#watch neil be like “actually they confessed their feelings in Heaven before Crowley fell because fuck yall”

[zionworkzs]

Anyone ask for a needlessly long and emotional dissection of when and how Crowley and Aziraphale fell in love? No? Too bad.

I'm going to start with something controversial.

Aziraphale fell in love first.

To explain this, we gotta get a few things out of the way first.

FALLING in love and KNOWING you're in love are very different things. And the whole concept of LOVING someone and BEING IN LOVE are also different things.

Aziraphale LOVES Crowley from, well from before the Beginning. Because they are both angels and angels love. I would even accept the argument that Aziraphale LOVES Crowley throughout their flashback scenes before the Arrangement (because again, he is an angel).

The Arrangement is born out of a symbiotic want of Crowley and Aziraphale to fuck around and not do their jobs enjoy humanity.

It is my personal belief that Aziraphale FELL in love with Crowley in 1941 when he saves the books (not a hot take, I know).

He REALIZES he is in love with Crowley when he gets the Holy Water for him and the closest we get to that is this scene.

Aziraphale thinks that Crowley wants to use the Holy Water as some kind of last-ditch attempt to get out of trouble. He knows it will kill him, and is incredibly dangerous in general. But he does it anyway. Why? Because he knows Crowley would find a way to get it regardless (most likely some dangerous plan that will result in death or grave injury). At least this way Aziraphale can feel somewhat at peace with the knowledge that Crowley no longer needs to do something reckless to get what he wants. He overtly goes against Heaven in this act, and this is one of only a few times we see him do this to such a degree (see Job).

It is my personal belief, and I'm sorry to be this person, but I don't think that Crowley was IN LOVE with Aziraphale in this scene or in any before it (def well on his way, but we'll get there).

I think that Crowley was still hopelessly intrigued by this angel who did fantastical things, like drink and eat and immerse himself in the aspects of humanity he adored.

And another controversial take I have is that the "you go too fast for me" is not Aziraphale saying he recognizes Crowley's feelings and his own and that Crowley is too fast for him in that respect. Because again, I don't think Crowley is IN LOVE with Aziraphale here.

I think Aziraphale is saying you go too fast for me, you treat life like a speedrun to get to the good parts. Hell, Crowley slept through the 19th century because he wanted time to move forward. Aziraphale recognizes this. He's in love with this demon who won't slow down and appreciate the mundane, human things that Aziraphale treasures. He goes too fast. He never settles down.

(I could do a whole analysis on this scene, but we'd be here till GO Season 3 came out)

I also could accept the argument that Azi realizes he is in love in this scene here when he hesitates before saying friends (Michael Sheen I'm in your walls what the hell was this shit).

Because it does make sense that this is the first time we really see Aziraphale say what they are. But he hesitates so much. Keep in mind this happens AFTER the whole book saving incident. Does he hesitate because holy shit the person I like just did something really sweet and I see them in a new light? Possibly. I still think that Aziraphale deciding to give Crowley the Holy Water was his declaration. But I could be swayed.

Crowley is different in this respect. Contrary to popular belief, I think Crowley falls in love with Aziraphale slowly. So slowly that he doesn't even recognize it as being IN LOVE until it's pointed out by Nina.

Because he falls in love slowly, it's hard to pinpoint an exact scene where he is FALLING IN LOVE. I think throughout the first season (and before when the two are meeting up semi-regularly), when he and Aziraphale are trying to co-parent Warlock and the subsequent hunt for the real antichrist is the clearest I can get to him being IN LOVE.

(Putting this gif in because holy shit, I mean, fuck, bro)

Let me explain.

Until this point (the handful of years prior to and during S1), he and Aziraphale were ships passing in the night. Crowley liked the mystery, the excitement of seeing the angel every so often. Got joy out of teasing him. But this is when Aziraphale becomes more than that. He becomes more of a constant in Crowley's life. And ever since his Fall Crowley has craved stability. A safe place to land. He changes his hair, his clothes, his accent. But Aziraphale doesn't. He just... is. He is constant, mostly unchanging, and still endlessly intriguing.

Crowley is IN LOVE with Aziraphale when he realizes that Aziraphale isn't going anywhere (yet). Crowley can rely on him. And for Crowley, that's something he's never had before.

Crowley LOVES Aziraphale. And he is IN LOVE with Aziraphale, but I genuinely don't think he recognizes it until he could lose him. (He's always been a bit dramatic; it would follow that his realizations only occur under dire circumstances).

Here, when he feels he is losing Aziraphale, Crowley does the one thing he never has before: says what he's feeling. Granted, it's sandwiched by a sassy one-liner and being shit at communication. But it's there.

And I think that he thinks, it's a fluke. One moment of weakness.

But then it happens again. When he's losing Aziraphale. And he can't say anymore. He's done his speech, he's thrown out the nightingales. There's nothing for it.

He KNOWS he is IN LOVE with Aziraphale when he's losing him.

[hellsingmongrel]

Ok, so, MASSIVE SPOILERS BELOW

Basically the main ship that everyone’s always shipped hard from the first book, Aziraphale and Crowley, the angel and demon who were supposed to bring about armageddon and decided “fuck that, we like Earth and hanging out with each other too much” and helped stop it, stopped being arguably the best - but also SIDE - characters in the first season and became the literal main characters in the second season, and when the fandom asked for an entire season of just showing their misadventures throughout history, them professing their love for each other, them holding hands and dancing, Crowley being angry and protective and telling off Gabriel for Aziraphale, the two of them being extremely married in every way possible, two other side characters Gabriel and Beelzebub being a couple, Crowley’s car being sentient, Crowley being soft and tender and sweet and unwilling to harm other people, Crowley being a high-ranking angel before he Fell, Crowley being non-binary, and the two of them KISSING?

They gave us ALL OF THAT.  They probably gave us MORE things we’d begged for, but so much happened and we were given so many gifts that I can’t keep track of them all right now, I only got to watch it once so far.

BUT.  B U T.  The season, which was always meant to be a bridge between the story of the first book in season 1 and the story of the unfinished sequel book in season 3, ended with Crowley and Aziraphale having a massive breakup because Aziraphale wants to go back to Heaven and Fix Everything, offering to let Crowley come with him and become an Angel again, but Heaven and Hell in this universe are both portrayed as toxic, abusive, indoctrinating corporate abysses, and Crowley wants absolutely nothing to do with it.  He begs Aziraphale to run away with him again, because he FINALLY worked up the courage to actually confess his feelings to Aziraphale, and that he cares for him and wants to spend eternity with him, kisses him to show him how much he loves him, and Aziraphale still rejects him, telling him he “forgives him” in a callback to the first season when Crowley offers to run away to another planet with him to avoid the apocalypse and Aziraphale can’t let himself do that, and the Crowley rides away in his car, probably bawling his big, sad snake eyes out from behind his sunglasses, and Aziraphale takes the elevator up to Heaven, forcing himself to smile because he’s forcing himself to believe that it’s all going to be ok and he’s going to fix it and he can make Heaven actually stop trying to do the Armageddon Thing because he’s being promoted to the highest ranking Angel in Heaven.  And the shots of them going their separate ways, played on either side of the credits as they roll, slowly fade away with sad music playing in the background.

KEEP IN MIND, this is all with the understanding that if this season does well enough, we’ll get a third season, and I and a great many other people whole-heartedly believe that they will have a happy ending in that season, because Neil himself has said in the past that they end up settling down together in the South Downs (a region in the UK that’s like...known for being pastoral and pretty and ocean-cliff-vista covered and like those lovely little landscape paintings you see with quaint English cottages covered in flowering vines.)  So it’s not a bad ending, it’s a gigantic, painful cliffhanger since we don’t yet know for sure we’ll get a third season, and so a lot of the fandom is understandably losing their God-damned minds.  We were literally given everything we wanted, everything was super queer and unabashedly so, they gave us some good fucking food, but then dropped an agonizing third-act breakup into our laps without the guarantee of a fourth act.  XD

I’m confident we’ll get a season 3, so I’m just sitting back and laughing away the pain at all the agonized screaming and memeing that people are doing on social media, but it’s definitely a lot to take in.  It was all written like one of those supremely-well-written fanfics that would become fandom famous and you’d binge read it at 3am even though you had work at 6am, it was obviously a love letter to the fandom and also a massive fucking troll, and I loved every second of it, even when me and my fiance were screaming our damned fool heads off for the last ten minutes of the 6th episode.  XDDDDD

I'm going to need someone to summarize what is happening in the Good Omens fandom after series 2. I have never watched the show but am invested through mutuals who are freaking out.