#verily in every hardship there is ease i guess :(

[catchingjinns]

my engagement to a man i could not even dream of is set to take place in september. in anticipation of practicalities and humble announcements the families seem to like each other so far. yet i cannot fully submerge myself in the excitement these affairs bring along since my grandmother’s health has not improved, nor did i manage to find a steady income. 

[amsxlove]

The last few months have been sooo difficult that every time I get a period of ease I get anxious that at any moment the rug will pulled out from underneath me. I guess I gotta always be in a state of gratitude/hamd and repentance/istighfar. “Verily with hardship comes ease…” [94:5-6] 🤍

[simplyhasanah]

So I came to the office today to settle some unfinished matters. I expected that I would take a short time like 5 or 10 minutes but ended up spending my time there for more than 30 minutes. I was happy to see them, of course but I didn’t expect they were all happy to see me, too. I have to say, I miss all of them. Really. 

My contract with them was supposed to be for 6 months (plus one extra month) but I only spent with most of them for about 3 months or more. But I seriously felt like I’ve worked with them for a long time- like more than a year. SubhanAllah. It’s not the quantity of days that count but the quality of work/time. There are some undesirable circumstances at the workplace but I guess that’s what makes it possible for the true colours of most people to be reflected, which Allah SWT allowed me to see. I really learned a lot about people here, Alhamdulillah ‘ala kulli hal. I know it’s very difficult for most of us especially living in this so-called modern world to have really good, caring colleagues and I’m just blessed that I was able to work with them even for a short period of time. Even though there were difficult times, but the fact that Allah gave me them as colleagues is what made it easier for me to cope with. Alhamdulillah. 

Every single time. Verily, with hardships, comes ease. Because Allah SWT is Ar-Rahman. He will never make our life difficult. If we only focus on the difficulties that is being given to us, we will never be able to see the blessings behind it. Sometimes our heart needs some cleaning up- it gets dirty (every heart gets dirty so long as we are living in this world due to many types of pollution- be it external or internal but particularly internal) so it is blocking the light of knowledge or the light of wisdom from coming in. The more we complain, the more hard the heart will become preventing the light from coming in. And Allah does not like those who are not thankful to Him. Vice versa. I’m reminding first to myself because I, too am a forgetful servant. May Allah SWT forgive us..