#violetteatime rambles

[violetteatime]

hello violetteatime of measure a year fame, what are your feelings on widofjorester

hello anonymous of my inbox!

personally, i really really love widofjorester. i'm someone that overanalyzes most characters in media (especially these critical role folks), and can really just. see this relationship. i also think that the relationship would be good for all of them and is just. good in general.

i'm a literature major so you know im going to dissect my feelings about them under this break. tl/dr - widofjorester for the win

spoilers ahead, but from someone who is only on episode 78 and has been spoiled for the whole campaign so. do with that what you will.

fjord is someone who is playing up being confident, but obviously needs reassurance and care. he's genuinely humble, and can't often see what others see in him, which i think was a big part of why he didn't show any romantic interest in jester until far into the campaign.

having caleb be interested in him would have fjord very flustered at first, i think. even from early on, fjord very clearly respected caleb and admired his arcane abilities, even if he didn't trust him until after the iron shepherds arc. caleb shows his love in physical touch often in canon (though usually through a hand on the shoulder or a polymorph action), and i think fjord would find a lot of comfort in it.

fjord's ignorance of jester's feelings in early canon was clearly because he wasn't comfortable with the idea she had set up (more-so that he was some sort of knight to save her and the aesthetic attraction she showed early on), but i think that, as we saw in canon, once jester was able to realize that relationships aren't like in the books, they could find a happy medium together, and with caleb. jester is so bubbly but also far more wise than anyone (other than caduceus and occasionally beau) gives her credit for, and she would probably catch on to his insecurities and, in the same way that she did with his tusks, help break down those walls.

fjord has never been loved, never been held, and both of them would be more than willing to show him he is so worthy of that. of them. caleb and jester, both in their own ways, boosted him up as captain tusktooth, and would continue to do so, offering him confidence he's never had before. caleb would be a person to lean on when things get rough, and jester would be there to light a candle in the dark.

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jester has always loved the idea of a story-book romance, and that's not what she would get with these two. caleb is deeply scarred, twitchy and uncomfortable with any sign of care until after felderwin, and fjord is new to romance, and not exactly romantic himself.

in canon, we saw her break through a lot of her own mental barriers in terms of what relationships meant to her, and her relationship with fjord and caleb would very much defy what she has read. at first, she would see it as an unconnected love triangle (akin to jacob-bella-edward in twilight), but once she saw how the men cared for each other, she would realize that love isn't simple.

being in love with caleb would excite her. he's much more chaotic than you'd expect, cracking jokes when he thinks of them and willing to help her with pranks. he would love her art and listen to her talk and become the friend she's always wanted. their love would be very playful, i think, as she brings out the parts of caleb that want to show off and fool around, and while she stays fun and bubbly, he helps her rationalize things.

having fjord by her side would mean the world to jester. he's her oldest friend, her first real crush, and a man who would treat you right. while fjord is their leader, he's also an impulsive and genuinely fun person to be around, and doesn't have the wisdom to really think about the consequences of his actions. he would mature her, in a way, as she sees that even the typical 'knight in shining armor' is a lot more three-dimensional than the characters she's read about, but he would never force her to be anything other than she is.

jester would really get the opportunity to be herself around them, to not always have to be the brightest star she thinks she has to be. she would feel comfortable enough to share her issues with them, and know that comfort would come in return.

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caleb would feel off for the first while in the relationship. his past with astrid and eodwulf would make sure of that, especially with the seeming scene in episode 77 setting that up (him literally casting those two as his exes). he would be frightened of hurting either of them, especially jester, and try to push them away, despite himself.

for so long, caleb has struggled with ideas of worthiness, of being good and just and fighting with his own past. they wouldn't let him feel like that.

fjord would calm the storm inside of his mind. with strong arms and open seas and that steady voice, caleb would feel like he can rest. while caleb had issues trusting anyone at first, it's clear that in the late 10s to early 20s, he started to connect with fjord faster than almost any other party member. they've always said they understand each other. fjord would stop caleb from overworking himself in the gentlest of ways, encourage him to take breaks and eat and live outside of the world of academia.

caleb lost so much of his youth to the assembly, and jester would give him just a taste of that back. she would drag them dancing in bars and to prank people and paint words across ceilings and genuinely give caleb something to look forward to. there's a gentleness in jester that, from the harshness we saw of both of his past lovers, would be very new to him. while on the surface jester seems very go, go, go, she would know when to let him have his moments to breathe and soothe him and show him a kindness he's rarely been given.

caleb has spent so much of his life alone, and they would make sure that he would never feel that way again.