#wake me up (wake me up inside) (and keeping javi awake consequently with this song stuck in his head)

[karelysse]

while i’m sadly still trapped in finals hell, i figured i’d drop by real quick with another music rec (not really yzvr though ^^;). i was listening to ‘still sane’ by lorde while studying and i had a moment where i was like ‘huh. this is almost giving me yuzuru vibes.’ but it didn’t feel quite right? and then i was like… oh. catalina vibes :) like:

“I still like hotels, but I think that'll change / Still like hotels and my new-found fame / Hey, promise I can stay good” + “I'm little, but I'm comin' for the crown / I'm little, but I'm comin' for you / I'm little, but I'm comin' for the title / Held by everyone who's up” + “All work and no play / Let me count the bruises / All business, all day / Keeps me up a level” — it’s giving teen-prodigy-with-major-emotional-turmoil. it’s giving single-minded-drive-that-leads-to-you-lashing-out-unexpectedly. it’s giving skating-gremlin-responsible-for-javi’s-grey-hairs.

runner up songs include: brutal by olivia rodrigo, teenagers by mcr (lol) — i can’t help myself, i think teen angst in the context of sports is so fun!! like imagine having to go through the hell that is puberty while also competing on an international level. i think my sanity would snap like a stale breadstick.

also i know javi’s student is supposed to be a pre-teen in juniors (which would make her like. 9 - 12 years old) but i realized that i’ve been picturing her in my head as like?? 13-15?? so like. still in juniors but a lil’ older. idk i just felt like if anyone going to be slapping other skaters and flipping off cameras, it’s an angsty middle schooler agahkslw but that’s just my silly opinion! i used to tutor a couple of them and damn. those kids were just constantly Going Through It. anyways! hope you’re doing well and staying safe <3 ty for letting me bombard you with my thoughts on your au… honestly a necessary serotonin booster rn

YOU'RE ABSOLUTELY RIGHT pre-teen is actually 9-12 dkfjdkfjd god I really meant for her to be no lower than 14. although i do know some 13 years olds who are absolute menaces. 13-15 is objectively the worst age for anyone. the ANGER

i've been trying to think about songs that would make javi die inside, songs that a feral 14 year old would request to perform in comp or in exhibition (and sulk for days when being denied), but nothing hits quite as hard as the absolute trash we listened to when I personally was 14. i non-ironically looked my PE teacher in the eye and asked him if my friends and i could choregraph the dance we had to do to touching on my by 3oh3. there was no bad words in it. we couldn't understand why he wouldn't let us do it. had to settle for good girls go bad (which objectively was not that better???).

imagine javi having to continuously deny songs like Mr. Saxobeat or She wolf or Evacuate the dance floor or literally any Kesha song. Settling for Every time we touch by Cascada -- meaning having to hear Every time we touch by Cascada on a daily basis, 10 times a day, for a straight month. That's grey hair to me.

i feel like popular songs these days are actually too good???? like i genuinely VIBE with olivia rodrigo, billie eillish??? what could possibly cause the headache Cascada or 3oh3 would have caused Javi if the fic was set in 2011????? K-Pop???? i don't knoW

and as always i ADORE your reccs, they are all so fitting??? i didn't know this lorde song and. wow. and brutal is now her THEME song i will take no objections.