#we stay forever bitter in this house idc idc

[evilkaeya]

Dazai "king of masking his emotions" Osamu wearing his heart on his sleeve around Chuuya I'm so ill

[chlodoll]

my top albums (and songs) of 2022 (with some links to my fav performances 😆)

1. le sserafim - antifragile | the live performances are so damn good! | antifragile, impurities, good parts

2. sabrina carpenter - emails i can’t send | i love when i can just depend on an artist to always put out good albums | nonsense, tornado warnings, bad for business, already over, emails i can’t send, because I liked a boy 

3. 4*town - turning red ost | this boy group is everything | nobody like u 

4. red velvet -  birthday | a hit after some misses | bye bye, on a ride

5. sza - sos | it just came out but idc | nobody gets me, f2f, conceited, shirt, gone girl, kill bill, smoking on my ex pack, good days, blind

6. beyoncé - renaissance | hey, look at us! who would’ve thought? not me! now if only we could get the visuals... | church girl, america has a problem, alien superstar, cozy, plastic off the sofa, virgo’s groove, energy 

7. taylor swift - midnights | here i am again riding for one of blondies albums | lavender haze, paris, sweet nothing, glitch, bigger than the whole sky

8. rm - indigo | it feels like the last archive of my 20s too... damn | closer, wildflower, yun, still life, change pt.2, lonely

9. flo - the lead | i have loved seeing their rise this year | cardboard box, immature, summertime

10. nayeon - im nayeon | my girl! | love countdown, candyfloss, no problem, pop!, sunset

11. summer walker - still over it | it came out in 2021, i know, but i really wasn’t vibing until 2022 | circus, bitter, insane, no love, 4th baby mama, 

12. new jeans - new jeans | i got my braids and i’ve been flipping my hair like they do in attention all the time haha | hype boy, hurt, attention

13. jhope - jack in the box | this is so him... and i saw it performed live?! | arson, safety zone, more, what if 

14. encanto ost | i was so scared this would get on my spotify wrapped lolll | what else can i do?, we don’t talk about bruno, surface pressure

15. harry styles - harry’s house | no one is more disappointed than me, but he did something here | satellite, daydreaming, keep driving, late night talking, daylight 

16. euphoria ost | shut up i know... and when s3 comes out i will be back playing the songs everyday | all for us, still don’t know my name, formula, nate growing up, forever, i’m tired, elliot’s song 

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other songs i was obsessed with: 

black panther: wakanda forever - con la brisa (foudequesh), alone (burna boy) interlude (stormzy), no woman no cry (tems) | bts - run bts, yet to come, left and right (jungkook and charlie puth), stay alive (jungkook), the astronaut (jin), bad decisions, dreamers (jungkook) | chlöe - treat me, surprise | fka twigs - jealousy (feat. rema), oh my love, tears in the club (feat. the weeknd), papi bones (feat. shygirl)  | glorilla - tomorrow (with cardi b) | gracie abrams - block me out, better  | ice spice - bikini bottom | ive - love dive, after like | jessie ware - free yourself | latto - it’s givin, sunshine, big energy, wheelie (feat. 21 savage), like a thug (feat. lil durk) | loona - pale blue dot | kelsea ballerini - heartfirst | marren morris - circles around this town, background music | megan thee stallion - budget (feat. latto), not nice, her, plan b, sweetest pie (with dua lipa) | muni long - hrs & hrs | omar apollo - want u around (feat. ruel), hijo de su madre, tamagotchi, archetype, hey boy (feat. kali uchis) | paramore - this is why | red velvet - bamboleo, beg for me | stayc - run2u, same same | suki waterhouse - moves, good looking | taeyeon - some nights, sirens, invu, weekend, timeless | twice - talk that talk, brave

[brvckin-blog]

in all forms except physical i can write an intro, know that ( ! ) i’m mikhia, you can call me mikki if you want tho idc lmao, i’m eighteen, and i live my life by the word of park sooyoung. in her name we pray, amen! i’m always tryna come up with some kind of witty intro but LMAO that never happens and probs never will so this is it.......... this is what y’all get! if you wanna plot then read this shit and gimme a mf smash of that heart and i’ll hit you up! or, if you prefer plotting on d.iscord then you can find me over at YUKHEI’S WHITE GIRL LAUGH #5355 just like tell me who you are when i add you!

▶ BASIC INFORMATION

breckin rhee isn’t as innocent as he seems. on the outside they’re just another twenty-one year old junior who’s looking to get through college with a degree in biology, but let me be the first to tell you there’s more than meets the eye. although they were ingrid’s party buddy, they were the one who held her still while she was bound and gagged. hopefully nobody finds out what they did!

▶ BULLET POINT BACKGROUND

the following overview contains triggering topics such as abuse, drug use, manipulation, and murder. if any of these topics make you uncomfortable then please click away as your well being is a lot more important than the background of my character. however, just as an fyi, none of the topics are talked about in depth, just more-so mentioned!

growing up it was just breckin and his dad living in a big, isolated house at the end of a road where no one really cared to get to know one another. he never knew what happened to his mom, but he also never asked. him and his dad didn’t have the kind of relationship for that; him and his dad were never close enough to have personal conversations.

the two of them only spoke a handful of words to each other by the time the boy was ten and had been completely raised by a nanny. but then everything changed when she just didn’t show up one day and his dad decided to play the role of a parent for once. and, just like with his mom, he had no idea what happened to his former parental figure.

he was shit at it (go figure) and constantly yelled at breckin, even pushing him around and smashing his toys just cause he felt like it. he didn’t understand what he had ever done wrong and a part of him thought that this was just how every parent treated their child.

when he was twelve, he ended up finding an old camcorder and instantly fell in love with filming everything around him. it all looked so beautiful through a lens; untainted. but he was young and kids can be dumb. he ended up recording over one of the tapes inside and when his dad found out, he completely lost it.

apparently breckin had taped over an old home video of his mom, one that his dad watched frequently, and it became the catalyst for events that would change his life forever. it was the first time his dad was ever physically abusive towards him.

he doesn’t really have much memory of the event, but he does remember being at the top of the stairs filming before everything went black. he found out later that his dad had pushed him down the stairs, but it was ruled an accident and he was put back into his care after he healed.

things only got worse from there with his dad constantly telling him that he was a monster, that no one would ever love him, and that no one would care if he died. these things clawed their way down his throat and found a home in his lungs until he felt like he could no longer breathe.

as he got older and a little colder, he started fighting back and it ended up just being a big brawl between him and his dad all the time. they would literally beat the shit out of each other multiple times a week until, suddenly, it all stopped when he was sixteen.

his dad remarried and the woman brought in two younger children. then, suddenly, his dad was someone else entirely. it was like the bitter old man had been replaced by the most wholesome being in the world. he acted like a completely different person and it pissed breckin off. but it also inspired him in a way; it changed his outlook on the world around him entirely.

so he changed his personality too, became the picture perfect son who played sports and got good grades. he held up his image well, but the monster his father always told him he was never went away. it just waited under his facade until the perfect time to strike.

it was after his first real girlfriend that he decided he liked hurting people. he liked breaking their hearts because it made him feel like a god. he was the perfect boyfriend, dating girls and boys and anyone that was dumb enough to fall for his tricks. he would make sure that he was all they thought about, that they were sure they were in love with him, and then he would rip the rug right out from under them.

nothing made him happier than watching them cry and beg him not to do this. they looked so ugly and broken and he couldn’t think of anything more beautiful. he liked seeing people at their most vulnerable, got off on humiliating them.

it was around that same time that he also got into drugs, cocaine specifically, and it helped to perk him up; it helped to make him not look so dead inside. he was a great actor, but the eyes are the window to the soul and his held nothing inside.

with his new life planned out, breckin made the decision to go to college and major in biology with the hopes of getting into med school and becoming a doctor like his father. in some weird way, it was almost like he wanted to be just like him, to show him that he was only monster because of him.

it was at his high school graduation that he found out what really happened to his mother when she suddenly showed up trying to act like everything was ok. in his mind, he had already come to terms with her death, deciding that his father more than likely killed her. but the truth hurt a whole lot more. she had just left........ left him with a monster who didn’t love him. and, not only that, but she had a whole new family with two children (his half siblings) and one of them was even close to him in age. it enraged him and, so, the next morning he cut the brake line in her car and killed her off permanently. she was dead to him so dead she would stay.

when he left for uni, he constructed a backstory where he was the son of a pastor who graduated as valedictorian and blushed when complimented. none of that was true, but it didn’t matter. everyone would believe him and would never question it so it didn’t matter.

at freshman orientation, he found his first victim and really set everything back into motion. he began dating anyone and everyone before ultimately cheating on them, and breaking their hearts in the worst possible way all while holding up his perfect little persona until the end.

it was a cruel game, but he was able to keep others quiet about who he really was either through blackmail or through them being so humiliated that they left school and moved away.

over the years though as he’s gotten busier and has gotten closer to graduating, he’s really been too exhausted to keep up his facade as much so he’s basically half himself and half good church goin boy lmao!

▶ LIST OF SECRETS 

obviously no one knows about these (unless we’ve plotted something out surrounding them) so keep these to your ooc self beetch! i honestly just wanted to throw ‘em down here because my memory is shit!

breckin plans on going to med school after graduation so, in preparation for becoming a doctor down the road, he will oftentimes practice on willing peers who are looking for a little extra cash.

he has a weird obsession with death but, more specifically, what comes after. it’s something that no one knows the answer to so he has taken it upon himself to try and figure it out. how, you ask? think flatliners. he hooks himself (and other people occasionally) to a machine then injects them with a drug to stop their heart. they die, the two minute countdown begins, then they’re resuscitated. he’s been getting a little too brave lately though and letting himself flatline for longer periods of time.

even though those two things in particular could get him not only kicked out of school, but ruin his chances of getting into med school, there are others that would pretty much bury his entire reputation six feet under. since he was in his early teens, breckin has been living a sort of double life. he pretends to be a nice boy who only has good intentions, but he couldn’t be more opposite. he loves breaking hearts, hurting others, and humiliating them. more often than not, he dates people solely for that.

even though he doesn’t need the money, he loves attention so he started up his very own little artistic porn blog on tumblr (throw it back to when that shit was still allowed). he began when he was a freshman and has accumulated around forty thousand followers in that time. he never shows his face or anything but he posts pretty racy photos and sells pictures, videos, and audio recordings to those that are willing to pay.

breckin has a very packed schedule between studying pre-med, playing sports, and keeping up with all of his other extracurricular activities that he doesn’t find much time to do normal things like sleeping, eating, etc. this has pushed him to find other means to sustain him that mostly include divulging in various drugs of choice.

▶ POTENTIAL PLOT IDEAS

these are just barebone ideas that could and should be expanded on. but, again, they’re only ideas and i’m really open to plotting just about anything? especially if you have smth in particular that you really want filled, please don’t be afraid to come to me about it! all plots are also open to any muse of any gender!

TEAMMATE(S) — breck is really into sports (specifically more aggressive ones) so if your muse plays any such as: football, lacrosse, hockey, etc then hmu! we can do full blown rivals, playful rivals, mates who just help keep each other motivated to do their best, etc.

HALF SIBLING — if you read the background info then you’ll know that breck’s mom pretty much disappeared then showed back up with two new kids who are his half siblings. however, one of them is pretty close to his age so it’d be cool to have them around? especially considering the fact that he ended up killing their mother yikes! even though they obvs don’t know that it could make for some good writing to explore them finding it out in the future!

ROMANTIC(?) — i’m talkin fwb, exes that he’s played, one night stands, etc. considering the fact that his schedule has only gotten busier and busier, he doesn’t really have time to date around like he used to but he still has needs, damn, so essketit!

PARTY BUDDY — breck likes to party a lot and likes to get fucked up so he needs some friends who’ll humor him and who can keep up with all of his wild shenanigans.

DRUG DEALER — with the amount of shit he does (both personally and otherwise) he could keep your character completely funded himself lmao! hes got a lot of money so let his dumbass give it to you!

NEIGHBOR(S) — breck doesn’t live on campus cause fuck that hes too old for it and he hated it anyway so he lives in an apartment which means your muse? could be his neighbor idk this is super vague but we could do a lot with it just trust me!

SECRETS(?) — considering a couple of his secrets are a little out there it’d be kinda cool to have someone in on them. like, with his whole experimenting on people thing and basically killing them then bringing them back to see what they experienced ya....... could be fun literally someone gimme it!

[sugarcomatosed]

tag memeeee

@fangmich gave me a tag and it’s been forever since i’ve done one of these so here we goooo

Rules: Answer these 92 statements and tag 20 people.

LAST:

1. Drink: water 2. Phone call: i was on the phone with @doodlemoogle‘s mom on speaker phone while they talked 3. Text message: to @akingofredlions about sailor moon and swords. 4. Song you listened to: Bloody tears bc @hymdall is sending me castlevania songs 5. Time you cried: aaaa....i think it was last Thursday. I’m an emotional person and life is tough.

HAVE YOU:

6. Dated someone twice: Nope. 7. Kissed someone and regretted it: not so far 8. Been cheated on: Not that I’m aware of :P  9. Lost someone special: That’s just part of life, right? 10. Been depressed: Uh yes. Very recently and in the past.  11. Gotten drunk and thrown up: I don’t like alcohol’s taste, so no. 

LIST 3 FAVORITE COLORS:

12-14: Pastel Pink, Teal, and a light purple. 

IN THE LAST YEAR HAVE YOU:

15. Made new friends: Yes! 16. Fallen out of love: Nope. 17. Laughed until you cried:  Think so? 18. Found out someone was talking about you: ...in a good way? yes? no one in a bad way. 19. Met someone who changed you: Many wonderful people who bettered me. 20. Found out who your friends are:  i learned that i have many kind supportive friends. 21. Kissed someone on your Facebook list: yes, two of them under different contexts. 

GENERAL:

22. How many of your Facebook friends do you know in real life: All of them, even @quinntheshiki bc we’ve met in person.  23. Do you have any pets: ...not techincally because I just moved out of my mom’s and this new place doesn’t allow pets. At her house, two dogs and a cat. 24. Do you want to change your name: Nope, not even if i get married. I refuse.  25. What did you do for your last Birthday: I got sushi with my dad, his gf, my roommate and made myself a birthday amv 26. What time did you wake up: depends on my work shift but im up by 9 normally. 27. What were you doing at midnight last night: falling asleep.  28. Name something you can’t wait for: to get to see two people who are very dear to me! I get to see them basically back to back and one is coming from very far and being very brave.  29. When was the last time you saw your mom: ....two Sundays ago now when i moved out.   30. What is one thing you wish you could change in your life: 31. What are you listening right now: The white noise of fans in the apartment. 32. Have you ever talked to a person named Tom: Ye, he’s a photographer and a little older than me.  33. Something that is getting on your nerves: Feeling aimless right now. 34. Most visited website: Tumblr or youtube tbh. Twitter is getting up there.

RANDOM INFO:

35. Mole/s: i have tiny beauty spots like on my arms.  36. Mark/s: i have a birth mark on my left wrist.  37. Childhood dream: ..i wanted to ride elephants in the circus.  38. Hair color: dark brown 39. Long or short hair: my hair’s kind of long? 41. What do you like about yourself: i’m really multitalented and well rounded honestly.  42. Piercings: ears and im trying to get new earrings 43. Blood type: O- 44. Nickname: I use Rita at work, Sugar is one, and sometimes it’s Mina.  45. Relationship status: Taken! For just over two months now.  46. Zodiac: Libra 47. Pronouns: she/her 48. Favorite TV Show: ....right now I’m just watching My Hero Academia so. and that is RLLY GOOD.  49. Tattoos: None, i joke about getting an ouroboros.  50. Right or left hand: Right 51. Surgery: I’ve had my bottom wisdom teeth removed and my tonsils.  52. Hair dyed in different color: i considered getting purple/pink through it at one point.  53. Sport:  I used to figure skate and i was actually pretty good I did fencing last fall too. 55. Vacation: I was supposed to go to Atlanta this week but I did not because I moved and that costs money.  56. Pair of trainers: I need new sneakers tbh.

MORE GENERAL:

57. Eating: I had a milkshake and pizza bites i left at the resturant on accident earlier.  58. Drinking: Gatorade right now so I get electrolytes and stay okay but watter at the moment.  59. I’m about to:  go help a family friend move some stuff or watch a video, what happens first idk.  61. Waiting for: my dad to get home 62. Want: to do fun things with all my friends!! 63. Get married: I’d like to one day. I have some personal baggage do to my parents thought that makes me...get anxious about this kind of thing. 64. Career: I’m planning on getting my PhD and teaching Sociology!

WHICH IS BETTER:

65. Hugs or kisses: Both are nice but I like snuggling.  66. Lips or eyes: Eyes 67. Shorter or taller: taller!  68. Older or younger: doesn’t matter?  70. Nice arms or nice stomach: ....arms. @woodland-knight is going to see this and laugh.  71. Sensitive or loud: this is dumb 72. Hook up or relationship: relationship 73. Troublemaker or hesitant: this is  also dumb

HAVE YOU EVER:

74. Kissed a Stranger:  Nope.  75. Drank hard liquor: Not for me! 76. Lost glasses/contact lenses: ...yes. it took me forever to find them.  77. Turned someone down: Yes, repeatedly so they’d get the hint.  78. Sex on the first date: no no no no no no. noooo.  79. Broken someone’s heart: once.  80. Had your heart broken: it’s actually a very bitter sweet story but yeah. 

81. Been arrested: Nope. 

82. Cried when someone died: uh...yeah? That’s pretty normal.  83. Fallen for a friend: yeaaaaaaah. It’s a dumb cute story and we’re dating. I’ve also fallen for someone then become their friend. 

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

84. Yourself: Usually! It’s one of my few redeeming things is that I have a decent amount of self confidence. I just chew myself out for tiny mistakes.  85. Miracles: I like to try to. 86. Love at first sight: Nah. You can be attracted though.  87. Santa Claus: the idea of santa is cute but also terrifying  88. Kiss on the first date: depends? 

OTHER:

90. Current best friend name: i have many best friends and they’re all beautiful 91. Eye color: brown like almost black i’ve been told.  92. Favorite movie: uhhhh. i have no idea right now.

if you got tagged in this already idc if you do it you are relevant people in my life who can do it if they want, but i’d like to hear from these people specifically because I want to know more about theeem (or get a life update). Most of these are loyal followers I notice and then some mutuals.  

@denizenhardwick @shakacon @misora-reiki @flamingopuuuunch @touyea @teamlobster @the-cyanide-exploder @sakialumei @songbirdo and uhhh @blank-chalkboard and i cant spell the last url and cant find them in my notifications even though i know we’ve interacted recently so...do it if you want idc. 

[sowriteitalldown]

I’m telling you now, if you ever decide to look here, that we should talk because quite frankly i am fucking tired of hurting and wondering wtf went wrong. i need validation or assurance, you already know that. so let’s quit the bullshit and be real with me. idc if you wanna say shit to my face, i probably will too. it’s better to me at least to know how you truly feel even if it makes you look like a bitch or vice versa. hmu, even if it’s like a year from now. i’ll still want to know why.

or if not, well, just know that....

i will always have lots of love for you (i mean c’mon you will always be my first love) and i will never talk wrong of you even if i feel betrayed. maybe i should have been better to you if that’s what you wanted. but i also feel like i should have been a lot harsher with you because c’mon, i was always so soft on you. even now that you basically blocked me out of your life and constantly ignore me, i i can’t find myself having a negative image of you or hating you like you must feel about me now.

i just want you to realize that, that you can’t say I didn’t love or respect you in this friendship. that i loved more in this friendship more than you ever did or showed to me. it just felt like i always tried to repair this friendship whenever we were both rocky, and then the one time i didn’t look for you after an argument and i decided to act like we were cool, you completely gave up on me. you never even bothered to talk to me and give me a piece of your mind. you just gave up like i never meant anything. sure, i didn't give you the response you wanted but i apologized. i realized i took it far, i was looking out for you but i should have worded it nicer. however, i don't think it was fair of you to react like that when i decided to show you tough love the same way you'd showed me when i was so stupidly in love with jules and i would go back to her. i was just looking out for you in the same tough love way you did to me that eventually got to me, even if it took a while... i'm sorry if it didn't come across like that. but the damage was done, that much was clear when we stopped existing for each other. 

just come back even for a minute. i miss you like crazy. i love you like crazy. more than joseph, or tony. 

i hate to admit it, but it feels like a huge part of me was or is lost when you decided to leave. i need you more than you need me, i can see it, and much worse, i can feel it. you'll always have a piece of my heart that no one will ever have, and quite frankly, i don't think i'll ever get back... the same way you probably must feel or felt with g.h. 

everyone keeps telling me so many negative things about you, but i just stay quiet and wish in my head that you'll wake up one day and decided to look for me, and we will talk without any anger or hate in our mouths, and we'll just be chilling outside my house, talking like actual adults and not high school kids. i wish for that day since april, i think i'll always will. even if my wish comes true, i rather just talk it through even if we decide to not be friends anymore. i rather know the truth than not know, right, also we'll both have an understanding of our feelings and respect both our sentiments and decision. i am down for that, but are you? a part of me feels like you'll say no because after all i was your best friend for nearly a decade and i know you hold grudges forever and are bitter about things that really piss you off even after so long. it still amuses me, even if that means you'll continue to hate me for the rest of your life haha i love you for you so... whatever lol 

just come back, you can literally say to everyone i begged on my knees for you even tho its sort of true. i sound ridiculous for begging for you, it's just a foreign concept for me... to give up on you. i just never thought i would have to because you were enough for me from the start. i love you. if whatever happens, just remember, i did, i do, and I will love you. always and forever.

Edit: i gave up on you. The last paragraph doesn't mean shit to me anymore. Of course, I love you but I won't beg. There wasn't even a chance in the first place, I was just making silly delusions that you would comeback but you're pride is too big. I can now say I have this resentment against you. Now, I do feel hate. But what do you care, you probably won't ever talk to me ever again because you're a lousy grudge holder lol I'll always love you, like the quote, but you'll always be the biggest regret of my life and worst, my first love... even tho nothing ever happen between us lmfao pathetic. we had potential, woman! No, we didn't, we couldn't even maintain our friendship lmao i just think it's so sad now that if I ever see you somewhere, I'm going to have to act like I never knew you, a person I shared a friendship since I was fourteen. Eight years. How could you give up on that? I will never understand that. You gave up on me, but not him, a person who has hurt you and damage you in excruciating ways than I could I ever done. But I guess love blinds the eye. Or I could be wrong. You probably aren't even together and I'm over here hating lmfao How would I know if you never even told me shit after the breakup because you would always get butt hurt cuando te decia tus verdades lmfao bitch, I'm going to miss you. It was a good ride while it lasted. Even when I want to hate you, I'm still stupid with you, being a "dumbshit" like you would say lol good times. Good times. Gah, this one will forever hurt my heart. You got away just like Karla. Of course, not nearly as cynical as hers. But this one will continue to bleed for awhile. I'm still grieving I ain't gonna lie. I still want to talk, I still want to hear your perspective. Hopefully, in a nice tone. I'm sensitive af, bitch. But yeah, hopefully one day we'll sit down in hear what in the hell went wrong cause I honestly don't know lmfao

[yeont4n]

Answer all!!

here we fuckn goooooooooo

we are bulletproof: if you could be any superhero, who would you be and why?

u kno that 1 girl from sky high whose only power was shapeshifting into a hamster? her. no reason

no more dream: if you woke up tomorrow to be incredibly famous, how would you react?

id go check my mailbox to collect all my free promotional gifts and then prolly fake my own death

i like it: if you could reverse any moment in your life, what would that moment be? 

there’s 1 thing but im not rlly gonna expose myself like tht on here smh

n.o: biggest pet peeve?

loud chewing/loud eating,,,,,,

we on: how do you deal with people who don’t like you?

i dont deal wit it lmfao it’s not my business who likes me n who doesn’t unless someone’s being particularly vocal about it:// in that case i’d prolly jus laugh about it

if i ruled the world: what would you do if you found out that you were an heir to a wealthy kingdom?

lmfao. idk tbh prolly decide which breed of dog i wanted to be known for loving

coffee: what’s your coffee order?

i dont order coffee often buh somethin w a lot of sugar.

cypher pt. 1: if you had to be part of a kpop group, what position would you want to be (i.e. leader, visual, lead vocal, dancer, rapper, maknae, etc.)

maknae i guess? how about staff

rise of bangtan: when and how did you get into the king and legends, also known as bangtan sonyeondan?

i saw a video of yoongi performing intro:nevermind in like 2015 n was :o ! buh never looked into it. in 2016 i saw the fire and bst dance practice vids and was like :0!??? but again, never looked into it. then finally spring day/not today mvs dropped n i FINALLY looked into who these boys were n jus fell down an ever spiraling rabbit hole.. now we here

satoori rap: what does home mean to you?

a feeling. i mean i have a few physical manifestations of the concept of home: my town, my school, my house. things i can return to. but really it’s a feeling isn’t it?? safety, familiarity, comfort, fondness

boy in luv: when you are interested in someone (romantically, sexually, etc.), does your behavior change?

yeah probably altho i dnt have many data points to go over rn

just one day: who would you want to spend the last day of your life with?

yall expectin me 2 say bts buh id want 2 be wit my friends n family . bts can b there 2 if they want

tomorrow: goal that you would like to achieve within the next year?

get into..... college.....

cypher pt. 2: one thing about yourself you wish people would appreciate more?

i never express appreciation n all that verbally thru words or physically thru touch buh i have my own ways of showin tht i care n i guess it dont count if i dont communicate explicitly like: hey ilu ! . what happened to actions speak louder than words smh

spine breaker: what is your weakness when it comes to spending money?

makeup!!!!!!!!!! >

jump: favorite childhood memory?

getting my dog tina!!!!

miss right: what is your ideal ‘type’?

physically i tend 2 like the boyish types likkee think taehyung inu era i guess. boy next door vibes; ive never rlly been into the macho build or the preppy, neat look, or the rough around the edges, angsty shithead badboy exterior model like i like my boys S.O.F.T.! puppy-ish!

personality wise i guess jusssss idk i’m gonna copy n paste a list of qualities i look 4 in a partner that i wrote for a different ask game a while back: Sense of humor, openmindedness, compassion, reliability, ability 2 communicate directly/emotional maturity, ambition/drive/work ethic, etc.

i like it pt. 2: dream date? 

yall prolly expecting me to say smthn like staying in n watching movies n eating junk but i’d prolly wanna go out n do smthn ngl. not a movie where u can hardly even speak or a dinner date where u feel trapped n stiff buh smthn fun n mildly competitive n engaging ??????? although jus chillin dont sound so terrible either

danger: have you ever had a near-death experience?

kinda not really it was on hampton beach n i had an allergic reaction but i wasnt on death’s door or nuthn

war of hormone: most embarrassing moment?

i bled thru my fucking pants in like 7th grade n it got on the chair! it was bad lol i was jus talking about this w my friend n she was like “yeah i remember that haha:)” shut up caitlin

hip hop lover: three songs that are meaningful to you?

moonlight sonata, ballade no. 1 in g minor, bts’ entire discography ties for 3rd

let me know: are you good at keeping secrets?

no lmfao . keeping my own, sure.

rain: most spontaneous thing you’ve ever done?

some words that have never been used to describe me, grace: spontaneous, easy going, flexible. the most impulsive thing i’ve done is prolly take a random sidestreet omw home just for the heck of it lol

cypher pt. 3: favorite outfit to wear?

cute jeans w a belt, a crop top. white adidas. i like dresses too tho!! n i really like layered clothes (a mock turtle neck under a slip dress or like a pinstripe button up under a babydoll fit blouse. i jus think it’s fuckin adorable)

blanket kick: longest time you’ve spent lying in bed (sleeping or not)? 

prolly 2 or 3 days

24/7 = heaven: what are you most looking forward to?

fuck i rlly dk . doesnt that suck??

look here: do you have any hidden talents?

i can burp on command lmfaoofdj

second grade: proudest accomplishment?

dont ask me this if u dnt want to be made uncomfortable by how genuinely unproud of myself i am lol

i need u: are you in love?

wit k*m t*aehy*ng? yeah.

hold me tight: does physical contact comfort you?

no........... maybe i havent found the right person but it’s not my cup of tea generally speaking

love is not over: ever had your heart broken?

no but now i know what i can look forward to haha

dead leaves: how loyal are you?

im rlly loyal if that commitment is mutual. w my family i’m ride or die i’ll fuck anyone up who comes for my asshole brother idc!!!!!!!!!

move: last time you cried?

cant remember,, i dnt cry much. prolly watching reply 1988 when bo ra and her dad were exchanging letters on her wedding day.

butterfly: most beautiful thing you’ve ever seen?

his name looks similar to my url thats the only hint im giving

run: do you like traveling? if so, where? what’s your dream vacation?

i dnt really like travelling tbh but i do wanna go back to korea one day. not necessarily as a tourist but as a diasporic korean person myself

ma city: if you could live anywhere in the world, where would it be?

idk. i cant imagine not living in the states tbh but i also cant say i love it here either

baepsae: do you vote and/or keep up with politics?

i can’t vote but i’m in my school’s youth vote committee which runs debates for local elections and registration drives at the end of the year. i kept up with politics a lot more last year but after the election i jus got 2 bitter. i know what’s going on but only sort of surface level smh

dope: what did you want to be when you were younger? how does it compare to what you want to be now?

i wanted to be a teacher lmfao and i wanted to commute to college n save $$ bc i was a practical little fucker even when i was 6. these days i’m not that interested in teaching bc a) i’d be objectively bad at it and b) i was a classroom mentor for elementary schools and... realized i can’t work w kids tht small every damn day i’d rlly snap

fire: are you a spontaneous person?

no~

save me: your favorite place on earth?

rn??? m y bed

young forever: what is one movie from your childhood that you will always treasure?

august rush lol

boys with fun: you’re going on a roadtrip with seven other people– dead, alive, fictional, real, famous, or not. who are they, and why?

really......... seven other people:)? guess.

converse high: how many pairs of shoes do you own?

12??? 3 are the same black heel lmfao n a lot i havent worn in years but i still technically own them. i rlly b wearing the same 4 pairs in a cycle n 1 rotten bleach stained soggy mess for work shoes.

whalien 52: weirdest thing that has ever happened to you? alternatively, weirdest dream you’ve ever had?

weirdest dream i ever had was way too long to type out n had way too many references to people in my personal life to ever be interesting lmao

house of cards: when was the last time you felt sexy?

HAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAAHHAAH?????????????????

boy meets evil: have you ever committed a crime? if so, what was it? alternatively, what is the worst thing you have ever done?

does speeding count smh.

blood, sweat, & tears: kinkiest kink you have?

rolling eyes emoji. pass!

begin: who are you most grateful for in your life?

my parents!

lie: biggest fear?

real talk? failure. abandonment but i’m adopted, how cliche. also bugs

stigma: would you rather know the date of your death or the cause of your death?

date of death bc if i knew the cause but not have any indication of when it’d hit me, i’d be a paranoid agoraphobic wreck for the rest of my life

first love: do you believe in soulmates?

yes but i also believe you can have more than one! and that soulmates aren’t exclusively romantic

reflection: if you could tell your past self one thing, what would it be?

get ur fucking bangs cut

mama: are you good at giving advice?

yeah i think so

awake: if you had to be a flower, which flower would you be?

lazy daisy

lost: how good are you with directions? do you get lost easily?

horrible horrible horrible. directionally challenged. i can’t even find my way to the fucking grocery store down the road on my own. if i ever missed an exit on the highway you’d never hear from me again, i could never find my way back without a gps. i’m dead serious

cypher pt. 4: what do you do to treat yourself or relax?

take a bath or a long long shower. eat smthn warm, drink tea, do a face mask, change my sheets n snuggle up watchin a drama or movie or playin sims

am i wrong: you wake up one morning in the hospital, knowing only your name and a single memory from your life. what is that memory?

wtf how do i answer this lmfao how wud i know lol

21st century girls: do you prefer texting, calling, or video chatting?

texting! calling if it’s a long story though

2!3!: your favorite thing about bangtan?

their modesty and grace ! they’re a true underdog success story >

spring day: who do you miss right now?

uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

not today: what are your procrastinating right now?

math summer work smh

wings: on airplanes, do you prefer the window seat, the middle seat, or the aisle seat?

window seat!

you never walk alone: how many people do you trust with your life?

4?