows things that could get a lot of people killed. And if we had her here…”
“Yaz, I said forget it. I am not getting her involved. We have four kids at home. That need their mother.”
“They need their father too. But here you are.”
“I’m not taking their mother away from them. I’m not doing it. So drop it.”
“Tyler, both the IRA and this family know we’re here. They know our names. Our faces. They know we came here and they are pissed. I am not going to be able to get all the information out of them that we need. Esme could come in here and get everything we need and then leave just as fast as she got here. Look what she was able to do in Dhaka. How successful that part of it was. Now tell me why this is a bad idea.”
“Because she isn’t just some random intel person, Yaz. She’s my wife. The mother of my kids. That’s why. This is insane. Even thinking about dragging her into this. Wasn’t Dhaka enough? Wasn’t that enough bullshit for her to go through? You want me to just bring her into this?”
“It would work. You know it would. You’re just too scared to admit it. Bringing Esme in would save us a whole lot of time.”
“And possibly get her killed.”
“She could have been killed in Dhaka. But she wasn’t. Because you were there to protect her. Just like you would be here.”
“Jesus…” Tyler drags his hand down his face. “…I can’t believe I am listening to this.”
“But you’re considering it. Aren’t you.”
He reluctantly nods.
“It’s the best idea I have. And it’s the only one that will work. And you know that. That’s why you don’t want to admit it. Look, I know it probably scares the shit out of you. Her getting back into this, but we need her Tyler. I know it. You know it.”
“This is insane,” he drops his fork on his now empty plate with a clatter and leans back in booth, hands clasped behind his head.
“What’s the worst she can say? No?”
“How about ‘you’re fucking insane and I want a divorce’.”
“That won’t happen and you know it. Give it some thought. We don’t have a lot of time to play with here. McCann is going to start to wonder why we’re stalling, He’s already getting impatient. Give it a couple hours. Think it over.”
Tyler nods in agreement. “Back to the wife. Explain to me how she’s involved.”
“Like I said, I think she’s the one running the show for dear old dead dad. All signs point to her. I can’t prove it. At least not yet. I think she’s exacting revenge on her husband.”
“For what?”
“Apparently he’s got quite the wandering eye. And a wandering dick.”
“So set all this up…use her children as bait…because her husband can’t keep it in his pants? Seems a little extreme, don’t you think?”
“I don’t think it’s just that. I think she knows he had something to do with her father’s death. And she’s pissed because he’s screwed over all kinds of other people by not doing the jobs he was hired to do. Just pocketing the money. Which in turn, puts targets on her and her kids’ back.”
“So she stages all of this to make it look like she’s not involved but uses her kids for leverage?”
“Like you said, we’ve seen screwed up things involving kids. And this wouldn’t be the worst. Unfortunately.”
“This changes everything. You know that, yeah?”
“You need to be the one to get the kids out, Tyler. They have to be your priority. You’re responsibility. They’re the only innocent ones in all of this. It has to be you.”
“And if I can only get one?”
“One is better than none.”
He gives a derisive snort, then waves the waitress over and orders another coffee.
“Let McCann go for the wife. Let them kill each other. Who gives a shit at this point. The bad wiping out the bad. But you have to get those kids. They have to be your extracts.”
He sighs heavily, then nods.
“Now call your wife,” Yaz slides Tyler’s cell phone towards him. “Tell her we need her help. Tell her what’s going on. Let her be the one to decide if she wants to get involved or not.”
“If she asks me for a divorce and I get kicked out of my house, I’m coming to sleep on your couch, mate,” he’s only half joking, then palms his cell phone and slips out of the booth.
“Good luck,” Yaz calls after him as he heads for the exit.
****
She answers on the third ring; sounding exhausted, yet still excited to hear from him.
“I thought you wouldn’t call until much later your time,” she says. “It’s only eight am there. It thought for sure you’d be busy. Tracking people down, kicking some ass. All that kind of stuff.”
“We’ve hit a bit of a roadblock,” Tyler admits, as he slips his sunglasses on and leans against the red brick of the coffee house. Seeking peace and quiet from the hustle and bustle of the main street by tucking into the neighbouring alley. From here he can keep an eye on the road; observe those coming down the sidewalk from each direction, leaving different store fronts. The alley leads to a dead end, nothing but dumpsters and back exits. “And maybe I just wanted to call because I wanted to hear your voice. Maybe I miss you.”
“Maybe?” she challenges, and he grins.
“I miss you,” he admits. “A lot. A hell of a lot.”
“I miss you too. Are you okay?”
“Fine,” he assures her. “Did I wake you up? What is it? Like eleven there?”
“I’m sitting outside. On the swing. It rained for the better part of the afternoon and it so beautiful out now. There’s a really nice breeze coming in off the mountains. I wish you were here. I miss this part of our night. Sitting out here together. How many times have we actually fallen asleep on this swing?”
“Too many to count,” he says, a smile of reminiscence curving his lips. “The kids were good?”
“Mille finally chilled out. She was much better after I told her to record that video for you. It calmed her right down. She cried a little. At bedtime. Because you weren’t there to tuck her in and read her stories. Maybe you can record yourself reading her one and send it to her. She’d love that. If you find time.”
“I’ll find all the time in the world for her, you know that. How’s the boys?”
“Hanging in there. TJ has his ups and down. Tanner is still being the calm and consoling one. And Declan is Declan. He’s such a little ham. He’s so funny. He’s quite the character already. But what a temper! I’ve never seen anyone pitch a fit like he can! And so strong! I wonder where he gets that from.”
“The being strong or the having a bad temper?”
“Both,” she laughs. “I’m glad you liked the videos. We had so much fun making them. And can you believe the baby has four words now? He’s so smart Tyler. Crazy smart.”
“Like his mom.”
“And he is so close to walking already. You said he would be the one that would walk the earliest. Because of his insanely strong legs. I hope you don’t miss it. I’d really want you to be here when it happens. You missed it with both Millie and the twins. I’d like you to get the chance to see it this time.”
He swallows down the lump of emotion that’s wedged in his throat. “I’d like to see it too. I hope I’m back in time.”
“Are you sure you’re okay?” she asks. “You don’t sound like yourself. There’s something in your voice. I don’t know what it is. But it’s something.”
“I need your help,” he just spits it out. No chill whatsoever. Just straight to the point. “Actually, we need your help. Yaz and I.”
“Okay…” he can hear the squeak of the swing as she stands up. “…with?”
“We’ve been made. Both of us. We were made before we even got off the plane.”
“Shit,” she mutters. “Are you sure?”
“One hundred percent. I got a visitor in the middle of the night. From whoever is behind all of this. Telling me that I stuck my nose in business I don’t belong in and that I needed to watch my back. They know my name. Where I live. They have pictures. Of all of us.”
“Which is why Nik decided out of nowhere to stay here along with two of her guys. Tyler…”
“I asked her not to tell you. I didn’t want to get you all worked up if it just turned out to be idle threats. They’re just trying to scare me. So I’ll abandon things here.”
“But you’re not. Abandoning things.”
“I’ve got a job to do.”
“The job is obviously fucked. Tyler, you need to come home. Right now. Get on the next plane and get home. Please.”
“I can’t. I need to get those kids. I don’t give a shit about the wife. But I can’t leave those kids. And I know you understand that. Would you want someone leaving our kids?”
“Of course not.. But…”
“Esme, we need your help. I need your help. I can’t get them without you.”
“Tyler, I’m not a mercenary. I wouldn’t know the first thing about extracting someone. And that’s not something I can just learn on the fly.”
“I don’t need help with that. I can do all that stuff. I need your help with intel.”
“You have Yaz there,” she points out.
“Yaz doesn’t know the things you do. He hasn’t done the things you have. I know you’ve been in this before. I know about New York. And Philly.”
She sighs. “How?”
“Yaz told me. He saw it in your file. When Nik did background on you before she gave you the job. I don’t care that you kept that from me. There’s things I’ve done on the job that you don’t know about either. This isn’t about keeping secrets or protecting each other and keeping info away from one another. This is about me needing your help to rescue those kids.”
“I have to admit, there is a perverse satisfaction in hearing you admit you actually need my help something,” she chides, and he can’t help but grin.
“Babe, I wouldn’t call you about this if I had anyone else,” he continues. “You’re the best at this. I know it. You know it. You’ve helped bring down better and bigger. I won’t go too much into it right now. It’s better if I tell you everything in person.”
“Whoa…whoa…in person? Tyler, I have four kids here. They’re already without their father. Now you want me to leave them without their mother too?”
“Look, it’s not what I want. I know it’s not what you want. And the thought of taking you away from them kills me as much as it kills you. But I need you. McCann’s kids need you.”
“Tyler…” another heavy sigh.
“Esme…please…I really need you to do this.”
“Who do I get to watch the kids? I can’t just pull a babysitter out of my ass.”
“Ask Ovi if Chloe would do it.”
“She works.”
“She owns her own business and has her own employees. I’m sure she can trust them to run shit while she takes time off. Or call your mom.”
“Oh right,” she laughs. “That will go over well.”
“I’ll call her then.”
“That would just be even worse! What would you say? ‘I need you to watch your grandkids so your daughter can come to Ireland and help me kick some ass’?”
“Something like that. Babe, this is serious. These people know who we are. We aren’t going to get anything out of them.”
“And you think I’ll be able to?” she inquires.
“I know you’ll be able to,” Tyler confidently replies.
“You are something else,” she mumbles, and then falls into a long, almost painful silence.
“Esme?”
“I’m here. I’m cursing you out, but I’m here. Are your ears ringing? Because they should be. Jesus, Tyler. You honestly can not be serious about this.”
“I am. Dead serious. You’re the best at this type of thing. And we need the best. Especially with the kind of people we’re going against.”
“Which you’ll tell me all about when I get there,” she concludes. “I need a few hours. At least. I would need to call my mom and have Ovi get a hold of Chloe. This isn’t going to be an instant thing. I have to book a flight and…”
“Ask Nik. She’ll arrange one for you. She’s got great connections.”
“Fine,” she huffs. “I’ve got to and get shit together. I’ll call you. As soon as everything is ironed out and I know when I’ll be there. This is insane, Tyler. You’re insane.”
“Maybe. But you love me.”
“Only one days that end in Y. I’ll call you. Soon.”
“I love you,” he tells her. “And thank you.”
“You’re welcome. And I love you too. I’ll see you in a little while.”
“I’ll see you when I see you,” he says.
“Yes,” he can hear the smile in her voice. “You will.”
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The Symphony of the Universe Won’t Stop & Give You a Round of Applause At the End of All of This...
I won't get a round of applause for this, nor do I expect to. We don't get a prize at the end of all of it for being good or bad in this life of ours. We aren't owed anything for being born and living... The symphony of the Universe isn't going to stop to give you a round of applause at the end of all of this, I promise you that.
*** This is a long post but I hope your short attention-span can handle it till the end. Just keep reading...***
The first thing I learned in India about why a vegetarian diet was so incredibly important was simply put: "Because all animals have nervous systems, plants do not... When we kill animals, we are giving pain to them and pain always comes back to us. If you want to be happy, give happiness to others." This stuck with me. I remember the feeling of having a serious epiphany amongst the vast inspiration I was feeling on all fronts. This would not be the first, or the last, time I had a true visionary breakthrough during this trip, or hereafter.
I am forever changed, this is know for sure. Although I have slipped several times since being home (I'm surrounded by a bunch of carnivores apparently), my attitude towards what I choose to put inside my body has not changed since hearing this. I am over-actively aware of meat, and yes, fish counts as meat. I am hypersensitive to my consumption and being as mindful as possible when I am eating and making decisions like what companies to support, where I put my money, and my attention. I am detrimentally empathetic towards our vulnerable, yet ruthless Earth.
(This isn't a novel about why you should stop eating meat, even though you should ;), this isn't that kind of post, I promise. Just keep reading...)
This all may sound "preachy", or "hippie", or whatever, as if people are only activists to be cool, but the environment, the climate, and our animals have a serious impact on every single aspect of our lives. OUR LIVES, in case you missed the connection there...
It is hard to put into words all of the emotions that I feel everyday, but discouragement pretty much sums it up. To even try and make a real impact and a revolutionary change is probably useless at this point... But, I have a new scheme and a new plan on the daily, yet no idea how to implement it, so I write and put my word vomit to use.
I have a deep, deep inner fire inside of me. I mean, it is really fucking raging in there and I don't know where to direct this energy except for right here, through my words, through this damn platform.
It's exhausting wanting to change the views on sustainability, consumption, animal cruelty, water conservation... you name it. These multitudes of issues are so much bigger than any of us can even begin to comprehend because it is truly terrifying. I know that things are dramatized online, on TV, all over the media, but there is a lot of factuality and realness in what we are seeing and it is something that is simply irresponsible to ignore.
This conversation is real and it should be treated that way... it should not be taken lightly. Just because we don't see the effects that we make on our environment by our everyday choices, we may only notice them from time to time, (like when it doesn't snow at all in Colorado during the month of December?), it is still happening and our impact is incredibly absolute.
It's in each and everyone of ours hands to do what's right here and to become mindful in our every day actions. Don't be the one that doesn't think they make one dent of a difference. Don't be that fuckin' guy who thinks it's cool to liter, to waste, to over-consume because your tiny, tiny portion of this Earth and your use of it has no impact. F&%$ you.
I know what that feels like, I know what it's like to feel overwhelmed, pessimistic, hopeless... Hell, go travel to a third world country where clean water is gold and there is no sense of trash infrastructure or education systems, and tell me you aren't daunted by the task at hand to educate a world where more than half the people don't have the access to these means.
It is easy to feel so small in such a harsh world filled with savage beings, but that is exactly the reason we are in this place, because people don't think that their actions actually make a change. Oh, but they do. Every single hand, every single smile, every single transaction, every single thought, every single word, every single bite of food, makes a difference. You are here for a reason and just because we were raised in the society of consumption, violence and money, does not mean that that's the way we have to live.
I had a conversation with my friend the other day about how if humans are born either inherently bad or inherently good. And somebody said to her that they thought humans were born bad. Shocked and almost saddened by this realization of somebody's thoughts, I pondered on why they may have felt this way... The only conclusion I came to was that it's the society that we were raised in, the values and morals that we were taught, that make us who we are. If you grow up in a healthy environment with parents who teach you well and how to be a good person, and you are taken care of and you are nurtured, usually you don't grow up to be this "bad" person. But it's when you are in a toxic, negative atmosphere that you manifest a bad life. Your thoughts are negative because you were always surrounded by negative and so you'll always be negative and that makes people angry and it makes people do violent things because they don't want to accept that this is their life-experience and it's solely because how they were raised, but also it's all in their mindset and how they were told to use it. *Deep breath from that run-on rant*
The ones who raise us are the ones who make us "good" or "bad". But you have a choice to change that by recognizing the reality of things; by opening your eyes past this screen that we are shown online, on TV, and magazines and in stores, and becoming present - becoming one with where you are, right now, right here. Being in that space, being in your body and not escaping it, not ignoring it, and certainly not treating those around you as well as the environment around you poorly.
If you are sick of feeling negative, feeling angry at the world, become educated and take that anger and take that energy that can sometimes be released through violent acts, and do something for this beautiful Earth that isn't yours but you were so blessed to be a small part of. GIVE BACK. Stop taking.
We aren't owed anything for being born and living. We don't get some prize at the end of all of this for being good or bad. The world, the Earth, she doesn't give us a round of applause for being here and stomping all over her precious gifts. So stop thinking that someone else is going to take care of our environment, our political system, our waste. Stop spending your time blinded by social media feeds and this disgustingly ego-centric world. Be a good person, be conscious, be aware of your every day actions, your every day purchases, and your wastefulness... Your wastefulness of goods but more importantly, your time.
We are all so damn wasteful, it sometimes feels like I'm being suffocated by how much all of us waste every day. It's amazing how better you feel when you start to take care of not only yourself internally but your environment externally, as well. This is when things start to become truly synchronized because you are mindful in all actions, and you start to really care for animals and the air you breathe, and the water you drink without a second thought of how lucky you actually are that you have clean water from a running tap, and waste management and recycling, and all of these huge, huge issues that are real, all over the world, even in your very backyard. You start to bond with them, you start to connect with them because you realize that it's all interconnected. Everything around you, inside of you, circulating, is connected. Every action has a vibration and it vibrates off the next and that vibrates off the next and this is just the symphony of the universe. You won't get a prize at the end of all of this, you won't get a round of applause, but living each day fully aware of your surroundings and who you are and the choices that you make, is a gift in and of itself because to live in that way is something very very special.
Join me in a more mindful everyday life. Join me in redefining what our society has taught us to be like. Join me in standing up for the little guy, for what is inherently right. For speaking out about things you believe in. Join me in giving a fuck. Join me in redefining your mind. In rethinking your choices. Don't just do it for a day or a couple months, do it for real. Make being a good human by your purchases, consumption, and actions your everyday experience and by that, maybe we can change the world, one mindful moment at a time <3 #redefineyourmind
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