#vmymuse

[megharsstuff]

Today was our last conversation. It was time.

It is time to begin a new chapter, a new phase of our life.

I've dreaded for this day thinking it would be one of the hardest thing I would do, but now when the day arrived, it was like all the pain and sorrow had washed off like a fresh, blank page in a book waiting to be filled.

I hope you find the home you're looking for just as the one I found in you.

Today, I let you go.

[droveintooblivion]

A YEAR AGO

There was a knock at the door. A familiar one. She half-heartedly hoped it was him.

She gives herself a quick pep talk before she unlocks the door. A familiar 6 feet figure stood before her,

A warm smile took it's form at the sight of her face.

"Hey"

Her eyes glistened but she decided to make their meeting comical,

"Welcome to the brothel. Population me."

He flinched at the word, knowing all too well what she meant. A scowl made its way to his face and almost walk away from her. She called out,

"I'm kidding." She rolled her eyes. "Come in, will you?"

He walks in without a word.

"If this were a brothel, my body count would be more than now."

He looked at her but this time she couldn't read him.

He walked into the room that lingered the ghost of their past memories. He sat down on the bed, now at her eye level.

"How are you doing these days?"

Her eyes narrowed at him before she said,

"Why? Do you..."

She held back her tongue. He sighed in frustration, knowing too well he wouldn't get a straight answer from her.

"Are you gonna be this way the whole time?"

She let out a sigh and apologized softly.

"Okay then. How do you want me to be? The mushy one, this one or somewhere in between?"

"The mushy one. Always the mushy one."

A soft smile makes its way to her lips and kisses him on his lips.

"You wouldn't able to handle that one. Not anymore. If I let her take over, you might run away."

She giggled.

He looks at her warmly before he pulls her in and locks his lips with hers, where all their secrets were exchanged through those kisses.

[megharsstuff]

"Trust issues."

When I thinking about a future with another man, these familiar words takes its rightful place. Like a command, my body and mind goes into its self defense mode, now much stronger than ever it was.

These words had taken a back seat when you were around. Never have I ever experienced a moment when insecurities were silenced around anyone but with you.

Is that why I'm reluctant to let you go?

[megharsstuff]

As I stood below the Northern lights, I closed my eyes wishing you were here

I whispered to the wind, hoping it would take my words to you

"I miss you"

[megharsstuff]

[megharsstuff]

Today I reluctantly choose to close our chapter for good.

I've always found myself coming back here,

Each day I would hope and pray this would be the last time I would love you.

But here I lie waiting in our "maidan" for someone who lost his way

This "maidan" will now remain barren.

If you wish to

Let's meet again another lifetime?

Your always and forever

[megharsstuff]

This empty void, always yearning for the thirst to be quenched

Not even he can make it better,

Then why...

[megharsstuff]

As you walk on by,

Will you call my name

[megharsstuff]

Amist to all the chaos and rules,

Here I am,

Waiting

For someone is no more.

To the one chapter I keep going back to.

[megharsstuff]

New year.

An unsaid promise.

You keep away from me and I would keep away from you.

[megharsstuff]

I hate how I can't read a book anymore,

Watch movies or series anymore,

When they fall in love,

Like anyone I would wish it for myself

I miss those days when the face was a blur

But now the face seems more clearer,

It's yours.

[megharsstuff]

"I'm done! I've moved on and I've never felt better. Why bother holding on to someone who chose another while you pour your heart out to them every. Single. Time."

She goes to bed that has all the things he left for her from a notepad to the jewellery he'd gifted to her. She plugs in her earphones and plays the playlist he left for her.

A silent sob escapes her lips as she hears her favorite lines.

"I'm done. I'm moving on." She says softly as she gets pulled down into the rabbit hole once again.

[megharsstuff]

When you live in a memory, nothing can ever go wrong..

[megharsstuff]

All those Decembers

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Bloodshot eyes with a tired heart

[megharsstuff]

Many have come and many have gone.

But it was you who came and never left.

We may have left maidaan, but now you have become the muse to my paper and pen.