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[sunlighthroughthe-ashes]

i want to talk about how tenderly and tactfully the subject of trauma has been handled in family by choice. full credit to the original c-drama for the story — but the remake is my first introduction to the show and its premise.

families can be a person's first experience of a wound: that single unanswerable ache from which each of your hurts flow and fountain forward. it's rare for k-dramas to acknowledge this: to acknowledge that the individual to whom you are born may not belong to you. may not give you the grace you require to grow. may not take your small, hot hand; hungry for solace — and instead simply cast it aside. your family can be your first sharp disappointment — your first clear shock at the sheer ugliness of the world. to some, love is freely given — to others it is nothing more than a bone flung from a scant table. you hug the hunger like it's your own bed-pillow — it becomes your only home. the only house you ever live in.

through sanha & haejun's characters; one can see how the talons of trauma can mark you forever. both actors deserve accolades for the raw desperation and confusion in their eyes at the weight they're being asked to carry — especially inyoup. there's a muted, exhausted malaise in his eyes — the gaze of an adult caged within a teenager's body. by contrast, haejun appears younger than his years — a helpless, childlike hurt and betrayal borne by his eyes. both boys carry boulders unfit for such delicate shoulders — because there is a special kind of cruelty in asking a child to bear a burden that was never theirs to begin with. in lining their shoes with the gravel of grief since they were old enough to walk.

what does it to do to a child (in haejun's case) to be told that love is not intrinsic — and that it has to be earned? that it has to be paid back? what does it do to a child (in sanha's case) to be told that you are not enough as your own self — that you will never be forgiven for a flaw that was never yours to start with? what does it mean to taste a parent's neglect on your own tongue — to have it tint every part of your speech for the rest of time?

what does it mean to be a father to such children — as juwon's appa so fiercely upholds? to treat their scars as sacred. to harbor their hurts in his own hands. family by choice is as much about trauma as it is about healing — about the people knitted to you through their knowledge of your wounds; their patience with your past; their trust that your tears are temporary. about the neighbors, friends, and forged bonds that may not be of blood, yet sustain you nonetheless; surround your spirit with warmth. the people who choose you knowing the charred heartbreak in your chest — who love and accept you knowing the latticework of your loneliness: the people who press it all away with a single touch or smile – they are your true faith. they are your true family. they are the only ones who matter.

sanha, haejun, and juwon all have their crosses to bear — but they also have each other. there is always light to temper the dark. there is always sanha's eyes; and the way they soften when he looks at juwon: the jewel-toned reverence with which he reflects on every single thing she does for him. wherever there is trauma there is also and always a tryst with hope — a heart holding on to the idea that there will be more. there will be peace. there will be resolution. there will be sunlight at the end of the black silence.

family by choice reminds me of this quote by poet and novelist ocean vuong: "we were born from beauty. let no one mistake us for the fruit of violence—but that violence, having passed through the fruit, failed to spoil it."

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[sunlighthroughthe-ashes]

honestly the entire episode was complete perfection — but the highlight for me was most definitely sun-jae's face just LIGHTING UP every time he sees sol / thinks she's being adorably wacky.

byeon woo-seok does such a wonderful job expressing utter adoration through his eyes and eyes alone — it's the mark of a great actor to be able to communicate volumes with just your gaze and he's absolutely acing it: the infatuation, the tenderness, the sheer wonder in his face every time he really looks at sol — all of it is just flawless!

there's this phrase in my native language that roughly translates to "my own little piece of the moon," and that's EXACTLY how sunjae looks at sol — like she's his own little piece of the moon. 🌙🤍

everyone deserves to be looked at that way at least once in their life. 🥰

my heart gets so full every time he hides his smile from sol when she's giving him the attention he quite literally CRAVES from her. he's so helplessly in love!

(sun-jae scribbling out how many januarys it'll take to reach the one in 2023 was such a cute little touch — the rivalry between him and tae-sung was funny too.)

of course we also have the attempted murder/serial killer plot underway (would it really be a rom-com kdrama without it??) but i'm glad they only spent a few minutes on that and the focus of the episode was on our soljae couple.

something tells me since tonight's ep was so wholesome, tomorrow's will rip our hearts out ;_;

but i have high expectations for this show and really hope that they're able to keep this momentum and quality until the very end.