#watch the scene again. Ghondor grabbed the sword with his hands

[goldenhylia]

Despite everything he said in Future Redeemed, when it came down to it N was completely unwilling to kill his family (At least after the death of Ghondor).

During the fight at Raguel Lake, N tells Alpha that he has no qualms killing him despite the fact that he is currently possessing Na’el but N doesn’t kill her. Even when the Ontos core was damaged, N didn’t attack to finish them both off while he had the chance.

On Prison Island, he insinuates that he hasn’t killed Matthew because he is the only thing tying Na’el to the current world, but even after Alpha is defeated, even when he knows Matthew is roaming the earth setting soldiers free and killing other Moebius he doesn’t kill him or even try to stop him.

And I think most telling of all, when he interrupts the final battle he severs the tether between Na’el and Alpha. He had absolutely zero incentive to do that, it was a surprise attack, he could have killed Alpha then and there. But he chose to spare Na’el. Because N isn’t “divorced” from his feelings about his family. Matthew and Na’el are still part of Ghondor, still part of Mio, still part of him and represent that hope for the future he thought had died with the original Mio. The hope that was eventually reborn as Noah.