#was it something I ate?? idk. I checked the foods to make sure I wasn't sensitive

[kavehpilled]

um. help

[fellow-anime-weeb927]

Hii, I'm back. First off, I'm sorry about the request I send yesterday, I think? I didn't see the 'angst' under the 'don't do' 😭 🙇‍♀️but I'm back with a rant (I should pay you rent for staying in your asks this much- I can pay it with kaldo drawings 😭)

I recently checked the sons' ages and well- Doom, Fanim, Epidem and Delisaster were born with only 1 year of difference (also, the whole family was born of 11th of something- Innocent zero was a weird guy. He even shares birthday with Mash lol) and knowing that a pregnancy lasts 9 months there would be 4 months of non-pregnancy state with each of the 4 first sons (I calculated it- I needed to know if it was actually possible to pop out 4 kids in 4 years like that). Yes, they literally were born Doom-January, Fanim-February, Epidem-March and Delisaster-April (Domina was born in May, but Mash wanted to be different and was born in November 😭). There is a problem, Mash and Domina were born the same year, less than 9 months in between their birthdays. To which I can only find the excuses that, again, Mash wanted to be different and decided that he would be born premature lol (or they just speed up his birth, if mother was getting ill or her health was going down). Also, I checked how much each kid weights and I'm pretty sure Innocent zero starved them- BECAUSE WHAT DO YOU MEAN DOOM (who's 2 meters tall) WEIGHT ONLY 88KG??? THAT MF IS HUGE😭 My older brother (who's 25, 5 years younger than Doom, apparently) is like 1,80m and he weights 110kg😭 Domina (who's 1,76,i think) weights 68kg (that's around my weight, I'm 1,65± and 15 y/o). So, knowing that information I want to add that after mother fell into a coma, Innocent zero had more power over the sons so he starved them (bc before it was impossible. If they told mother that they wanted to eat, or even if they didn't, she gave them food and made sure they ate at least 3 times a day. Since she suffered a lot from starvation herself and almost every family member (all of her three brothers and her mom) died due to starvation), and it would also explain why tf Delisaster has such a thin waist.

It's also possible that, instead of her bearing the children in her womb, they just decided to mix their DNAs in an incubator of some sort. Innocent zero would say something that it wasn't necessary for her to bear them and that it wouldn't benefit neither of them, since he doesn't want for a strong ally to be unable to work for over 9 months and he read that it pregnancy can affect her health (again, that means that his ally will be weaker than before (imagine his reaction when she randomly falls into a coma after mash's 'birth'- and doesn't wake up for a long time). And mother would also prefer it by just mixing the DNAs (✨trauma✨, and probably not liking physical touch?). I'm also sure that after some time, Innocent zero would put some spell on mother just to keep her in the coma (let's say her necklaces worked only around itself and since it didn't cause any actual damage they weren't activated) so that he can manipulate the sons more. I also imagine them visiting her, maybe on their own birthdays or her birthday or just randomly showing up to check on her idk.

I also imagine that when Innocent zero is defeated by Mash and mother wakes up and gets context of everything that happened during her 'absence' (she really didn't care if the realm was destroyed since they didn't care about neither her or those similar to her), she would be mad with both Wahlberg and the divine visionaries (even though she didn't like the realm, she had some respect for Wahlberg when they were young bc he had good ambitions and she expected for him to at least try to make them reality) bc "what do you mean after 100 years the law against lackmagic is the fucking same and nothing changed? And then you dump it all onto a 15 y/o boy? Wtf" She would 100% slap Wahlberg in his face (and it's a good one, after all the sons didn't get the physical abilities from their father lol) and say that if they don't change things soon, she won't hesitate to start a revolution. I also don't know how would Mash react to his biological mother appearing out of nowhere. They would probably have a talk, at least and she would say that she won't interfere in his life unless he wants to and that he should contact Domina if he wants to talk with her or needs something from her, since she doesn't have a phone bc she was in a coma.

Also, after Innocent zero is defeated, I'm sure that the castle doesn't fall down, so as she wakes up she goes through it and sees all of her sons (or their remains) dead (Except Doom, since he did live after the battle with Mash) and she doesn't know the cause of it yet, but when she sees the 'arrows' that attacked Domina she would get the puzzle together that Innocent zero have killed at least one of her sons (she couldn't care less about the realm, but won't hesitate to hurt someone tenfold if they hurt her sons in the slightest), he would have had hurried to hunt that mf down, but tending to Doom's injuries is more of a priority at that time.

Anyway, I'm really sorry for that request, it was my bad. I would send a kaldo drawing as an apology, but I can't send photos when asking as anon🙇‍♀️ have a good time

-🎨anon

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(original ask:)

A/n: dear anon you sure are discovering a whole lot oh my goodness- now that you explain the entire thing I’m like o_o I’m literally confused about the logic (but anime/manga logic am I right?-) so I’m not sure what to do about this, would you still want the ask?

[shouldwemaybe]

1-E, go go go

1. Who do the kids enjoy playing with the most?

evangelos because he's the surviving parent djskjdsk

2. Who gets carried away with the baby proofing?

i think both <3 they go over the top a little

3. Who does the baby follow around more?

juliet hehe

4. Who is the one the kids call out to when they’re looking for something?

evangelos

5. Who’s constantly up checking on the baby in the middle of the night (even when the baby is sound asleep)? 

both of them!! but before juliet's passing it would be her doing it more often, and after evangelos checks and double checks and triple checks because he doesn't want to lose Bruno

6. Who has their kids’ favorite movie nearly memorized on account on how frequently they request to watch it?

they don't have movies on the isle (that aren't whatever channels are allowed through i don't remember which ones they were) but personally i think it'd be Ponyo

7. Who trails behind the baby to make sure they don’t fall? (And then has to console them once they inevitably do.)

when they were both alive, it depended on who was on shift and who wasn't at the hospital (and now it's just Ev :))

8. Who knows to cut off the crust from the sandwiches?

both of them

9. Who started taking photos of the baby as soon as they were born?

trick question its Tonya

10. Who doesn’t let the kids go out in the cold until they’re bundled in layers?

juliet would in spirit but evangelos is the one who is doing it (look. its the isle. they're allowed to be overprotective)

11. Who has a harder time getting the baby to eat their food?

bruno ate really well but he stopped once he noticed his mama wasn't around anymore and Ev really struggled to get him to eat again because Bruno kept asking for his mama :(

12. Who ends up having to hold whatever half-eaten snack the baby didn’t want anymore?  

another trick question Bruno refuses to hand over snacks and Lola never got to solid foods

13. Who checks under the bed for monsters?

14. Who’s the “tooth fairy” that leaves money under the kids’ pillows? 

answering both at the same time because it was Juliet who did it first and then Ev who picked it up once they could without breaking down in tears because that's what their wife used to do damn it

15.  Who is better at comforting the kids when they’re scared? 

juliet :3 she has a knack for it because she has a little brother

— BONUS

A. Who do they think their child takes after?

ev genuinely keeps getting reminded of juliet every time he sees bruno. it hurts. they're doing better but it still hurts so bad. juliet kept saying bruno (and lola) were mini-evangelos.

B. What was their first night as new parents like?

stressful :(

C. Did their relationship change once they became parents? How?

i think they allowed themselves to be a little more open with each other (they were before, but the night Bruno was born was a lot for them and they needed to just talk without holding anything back)

D. What new traditions do they start as a family?

idk i'm not good with traditions 😔

E. Are they honest with their children? Are there certain things they try to shield from them? 

evangelos tries to be as honest as possible but he doesn't like telling bruno some of the less nice details about the Isle

[cahmilo]

Camilo with a S/O that Rarely Eats

pairing: camilo madrigal x female reader

genre: fluff headcanons

tags: headcanons, requested, no mentions of ed, just reader being forgetful, drabbles

request: idk if you take requests rn but if you do I have one for camilo hcs again but with a reader who just kinda forgets to eat? Like not in an ed way but just that they don't really have an appetite and sometimes they'll be like "well i'm not hungry so i'll just work more instead of eating lololol" and then they pass out or something

Strangest but cutest dynamic ever to be honest, an energetic boy who's addicted to food in a relationship with a calm girl who barely has an appetite

Not in a harmful or unhealthy way, you just sometimes forget to eat tbh

Camilo constantly worries and questions your lack of enthusiasm for food

"Amor, have you eaten lunch today?" Camilo asked, a hand leaning on the bench as you continued your work. You were a woodcarver, albeit only a junior one. You barely did intricate work since you had your parents to do it for you. Mainly, what you did was polish and clean their work.

You stopped to think. "Uhm, I think I haven't yet." Camilo sighed but then smiled at how adorable you looked.

"Well, I'll bring you lunch!" "You can't eat here, milo. No food on the work station"

Camilo pouted. "Okay fine, why don't you take a break and have lunch with me" Giving up, you agreed.

Camilo loved you nonetheless, he found it cute how he becomes the food enthusiast between you two. Seeing how much he loves different types of cuisines, he is always eager to teach you and show you new stuff to taste

You loved it, even if you rarely ate, sometimes you do appreciate good food.

Your work barely gives you time for yourself and Camilo knows it. Sometimes he purposely skips his chores to sneak you out of your family business for lunch dates in the nearby gardens

Camilo takes the time to even cook for you, if it makes you want to eat.

"Tia-" Camilo walked in to Julieta's kitchen, seeing her prepare his favorite arepas for the townspeople.

"Yes, milo?" Julieta looked back at him and saw his fiddly state.

"Can you teach me how to cook arepa de yuca?" Camilo fiddled with his fingers, waiting for his Tia's response.

"Sure! But why all of a sudden?"

"It's Y/N's favorite type of arepa and she barely eats so I want to make some for her"

Let's just say that Julieta was more than happy to teach her nephew how to cook seeing that he really wanted to impress you.

After Camilo found out that you preferred arepa de yuca (cassava), the boy kept surprising you with his homemade recipes. Oftentimes he brings different fillings for variety in your palate.

You heart always melted on how caring he is towards you, and you shower him with so much love and affection that he tells himself that it was worth it.

Although, there could also be times where it sometimes gets out of hand

There was one time you were overwhelmed with pending chores that overworked you so bad you forgot to eat for the entire day

Camilo was unfortunately busy with babysitting so he wasn't able to check up on you. It didn't bother you though, he too can also be busy sometimes

One afternoon, Camilo finally sent the kids he was looking out for to their homes and chased to you.

"Amor-" Camilo's smile faltered at the sight of you. Alarmed, he rushed closer to you because to him, you were acting odd.

"What are you feeling? Why are you pale? Have you eaten? Amor you look so weak when was the last time you ate-"

"Cami, I'm fine. I just need to polish these figurines" You reassured him, your voice wavering. You desperately needed to finish your chores no matter what.

"Amor, when was the last time you ate?" He sternly asked, a hand cupping your cheek making you stop working and looked at him. Your face was showing an unsure look your eyes squinted. "I don't remember"

"Ay, mi vida, you need to eat! You barely have any energy!" Camilo said worryingly. You pat his shoulder to reassure him while standing up to grab another figurine in the shelf.

"I'm not hungry, milo. I'll grab a bite after work, I promise."

Camilo sighed and turned back at your workbench, appreciating your work. He did understand the level of your chores, it wasn't like his babysitting duties. Your work had to need focus, concentration, and a heck a lot of time to perfect.

"After you finish can we stop by the cliff? It's a full moon tonight?" Camilo asked. He waited for you to answer.

"Amor?"

thud.

Camilo turned around to see you collapsed on the floor. Muttering a curse, he immediately went to you and picked you up. Fear and concern evident in his eyes, he carried you bridal style all the way to Casita having no time to believe his sudden strength and agility.

Camilo's yelling started almost everyone at home, calling for his Tia for healing food while Casita assists him to bring you to his warm and comfy bed.

Let's just say that Camilo was in a mess during that. He couldn't stand still. After you fainted, he never left your side and watched as you slowly regained consciousness, him wiping your sweat and singing you songs to calm down

He ranted to you, A LOT. You took the blow though, you kind of deserve it. And he was so worried for you

You got a lot of scolding from him, like you were a child. You tried to hold back a laugh because you never see him this pissed off

It took a lot of kisses and hugs from you to finally calm him down as you kept muttering apologies

Since then, you set up a specific time of the day you were to take a lunch break with you and Camilo.

Sometimes Camilo surprises you with homemade lunch boxes for you to eat when he isn't available

He would leave small letters and doodles in them

You were so whipped for this boy and you promised to treasure him for the rest of your life

Oh and this just makes you extra happy because he has parental tendencies and that made you ecstatic cause he's gonna be such a good father someday

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[9tzuyu]

dissolve (rewrite)

natasha x reader

note: this was just a huge vent fic idk. these type of fics seem to be the only thing im okay at writing. mistakes are mine as always. but i did proofread, yay!

if you want to read the original (as awful as it is) you can read it here!

wanrings: this heavily revolves around eating disorders.

i’m not tagging anyone because the content isn’t really the lightest to read.

words are used everyday, everywhere – whether to describe something or someone. there’s thousands upon thousands of them.

so you were having a hard time figuring out why you were struggling so much to justify your feelings through the basis of words. it was unnerving, draining and very annoying. your emotions should be simple, right? you were either sad or happy, angry or scared. but there was something more, something unexplainable. saying you felt alone only scratched the surface of the wave of emotion that took over. it was excruciatingly painful, far worse than any physical pain you ever had to endure. and for some reason it seemed to come crashing down at night while natasha slept peacefully. you weren't exactly sure how to express your emotions to the extent you felt them. how else was anyone supposed to understand your pain? they couldn't, not unless they could somehow shift into your body and feel your emotions themselves. but that was merely impossible as such powers do not exist. so you were inevitably stuck with words foreign to your lips. over the years you were deemed unsafe, a hazard, "an accident waiting to happen" you recall one doctor say. everyone’s eyes were on you at all times, monitoring every little movement you made. it was suffocating and at times doing more damage than good.

as an adult now you learned how freeing it could be without the fear of gaining weight or eating a bowl full of rainbow marshmallow cereal. your worth was not defined by your weight.

(at least that's what you believed prior to any relapses.) everything was going well in your life. you were a college graduate working as a psychiatric nurse and you had found love, something your teenage self could only dream of. natasha was by your side through everything. and really, the only downfall in the relationship was that she had to travel a lot for her job. but you were secure enough in your relationship not to worry or decide to call things off. in the end natasha always made up for it when she came back, so you couldn't complain too much. things were going well for you, really, they were. until they weren't. (and you didn't know why.) it happened out of nowhere. work was a little more stressful than usual, but it was nothing you couldn't handle. natasha had been away for three months, only stopping by a few times to check in on you. but again, your wife being away for so long wasn't anything new or worrisome. the two of you had followed the routine of her leaving and coming back more than a thousand times; yet somewhere along the way you lost yourself. food became less of a priority, your hunger decreased drastically, and within the first month you'd lost thirteen pounds. it truly was an accident, slipping into a full blown relapse was never part of the plan. but thirteen pounds lighter you wanted more, to feel small again. you didn't have an answer as to why you became so attached to your eating disorder, but it didn't seem like it would be letting go any time soon. the rate at which you were going natasha would most definitely be able to see a difference; not only on your weight, but in the person you once were. she'd ask what happened and why it happened, poking and prodding for an answer, but you didn't have one. so here you stood in the kitchen of your shared home, a cup of sliced fruit in one hand and your cell phone in the other. you poured the fruit into the bottom of a blender along with a spoonful of yogurt and half a cup of soy milk. another half cup of ice followed suit. while the fruit blended, you shamelessly scrolled through your instagram. there was nothing interesting going on in other people's lives, you didn't even know why you had social media in the first place. it was dumb, and quite frankly you didn't give a shit whether or not sharon went to the beach. the sound of your blender coming to a halt brought your attention back to the real world. you poured your smoothie into your water bottle. the green liquid would be your breakfast and lunch for the day - dinner was still up for debate. a soft sigh left your lips. work was beginning to feel more like a chore and less of something you enjoyed. you were quickly growing tired of it. nonetheless, you grabbed your keys and rushed out of the door.

you thought about the irony of working as a psychiatric nurse with an undealt eating disorder telling teenagers how to deal with their own issues. you felt hypocritical to say the least, especially given that all the nasty side effects were starting to make themselves known.

your hair was beginning to thin, small clumps of it already starting to fall out when you tugged a little too hard. bruises could be seen scattered left and right on your body, and you were cold. god you were cold. your fingernails were tinted blue, warmth seemingly too far out of reach. you looked ill, and it didn't go unnoticed by your coworkers.

a few hours into your shift you found yourself sitting behind the nurses station filling out paperwork. lunch had passed and when your coworker, steve, asked if you were going to eat something you lied straight through your teeth, telling him you'd grab something when the patients were eating dinner.

but steve rogers could read you like an open book. he knew you were lying because he already knew what was going on. the signs of an eating disorder were quite obvious when you were a licensed therapist. and despite your futile attempts at hiding it, everyone could tell something wasn't right.

steve played it by ear for weeks until he contacted natasha, but by then you'd already lost a considerable amount of weight. as soon as she heard the news, natasha booked the next flight home. unfortunately for her though, there was only one flight and she would have to wait two and a half weeks before being able to leave.

you didn't know it, but those were the longest two and a half weeks natasha ever had to wait.

– patients were having group therapy, so you could tune them out - not that you should, but it was hard to focus when the only two things you could think about were food and your weight.

the need to lose weight sounded so stereotypical for someone with an eating disorder, but honestly it wasn't about that. it was never about wanting to be thin. you genuinely didn't know why this was happening. the only thing you noticed was how rewarding it felt seeing the number go down, as if for you were good for becoming less. it was addictive. and it didn't help that you based your entire worth on how much you could lose.

the next time you stood up from behind the nurses station steve met you in the the cafeteria. while the patients ate you took occasional sips from your smoothie. the bottle was still full of its contents from the morning. you had completely forgotten to drink it during the day, but you didn't seem to mind it that much.

the surprise touch of steve's hand on your shoulder startled you.

i am gross, you thought. do not do that.

steve caught onto the slight flinch your body produced as a reflex, but he didn't say anything about it.

"you can leave early, boss said so."

he laughed as he saw confusion plaster your face.

"what? no!"

"go home, seriously. we have this handled. you know tony doesn't like being told no."

you bit your lip, puzzled by the sudden request. most people wouldn't mind being sent home early, but all it did for you was give you a level of anxiety reserved for food.

what you didn't know was that natasha was home waiting for your arrival. she came back just short of an hour after you left for work.

while you were gone natasha made a few thorough rounds in the house looking for key signs of your eating disorder. there was bound to be evidence given that you didn't know she was home.

unsurprisingly, natasha found a glass scale beside the counter of the bathroom floor along with empty bottles of laxatives in the trashcan. the food in the fridge had been expired a few days past their date, giving her the indication that you weren't eating as much as you should be. her concern grew even more when she found your food journal on your nightstand. flipping the pages, natasha could see that throughout the moths she'd been gone your calorie intake had decreased significantly.

guilt began to gnaw at the back of her throat.

during the few days natasha stopped by, she hadn't noticed anything wrong with you. but then again she knew most people with eating disorders were very good at hiding them up until the point they were discovered. three days wasn't near enough time for her to catch onto your tricks, not when her mind was still focused on her job.

natasha always listened intently whenever you would talk about your eating disorder, the first time being six months into the relationship on a date you felt like you had ruined.

but talking about it was much different than experiencing it with you, natasha had never done that before up until now. she read nearly every article there was about anorexia, bulimia, binge eating disorder and ednos. sometimes when you were asleep she would watch documentaries on the disorder, always making sure to keep her volume at a low level.

the videos that hurt her the most were the ones teenagers struggling with the simple task of eating food.

(although natasha knew it wasn't that simple.)

it hurt because she knew that was you at some point in time.

upon your arrival, natasha cooked dinner. she wanted to hold onto the one sliver of hope that steve was wrong - that he was just overreacting - but she knew in her heart he was right about his assumption. however, dinner would only confirm what natasha so desperately wanted to deny.

when you walked through the door you were greeted with the overwhelming scent of food. you cringed at the thought of having to eat, but as soon as you looked up to see the redhead who'd been gone for so long your frown was washed away. a wide smile overtook your face and you rushed to jump into natasha's arms.

"i missed you so much," you whispered. "i thought you'd be gone for another few weeks?"

natasha's arms found their way around your waist as your legs wrapped around hers. "what? i can't come home early to surprise my wife?" you giggled in the crook of her neck. she smiled feeling the vibrations against her skin, happy to know that you'd missed her just as much as she missed you.

she sat you down, back facing you, she tended to the food. "you've lost weight," she commented, not missing the sharp inhale of your breath.

"how was work, nat?"

she nodded to herself. yeah, she didn't expect you to be so open on the first try.

"it was fine. dinner's ready, i made your favorite!" natasha threw a smile in your direction as she carried the plates over to the table. she had hoped to see your face light up the way it used to, but seeing the panicked look in your eyes further confirmed your relapse.

if nothing else, natasha wanted you to have a meal before she brought up the conversation.

"great... i love it, thank you nat!" your attempt at being enthusiastic failed miserably and you knew by the look she gave you, she already knew what was going on.

but throughout the meal, and despite the shakiness of your hand as it gripped the metal fork, natasha didn't say anything.

you weren't really sure which was worse; being confronted or knowing the both of you knew what the other was thinking and still not addressing it.

natasha's meal was good, you couldn't lie about that, but each bite you chewed caused the tightening in your chest to constrict further.

now you couldn't be good. or worthy. or deserving.

nat took away your plate when you were halfway through. she knew your limits, and she didn't want to push you too much out of your comfort zone.

"go change, i'll wash our dishes. meet you on the couch?"

you did as you were told, taking as long as you could to do so. except this time was different. you didn't glance in the mirror like you usually did, you chose to fully take in your figure.

what you saw was not what you expected to see. for the first time in months you saw a version of yourself that wasn't twisted and turned to be something you didn't know was real or not.

your skin was dry, hair thinned out beyond your belief, eyes sunken and dark underneath. the revelation gave you an odd feeling – was once again something unexplainable, unjustifiable by words.

good.

that was how you were supposed to feel, right? after all of this time, after the many pounds of protection and warmth lost, you were supposed to feel good.

but you didn't. and you never would.

there was something so surreal about the realization of your own destruction. you were aware now, which meant you had to either take responsibility or choose to lose everything you worked so hard for.

"y/n?"

your wife's voice snapped you out of your gaze and you scrambled to pile your dirty clothes and rush out of the bedroom.

as you made your way into the living room you could feel the intensity of natasha's gaze. any other time you would not mind her green eyes looking at you, but this time around you felt like you were in trouble.

she patted the empty spot next to her, to which you reluctantly joined. but even after everything you still tried to play it cool.

"what's up? is everything okay?"

she gave a low chuckle, "you tell me."

"what do you mean?"

"oh i think you know what i mean."

natasha’s reply was met with the loudest silence you ever had to sit through.

she bit her lip, "you know i got a call from steve a few weeks ago. he's concerned about you, and from what he's told me so am i."

you were quick to respond, automatically knowing what steve’s phone call was about. "i'm fine. so what if i've lost a couple of pounds? that doesn't automatically mean that im relapsing, natasha."

your quick snap reminded natasha that this kind of confrontation was like walking on eggshells.

she tilted her head, licking her lips. "i'm here with you, always." nat put a hand to the side of your face, gently rubbing her thumb at the top of your cheekbone. "i'm here."

it seemed pointless now to try and say anything because your secret was already out.

your mind began racing back and forth.

you wanted to keep what you knew best and natasha understood that. even by reading your body language she knew what you were debating.

"you know, to keep it you have to give it away." your eyes darted to meet hers. "mhm. you can still have that piece of you. mourn it, grieve it, do whatever you need to do to move onto a stage where it doesn't hurt you. and from there you can help other people, share your experience, let yourself heal by helping others."

she paused, “we all have choices. some of those choices are taken from you while others leave you with only one option.”

although what she said seemed to resonate with you, there was one thing still holding you back.

"i just want to be good."

natasha hummed. you had explained it to her in the past, though your words were jumbled together as you tried to describe it.

"you can be good in other ways. you're allowed to live a life outside of the barriers your eating disorder puts in the way."

you swallowed the lump in the back of your throat. "i don't even know how it got to this point. in january i enjoyed ihop and dennys. in february i could have oatmeal and bananas, sometimes half of a sandwhich if i was feeling brave. now it’s march and i only eat one or two things a day. the idea of having a full meal makes me want to cry. and i just- i don't know how to stop."

natasha wouldn't show it, but your words cut through her heart like a knife. her mind wandered briefly to all the teenagers in the documentaries she'd watched, hoping you weren't too far gone into your eating disorder to ever come back. those cases scared her the most.

"you've got my complete support. you've tackled this before, maybe this time you can beat it? i know its easier to abuse your body instead of growing comfortable in it, but i think you’ve got this. i know you do."

"what about your work?" your question caused natasha to frown. "you think i wouldn't set my job aside for you?" you shrugged, it's not like you felt like you were worth being taken care of anyway.

natasha grew hesitant to tell you her news, but did it anyway because she’d rather you hate her than see you dead. "i've already made some appointments for you. the first one is tomorrow morning."

"i figured you would natasha. it's okay."

you spaced yourself out the rest of the day. each time you made the executive decision to recover, whether that be a genuine recovery or not, the process never failed to remind you that even trying to recover from an eating disorder felt like mourning the loss of a friend who was never good for you in the first place.

[lovesgonnabe]

Love Is Worth It - Mini Episode I: Happy Mothers Day

Characters: Chris Evans x Maya Alonso-Evans (Black OFC)

Warnings: Angst, Fluff, cursing,daddy kink, fake IG Post.

Word Count: IDK Yet(Soon)

Summary: What happens when there is a surprise on the Horizon?

AN/Disclaimer: There’s only slight edits so there may be errors. Also if you haven’t noticed this series will have many time jump things referenced here may make more sense later on in the series when new episodes come out so please bear with me.

Taglist: @thesecretlifeofdaydreamss, @canadian-girl87, @i-just-like-fanfics, @omg-mymelaninisbeautiful​ if you would like to join the taglist let me know.

Please leave a note and tell me what you think!

May 9th, 2021

Boston was moving from chilly too warm with still more cold days than not. Boston at this time was beautiful even The Evans home was littered with flowers. The beginning of 2021 has been eventful for the Evans Family.

Chris's A Starting Point has taken off like no one had expected, doing incredible number in educating a whole generation on one of Chris’s passions politics and the world.

While Maya within the few months has launched her skincare line Lavish Lilah Skin, and has been able to open back up her dermatology offices with the slowing down of the current devastating pandemic.

This Mothers Day for the family of 3 was different but the same at the same time.

Maya's Birthday has just passed, Chris filming schedule will pick up in the Summer and for the last year Delilah has been homeschooled.

With work picking up for the couple May 9th was a beautiful day for the Evans to just relax and be together as a family.

Its 9 am and Maya was sprawled in the middle of their California King Bed as Chris and Delilah were in the downstairs getting Maya's Mothers Day Gift ready.

"Ok Lilah you've got mommy's gifts and I've got the food you ready?" Chris asked with the tray in his hand.

Delilah nodded and they headed up the steps to the master bedroom the 5 year old ran up too the room first leaving Chris in her dust.

"Mom wake up its Mommy Day" Delilah said trying to climb the large bed.

Maya began to stir awake with a smirk on her face when she heard her baby girl struggle to to get up on the bed.

Delilah hooped on the outerman at the front of the bed and climbed to her mom laying up on Chris's said of the bed.

Delilah began to play with Maya's face.

"mommy get up me and daddy have gifs" Delilah said trying to open Maya's eyes with her little fingers.

Maya breaks out into a laugh now completely awake and pulling Delilah into a big hug kissing her all over the face.

When Chris walked in his two favorite girls were both laughing their heads off the sunlight in the room glowed on their golden skin as their smiling faces brought a bright smile to his.

"Are you two having fun without me" Chris asked as he walked to Maya's side of the bed.

Chris lays the tray on the night stand, pecking Maya on the lips mumbling a sweet Happy Mothers Day against her lips as he pulls her into a deeper kiss just enjoying the taste of her sinful lips.

When they pull away Maya moves over to make room for Chris in their large bed.

Delilah and Chris handed over the gifts to Maya, it wasn't a lot just some small things a card made by Maya from her zoom arts class, a mini breakfast in bed and more flowers *like she needed anymore*.

"Sweetheart I told you that you didn't have to do anything for me for Mothers Day especially everything you have done for me recently" Maya said taking sip from her coffee mug.

Chris chuckles thinking about the last few months, and he has been what you would call a rockstar husband.

With the pandemic Chris has been home a lot more he dropped a film he planned to star in and went full throttle on ASP which kept him home a lot making him kind of a stay home dad.

Chris did everything from some cooking to cleaning to school with Delilah. Him staying home was not only for him to do ASP and spend more time with his family but to let Maya work and bring her employess back so she can get her dermotobly practice back to as close to 100% as she can during a pandemic.

Not only that Chris hosted a surprise launch party/brithday party for Maya's new skincare venture in early April that was a small get together with all there closest friends and family (that were vaccinated). Even flying her parents who they haven’t seen in a year out to see them. (who were still in town and staying out in their guest home)

The three were still sitting in bed watching cartoons.

"My love if you thought today would go by and I would not celebrate you then you are out of your mind" Chris said kissing Maya's head.

The last four months have really shown Chris how much he admires Maya because everything he has been doing is what Maya has been doing since Dede was born.

So at least for today Chris was pulling out the red carpet for love of his life, after an hour of just lazying around Chris grabbed a now napping Delilah and told maya that she need to be dressed and ready to leave the house by 1pm which was 2 hours from the current time.

When 1pm hit the Evans and the Alonsos were out of the house and all in Maya's Truck.

They drove the 3 hours to the Alonso Family Estate in Martha's Vineyard and with Maya having absolutely no idea where they were going she grew antsy because unbeknownst to everyone in the car except her mother Maya was now Pregnant with her and Chris's second child and she was afraid she was going to have an accident in the car.

Maya was about 16 weeks how she has hide being pregnant from Chris for that long is a surprise and a miracle on its own.

However she just wanted to wait until she was absolutly sure that she could carry a complete trimester before telling anyone but her mom because her and Chris have tried 5 times after Delilah and has miscarred everytime.

All that faliure takes a toll not only on your body but on your psyche and she didn’t want to keep getting Chris's hopes up to keep failing him.

Even though he has been there through it all to hold her when she cries thinking about it or pick her up from the pool of blood in the middle of the night he was there holding her hand, but the of how many more times will he be able to do this with her still creeps in the back of Maya's mind.

Her mom's reassuring smile kept her calm while Chris and Maya held hands the entire ride up as they rolled up around 5pm to the estate that had multiply cars in the driveway.

When they walked in Maya's Brothers were both there along with Chris's parents, siblings and their kids.

Chris explained to Maya that with the kids out of school they all decided to being summer vacation a bit early.

As the night went on the all talked, laughed, ate good food and enjoyed each others company as one huge blended family.

It was coming up around 7pm it was golden hour outside and Maya knew for some reason it was time to tell Chris.

As Maya walked outside closet to the horses her mom followed.

"May baby cakes its time you can't live in fear forever" handing the ultrasound she kept in her purse and walking back into the house Maya took a deep breath as she sipped on her water and looked at sun hint the vinyard in the most majestic way.

"Maya you ok your mom wanted me to come and check in on you" Chris asked walking next to Maya who bit her lip which she did whenever she was nervous.

"Babe whats wrong" Chris knew something wasn't right the her body langague was and Chris could read his wife.

Maya tightly gripped the ultrasoud and turned toward Chris looking into his ocean blue eyes made her weak at the knees but she needed to focus.

She handed him the photo

"For the last 16 weeks or so I haven't found a way to tell that we are pregant and I guess this is it I am sorry I waited so long" Maya Says.

She smirks trying to keep it light hearted and Chris Smiles not even taking enough time to really process the new information with tears in his eye picking up Maya who squeals as he spins her around.

"I hope you know I knew already” he says putting her down leaving his arms around her waist.

"What do you mean you knew" Maya asked as her eyebrows frowned as she looked up at him.

"You underestimate how well I know your body" Chris says rubbing his hands up and down the curves of her body till her reached her ass giving it a good squeeze.

"Also you definitely did not hide this ultrasound that well so when I did first have hunch you had already confirmed it to me without even knowing it" Chris said.

He gave Maya his trademark smile and kissed his wife like his life depended on it.

"why didn’t you tell me you knew" she asked breaking the sweet embrace of the two lovers.

"the same reason you didn't I know that with you even though I hate it, some times I need to just watch from the sideline before you can put me in coach, but next time please do wait this long" Chris said.

Maya eyebrow raised "who said there will be a next time you better be lucky you are even getting 2 out of me sir" she said.

Chris laughs "thats what your mouth is saying now we will see what it says later when you riding papi's cock" He said kissing her lips even harder as they fought for domanice.

They knew both of there families were inside and thats why they stopped and just stood enjoying each others company.

"lets take a picture babe for memories" Chris said.

They pulled apart and Maya laughed .

"Chris look at you trying to take flicks for the gram" Maya said posing next to her favorite horse.

Chris took the picture and put it on his instagram along with a picture of Maya when she was pregnant with Delilah.

Chris laughed grapped her hand and they walked inside and told everyone the good news.

This will definaly be a Mothers Day they would never forget!

[bangtan-legends]

Jungkook taking care of Jimin

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okay so, I've been missing jikook awfully lately so I decided to make this little thread.

This will probably be rather long so hope you enjoy :D

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1. Offering him jacket when Jimin is (probably) cold

In the first one, Jungkook is seen wearing that blue hoodie at the beginning of the video, and at the end of it you can see Jimin comfortably goofing around in that same blue hoodie.

In the second one you clearly can see Jungkook himself offering the hoodie to Jimin.

And in the third one, even tho Jimin said he took the jacket from Jungkook, Jungkook could have still said no since it was really cold and rainy that day, but instead we have jikook sharing warmth and being cuddly in one jacket. I approve.

2. Going as far to follow Jimin's diet to prove him it isn't healthy

I think the picture is self explanatory. Jimin was doing this extreme diet where he only ate one meal per day so Jungkook decided to do the same as to prove it's not healthy.

3. Always feeding him and checking if he ate

To connect on the previous fact, Jungkook is rather always keen on feeding Jimin and idk if it's just me but it feels like he is constantly checking jimin if he ate well.

Like in the second gif, Jimin was waiting for Seokjin to feed him but Seokjin didn't notice that, so Jungkook took the chopsticks from Seokjin and fed Jimin himself.

In the third gif, Hoseok was eating some candy and Jungkook went to him, literally took one while he was trying to put it into his mouth and gave it to Jimin :D

I'm probably looking too much into it but it just catches my eye how in that RUN EP.39 while they were playing 'Yes or No', Jungkook was the MC and the only questions he asked "Did you eat well?".

Or in RUN EP.38 while Seokjin and Jimin were eating at the table, Jungkook came to them and said "You can't leave anything, okay?".

And even now in the latest RUN episode Jungkook during "lunch" there was a short clip of Jungkook putting more food on Jimin's plate. Idk I just find it really endearing and cute.

4. Protecting him

As we all know, airport is a war zone most of the time for BTS. Constant pushing around, screaming fans.

Once, in 2016, Jimin tripped or was pushed down by fans that mobbed them and he fell down. Luckily manager quickly picked him up so he wasn't badly hurt. The next day you can see Jungkook walking side by side with Jimin, with his arm on his shoulder. And on many occasions you can just see jikook insuperable at airports.

Also Jimin himself, when he was asked to choose a member he would like to travel with, wrote down JK and said that "It seems like he will protect me from others."

5. Always encouraging him and assuring him that he is doing okay

Sure, it's well know that Jungkook loves to tease Jimin but he acknowledges when Jimin is really feeling anxious or worried so he makes sure to assure him that he's doing well.

During this interview (it's around 1:50 mark) the question was "Do you have anything that you regretted in?" and as soon as Jimin said "How do I start talking about my past?" Jungkook nust randomly said "No, hyung you're handsome!" and even tho members were teasing Jimin about his last selfies and Jungkook joined, the gesture was still sweet and cute.

If I remember correctly during BTS BIRTHDAY PARTY 2016 Jimin was one of the MCs and he was struggling to take the sheet of the boards and members were teasing him about that and his cute mistakes while MCing but Jungkook just kept saying "Cut him some slack" or "Hyung you're doing good!" multiple times.

He's ways quick to encourage him when he starts doubting his voice skills or literally anything.

Praising his food, basketball skills, his skills for being collected while solving that puzzle during RUN EP.38. Jungkook is always there to say something nice and encouraging.

Sure, he teases him, but Jungkook the best knows when Jimin needs kind words to keep him grounded.

6. Making him laugh

This is a well known and established fact in jikook community. Jeon Jungkook is there to make Jimin laugh.

There's so many moments where Jungkook would act silly just to make Jimin laugh or he would act silly, then loon at Jimin to see if he laughed and if he did he would do it again just because. Or he would look at Jimin before acting silly to see if he's looking at him and the he would do it.

For examples here are some videos:

Jimin's laugh Compilation made by Jungkook

Jungkook always makes Jimin laugh so hard

And many more that you can find :D

Also let me just add this here:

7. Jungkook is whipped for Jimin

This may not seem like "taking care of him" but for me it is.

It hides in complaining how slow Jimin is sometimes but still waiting for him to get off the stage together or falling behind with him all the time during BON VOYAGE SEASON 1.

Saying he will prank him about his lost phone, but as soon as seeing Jimin's troubled face he pulled that phone straight out of his pocket.

Only buying Jimin a birthday present, taking him on a trip, just two of them (scream loudly if you're still crying over G.C.F in Tokyo bc I sure as hell am).

Losing the game just so he could share a room with Jimin.

Always massaging his shoulders/neck.

It's all just the little things but really nice gestures.

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And that's it. I wish I could make this longer but at the end I only was able to use words since Tumblr allows only 10 photos in one post but I could go on and on with photos of Jungkook looking at Jimin with that smitten look or video of him making Jimin laugh.

Hope you liked it :D

[zanesgirlfriend]

I think I like you (part 1, possibly?)

a/n: this is my first imagine ive ever done and it's based off of a fanfiction i wrote a lil while ago

summary: y/n is a chef and david wants her to come over and cook for him, and she has trouble holding back her feelings

word count: idk kinda long tho

also not my gif lol

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I was at the gym, doing a cooldown on the treadmill after my 2 mile run, when my music stopped playing through my headphones. I looked down and checked my phone and I saw a FaceTime from David.

Of course, my heart skipped a beat. I've had a crush on him since I met him, so I wondered 'What the hell would he want at 11pm on a Wednesday?' I answered the call, and saw my sweaty face and greasy hair on the screen, embarrased about my appearance in front of my 3-month crush.

"Hey!" I said, out of breath from running. I put my phone on the treadmill as I attempted to smooth my hair.

"Hey, y/n, do you wanna come over?" He asked, his cute face making me smile.

I laugh, "Well that depends, do you want me to hang out or do you want me to cook for you?" I watched his dimple appear as he chuckled.

"Umm, both?" He responded. Of course I would do either, because I couldn't resist his cuteness, but I knew he didn't just want to hang out, which made my heart sink a little bit.

"Fineee, what do you want to eat?" I grab my phone and water bottle as the treadmill stops, heading back to the locker room.

"I want spaghetti and your famous meatballs." He begs. In my head I thought, 'I want your meatballs.' but I didnt know if that would be too far.

"Very simple request, but okay. Can I go home and shower first or do I have to come now?" I asked, wanting to look better before I saw him in person.

"Now, you can shower here, after I eat." He smiled at the end of his words.

"Wow I love being your personal slave." I joke. Hearing his cute laugh made me smile, as I found my gym bag.

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I entered Davids house, carrying grocery bags, my gym bag, and my phone. I slid my shoes off and went to put my things down in the kitchen as I called "David?" I heard the toilet flush in the bathroom as he walked out into the living room. "Hey." I said awkwardly, noticing nobody else was here. Usually when we hang out, all of his friends were around, and he was filming something, but tonight we were alone. I really wished I looked better.

"Y/n! I'm starving." He came over and gave me a hug, and I tried not to lift my arms for the sake of his nose. I was only wearing a sports bra and leggings, so I felt very conscious of my body touching his.

"I'm making you food, shush. Where is everybody else?" I started to get some pots and pans out of his cabinets, proud that he bought all of these dishes just for when I come cook for him.

"Everyone's busy, even Natalie, and I'm stuck here editing all night alone, and Chipotle is closed so here you are." He made it sound as if I was a last resort, which I scowled at. "Not that Chipotle is better than you, and plus I'd rather hang out with you anyway and . . ." He stopped, kind of flustered. I looked up from meatball making and noticed him blushing.

"Well I'm glad I can keep you company." I smiled.

David sat with his laptop on the island and edited while I cooked, making small conversations every now and then.

Once I finished and handed him his plate, I walked over to my bag to get my clothes so I could shower. I scrambled, realizing I didn't bring a shirt. "Y/n? Y/n?" David called me. I turned around flustered because I didn't hear what he'd said.

"Sorry, what?" I looked at him.

"You're not going to eat with me?" He sounded dissappointed. I couldn't help but feel bad when he made that sad face.

"I need to shower because I feel gross, but I also forgot to bring a shirt so I guess I can't shower anyways." I tried to explain. It's not like I usually eat with him, normally I would just cook, clean up, and leave. I walked over to him, but he jumped up before I could reach him

"Yeah I feel you. Here you can borrow one of my shirts." He says as he leads me into his bedroom. I felt my face heat up. He handed me one of his merch shirts and a towel. "I think these are clean?" He questioned. I thanked him and took a shower.

After my shower I ate, and sat with him while he edited, he asked me what I thought was funny and what he should cut from the vlog, making me feel like he actually wanted me there.

The whole time I watched him edit I couldn't help but notice how close we were and how our legs were touching. I felt like I was back in high school, and he was my high school crush. Once he finished editing and started uploading his vlog, he leaned his head on my shoulder and closed his eyes. My heart was beating faster than it ever has, and my stomach was doing flips. 'Should I tell him I have a crush on him?'

"Hey y/n, I don't wanna make anything awkward, and I know this is the first time we've hung out, but . . ."

'Is he gonna tell me he has a crush on me? Does he like me back? Wait what?' I thought to myself, missing the end of his sentence.

"Wait what?" I asked him.

"Will you stay here tonight?" He repeated himself. My heart slightly sunk, but then I realized this was a big step, especially since I had a crush on him.

"Yes, of course." I smiled. Then, and I don't know why, but I asked him "Is there anything else you want to say?" I could tell by the way he picked up his head that he was confused. Or was he?

"Actually, yeah, but I wasn't going to tell you because I'm not really sure yet, but I think I should just tell you anyway." My heart sped up again as he said that.

"Tell me what?" I choked out.

"I think I like you."

[highwaydiamonds]

Wednesday... Yeah no song today because I have no Wednesday songs that I am attached to ( that I can think of anyhow...)

So- Got over to exercise dreading it because a) being better about taking the bumetanide and that means trips to the restroom in the middle of exercise blah, but that being said I wanted to see what it did to my weight... And I was right. Now that I'm compliant my weight was back to where it should have been, a little less than what it had been last thursday actually. BP was good as well. So Casey the RN, wherever he was today, he can suck it. Not calling my cardiologist's office; I'm doing fine. Yes, I know he was caring for me and being cautious but seriously, I know my body and I'm not going to be hypochondriacal about this.

I also, partly because I was a tad late getting in there pushed myself a pretty decent amount today. I was proud of me for that, and honestly, around 16 minutes in... Even pushing like I was, it felt like it got a little easier? Is that what the whole endorphins thing is actually? I mean I am not going to sit here and say, " omg I got a high !" or that it felt amazing - it didn't. It was just that it got a little easier. Whatever it was though I'll take it.

Also they exercise place called me later it he day and left a voicemail that because of snow(ice?)mageddon everyone is expecting the roads to be awful tomorrow so they are closed tomorrow. YAY - I mean I know i shouldn't be all excited, but I am. I can sleep in! I am going to make myself do a chair yoga class on youtube and maybe I'll use the pedal exercise I have if I drag it out from under the bed. I do want to make sure I get something i because I know it's supposed to help regulate my blood sugar... and then I don't feel like I'm cheating out of the goal i made for my nails.

Food wise I wasn't a good girl this evening - umm ate way more chocolate than was smart, but it was tasty! and i checked my glucose levels after anyway - so I'm trying to be honest and present about it. I think it was a bit off bingeing though - in the sense that I atee way more than I needed - it was certainly not about hunger... And was definitely also not a good portion size... It's something I need to get a better handle on. Maybe that will be part of therapy next week idk. we'll see. or I can just message my therapist.

I'm supposed to have a crochet class - i think anyway- on saturday but i'm not sure if the weather will ut a damper on that. I hope not. I'm nervous about it but that's ok. I'm learning to take my nerves in step- acknowledge them but try to take a deep breath and do the things anyway. Plus I have been to the yarn store before and I like it - so it feels pretty comfy now. And I have wanted to learn to crochet for a while ( that way i can be a terrible crocheter as well as a terrible knitter.... then I hope to improve the knitting skillz in time)

I got a bunch of planner/sticker things in the mail that I had ordered for my bullet journaling etc... I got that stuff on sale and I need to get to using some of it - or at least organize it more. I have february set up but not march, and I like it best when I have more than a month of weekly spreads set. makes it simpler for me and less pressured. I've also been thinking about trackers and what I might do to use them.. I just haven't set on anything yet. i could do glucose or moods or how many days I work out/do physical activity or keep track of the veggies I eat - to encourage that. I just am not sure how /what I WANt to do. I have time - it's nothing I have to rush into if I don't want to anyway.

So there was Wednesday... Here's hoping snow&icemageddon is as minimal as possible. I'm not a kid any more and I'm happier when i don't have to sweat precipitation on the roads or ice causing power outages.