#w blake there hasnt really been a relationship for a while if anyone was wondering

[altamirage-blogs]

man im so stressed about so many things;;;; i'm already stressed about money because blake suddenly decided to move in a month without discussing it beforehand and told us AFTER all three of us signed the lease for a second year,AND after rent got bumped up 100$, which means julian and i will have to split everything by ourselves now i'm sad because my only remaining family in az is also moving and they didnt tell me personally or anything, i found out through a fb post. and there goes all my holiday. i cant make the trip out to illinois every year... and i know t wasnt as big a deal to them, but i wanted to see them before they moved, so i tried driving up but my goddamn car broke down and now on top of being stressed about the sudden extra finances i have to worry about however much this fix is gonna be. and i dont even know if i'll be able to go visit them in time. i have a week, but pthbtbhbchndbfb AND TO TOP IT ALL OFF i just moved to a new team at work and literally my entire first two weeks with them have been riddled with dumb things that keep making me look bad (ie, my alarm didnt go off once so i was two hours late, my clock in for that day was messed up so it showed as an unexcused absence, work's system messed up and had it look like i missed a call and sat in idle for half an hour when no call ever came up and it said i was available the whole time, etc) so i just feel like an idiot at work and im just a depressed blob at home rn because of all of this and frankly i feel like poop