#veeeeeeeent

[rustedmonkeyking]

I thought things were going well living far from my parents. I was able to process our relationship from a distance and retrospect the negative and positive aspects of them raising me, even noting how they seemed to chill out and become less aggressive now that they didn't have an extra body in the house. But as of late I learned they essentially kicked my brother out of the house because he was let go from his factory job due to a mass layoff. Not in a diplomatic manner, but involving screaming and breaking glass.

My brother was distraught, though my mom was chatting with me during this if it was an unpleasant incident that was better ignored. I found it impossible to talk with her normally while my brother was going through something this horrible. My feelings of years long resentment resurfaced and hasn't been able to stop resurfacing. It made me feel sick, but I told her and my dad to stop talking to me for a while. I can't see things going back to 'normal' after respecting the awful things my mom and dad have said and done to me as well as my brother. I'm so exhausted from having to play the brave one and stand up to them. They refuse to listen to what me and my brother try to speak from the hearts, and I don't have the emotional energy to try it again even as a transitioning adult man. I desperately desire outside professional help with this. I don't want to hate my parents, but I don't want to tolerate their terrible behaviors any longer.

I'm so sad that it feel likes I don't have parents anymore, not when they insist they're in the right for this.

[kuki4982]

leyendo las reglas de ese server, hay por lo menos 4 o 5 reglas en las que se denota la hipocresía -_-

[songofthestorms]

There's some hot goss that I don't feel comfortable sharing on the internet even with names obscured since it involves work....

... ...but bestie the girlies are talking.

[lord-pigeon]

Fighting for my damn life to try keep at least semi-motivated to do Genshin but gooooood they're really making it so hard to caaaare

Like, Rizzley found dead in Miami never to rerun as all Cryo 5-stars need a 1-year FOMO rate, I don't care about a single Natlan character, Capitano not in 5.X, Neuvi just had a rerun in April

Maybe Cyno rerun to max him out??? If I'm really fricking bored??

I'm already in psuedo-hiatus and deadass just skipped that Natlan Paimon event cause I can't be bothered, but christ almighty all of 5.X is just......euuuuughhhh lemme veeeeeeeent

[ducklikethedaffy2]

im stressed as heeeeeeck so have this veeeeeeeent

[ragedumps]

Veeeeeeeent

I know what I'm doing. As much as it sucks I'm working towards VOLUME. Yes, I'm the face of the project and o one wants to see me do it. The people who SHOULD be the face aren't doing it. So an imperfect version from me is what we get.

If I don't do the thing in an imperfect way, it doesn't exist at all.

[midsummerpuck]

tear into yourself

find that unsolid thing sitting heavy in your belly

that aching thing that curls you up and lays you down

that thing like dismissal,

that thing like drinking paint water

its accidental-

mistaken

passed over,

fallen short

its being so proud and expecting to hear you name called

your legs stutter,

full body twitch

your friend laughs

‘you didn’t think you’d won, did you?’

she’s not as nice as she used to be

or you aint as interesting

she’s the ache,

your mum; she flushed your pet goldfish down the toilet

you fell in a pond when you were learnin to ride your bike

you dad and your brother laughed

you were terrified

you couldn’t breathe, and all you could hear was laughter

it’s the little things

the digs

the mocking that aint mocking when you point it out

theyre all so defensive

you’re so sensitive

it hurts, though

why don’t they care that it hurts?

you’re standin firm with wine staining your white vans

your dads yelling

you don’t know if the red on his face is your vision or his

blood boiling

you wonder if you poked a hole in him would steam come rushing out

would he deflate?

god,

you wanna test that out

his hands are twitching

your kid-self is flinching

no one protected him

so you gotta now

it hurts, though

why didn’t anyone care that it hurt?

[lynetteloveee-blog]

I wasted my fucking tears on you & you know i did & Im still waiting. your not worth my tears no more. yeah i still do like you but im just gonna stop trying for now cos if you really wanna be with me you'd be with me . Actions speak louder than words!

[sup-sierra]

I had to~

I'm tired of this. I'm tired of feeling like I'm nothing to you. You kissed me. Girls don't just forget about a kiss. Seriously. Get that through your thick skull. You're such a rude person to me, and yet you called me your bestfriend. Ya, OKAY. Now, we don't talk. When we look at each other, it's a stare down. You end up laughing & I just think, "Sierra, you can do it. Don't let that perfect smile & those gorgeous eyes get to you." It doesn't work. I end up laughing. Happy laughing. Why? I don't know. You treat me so harshly yet I crave you more and more everyday. It angers me to know that you don't want me. I'm like bestfriends with her & you wanted to date her and you barely know her. What the hell do I look like. I'm not retarded. She tells me everything. You're not even worth my time, so why do I keep trying for something that I'll never obtain in life.

[orewatowi]

yes. yes you are.

[allthewaaaaay-blog-blog]

Ugh you don't understand how much I adore you

You are such a strong person, you don't let anything get in your way of happiness and you just don't give a fuck about negative opinions. You go day by day struggling with your own thoughts of suicide, but you always seem to find that one reason to stay alive. But I just hate how you depend on your happiness on that one girl..... Please don't ever lose hope because I don't want to see a strong person like you leave this earth.

[allthewaaaaay-blog-blog]

Ok no one like me

I'm an asshole, ok.