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There is peace in silence if one looks for it. The rhythmic chopping breaking the silence is like a heartbeat. Itās soothing. Itās a respite from the constant hustle and bustle of the rest of life at Garreg Mach. Not that he minds it, but heās enjoying this moment. Heās sure his partner-in-slicing is feeling it too, as heās been silent beside him.
Or at least, thatās what Ryoma thought until he opened his mouth. He furrowed his brow.
āI disagree,ā Ryoma says. āIt may be faster, but itās far more dangerous. Did you know it takes the same force to cut a carrot as it does to cut a finger?ā He looks down at the vegetables. He supposes it could be rather tedious to cut all these by hand. It could be kind of fun to grab a sword and try to cut the vegetables that way. But it wouldnāt be responsible. Responsibility may be boring, but Ryoma is boring.
Yes, he sees Shiroās point about him being a boring nag. He also isnāt about to change that.
āAnd donāt you think this is rather relaxing?ā Chop. āYou should try to get into the rhythm of it.ā Chop. āIt isnāt so terrible.ā
im number two on the fruit ninja leaderboard. get on my level.
#in character.#supports: kagetsu#thread: im number two on the fruit ninja leaderboard. get on my level.#watch him pretend he's not interested
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killer being like "yeah i know every single little thing about horror and dust" (because he watches them as a part time hobby (freak) (find something better to do)) and then he acts surprised when they do something that he wouldnt expect them to do in his little predetermined absolutely perfect concept of them
like what do you MEAN horror licks spoons clean when he's using them so he doesn't have to get a completely different one for the main course and the dessert. what do you MEAN dust has a lisp even though he speaks fluently and uses even more complex words than killer himself. horror knows how to sew and he often patches up their things without either of them noticing?? dust always wears oversized and clothes that cover him up just because he finds it comfy?? what??? out ra geous???? these guys have small little quirks to them that killer doesn't already know about???? killer immediately wants to know more. so he can expand his internal profile of them of course. not for any other more endearing and sweet reason. not at all,,,,,,,, (:3)
#AASHSHAHHHHH this one is so cute....... this thought. thank you brain for making this thought#it's like killer's experiencing sonder (except he's not aware of his own complexity of life because of his own derealization/personalizatio#actually i dont think this deserves to be a side blog post. this is too damn CUTE#at first the 2 were probably weirded out by killer watching them and now they probably dgaf...... killer comments less than youd expect#but now theyre used to his shit so they do all these tiny things that killer gets to pick up on and learn more about them#its so interesting...... killer can do as much reasoning as he can to try and find a logical reason for why they do these little things#but in the end if the real reason is just because they wanted to or they felt like it then how can killer comprehend that?#how can they just do that so easily and choose to do things based off a whim instead of having a calculated precise reason for personal gai#he wouldnt realize it on his own but noticing those little things coming fron horror and dust who used to be like him could help with the#everything is just a game and i am simply an avatar and the ultimate goal is the win aka be the most powerful#for dust and horror theyve already turned their consoles off. theyre out of their games theyve finished. their goal was just to beat it#(like if horrortale finally got the good ending it deserves because of aliza horror would have finished#if dust beat the player and due to extreme boredom (ITS GOTTA BE EXTREME EXTREME) decides to leave to explore the multiverse)#in killer's eyes theyve achieved their goals. but killer's still playing his game. maybe he IS the game. but eitherway he's not done#like they r. so taking into consideration how other versions of himself act when theyre finished with the game could he act like that 2??#did HE also finish his game and he never realized it? should he be basing these ideas off dust and horror when theyre kinda not the same gu#killer would find so many hoops to jump through to justify getting rid of the everything is a competitive game idea but there would be smth#IDK im just rambling. i gawt this idea from me imagining them fight. ya you wouldnt believe this sweet thing came from trio abuse :3#killer psychoanalyzing dust and horror is one of my favorite things eva. horror would HATE IT (if he were aware#and dust would totally be freaked out and keep to himself incase killer's planning anything against him#but uaaaghhh pretend this isnt canon this is triglycercule's ideal little world where they explore the mv and have fun#killer watching dust and horror sleep because he doesnt feel tired while theyre all in bed#and he's just picking up on how theyre positioned. how they breathe. the little things.......... djdjshahahaaahsushdjwbdsn ssosooooo cuuut#tricule hc#killer sans#horror sans#dust sans#murder time trio#utmv#dare i say mtt poly. ok i dare say it. but like lowkey he'd do this whether theyre together or not...... killers just weird like that......
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YES i miss him NO i am not normal about it
#my art#sth#sonic prime#chaos sonic#sonic fanart#sonic the hedgehog#im still so salty over the fact that they brought him back in the form of generic copy and paste robotā¢#sighhhhhhhhh#i havent even watched s3 and im not going to ive lost interest#probably gonna just. watch some clips of it and pretend that beepo is still real Nothing happened at the end of s2 ep6. Dont worry about it#he deserved so much better..
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on one hand i do like eduarent bc theyre an interesting dynamic between the subtly obsessive freak and the naive arrogant fool esp in regards to how they interact and play around each others mere presences but on the other hand i think makoto should be allowed to skin laurent and eat his innards raw with zero legal repercussions
#.txt#i should go back and reread that fic in which makoto seduces laurent and uses that to get close to him so he can fuckgin murder him#i lvoe laurent but i love makoto MORE andwhile s2 is my fave makoto by virtue of being the most interesting and engaging to watch#its insane to me that makoto didnt get to stab laurent even a little bit about it#that rant mustve felt so cathartic- scream out what hes thought for years towards a guy that ruined his mental and life for a dead woman#dorothy being alive doesnt actually like. Change that laurent did all that bc he thought she was dead and wanted revenge#destroyed makoto's relationship w his father also... ohhhh laurent you are going to burn for this i swear it#gp#great pretender
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rotating the pub scene from 73 yards in my mind i think there is so much being said there about wales and welsh/english tension that is so interesting and is going so under discussed
#blahs#dw#dw spoilers#the whole thing about castles in wales being english torture centres. much to unpack#i think it's easy for most viewers to watch it and see that the characters are taking the piss and write it off#but what's interesting about it is i think rtd is basing that on real exaggerations of oppression by welsh people#most castles in wales WERE built by the english and they WERE designed to oppress the welsh. except that was like 800 years ago#and some people use this as an example of welsh oppression /now/ when it's like. not relevant to modern wales really#and 'torture chambers' is a wild exaggeration that dangerously tries to compare wales to much more recent human rights violations#i think rtd is trying to caution against a romanticised or sensationalised narrative of old wales that certain welsh nationalists have#this is also what he's doing with roger ap gwilliam#i keep seeing people say his character is 'just nukes' and i'm not gonna pretend it's The most complex politics ever#but it's also not just nukes. it's about specific political tensions and attitudes in wales.#rtd's viewpoint reminds me a lot of my dad#my dad's a proud welshman he's a native speaker he grew up in a welsh speaking community#but he doesn't really care about old welsh history about llewelyn ap gruffydd or owain glyndwr or anything like that#he doesn't see it as relevant. to him what's important is modern wales and the tensions of the 20th century#i'd wager rtd probably feels the same#and what with doctor who being produced in wales being rtd's doing i think he's enthusiastic about collaborating with england#rather than being like. isolationist about it. (that's the wrong word but i can't think of a better one)#WHICH INCIDENTALLY ties the political strand of the episode with the personal strand about ruby#who is also dealing with a self-fulfilling sense of isolation#anyway i think this episode is about wales in a very significant way. we need more welsh people writing think pieces about it#honest to god i don't think any analysis of it that doesn't talk about its welshness is quite Getting It
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I've been trying to figure out a dynamic between neve and rye that I find more compelling, because right now there's not much of anything there for me to sink my little teeth into. but I think I've landed on something delicious with the idea that especially after minrathous gets fucked, rye looks at neve and sees myrna -- someone he feels he keeps letting down horribly no matter how hard he tries not to and can't quite achieve the approval of/connection with that he wishes so it's better to just pull away completely and disengage rather than stay in that unshifting shame. neve is (very understandably) measured and distant with him after what happened, and he's flashing back to his student days of myrna gazing at the perpetually hungover heartbroken heap of a person of him on the other side of her desk every time he missed the deadline of a paper or project like '...can we at least both agree that this is. a bit disappointing. especially considering your potential.' (and him all smudged black eyeshadow and numb ruefulness being like 'sure that's a very kind way to put it myrna thank you'.)
aside from the 'if I let him get too deeply into this he'll go the way of brom and it'll be all my fault (again)' element, neve thinks rye is dismissing her and her city/being a bit callous in the same way he was after varric's death (listen. how fucking wild must rook's reaction to losing a beloved mentor seem to the rest of the crew who aren't seeing the blood magic paper doll ghost varric the whole time, especially those who got to see them interact. you WOULD think 'there's something wrong with this guy. putting the job first is one thing just not seeming to react at all is another this is fucking freaky', wouldn't you, especially after seeing the warmth in that dynamic in action beforehand.) perfect storm of two people who grit their teeth and turn inwards in pain deciding that not talking about it is their best bet (NEWSFLASH: IT ISN'T) lmao
(rye spent his last year of watcher training on a mostly joyless bender and then got it together enough to finish the eternal orb project last moment in a fevered near-sleepless week instead of the half a year that was intended. emmrich is both astounded and distressed to hear this. "a week? but -- but that is an astounding accomplishment rook!! and also why in the maker's good light would you ever do that to yourself?" ("well you see there was no one to stop me from doing it like that but me. and under those conditions these things tend to happen".) rye was working through/looking up stuff around transitioning and doing every kind of OTHER high level watcher research through that whole time, but ultimately he's an excellent watcher and a terrible student, at least under traditional methods. adhd from here to the fucking moon. touched by something akin to divine inspiration in moments of high tension that pulls all the threads into one coherent unbreakable cord, a bit of a frayed mess in most other settings. in our world he'd be dropping out of a masters program at the very last hurdle in this moment maker bless and protect him)
#myrna is actually really proud of him for pushing through and becoming a very fine member of the mourn watch#(and a good man)#but she is also. well. myrna. so she has never expressed as much to him. (she thought it went without saying. it did not!)#dragon age: the veilguard#dragon age#dragon age: the veilguard spoilers#dragon age spoilers#oc: Ellaryen Ingellvar#neve gallus#considering how satisfying the Arc with davrin has been I hope this can liven up neve and rye's interactions for me!#also very interesting and fitting b/c davrin will come for you where you live and go 'and hey btw ANOTHER THING --' no bullshit#which rye finds SO annoying but is probably why their relationship has grown so deep so quickly b/c davrin won't let him avoid him#while neve is ironically a lot more like him and it means they have a much harder time reaching each other b/c they're both so watchful#and guarded. they vibed so hard in the beginning it was all neve approves all the times b/c they have similar instincts. and now look at us#we live in the same house and politely pretend the other one doesn't exist. we're making ghosts out of each other!!!#explaining why he's semi-avoiding her. he thinks he's being thoughtful in giving her her space but uh. well.#perhaps more flight behaviour in that than he's willing to gaze at directly haha#rye looks at lucanis claiming he's a mess and goes 'oh buddy you should've seen me the first day in a year I was fully sober#and working on that fucking orb with head pounding and eyeliner running. even like this you're one of the tidiest#and most disciplined people I've ever met. you're literally fine.'#the reason the romance is so slow is not even mostly on lucanis I think rye is the slower to truly open up one in that dynamic lol#hey. I love rook. I love him so much. my trying his best underachieving babyboy who killed god when he got it together#I suspect this is going to be a situation where I've planned multiple other playthroughs#that will inevitably be hampered by '...but where is rye tho. I wish rye was here. does anyone else miss rye' lmao#for reference I've finished DA:O at least 4 times. and all four of them was sophia amell doing exactly the same things. I have a Pattern lo#a pattern I have only really broken in da:i where I have three inquisitors I care about sort of equally (adaar is my fave#but I have fondness for them all)#hawke I basically play as always the same person just AUs of him haha. what if he was a mage instead and it was somehow even sadder#that sort of thing
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bro why did no one tell me how good don juan in soho was <- talking about a play like 10 people have seen
#ooooooooooooogh don juan is suuuuuch an interesting character and david was born to play him#i'm sooooo fascinated by how deeply angry dj is at the shallowness and unfairness of the world while being the very reflection of it#sooooo fascinated by his ambiguity. does he have a bit of humanity buried deep down behind his awfulness or is he just pretending#HOW MUCH IS HIS LACK OF AUTHENTICITY LACKING IN AUTHENTICITY!!!!!!#in the hands of a lesser actor he would be so . i cant say unlikable HE IS UNLIKABLE but hes such an interesting garbage fire to witness#and oozed a sort of fascinating charisma that only david tennant could give really#don juan in soho#to be so clear i watched the slime tutorial bootleg and i kind of couldn't make out many lines or characters but i think i got the gist#and i think it was kind of amazing
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Had to stop for a moment at work thanks to the sudden realization that thanks to the Mouse Droid fic, itās canon that Eli Vanto is exactly Tarkinās type, and that makes his promotion process So Much Funnier in Thrawn.
#Star Wars#Pryce utterly oblivious#Thrawn probably noticing So Much that Tarkinās watching Vanto.#Vantoās just there internally grumbling about not being able to do his Imperial Retail Job in Stocking#and like. Thrawn himself is only ever portrayed through outside views#so this whole thing where he doesnāt follow politics isnāt correct to me at least#heās following everything thatās going on but itās the same as him pretending to need word clarification from Eli#he knows whatās going on. but engaging with the politics Isnāt The Point#The Point is maneuvering and developing Eli Vanto while also positioning himself to act freely within the empire to his own ends#itās like bartering for space for his little droid projects: Humans Will Put Up With Shit As long As They Get What They Want#so yes I do believe Thrawn notices this completely#and that Eli Vanto could very much have made his own path to promotion if you get my drift#But he doesnāt. and this pleases Thrawn.#granted he doesnāt make that path because Eli actually IS mostly oblivious to politics because his strategies are escapist and avoidant#āavoid demotion and then maybe I can get what I really wantā#But Imagining this Ceremony is just So Fucking Funny. because Thrawnās there like Oh. Interesting.#and Tarkinās there following Vanto with his eyes like. yes. very interesting.#and Pryce is too busy scheming because sheās Pryce.
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actually i do want to make this a post. itās so interesting to think about harry from other peopleās perspectives, especially if theyāre people who were around him before martinaise. because the thing about harry is: heās a spectacle. there is not a single person left to him who genuinely *cares*. but there are people who take an interest for interestās sake. harry is the car crash that people canāt look away from, and itās such a rich lens to view him through.
letās exclude jean, judit and trant because thereās already enough you can say about them as the sole remaining members of the major crimes unit. think of the other officers who worked at the 41st. whether they worked in c-wing with him or not, they were exposed to him. they had to be around him in some capacity. as a lieutenant, he wasĀ āresponsibleā (i use that term loosely) for overseeing a number of subordinates under the rank system.Ā
like put yourself in the shoes of a patrol officer at the 41st. you know harry as, in a word, unstable. a deeply unreliable man of extremes with alarmingly few personal attachments to keep him in check. heās also practically untouchable as long as he keeps getting results, which he does, at a cost. so thereās never any point in formally complaining about him- heās never going to be corrected or fired, so you just do one of the following: 1) keep your mouth shut (if youāre polite or playing it safe), 2) only bitch about him out of earshot (if youāve got something to say but youāre nonconfrontational), 3) start shit with him but in aĀ āplayfulā way that is secretly sincere (if youāre ballsy/have known him long enough), 4) or start shit with him for real (if youāre jean, or have a death wish).Ā
and the thing about the last two of those options- *especially the 3rd, which seems to be the favorite of his fellow C-wingers*- you have to know him VERY WELL to pull it off without ostensibly getting your nose broken (or worse). you have to know his moods and his triggers and what exact cocktail of bullshit heās displaying that day so you know where the line is for this particular shift. whoever figures it out first passes it along to everyone else- hey, you can fuck with him about dating today, but donāt bring up the drinking or last weekās case or heāll go ballistic. and itās just like... heās a specimen. you may not know him on a personal heart-to-heart level, but you know him the way a zookeeper knows their tigers, or the way the falconer knows their hawk. you know when to feed and when to back away with your arms up. it doesnāt make things better, but it stops them getting worse. (for you, anyway).
then martinaise happens and if he comes back- his instability is still there, but itās not the same. you donāt recognize the way heās acting. maybe some things are not as bad as before, but all of it is different and itās impossible to get a read on it. you have no idea how to approach him now, or if you should approach him at all. thereās a new layer to his unreliability and itās somehow even scarier than before. thereās a tiny tiny calm in his storm, finally, and you donāt know when itās going to break or whatās going to break it. you hear heās finally actually kicking the booze and maybe you just scoff and move on, or maybe you let yourself root for him. really it all depends on how long youāve known him, how many times youāve seen him *try*. how sympathetic you are to his conditions and how patient of a person you are. how many times heās hurt you (because that number is rarely going to be zero). no matter what, youāre going to be left wondering. you donāt know how much of him is gone. you donāt know how much is going to come back. youāre not sure how much of each you *want*.
#disco elysium meta#harry du bois#disco elysium#sorry i just think it's so interesting. thinking about the people who watch him come back#you've lost the only little bit of predictability to this man. also this is isn't the same guy even though it is#you don't know how to feel about that. maybe you have the privilege of being distant enough not to care#in a way it's like harry is mr. superstar out of necessity#people engage with him the way they engage with celebrities#they want the entertainment and all the bloody gory details. but interest only extends as far as morbid curiosity#it's an artificial ego inflation as a last ditch effort to stave off the self loathing and the knowledge that no one *gives a shit*#maybe if he pretends he wants to be a display-only item then he'll start to believe it#he's just so deeply convinced that the things people hate about him are his inherent traits that he can't change#and not. you know. his abusive manipulative behavior.#at least before martinaise he had NO self awareness of the fact that he was just actively making people leave#as a self defense measure#he convinced himself that his own shitty coping mechanisms were a way in which he was a victim#instead of the self-inflicted feedback loop they actually were#sorry. im insane i know. but im right#kiwipost#hdb meta
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the Archie Werehog arc is SO superior for actually doing something beyond a shallow reskin transformation for Sonic, and actually leaning into the whole WEREWOLF thing. I remember reading those issues and losing my mind bc it was literally everything I had ever hoped for ever since I had played Unleashed. bc I mean like. Heās running on all fours heās going AWOOOOO and heās got a growling and more aggressive voice and effect (even if heās not intending it). and ur gonna tell me ānah he just Wasnāt Affected by the Dark Gaia energy even though he fucking transformed and got a direct fucking exposureā. not even A LITTLE different??? ur telling me heās not even a little feral, it doesnāt even have to be NEGATIVE man just let him start barking. Archie version said āyuuuuuup he went fucking UNLEASHED for REAL this timeā. I mean it started to lean further into the game version where the Werehog just made him look different and not fast anymore and nothing else but those first few issues were fun (also the Wise Old Mystic Man teaching Sonic the art of Honing His Energy or whatever was lame imo. They should have struggled with it longer). If nothing else I feel like in any version Sonic should have been written to be a little more upset and out of his element to have TOTALLY lost his speed, yknow the thing he bases his whole outlook on. I donāt want it need the whole thing to be like that just yknow. sprinkle some inner conflict in there instead of only at the beginning and end
#sonic the werehog#just my thoughts ^^#sonic unleashed was one of my favorite games growing up I used to watch the opening cutscene over and over lmao#the other transformation thatās interesting is Darkspine Sonic from The Secret Rings but SEGA pretends he doesnāt exist#bc heās full of negative emotions and heās fucking pissed LMAOO itās like if Sonic Xās Dark Sonic got an avenue into the games#I just like transformations that force sonic to look at the negative bc he absolutely refuses to in any interp outside of Archie#and even then it still takes quite a bit to get him fully serious
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Once again focusing too heavily on the science of it all while watching Masters of Sex lol I'm too asexual for this
But like Bill fucked his chance of having a really interesting study!! I know he wanted a control group first, and for the 50s that meant cishet men and cishet woman having penis-in-vagina type sex. But if he really wanted to study human sexuality and what the body goes through and all that he had the perfect chance!! In just one episode he got a woman who could only reach climax by being spanked, three gay men one of which was a bottom so Bill could have added anal sex to the study.
But nooo "we don't want deviants"... What a fucking idiot lol
It would habe been so interesting to see and compare the different things that make different people reach climax. And see if the reactions are the same or not both in the brain and the body. I know that it was revolutionary at the time to find out that an orgasm from clitoral stimulation was the same as one reached through penetration, but he could have had researched more ways.
As I said, I'm too asexual for this show ajfnjdfn it feels like a nature documentary to me lol
#that's quite a long post about sex#excuse me i don't usually talk about it and i have no knowledge of it either lol#this ep is great but also two very funny scenes to watch:#michael sheen pretending to spank a naked woman real hard although he very clearly didn't hit her hard and a slap noise was put over it#and the very silly shot of bill masters focusing really intensely in the two gay guys having sex in front of him#just after one of them laughed in his face cause billy boy didn't know how gay sex worked lol#this show is both hilarious and interesting ahfnjsf#angel talks#mos#masters of sex
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GODDAMNIT I looked up John Basilone to see how to spell his name but the first thing that came up was āDIED IWO JIMA 1945ā and now I gotta pretend I didnāt just see that cause Iām literally in the middle of watching the episode where heās about to be redeployed
#I will simply close my eyes and pretend I do not see#saying this about the character: I literally do not care about his story arc what so ever I am so bored#Iām sure he was a great man but this show is not making me interested in him#Maura watches the pacific
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Dude Cody Ko is about to go down hard in like, the next 48 hours tops
#it's SO WEIRD how much everyone has been sweeping this under the rug#like when it was just that one offhand remark from Tana ''shoutout cody ko'' I was willing to ignore it because like#it sounded more like a joke or a random diss than an actual allegation#but now she's stuck to an actual story and is clearly not joking and doesn't appear to be trying to milk it either so like#how can you still pretend it's not real#i've been watching him for soooo fucking long dude like since high school#it's no secret that he was a scummy frat guy and if he owned up to some shit and talked about it then i could accept he's changed#but trying to silence it until it blows up? not a good look#I think this d'angelo video might just be the first bell tolling for him#i will be watching with interest to see how he handles it
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not to be dramatic but i just saw my ex in a twitch chat of a streamer i showed her and now i feel sick to my stomach š¤”š¤”š¤”
#fucking hate that i could still remember her twitch username too#holy fuck#its a dbd streamer doing a subathon and playing bg3 rn.#i genuinely want to throw up#her presence is so unsettling#knowing she's like actually alive and living her life is. it's an interesting thought#idk i think one way i coped with everything was by like subconsciously pretending she just didn't exist anymore#oh i'm mentally ill. a streamer *i* showed her. dbd is My game and he is My streamer#i didnt even think she still watched him....#he's all we used to watch together i genuinely want to throw up rn this sucks so bad#why does she taint everything why does nothing feel like mine anymore#and she's in chat talking about bg3 as if she didn't take that experience from me and ruin it#i know im being very irrational abt everything rn i just. i want her gone from everything#i don't want her in any proximity i just dont i want her out of my life forever in every way#it's been almost a year i don't want shit like this happening anymore#jester.txt
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itās one am and neither me or the spider are supposed to be up. so i let him escape alive once he promised not to tell my dad i was eating grated cheese straight out the bag.
#tw spiders#cress talks way too much#we just kinda stood there#both frozen in the dim glow of the fridge#with me in my t-shirt and underwear#and the spider was butt naked#just crawling around in MY house#watching ME eat cheese#well SIR#if you promise not to tell on me#iāll do you the small small favor#of not immediately pulling out a jungle cry#and crushing you with my moms crocs#i told him iād pretend he wasnāt here#as long as he never came back#š i donāt trust him#heās probably still around#thinking he can live here without paying rent#or at least going to church with us :/#if you live in this house#you have to do things like go to church#or listen to mom asking if youāre interested in any cute boys#or at least help with some chores#pick up a broom#you have eight legs#make use of them#for christs sake
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every time i so much as think about that scene where light looks at porn magazines while scowling i go into hysterics its genuinely the funniest thing i've ever seen
#the funniest thing is is that i truly believe he thought he was being 100% convincing. that that's normal behavior for a completely straight#completely allosexual man#light is fucking awful and i hate him but also there's nuance to him. and sometimes i can get a little like. oh thinking about his life#before the series. specifically factoring in my headcanons about him being gay aroace and autistic and stuff. ppl have written some rlly#good fics surrounding those topics.... but yeah thats not even canon stuff but i dont care#anyways its not in a way of making excuses for how he is i just think it adds more to his character#hes total garbage but i think theres really interesting stuff with him when it comes to how he's.... VERY disconnected from others#just in general. he's like aware of how to act ''normal'' on like the most textbook surface level without being like. Aware enough to#be able to make it more convincing. and as ridiculous as it is i do see some of myself in him in that sense#also that person who said light and L is just autistic guy who's been masking his entire life vs autistic guy who's never masked in his#entire life. LITERALLY EXACTLY. genuinely perfect way to describe them they are both so similar when it comes to this#but the ways they go about it are very different. light has been playing the part of the perfect son his whole life. L doesnt try to change#himself for anyone and doesnt care when people think hes weird. both of them arent very socially aware and havent had any real friends#their whole lives. its such a fascinating parallel between them#i could go on a whole fucking thing about how light was pretending to be someone he's not around his family and at school and everything#long before he got the death note BUT. i wont. at least not right now#jesus christ how did i go from laughing about him with the magazine to this. my bad#derailed my own damn post. idk swagever#will say rq tho. watched a vid on youtube that pointed out how light expected his family to think nothing of the fact that he's gone to#such drastic measures to hide his diary when making the plan with hiding the death note which is like#that level of dedication would NOT be normal. so the fact that light expects his family to think nothing of it......#i mean you could read that as light just once again being socially unaware. but it could also imply that light's family kind of Knows#he's hiding something and just doesn't address it. (he's gay. im talking about him being gay)#the video also referenced this comic that i didnt rb cause the actual premise of it (lawlight wedding) is um.#not at all my kind of thing. BUT it was light describing himself as a house with a basement when his family sees him as a one story house#and i thought that was such a cool analogy#ANYWAYYYSSSS i need to go to bed. thanks if you read my ramblings#serena.txt#death note posting
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