#we need sleep i think. too bad i am frontin

[wellthatschaotic]

chris: hm. is yaoi yuri?

emily: if you believe

[fyeahcarlito]

Sleepless nights #4 (drifted apart)

Me and the girl I talked about in my first poem haven’t talked in about a week it weird going from being real cool with someone to not knowing where you stand to …well, nothing which is where I think we’re headed but while I’m on the topic of drifting apart I thought I should go ahead and tell the story about how me and one of my best friends became not so much enemies but I don’t like that Nigga. I think this will help bridge the gap in future stories. Remember that girl was just talking about in torn well In December of I think 2012 we had been texting and I decided to change schools to be closer to her ( incase you missed it) instead of rekindling an old relationship I met a complete new group of friend most would end up being my friends even still today but one in particular named… Imma call him spaz for identity reasons or whatever I met two girls that were twins imma call them kia and kamara and I met spaz through an old friend named Lisa and on my first day Kia, Kamara and spaz all ate lunch together high school there’s shit tons of drama so we ended up having additions to the group and some people leave but ultimately those were the three that were left when we finally got out of high school. All through out school spaz had been a real loyal friend to me we barely argued and we hung out all the time that was my brother but deep down I don’t know about his intentions I’m a really laid back person and I tend to let people step on me sometimes but spaz was manipulative so it was hard to tell most of the girls that I had strong feelings for or past relationships with he ended up dating which was a red flag I didn’t really pay attention to. Fast forward to us getting out of high school I had actually dropped out so I had been out of school for a few months already, me and spaz got our own apartment with money that he had saved about two grand and money his parents gave him about six grand if I remember correctly and we paid off three months of rent in that time spaz was supposed to get a job and all I had to do was pay utilities. This is where shit starts getting hectic were spending this six grand like it’s gonna last forever a lot of shit went down in that apartment I’m not gonna even talk about all of it in hopes of a good career in the future. Three months goes by in the blink of an eye now our homie ken is living with us and at this point me and spaz start arguing a little more often over little irrelevant stuff and it’s time to pay rent for the first time and we don’t have it so spaz suggested he sell his car and get an older car that he’s wanted I wasn’t for it because in all honesty that’s stupid as hell but he went through with it sold his car and bought a new one (broke down in the same week he got it) and again we spent the money that we had left over like we were rich and had steady income when I was the only one with a job meanwhile spaz is frontin and flexin to everyone like he has unlimited cash sayin he doesn’t need a job at this point he had accused people of stealing from us, using us and he was getting out of whack with this ego. a month or 2 passes by and we are starving I’m losing mad weight because we have no food and were relying on girls and homies to help us out lease is up we don’t have the cash so we go stay at my moms crib…horrible idea this is where it started going from bad to worse let me start by saying this nigga went a whole like two months with no deodorant smelled like an onion. Literally an onion. He was arguing with my mom he had got a job but wasn’t helping out with bills things were not looking up this boy complained about everything he’d walk around hurt like all day as if he wasn’t pleased during this time it got to the point where my little brother had to give him a 2 piece combo to the head and I almost choked him luckily ken was there to stop me. I was tired of my mom being upset this nigga didn’t respect or appreciate anything so I did what I had to do to get everyone that wasn’t my little brother out of my moms house because I didn’t want to see my mom upset anymore. We get another apartment and from the jump spaz was bitchin about every thing and I couldn’t take it I rolled with my moms ex so I could get some couches and this guy is talking like “where were you” “why didn’t you tell anybody” so I decided that this time I was gonna be my own person if this dude is gonna act like this then he can just be my room mate me and Ken start distancing ourselves so we’re doing our own thing he’s doing his I’m gonna go ahead and just lay it all out this boy took mad L’s he wiped his face with cat shit, when we didn’t have water (because he didn’t want to pay his bills) instead of going to the bathroom at the store down the street this fool shit in a McDonald’s cup and left it in the bath tub, he even slept with a girl in cat piss that’s not even half of it I can’t think of everything but a few weeks in the biggest L he took was when he tried to call ken gay for sleeping in the bed with me (it sounds sus I know but he slept at the foot of the bed with different covers ,calm down ) and while trying to make a point he said “SUCK ME!” Ken was fed up with spaz being disrespectful all the Time, spaz would talk down on Ken because he didn’t have a job so ken ended up slapping the shit out of spaz it was crazy then they got into a fight which ended in spaz kicking ken out after this incident things only got worse spaz wasn’t paying his side of rent or bills it was like a repeat of what happened the first time so I decided that I was gonna find someone to take my part of the lease and go back to stay with my mom and this is why I don’t like this guy and lost all respect for him so in the days leading up to me leaving he gets my group of friends together and starts saying he can help everyone get jobs and acting all friendly asking if I need help moving and stuff and tell us he’s going to visit his parents for a week but ends up staying I’m still cool with that I kind of saw it coming so I brush it off I go to the landlords office to explain myself I go in and say “I’m not going to be able to make payments on the apartment anymore I live on blah blah blah” and the lady stops me and asks are you the one who sent the letter and I say the “what letter” she tells me I’m obviously am not the one and then she was like so tell me what happened and I explained to her that my room mate left the city while I was trying to find someone to cover my lease and I was leaving because he wasn’t paying his side of the bills and the lady pulls out the letter and says that this boy said I had “selfishly took his money” and wasn’t paying the bills when the whole two or three months we were living there he’d only given me like three hundred dollars when all the bills added up to eight hundred he was asking me to cover him while he spent all his money on drugs it was the letter that threw away every last bit of respect I had for spaz someone who I had grown for 5 years with could so easily turn on me and lie to keep the shit off if him since then I’ve learned to act as an individual and be very cautious about who I let in my life because not everyone can be trusted not even someone who was once like a family member to you. This guy was toxic and I didn’t even realize till it was too late watch who you keep in your circle your closest friend could be the one that shoots you.