#we acknowledged that weight doesnt matter AND ALSO YOU ARENT EVEN ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN YOURE SO SMALL
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virmillion · 4 years ago
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#lab bitches and moans#d.o///nt re///bl.og#because therapy has become ineffective so i will instead complain in my tags because i dont have as much of a filter here#and my parents cant overhear me#so. i can feel things getting bad again. you know when you just. like you know yourself well enough to recognize the patterns. its that#and its not shark week bc its not a perfect monthly thing or w/e but i can feel when im reaching the low of the metaphorical circle here#and im. i KNOW its getting bad. i know it. but that doesnt. like. theres nothing i can DO about it except wait with dread#theres the usual suspects obv. racist dad. hurts to breathe (and no explanation found). my cat is super old. school is so much all the time.#im lonely. i hate my major. i dont know what i want to do with my life. i might be faking it*. *gender sexuality menthol iwness et al#like. i just really dont know what to do at this point u know?? like. idk i just kinda say -you know- and hope someone Does#oh cant forget the food shit. fuckin. i thought we were OVER this lab. i thought we were DONE with that#we acknowledged that weight doesnt matter AND ALSO YOU ARENT EVEN ALLOWED TO COMPLAIN YOURE SO SMALL#but thats not what the mirror says thats not what your brain says thats not what the opposite of your rationality says#because oh boo hoo you dont fit in a size two anymore#you ASSHOLE. are you KIDDING me. how fucking ungrateful do you have to be that you hesitate to DRINK FUCKING TEA because You Could Be Better#SIZE DOESNT MAKE YOU BETTER. SHUT UP ALREADY#AND THATS NOT EVEN IT ARE YOU KIDDING ME WITH YOUR POOR-ME BULLSHIT WHEN OTHER PEOPLE HAVE IT SO MUCH WORSE#god and its!!! this is just ME. i KNOW that. i KNOW this shit is fucking stupid and i CAN AND SHOULD just get over it already#but worry not!! because not TWELVE HOURS FROM NOW ill be fucking PARALYZED trying to decide if that second piece of gum is worth it#five calories a pop btw. in case youre keeping track future lab. like a goddamn freak#god im. i was so much better not a week ago. like i was FINE. i should be FINE#im DOING the therapy im DOING the sleeping im DOING the radiate kindness and warmth im DOING the water drinking#im DOING the mindfulness of the i.ntr/usi.ve thoughts im DOING the out-logic of my c.omp/uls.ions#im DOING all of that#so why the FUCK arent i normal??#im so FUCKING SICK of having a breakdown every aught week because of?? who FUCKING knows. juptune is in gatorade idfk#god im so SICK of EVERYTHING dude. and im gonna be sick of this post in the morning i KNOW it#im gonna look back and say -wow i shouldve shut up and gone to sleep- and im going to say that around a mouthful of gum bc i will have#decided that thats all i earned after not doing enough work on the iah final#what the fuck dude. like. just why and what and the fuck
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nihil-a-nusquam · 8 years ago
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This “you dont like it get out” bullshit needs to come to an end. Yes there are lazy people who will take advantage but we can agree to two forms of thought. First being: i am worth life and i work for the life i am worth, and because of that i have the ability to want things that i want and i will go and get those things that i want. But unless someone is like me, they do not deserve life. Or the other being: we all deserve life, we all deserve to be alive and be fed and be safe because we were all born on this planet so if i need to wait on the things i want so other people can have the things they need, thats fine.
Those are the only two sides to this. There is no compromise or middle ground. One of those forms of thought is correct. And one of those is wrong.
So as example: I was born here. I did not ask to be. And i do not like how i cannot achieve because i am being told that because i am not smart i am not worth life. I want that to change.
Get out.
Fuck you people. Tell me to find a cheaper state. Find a different country. Thats not life. That is oppression. And that is unfortunate that this society is designed to promote this perspective that if you want to be worthy of life you must participate in the rat race. But convincing people that they must be better than other people is good for business. And even better for business is convincing people who have it better off, that people who dont have it better off, arent people.
Bleeding dry the air of “non people” so that people in society can continue their wants and desires while depriving others of their necessities isnt going to work out for much longer.
Because mr. “I went to college and i got a job and i bought my house and i paid for my car and thats the way you have to do it or else youre not a person”. The non people, the poor, the oppressed, they’ll just fucking kill you and take your fuckin car, and live in your fuckin house, and eat your pets. Because if the balance is tipped to that level of severity, thats just what people who are oppressed do, they stand up and they take what they feel they deserve by force. Behead the leaders and let your government know that that is the response they are met with when the balance tips too far and the oppressed become the slaves of a society.
Ever delve into french history? Or world civilization history? Its not a wise move to make slaves of human beings. One way or another, the slaves are always freed, and, it is always brutal.
I have a united states issued birth certificate. This is a binding contract between my existence and the united states government. This contract permits me to own property. This contract permits me to utilize the services provided by the united states government. As collateral, this contract also requires me to fulfil duties. For example, if i work, i must pay taxes. Why? Because that is my agreement between my entity and the government that issued my birth certificate. Another possible requirement is the draft, this contract also places my eligibility to be forced to fight for my country. And i allow this. All of this. Because the contract in its base form is fair.
So. No. I am not leaving. No i do not like it. No i am not finding a new state. I am a member of the country of the united states, and my contract is being imposed upon by the suggestion that i must betray my contract and remove myself from my rightfully birthed home.
Now, its complicated but this contract also imposes on the government the requirement to represent my interests. But there are many people. Many. And not all interests can be represented. So. We hire representatives that we support to uphold our interests. This is politics.
In addition to politics, there is law. This contract holds me accountable for my actions. But, it provides me with the protection of those members of authority who are under a similar but different contract to uphold the law while providing services to the community. Predominantly pertaining to safty and order.
But things got a bit fucky.
Our politicians can be bought, as can our law enforcement. Both have the capacity for corruption. And what has happened in this segment of american history is we the people, unaware of the importance of our own contract, have allowed facets of law enforcement and government to neglect acknowledging our contracts. They are here to represent OUR INTERESTS not theirs, not the highest bidder. Since they started to fuck off on doing this, the perspective on what is valued as life has shifted. We no longer view all contract holders as equivalent partners in the business that is the united states. We discredit the stupid, distract the foolish, and reward the unjust.
This is going to change. Soon.
So how about no more dont like it get out. How about instead, we reflect on our lives and appreciate our stations for the lack of struggle they possess, and seek to achieve not because getting the better car than your neighbor will make you win, but because that better car will be your achievement, and you dont need to compete, because look at you dude you got a car, look at what you manifested, good for you.
But while conducting your life as you see fit, understand that under your contract, nowhere does it state that you have the right to impose on anothers contract. Because as we are all people of this nation under the contract of our birth, there ARE NO UNEQUAL SHARES.
That being said… if you do not have a contract, apply for one. You can become a citizen, you can go under contract, and if you do, you have duties, and the government has to represent you. If you do not have your contract, you should not take away from the earnings of the people while giving nothing back.
Something that post birth citizens understand much more than natural born citizens do is that you must participate if you want to be a citizen. Those that do it the legal way. And i have friends who are not natural born american citizens, but they became citizens and they work their asses off, and they do complain about taxes, but they understand that their duty is to pay them and they understand the importance of participation. Thats the shitty part about being a post born citizen. Because you must be able to participate. Some natural born american citizens are born disabled. Some become disabled. Some are just not all there. But they are still represented, they are still provided for. Because that is what was understood when we started this whole contract nonsense to begin with. Some people are going to be part of the structure while contributions will be null. Its just gonna happen. You are not required as a natural born citizen to participate. You wont get in on the good stuff, but at least its understood that YOU STILL DESERVE LIFE.
And that is the lesson that is missing with these get outers. They only see one side of the coin cause it doesnt benefit them to see the full picture, or to understand what their contributions mean as for the whole scheme. Causr they watch bankers make off with big crime. They watch politicians black list a plant because their cousin in big pharma will not gain profit if this plant is able to thrive. Its the corruption that viels us from the purpose of this contract. From the beauty and fairness of this great nation. Now its gross. Sickening. Diseased. Dirty. And those that are capable of existing within the higher ranks rig the game so they never have to get their hands filthy. Thats not fair or equal. And thats why there is a divide to begin with. Thats why inflation hasnt been adjusted for. Theyre rigging it so that anyone they cannot exploit, is forced out of their clean city. See: oppression.
Now back to “the illegals”. No. They are human beings. They may not be under contract, but, they still have a right to exist. You cant just round them up and kill them. You cant just round them up and send them back home. You shouldnt just round them up and imprison them (because imprisonment is a consequence of breach of contract, and they dont have a contract, see?) So if they arent willing to contribute and participate, and they are taking services that they did not pay into, OF COURSE we are going to be pissed. But we need to find a way to deal with it that doesnt ammount to mass expulsion. Because then the money they took and the services they benefited from, will never be replenished.
Should they go home, could they go home? Thats up to us to influence our representatives to decide.
But its our duty as citizens to understand this process, and act accordingly. The side that says let them stay and do what they want doesnt understand the full picture on how this insults and harms the remainder of our citizens contracts, because it isnt within the benefit of the people who dont wanna get their hands filthy to admit the existence of said contract because theyll be removed from power due to their corruption.
But make no mistake, its not a blame game on the “illegals”. Its a matter of confusion on how to manage their dealings. And its a lot of blind hate being squeezed into a corrupt agenda.
We are living in a country. But we are people of a world. A symbiotic world. A world of many countries that trades resources and creates technology. We are all working together worldwide. We cannot “just” close the borders. The world is beautiful, we need to have access to allow people to explore it to find their place. Because take the rat race and throw it away, what we are left with is a bunch of people who dont REALLY know why we are here but we’re workin on figuring out what to do while we are here, maybe find god, maybe figure out the stars, who knows, but we dont figure all this out by playing fort behind walls and telling people if they dont like being exploited they can get out. No. Thats not living. Thats not working towards something. Thats not progress. Its dead weight, and it will be let go.
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