#vexa rambles

[vexa-legacy]

I rolled a new Khano when they updated the game lighting a little while back, so I could re-record all the cut scenes with the new lighting.. but now that they're doing a graphics overhaul, it's time for..... (you guessed it).... yet another Khano.

I am leery though, about the changes. If Khano's face changes too much, I am going to have a literal crisis over it. But if it makes him look slightly older and a bit more rugged, then I'll consider it a win, tho.

[misc-obeyme]

Another OC rambling "hour":

So how she came to be was instead of doing my school work in sophomore year of high school(not that I was good about doing it any of the other years 💀) I started drawing a comic in my economics and whatever else it was(I forgor, I just know it was that grade's history class) notebook

It was supposed to be a horror comic, but I never finished it beyond like maybe page 1

So trigger warning for gore/violence/death

The ghost character in it is a vengeful spirit who now goes by Vexa(don't have a name for when she was alive)

Her story was she was just a friendly normal girl who got brutally murdered so now she tricks living people and kills them because she was so filled with negative emotions when she died that she can't move on

As a ghost she's pale blue with black hair that usually covers her face, she has a cut across her neck that's bleeding, and bleeding stitches across her mouth, her eyes are black scalera with red coloring that also bleed(?)(more like it's blood that stains her face that came from there but not necessarily bleeding(?)), and her dress is also blue, but that's because of her being a ghost

Also how she tricks people is she can decide who she makes herself visible to and if they approach her then she'll tell them about how she died and pretend to be friends with them(not necessarily in that order) until she decides she has no use for them anymore

I hope this makes sense

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Ohhh ghost girl!! This does make sense!

I like stories about ghosts, I find them very interesting! I like how she's doing what she's doing because she's trying to heal something inside of her, but that it isn't actually helping her move on at all. It's so sad, but it makes so much sense... like that's how I imagine it would be for the dead...

I hope she finds someone who can help her move on!!

Also I like the name Vexa it's just got a nice sound to it... and feels fitting for her character!

[luna-spacedoodles]

hhmmmm well now that im thinking about it idk, it really depends on peezno’s parents ig

i just realized my two ocs im writing about right now are actually cousins

[vexa-legacy]

I've started to redraw some old art because I have some things I drew awhile ago where I liked the concept but my execution wasn't great. So now that I've improved a bit I'm going to take another stab at some.

[vexa-legacy]

One of the main reasons why I wished I could write Khano fic is because I'm desperate to give my boy his own voice. There is only so much you can get from a drawing, and since my drawing skills are limited, it is difficult for me to convey emotions and personality in a single image.

As it stands right now, Khano's personality, his moods, his sense of humor, his dreams, desires etc, they're all stuck in my head, desperate to get out.

In the words of Senya, "None of you know him like I do."

I want you all to know him like I do.

I want him to have more depth as a character. I want to explore his dark side, I want to give him more dimension.

But.. writing is really difficult for me these days. My memory isn't that great, so I often forget details of the in-game story even though I have played it a bazillion times. It's like I forget my entire vocabulary when I sit down and attempt to write something.

I've been given some advice to start off with chucking some stuff down on paper, even if it's garbage, and rework it as I go. I guess I will start with that, but I need direction as to where my writing should go.

Anyway. Monday morning thoughts while I'm at work waiting for my film processor to warm up for the day.

[vexa-legacy]

The dawning realization after 43 years that the reason why you are the way you are is because you have ADHD and you were probably the only one who didn't know.

[vexa-legacy]

Kind of looks like my legacy is shifting from the Vexas and more toward the T'Linth's lately. I've created Toe Beans' sister Daal, and also one of their brothers, Arvie.

I have a couple more character slots left, and some characters I can nuke, to make the rest of them. There's 5 siblings in total. Just means all my new characters will be orange Cathars.

[vexa-legacy]

My dumb ass didn't copy over my fic from my old phone to my new phone, so everything I was writing for Khano's New and Improved™️ headcanon is gone.

Anyway, I'm half on the fence about trying to rewrite it.

[vexa-legacy]

Strangely enough, my vehement hatred for Makeb seems to have turned into "This planet actually isn't really all that bad for Weeklies."

Huh.

[vexa-legacy]

I'm FINALLY going back to work in two weeks. I have been away from my friends and coworkers since March, and I am more than ready to be a social human being again. I've been feeling so left out, so out of the loop.

I miss my friends. I miss my coworkers. I.... miss my job.

[vexa-legacy]

I'm on the last notch of the last panel on GS, and today once I hop on and get my 25k for the day, I'll be finished.

I've been tooling around a bit on Satele Shan server lately, maybe I'll try to complete seasons there, or at least get as far as I can.

It was my full intention to try some PVP this weekend however, but my aching body decided that sitting at my computer for a long period of time wasn't in the cards.

[vexa-legacy]

Went on a used bookstore adventure yesterday and managed to find books one through four of David Eddings' Mallorean series, and book one of his Tamuli series. (Haven't read either in years.)

Came home, found book five of the Mallorean in a random box, luckily enough.

Then I decided I wanted to reread his Belgariad series first, but couldn't find where I had put book #1, so I tore my house apart until I eventually found it.

I still need to find the rest of the Tamuli and the Elenium series, but I have enough books to read for now until I do.

Also hoping that reading again will spark some interest in writing. I find that when I read, I become inspired to write.

[vexa-legacy]

I wasn't planning on doing it this year, but I might actually reinsure my scooter for the summer. I didn't think I would feel okay enough to ride, but I actually feel okay right now. 🛵🛵

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I dunno why I've never even drawn Toe Beans, he's like my second favorite OC next to Khano.

Better rectify that 🤔

[vexa-legacy]

My internet's been fucky all day so I haven't been able to play SWTOR, but it's given me a chance to work on some drawing stuff.

[vexa-legacy]

Successfully used Khennis as a pack mule and transferred him and a bunch of stuff across servers today.

My boyfriend also transferred his smuggler over so we could play together again, and he brought over a bunch of sweet decor for our guild, which I made him join 😀