#we dated back in 2013 but I was a pos then and cheated on him because I give in to peer pressure

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May not feel great rn but tomorrow I get to see my best friend and we’re exchanging gifts and then afterward I’m going with my sister to pick up a cat

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Our Unending Love Story

So ganito yun, Imma tell you a story. Sabi niya nung last time akong nanuod ng romantic movie: "Love story nanaman" tapos eto ngayon, sinusulat ko yung love story namin. So, Dadi, LOVE STORY NANAMAN! Haha! We met December year 2008. Umuwi ako ng probinsya because of my sick grandma. Siya doon nakatira, near my grandparents' house. I never knew about his existence years prior to that. Haha! Anyways, it all started with dota. Yep, that online game na kinaadikan ng bawat kalalakihan na kilala natin. I can't remember how our convo started but I can remember that he asked my cousin for my number and how my other cousin told me na gabing gabi na tumatawag pa siya sa I don't know kung bahay nila or kapitbahay nila para magpa load at matext ako. Yes, ladies and gentlemen, di pa po uso ang free data sa facebook noon. lol! Sakto naman na that night, sumama ako sa mga cousin ko para matulog sa bukid (I can't remember why we slept there tho), malakas yung signal. Sa bahay kasi ng grandparents ko, walang signal so there's no way na makakapag reply ako kung nasa bahay ako. Days went by, lagi na kaming magkasama pag gabi noon. Until we decided to make our relationship official. January 1, 2009. That was the first time na naging kami. We were happy. May pinag selosan pa ako noon na babae (Naaalala mo pa ba di? Haha) But time came na kailangan ko ng umalis. Nawalan kami ng communication. I think that was the reason why iniisip ko noon na di siya seryoso at loyal saakin. We broke up. Everytime na uuwi ako sa probinsyang yun, nagkakabalikan. Ni hindi ko na alam kung ilang beses ba kaming ganon. Siguro it's because we're too young? Or maybe we weren't each other's priority that time. Fast forward to year 2012. November 2012, of course, umuwi nanaman ako ng probinsya and guess what? Nagkabalikan nanaman kami. Pero this time he's serious and I wasn't. Nasanay ako na bigla nalang siyang nawawala so ang iniisip ko that time, ganun nanaman siguro ang ending nito. So I did something that I shouldn't do. I cheated. I never thought na that time seryoso na talaga siya. I only realized it recently because this dude dictated our conversation from that year to me. He's not deleting our convos you guys!! ❤ So yeah, back to the story. January, 2013 we broke up again. This time, nobody else is to blame. It's all on me. I seriously regret that I hurt him that time. And my insides are still crying because of what I've done 5 years ago. Maybe if I never cheated on him we are still together rn. I screwed up real hard. Fast forward again to year 2016. I am still in a relationship with the man I cheated on him. I started to have communication with him again. And guess what? By this time I'm pretty sure you guessed right. Yep, we had our secret relationship. How? Pinag sabay ko sila. Yes, I'm a capital a-hole. And this dude is plain stupid for taking me even if he knew all about my relationship. Nagmahal lang daw siya guys. Haha But still, I ended it with him. Why? Yes, I love him. Very much actualy. But I have assurance with the guy I'm currently dating that time. At sakaniya, wala. Iniisip ko noon iiwan niya din ako. Na baka di din kami magtagal. Madami nakaaligid sakaniyang babae. Oh yes, I forgot that detail. He's working in Manila na that time. Before I ended it with him, nagkita pa kami. We went on a date y'all! Something we haven't done before. Sa tabi tabi lang kami noon pero dahil parehas na kaming graduate ng college and currently working, may budget na kami for a proper date. We ate then watched a movie (Cinderella). After that we went to Quiapo Church then Divisoria. We ended our day with a dinner tapos hinatid niya na ako sa bus terminal. He was teary eyed while saying goodbye. I never ever wanted to see him cry again. Iyakin kasi yan eh. Ang babaw ng luha pag dating sakin. Di niya alam, iyakin din ako, di ko lang ipinakita. We parted after that nawalan nanaman kami ng communication. Okay, so before I continue let me just tell you how I feel. I love him. I always thought he was my greatest love. Kahit gaano pa kami katagal na hindi magkita, pakiramdam ko malulusaw pa din ako sa tingin niya whenever nagkikita kami kahit pasulyap lang. I still get nervous around him. There's a part of me na naiwan sakaniya. Tingin ko yung part na yun ng puso ko, kahit gaano pang kadaming tao ang dumaan sa buhay ko, hinding hindi nila makukuha yun. He took a part of my heart and kept it. His love is my weakness. His eyes, the way he looks at me is full of love. His smile is something I wanna see for the rest of my life. His kisses are enchanting. I am so damn in love with this guy. And I don't know what to do. June 2018. I've had a glimpse of him and that is enough to make my feelings get awaken again. But it was too late for us. I am already married. I can't remember if it was the same month when we bumped into each other and he said "Uy P, musta?" I answered him with "uy" pero di niya pala ako narinig. Di ko nga alam paano ko siya sasagutin noon because guys, I was shocked na pinansin niya ako. Turns out, di pala siya sure kung ako yun or yung cousin ko. Hahahaha! To be continued because I still don't know how to continue thia story. Di pa siya tapos guys. Abangan.....

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Questions 1-85 🤷🏽‍♂️ if you're down lol

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1. Are looks important in a relationship?Tbh kind of2. Are relationships ever worth it?Yeah you just have to wait for the right one to come uk3. Are you a virgin?No sometimes I still wish I was tho like I wish I would have waited until I was married like how I planned to lol i wanted to lose it in a special way but it didn't happen4. Are you in a relationship?Hellll naaaaa5. Are you in love?No6. Are you single this year?Yeah and next yr too and the yr after that7. Can you commit to one person?Yes I can. Rn I can flirt w the whole world but I swear once I'm in a relationship I cut everyone off and keep you happy even if I can't keep myself happy and it sucks cus that's how I get taken advantage of 8. Describe your crushI don't like anyone rn 9. Describe your perfect mateTaller than me, kind of gordito, always talking, always giving me attention, down to stay in on a Friday night and watch movies w cudddles, able to smoke a fat bluhnnnnt w me, funny, mean to everyone but only nice to me, enjoys to fight w me like being able to roast me so I can roast back I don't want to pussy ass bihhhh, able to handle me cus there's days I have an attitude I love to talk shit lmaooo, respects me, treats me good, buys me food, likes hickeys, opens the door for me jus so he can smack my ass hehe, grand my ass 25/7, is a lil freak in the sheets JUST 4 ME like if we can't bust a quick upstairs while th fam is downstairs u ain't for me, and one who loves me ((((:10. Do you believe in love at first sight?No it's just lust 11. Do you ever want to get married?Yes. Nothing beats waking up to the love of ur life every morning and sleeping every night, being able to kick him while u sleeping and eating all his food that he said not to eat and fighting bcus he eats my Greek yogurt after he specifically said he didn't like it or fighting over who gets to sleep in the side of the wall and being able to jog all the cobijas hehe and being able to travel w him 12. Do you forgive betrayal?It depends tbh. I feel like some people deserve second chances bcus if you know they have good intentions and didn't mean to fuck up then give it a second try cus everyone makes mistakes you just have to learn from them uk 13. Do you get jealous easily?Already answered this one14. Do you have a crush on any one?No15. Do you have any piercings?I have double piercings on each ear, and my belly button 16. Do you have any tattoos?No I want one tho )))):17. Do you like kissing in public?Fasaack yessss like grab my face and show these nigguhs u own me hehe 20. Do you shower every day?Yeah right before I go to sleep bcus I just lay there naked lol 21. Do you think someone has feelings for you?No lololol22. Do you think someone is thinking about you right now?Highly doubt it23. Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months and not cheat?Yesssss already did 24. Do you think you’ll be married in 5 years?Nah I'll be too busy working on my masters 25. Do you want to be in a relationship this year?Kind of cus a big getting lonely asf ya feel26. Has anyone told you they don’t want to ever lose you?Yes but he lied lmaoooo he broke up w me cus I went to college 27. Has someone ever written a song or poem for you?Not that I remember 28. Have you ever been cheated on?Yaaaaa29. Have you ever cheated on someone?Nope30. Have you ever considered plastic surgery? If so, what would you change about your body?Tiddy implants and liposuction 31. Have you ever cried over a guy/girl?Duh lmao u didn't have a childhood if u didn't play some t-pain and cried lol 32. Have you ever experienced unrequited love?What does that mean lol 33. Have you ever had sex with a man?Yeah 34. Have you ever had sex with a woman?No35. Have you ever kissed someone older than you?Oh yeahhhhhh lol older guys know what they doinnnnnnnnngggggggg omg 36. Have you ever liked one of your best friends?Yes37. Have you ever liked someone who your friends hated?Yes 38. Have you ever liked someone you didn’t expect to?Yes39. Have you ever wanted someone you couldn’t have?Yes40. Have you ever written a song or poem for someone?Yes41. Have you had sex so far this year?No )))):42. How long can you just kiss until your hands start to wander?Already answered 43. How long was your longest relationship?1 yr 3 months 44. How many boyfriends/girlfriends have you had?Only 2 serious relationships 45. How many people did you kiss in 2012/2013?46. How many times did you have sex last year?Uhhhmmmmm idk like 247. How old are you?1948. If the person you like says they like someone else, what would you say?Que le vaya bonito y que chingue su madre todo lo que no sirva hahaha 49. If you have a boyfriend/girlfriend, what is your favorite thing about him/her?Their hands and laugh and cuddling abilities 50. If your first true love knocked on your door with apology and presents, would you accept?Ehhhhh i think I would lol I miss him at times and all the live we shared 51. Is there a boy/girl who you would do absolutely everything for?My dad52. Is there anyone you’ve given up on? Why?Yeah cus they weren't serious about me so why even keep trying 53. Is there someone mad because you’re dating/talking to the person you are?Yeah probly lol 54. Is there someone you will never forget?Yeppppp55. Share a relationship story.Too lazy to type 56. State 8 facts about your bodyIm fat. My left thumb is fatter than my right thumb. I have a scar on my left ear. Uhmmmm i don't have s thigh gap. My belly is pierced. My right eyebrow is better than my left. I have a scar on my forehead. And I'm fat 57. Things you want to say to an exPos58. What are five ways to win your heart?Already answered 59. What do you look like? (Post a picture!)Ugly 60. What is the biggest age difference between you and any of your partners?7 yrs lol 61. What is the first thing you notice in someone?Answered 62. What is the sexiest thing someone could ever do for/to you?Make breakfast for me and take it to bed then start besándome and uk how that gooooes63. What is your definition of “having sex”?Answered 64. What is your definition of cheating?Answered 65. What is your favourite foreplay routine?A deep passionate kiss then kissing the neck then nibbling the ear then leaving bites in the neck and chest and going down the tummy then the rest is for me to know66. What is your favourite roleplay?Teasing w my tongue hehe 67. What is your idea of the perfect date?Anything w food lmao 68. What is your sexual orientation?Str869. What turns you off?Too much aggressiveness like demanding aggressiveness that's not sexy lol idk hard to explain 70. What turns you on?Answered 71. What was your kinkiest wet dream?Uhhhhh .....72. What words do you like to hear during sex?"Who's daddy" "you're so wet" "oh fuck" "baby" haha I'm wild 73. What’s something sweet you’d like someone to do for you?Give me a million dollars 74. What’s the most superficial characteristic you look for???? I don't get it 75. What’s the sweetest thing anyone’s ever done for you?When it would be cold outside my ex would pump my gas for me ))))):76. What’s the sweetest thing you’ve ever done for someone?Give him my virginity lol 77. What’s your opinion on age differences in relationships?As long as both people are not underage you good 78. What’s your dirtiest secret?Lmaooooo too private 79. When was the last time you felt jealous? Why?Everytime bae adds girls in Facebook and likes their picture 80. When was the last time you told someone you loved them?Today 81. Who are five people you find attractive?Idk everyone ugly lol82. Who is the last person you hugged?Bae83. Who was your first kiss with?My 8tj grade "boyfriend" lol84. Why did your last relationship fail?He started becoming really abusive and we were both too hard headed so when we would fight we'd throw everything from the past to each other's face and say shit to each other that we didn't mean just to get each other mad, our first official break up I talked to someone else and he got mad and ever since that he would call me a hoe and a slut and call me names and it just wasn't the same anymore we would only fight bcus of his trust issues and shit and eventually I moved to a diff town for college and he ended things 85. Would you ever date someone off of the Internet?Yeah depends tho