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arolesbianism · 6 months ago

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Every now and then I get haunted by my past as a dr fan because someone mentions it or smth and lemme tell you the worst case scenario is if they bring up v3 in an even slightly positive light because nothing will make me start giving a shit abt dr again except for my burning hatred of that damn game, I just spent like 30 minutes ranting to myself about how much of a nothing character Kokichi is in the bathroom after showering just to vent it out because if I don't rant abt v3 every now and then I'll explode and kill someone

#rat rambles #like I generally think I had a lot of dogshit takes and sucked ass at au making and character analysis back in my dr days #but like I still stand by most of my gripes with v3 even if my old rewrite concepts also sucked #look man those were dark times my previous main interest was cr and the one before that was hs #also I had never actually posted about my thoughts before so I was a bit trigger happy with saying shit with my full chest #Im still prone to having bad takes on things to be clear even with oni I had a lot of bad takes when I first got into it #tbf I was mostly trying to talk myself down from going deeper but I evidently failed. hard.#but yeah I should delete my old fandom blog became every day I see my old dr posts get notes and I die a bit more #oh wait one dr rewrite thing I still stand by is my humam chiaki shit I was onto smth #like I still agree human chiaki should have never existed but I also think her existing as an individual who was wildly different from #ai chiaki is deeply interesting and also leaves space for some fun fucked up tragedy shit for both chiaki's #like I still like a lot of my old ideas for my rewrite of that stuff especially likey characterization was off for most of the cast but I #was cooking with the basic concepts and narrative I <3 taking characters that ppl idolize post their death and shifting the narrative to #show that they weren't a hero nor could they ever have been they were just some guy who went through horrible shit and died miserable #its one of my favorite things to do in fiction even now so ofc Im still fond of my older stuff with it on some level #like mannn why did I have to go so hard on what ultimately amounted to an au character and proceed to drop the ball on everything else lol #anyways I need to sleep before I start talking abt chiaki more yall dont need to see that <3 #I mean hey could be worse. I could start talking abt my old cr stuff. we'd be here for at least a week straight #my old cr stuff was mostly actually pretty good it simply makes me sad because I put so much work and effort and made some fantastic #pieces of worldbuilding and character concepts for a mobile cookie game that sucks absolute ass #I ofc will still happily recycle concepts from my old cr stuff but like so much of it is just impossible to remove from context its so sad #ok ok gn for realsies this time

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