#we have no idea of knowing unless it was shown again through midnighter's perspective about jenny quantum

[buds-and-baubles]

(the authority 1999-2002 issue #21)

this single panel to me both visually and with words is a big clue into just how important apollo is to midnighter.

in a world where his brain screams at how to kill his targets a million different ways from the crosshairs of his eyes, apollo is without a mark on his head.

what does this mean?

this means his love overrides that concept. he is not an enemy. he is someone who can cradle his love's face in his bloodstained hands and think only about how much he loves and wants to kiss apollo. about how he can watch apollo's sleeping face at sunrise to see his peaceful expression. about how he couldn't ask for a better other half.

that his journey to being a person is always miles behind apollo, where he's taking off and knowing himself while midnighter is still stuck trying to work with a computer brain that never shuts the fuck up.

that it's quiet with apollo and jenny. the thousands of statistics to maim or kill doesn't reach them, it's like traffic outside. those thoughts, those statistics go on mute around them.

how he trusts and loves and works to be better for apollo. apollo could easily kill him, but his computer brain is quiet.

apollo to midnighter is home. home to love, home to return to and repair the damage of mistakes, home to cherish. apollo's an angel, the sun god, the sun king, the sunshine to him.

apollo first was his teammate, aquaintance, friend, best friend, and boyfriend. he's still his teammate and best friend, but he's also his husband and other part of parenting their child together. his other half.

he loves apollo more than the words he can express, more than the nonverbal gestures and gifts he can give. it's hard but fucking hell, he'll try for him.

apollo was there on the start of the fight for a better world but along the way he time and time again made midnighter want to work at being a person. at being a better man. at repairing his mistakes from when he left them.

in a world where there's thousands of code and results for how to break and dispose of a person piece by piece in red x's, apollo is seen through a red spotlight. through a red colored camera lens.