#voidalert.

[voidalert]

another victory, another disappointment.

fingers clench to tight fists, form rigid and unmoving as renee rests her elbows atop spread knees. white eyes, narrowed in her ire, remain trained on the empty space in front of her while her teeth clench; to the point where, somewhere deep in her raging thoughts, she worries they may shatter beneath the pressure.

winning meant nothing when she remained stagnant in her hunt for answers. no closer to discovering who she really was. save for a name. an occupation. a betrayal. the hole in her chest thrummed with the almost crushing desperation to know. living life as though a stranger to herself; no knowledge of her own likes or dislikes, her childhood, friends or family, if what she was doing before her lost memory was right or wrong, was haunting. brief flashes of memories brought forth by what little had come to light, yet still lacked sense, were mere shapes behind her eyes. things she couldn't make out, nameless voices blended together in a nauseating cacophony of indecipherable sounds.

a voice drags her from the bleak depths of her mind, head just barely shifting, gaze only now clocking the figure stood before her. rampart — ramya parekh. a fellow legend: one wraith held a lot of muted respect for.

whatever was said fell on deaf ears, but renee's eyes flicker down to follow ramya's own. drops of blood, her blood, had splattered to the floor between scuffed boots, and it's only then that the pain throbbing in her abdomen registers. it isn't bad — nothing compared to the torment inflicted by singh using her as a guinea pig — but uncomfortable nonetheless.

" it's nothing. " brushes it off: just as she always did. leaning back, gloved fingers reach down to press tenderly at the wound, unable to pinpoint any one moment in the arena that could have caused it. a wince, an almost audible grind of her teeth. " i'll get ajay to take a look. " she won't. like she did everything else, she'd deal with it on her own.

. . . at some point.

[ blood ] sender notices that receiver is bleeding. @prkh

[voidalert]

#VOIDALERT!! an independent, selective, personal interpretation of renee blasey from apex legends. heavily canon divergent with sporadic activity levels. phased by carcass.

with verses in; halo, arcane, resident evil, marvel/dc, + more.