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[superzstars]

╰   *  "i could bite my tongue trying not to say it." @volcarcnas

[superzstars]

╰   *  "well as long as you know right..." scoffing herself as she shook her head. this whole conversation felt pathetic, hopeless, useless. "how could you have wanted me then left me like that? no explanation, just ended your contract and up and left to another agency?" she asked, but her voice was raising with every word she said. yoomi never let herself usually get angry, but this was months of pent up anger exploding at once.

fingers began to twist one of the rings on her finger, and a scoff escaped her mouth before she could help it. "you think i don't know that i ruined us? that it's my fault?" she sighed then, not able to meet her eyes. until yoomi said that she hadn't wanted her. her gaze snapped up, an incredulous look on her face. "yoomi, i've always wanted you. god, i still want you."

[ratedhorror]

# RATEDHORROR : freezer bride, your sweet divine . . . you devour like smoked bovine hide. how funny, i never considered myself tough. i tried to be good, am i no good? with my memory restricted a polaroid in evidence. i just wanted to be yours, can i be yours?

ratedhorror is a private writing blog for original + canon muses from various media, adored by luna. affiliated with: @volcarcnas + @ghcldengos

[dcvillish]

@volcarcnas

having friends is so cool like here’s a person i love soooo much and i get to make inside jokes w them and make them laugh and be there for them when they’re sad and share in their suffering as well as their joy. what a beautiful and sacred thing. friendship is holy

[superzstars]

╰   *  "how are you sat here acting like this as if i was the one who decided to be in this situation?" she asked, growing more and more frustrated. she knew just how hurt she was by what jieun did but actually talking to her after everything was just making her live through it again. "no one is ever going to know because you never gave us a fair shot when we had a chance, huh? but you know... whatever. you didn't want me, fine."

it had been too easy to make herself out to be the bad guy, to be the one all the girls hated. but not being around them all, it had shrouded jieun from the fact that she had been the one to hurt them. the realization that she had, after so long, it stung. "i'm not pretending, but it doesn't really matter, does it?" she asked, before she huffed out a breath and took a step towards the door. "no one's ever going to know, don't worry. and bomi wouldn't kill you even if you'd robbed a bank and forced her to drive the getaway car. you'll be fine."

[superzstars]

╰   *  "how much you want to?" scoffs, shaking her head. "please don't pretend that you want anything to do with me, or even the girls. we can pretend to be civil before a news outlet grabs wind of us not getting on and a scandal breaks out. bomi would kill me if it happened," she rolled her eyes.

it took everything in her to not reach out, to not wrap her arms around her and hold her close. "i can't take it back yoomi," she spoke, her voice quiet. "nothing i can say will fix what happened that day, you know that." except, maybe it could, but the truth was far from what she wanted yoomi to know. "no matter how much i want to, i can't take it back."

[superzstars]

╰   *  "something... anything! anything would make this feeling... i don't know. not go away but say something so i can stop reliving the day you moved out the trainee dorms and left us for good. left me for good," she mumbled, crossing her arms over her chest and huffing under her breath.

it was hard to meet her gaze, so she didn't, eyes focused on the way her hands grabbed at each other. "i guess so, yeah," she spoke, before a scoff escaped her before she could really help it, and she finally met her eyes. "what am i supposed to say, yoomi? what do you want me to say?"

[superzstars]

╰   *  "hi would be a good start. not running out of the room the moment you see me or any of the other girls enter it... would also be a start," she mumbled in response, shrugging her shoulders. "whatever. i know you don't want to speak to me anyway."

it was hard to meet her gaze, so she didn't, eyes focused on the way her hands grabbed at each other. "i guess so, yeah," she spoke, before a scoff escaped her before she could really help it, and she finally met her eyes. "what am i supposed to say, yoomi? what do you want me to say?"

[superzstars]

╰   *  "you think that little smile and cute words would work?" she asked, knowing it 100% would work on her. she didn't need him to know that.

"what if i said pretty please? would you tell me then?"

[superzstars]

╰   *  "that's it?" she asked, laughing and shaking her head. "you know it's bad enough you up and left the company, up and left me, and now you won't even say more than five words for me at an event?"

she felt tense, as she glanced around the dressing room, waiting to see if any of yoomi's members were coming back. when they didn't, she wasn't sure if she were relieved, or not. "i'll um . . . I'll turn around, sorry. i was waiting on the girls."

[superzstars]

╰   *  "i'm not sure if i can, you know? this could mess up a whole lot of things."

"you don't have to worry about that with me, you know you can tell me anything."

[superzstars]

╰   * "oh... hey. yeah, i have to get ready for our performance."

"oh i . . . i didn't think anyone would be back here." @superzstars