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[brightblessed]

@visionhcld

Dozens of things had flashed through his mind at the very end. He had regrets, sure... But he finally felt like it was okay. To let go. Roi had been waiting to die for a long time. Surviving for others... For the people that died to save him so that their sacrifice would not be wasted. For the people he needed to save and protect. And for the people that would mourn him. But it had still been there. The idea that eventually he would die and when he did, it would be a relief.

It was only recently that he began to look towards the future. That he began to hope and make plans. Because he was loved. Because he loved others. Because he had grown to love the messy world he lived in. Roi's own worst enemy was himself. He still could not love himself. But he tried -- by the Twelve -- he tried to at least make things work out to ease the stress of those that loved him for some reason.

So at the edge of existence, when he threw his teleporter away and faced the End alone, he expected he may die. That he may be unable to stop the end of the world. When he did win, he knew he had to finally end Zenos once and for all. In a place where he could no longer steal any bodies and live on. And when he couldn't keep his eyes open anymore and his pain slowly faded into numbing cold... He couldn't help but think that this had been his fate all along.

But his friends ever tried to defy fate. And somehow, he survived. Wounds that were not possible to survive. Maybe it was dynamis or the blessing of light. He didn't know. But soon the severity of his injuries made themselves known with the pain and exhaustion that attacked him. He closed his eyes again, his head foggy beyond measure.

..... He wasn't alone. He could sense someone's presence as soon as he began to come to again. Honestly, Roi had drifted in and out of wakefulness multiple times. This was far from the first time he had been seriously injured... But usually he woke even briefly entirely lucid. He couldn't remember if his brief times of wakefulness were dreams or not. Amber eyes open slowly, resting upon the crimson ones staring at him.

"Uh... G'raha...?" His voice is groggy and he swallows dryly. "How long have I....?"

[ayahimes]

my dear sister, you stink. best regards, ayato.

dearest brother , i believe you stink too since you are a kamisharto as well . should i just convert your chair into a commode since you work such long hours ? then you can shit where you sit . surely it'll save you some time . sincerely , ayaka

[vierandancer]

@visionhcld

"Of course it's important. Would I really request your assistance if it wasn't?" Azem was, of course, banking on the fact that the venerable, honorable Emet-selch would not ask for clarification on the 'importance'. They would not have the same definitions.

"Your expertise is sorely needed. I'm great at a lot, I know, but not everything. And travel to the city doesn't take long at all! We'll be back by tonight, probably."

[poswiecenia]

( 🔧 ) NIGHTMARES AGAIN , LEAVING the short in stature aquas hybrid shuffled anxiously behind the door he knew lyney to be behind. if he was still asleep when he tried he would . . try to go back to bed , no matter how much his skin crawled right now. he would leave but . . he would have to start knocking first. yeah.

HE DIDN'T WANT to be a bother. didn't want to wake up his brother with his problems he should . . be over by now.

------ feminet . . eminet ?

OCEAN BLUE HUES flare wide as his brothers voice finally cuts through his miniscule episode , staring at the other as if he'd seen a ghost ( archons , what a low blow , especially after recently ) or something. ❝ L - LYNEY ! SORRY . . i was just leaving. i'm okay. ❞

@visionhcld gets this for lyney from fremi bye.

[crystalmarred]

CONTINUED ⇢ @inkbloodcd

A crook of a smile spreads across his face when G'raha Tia at last tears his attention away from the grip of his laser focus on... whatever that was. It looked Allagan in nature and G'raha was quick to confirm that it was and that he didn't entirely know what it was, though his tail and ears gave away much of his feelings on the matter.

... That G'raha hadn't figured out yet only meant that X'kijin wasn't touching it under any circumstance. A bit dumb though he may be, t'was not nearly enough to convince him to touch the mysterious, Allagan object without being told to do so by the expert.

When G'raha's attention drifts fully from the mystery and he offers a proper greeting—not that X'kijin can complain, considering he's not done that, either—he finds himself laughing softly.

"You're just saying that because you've an excuse for a break," he says, joking, for being so earnest and even open did not come as naturally to him as it did G'raha Tia.

"It's not really a need."

It's more an... inkling, spurred on by Tataru's incessant ranting that their Warrior of Light had become too idle and needed to find something to do.

"But... You didn't get to spend much time in Ishgard. Or Kugane, Ala Mhigo... We have a bit more breathing room, now that nothing's on fire..." Figuratively, at least. Usually.

"I want to take you," he says, finally clarifying what he means exactly instead of vaguely referencing his intentions. "And it'll get you away from... whatever that is."

[withsorrowandregret-archive]

𝐈𝐓 𝐈𝐒 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐎𝐋𝐈𝐒𝐇𝐄𝐃 𝐌𝐈𝐑𝐑𝐎𝐑’𝐒 𝐑𝐄𝐅𝐋𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 𝐈𝐍 𝐅𝐋𝐄𝐒𝐇  .    or  ,    perhaps  ,    the impression agnates more to a fragment of hers cleaved from her very person  .    whilst the valor to pursue a future shaped after her own prerogatives inspired an awakening    (        of a flame  ,    of a will        )    ,    the conundrum remains still  .   the intricacies which make for an ipseity  ,    the self - hood in embrace of a epithet  ,    it is inquisition far more arduous     ━━           an eleventh - hour attempt at delaying elegies for the lost  ,    and for those who become  .    chrome    (        or is it nagi  ?       )    presses the tips of her fingers to the crescent of the cheekbone  ,    𝐭𝐨 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐠𝐥𝐚𝐬𝐬 - 𝐜𝐮𝐭 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐡𝐞 𝐣𝐚𝐰 𝐬𝐞𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡 𝐬𝐮𝐩𝐢𝐧𝐢𝐭𝐲  .    undoubtedly masculine  ,    a raw susurration vacuous from the visage she now calls her own  .    ❝    mukuro - sama  .  .  .        ❞    the eye lambent with amethyst hues glissades the silhouette  ,    in deliberate languish  ,    meets with a distinct set of eyes with demure  . lips are pressed into a thin line , as her digits withdraw to breather upon her chest ; heaving spiraling with her unease over the taken liberty .    ❝    i am sorry . for taking so long .    ❞

[  ❀  ]    plotted starter , @visionhcld

[fiyres]

𝐒𝐊𝐄𝐈𝐍𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐋𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓 𝐓𝐑𝐈𝐂𝐊𝐋𝐄 𝐓𝐇𝐎𝐔𝐆𝐇 𝐒𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐕𝐀𝐋𝐀𝐍𝐂𝐄𝐒  ,    the room tenebrous with the pale phosphorescence of a sun sinking beneath the blanket of twilight  .    the stygian mantilla carries something inherently eerie  ;    elongated shadows in crazed lines  ,    hushed echos where birdsong should have be thriving  .    𝐚 𝐪𝐮𝐢𝐞𝐭 𝐟𝐨𝐫𝐞𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐢𝐧𝐠 . from this obscurity a shape disentangles  ,    yet he needs not sight to discern the singularity  .    tsunayoshi just knows  ,    as he always had  . 

  ❝     mukuro  .     ❞    he bequeathes upon the tall silhouette  ,   one arched brow with a hint of fond exasperation  .    ❝     please  ,   𝐰𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐯𝐞 𝐤𝐧𝐨𝐰𝐧 𝐞𝐚��𝐡 𝐨𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐨𝐫  .  .  .    what is it  ,    ten years now  ?    you might want to reconsider your threats one of these days .    anyway—    there is something i have got to tell you  ,    something important  .    traces of the estraneo family have been found in the southern regions of italy  .    𝐢 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐭𝐨 𝐞𝐟𝐟𝐚𝐜𝐞 𝐭𝐡𝐞𝐦  ;    they are too dangerous to let them be  .    will you accompany me  ?   ❞

[  ☼  ] a surprise , @visionhcld

[ayahimes]

perhaps it might be surprising to hear that— were he to have it his way entirely— wriothesley would be forced to leave the sanctuary of meropide far less often than he is. once a month... at least, neuvillette had said. well, it's more like the man strongly recommended such a schedule upon bestowing his title to him, though he'd hardly taken an interest in that either despite relenting on that point as well.

and so, he fell into something akin to a routine. and always, these trips top-side are explicitly labeled as being for business, of course, though that's only a small part of it. he is titled, after all. and he does like the excuse to pick up a new batch of tea before heading back, in truth. and so, despite appearances, he does actually enjoy himself... at least a little. whether or not he feels he deserves such freedom, however, requires an entirely different assessment.

today, he finds himself passing the afternoon at a table in the courtyard of the café lucerne, blessedly alone. alone, that is, until a young woman— a foreigner, surely— dares to approach.

an eyebrow raises as he returns his teacup gently to its saucer. and he eyes her with curiosity and skepticism in equal measures. is there really no one else she could find to ask? glancing over, it would seem the waiters and waitresses are pointedly absent. hmm.

finally, he broaches the subject, even before she can. " can i help you... ? "

𝐚𝐥𝐥 𝐬𝐡𝐞 𝐰𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐞𝐝 𝐰𝐚𝐬 𝐚 𝐜𝐮𝐩 𝐨𝐟 𝐭𝐞𝐚 . back at the hotel debord ayaka was offered a cup of coffee with some steamed milk , however , what her palate craved was something much closer to home . a cup of tea , and preferably fontaine's finest , was a simple sort of delicacy she had wanted to try since the boat had docked at the harbor . she had assumed that it wouldn't be too difficult to find a café serving some and had managed to reassure her escorts from inazuma that she could find it herself , but she had been sorely mistaken with her sense of direction . fontaine , in comparison to inazuma , was a maze of buildings . after what seemed like the better part of an hour exploring she'd finally found one , but unfortunately met with an empty café in the middle of the day .

her curiosity notices the lone man sitting by himself and while he looks like he wants nothing more than to sit there in peace she can't help but impose on his quiet time . ayaka takes a moment to study him carefully . he doesn't look like a server , nor someone who looks like they work at the palais or the steambird . if anything his rather robust figure was a stark contrast to most gentlemen she'd seen in the city . the bindings around his arms gave off the impression that he took part in physical work and handcuffs dangling from his hip were suspect of something within the law . it wasn't a surprise given the theme of fontaine . her entire assessment could be wrong but ayaka was around enough people in her day to day life to read them quite well . or so she liked to think . she meets his gaze before glancing at the teacup and saucer in his hands . ❛ well i came here for a cup of tea , ❜ ayaka replies , a look of disappointment flashing across her face as she moves away from the empty counter and towards his table .

up close she can see the finer details , the scars peeking upwards his neck and the swirl of gray in his eyes . his outward appearance was something to be judged given his rugged image , but ayaka knew better than to base judgement on appearance alone . ❛ i'm visiting from inazuma and have been looking forward to try the tea here for quite some time . i'm afraid i'm not quite a coffee person like most people here , ❜ she says with a half - laugh , an embarrassed smile drawn on her lips . ❛ i apologize for interrupting but i was hoping you could help . do you know when the server will be back ? ❜

[reapcrbunny]

( 🐇 ) THE END WAS . . difficult to get other people to believe. she'd crossed and left the star for answers, dragging the emissary with her upon emet - selch's insistence. she'd only partly gotten what she was trying to find but . . her visions NEVER LET UP.

AND NONE SEEMED to believe the threat they posed. it was maddening.

AZEM SIGHS, FINALLY breaking the silence. ❝ DO YOU AT least believe me ? the visions i've EXPERIENCED. ❞ she doesn't look at the emissary as the traveller continued to tug at the grass upon the ground. her brow was furrowed, closed off more than usual. smile gone as her nerves only got heightened by TALKING ABOUT IT.

@visionhcld gets this for themis <3

[sarastuss-a]

IT WAS TRUE, : THERE WOULD BE NO DENYING THEIR WORD, when two respected members of 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐍𝐕𝐎𝐂𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍 would share a report, ... &. especially with hades to have her back, there was no claiming this event as ' azem merely finding trouble as usual. ' she was very aware of her own tendency to find it, or trouble's tendency to find her : EITHER WAY, TAKING FIGHTS FOR HERSELF THAT WERE NOT HER OWN. ... but he is right again, 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐘 𝐇𝐀𝐃 𝐍𝐎 𝐏𝐑𝐎𝐎𝐅. there was no aether to even sense from the creatures twisted by this empty void, completely corrupted. so she nods in agreement, as much as she disliked the fact that this would not be taken seriously : hard to look into something when nothing remained, but within that golden heart of hers, she feels great unease of this sighting. &. WHEN AZEM FEELS THAT WAY, IT SHOULD NOT BE TAKEN LIGHTLY.

WITH THE FAMILIAR SIGH, : HE TOO REALIZES THE GRAVITY OF THIS SITUATION, &. the amount of work it adds upon their shoulders, 𝐀𝐋𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐘 ��𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐕𝐘 𝐖𝐈𝐓𝐇 𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐈𝐑 𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐏𝐄𝐂𝐓𝐈𝐕𝐄 𝐃𝐔𝐓𝐈𝐄𝐒. yet neither complains, not truly. ... gaze remaining upon him, features studied oh, so carefully, regardless of having memorized it all. lips curl once more, the sight warm &. enchanting almost, ❝ thank you, hades. ❞ EMPHASIS PLACED UPON HIS NAME, IT WAS KNOWN AZEM, REGARDLESS OF HER POSITION, cared very little for the formalities : always so bold with breaking boundaries. but, with them, it is a testament to something, regardless. he took her seriously, &. had her back : even now, when they faced a situation that was everything but certain, filled with more questions than answers. 𝐍𝐎 𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐎𝐖 𝐀𝐖𝐀𝐑𝐄 𝐒𝐇𝐄 𝐈𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐒, she expresses gratitude everytime. ... when he mutters the next words, it is her own gaze that travels as well, looking to the side at nothing in particular, yet her expression is thoughtful. her exhale is quiet, ❝ i know, ❞ NO MATTER HOW SHE'D HIDE IT, SOMEONE WITH HYTHLODAEUS UNIQUE SIGHT WOULD SEE IT ALL, ... &. she didn't enjoy the thought of bringing their dear friend worry. but it was not like she could shake away this unease lightly, not when this event taunted her so. ... but soon, EYES FLASH BRIGHTER, lips hanging slightly ajar as attention returns to him. for a moment, his words sink in, &. she allows silence to stretch, until there is that signature playful hint to her smile, as her hands land on her hips &. head tilts to the side, ❝ are you suggesting what i think you are? ❞

her gentle words are a genuine comfort to both him and his pride. how strange— and wonderful, in truth— it is that he has held onto someone who not only accepts his weaknesses but subtly, carefully, helps him to lick his wounds without having to ask... and when he most needs it.

he is, in no uncertain terms, a perfectionist... though one far more harsh with himself than with others. to have made an error and lack the answer to her question unsettles him greatly. and yet, it is simply the natural order of things; there is always more to learn. some days, though, it is easier to ignore that fact than simply accept it.

when she questions him, he does not answer right away, his own gaze following hers to rest on the ashen spot left behind for a long moment before he turns fully to face her, waiting to speak until he holds her eyes, his own serious yet still noticeably kind.

" they will have no choice. " he replies, knowing that the weight of both of their testimonies, given in tandem, is perfectly clear. " without tangible proof, however, it is unlikely that they will take this as seriously as they should. " he draws a deep breath, then, and sighs, taking a hand and placing it on his forehead.

this would create more work for him, of course, and him alone. such is his duty as the gatekeeper to the underworld, responsible for maintaining order and balance between things that should exist and things that should not. at least, it may put her at ease to know that he will be watching for anything else to appear off.

" i will no doubt be tasked with putting down anything else considered unusual. but, i will also see to it that lahabrea is thoroughly questioned. if there have been any unreported escapes by his tenants, he will need to be held responsible. "

a brief period of silence follows his words. and then, his shoulders seem to relax, the formality of his station slowly sloughing off. and again, quietly, he sighs, half-muttering to himself as his eyes shift skyward, thoughtful. " hythlodaeus will worry, you know, should you seem in distress upon your return.

" i see no reason to make haste now, anyway. "

it was still a very beautiful day, after all.

[poswiecenia]

( 💣 ) SHE'D MADE A big mistake. a mistake that hurt real bad and that she was trying to patch up all on her own without grown - up help. she'd escaped her room earlier ( through the window ) to go get sweets as sneakily as she could TO SHARE WITH her big brother later.

unfortunately HER LITTLE ESCAPE had come to an end upon her trying to climb back inside. the glass that she not - so - expertly - broke had cut her and she franticly tried to staunch the bleeding that CAME FROM IT.

IT WAS SCARY, she wasn't a healer at all ! tears welled as she hickuped, jolting as albedo's footsteps ( yes, she's acutely aware of the sound of most of the knights' walks. she has to so she can keep outta trouble ! ) cut through her distress. she sits there on the floor a moment, staring at the door with wide eyes ; elven ears twitched down T'WARD THE FLOOR.

❝ H - HELP ! bleeding, albedo . . ❞ she's gonna be in so much trouble . .

@visionhcld gets this for albedo from klee.

[squaletta]

LEXY'S RP HISTORY

The rules are simple! Post characters you’d like to roleplay as, have roleplayed as, and might bring back. Then, tag ten people to do the same ( if you can’t think of ten, just write down however many you can and tag that number of people ). Please repost, don’t reblog!

CURRENT MUSE/S:

Squaletta Superbi (Katekyo Hitman Reborn) – female interpretation of Squalo Superbi Tsunayoshi Sawada @signorinavongola (Katekyo Hitman Reborn) – female interpretation of Tsunayoshi Sawada Jean Kirstein (Shingeki no Kyojin) – I roleplay him in my native language outside of Tumblr. Tsukiyama Shuu (Tokyo Ghoul) – I roleplay him in my native language outside of Tumblr.

WANT  TO  WRITE  (but  never  will):

I will include muses I've been writing about for a while but haven't gotten much attention on Twitter. I roleplayed them for a very short time. I don't have muses I want to write about and haven't tried. I will also include the worlds where I want to write my muses. Wednesday Addams (Wednesday Netflix series) Rhaenyra Targaryen (The House of Dragon series) AUs: Dune universe Hunger Games universe Game of Thrones universe Peaky Blinders universe John Wick universe One Piece universe

HAVE WRITTEN:

Matt Murdock a.k.a. Daredevil (Netflix's adaptation of Marvel character) James Barnes (Bucky) (Marvel Cinematic Universe) Thor Odinson (Marvel Cinematic Universe) Bruce Wayne a.k.a. Batman (Gotham TV show and Nolan's movies) Petra Parker (Spiderwoman – female interpretation) (Marvel Cinematic universe) Michelle "MJ" Jones (Marvel Cinematic universe) Obito Uchiha (Naruto) Sasuke Uchiha (Naruto) Izuna Uchiha (Naruto) Karin (Naruto) Jiraiya (Naruto) Tsukiyama Shuu (Tokyo Ghoul anime & manga) Jean Kirstein (Shingeki no Kyojin) and plenty more I can't think of at this moment.

WOULD WRITE AGAIN:

I would write my Naruto muses again. I love to "recycle" muses because I see so much potential in them. As you can see, I always add canon muse something else or put them in alternative verse, examine their character in a different gender, or roleplay them in harmony with my own headcanons and faceclaims. I love to be creative.

Tagged by: @3katanas

Tagging: @whiskeysmulti @queenharumiura @musessinaba @arealmunited @nxvola @heartsglass @vanaglorie @ladysasagawa @visionhcld @drowninliquor @vipermirage @astrxthesiai anyone else who wants to!

[inhumanheresy]

@visionhcld

Ajax wakes slowly.

This in and of itself is unusual. Life in the rank-and-file Fatui barracks would ‘cure’ anyone of deep sleeping, especially a boy with his first patchy whiskers growing in, but Ajax had already learned the folly of deep sleep from both the Abyss and his master. Little else teaches the body quicker than waking up midair while getting tossed into a pack of rifthound whelps.

Now, he wakes to a warm bed, the gentle sound of wind weaving through the trees outside, and the scent of tea. Black tea. Smoky. Lapsang. A memory stirs in the unfamiliar fog of gentle waking.

An all-too-familiar ache permeates his body, but even that lingering pain bites less than it normally does after transforming a second time far too soon after another. He slept a long time, then — long enough for his bones to ease, his flesh to remember what it is to be human. …Human-ish.

It takes a moment to orientate himself as he folds back the covers and swings his legs over the side of the bed, but not long. Good. A deep breath, turning his attention inward and consciously feeling every inch of his body. Sensations. Proportions. Reaction time. All right.

When he levers himself up and walks to the dresser where the tea tray sits, his movement is as steady and assured as usual, no tilt in his balance or tremble to his hands as he pours the tea and tosses back the whole cup with no thought to its heat. Luckily, it’s somehow the perfect temperature, and not at all oversteeped.

Ajax breathes deep, eyes closing, as he once again just stands there and feels. The tea burns not unpleasantly down his throat, warming his chest and belly. The little hairs all over his body stand up and tingle at the sudden change in core temperature compared to the outside air, minute though it is, and he downs a second cup of tea, every second making him more assured of whowhatwhere he is.

And giving his mind time to drag forth the memories of what happened before he passed out.

The little round teacup provides a comforting weight and resistance as his hand tightens around its smooth curve.

He sets it back down on the tea tray and leans his hands against the edge of the dresser. Breathes. Breathes.

Then, he straightens, takes the tea tray, and makes his way out into the main room of the house in Morax’s personal domain. The god himself reclines on a leisure couch, reading, as if nothing out of the ordinary occurred here… however long ago it was. However long he’s been asleep.

Ajax makes his way over, setting the tea tray down on the low table near them before sitting back at Morax’s feet with a great sigh, reaching forward to take his teacup and run his thumb across its lip.

“You probably have more questions.”

[ayahimes]

𝐇𝐀𝐏𝐏𝐘 𝐍𝐄𝐖 𝐘𝐄𝐀𝐑 𝟐𝟎𝟐𝟒

hi friends ! i know i'm a bit late with my post but i still wanted to post something regardless . 2023 had been one of the hardest years of my life thus far outside of the rpc , and even in it to be honest . i lost some good friends but gained some too . i've gotten to know so many of you on a deeper level and bonded with a lot of you over shared interests . so many of you have been patient with me on this blog because of school and for that i am immensely thankful ; i know you all followed because of your interest to write and i do apologize for not being able to fully deliver that due to my busy schedule . however , i do want to allot some time this year to be better about my time management . i honestly can't wait to see what this year brings !

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐘𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐈𝐑𝐎 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ♡

@diaboelic : courtney . one of my best friends . i know i can write essays on why i am so happy to have you in my life but i promise i'll condense it . it's so crazy to me that we've been friends for almost two full years . it's wild because it honestly feels much longer . i know we're both busy making big moves and even if we don't talk every day i am always rooting for you . you're so down to earth and somehow understand how i'm feeling without me having to say it . please keep sending me fanart and spamming me with ig reels . i take forever to look at them sometimes but i love them !! also , im sorry you lost your streak in duolingo but i still think you're ahead of me by like 4 days everytime i do it . COURTNEY - SAN WA WATASHINO SUKINA HITORIDE ( i think this was right but probably not lmfao ) . i can't wait to hopefully explore japan with you . fingers crossed it's this year haha

@visionhcld : b , i will always write nice things about you no matter what . you've been my friend for like .... what .... this would be 6 years ?!!! GOD . you've seen the best and the worst . crazy to think that we made it !!!!! i love you so damn much and i am so lucky to have you in my life . i know we don't write a million active threads atm or talk every day like we used to , but i assure you it doesn't change our friendship . i love being able to pick up where we left off like nothing ever happened tbh . some people don't have that and tbh , i'm so fortunate to have found that with you . we have a ridiculous amount of inside jokes and years of history to pick apart but i leave you with one . jejota !!!

@fairesky : shado . we found each other through the funniest circumstances but i am so happy we did . you have been one of my closest friends these last two years and through you i met some other amazingly wonderful people ( cough leon cough ) . your kindness is immeasurable and i have truly learned so much from you because of it . you've taught me how to be nicer , how to be a better friend , how to care for others in a way i'd like to be treated , and just overall improved my life the last year with your presence . i love you so much and i'm really happy to have gotten to know you better over the course of 2023 . who else will i be an absolute simp with if not you haha

@iirath: essek , i know you're already aware but i am so damn happy to have gotten to know you better over the last year , even more so the last few months . i enjoy talking to you about life and getting to learn about who you are beyond the surface level . you're honestly SO tilt proof ( lmaoooo ) and surely never get mad when we play league . SURELY . thanks for speed running stardew valley with me and letting me run around not knowing what to do while you carry our farm to its greatest potential . you really have become one of my good friends and please know i always look forward to your good morning message in the server with the tired cat emoji haha

@shokutsus : LEON !!!!!!! ayaki will always reign supreme and have the best ship name . i will fight anyone who says otherwise . okay but let me just say i fucking love you dude . i know we haven't had a chance to have our tea talks on fortnite the last few months but i admit , those were some of my favorites . you've helped me through some really tough times and been there for me as a friend when i needed someone the most . i really enjoy thinking of the wildest plot lines for our characters while sleep deprived and playing fortnite ( tbh crackabella and anakin lore was big brained of us ) or discussing with kaine and courtney which part of the centipede we'd be . weird shit but i laugh typing it out lol . okay but fr i want this year to be the best one yet for you !! ps . send more pixel photos

@rosahope : fae , thank you for becoming one of my good friends this year . i'm so blessed to have met someone as grounded as you and i don't tell you enough . i know i'm too much sometimes and impulsive af , but you are my voice of reason and i appreciate it so damn much . you've helped me think outside the box and take things one step at a time . you're one of the realest people and i always welcome your honesty even if it's not something i may initially agree with . tbh i think that's what makes you such a good friends because you're transparent with me . i really am so happy for your big moves with your new job and i am always rooting for you no matter what !! you'll always be my chibiusa and my jessie <3

@prettyguardian : niniiiiiii . firstly , thank you for coming into my life and being such an amazing friend . i admire your tenacity , your creativity , your openness , your vulnerability . the list goes on . you've been there for me when i sought some direction in my life and for that i want to thank you . i know we have yet to write more aerti things but please know i will always gladly write them with you . you've helped me heal with ff . i know that sentence may sound silly at some level but it is a big thing . really !! your friendship has only added improvement within my life and i can't wait to see where it goes this year . sending you all the good vibes for 2024 !!

@cybrvce : light !!!! i'm so fortunate to have gotten to know you more over the last year and actually write with you . your characterization is truly amazing and i'm always impressed with everything you write . yes im slow as molasses but i promise it doesn't mean it's because i don't care !! i just want to write for you when i'm at my best because i want to give you quality writing !! thank you for being patient with me though . you're so kind <3 i'm genuinely so excited to start this year with your friendship !!

@deadn30n : LOOK HERE ALEXANDRA . YOU MADE IT ON THIS LIST BECAUSE YOU ARE JUST A GEM . i know we only recently became friends but in that short amount of time we bonded by playing league for like 5 hours straight lmfao . thank you for feeling comfortable enough to ask me for advice and direction though . it means a lot to me more than you know !! also i am here to write yone and kai'sa mutually fangirling/fanboying over each other . that thread is so cute and i am excited to see where it goes . ALSO I'M A NOOB AT XIV SO YOU'VE BEEN WARNED . heck im just bad at all video games lmao . but i look forward to playing them with you !!!!

𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐓𝐑𝐈 𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐈𝐒𝐒𝐈𝐎𝐍 (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

i can't write about everyone , but i can sure as hell tag you all . please know that even if we haven't actively written it doesn't mean i don't want to . i still support you as a writer and creator and enjoy seeing you on my dash !! i have hopes that maybe we can write some day ! but i know we're all busy or overwhelmed with things outside of the rpc so there's obviously no rush . and if we have written or talked then please know that you have truly made my experience here something amazing . i was always a bit scared to come back to such a big fandom , but so many of you have welcomed me in writing ayaka and given me the opportunity to explore her more . so thank you <3

@zaihuos , @autymns , @wcvensouls , @enjomo , @todestochter , @yizao , @ungest , @raikuro , @tealsteel , @sourcewater , @dcndrohime , @rikyos , @nekasu , @meropidas , @scarletooyoroi , @viaetor , @abyssin , @crownlcsking , @raytm , @iedolon , @noctumsilenced , @noctuafought , @capravulpes , @liightbringr , @chiheru , @foliarlight , @mercyburned , @apocryphis , @anostos , @theoneandonii , @gonguji , @sinspast , @mellodiies , @pietys , @knghted , @dualisume , @artificeheart , @erabundus , @momijiba, @supportingfire , @cloudhymn , and honestly all of you .

[brightblessed]

There was something so keenly unique about waking from dear-death. Roi had danced with death enough times to be familiar with it. It felt hazy. His body felt heavy, like his limbs were encased in stone. Each breath felt deliberate. His heart beating felt louder than usual. There was a sort of pressure in his skull - as if it had been stuffed with cotton.

Still... he heard G'raha's voice. It was a relief. Another thing about almost dying was how it made you not want to be alone. A miracle. It took a few more moments than it should for him to register the word. It really had been. The very fact that they were talking at all was a miracle. He didn't remember how he got back onto the ship. He just remembered the fight -- the pain... and then the cold.

It takes some effort, but he manages to lift his hand and wave it as if to dismiss the apology. G'raha not keeping count made him aware that it had been some time. So it more or less answered the question in a sense.

His head started to clear up little by little. He looked at his scarred hand, exposed despite how weak it made him feel. And somehow, he didn't feel as ashamed as he did the last time someone saw them. Maybe it was because it was a miracle they were together at all. Alive.

"Thank the gods." Roi had a less than ideal relationship with them, but all the same the words fell from his lips without thought. He started to sit up, but his body still ached. He gave up and decided to try in a few more moments.

"So... the final days..... all of it is over...?" He couldn't help but wonder why he was alive. It was almost a perfect moment. Roi didn't really want to die anymore. But still... Was that his chance for redemption? Had it been some cruel fate that painted out his path in blood to that final moment...? Had he been meant to die there?

An empty almost bitter chuckle leaves his lips -- again -- without thought. "I... survived? How..." Stupid. "... Unbelievable."

( @visionhcld.)

how long had it been since that fateful day? since they'd somehow— together— managed to pull roi out of that void of aether, to bring him back from both the edge of the universe and the brink of death as well, alive if not entirely hale, if not entirely whole. and the days had passed all-too slowly, in truth. still, g'raha, in his vigil, had eventually lost count.

they had all taken their turns, of course, the scions. none among them had declined the opportunity to sit at the side of their sleeping warrior, to watch and wait. to think, though, that it would be him of all people who would be present when roi's wounds finally stabilized enough for the man to wake... well, g'raha hadn't dared to hope...

not when a part of him still nursed the fear, somewhere deep down, that they might lose him, that he might never wake at all.

and yet, finally... there came his voice, however quiet, groggy and dry. g'raha immediately slammed the book he'd been holding shut and jumped to his feet, bright red eyes shining, wide.

" it's a miracle. " he breathed, not really registering the man's question quite yet. instead, his head dipped and, shaking it slightly, he laughed lest he might cry, barely able to contain himself between the fatigue and genuine surprise.

" my apologies... ! " he quickly corrected, lifting his head to meet roi's gaze once again. " i haven't kept count. " his remorse was genuine, feeling as though— already, somehow— he might have already let the other man down. in an attempt to quickly shove off that feeling, return to something far more pleasant, his ears prick up and he continues, brighter.

" everyone is fine. " now.

[reapcrbunny]

let me psychoanalyze you but also be nice.

no one has ever loved you.

i know you're a good person. even if most of the time it doesn't feel like it. im sorry growing up happened under less than ideal circumstances. but people love you now, i promise. sometimes it's hard to remember that just because you've felt unloved before, it doesn't mean you're unloved now. I love you :-)

Tagged by: @banditborn, ty friend. Tagging: @otomates ( pick ur poison bestie ), @visionhcld ( wrio ), @etherealguard, @blckswnstm, @heartsglass ( childe ), @noctuafought, @torntruth ( diana ) + anyone else who wanna.